Equilibrium by necessary angel
Pairing: BF/RK.
Rating: PG-13, for vaguely implied violence, vague m/m suggestions and
for
Ray's potty mouth.
Spoilers: Lots for Eclipse and Burning Down the House.
There are, also,
references to Victoria's Secret, The Pilot Movie,
and tiny minor advance
spoilers on Ray's background from Easy
Money.
Disclaimer: These guys belong to Alliance. This is just for fun, and
trust me I
don't have anything worth suing for <g>.
Notes: This is a sequel to my story "Reaction". It starts during the
gap
between Burning Down The House and Eclipse, and
links into the events
portrayed in Eclipse. I've always been
intrigued by Fraser's readiness to
accept Ray as his partner and
his friend in Eclipse. This is one explanation of
how he
might have got to that point. I have borrowed a few lines of dialogue
from Eclipse so John Krizanc wrote the stuff you recognise
Thanks to Maxine
and Megan for encouragement, helpful commentary and
fine beta.
All mistakes are mine. All comments, good or bad to
necessary_angel@yahoo.com
He doesn't like this. He really doesn't like this.
Ray shifts and stretches his legs. It helps the cramps a little;
not much, but
some. Of course, what would really help would be getting
out of here. The
world's smallest surveillance truck.
Not much chance of that happening.
His babysitters are between him and the doors. They're two of the
biggest
guys he has ever seen in his life. These guys make Turnbull
look... well, short,
and not far off skinny. What the fuck did they
feed Canadians anyway?
Surveillance sucks, especially when he
has no chance of actually doing
anything. He had to check his gun,
and Fraser's pointed look had ensured
that he'd had to hand over
his boot gun as well before they had left on that
two-bit helicopter
ride over the border, from Port Huron. How the hell Fraser
had known
he was packing more than one piece was beyond him.
Ray sighs loudly and shifts in his seat again, earning a pissed off
glare from
the black clad Mountie on his left. Ray lifts his chin
and stares John down.
"They're moving the passengers in the target
car." Andy, the other Mountie,
turns his head, to look at Ray, for
the first time since the operation started.
Fraser is out there,
with the rest of the Mounties. Ray's newly acquired
partner looks
very different in his borrowed SWAT gear. Sorry. Make that,
RCMP
Armed Response Team gear. All black, state of the art body armor,
even the damn badges that they seemed so fond of plastering all over
their
uniforms are black. They look like they know what they're
doing. Make that,
they know exactly what they're doing even if it
seems to be taking them for-
fuckin'-ever.
The Mounties stopped the train a few hours ago just outside...where
was it...
Stratford... in the middle of fuck knows where, anyway.
Markham was on a
car near the end of the train, so it had been a
snap to separate it.
"The VIA guys on the train say Markham and
the woman have been knocking
back the booze most of the night, so
that'll help." Andy flashes a grin at Ray.
"Got to love the fact
they've got a bar on the train. Makes it easy."
Yeah, real easy.
Ray snorts, earning himself a sharp "Ssh" from Andy.
"So, is it the one shotgun Markham's got?"
Ray jumps. Jeez, he's on edge, too much sitting, and too much waiting.
John
hadn't spoken since the op had started, hadn't done much except
glare at
Ray.
"Looks like it, John. At least, the train staff haven't spotted any
other
weapons. He shot a bank teller in Chicago, right, Vecchio?"
"Yeah, and a customer."
Ray squints at his watch, 3:30 a.m. They're still no closer to getting
their
hands on Markham. Christ. He should have known this day was
going to be
bad when he'd got the tip that Markham was on the train.
Who the fuck uses
a train as their getaway vehicle? Okay, it really
wasn't that, but he can think
of better ways of getting out of the
country.
Faster ones, anyway.
Not that it made much difference. Getting an armed man, especially
one as
trigger happy as Markham, off a train takes organizing and
time. Too much
time. Somehow, it ended up with the Canadians doing
the work. Maybe the
train idea wasn't quite so dumb after all.
He really doesn't trust SWAT guys, trigger-happy macho freaks at the
best of
times, and Fraser's way too keen on leaping before he looks.
A guy who goes
into a burning house, and insists on staying in a
burning car, isn't going to be
real cautious about dodging bullets.
Somehow, all in black, without the silly
pants and the day-glo tunic,
Fraser looks even less careful than normal.
The radio crackles
and buzzes. Ray doesn't need the whispered confirmation
from John
to know this is it.
They're going in.
Over Andy's broad shoulders he can just make out the shadows of the
perimeter team surrounding the train car. Fraser's among them somewhere.
He is apparently a crack shot, good enough to be seconded onto
the
Response Team, though not the boarding party, for the night.
