This is for Naomi, who was kind and brave enough to take on a TS newbie. Thanks for beta-reading, editing, cheerleading and for writing all those letters. Posting a first story in a new fandom is scary, but you made it easy for me.
With shouts the torrents down the gorges go,
And storms are formed behind the storm we feel:
The hemlock shakes in the rafter, the oak in the driving keel.
--Herman Melville; Battle-Pieces (1860), Misgivings
Behind the Storm We Feel
by Lyrica
Jim Ellison rolled the flattest, lumpiest pillow until it fit underneath
his knees just right, and then punched and scrunched the other
two into the perfect support for his head and neck. He wriggled, trying
to get comfortable, stretched out on his back on the long couch,
trying to relax.
The worst of the storm seemed to have passed on. The wind was still
blowing, rattling a loose shutter on the other side of the
house. He could hear the whisper of it against the clapboards, the
crash of waves on the rocks along the shore, but the sounds
alone he could handle, as long as the thunder and lightning settled
down to something manageable to Sentinel enhanced senses.
It was something to which he still wasn't accustomed, the way his body
reacted to a storm. Not only the buffeting of his senses,
the bright light and the sound, but that enhanced *feel* of electricity
and sound. Out here, on the island, it seemed even more
intense than it did in Cascade, almost as if he was as exposed as the
land was, at the mercy of the elements.
Focusing his gaze on the first page of a ragged paperback, he dialed
his sight up so that he'd be able to read by the light of the
lantern. Then he shifted his head into an even better position. From
the blurb on the crumpled back cover, it wasn’t much of a
story--part mystery, part modern western, all bad writing--but it was
a distraction from the caress of the storm on his skin.
He didn’t even glance up as his partner came out of the small bathroom,
hoping his silence and stillness would communicate
itself to Blair. What a joke! His partner was a storm unto himself.
It would be saner to wish for snow in the middle of July than
to wish that Blair wasn't going to start right back up where he'd left
off when he went in to take his shower. Blair wasn’t about
to let him get comfortable. Blair was agitated and annoyed and cold
and probably still incensed at Jim's treatment of Blair's
damsel in distress of the week.
How could a voice that normally was so sweet and rich, that grounded
him, remind him momentarily of the high pitched whine
of a mosquito? He frowned with annoyance and concentrated on the words
marching across the yellowed paper, unable to
block out the litany of discomforts that were all his fault, by default.
*No television. No good books. *No* books except for cassette tapes
in Mandarin Chinese and Coast Guard technical
manuals…*
Ignoring the book Jim was hiding behind…
*Not that it mattered, because there wasn't any power to read by. And
there wasn't any heat. And there wasn't any hot water.
And the humidity was, like, 99%.*
And then to the real reason for the tirade…
*And why didn't Jim believe Monique's story? It was obvious she was terrified of her boyfriend. And…and…and…*
At the mention of the woman, Jim dialed up his hearing, filtering out
the drone of the storm outside, shifting his partner's voice
into a soft, background rumble to keep himself grounded. He tracked
through the night quiet of the house, dismissing the drip of
the kitchen faucet, the hum of the refrigerator, the creaking of the
side of the house that was taking the brunt of the wind. Once
he'd assured himself that Monique was sleeping on the small cot off
the kitchen, where he'd left her, he retreated back to his
partner's annoyed, agitated voice.
With his attention centered in the room, he tried to do what he'd just
done in order to check on the woman. He tried to dial his
hearing down and tune out the disgruntled voice of his Guide. The only
problem with using someone's voice as a ground, he'd
discovered, was that sometimes his own instincts resisted letting it
go. His hearing *wanted* to stay tuned in. Most of the time,
he enjoyed his partner's exuberant vocalizations. And it wasn't exactly
that he wanted to tune Blair out. He wanted to maybe
just muffle him a bit, just…overlook Blair’s bad mood.
It wasn't like Blair never put up with his bad moods, and it really
was his own fault in a way. He’d snapped at the kid about the
woman, ordering him to stay away from her, even physically pushing
him away from her while he was questioning her. *Maybe
just a little bit of territoriality there, Ellison?* he asked himself.
He trusted Blair's instincts about people; they were usually good.
But in this case…something about Monique St. James set his teeth on
edge. Sarcastically, he asked himself, *Maybe the way
they'd found her, out in the middle of the ocean? Maybe the bags of
Mexican Brown Rucker had found in the boat? Maybe the
way she'd changed her story, oh, three times since they'd rescued her?*
Right on the heels of the sarcastic voice, the other one kicked in,
the low, reasonable voice that frequently asked him questions
he didn't want to answer. *Maybe because Blair was paying her too much
attention? Maybe the way she kept turning that
megawatt, oh-so-innocent gaze on his partner?* Yeah, there was plenty
about Monique St. James to set his investigative
instincts tingling with alarm, and plenty there to set off the protective
ones, too. And plenty there to make him know he should
keep his mouth shut and his head down where his partner's reaction
to her was concerned.
