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By T'Mar
"You sure you'll be okay, Benny?" Ray Vecchio asked, as he stood with
Benton Fraser in the hallway of his family home on Friday evening.
"We'll be fine, Ray," Fraser replied, indicating himself
and his
wolf.
Ray looked uncomfortable. "I dunno.
Maybe I should have asked Elaine
to house-sit..."
"It's a two-day conference," Fraser put in reasonably. "We'll be
fine.
I promise not to blow up your house while you're away." He
couldn't
quite help the smile that came to his features when he said
that.
"If Ma phones..." Ray began, but Fraser interrupted
quite calmly.
"Yes, Ray. I know, Ray." Fraser tried
not to smirk, but it didn't work.
His face broke into that teasing
look that he used very seldom, and it had
the effect on Ray that
it always had: he frowned.
"Benny, are you funning with
me?"
Fraser managed to get his face straight. "Just
a little bit, yes."
"Oh. Okay." The annoyed look disappeared.
"You know I trust you with my
life, Benny. But my house... well,
that's another story."
Fraser had a momentary flash
of wrecking Ray's family home in his
desperation to find the locker
key that Victoria had hidden away, but he
shut it out of his mind
and turned back to his friend. "Ray. I promise. Your
house is in
good hands."
"Yeah, yeah, okay. There's tapes in the
cabinet if you get tired of
reading books on Inuit dressmaking."
Ray waited for Fraser to attempt to
explain about Inuit clothing,
and he wasn't disappointed.
"Actually, the Inuit..."
Ray cut him off, grinning. "I know, Benny. I was just
teasing you."
"Oh. All right, then."
"I gotta go." He fingered the plane ticket in his jacket. "I still can't
believe Welsh got them to spring for a plane ticket. Beach, here
I come!
Bye, Benny."
"Have a good time, Ray," Fraser
said, closing the door behind his friend.
Being in Ray's house alone was very different to being in it with
the other
Vecchios, or even just being in it with only Ray. This
time there was no one
suggesting activities for them, or asking him
to move furniture or change
the baby or yelling at him to stop helping
in the kitchen and come and watch
the ballgame.
The first thing Fraser did was unpack his backpack and hang his clothes
up in the small space Ray had left for him in his closet. He didn't
want his
shirts getting wrinkled. One weekend without Ray or his
family. One weekend
on which he didn't have to work. Fraser was at
a loss as to what to do.
He didn't even have to cook;
Mrs Vecchio had left food in the fridge
labelled, "Ray", "Benton"
and "Diefenbaker" before she and the others had
gone to visit family
in New York state. Ray had explained to him how to use
the microwave
for best advantage with his mother's cooking, and Fraser had
dutifully
memorised the procedure. Right now, though, he wasn't hungry.
He looked down at Dief, who was eyeing Ray's bed greedily. "Now, you
know
that Ray said he didn't want wolf hairs on his bed."
Dief gave a little whine.
"No, you can't take that attitude.
He'll only be gone for two days and he
*will* notice when he gets
back. Now there's a perfectly comfortable pillow
and basket in the
corner for you."
A low growl.
"I can't
help it if Mrs. Vecchio insists on treating you as though you
were
a dog. You should just be grateful she thinks of you at all." Fraser
paused. "I'm going downstairs. You know proper behaviour." He turned
and
left. Dief followed reluctantly, with a last, longing look at
the
comfortable sleeping-place.
Fraser stood in the living room. What to do? He could read one of
the books
he'd brought with him, but it seemed a shame to disregard
the hospitality
he'd been offered. Maybe he'd watch some TV. He didn't
get much of a chance
to do that.
Fraser sat down
on the large couch and turned on the TV. There were
reruns of sports
games on one channel, a show which dealt with rather grisly
murders
on another, some show involving a spaceship and odd-looking people
on
another... He sat patiently going through the channels. There were a
heck
of a lot, since Ray's family had cable. Despite this, there
was little that
interested him. He finally found a channel which
was running a segment about
the conservation of sharks, and settled
down to watch that.
The segment was over and another
came on, detailing ancient Egypt. But
just as he decided to watch
it, a whine came from near his knee. Fraser
looked at the time. It
was already 7:45pm, and Dief was no doubt hungry.
Fraser
turned the TV off with a sigh. He'd been looking forward to
learning
more about ancient Egypt. "All right."