Ray had picked
up enough to know that it had been a scramble for
the Mounties to muster a
team together for this op; something to
do with provinces and other stuff that
Ray hadn't even tried to
make much sense of.
"They're in," John mutters.
Ray nods, and tries not to let the fact that he is the only cop here
without a
gun bother him. There are lights moving in the train car
now; any second
now, and they should have Markham.
Several heartbeats later, a group of dark shadows appears in the doorway
of
the train car and Ray feels, rather than sees, Andy relax next
to him.
"Got 'em." The quiet satisfaction in Andy's voice makes Ray grin.
"Smooth as fucking silk." John adds from behind Ray
and slaps him on the
back. Ray winces as his chest, still bruised
from taking that crazy chick's
bullet, makes contact with Andy's
elbow, but the truck door is open and he's
following him out into
the cold darkness.
Fraser materializes next to him as Ray moves forward on still stiff legs.
"Markham is traveling on a Canadian passport, as is his
companion." Fraser
sounds, just as usual, calm and clear, and Ray
feels the last of his worry drain
away.
"That means more paperwork, right?" Ray rubs his chest and follows
Fraser
as he walks towards the train station, where they had left
their borrowed
RCMP car.
"At the very least."
They are getting closer to Stratford proper now. There is light enough
to see
Fraser's face and the wry twist of his mouth.
"Great."
Ray pushes away his plate and leans back in his
chair. Fraser is dealing with
his pancakes and bacon with every
sign of enjoyment. Not that Ray can
blame him; the food is great
and the coffee even better. It is going some way
towards making
Ray feel human again, after several hours of paper shuffling
and
aimless hanging around while the RCMP interviewed Markham and Holly.
Finally they'd run out of forms for him to fill out, and Fraser
had pulled him
out of the station after a quiet conversation with
the desk clerk.
Fraser's still wearing the remnants of his SWAT
gear at least the pants -
and he appears to have acquired a black
sweater from somewhere.
Ray's own clothes feel kind of funky;
maybe he should have borrowed some
stuff. Not that the local Mounties
seem to come in any other size other than
extra large... or female.
Still, he can cope; Stratford has stores.
To Ray, the unrelieved
black and tired creases around Fraser's eyes make him
look as if
he has been up all night in some smoky jazz-fuelled dive rather than
waving big guns around in the quiet Canadian countryside.
Ray barely represses a snicker. Neither image seems to fit with the
glass of
milk that Fraser has chosen to accompany his breakfast,
or was it dinner?
Neither of them had eaten since well before the
op started the previous night.
Still, the glass of milk seems more
in keeping with the red tunic and weird
boots than this tired, somewhat
tousled version of his new partner.
It's a bit like looking in
a fun house mirror and trying to spot the real man.
Odd enough to
see him without the wolf, let alone the rest of it. Ray shakes
himself;
he barely knows the man. One startling day in his company, and
what
he has gleaned from Vecchio's files, is not enough to enable him to pick
out the real Fraser.
Ray glances around the diner; it is a nice place, lots of soothing
green and
plain pale wood, certainly a step or two above the diner
next to the 2-7, but
nothing fancy.
The waitress pauses in her task of clearing the table next to him.
"More
coffee?"
"Yeah, please."
Fraser looks up at the sound of his voice as if it has finally broken
the trance
his food seems to have cast over him.
"So, what are our escape plans?" Ray nods his thanks to the waitress,
and
takes a soothing sip from his freshly filled mug.
"Escape plans? Oh, yes, I see."
"What? I'm not going to like this, am I?
"Oh dear." Fraser rubs his thumb over his eyebrow. "I took the liberty
of
enquiring about flights from Toronto, and the earliest we can
get one is late
tomorrow night."
"So we're stuck here until then? Fuck. I know another helicopter trip
is out.
I'm kinda surprised they sprung for it in the first place."
"Not exactly. There is a train that leaves for Chicago tomorrow morning."
"How long does it take...forget it. I guess the train is our best
option. At least
I'll be able to catch up on some sleep."
Fraser's eyes narrow, and he opens his mouth and then closes it quickly.
Something that looks suspiciously like surprise flickers across
his face before
he nods.
"Speaking of which, Constable Williams was kind enough to find us
rooms at
a local hotel. She says it is clean and quiet, if somewhat
on the basic side. Of
course, we are lucky to find anything at this
time of year."
"Why? I mean, it isn't that small a place. It must have motels or
something."
He finishes his coffee, and looks over at Fraser's empty
plate. "You done?"