But even before the woman had shown up, things hadn't been exactly going
great. No television, no books, the storm… He'd
assumed, wrongly, that because the two of them had been in sync during
other weekend outings, that Blair would enjoy this
weekend visit with his cousin as well.
Rucker was an okay guy, good humored and easy to be around. He'd even
insisted the two of them take his bigger, more
comfortable bedroom. His cousin was next door in the smaller room.
Probably already asleep, considering that *he* had peace and quiet.
Jim had visited the island before. He knew how peaceful and relaxing
it could be--fishing, hiking, just enjoying the ocean breeze.
He'd been looking forward to hiking the rocky shore on the other side
of the island, to showing Blair the lighthouse, but he also
knew how dreary the place could be in a storm.
He should have known better than to drag Blair along without warning
him in advance to bring some form of recreation just in
case. A few of Blair’s anthro books wouldn’t have been that much extra
baggage, and it would have saved him from having to
lift his head from the warm nest of pillows.
Like a vengeful reminder of his folly, a flash of lightning lit up the
room. With a tiny 'ow!', he squeezed his lids shut against it.
Apparently, the worst of the storm wasn't past. It had just been lying
in wait for him to let his guard down. Even behind his lids,
he could see the flash of blue light that illuminated the room momentarily.
It sizzled on his skin and scorched his nerves, a
sensory mixture of the tart jab of a needle and the soft brush of fingers.
He sighed. Oh, well…so much for reading. He dialed his sight down, and
his hearing along with it against the boom of thunder
that followed the flash. But he could still hear the whine of wind,
picking up again, the renewed splatter of rain against the
windows and underneath it all, Blair fussing.
"Damn it! Oh, man, I thought the storm was over. Is the power ever…?"
The change of tone in Blair's voice tipped him off, finally clueing
Jim in to what was going on. To some of it, at least--the storm
was getting to Blair, too. He was still standing just outside the bathroom
door, only a foot into the bedroom they were sharing.
Jim sighed again, tamped down his annoyance to a level where he wouldn’t
snarl, and peered over the edge of his book at his
Guide/partner/albatross. Another flash of lightning touched his skin
and lit the room. The booming accompaniment of thunder
covered his gasp.
Blair's hands moved in a ballet of agitation as he spoke. Silhouetted
against the flickering candlelight from the bathroom, his face was in shadow
that Jim could easily have seen into if he used his Sentinel sight. Blair
was wearing thick wool socks and Jim’s
blue flannel shirt. And nothing else. Jim was sure, without even dialing
up his senses. Nothing else.
With each gesture, the shirt rode dangerously high, showing pale, tender
skin in the hollow of Blair's hip. Hinting at exposing
what lay in deeper shadow. Promising a revelation of flesh in a flash
of lightning.
"Jim? Man, are you even listening to me?"
Jim came back to reality with a start. Guilty as charged. So much for
not being able to tune out his partner's voice. He hadn’t
heard a word since his own gasp, because he’d been lying there wishing
his Sentinel vision was x-ray, or that his partner would
time one of those wild gestures with the lightning. Or that Blair had
picked up one of his own shirts after his shower, one that
would have been smaller and shorter.
He wondered if Blair had any idea of how he looked, illuminated for
a fraction of a second in cool blue, then limned in dancing
candlelight. The orange light from the bathroom candles highlighted
the curve of his thigh, glinted on the soft curls that had
escaped the ponytail. The loose strands looked like they would cling
to his fingers and wind around them, encase them in a
glossy prison.
Jim shook his head, warning himself away from the whole train of thought.
Bad enough to be staring in the first place, much less
thinking about touching. *Just don’t even go there, Ellison. You do
NOT need that kind of complication in your life.*
"You’re wearing my shirt," he growled, and he actually made it sound
like an annoyance instead of the thrill it was. Just the
thought of how the shirt was going to smell tomorrow morning when he
put it on was undoing any possibility of listening to his
own terse lecture. His cock filled as his memory supplied the tart,
warm scent of Blair. As his mind supplied the realization that
the soft flannel was on Blair's skin, rubbing his tiny nipples, riding
across his groin. How the hell would he ever get to sleep
knowing that?
"Hey, man, come on. I gave Monique my other shirt. I don't want to sleep
in the one I've had on all day," Blair was protesting,
clutching the front of the shirt in his fingers as if he thought Jim
was going to leap up and take it away.
And, oh, wasn't that a thought for a cold, stormy night? "And you think
I want to wear the one you've slept in?" he countered.
There wasn't even any need to try for gruffness this time. All that
came out was a wicked rasp across his tongue. The whole
problem would be solved if Blair just came to bed naked… *Don't go
there, Ellison.*
Blair clutched the shirt tighter. "It’s the warmest thing we brought, and it’s so damned cold here. The humidity…"
The obvious comeback was *If it’s so damned cold, why don’t you put
on some clothes?* but he didn't voice it. He had an
extra pair of sweatpants in his bag, and if he was a nice guy, he'd
offer them. But…he was just as happy to draw the moment
out a little longer, to watch the tantalizing movement of the hem of
the shirt as Blair’s fingers clenched in it.