He proceeded
to the kitchen where he followed Ray's instructions to the
letter
and soon had steaming plates of food for himself and Dief. Being,
well,
Fraser, he didn't consider going back to the lounge and watching the
segment while eating; instead, he sat at the kitchen table and ate.
By the time the meal was over, so was the segment on
ancient Egypt.
Fraser briefly considered watching the segment which
followed, but when he
looked at the time he changed his mind. It
was already 8:30pm. He went
upstairs and changed for bed.
When Dief finally padded upstairs twenty minutes after Fraser, he
found the
Mountie standing in Ray's bedroom looking down at the bed.
Dief whined an
inquiry.
"Yes, it does look very
comfortable," Fraser said.
Whine.
"It's
Ray's bed. I don't think I'd feel comfortable sleeping in it." And
this
much was true. Fraser had been overcome by an odd feeling when he'd
pulled
back the bedclothes. He couldn't identify the feeling, but at the
same
time it made him hesitant to climb into the bed. "I suppose I could
sleep
on the floor..." he began, then rejected that idea. He could already
imagine what Ray and his mother would say if they discovered that
he'd slept
on the floor of their large, welcoming home.
Dief whined again.
"You're right; I'm being silly."
Fraser pulled the bedclothes down enough
so that he could get in,
and sat down on the bed. The strange feeling
intensified. He stood
up again. Dief whined again. He sat back down. This
could not go
on all night! Carefully, Fraser got into the bed.
Oh,
it *was* comfortable! And it smelled like Ray. That discovery calmed
Fraser a little. Ray had insisted he sleep here instead of the room
his
mother had offered. "*I* bought this bed, Benny," Ray had said.
"It's the
most comfortable one in the house." And Fraser had been
too polite to
refuse.
He pulled the covers over
himself and lay on his back as he usually did.
Yes, Ray's bed was
very comfortable...
Fraser was very angry with himself when he awoke the next morning,
the
reason for this being that he only woke up at 9am. For a Mountie
who'd been
raised in the far north, this was five hours late. But
he also knew that
this had been one of the best sleeps he'd had in
a very long time. He got up
and went downstairs without even putting
on a robe or bothering to get
dressed.
Breakfast
was simple: eggs and toast for him and a small portion from
another
plate labelled "Diefenbaker" for his wolf. Fraser took this
opportunity
to point out to Dief that wolves and dogs were only supposed to
eat
one meal a day - not that Dief cared.
After this Fraser
washed the dishes, cleaned the kitchen, went back
upstairs to change,
and then took Dief for a walk in the neighbourhood. It
was quite
a good neighbourhood - very suburban, very quiet and serene. He
enjoyed
the walk so much that he was gone for over two hours.
Just as he opened the front door of the Vecchio home, the phone rang.
He
rushed to answer it. "Vecchio residence."
"Hey,
Benny, what's up?"
"Nothing's 'up', Ray. Everything's
quite fine here."
"That's good to hear, Benny."
"How's the conference going?"
"Oh, fine. An hour-long
seminar on the new DNA techniques. A half-hour
break, which meant
no chance to get to the beach. Then a refresher course on
probable
cause. We're on lunch now. Thank goodness there's only one more
seminar
after lunch. I'm gettin' to the beach after that if I have to shoot
somebody!"
"Well, enjoy yourself, Ray."
"I will.
You take care, Benny."
"All right, Ray."
Fraser read one of his books for a while during the afternoon, then
took
Dief for another walk before repeating last night's dinner procedure.
But this time it was only 6:30 when he was finished.
"Ah!" Fraser said when he went into the bedroom to look
for his other
book and saw Ray's own TV and VCR. "Tapes. Perhaps
I could watch a tape."
The cabinet was locked, however. Fraser frowned.
Why would Ray say he could
watch something if the cabinet was locked?
It didn't occur to Fraser (and certainly hadn't occurred
to Ray) that Ray
had meant the cabinet in the living room, not the
one in his bedroom.
Instead, he reasoned that the key for the cabinet
must be on the keyring Ray
had given him which also contained his
house keys, the keys to his desk at
the precinct, and so on. It was.
Fraser unlocked the cabinet and perused the tapes. The
titles seemed
rather... vacuous. 'Beach Pleasures'. 'Fun and Sun'.
'Country Boys'. Fraser
picked up the nearest one and looked at the
cover. There was only a picture
of one man on the front. He turned
the tape over. There was another picture
- this time of two men with
their arms around each other, waves in the
background - and a blurb
which told him nothing except that the film had a
beach setting (he
had figured that out himself) and was about two men named
Bud and
Steve.