"Yes, I am." He pauses while Ray signals to
the waitress. "Of course! I'd
forgotten you wouldn't know. Stratford
is home to one of the biggest theatre
festivals in Canada for part
of the year. Shakespeare mainly, but they perform
works by other
playwrights. It is particularly busy during the summer and any
accommodation
tends to get booked up quickly."
"Oh. Well, as long as it has a bed and a shower I really don't care."
"Understood." Fraser pushes himself to his feet, and smiles slightly.
"I must
admit that I share your sentiments at the moment."
"Yeah, I'm sure."
Ray follows Fraser out into the sunny square.
They have almost made it back to their car, which they'd left by the
riverside,
before Ray thinks to ask, "So, where we gonna hang out
tonight? Some wild
Mountie celebration party?"
Fraser licks his lower lip and shakes his head. "It's a pity that
it is almost
certainly impossible to obtain tickets for one of the
plays tonight."
Ray raises his eyebrows, taken by surprise at
the wistful note in Fraser's
usually steady tones. "They have theatres
in Chicago, Fraze."
Fraser's face changes, smoothes into the blandest
mask Ray has yet seen
from him. "I must admit that I've taken shamefully
little advantage of that
aspect of city living."
"They must get returned tickets and stuff here." Ray is almost as
surprised to
hear his own words as Fraser obviously is. He feels
more like sleeping for a
week than a night at the theatre.
"So...I mean, do you...?"
"Where's the box office?" Ray can't help but grin at this flustered
version of
Fraser.
"Well, the Festival Theatre is just up there. I could see what they
have. Do
you have any...?"
"Anything, Fraze. Gimme the keys. You go and see what you can get."
Ray watches Fraser lope off up the hill to the oddly tent-like theatre
with
more energy than seems natural for someone who has been up
for almost
two days straight, certainly more energy than Ray knows
he has himself.
Fruitcake artists, holding up trains, and Shakespeare.
Life around Fraser isn't
dull, that's for sure. Maybe Vecchio went
undercover with the mob for a quiet
life. Ray chuckles; shit, he's
tired, too tired to make much sense. He yawns
and heads towards
their car.
"And Constable, please ensure those are dispatched
today. It is very
important. Dismissed." Inspector Thatcher turns
her attention back to the
stack of files on her desk.
"Yes, Sir."
Fraser leaves the Inspector's office, and shifts his own pile of files
so that he
can carry them comfortably under his arm. The pace of
work at the Consulate
has been unrelenting in the few days since
his return from Stratford.
Turnbull is making headway with the
backlog of routine paperwork that had
built up during the Consulate
move, but it is still slow going. The additional
paperwork the move
has caused, together with some extra and very sensitive
demands
from Ottawa, would be more than enough to deal with without the
burden of the mountain of paper that the incident in Stratford has spawned.
He has barely left his desk for the last few days, but he seems
to have made
almost no dent in the pile of papers in his in-tray.
The truth is, his mind isn't really on his work. It is hard to settle
into the
placid routine of form filling and the quiet rhythms of
the Consulate. It's not
enough. It never has been. It used to be
easier to bear. It was easier to bear
before his vacation.
Whatever the limitations of his personal relationship with the real
Ray
Vecchio, it hadn't affected the way they worked. Victoria, or
more accurately
Fraser's own conduct, had cracked their friendship
more deeply than either of
them had been able to paper over. It'd
been increasingly difficult on a
personal level, especially in recent
months, but they worked well together.
They balanced each other.
Fraser knew exactly what Ray Vecchio expected
from him, and most
of the time they got the results they needed. It had been
easy and
Fraser missed that, a great deal.
Stratford has just added to the unsettled feelings that have been
plaguing
him of late. He'd forgotten how much he missed working
as an authentic
RCMP officer. Or, at least he had become inured
to Consulate life, to working
within the limitations of his role
as Deputy Liaison Officer. The incident with
the dumped chemicals
while he'd been on holiday, and then Stratford, had
reminded him
how very different his work could be. However much he
stretched
and twisted the limits of his job description, it just wasn't the same
here.
"...Fraser, Fraze." Fraser starts, and looks up to find Ray watching
him with a
frown.
"I'm sorry. I was, uh...."
Fraser is still standing in the corridor outside Inspector Thatcher's
office, and
he has no idea how long he has been there. Some time,
judging by the
amused, impatient look on Ray's angular face.
"Spaced out, eh?"
Ray smiles, and moves confidently ahead of Fraser towards his office.
"What brings you here?"
Ray is perched on the edge of his desk, swinging his foot. Fraser
is suddenly
very sharply aware of how small his office is as he
moves past Ray to deposit
the paperwork on his desk.