He shifted slightly, sliding the knee nearest Blair to the side and
up a little, hitching at his sweatpants to conceal his erection. The
pillow that had been rolled beneath his legs came loose and slid off
the couch. He grabbed for it, but couldn't catch it without
lowering his knee, so he let it go. He didn’t think Blair could see
from where he was, but there was no use advertising his
arousal. Kid probably wasn’t even looking as he rambled off into another
tirade about the weekend weather. But as he lifted his gaze back to his
partner, he saw that Blair *had* been looking.
Blair turned his head casually away as Jim glanced up, but there wasn’t
any mistaking that heavy lidded, speculative gaze
traveling along his legs or the sudden stillness in the expressive
hands.
He was good. Jim gave him that. Blair never missed a beat in his list
of complaints. Never blinked. He went right back to
waving his hands in the air. But he’d been looking.
Jim dialed up his senses just a bit--privacy be damned!--and catalogued
the quick stutter of heartbeat, the quick flush of heat at
cheek and groin. The last of his annoyance leeched away, replaced by
something that felt very like skydiving without a back-up
parachute.
Why did he even bother to hide his arousal? Why did they? He watched his partner, and his partner watched him. Both of them, staring at each other when it was safe. Drinking in each other. Both of them, pretending that they didn’t notice the other noticing. Why *did* he bother? And was he actually going to do what his body was urging him to do? Was he?
Lightning flashed, illuminating Blair, dancing over his skin, as if
the storm was choosing Jim's answer for him. He lay his book
aside with slow, deliberate motions. He shifted again, slowly, letting
his knee slide down, making sure that Blair saw. There was
no way to hide his arousal beneath the soft, fleecy cloth once he'd
lowered his legs. Especially with the momentary flash of
lightning that lit up the room like cold daylight.
"…can’t believe how cold it is! This is the most--" The illumination stopped the tirade.
His words stopped Blair’s breathing. "Take your hair down," he growled,
and this time, it sounded exactly like what it was.
Gruff arousal.
"What--!?" It was a breathless squeak of disbelief that wasn’t even quite a word. The hands froze in midair.
He wanted to grin. Too good, to actually have stolen Blair’s power of
speech. He resisted the tug at the corners of his mouth
because humor was too at odds with the sluggish throb of arousal that
was curling up from his balls, sending heated tendrils up
his spine. Instead, he repeated his command. "Take your hair down."
As if he was hypnotized, Blair reached back and released the band holding
his hair at the nape of his neck. It sprang free to join
the strands that had already escaped. The explosion of unruly curls
caught the light and shadowed Blair's eyes, but Jim was sure they were
stretched round and wide, as dark and deep blue as the stormy ocean pounding
the island.
"Come here." Another husky command.
Blair stayed where he was, staring at him, mouth agape, feet glued to the floor.
Jim really couldn’t resist the grin this time. After complaining nonstop
for most of the evening, Blair was blessedly speechless.
Blair was panting, quick little intakes of breath like he'd just run
up a flight of stairs. But he wasn't making any move to come
towards him.
Jim opened up his senses, allowing the little gasps to carry him along.
He swept over his partner carefully, just to be sure. For a
moment as brief as the gap between the thunder and lightning, he was
afraid he was wrong. He was afraid he'd misread the slow perusal of his
body, that he'd misunderstood.
Then the thundering heartbeat, as familiar to him as his own, washed
over him. The throbbing pattern of heat, at cheek and chest and groin.
Blair’s legs might be refusing to work, but heart and lungs were working
overtime. Pumping air, pumping blood. And
that steel trap of a mind…Jim could almost hear the thoughts forming,
processing.
They’d both been looking, dancing, sniffing, sidling around each other
for months, cautious touches here, a lingering smile there,
the occasional double entendre. It had seemed they were both content
to leave it that way. But he was willing to bet that Blair
assumed, as had he, that if a first move was ever made between them,
the younger man would be the one to make it.
Yet here he lay, sprawled and trying to smile seductively, shaking so
hard he was afraid he was going to shiver right out of his
skin. It was as much a surprise to him as it was to Blair. But, god,
it felt good, the ache of anticipation, the thrill of doing
something that wasn’t quite sane, of letting down the walls. It made
him feel as wild and bold as the storm slashing at the rocks
outside. It loosened something in him. The ripple of fear that sizzled
along his spine was heady, like biting into something too
spicy for his enhanced senses.
He stretched, reached down and tugged at the knot at the waistband of
his sweatpants. He heard the rasp of threads against
threads, the slip of the cloth against his own skin. He whispered roughly,
"Come here."
His whisper was even quieter than the slide of cloth, but this time,
it was enough to unglue Blair. He jerked with the agitated
grace that was his signature and took one tentative step, then several
quick ones. He stepped between the couch and the low
table on which Jim had dropped his book and stared down at him.