Fraser frowned. The movie wasn't labelled with
a rating. He looked at the
names of the people in the film, but he
didn't recognize any of them. Ray
favoured movies starring somebody
named Steven Seagal - in fact, he
remembered Ray watching one called
"Hard to Kill" about four times. Arnold
Schwarzenegger was another
favourite actor of Ray's, and he *had* rather
enjoyed "True Lies".
But he'd never heard of any of these actors or film
titles.
Despite this, Fraser decided to watch one. If he learned nothing else,
he
might learn something new about Ray. He put in the beach movie.
Ten minutes later he was starting to think that he should turn it
off, but
somehow he couldn't make himself move. The movie had started
off predictably
enough, two men sitting on a beach... not much dialogue...
then they had
gone into one of those lifeguard towers, and... Well.
Fraser swallowed hard
even as he kept his eyes on the screen, unable
to move.
Ray. This movie belonged to Ray. It had been
locked up here in Ray's
bedroom because of the content. It dawned
on Fraser rather belatedly that
Ray hadn't meant *this* cabinet when
he'd said to watch the tapes.
Fraser couldn't make his
hand grab the remote and turn off the tape.
Instead he just stared
at the screen, at the two men having sex. Ray had
films of men having
sex. Pornography, it was called. Not illegal, but not
something he
would have thought Ray would watch.
The scene changed.
Now there were *three* men, on the beach at dusk, and
they were...
Um. Fraser turned off the tape, setting it to rewind. Despite
this,
he knew he'd be putting in the next movie. He had to see if they were
all like this. All gay porn. *Gay*. *Porn*. Two words he'd never
considered
before, not together anyway.
He got off
the end of Ray's bed, and then he noticed... Oh dear. It
seemed the
movie had produced a rather unwanted result. He was aroused. Even
so,
he put the beach film back and put in the country one, sitting back on
the bed.
The country one had a little more of a
plot, but the point of the movie
was the same: sex. Sex, in great
detail, filmed in close-up from every
angle. Ray. These movies belonged
to Ray. Ray...
Despite himself, Fraser reached down
and touched himself through his
jeans. Oh, that felt good. He looked
at the screen again. Had Ray ever done
that? The men on the screen
looked as though they were enjoying it. Unable
to help himself, Fraser
unbuttoned his belt and opened his jeans, sliding
his hand into his
shorts, around himself.
Relief. That's all this usually
was. People had needs and needed outlets.
And not being in a relationship...
well, masturbation was a perfectly
acceptable outlet. He remembered
his grandmother telling him as much when
he'd been a teenager. "Now,
Ben, you don't have to sleep with a girl just
because of all those
hormones. Masturbation is a perfectly acceptable
outlet." Fraser
recalled being shocked, especially considering that his
grandmother
had been a missionary. But on reflection he'd realised she was
trying
to make sure he performed the lesser of two evils. Masturbation
wouldn't
get some girl pregnant, after all.
Relief. Just relief...
But even as he touched himself, Fraser knew that
this *wasn't* only
that. He was turned on by what he saw, by the thought
that *Ray*
had watched these films, and probably done exactly the same
thing.
He shimmied out of his jeans and tugged his boxer shorts down, toeing
his sneakers off at the same time.
It was deliriously
freeing, to lie back on Ray's bed and do this. He
wondered how many
times Ray had done it. He wondered what Ray had looked
like, doing
it. How had Ray touched himself? What had he thought of? Who had
he
thought of?
All Fraser could see in his mind's eye now
was Ray. The people on the
screen were only a backdrop, a soundtrack,
as Fraser thought of Ray and
spiralled towards completion.
Oh, yes! He bit his lip to prevent any sound escaping when the wave hit,
but then he realised it didn't matter. "Ray!" The cry erupted from
him even
as his seed erupted over his fingers. He lay back on the
bed. Ray.
Fraser awoke to the sound of a ringing telephone. He jerked upwards,
realising that he was naked from the waist down. He must have fallen
asleep,
after... His hand was sticky; he looked at it with distaste
and then eyed
the clock. Nearly 11pm.
The phone
stopped ringing, and Fraser went into the bathroom to shower.
He
stood under the warm spray, shocked at what he had done. He had watched
pornography, something he'd heard of but never been interested in.