"More paper." Ray taps the file he is holding. "Surprise, huh? This
lot was
waiting for me when I got back from court. I thought I'd
bring it over. Welsh
is on a report binge, and I couldn't face that."
Court. Ah, that explains Ray's slightly rumpled dark grey suit and
the
loosened tie.
"Thank you, Ray." Fraser can't stop the edge of sarcasm from coloring
his
voice as he takes the proffered file.
"You know me, have to share the joy." Ray winks. "So, do you want
to grab
something to eat with me later?"
"Unfortunately, I don't think that is going to be possible. These
have to be
completed and dispatched today."
"That sucks. You Canadians sure love your paper."
"Well, Ottawa does."
Fraser hadn't meant to say that. He seems to be developing a habit
of letting
things slip out in front of this man. "What I mean is...
it is all very
necessary...."
"Yeah, I'm sure." Ray slides off his desk. "Well, a rain check then?
You gonna
be at the 2-7 tomorrow?"
"Yes; we could have dinner another night, and I hope to have some
time
tomorrow afternoon."
Fraser hadn't had any such intention but his liaison duties are, after
all, an
important part of his work in Chicago.
"See you then." A quick bright smile, and Ray is gone.
Fraser opens the first file, trying to ignore how small and quiet
his office now
seems. He listens for the thud of the front door
closing, which seems to
happen all too soon.
"He's a good man."
Oh, great; that's just what he needs. Fraser looks up and finds, as
he had
expected, his father sitting in the visitor's chair on the
other side of his desk.
"Indeed he is. Dad, do you mind? I've rather a lot to get through here."
"So I can see. You really shouldn't
let your paperwork build up like that. It's
inefficient, son."
"Inefficient!" Fraser takes a deep breath. "Well, if you would let
me get on
with it, then."
He starts working on the first file; he doesn't have time for this.
"All in good time, don't rush me. He's a good man."
"You said that."
"A wise tracker knows all the habits of the prey he is following."
"What does that have to do with anything?"
Fraser stops his attempt at work; he obviously isn't going to get
anything
done until his father has had his say.
"Just what it says." His father smiles, somewhat patronizingly.
"Which is?"
"Really, son, I shouldn't have to spell it out. He is a good man but
what do
you know about him? I taught you better than that." Another
smile, very
definitely patronizing.
"He is undercover, Dad. You remember what that means, don't you?"
Fraser bends his head, and attempts to return to his work.
"If you would just listen, son."
His father was truly impossible. Fraser closes the file. "I'm listening."
"All I'm trying to say is that you need to know the mettle of the
man you're
working with."
"He is undercover."
"So you keep saying."
"Which means his file isn't going to be accessible." Fraser tries for patience.
His father shakes his head. "You're forgetting everything
I taught you. You
are getting soft behind that desk. You have the
means and you should know
the ways."
"Fraser." Elaine greets him with a weary smile.
"You're something of a stranger round here.
If you're looking for
Ray, he's in with the Lieutenant."
"Elaine. Thank you. I'm afraid we've been...."
"Hey, Fraser. You made it out of report hell. Have a seat. I'm almost
done
here." Ray is moving towards his desk as he speaks.
"Hello, Ray." Fraser sits down. "I must apologize. The workload at
the
Consulate was rather more than I expected and I was unable to
come over as
I promised."
"Fraze. Fraze. So you said on the phone. Chill. It's okay, really.
Well, it's not
okay. I mean, being stuck there instead of out getting
the bad guys must
suck. At least, it would for me. But stuff happens,
right?"
"That's very understanding...."
Ray's desk phone shrills, and Fraser stops babbling with an inner
sigh of
relief.
"Vecchio."
This is ridiculous.
It isn't as if the new information he has uncovered about this man
is
damaging. Far from it; Ray has a fine record. Despite outward
appearances,
the Chicago Police Department made an excellent choice
in providing Ray
Vecchio's cover.
It doesn't help.
It doesn't help at all. He still feels disconcerted... disconnected.
Despite the
tedium of the Consulate workday, Fraser is almost tempted
to return there.
Almost.
Ray slams down the phone.
"Problem?"
"Nothing that won't wait until tomorrow. It's been a long day, that's
all. How
about dinner?"
Fraser shakes his head and then stops. Dinner might be what he needs
to
settle him down, to allow them to pick up the tentative threads
of their
partnership. "Dinner sounds good."
"Sure about that?" Ray is smiling despite the sarcasm.
"Perfectly sure." It takes much more effort than it should to keep
his face
straight.
Damn.
Would his phone ever stop ringing? This must be the fifth phone call
in the
last twenty minutes. Fraser sighs, and drops his latest attempt
at completing
his report into the wastebasket, before picking up
the receiver.