Jim closed his eyes, shutting away sight, used his other senses to savor
the nearness of his partner. The salty, sexual scent of
Blair, so much more him than the more obvious scents of soap and deodorant
and toothpaste. The flutter of his pulse, so sibilant and quick it was
like the beating of a sparrow’s heart. The heat of his bare legs, so near
Jim's hip.
The heat increased as Blair realized that he was being catalogued by Sentinel senses. A flush raced across his skin.
Jim's body answered with matching heat as he let his eyes slide open.
He drank in the sight of the man standing over him.
Flushed cheeks, clenched fists, eyes boring into him. Oh, yeah, definitely
the blue of a storm, those eyes. And stretched so
wide. Boyishly, innocently shocked.
Blair's tongue snaked out, brief touch on his full, sensual lips, and
he didn't look so innocent anymore. There was nothing
innocent about that mouth…
Jim toyed with the ties that peeked out of his sweats just below his
navel, sighing as his fingers brushed the thick swelling of his
erection. He was so hard the gray cotton was agony brushing against
his skin.
Blair’s pupils dilated, obliterating that beautiful blue. He sucked in a breath.
It was like fire on Jim’s skin, the soft gasp. His own breathing sped
up to match Blair’s. Shocked by his own brazen behavior,
but not enough to stop, he trailed his fingers lightly up and down
his own cock. Willing to do anything to hear that soft gasp of
arousal again. "You bored, Chief? You need something to do?"
Another rush of heat surged in Blair’s groin. His cock was thrust out impudently, pushing at the tails of the shirt.
Jim reached up, trailed his fingers along the curve of thigh that had
so tantalized him. Followed the sturdy line of it up, beneath
the hem of Blair's shirt. His shirt. Soft skin, soft covering of hair,
incredible warmth segueing into incredible heat as his fingers
trailed higher. It would have been so easy to zone, to just get lost
in the feel of Blair's skin, in the tremble of muscle beneath.
The input from his other senses held him back--the faint, bitter saltwater
scent of arousal growing stronger, the soft intake of
breath again, the concentration and tension of the younger man as his
fingers walked the length of rigid cock, as he traced the
heavy curve of balls. Blair clocked the light touch with his hips,
mutely begging for more.
Gaze locked on Blair's face, Jim slipped his other hand into his sweats.
Sighed as he cupped his own erection. He was even
hotter than Blair, even harder. Leaking slick wetness. He freed himself
from the confines of clothing, brought his wet fingers to
his mouth and tasted himself. Salty and ready.
He laughed softly at the quick flicker of distress on his partner's
face as Blair tried to decide what to look at--the gorged cock
or Jim sucking his own fingers. He took pity on Blair. Sort of… Jim
reached down, caressed himself lightly. Anything more and
he wouldn't last long enough for any of the scenarios that were painting
themselves in lurid detail on the inside of his skull.
Wasn't going to last anyway. Lightning and thunder erupted, and he
felt the jagged flash, the sound, on his balls. He was so stiff,
his cock was clinging to his abdomen, resisting his attempt to offer
it up. "Come taste me."
Blair gasped and surged into movement. Finally, at last, provoked out
of the shock that had kept him frozen. He dropped to his
knees, hooked his fingers in the waistband of Jim’s pants. He yanked,
dragging the sweats off, taking shorts and socks with
them. Leaving him wearing only his shirt, as Blair was.
Cold air rushed over his legs, curled around his balls. Then Blair surged
over his balls. Tongue and teeth and the coarse silk of
his hair.
Jim cursed and came up off the couch, supported by his shoulders and
his feet. His back arched in a bow, straining towards
Blair. Oh, god, he should have expected it. Should have been prepared
for it. Sandburg enthusiasm. Sandburg quickness.
Blair never did anything halfway, and this was no exception. He was
all over him, hands sliding up his thighs, up under his shirt.
Nails scraping across his nipples. Mouth fastened on the tip of his
cock. Blair's fingers dug into his hips and forced him down.
Teeth up the underside of his cock. Slick heat, taking him in. Moving
on him. Oh, god, moving. He didn't want to hold still.
Couldn't hold still, no matter how much weight Blair was exerting on
his hips.
He pushed the heavy fingers away, tangled his fingers in the thick hair,
forced Blair’s head to stillness and moved the way he
wanted to. He fucked Blair's mouth with slow, shallow, sensuous thrusts.
Sliding his cock along the rough slickness of his
tongue, the solid ridges along the top of his mouth. Gentle scrape
of teeth all around the crown.
Blair moaned against his skin, mixing sound with touch, and sending
his senses skittering madly. No way to sort out the
sensations. No way to stay grounded with so much sensation coming at
him. Sound…sound on his skin, like he could hear
through his pores. Thunder, blue light, Blair, soaking into his muscles,
into his bloodstream. He could hear him, rushing through
his veins. Singing in his blood.
"Jim? Jim, stay with me here."
Blair's voice joined the sweet humming in his blood, drawing him back
to reality. Shaman's voice, worried but calm. Hoarse
with desire. Shaman's eyes, watching him carefully. Lover's eyes, hot
and bright and hungry. Lover's thumb, stroking the crown
of his cock with rhythmic strokes even as he insisted that Jim swim
up through the buffeting of his senses.
