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of a sequal to the Unexpected Visit series but is not necesary to the
story line. It takes place before Matchmaker. Please read on and I
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A SURPRISING GAMBLE
Margaret Thatcher sighed
and removed her glasses to rub the bridge of her nose wearily. She had
been staring at reports all day and her eyes were beginning to glaze
over from the strain and her head was starting to ache. She glanced at
the clock on her wall and was surprised to find it was so late, already
after seven. Turnbull would have already gone home, Fraser was probably
out somewhere with Kowaski, as he almost always was when he wasn't working.
A stab of unusual jealousy pierced her heart, the Mountie spent more
time with that damn detective than he did at work.
She shook her head, she
was being silly, but sometimes Fraser seemed so happy to see his partner
and always eager to leave, as though being with her at the consulate
was hard on him. They had kissed at Christmas, and Thatcher had told
herself it was just the overwhelming surprise brought on by his gift
to her, a homemade shawl. They had not spoken of that night since, though
at times she caught Fraser watching her under those deliciously long
lashes of his, and she immediately sent him a cool look in return. He
had to understand that they could never be more than what they were,
a superior officer and her subordinate, despite the face that Margaret's
pulse quickened every time she
saw him.
He always seemed so natural
with Ray, why couldn't he be that way with her? again she shook her head,
she was contradicting herself again. he wanted to be closer to Fraser,
but she herself had set the guidelines that kept them apart and Fraser
kept within those boundaries dutifully, damn him. Sometimes she
wished he's walk into her office pull her from her chair and smother
her with kisses, and to hell with duty. she often fantasized how it would
be to be in his strong arms as he swiped her desk clear and took her
right there in a primal lust that needed to be sated by them both. A
knock sounded at her door and she jumped, startled to be caught daydreaming.
"Come in." she admitted
curtly and Fraser open the door and walked inside. He was still in his
Red Serge, which she found strange because he usually changed before
going with Kowalski. Her cheeks reddened remembering what she had just
been thinking about, those powerful arms and fantastic thighs that his
uniform now covered respectively. "What is it, Fraser?" she demanded,
harsher than she meant to, but he made her nervous.
"Forgive me for intruding."
he offered politely. "But I noticed that your light was still on and
wondered if I might be able to assist you with whatever you are doing."
"You are off duty, Constable."
she pointed out, wondering why it was suddenly so warm in here. Fraser
nodded.
"As are you, Sir." he
reminded quietly. "I just thought you might get whatever you are working
on done faster if you had some help."
"Eager to get rid of me,
Fraser?" she shot stonily and regretted her words instantly at his blush
and sudden fidgeting. He lowered his eyes.
"No, Sir." he relied.
"I just thought you might like to get home before the storm hits." Her
eyes widened.
"What storm?" she asked.
"The weather bureau has
issued a very severe thunderstorm and flash flood warning, Sir." He explained
calmly. Ah, that explained why he wasn't already out with the detective.
"It has already started to rain heavily and I believe the storm will
only get worse, so I wanted to make sure you got home safely." Thatcher
was touched by his concern. She nodded and dropped the file and her glasses
on the desk.
"Thank
you, Fraser." she allowed softly as she rose from her chair. "Perhaps
I should head home." Fraser nodded and retrieved her coat for her. She
switched off the light in her office and closed the door, then allowed
Fraser to escort her to the front door of the Consulate.
"Would you like me call
a cab, Sir?" he suggested. "It might be safer than driving yourself."
She shook her head wryly.
"You've ridden in the
cabs in this city, Fraser." she reminded with a small smile. "I'll take
my chances with the storm." Fraser nodded.
"Understood." he replied
as he opened the door, only to be blasted by a gale force wind and spraying
rain. They stepped back and he managed to shut the door, they were both
drenched from those few seconds.
"Guess I won't take my
chances." she muttered, pushing her plastered hair away from her forehead.
Fraser ran to retrieve towels and handed them to her.
"I hadn't
realized it had already gotten so dangerous." he remarked, the consulate
was well insulated and he had not heard the storm outside. "I apologize
for not coming for you earlier." Thatcher dismissed his words with a
wave of her hand as she attempted to dry her hair. she hadn't even fastened
her coat, so even as Fraser slipped it from her arms, she noticed the
front of her blouse was now plastered to her as well, revealing the light
outline of the lacy bra she wore underneath. Fraser had also noticed
her plight and in a moment he returned with one of his long sleeve red
flannel shirts.
"Thank
you, Fraser." she offered heading toward the bathroom to change. She
glanced back at him and indicated his own dripping uniform. "You'd better
change as well."
"Yes,
Sir." he agreed and waited until she closed the door of the bathroom
before heading back to his office.
