Title: Two Fathers, Two Sons 10/10
Authors: Bertie and Leather Alex
Emails: bermille@earthlink.net and leather_alex@yahoo.com
Status: complete
Archive: sure
Category: Male pregnancy
Notes: For Ursula. Bertie is Skinner and Mulder, as well the author of
epilogue; Leather Alex is Krycek and CSM. Thanks to Laura for beta.
ALEX
For a while I lay, my cock pressed against Mulder's bare ass, Walter's
hand on my hip. Sex has worn them out and they have fallen asleep; I
can't.
Thoughts are circulating in my head, creating mental images, almost
constant teasers and overwhelming fear. Cautiously I put Skinner's hand
back on his hip, get up and leave the room.
It's exactly as I expected. There is a bug under the collar of Mulder's
coat.
I have to check what's going on outside the house. See if he has put
visual surveillance there, too. I return to the room to fish the keys
out of Skinner's pocket and get some clothes on. Although I try to be
very silent, the door still creaks when I open it.
I walk around the house and stop under the bathroom window. Almost
immediately I spot a car, without lights, on the side of the road,
barely hidden in the shadow of the trees. There's not a big chance
somebody's vehicle has broken down in this remote place, on this very
night. Well, they're being pretty obvious... and probably that's his
point.
Cat never hides from the rat.
I return to the door, to check if any guards are seen on this side, but
it's too dark. At this moment I feel a heavy palm - certainly nobody
else's than Skinner's - landing on my shoulder. Almost at the same time
he grabs my upper arm and yanks me around.
"You're going nowhere, boy," the man growls. I see his hand moving down
to his belt buckle, lingering there for a split second, then sliding
into his pocket.
Cuffs snap around my wrists and Skinner shoves me back into the house.
"I didn't try to flee," I speak up.
"Yeah, right... Can't believe you wanted to do that. You know we love
you, but you don't care one bit how much this hurts, do you? Don't you
think you're safer with us than being alone in the woods? You think
someone would protect you there?" he pulls down my jeans and uncuffs my
right hand so I can remove the sweater.
"I do care. I didn't try to flee," I repeat.
"And I believe you, brat, completely," he shoves me into the bed.
My cold cuffs touch Mulder's naked back; he startles and turns his head
to us.
Skinner tells him the bedtime story, and Mulder, of course, is readily
following his 'I want to believe' policy. I wonder how it is that
nobody ever listens to me.
Unless I'd tell them about what I saw.
And that would change nothing. Well, apart from that I won't be the
only one unable to sleep tonight.
***
I wake from a touch.
A familiar touch.
I open my eyes and shrink back in fear, bumping into Skinner who opens
his eyes, sleepy.
Charles grabs my arm and pulls me out of the bed .... somehow, I don't
resist.
Well, I rarely resisted him. He's a fearful man.
"Hey!" it's Skinner. He grabs my other arm.
Fine. Now I'll be torn in two.
A guard hits Skinner on the head with the hilt of his gun.
"Don't!" I spin around but hear the safety going off at my head and
feel the cold metal pressing to my temple.
Mulder moves, still drifting in his sleep.
Cancerman presses his lips to mine, exploring my mouth... the familiar
taste of nicotine.
I wish I knew what he's thinking. And if there's someone who can tell
that for Spender it's nobody but me, after all those years.
I must know which pattern of behavior to choose.
I gasp as if in passion.
His teeth plunge into my lower lip; I groan in sharp pain.
"Whore," he states and backhands me heavily. I'm unprepared and when
one of his guards shoves me, I fall on my knees.
Taste blood in my mouth.
I think, now I know.
He bends down to me, takes my nipple in his fingers and squeezes it.
Some fluid comes out.
"So you're nursing them, whore, just as it was planned."
It hurts, but the humiliation is worse.
I keep my head bent. My mouth - shut. Shut. Up to when he starts to
negotiate. If I start pleading with him now... if I do... he'll just
tell his men to drag me to his car and bring me back to D.C., where he
will fuck my brains out. Leaving a present, as Mulder once said.