Jim eased his grip, slid back to stillness. Gasped out his partner's
name. He pushed against the hands lightly, to show Blair he
was all right. Stroked the back of Blair's neck, fingers warmed by
the heavy hair.
"Suck me," he whispered, urged with just the tiniest pressure of his
fingers. "Suck me slow. Make it last." Knowing that there
was no way to make it last. Not this first time. It was going to be
so quick and so good… And if this was insanity, then it was
downright madness to be already thinking ahead to the next time. But
he'd waited so long. They'd waited so long.
After a moment’s hesitation, while the tongue tip swirled with a maddening
pressure against the tip of his cock, Blair pulled
back. He gazed for a moment in disbelief at his fingers, wrapped possessively
around the base of Jim’s cock. Then he lowered
his head and sucked and licked and stroked with slavish abandon.
Licked him like he was candy. Like his cock was a melting ice cream
cone and Blair was too greedy to miss one drop. Blair
sucked him so deep he could feel the throat muscles work against his
crown. Pulled away and laved his balls until they were
coated with saliva and then blew his warm breath across them.
Jim shook. Groaned aloud and writhed from side to side to keep from
thrusting. Rough tongue, warm air, followed by sudden
coolness on the sensitive flesh. Icicles, jagged and hot, splintered
along his spine.
Blair did what he'd asked, what he hadn't thought possible, made it
last until he was arching and sighing. Just kept pulling away,
then attacking, until he was maddened and pleading. Until his fingers
were tightening convulsively on the rounded skull, combing
with mindless repetition through the thick hair.
Then Blair did that slow, deep, sucking swallow one time too many, and
Jim was abruptly, sweetly, over the edge of orgasm.
"Blair," he gasped. It was a warning, a prayer, and it was much too
late. "Ah, god, Blair."
Blair’s fingers tightened on him, on his balls, on the base of his cock. His throat tightened on him. His tongue…
"Oh, god…" All his muscles clamped down, his senses turned inward. He
could hear, feel, the rushing heartbeat of his Guide,
but it was no match for the thundering of his own. The first time since
he'd classified Blair's heartbeat that the sound of his own
body overwhelmed the smaller man's.
Pleasure washed over him. *Good, good, good, so good.* He couldn't tell
if he was shouting the words or just moaning them
inside his mind. Blair rode his shudders, mouth fastened on his spurting
cock. Throat working on him. Fingers biting into his skin. Blood moving
beneath his skin, the heat of his semen against Blair's tongue.
He groaned. A name? A plea? And lost himself in the spiral of sensation
that radiated outward from his balls, fire and ice and
thick, slow moving honey. It took his mind and his sanity and his bones
and his sight. Even the flash of lightning couldn't reach
him.
He came slowly back to limp, nerveless awareness to find Blair still
crouched over him. Gasping harshly for air, breath gusting
across his spent penis, burning it.
Blair’s head moved slowly, as if weighted down. Tilting until Jim could
see the glazed eyes, the perfect mouth swollen from use.
Lips wet. Glistening.
So beautiful. No man should be so beautiful. Blair made it so easy to admit to himself what he wanted. "In the side pocket of my bag," he whispered. "Get what you need."
Blair looked at him, still dazed. Drunk with arousal, but he stood.
Stumbled towards the foot of the bed where the bag lay. His
cock was too swollen, too needy, for the shirt to conceal now.
Thick and flushed with blood. Sturdy cock, shorter than his own, but
thicker. Jim shivered, listening to him unzip the bag,
scrabble in the pocket. Wishing he would hurry. Wishing he would come
back and kneel over him, drag that thick cock across
his mouth.
Blair came back to him, stood looking down at him, foil packets and
small bottle clutched in his hands. Waiting with stunned
questions in his blue eyes. He'd tugged the hem of the shirt down,
covering himself.
Sweet. Shy. Who'd have thought it, that Blair would be the demure one
while he was brazen and whorish in his arousal? That
lazy smile filled him again, tugged at the corners of his mouth. He
lifted one leg and draped it over the back of the couch,
reached out with the other for the low table and rested his foot on
the rounded edge. He couldn’t believe how easily he exposed himself to
this man. How exhilarating and frightening and freeing it was. How much
it thrilled him to see Blair's face flush, to feel
the leap of heat on his incredible cheekbones. "Come here."
Blair dropped the condoms and lube on the table, sank to his knees on
the couch between Jim’s legs. His hands skimmed lightly along his spread
thighs, thumbs riding lightly in the crease where his legs joined his body.
"God, Jim, you're scaring me. Are you
sure it's you in there?" Voice shaky, hands hot.
"No," Jim admitted, smiling with slow invitation. "It doesn't feel like
me at all." He arched towards the slow, sensuous tracery of
Blair's thumbs. Never taking his eyes off the glassy-eyed man, Jim
slowly unbuttoned his shirt, exposing his chest to the cold air. It brushed
against his nipples, as tangible to his sensitized skin as fingers. "Maybe
it's the storm."