"Canadian Consulate. Deputy Liaison Officer, Constable Fraser...."
"Yeah, yeah. I know who you are Fraze."
"Ray. What can I do for you?" Fraser manages to keep his voice casual.
There is a slight pause.
"Umm. Just checking in, you know. Making sure you haven't drowned
under
all that paper."
Ray sounds hesitant, much more so than he had the last time he called
Fraser. He has spent very little time with Ray actually working
in the last ten
days. The odd hour or so here and there, mainly
to deal with the extradition
of Markham and his girlfriend from
Canada. He'd thrown himself into his work
at the Consulate.
It is easier that way.
"Not quite Ray. It's still pretty heavy going here."
Fraser carefully keeps his gaze away from his almost empty in-tray.
He has no
real excuse for avoiding the 27th Precinct,
at the moment. He has caught up
with his backlog of work.
"I guessed as much. Okay. Just thought I'd check in. And, oh, Welsh
tells me
that the extradition is going ahead for Markham. Should
have a hearing in a
couple of weeks, maybe sooner. Looks like it'll
be very smooth unless
Markham's lawyer is a real piece of work.
Might have even been worth all that
paper chasing."
"That is very good news. We don't have any more work to do on that do we?"
"Nope. All done and dusted until they are back in Chicago.
All out of our
hands now, at least until the trial."
"Good. Ray, I really must...."
"Yeah, I should let you get back to it. I, umm, never mind. See ya."
Ray's
voice sounds odd, very tranquil, very flat; nothing at all
like his normal
staccato inflexion.
"Goodbye, Ray."
Ray is very quiet.
Fraser studies him out of the corner of his eye. Ray is slumped in
the driver's
seat, staring at the apartment building that houses
the subject of their
stakeout. It is still early in their shift
and Ray's silence and stillness seem odd,
to say the very least.
Ray had been as animated as ever at the station house when Fraser
had
arrived there. All was very much as usual as far as Fraser could
tell. But Ray's
vibrancy had deserted him almost as soon as they
had taken up their
surveillance position.
This could be Ray's normal modus operandi for a stakeout, but it seems
unlikely. This is the first real operation he has been involved
in since their
return from Stratford. Their telephone conversation,
yesterday, had been the
spur Fraser needed to resume his liaison
duties. Of course, he has never been
on a stakeout with Ray, but
given Ray's behavior during their train journey
from Stratford....
Several hours on a train with Ray had been less of a trial than Fraser
had
feared. Ray's emphatic opinions on the performance of "As You
Like It" that
they had seen the previous night pulled Fraser into
a wide-ranging debate,
which had made the first half of their journey
vanish. When they finally
wound themselves down, Ray had armed himself
with coffee and disappeared
into the book on acting he had acquired
the previous evening. Fraser had
been startled and bemused by his
companion's complete absorption into his
somewhat unexpected reading
material. He'd paid scant attention to his own
book of Shakespearean
critical theory, simply content to observe Ray - even
while reading,
Ray wasn't still - and the passing landscape in equal measures.
Ray still hasn't moved or spoken. Fraser shifts in his seat and coughs,
but
there isn't even a flicker of a reaction from Ray.
Something is very wrong with his companion.
"Ray. Ray. Ray."
"Hmm, yeah, Fraze."
Ray glances at him, quickly, and then returns to watching the apartment.
"Is everything all right? You seem somewhat distracted."
"I'm good. Everything's good." Ray's tone is curiously flat.
"I must admit that I find that hard to believe."
"I'm good."
Ray turns his head to look at Fraser. His mouth is quirked but it isn't a smile.
"Ray!"
"I'm just tired, okay?"
Fraser nods. There is not a lot he can say to that. Ray tilts his
head,
scrutinizing Fraser for a few seconds, and then stares straight
ahead through
the windshield.
He has seen Ray tired before, enervated and worn out after working
almost
forty-eight hours without a break. This is very different.
"Ray."
"What? You aren't going to let this drop are you? Fuck, Fraser, there
are
times when you should just let it go, you know."
"So, there is something wrong?"
"You tell me." Ray takes a sip of what by now must be cold coffee and
grimaces. "You tell me."
Ray's tone is startlingly aggressive.
"I'm afraid I don't understand."
"Oh, you don't, do you?" Ray finishes his coffee and shudders. "It's
okay you
know. I just wish you'd said something."
"I really have no idea what you are referring to."
"You really don't have a clue, do you?" Ray's surprise is evident
but the
aggression has vanished.
"No, I don't, so I wish you would elucidate." Fraser's voice is tart
despite his
best intentions.