Or hurt me, and the kids - if I fight.
Suddenly the babies start crying. Scully yells. And Mulder.
I raise my eyes and see one of the men coming out of the room with both
the kids in his arms.
This is the moment when all my intentions go to hell. I throw myself to
them. I have to get them out of those hands. It doesn't matter how. I
just have to.
One blow comes on my head, another into my chest. The men pull me back,
almost breaking my arms. "Please," I scream, "please, don't take the
babies, please, don't hurt them, please, please!"
I hear Mulder's voice. Cancerman's.
The men start dragging me out of the room; I manage to free one of my
arms and clutch at Cancerman's pants. The next moment I howl in pain,
the other arm twisted and almost snapped behind my back.
He wants to load me in the car and take me back to D.C.
"No!" I yell at the top of my voice. Please, for god's sake, let
Skinner wake up, please, let Mulder do something, please, just
something... anything!
"No, please, no!" I manage to grab the leg of the bed. Cancerman is
looking at me, smiling.
There's nothing more I want than to strangle him. With my bare hands.
***
MULDER
"Get your hands off him!" I growl, training my Sig Sauer on the thug
who has Alex.
Skinner is right behind me with his Walther p99.
CSM stands next to the car, lighting a cigarette, thoroughly
unconcerned about us. God, I hate that asshole's arrogance.
"Mulder, you should have told me that my Alex had given birth. He
belongs with me now."
"NO!" I scream. "Take me instead!"
Alex is fighting the men when he hears this, begging CSM not to take me.
CSM just smiles while blowing out smoke in the morning air.
"I don't think that is a fair trade off, Mulder. You don't have the
special equipment required to have babies. And I don't want to
impregnate my own son."
I shudder with disgust. He is NOT my father, god dammit!
"What is it you want, Spender? Tell us!" growls a pissed off Walter.
CSM stands there puffing on his cigarette calmly then says, "Do you
want Alex, Mulder? Do you want to keep him from me?"
"Yes, you know I do," I say between clenched teeth.
"Then the only thing I will accept is your leaving the X-Files. I won't
accept anything else."
I nearly drop my gun. Fuck, hitting below the belt, bastard. God, I
want to sag against Walter. Shit, this is it then, is it? I have to
choose between my life's work and my family's life. Damn, damn, damn! I
need more fucking time!
"I'll quit the X-Files, Spender."
I can't believe I just said that. Out loud. I sound confident, where
the hell did that come from? I must be better than I thought.
"Mulder..." Walter is trying to get my attention, but I don't look in
his direction.
***
ALEX
The men push me out of the car. I hit the ground, fall in the still
damp morning grass; for a brief moment it feels so good. Thankful, I
lift my eyes up at Mulder, and then realize I don't know where the kids
are. I look around, but don't spot them.
"Good. Then we have just one more question to settle," I hear
Cancerman's voice. "I'd say you owe me my baby."
"I'll quit the X-Files, I'll leave the FBI, I'm ready to give myself up
to you. What else do you want?" Mulder calls out in frustration.
"Well, wasn't I expressing myself clearly enough?" Cancerman drops the
cigarette butt.
"Please," I feel a horror creep back in my brain; he mustn't take the
kids. If he takes the kids... so helpless... no... crap. Holy crap.
"Please, don't take away my children. Please... please!" I plead.
He bends and squeezes my jaw in his fingers, raising my head, eyeing me.
Skinner growls.
"All a mother wants is to shield her babies from pain and danger. As
safe in the world as they were in her womb. I never thought you
would make a good mother, Alex. Actually I still don't think you will,"
Charles says, watching my face. I can't hide my humiliation, despair...
hate. Why, why does he do this in front of the other men?
"Angry, little bitch? Angry with me?" He smiles, mockingly caressing my
cheek.