Blair's gaze wandered over him, lingering on his chest, on his nipples as they hardened.
"We can stop," Jim offered huskily. "If you want to..." He watched Blair's
eyes, praying silently *pleasepleaseplease don't say
yes.* Thinking of Blair's mouth on him.
Blair's gaze raked the length of his body, settled on his cock as it shifted against his thigh, threatening to swell again.
Another flush of heat and high color, just when he'd thought Blair couldn't blush any hotter.
Blair shook his head, whispered, "No." Smiled. Not the flashbulb, brighter-than-daylight,
Sandburg smile. An expression Jim
had never seen before on his face--combination of shy and sultry, demure
and calculating. A combination that made it suddenly
difficult to breath, like the lightning had fried all the oxygen out
of the air. Blood pooled in his groin.
"Open your shirt," Jim said huskily. "*My* shirt." Playfully.
Blair did what he was told, in that same hypnotized, fumbling way he’d
let down his hair, opening it with clumsy fingers, slipping
the shirt off one shoulder as he worked at the last, bottom button.
"No, don’t take it off," Jim instructed as cold air brushed his own
nipples, made them wrinkle up even stiffer. "Don’t want you
to get cold. I just want to see you." Oh, god, beautiful, sexy…all
that thick, dark hair covering Blair's chest. He wanted to run
his fingers through it, rub his cheek against it. "Want to see you
over me, wearing my shirt, while you fuck me."
Blair shuddered, yanked at the last button. "God, Jim…" Yanked the shirt
open, exposing his slim, muscular body. The crisp
hair on his chest became soft and silky as it crossed his flat belly,
then curled up thick and lush at the base of his cock.
What was that going to feel like to his Sentinel enhanced skin, that
soft, curling hair, the hot, hard cock? "Come on. Hurry." His
cock throbbed, stiffened with quick, ungraceful jerks.
Blair’s pupils were dilated again, blue gone to black. His breath was
coming quickly, just shallow gasps. And his cock…his
cock was so hard it radiated heat. He leaned down for the bottle, one
of the foil packets. His cock brushed against Jim's thigh.
They both jerked at the contact. Jim stared at Blair, saw the same mix
of apprehension and delight and disbelief mirrored in the
matching blue eyes. "God, I want you," he breathed.
Blair's answer was to lean down and kiss him. A quick, ravaging of his
mouth with a tongue that tasted of his own semen. "Want you, too," he breathed
into Jim's lungs, then he was gone. Rising back up to kneel between his
outspread legs, leaving Jim
breathless and aching and suddenly scared.
Blair popped open the lid on the bottle of lubricant, dribbled it out
onto his fingers. Tipped the bottle and let the cool liquid run
down Jim's balls. Down onto his anus.
He shivered. He could feel every drop, sliding across his skin.
Blair's fingers caught the slippery droplets, smeared them back up on
him, into him. Skin hot in contrast to the cool lubricant.
Deft, stroking caress. One finger and lots of slick lube. Easing, teasing,
opening him. Sliding into him while its owner's gaze
never left his face.
He sighed softly, nodded. *Yes, oh, yes. Please. More.* Blair watching him, while he thrust his finger in and out gently.
Just when he was ready to beg aloud, a second finger. Twisting in him,
burning, stretching. The gentleness was heartwarming,
maddening.
Blair leaned in against him, pausing for just a fraction of a second.
Question in his gaze. The length of his cock hot against the
back of Jim's thigh.
Jim arched against him. A third finger slipped in. Twisted in him. The
three fingers were knotted, insistent. Burning. Forcing him
to open. He groaned at the ambiguous pain and pleasure. Wanted it,
wanted it to stop, wanted it to never stop. He dialed the
pain down, and the pleasure went with it. He grasped at the couch,
fingers slipping on the taut material. Dialed the sensation
back up and the burning and stretching was there. Hissed, "Enough.
I’m ready."
Then Blair shifted. Fingers gone. Heat pressing. Pressing in. Thickness
rounder and softer and silkier than his fingers pressing in.
Taking him. He hissed and pressed down, and his body opened. Loosened.
Flare of hot fire and then the pain and the pleasure
merged. Twined.
And as the hot pain/pleasure of being penetrated, of being possessed,
took him, he knew he'd made the biggest and best
mistake of his life. Nothing had ever been this good. Nothing else
would ever be this good. He cried out in fear and pleasure,
then bit back the sounds. Tried to pull it back, to dial it down, but
Blair wouldn't let him.
"Let go, Jim," he whispered, leaning over him. Down over him, pushing
his cock in deep and gusting hot, sweet breath over his
skin. "Let go. I want to hear the storm."
Every word was punctuated by a thrust, an invasion. By hot, knowing
hands on his cock. Fingers teasing the stretched,
breached opening to his body.
Blair was stroking his own cock as it slid in and out of him. "Let go. I want to hear you lose control."