"Okay, okay. I thought you were taking the out. You know - backing off. Not
that I can blame you, I'd rather you'd said something
but I could deal. Then
you turned up tonight and...."
"Ray, I meant what I said that first night."
"I know you meant it at the time."
"I meant it then, and I mean it now."
"Okay." Ray looks at him very carefully, and then nods. "Okay." He
pours
himself a fresh cup of coffee. "You want some of this? I don't
think he's going
to make a move tonight."
"I don't usually drink coffee but yes, I will, thanks. Why don't you think
anything is going to happen?"
Ray shrugs "Just going with my gut, you know."
"Hmm." Fraser takes the cup Ray offers him.
"But seeing as Welsh doesn't think that's 'a reliable method of investigation'
I
guess we'll have to stick it out."
"This is Detective Huey's case, isn't it?"
Fraser doesn't really listen to Ray's reply.
He has made several missteps and, unexpectedly, that matters; it matters
a
great deal. Ray is doing a difficult job and he has made it less
than easy for
him. Unnecessarily so.
They need a fresh start, or rather, he does.
So how?
Yes.
Yes, that could very well work. The real Ray Vecchio's birthday would
provide
the perfect cover.
"I don't suppose you happened to see him before
he left this morning?"
Fraser drops the newspaper back on the counter.
Ray's landlady is an observant woman and obviously intrigued by him.
She
looks like the type of woman who would keep an eye on her tenants.
It's an
avenue worth exploring. Ray had circled an obituary notice,
but he is sure
that Ray isn't attending a funeral. There would have
been little need for this
disappearing act in that instance. However,
he ought to make certain.
"Not to speak to, so I don't know where he was heading."
"But you did see him. Was there anything unusual...?"
"I thought you said you were a friend."
Dief growls slightly as if picking up on her hostility.
"Yes, yes I am. We work together. Even the smallest detail may be
helpful. I
really do need to get hold of him."
"Well..." She assesses him for a long moment, her sharp eyes narrowed.
"I
think he was going away, he had a bag with him. That help?"
"Thank you kindly. It does."
"Good. Well, I must be getting on. Make sure the door locks properly
behind
when you leave. And don't take anything."
Fraser waits for her to leave.
He has no excuse to remain. He has all he needs to track Ray down.
Ray is
very definitely up to something. Something Lieutenant Welsh
knows nothing
about, that much is obvious. However, once Ray learns
of the situation at the
27th Precinct, he will undoubtedly
wish to head straight there. There is plenty
of time. He has until
five o'clock.
He should leave, but he isn't going to. He is invading Ray's privacy,
but
somehow that matters less than taking this opportunity. Ray,
for all his
apparent openness, is still very much a mystery to him,
and Fraser is
evidently becoming as shameless as Diefenbaker. He
may, of course, have
missed something vital... Dief whines and Fraser
realizes he is thinking aloud.
"It's all very well for you to take that morally superior tone."
Dief merely blinks at him and
Fraser sighs. "Yes, I know. I'm being a nosy
parker. It is with
the best of intentions, I assure you." With that he turns his
back
firmly on the wolf.
This wasn't what he had expected at all. He'd thought about it. Rather
too
much. Living arrangements had been on his mind a lot recently.
The loss of
his own apartment, probably.... That didn't explain
why he had taken to
walking past Ray's apartment building while
walking Dief before work. The
first time had been curiosity; after
he'd acquired Ray's file it had seemed the
natural thing to do.
Ray's apartment is cosy. Very eclectic and somewhat cluttered. No
signs that
a woman lives here, or spends any length of time here,
despite the
photograph of Ray with a blonde woman on the desk. The
details of Ray's
record had suggested that he wasn't married or
involved. That made sense,
given his current assignment. His next
of kin is given as a Damien Kowalski,
who has an Arizona address.
Arizona is odd, though, Ray has Chicago written
all over him and
all through him, no doubt.
The photograph seems to have been taken a few years ago. Ray looks
younger, happier, unfettered. He doesn't smile like that now and
Fraser can't
help but wonder why.
He moves across to the bicycle hanging from the ceiling. It is a new
bike,
judging by the style, but is evidently well used. Well cared
for as well; the
chain runs smoothly when he turns the pedals. Ray
looks like a cyclist, lean
and wiry and energetic. It suits him.
The large collection of records and CDs doesn't surprise him. Ray's
musical
tastes are evidently very wide ranging, but that fits.
The dancing had given him momentary pause, but having seen, been
fascinated by, the way Ray moves the fact that his partner enjoys dancing
and is evidently good at it slots smoothly into place. Ray shouldn't
have to
dance alone in his apartment at night. It doesn't seem right
that that
particular pursuit should be solitary.