"Take them away from me," I hiss, "and I'll tell the Englishman
everything. The First Elder, too. Oh, you're gonna be fucking sorry!"
"Threatening, Alex? You know I'll shoot you, little whore," he grabs my
hair and pulls my head back.
"Hey, take your hands off him!" Skinner growls.
I hear a couple of guns being cocked. I wonder what's going on behind
my back.
"What'll you gain, Charles? Your son, enraged? Your grandson without
his mother's milk?" I whisper; I think my tongue is gonna fall off
after those words. "Are those babies worth it? Worth killing me over
them? Worth ensuring I won't take care of your grandchild anymore? He's
a beautiful baby, with big green eyes; he needs me. You want to take
all that away? Even if you lock me up and make me deliver again, there
will surely be someone who will pass my message to the right
ears. If not, will you kill the mother of your baby?" I pause.
"Let me go. Let the babies go. You've removed Mulder from the scene.
You've done it. You'll gain nothing from hurting me or babies. I’m
helpless. So are they. You have all the power."
I stare at him.
I wish I could see how far exactly Mulder is and if he has heard what I
was saying. Well, every human being has the right of self defense; if
they want to start our living together with stripping me of my
rights... well, I'll take it. But I certainly won't be happy about it.
Cancerman pulls out his gun, cocks it and puts the barrel to my
forehead.
I know he won't do it. That would spoil all his plans.
His movement causes an absolutely hysterical reaction in my men though.
I'm afraid the operatives might shoot them.
He forces my face up; I eye him and suddenly blood goes cold in my
veins. One moment it seems to me he's gonna pull the trigger. I can't
read him anymore.
I start to plead.
The gun still to my head, he takes out his transmitter and orders
someone to march off. Three men come out of the house.
He removes the gun. Seems, I'm gonna pass out here and now.
"Our agreement is in force," he turns to Mulder. "You throw a look
towards the X-Files and someone might die. So, better take care of the
lives dependent on you and make me proud, son."
It seems unreal when they all get back into the cars. When they take
off.
I'm all shaking. Not from cold. It isn't cold, although it's still
really early and I'm naked.
I don't even throw a look at Mulder and Skinner, who are moving towards
me, but rush into the house to see they didn't kill the kids.
The babies are lying in their cribs, alive.
I slide down on my knees at one of them, grabbing the edge of the crib.
***
SKINNER
I run into the house after Alex. He is in a faint by Sergei's crib. I
kneel down and run my hand over him, not trying to get too close in
case he is in shock.
"Baby? Are you all right?"
He nods and lets me lift him up from the floor. I kiss him over and
over. I can't believe I almost lost him.
I hear Mulder join us. He doesn't interrupt us and then I hear one of
the babies whimper. Mulder goes to his boy and picks him up, holding
him close as if the baby would disappear in the next moment.
Scully has been on guard in the room, making sure none of the bastards
would take the babies. Knowing her, she would have shot first and
worried about the consequences later. Gotta love a woman like that.
What a strange foursome we make. I doubt Scully will want to remain as
the babies guardian though. So, it will be up to Mulder to help raise
them. Fuck, I'm so glad I'll be eligible for early retirement in a few
years. I may just take the deputy director up on it, too. I want to
spend time with my boys.
***
MULDER
I go to Scully and kiss her, thanking her in the only way I can
silently. She smiles at me and I cup her face in my hand while holding
Josh.
Well, I say to myself, if this is my future, I think I can live with
that.
Once Alex is calmed down, Scully takes the babies and feeds them while
Walter, Alex and I spend some time together. After a few hours just
holding each other and promising Alex we will be together forever, we
take over for Scully.
***
TWO DAYS LATER
Since daddy dearest left us at the Scully residence, we felt we had no
reason to hide ourselves any longer. We moved back to DC once Walter
went to look at a house someone called about in Annandale. It was a
renovated 1940s colonial off Gallows Road.
Walter loved it. Alex had no problem with it, but I knew it wasn't the
safest of cities. Well, maybe when the children are older, we will
move, I thought. Walter was literally glowing with how much he loved
the house.