Jim tilted his hips, opening himself wider. Cried out as understanding
flooded him. As he heard what he feared and what he
wanted. The storm held back, the need held back. With no one else could
he have this. Blair was safety, Blair was freedom.
Blair was holding onto him, stilling inside him, concerned, questioning. "Jim?"
"Only with you," he gasped. "Only with you."
The words shouldn't have made sense to his Guide, but they seemed to.
Blair nodded, smiled down at him. "Only with me," he
husked. "Let go."
Jim didn't even try to fight it. For the first time since he'd given
his trust to the younger man, his guide led him away from himself.
Lured him away from controls and dropped him into a dark and dangerous
place surging with bolts of fire and thunder that
raked at his nerves.
"Yes." Blair hissed the one word at him, but the rest were a litany,
a song, a cajoling of words and sounds that registered only
enough to keep him centered. "I'm here. Touch me. Smell me. Feel me
in you. You can't get lost because I'm right here. Part of
you. You can let go, Jim."
And he did. Released the tenuous hold he had on all the dials. Offered up his trust to Blair, that he wouldn't let him get lost. That he would guide him back from that stormy place.
Sensations buffeted him. Too much sensory input. Overload. Colors and
scents and sounds. He swam in it, drowned in it.
Pleasure so overwhelming he wanted to scream. Blue fire. Scents of
Blair and lubricant and electricity. Taste of his own already
spent semen and new sweat. Sound of Blair's skin, sliding against his
own, and his own grunts of pleasure as Blair moved slow
and deep in him.
Blair's cock was touching something in him that was like lighting a
fuse, and the sputtering fire took off across his nerves. Blair's
hands were moving across his chest, feather light stroking. Rolling
his nipples, pinching. Fingers brushing across his cock as if by accident,
then dancing away when he cried out and arched up for more.
And Blair's voice, there, too, part of the storm, whispering to him.
Telling him how he looked, how he felt. A husky, shimmering
tether. But the voice was getting ragged, trailing off. The slow, smooth
thrusts were becoming frayed at the edges.
Jim floated up, out of the storm, enough to see. To feel. Blair, over
him, pumping not so steadily. Faint sheen of sweat on his
throat, the center of his chest. Moaning with every thrust. His eyes
were focused, concentrated. Tiny tremors racing across his
body, under his skin. Heat building. Blood rushing.
Blair's fingers were biting into his ribs where he had his hands braced.
Jim reached up, grasped his arms. The muscles were like
stone, contracted and straining. "Close?" he gasped, marveling at how
easily he'd come out of himself, back to himself, when
called by concern for Blair. How easy it was to let his own boiling
arousal slow to a simmer so that he could watch the other
man. "Are you close?"
Blair nodded. Barest movement, as if he could spare no attention to
it. "God, Jim." Choked gasp. His eyes slid shut for a
moment, then flew open. Focused inward. He pushed deeper, harder, and
the sensation rocked through Jim.
"Is it good, Blair? Am I good for you, baby?"
Blair shook his head, but Jim knew he didn't mean no. He slid his hands up the straining arms. Down to grasp his own cock. He pumped himself slowly, much more slowly than Blair was moving in him. "Tell me."
"Can't. Can't. Gonna come." The ends of his hair whipped his pale throat as he shook his head, as he fought for control.
"Then come. Come for me. Show me how good it is."
Blair's gaze followed the movement of his hand, head tilting down. Eyes going wide at the sight of Jim working himself. "Oh." He made just the one little sound, then he gasped and reared up and went stiff. Back arched.
Jim groaned for him. Vocal Blair, always talking, was silent in his
pleasure except for the panting gasps of air as he spasmed.
But Jim could hear his orgasm, in the furious pounding of his heart,
the harsh breath, the spray of semen into his body. He could
feel the pulses of it, swelling and ebbing inside himself. Drawing
him back into the burning pleasure that had never stopped
twining around his spine. And finally, as he gave a brutal thrust,
Blair whispered his name, and Jim went over the edge.
So rapidly back to that place that Blair had taken him, that place of
overwhelming sensation and lightning, that he cried out.
Feeling the hot pulsing of Blair's cock as if it was part of his body.
His fingers tightened, and he cried out again.
Blair knocked his hand away, hissing, "No. Me." Leaving sweaty, cold
handprints impressed on his thighs as he shifted and
grasped Jim's cock in one hand, his balls in the other. He thrust into
him, slid out, picking up the smooth rhythm once again as if
he wasn't still gasping out the last of his orgasm.
He rasped, "Now you come for me." He squeezed down cruelly on Jim's cock, stroked hard, once, twice. "Let go."
Jim howled. Arched his back and wailed. The orgasm filled him. Blair
filled him. Took away all his senses but touch, leaving him only overwhelming
pleasure. His semen burned its way out of him, arcing up to fall back onto
his belly and burn him again. His
muscles clenched, squeezed down on the cock that was still stretching
him, and Blair gasped. Followed the twitching of his hips
and stroked into him. Out of him. Fingers squeezing and caressing him.