An equally eclectic collection of books; Fraser can't find the book
on acting
Ray bought in Stratford amongst them. There is some Shakespeare,
though;
some crime novels, science fiction, general contemporary
fiction, together
with reference books on art, boxing, cars. Even
some poetry not a lot of the
latter but the volumes seem well thumbed,
particularly the Whitman.
Dief pads past him, moving towards the open bedroom door.
"Dief!"
The wolf has his back to him and continues moving, into the bedroom.
Fraser
follows him with an exasperated sigh. He really doesn't want
to have to
explain away wolf hairs on Ray's bedding. And Dief is
indeed ensconced on
Ray's unmade bed when Fraser finds him. The
bed is large. It dominates the
room. Fraser blinks away an image
of Ray sprawled amongst dark blue
sheets.
"Off."
Dief huffs in an ill-used fashion but deigns to obey. Fraser picks
off the long
white and grey hairs Dief has left behind and hesitates.
He really has no
business staying in here. Dief is off the bed and
walking back into the living
room, his claws clicking on the hardwood
floors. He should follow him. They
should leave.
He looks around.
Ray's bedroom is untidy, far more so than the other areas of his apartment.
A
few discarded clothes on a chair, which is surrounded by yet more
clothes
that obviously failed to make it far enough. The nightstand
is scratched and
battered, the after effect of having a badge and
handcuffs dropped on it
every night. The book on acting is on the
nightstand. Ray's almost finished it.
The closet contains a couple
of suits, the dark grey one Ray had been
wearing last week, and
another dark blue one. There are several shirts, all in
various
shades of grey, blue and green, apart from two white evening shirts.
Yes, and there was the tuxedo that was their obvious partner. He
would have
needed that for dancing, if nothing else. Half a dozen
ties. Several sweaters
and some jackets. Ray's dress uniform. The
closet is surprisingly well ordered.
All the clothes are neatly
hung and arranged in order of color. The floor of
closet is littered
with shoes, boots mainly, and running shoes, a pair of hard
sports
shoes that are probably for cycling.
Fraser pauses with his hand on the handle of top drawer of the large
wooden
dresser. The bedroom had been open; the closet door had been
open. He had
taken advantage of that to indulge his curiosity. His
prurience is taking over.
He removes his hand from the handle and
stares down at it. He has gone this
far.
Dief whines from the doorway.
"You are, of course, right. We do need to find Ray."
Fraser turns away from the dresser, relieved, and trying not to think
about
what else he might have discovered.
There is no sign of Ray in the graveyard.
Fraser examines his surroundings. Ray isn't here to attend a funeral,
which
leaves...?
There is a crypt that overlooks the area where the internment is to
occur. It's
as good a place as any to start.
Ray has set himself up near the windows. It is a good place to observe
the
graveyard. A stakeout, then, judging by the equipment Ray has
surrounded
himself with - but not an authorized one.
Fraser frowns.
Ray seems to have put a great deal of planning into this. What connection
does he have with the woman in the obituary notice?
He moves closer.
Rats scuttle in the darkness. Small sounds, but enough to alert Ray.
Damn.
He had wanted an opportunity to observe him for a little longer.
Fraser pats his pocket. The dreamcatcher is still safely there. This
is perhaps
the best opportunity to give Ray his gift. Events at
the 27th Precinct this
morning suggest that once they
do return there they will have little
opportunity to talk.
Ray is pointing a gun at him, or rather at the shadows where he is standing.
"Hi, Ray." Fraser turns and moves into the light.
"...bent nail named Marcus Ellery. Until I do that I am not leaving.
Dot it. File
it. Stick it in a box marked done. Okay." Ray looks
at him steadily for a long
moment, and then turns to attend to his
prisoners.
Ray isn't listening. He isn't amenable to reason, or reminders of
his duty. He's
quite the most stubborn....
He means it.
Ray is absolutely serious, Fraser is certain of that. Ray is telling
him the truth,
is utterly sincere.
Every word Ray has spoken, since he'd interrupted Ray's solitary vigil,
has
been honest. His real name, for instance. That had been risky
and, no doubt,
against protocol. His parents ought to be shot for
that particular piece of
cruelty. No wonder Ray had expunged his
first name from his records. His
reasons for taking the assignment.
Ray has left a lot unsaid, but what he has
said has been without
subterfuge.
Ray trusts him.
Fraser swallows. That means as much as Ray stepping in front of Greta
Garbo's bullet did.
Ray's undercover assignment depends on him taking on Ray Vecchio's
life, in
all its guises. His refusal to return to the station has
to mean that this is
deeply important to him.