I went in with Walter to work and typed up my resignation. Scully and I
talked about this. She was willing to take my place in the X-Files as
head of the department. She promised to keep the desire I had for the
truth alive. Since being kidnapped herself, she feels compelled to take
up the fight where I left off. That will just have to do for me, though
it will seem impossible to just walk away from it all.
***
SKINNER
The house is perfect. We really lucked out with it. I know Mulder
thinks there are nicer neighborhoods north of us, but we can't afford
those prices just yet. Maybe in a few years, after I retire.
Mulder is taking this forced retirement rather well. I'm not sure of
what he intends to pursue, but knowing him, it won't be long before he
finds himself busy on other projects.
He's already paid for furnishings since I paid the mortgage on the
house. It seems his family is well off but he refuses to take money
from his trust fund, wanting to keep it safe for his children now.
My family was fairly poor. The only thing I have left of their love is
an old ranch in west Texas. I'm letting a family stay there that has
lived there since my mother and father passed five years ago. I won't
sell the place out from under them. They are good people.
I have no idea about Alex's family and I know he seems to have no
problem with that, but I think it does bother him. I wish I knew what
to say, how to broach the subject with him. He seems happy with the
house, but I know it's more that he's happy we're finally together. I
hope we can give him all the support he needs, knowing we will be there
for him and our children.
***
ANNANDALE; NOVEMBER 1, 1995
MULDER
I'm feeding Sergei while Alex is playing with Josh. He seems to be in
much better spirits since we moved into the house. The babies are
sensing the difference and are responding more to everyone. I hope Alex
realizes how important his happiness is to the health of the children.
Everyone's really, but his most especially. Josh and Sergei obviously
consider him their mother. I hope the fact Alex is male doesn't confuse
them when they are older. I'm definitely not up to that discussion or
the one about sex. Damn, now how did I get into this mess in the first
place? Ah, yes, my simple minded desire to fuck Alex without latex,
that's what started this. Now condoms are a staple in our bedroom and
elsewhere.
No way would we risk Alex getting pregnant again. Alex hates that he
menstruates, at least that is slowly abating and Scully thinks it may
disappear completely once his normal hormones have taken over.
Once his hormones have regulated, Scully will decide on surgery for him
to remove the female additions, if that is what he wants. I hope so, I
don't want a slip up again, and I really do want to feel him without
the latex.
We are anxious about the surgery Dana has planned for him. Alex was
frightened, of course, uncertain as to why she couldn't have performed
the operation earlier. She explained that she wasn't certain at that
time, but doing extended MRI's and ultrasounds, she has come to the
conclusion the surgery will be not as complicated as she had first
thought. She will be assisted with one of the top gynecologist's who
also happens to be a federal agent. She trusts that he will keep the
surgery secret.
***
ALEX
I keep teasing Josh with the stupid rubber mouse he likes so much and
tries to catch it as I move it in front of his eyes. A couple of times
I let him catch the thing, but then I have to get it afterwards either
from under the bed or from the flowerpot, or somewhere else, as he
likes to throw it and hear how it squeaks. And then he laughs happily,
showing me his one tooth.
Yeah, Krycek, here we go, under the table to get the mouse.
A displeased noise comes from above. Oh yeah, Josh needs attention the
same much as his parents.
I'm not made for nursing kids. Let's look at Fox, he's feeding Seryozha
and telling him some bullshit about some kind of boo-boo which I
haven't the slightest idea what it might be. Mama bear, I chuckle.
But then, when they look at me, I wish I knew what to say to them.
You know, except, 'I like you,' and their names.
Sometimes I talk to them in Russian, about how it looks like where I
grew up, and such. They don't understand shit, but Seryozha seems quite
cheered-up by the sound of the language, I guess. He punched me on my
nose a couple of times.
Creeping out from under the table I catch on the electricity cord and
pull it out of the wall.