Slick with his own semen. Skin moving on slick skin.
Blood pulsing through veins.
Sound slammed into him, as alive and twisting as his pleasure. He strained,
hearing his own body jerk and twitch in climax. The
spiral of pleasure and sound climbing higher and higher and tighter
and tighter. Taking him. Taking him.
Then something was inching itself into his ears. Unraveling the spiral. Reeling him back in. Soft, sweet sound with the authority of thunder behind it.
"No-o-o." He fought against it, greedy and frantic that the pleasure go on. "Go away. Don't stop."
Steel sound, unrelenting. Blair's voice. "Jim? Jim, come on. Sh-h-h.
Sh-h-h. Man, you're gonna wake the dead. Come on, stay
with me here. Come back down for me."
He slid back into reality. A crash of thunder wiped out Blair's soft
voice. A flash of lightning illuminated them in blue. Blair still
crouched over him, beautiful and flushed. Hands smoothing the tremors
in his abdomen, smearing his semen into his skin.
He didn't want to, but Jim made a real effort to quiet his moans. It
wasn't easy, even with the Shaman voice worming its way
underneath his sobs, especially considering that the Shaman's cock
was still hard, moving in him with a slow, ragged rhythm that
was so much more compelling than words.
"Come on, Jim. Ease up. Stay with me."
"Can't. You're…moving," he gasped. Then realized his mistake as Blair
slowed. Started to pull out of him. He surged upwards,
arching. "No, god! Blair, don't stop. Don't stop. Still feels…so good."
And it did. The sensations were no longer centered in his cock. Now
it was an all encompassing, satisfied ache that spanned
from hip to hip, from his balls to beneath his navel. The sensations
had become ripples of warmth. "Don't stop." He growled,
then groaned loudly when Blair leaned down over him, hands spanning
his hips, thrust deep inside him and held there. Still
throbbing with the aftershocks of his own orgasm.
He could feel it, the sluggish pulse of blood, the throb of the slowly softening cock. He groaned again.
Blair's fingers sought his lips. "Jim, you're going to wake your cousin."
On cue, something--a fist, an elbow--pounded on the wall separating
the two bedrooms. A gruff voice ordered, "Show some
respect in there. Some of us are trying to sleep."
Jim choked, started to laugh in response to the laughter he could hear in Rucker's voice.
Blair gasped, eyes stretched wide. The lovely sexual flush on his face
deepened, became mortification. "Oh, god, Jim." He
slumped down, boneless warmth on Jim's chest, and thrust his burning
face in the crook of neck and shoulder, whispered. "He
heard us."
Jim groaned, softly this time, as the movement slid Blair out of him.
He stretched, loosening the knots in his back, despite the
weight lying full length on his torso. The rippling pleasure eased.
Bereft of the fullness that had been stretching him so
wonderfully, all he felt now was a sweet, aching throb and a need to
restore oxygen into his lungs. And an overwhelming urge to shout with triumph
and laughter.
He restrained himself and whispered instead, "Oh, god, Chief, that was
good." He slipped his hands beneath *their* shirt and
stroked Blair's back, trying to sooth him. "There's not a word for
how good." Let his hands slip lower to cup the rounded ass,
teasing along the crease.
Blair, still trying to burrow up under his chin, shivered, and his legs
parted. Opening himself as easily, as trustingly, as Jim had to
him.
Jim reached lower, stroked the velvety soft skin inside Blair's thighs
and the soft flesh on the back of his balls. Back up, to the
even softer, puckered entrance to Blair's body.
Blair shivered again, made a sound against his throat that was part gasp, part sob. A little hiccup of pleasure.
Jim shivered with him, anticipating slipping inside that warm body. "Let's do it again," he whispered huskily. Despite his satiation, his exhaustion, his cock throbbed, threatening to fill again. He laughed, pleased with himself. Pleased with them. "This time, I get to be on top."
Blair wriggled, testing that the cock that was trapped between them
really was as eager as its owner. He moaned, "Oh, man,
how can you even think about that? He heard us!"
Jim chuckled as he gathered Blair tighter to him. "Don't worry about it. Rucker's kept me awake a couple of times."
Blair just moaned again.
Jim grasped a fistful of soft, sweat-damp curls, tilting the younger
man's face back so he could kiss him. He covered Blair's
mouth with his own, smothering any further lamentations. Tasted his
new lover, sweet toothpaste and salty semen and just Blair.
Tongue and teeth and silky, ridged roof of mouth.
Blair kissed him back, kissed him breathless, but refused to be comforted,
to be roused. He pulled away, rolled his forehead
back and forth on Jim's shoulder. "How am I going to face him in the
morning?"
Jim covered Blair's head with one large hand, turning him, tucking him
back into that perfect fit against his neck. Thinking there
was nothing in the world he couldn't face, so long as he could feel
Blair's heavy warmth blanketing him. Blair's heart, beating
against his.
Lips against Blair's forehead, he smiled. "It's okay, Chief. He understands about storms."
The End