HOW COULD YOU!!!!


Fraser sat nervously in the clinic chair fumbling with his stetson running
his finger around the edge. Twice he unzipped the velcro on his serge jacket
collar then fastened it back up. He leaned forward and placed his elbows on
his knee's and hanged his head down staring at his boots. When he looked
back up two women smiled at him and a man that was nervously holding his
wife's hand smiled also. He nervously stood up, smoothed his red serge
jacket with the palm of his hand and walked over to the nurses station
again. He tapped lightly on the glass partition and the nurse looked up at
him from her file.

She tried to smile and added "Yes Constable Fraser, what can I do for you
again?"

Fraser gripped the stetson nervously "Ma-am, it's been an hour and I
haven't.........."

The nurse interrupted. "Constable Fraser as we told you earlier, these
things take time, I'm sure everything is just fine. Just take a seat and
someone will be with you shortly!"

Fraser gave her a weak smile. "Thank you kindly ma-am." He went back to his
seat and stretched his legs.

Minutes later the door swung opened and a very angry Ray Kowalski stepped
out. He glared at Fraser from where he stood with an ice cold stare.

Fraser stood up quickly and trembled in his boots when he saw Ray's
expression, he whispered "Oh dear."

Ray stormed over to him angrily standing an inch from his face huffing,
unable to speak with the anger consuming him.

Fraser swallowed hard and expressed his fear as he stuttered
"R-r-ray.......Ray?."

Ray glared at him with those ice cold eyes then passed him hurriedly,
grabbing the door knob, almost yanking the door off it's hinges and stormed
out of the clinic.

Fraser almost dropped his stetson as his fingers trembled and he put it on.
"Oh Dear! He is in a snit!" Fraser noticed the nurse glared at him angrily,
then the two other ladies give him a drop-dead stare. He tried to dazzle
them with his charming smile but only managed a lop-sided grin and it did
not please the angry crowd. "Excuse me......." he quickly left.

Ray was pacing by the car like a caged lion past it's lunchtime.

Fraser ran quickly, unlocked and opened the driver's door for Ray.

Ray grunting walked around him to avoid being touched by any part of Fraser.
Once he was in he yanked the car door from Fraser's hand and slammed it
shut.

Fraser held on to his beloved hat and ran quickly to the passenger side as
Ray gunned the engine on the GTO. Quickly he jumped in as Ray almost sped
off without him. Fraser dropped his hat on his lap and quickly buckled up.
He knew from past experiences that when Ray was angry he didn't bother with
street lights, stop signs, dogs cats, anything. Ray glared at him with those
frozen piercing eyes, then he reached over making Fraser jump as he
grabbed the stetson angrily and hurled it to the back seat.

Fraser afraid to even breathe stared at him and ran his thumb nail across
his eyebrow nervously. "Oh Dear. Oh Dear. Uh...Ray, honey!"

Ray vehemently snapped at him "Do not talk to me! Do you understand!"

Fraser silently nodded and looked down "Understood." Fraser then attempted
to touch his arm.
Ray jerked it away from his reach so fast as if a snake were going to bite
him. "Do not talk to me, do not touch me and do not even look at me!" he
screamed.

Fraser stared at his trembling hands in his laps "Understood."


They drove in a dead silence. Fraser's head jerked forward suddenly as Ray
pulled into the driveway slamming the brakes.

Ray was out of the car in two seconds and headed straight to thier house.

Fraser tried to unbuckle quickly but fumbled with the belt as he clawed at
it with nervous fingers. Quickly he jumprd out of the car and frantically
searched his huge pockets for the house keys. When he found them Ray had
already unlocked the door, stepped in and deliberately slammed it making the
front windows rattle. Two flower pots came tumbling down from the vibration
of the door.

Fraser ran in after Ray but Ray was already half way up the stairs. "Ray!
Ray please!" he hurried up the steps two at a time. Ray went straight to
thier bedroom, turned to look at Fraser with an ice cold expression then
slammed the bedroom door in his face making some pictures fall off the wall.
Fraser leaned over to pick them up and then he placed his forehead on the
door and knocked softly. He tried the doorknob but it was locked. "Ray? Ray
please talk to me, Whatever I did let me at least apologize! Ray please
don't shut me out!"

The house was deadly silent for a few seconds then Fraser heard his voice.
"Get away from the door Benton I have a gun and I will shoot you!" came a
very tense and strained voice from the other side.

Fraser whispered gently "You can't shoot me Ray, I took the bullets out of
your gun. Open the door sweetheart

A few more quiet tense seconds passed "Then I will beat you with the butt of
my gun Benton. Leave me the fuck alone!!"

Fraser stammered "Honey............Look Ray whatever I did, I am so very
sorry! Please let me in. Please talk to me!" pleaded Fraser leaning his
forehead on the door.