Well, that's how clumsy ex-operatives get when they don't train. I
could've had a brilliant career within the Syndicate. I could've
been... well, a test subject.
...Crap!
Fuck the philosophy, if the laptop died now, I'm gonna kick myself to
death. Scully said she'll come over tomorrow, and I've covertly changed
a couple of mails with Cancerman about my damn womb. Could earn me a
spanking; anyway, I don't mind that. I don't know to what degree this
info is plausible, but Fox keeps convincing the redhead to remove the
fucking uterus, and if she reads from the initial source about the way
it's built I might be able to trust a little more that I won't die
under her scalpel. Damn woman, where was she earlier? I suspect that
all that torture I had to go through was just because watching a man
giving birth worked as the amusement of her life.
Fuck, I don't think I saved the info since Josh began to cry and Mulder
wasn't around, he had left to get new computer games.
I continuously beat him on those. And he keeps thinking there might be
at least one I'll lose. Ha.
The laptop is still alive, feeding on batteries.
That's quite a relief. Although I'm an ultimate expert on contraception
now, and use all the available methods at once (I'll never trust
rubbers again, thank you!) I'll still be frightened to death that it
might happen again until that cloned peace of meat is out of me.
A frustrated gasp from Fox makes me turn around. The kid has decided he
has eaten enough and spat the carrot juice back on the man's pants.
When I stop laughing I take Josh out of the crib and start unbuttoning
my shirt.
He looks at me with his tiny green eyes, opens his mouth and squeaks,
"Ma!"
Geez.
Another "Ma!" is on the way.
Fuck!
I should be freaked out, but I find myself smiling instead.
He's actually speaking to me.
"Hey, Fox," I call out to the other room, where Mulder's landed, along
with his wet pants, "you've been fooling around him, right? You taught
him this, didn't you?"
"Ma," the kid hits my chest with his little fist.
Mulder, appearing in the door, bare from the waist down and damn sexy,
hears that. A wide smile appears on his face.
Smug bastard.
Josh hits me again, without saying anything this time, and laughs.
I encircle my arms around him and press him to my chest. Fuck, I think
I could stuff him back into me, how close I want to be with him at this
moment, to make him feel safe and good ...the best I can.
Hell, if any of my kids were abducted I'd submit a written application
to the Consortium to take me, too, ASAP.
"I think it's time for your son to eat," Fox pats my ass, passing by
towards the wardrobe.
"Yeah, I guess it is," I look at the kid. He's still smiling at me. I
smile back, and he opens his tiny mouth and emits some kind of sound
again. I lift him to my nipple.
The little pain is delicious as Josh tries his tooth on the sensitive
skin.
Mulder returns, his deliciously fuzzy legs hidden in another pair of
pants, and carrying Seryozha. He sits nearby me on the sofa and watches
his kid, eating. I bend my head closer to his, letting our hair mix
together. He gets my message, his free arm landing on the waistband of
my shorts.
That's when we hear Skinner's car pulling up in the driveway.
***
SKINNER
When I walk into the living room, my two beautiful lovers are playing
with the boys and each other. A powerful emotion builds in my chest and
spreads throughout my body. I think I'm the happiest knowing all my
boys are safe at home when I get off work. I know they don't feel that
way. They are both stir crazy and moody at times. I do my best to allay
their pent up frustrations by playing Ds games with Alex and letting
Mulder take over most of the household chores.
Mulder has become this super clean freak but that is certainly fine
with Alex, who hates to do it. Between them, though, they are wonderful
with Josh and Sergei.
Mulder is anxious to start a business. He has convinced Alex to go into
business with him as security consultants. He is hoping this would be
innocuous enough to keep the Spender radar well and truly away from us.
I bend to kiss them both.
"Your dinner is in the oven," Alex says.
Mulder cooks some with Alex's help and between them they can make a
decent supper.
"I have good news, guys," I tell them with a grin.
"What?" They both say.
"Next week will be my last at the Hoover."