Ellery is the name of the woman in the obituary notice. The pieces
are still
refusing to fall into place. There'd been no mention of
an Ellery in Ray's files.
Ray is moving the prisoners to the
crypt. Fraser should help but he doesn't
move.
Despite his words in the crypt, Ray is a dedicated police officer.
A good police
officer. His record is excellent, yet he needs to
"start over"? Why on earth?
What had Ray done? Nothing that has
been officially noted in his files. Fraser
knows only too well that
such matters are rarely made official.
Fraser feels his stomach
twist with a familiar ache. His exile in Chicago is still
very hard
to bear at times.
Maybe Ellery is Ray's Gerrard?
It's possible.
Ray does seem very intent on whatever course of action he has planned.
That
kind of determination is very familiar to Fraser. It is, perhaps,
time to make a
more concrete fresh start.
Fraser glances at his watch. They have time, not that he has much
choice. It
isn't any wonder that Dief and Ray have bonded so well;
they have a
surprising amount in common.
"Fraser, a little help over here?" Ray is standing in the doorway
of the crypt,
impatience evident in every line of his body.
Fraser swallows the last of his piece of cake.
It has been a successful party.
There is very little of today that
he would change. Ray and he had barely
made it back to the Precinct
in time. He should regret that. The tension in the
Squad Room had
been almost palpable.
He should regret it but he can't. Not when he can still see Ray's
face as he
looked up at Fraser from the open grave. Not when he
can still see the
dreamcatcher soaring through the air. Not when
he can still feel Ray's hand
clasping his own. Not when he can still
hear Ray's oddly husky, intimate tones
asking him if he thinks Ray
is attractive. He hadn't been able to misdirect,
could only be honest,
in his first response....
"Thank you Constable."
"For what, Sir?" Fraser makes room for the Lieutenant, to lean against
the
desk next to him.
"Tracking him down." Lieutenant Welsh's hair is wet but he seems to
have
suffered no other ill effects from his attempts at bobbing
for trout.
"Thank you. The line up was an inspired idea."
"All his, Fraser, all his. I told you he was a good policeman. Shouldn't
have
fooled a cadet, but IA doesn't even have half a brain to rub
together between
them."
"May I ask, Sir, the evidence against Ray Vecchio - was it substantial?"
"Awkward. Circumstantial. Loose ends, Constable, and loose ends in
the
wrong hands can be damaging. Vecchio isn't corrupt. He walked
close to the
line a few times, before you came along, but that bust
was straight up."
"I see. I knew..."
"I don't believe it, he's gone and done it." Lieutenant Welsh points
at the fish
tank and a triumphant if very wet Ray.
"Hey Fraze, you know how to cook this thing?" Ray is standing in front
of him
in what feels like the next heartbeat.
"Indeed I do."
"Well, it's yours then." Ray hands him the plastic bag containing
the fish.
"Shall we split? Cake's gone. Cabbage has disintegrated
under Huey's attacks.
Trout is won, and the janitor is looking menacingly
in this direction."
"And dry clothes would probably be a good idea, Vecchio."
"Yes, Sir." Ray grins at Lieutenant Welsh. "Gimme a couple of seconds,
Fraze,
to find a clean T-shirt, and then we'll get going. Okay?"
"Certainly."
"I never said thank you, Fraze."
Ray pulls up at a stoplight. They had been driving in a companionable
silence
since they had left the Precinct.
"For what?"
"The dreamcatcher. It's beautiful. You really made it for me?"
"Of course. I'm glad you like it."
Ray smiles, with something like the unfettered joy that Fraser had
seen in the
photograph with ... well, it could only be Stella.
"It flies, Fraze. It flies."
"It does, Ray. Indeed, it does."
END
Additional notes
Some of the events depicted in this story
are loosely based on an incident
that occurred on board "The Canadian";
the train that runs between Toronto
and Vancouver, whilst I was
on the train at the end of May.
There is a regular train service between Chicago and Toronto, which
is jointly
run by Amtrak and VIA. I have used the actual route in
this story but I have
played around with the timetable for my own
purposes. I have no idea how
likely it is for Ray and Fraser to
actually have been involved in such an
incident but it is no more
a stretch, in my opinion, than the scenario used in
"Perfect Strangers"
for example. Talking of which, I am assuming for the
purposes of
this story that Ray's first visit to Toronto, just not to Canada,
occurs in that episode. Otherwise you could consider this story
an AU of sorts.
The café/diner in Stratford is based on
one I visited whilst I was there. I have
no idea what plays might
have been showing in Stratford at the time Ray and
Fraser would
have been there. I chose "As You Like it" because I can imagine
Ray and Fraser having a really good conversation about it <g>.