However,
that didn't bother him. What bothered him was the thought
of how turned on
he had been at the sight of two men making love
together; at the thought
that Ray was also turned on by the sight;
at the thought of Ray doing what
he'd done... At the thought of Ray.
All he could think of now was Ray: Ray standing there
in the holding cell
where he'd met him; Ray in a loud shirt saying,
"I'm talking to a corpse
here"; Ray being disgusted by his tasting
habits; Ray wearing red serge to
help him out; Ray leaning over him
after shooting him; Ray carrying him in
the wilderness... *Ray*.
Fraser knew that if Ray were to walk in here at this
moment, he wouldn't
be responsible for his actions. He'd want to
kiss him, undress him, touch
him, taste him, make love to him. He
did want it. He couldn't imagine not
wanting it. It was as if years
of a vague, indefinable feeling had coalesced
into one very clear
emotion: love. He was in love with Ray and very, very
attracted to
him.
To realise and admit it was a revelation to him.
But of course he had no
idea if Ray loved him. For all he knew Ray
had a lover he hadn't told him
about, although he didn't think so.
He knew his first order of business was
to find out how Ray felt.
As Fraser got out of the shower and got ready for bed,
he made his
decision. He would ask Ray about the tapes and proceed
from there.
Ray was due back from the conference the next afternoon, late. So
until then
Fraser busied himself with his usual: walking Dief, reading...
He found the
tapes Ray had actually been referring to and watched
a couple of action
movies. While the plots were simplistic and the
acting not terribly good, he
did find them entertaining.
He was still watching one when the doobell rang. It was Ray.
"Hey, Benny."
Fraser smiled his sunniest smile; he couldn't
help himself. "Evening,
Ray."
Ray sauntered in,
threw his bags down in the hallway, went into the
lounge and collapsed
on the couch. "Why didn't you answer the phone last
night?"
"Must have fallen asleep," Fraser said.
"Yeah, I thought
you'd be asleep." Ray didn't explain his reason for
calling.
"You look tired. Want some coffee?"
"Please."
Fraser went into the kitchen to make it, but he could still hear Ray
as
he talked really loud to compensate.
"Ya know,
Benny, that conference was worth it. I spent quite a few hours
on
the beach. You should *see* some of these girls! The skimpiest bikinis
you've ever seen! And it must be like illegal to be in bad shape.
On these
beaches I only saw goddesses." Ray went on like that for
a bit, but then he
felt a presence and stopped, to find Fraser standing
in the doorway holding
his coffee. "Benny?" Benny looked rather...
strange.
Fraser came in, put the coffee down and sat
down opposite his friend.
"Ray, can I ask you something?"
Ray sipped the coffee; it was good. "Sure, Benny."
How
to begin? Insist he hadn't been prying? No, Ray would know that.
Explain
his misunderstanding? No, Ray would know that as well. Best just to
say
it. "I saw your tapes, Ray."
"Yeah, I noticed the box
out. You like the 'Die Hard' movies?"
"No, not those.
The ones upstairs. In your bedroom."
Ray choked on his
coffee and had to set it down. "You looked at the tapes
*upstairs*?"
"It was a misunderstanding. You said..."
"Yeah, yeah, I'm sure it was, Benny." Ray just stared at him, not sure
what to say. "Did you actually watch any?"
Fraser
blushed crimson. "Yes, Ray."
Ray leaned his head on
the back of the couch. "Oh G-d."
"I'm sorry, Ray..."
"I never meant for you to find out," Ray said.
Maybe if he hadn't wanted Ray so badly, Fraser would have let it go at
that, made some excuse and carried on as if nothing happened. But
now he
couldn't. If there was even a chance, he had to take it. "Find
out what,
Ray?"
"I would think those movies would
be a dead giveaway, Benny."
"They could be evidence
in a case, or anything..." He had to give Ray a
way out. Maybe Ray
*didn't* want him. Despite this he knew that Ray didn't
take the
easy way out of things. If anything, he went out of his way to make
life
difficult for himself.
"Benny." Ray looked at him now,
pain in his eyes. "You know they're not
evidence."
"I know."
"I don't really like women."
"Ah."
"'Ah'? Don't give me 'ah', Fraser! You can't understand
this, okay?
That's why I didn't tell you. I didn't want you to be
wary of me, waiting
for me to make some move on you. I wouldn't do
that, Benny. I might be gay
but that doesn't mean I'm attracted to
you, okay?" Ray was startled when
Benny appeared... disappointed
at that revelation.