They whoop and stand to hug and kiss me.
"Whadja do? Go down on Louis?"
"Smartass. He would have given *me* one just to get me out of there."
I think of all the hard work my lovers have been through. It wasn't
easy at first; both my lovers weren't quite up to the task of being
full time dads and taking on the duty of nursemaid, cleaning lady and
babysitter. I had to sit them both down and explain to them that their
sacrifices for our boys were paramount to anything else until the
children were older and could fend better for themselves.
It was slow going and I had to take much leave ensuring that my lovers
were settled in and capable of taking care of our boys. Giving them pep
talks, showing all I knew about raising children from having helped
raise my brother who was ten years younger than me. The fact I would be
retiring soon seemed to help them take on the responsibility. I'm not
exactly sure what happened that first week I had to return to duty, but
they must have sat each other down and discussed a plan-or at least I
hope they did. Whatever they did, worked.
I do know one thing; the boys charmed the socks off all of us and have
us wrapped around their tiny fingers.
I am so looking forward to the time I can stay in and help raise the
boys with my lovers without the weight of work on my shoulders.
Fox and Alex both have given me full body massages when the stress has
been the worst.
Fox, the little sneak, gave me a rectal message allowing him access to
my ass, which I rarely before let anyone near. I must say that I
had been missing out before and exacted my revenge later by doing the
same to him. Reducing him to speaking in tongues is always the most
satisfying.
Alex, on the other hand, insists on our prior b&d relationship,
which I have no problem with, but it certainly helps to have another
top available at all times. He has been rather worried about the
surgery that will take place in two weeks. Scully has been studying
radiographic images of the added organs and thinks it is possible to
perform surgery to remove them without risk.
Fox and I have been distracting Alex as much as we can. Having to take
care of the babies helps keep him busy. After next week, I will have
more time to help Mulder with Alex. He enjoys the spankings and being
tied down. Having two men teasing him into submission certainly keeps
him in a blissed out state.
I take a deep breath. After next week, no more early morning rush hour
traffic. I work more effectively knowing that soon I will be spending
more time with my two lovers.
I eat my dinner with a smile on my face until Alex calls to me and I
join them in the living room.
***
TWO MONTHS LATER
MULDER
Our business is finally on it's feet. We hired a nanny to take care of
the boys while Alex and I keep busy, though I want to do more to fight
the Consortium. It seems impossible and only through the Lone Gunmen
can I make, if any, difference. At least Scully has been giving us help
whenever she can but has been having difficulty with her new partner,
John Doggett. She says he is as bad as she was at first, disbelieving
most of the X-Files they come across. Scully was upset at first when
Skinner retired. She fears the heyday of the X-Files is numbered. That
may be true but as long as the Lone Gunmen, Scully and I are still
around, we will fight them.
Alex won't talk to me about the Consortium. He seems rather upset or
clams up whenever I do. I have talked to Walter about it and he has
said to just let Alex alone, if he feels like discussing the Consortium
with us, he will. I listen to Walter and wait for Alex to come to us
first.
The surgery went well but Alex is still worried. Scully will be here
later tonight to check up on him.
END MULDER POV
***
EPILOGUE
LATER THAT NIGHT
Alex, Walter and Fox were sitting on the living room floor playing with
Josh and Sergei. Scully had just left from examining Alex after his
surgery two weeks ago. She said he was doing well and his hormones were
already balancing themselves out.
Walter stood up, noticing the time and said, "Hey, I think it's time
for bed."
Josh and Sergei were still playing but their eyes did look droopy.
Alex grinned, knowing once the boys were put in their cribs; it was
play time for the adults. They all rose from the living room
floor, Walter holding his back.
"Hey, big guy - not getting to old to play with us youngsters, are
you?" teased Mulder.
Walter snorted. "I'm only seven years older than you, boy. Don't you
forget it."
They kissed, then turned to kiss Alex and then the babies. Without ever
saying the words, the three men with their babies express their love
for each other every day.
THE END