Ray screeched "You will sleep in the guest bedroom tonight Benton Fraser! I
do not want you in our bed! Leave me the fuck alone!"

Fraser then heard him crying on the other side of the door. There was
another slam, it was the restroom door and then there was silence again.
Fraser swallowed hard, unzipped the velcro on his neck and stepped away from
the door running his thumb across his eyebrow nervously. Hanging his head
down and sticking his hands in his pockets he walked down the steps feeling
very lonely and sorry for himself.

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An hour later Fraser approached again holding a large bouquet of daises with
baby breath in one hand and a bottle of red imported wine with a bag of
chocolates in the other hand. He knocked softly on the door again and
whispered "Ray? Sweetheart open the door. I got something for you!
Something you like!"

Fraser jumped when something hit into the other side of the locked door and
broke. "Go away Benton! I swear I will shoot you!" screamed Ray.

Fraser smiled at least he wasn't crying anymore. "Baby, guess what I got for
you! It's your favorite! I bought you some of those chocolate covered
things you like!" smiled Fraser.

There was silence for at least five seconds then Fraser heard Ray's voice
whimper. "Wha........What kind?"

Fraser breathed easier and spoke softly and sweetly. "The chocolate covered
pistacho's that you like. The big ones sweetheart. Open the door love!"
Fraser sifted the bag of candies in his hand.

He heard Ray's voice near the door now "How..... How much Benton?"

Fraser stood up straight and smiled "Two pounds, I have two pounds of your
favorite chocolates here dear. If you don't open the door they might melt
and get all smushy just like you hate for them to get. Thier fresh honey, I
just bought them 10 minutes ago from the downtown Deli." Fraser heard the
lock being released on the opposite side of the door. Fraser let out a sigh
of relief and quickly fixed the stetson on his head, he also fastened the
velcro on his red serge jacket and adjusted the flowers.

The door opened just a crack and Ray peered out.

Fraser smiled and held the candy up so he could see. Ray closed the door.
"Just leave them there Benton, my face is a mess! My eyes and lips are all
swollen and stuff!"

Fraser smiled "it's ok, I still love you love you no matter how you look.
Please love open the door" begged Fraser.

Ray stalled for another 5 seconds then opened the door. He quickly took the
box of chocolates from Fraser's hand and scurried away to the darker side of
the room.

Fraser quickly stepped in and placed the flowers and wine on the table.
Fraser was nervous but when he saw Ray place a handful of candies into his
mouth he relaxed running his fingers across his eyebrow. "Ray......I am..."

Ray wailed "Oh Benton! What am I going to do! Look at me! NO! Don't look at
me!"

Benton took two steps forward and stopped, he nervously smoothed his red
serge jacket and slowly proceeded towards Ray. "Ray, Ray ,Ray! Your still
the adorable detective I fell in love with!"

With that Ray started to sniffle again.

Benton swallowed hard realizing he said the wrong thing , stretching out
his arms this time he tried again "Ray...I meant........I mean you are
still wonderful to me!"

Ray ran up into Fraser's arms and hugged him tightly crying all over the red
serge jacket's left shoulder.

Fraser looked up to the cieling and embraced Ray tightly to himself he
then caressed Ray's spiked blond hair. Fraser then ran his lips down Ray's
neck kissing it gingerly feeling the day old stubble on his lips.

Fraser cooed "Ray tell me what I can do to make you feel better sweetheart!
You know I will do anything for you! Ray stop crying love"

Fraser moved back and gently wiped the tears away from Ray's cheeks, Fraser
kissed his nose tenderly and tasted the salt from the tears.

Fraser purred "Ray talk to me please! How can I fix it if you won't talk to
me?"

Ray's lip and chin quivered as he looked into Fraser's eyes, his eyes were
on the brink of spilling over again. "How could you do this to me Benton!
You know I warned you! You promised it would never happen! Your a Mountie
for heaven's sake! Mounties don't lie!' scolded Ray on the verge of tears
again.

Benton pursed his lips as tears glistened in his eyes now. " I know
Ray......Ray, Ray, Ray..........My wonderful Ray, I didn't lie! I would
never lie to you sweetheart! I swear I didn't do it on purpose! Please
believe me honey!" cooed Fraser staring lovingly into his lover's eyes.

Ray sniffed and wiped his swollen lips as tears ran down his cheeks full of
hurt and pain "Now I will look like a cow Benton!!"

Fraser let out a strangled laugh that came deep from within his throat and
hugged Ray to himself lovingly and tightly "No you won't! I will still love
you! You will always look great to me! Oh Ray..........how was I supposed to
know the condom would break!"

Ray whimpered "How could you get me pregnant Benton!? How could you!!!!!

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