"So you're not attracted to me?"
"What the hell kind of a question is that, Benny? I
know the entire
female population of Chicago is attracted to you,
but that doesn't mean I
have to be, too!"
"I understand
that, but I would still like to know." Fraser said it
calmly, covering
his desperation. He *needed* to know.
Ray picked up
his coffee and drank a little more, then sat back. "Yeah.
Okay? Yeah,
I am attracted to you. But that doesn't mean..." He stopped at
the
dazzling smile which came onto his Mountie's face. "Benny?"
"Ray, I..." He took a deep breath. "Are you seeing anyone? A man, I
mean?"
Ray frowned at the apparent shift in gears. "What?"
"Well, are you?"
"No, Benny. This is
a recent thing." It was a recent thing. He'd been
shocked to discover
that he loved and wanted his best friend, but it had
made him realise
things about himself that he would never have dared admit
before.
"Ray, I love you." Fraser had to say it, now before
he said anything
else. He'd never said it to Victoria, and that had
been a mistake. He'd
loved her and never told her. He wouldn't make
that mistake again.
Ray looked completely nonplussed.
"What?"
"I love you," Fraser repeated. "I was aroused
by those films, and by the
thought that you had watched them. Last
night... I realised that... I'm
attracted to you, too. I want you."
Fraser blushed bright red again, unable
to look Ray in the eye.
He didn't need to. Ray was off the couch and kneeling in front of him
in
half a second. Fraser lifted his eyes to meet Ray's deep green
ones, even as
his friend spoke. "Benny." A hand came up and traced
his cheek, then his
lips. "I've always loved you." Ray judged that
now was not the time to tell
Benny about how he had discovered the
truth about himself. No, that could
wait. "And I want you real bad."
He smiled up into Fraser's clear blue eyes.
Fraser slid
off the chair to kneel in front of Ray. "You do?" He sounded
shy,
yet... desperate.
"Yeah, Benny," Ray said, and touched
his lips to Fraser's.
If he had expected Benny to be
shy about this, he was mistaken. Benny
dived right in with both feet,
opening his mouth and kissing Ray for all he
was worth. His arms
came around Ray and pulled him against his body even as
his tongue
sought Ray's and tasted him.
When Benny crushed him
to him, Ray was delighted and aroused to find that
Benny was hard;
that Benny really did want him. Ray wriggled his hips
against Benny,
letting him feel that they shared this predicament.
Fraser broke away, gasping.
"What is it, Benny?"
"I want you, Ray. I need you. Please." He wasn't sure what he was asking
for, he just knew he had to ask.
Ray drew back a
little. "What do you want, Benny?"
"I don't know. You."
He pushed himself against Ray again, wanting the
contact, wanting
Ray.
Ray took that as confirmation that Benny wanted whatever
he could get. He
moved his hands to the front of Benny's jeans and
unbuttoned them, feeling
Fraser grip his shoulders to keep his balance
even as he tugged the jeans
down and yanked the boxer shorts down
after them.
He looked down at the evidence of Benny's
desire, and felt his face
flush. Benny's erection was as beautiful
as the rest of him, but then Ray
had known it would be. He touched
Benny with just his fingertips, and Benny
surged forwards, making
both of them overbalance and land on the floor.
Ray
moved out from under Fraser to lie next to him, then resumed his
tactile
exploration of Benny's most intimate organ. He lifted himself up
slightly
and smiled with happiness at the sight of Benny: flushed, eyes
closed,
in desperate need. He curled his hand around Benny now, and began to
pump him slowly, all the while keeping his eyes on that beautiful
face.
Fraser's eyes snapped open. "Ray, please!"
"Please what, Benny?"
"Kiss me."
Ray
leaned down and did as he was told, speeding his movements up at the
same time. Fraser kissed him like he was the only thing in the universe,
thrusting upwards into his hand at last, seeking orgasm, seeking
it through
the man he loved.
When Fraser came, his
cries were muffled by Ray's mouth, and Ray
continued to kiss him
as he shuddered beneath him, spilling his seed onto
himself and Ray's
hand.
Ray lay there next to Fraser and just waited.
That had been so beautiful.
*Benny* was beautiful. Their love for
each other was beautiful. He waited
for Benny to make the next move.
After a little while, Fraser moved, leaning on one elbow
and looking down
at Ray in wonder. "I love you," he said again. "Thank
you."
Ray just grinned happily. "I love you, Benny."
The warmth in those blue eyes could have melted all
the ice in
Antarctica. "What do you want, Ray?"
Although he had those movies and had read books on the subject, Ray had
never done anything more intimate than this with another man. He
hadn't
wanted to take unnecessary risks, of any kind. "Whatever you
like, Benny.
Whatever you like."
Fraser ran his
tongue along his bottom lip: a sure sign that he was
nervous. "What
would you like to do, Ray?" His tone was both tentative and
expectant.
Ray realised what Fraser was asking. He wasn't actually
asking what Ray
wanted to do; he was asking if Ray wanted to make
love to him. Ray kissed
him to stall for time, aware that stalling
probably wasn't the best idea in
his condition. Oh, he did want to
make love to Benny, oh yes. But he'd never
done it before, and he
was certain Benny hadn't. "I want to make love to
you," he finally
said. "But I don't think we should do it now..."
"I
want you to make love to me," Benny said, snaking one hand down
between
them and touching Ray through his pants, feeling Ray surge upwards,
towards
him.
"Benny, I've never done this. What if something
goes wrong? I don't have
any..." He was silenced by Benny's mouth,
almost coming undone when Benny's
tongue invaded his mouth... But
then Benny pulled back a little.
"You'd never hurt me,
Ray. And there is never going to be any kind of
barrier between you
and me."
That thought made Ray, impossible as it seemed,
even harder. "You mean
that, Benny?"
Fraser, having
made his decision, sat up, smiling down at Ray. "Of course
I do."
Ray sat up, and they stood together. "Yeah, I know.
Mounties don't lie."
He got in another quick kiss before Fraser could
start lecturing him about
the RCMP. They walked up the stairs together.
Fraser sat, naked, on Ray's bed, this time feeling as though it was
right to
be here, right to *enjoy* sitting here, while Ray rummaged
through the
bathroom for something suitable.
"Here
ya go." Ray tossed the bath-oil to Fraser and began to take off his
own
clothes, stopping and staring at the image before him. "G-d, Benny, you
look so good sitting there, waiting..." He couldn't finish the sentence.
He
was having trouble with his pants; touching himself anywhere near
his, er,
affected area only served to remind him of the desperation
they were both
feeling. But finally he got the pants and underwear
off, and he stood there,
naked, in front of Benny.
Fraser, emboldened by their equally naked states, flipped the cap of
the
oil open, and whispered, "Come here, Ray."
Ray
stepped forward, and Fraser anointed him with the rose-scented oil,
his
touch as light as possible - he didn't want this to be over before it
had begun.
Frannie was going to kill them if she
ever found out what they'd used
her bath-oil for... The thought amused
Ray. "Turn over and lie down, Benny."
Fraser complied,
lying face-down and spreading his legs as wide as
possible, waiting.
He wanted this; knew now that he'd wanted it from the
minute he'd
seen that first movie and realised its implications. He wanted
Ray
to possess him, to be with him, to claim him as his own. He knew that
he
would get to possess Ray in the same way soon... It would be beautiful.
Ray knew he had to go slowly and carefully, to try and
make this as
painless as possible. He let the oil dribble all along
Benny's beautiful
buttocks, into the cleft, and then he helped it
along. First he breached
Benny's body with one finger, taking as
much time as he dared, then with
another... But his own body's needs
began to telegraph themselves the closer
he got to his goal of preparing
Benny as thoroughly as possible. Another
finger... and Benny writhed
under him. "Now, Ray. Do it, please!"
He had no choice.
Ray moved up against Benny, fitting himself into
Benny's body as
carefully as he could, a little at a time.
Fraser lay
there, the finality of it assaulting him. Ray was actually
making
love to him! And it did hurt, but not as much as he'd thought it
would.
And soon the hurt was counterbalanced by an intense pleasure, made
even
more intense when Ray's erection touched that small gland inside him...
Fraser moved with Ray, grinding his own erection into the bedsheet,
finally
managing to wedge one hand underneath himself, to provide
enough stimulation
on this side as well.
They both
wanted the pleasure to go on forever, and Ray tried to take his
time,
moving as slowly as he dared, letting Benny get used to the sensation
of having someone inside him. But all too soon it was not enough,
and Ray
braced himself on either side of Benny, moving now more on
instinct, with
more purpose, more need.
Fraser sensed
the change, and touched himself more strongly, too, wanting
to come
with Ray. And there it was: he felt, heard, assimilated Ray's moan
of
completion as Ray came inside him, long and hard. That was enough to
push
Fraser over, and he ground his mouth closed as he came, his
face buried in
Ray's pillow.
Ray had managed to
keep his weight mostly off Benny, and now he slowly
lowered himself
to lie along Benny's back, nestling his cheek in the space
between
Benny's shoulder blades.
After long moments, he managed
to speak. "You okay, Benny?"
"I love you, Ray."
It was enough of an answer.
Fraser woke up in the early hours of Monday morning, all tangled together
with Ray. That had been the most profound night of his life. He loved
Ray,
and Ray loved him. And it was all thanks to those x-rated films...
films
which still sat on top of Ray's VCR. Fraser had an idea.
Ray thought he heard voices, then panicked as he woke up more fully and
realised he wasn't holding onto Benny anymore. He lifted his head,
only to
find Benny staring at him as he sat propped up against the
headboard. Benny
was wearing the happiest smile he'd ever seen. "Benny?
What time is it?"
"It's 4:30am, Ray."
"Why are you awake?"
"I don't know. I just woke up,
and I thought... I could use a little
entertainment." He indicated
with his left hand.
Ray struggled to lift his head,
but he finally made it. Benny was
indicating the TV. Which was showing
a particularly graphic scene of two men
doing... a variation of what
he and Benny had been doing earlier. Although
the guys on the screen
had really annoying music to do it to. Ray had always
thought, if
you were going to have sex to music, you should choose
something...
hotter. He realised his thoughts were wandering, and grinned.
"Looking
for inspiration, Benny?"
Fraser grinned. "*You're* my
inspiration." He looked at the screen again,
and his face took on
the Mountie Lecture look. "You know, Ray, if you look
at these films
critically, they're not very accurate."
Ray had managed
to extricate himself from under the duvet and now he put
some pillows
behind his head and sat up a little, all the better to see the
screen
from his new position. "Huh?" He was still concentrating on getting
comfortable.
"Every time they do - well, that - they use a condom.
But it mysteriously
appears just at the," Fraser blushed; he couldn't
help himself, "crucial
moment, and disappears again afterwards. And
I haven't seen any... you
know... lubricant."
That
blush made Benny look sooo innocent. "Movies are far removed from
real
life, Benny. We should know. How many cop shows have we seen that are
truly realistic?"
Fraser's attention was still on
the TV, where a porn actor of obviously
majority age was dressed
in a school uniform (well, the *top* half of a
school uniform) and
having, er, sexual intercourse with another actor who
was obviously
supposed to be a football player. "I think I see your point,
Ray,"
he said, never turning his head from the TV. "I don't think that actor
could pass for seventeen or eighteen, do you?" He didn't wait for
an answer.
"And who would do - well, that - on a desk that squeaks
so much? They didn't
even lock the door. Anyone could walk in and
find them."
Ray burst out laughing. It was certainly
a new experience to watch these
movies with Benny.
Benny, however, didn't see why Ray was laughing. "Some cop shows try
for
realism, Ray, but here they aren't even trying. Not to mention
that movie I
watched yesterday. Who would lie on top of a tractor?
It makes no sense to
me."
Ray moved up next to Fraser
and put his arms around him, leaning his chin
on one gorgeous bare
shoulder. "But does it turn you on, Benny?" He kissed
Fraser's neck
even as Fraser flushed even more visibly.
"Yes." Fraser
sounded bewildered at that.
"So it doesn't need to be
realistic, does it?"
"That's silly, Ray..." Fraser began,
but Ray kissed him to shut him up.
"Well, how about
we watch more of these and you can gimme the Mountie
Review of each
one?"
Fraser had never before considered that watching
such movies together
might be an erotic experience, but he was finding
it so. He still thought
that the movies could be more realistic,
but he kept from telling this to
Ray.
Ray squeezed
him tightly. "G-d, Benny, you turn me on. But we both have
to work
tomorrow, y'know." He pulled the pillows straight and coaxed Benny
to
lie down with him. "Let's get some sleep, okay?"
Fraser
fumbled with the remote and turned off the TV. "All right, Ray."
"And tomorrow after work, what say we go back to your place and try what
those guys were doing in that locker room scene?"
"It looked rather... uncomfortable," Fraser said uncertainly.
"We'll make some modifications," Ray laughed.
"Very
well, Ray." Fraser snuggled up to the man he loved and went to sleep.
THE END