Thunder boomed overhead,
making Thatcher jump as she peeled her sodden clothes from her and hung
them to dry. She pulled on Fraser's shirt, expecting it to be rough,
but it was actually velvet soft from many washings and she detected Fraser's
own unique scent on it. She couldn't help bringing it closer to her face
and inhaling deeply, closing her eyes momentarily. shaking herself, she
combed her hair away from her face, thankful that she had gotten it cut
short and so it wasn't as difficult to manage. Her mascara was running
and she was starting to look like a raccoon, so she quickly scrubbed
her face clean, and applied a touch of powder and lipstick from her purse.
Fraser's shirt fell well
past her knees, and she was having difficulty picking up things, because
the sleeves were so long on her. Finally she was ready to face the Mountie,
no longer feeling like a drowned rat, though she did feel slightly silly
in his shirt. For some reason she expected Fraser to change into his
spare uniform, but when she emerged, he was leaned against the far window
in tight blue jeans and a light blue flannel shirt, Diefenbaker was cowering
under the desk.
"What's wrong with him?"
she asked him of the wolf. Fraser sighed, his arms had been folded across
his chest, but when he noticed her he stood more erectly.
"He doesn't like storms,
much." supplied Fraser simply, shooting Diefenbaker a scolding look.
He glanced back at her, trying not to think how good she looked in his
shirt. "Red suits you." She stared at him and felt her cheeks grow warm.
Was he teasing her? He hadn't done that before.
"Yes, well. thank you."
she stammered almost shyly. She walked over and stood beside him to glance
out at the storm, her bare feet cold on the hard wood floors. "It does
look bad out there."
"Ray called and said they
were closing down some of the roads already and that we might need to
prepare for a power outage." He stated, catching the look of anxiety
that flashed across her beautiful face. Was she afraid of the dark, or
simply worried about being here with him alone in such circumstances.
He reached down and began to roll up the sleeves of the shirt she wore,
until her hands once again became visible. She smiled up at him gratefully,
saw something in his eyes that spoke of deep, uncharted feelings and
looked away.
"I believe
there are some candles in the kitchen, Fraser." she indicated, her voice
giving nothing away. "Perhaps you should retrieve them and we'll settle
in my office." Fraser nodded and went to do as he was told. Thatcher
almost sagged against the window in relief. How could one man have such
control over her emotions? When she had emerged from the bathroom and
saw him leaning against the window she immediately thought she had dreamed
him off the book cover of Lumberjack weekly. He looked so virile, so
masculine and his muscles seemed to almost strain against the thin material
of denim and flannel that covered them. His shirt was open slightly at
the neck and she caught a glimpse of the smooth chest underneath, surprised
that he wore no T-shirt underneath as he usually did. and those eyes,
isn't there a law against having eyes that blue and sparkling, like the
clearest, coldest part of the deep Atlantic?
"Sir?" that soft voice that was so much Fraser's filtered through her
thoughts and she turned toward him, once again embarrassed to be caught
fantasizing about him. He held a held a dozen candles, his kerosene lamp
and a box of matches.
"Yes, Fraser?" she responded,
determined not to show her nervousness.
"Did you wish to go to
your office or..."
"Yes, that's fine." she
assured heading in that direction, with Fraser and Diefenbaker following.
She glanced down at the wolf and sighed, opening the door to allow him
inside.
"I can have him leave
if you prefer." offered Fraser, sensing her aggravation with the animal.
She shook her head and switched on her light.
"No." she returned. "Just
don't let him chew on anything." Diefenbaker wined at her in protest,
how dare she think he'd do such a thing, he was a wolf after all, not
some trained house dog. She ignored him, but shot him a warning look
when he tried to climb up on her expensive leather couch. He sighed and
settled beside it. Fraser left the candles and lamp on her desk, placing
the matches close to them. Thatcher curled up on the sofa, drawing her
feet up under her and silently wished now she had bought a television
for her office.
"Would
you like something to drink or eat, Sir?" he offered, he seemed uncertain
to wander far from the door.
"Yes, Fraser." she decided.
"Get us some drinks and snacks, since we'll be here a while. My purse
is on the desk." Fraser nodded, ignored her offer for money, and
went out. He returned a few minutes later with drinks and snacks from
the vending machine and a blanket from his cot. He offered it to her
and she smiled at his thoughtfulness, spreading it over her. He also
brought with him a game of cards.
"Would you care to play
a game?" he offered politely as the lights flickered and another loud
crash sounded above them.
"Sounds like the roof
is going to come off." she joked looking skyward. "Perhaps you should
light the candles, Fraser." He shook his head and instead set his lantern
and the matches next to the sofa, as he settled next to her, shuffling
the cards.
"We don't know how long
the lights will be out if they go," he explained. "It's better to wait."
She nodded, he was right of course. "What would you like to play?" he
asked quietly, as the lights flickered again and he once more caught
a glimpse of Thatcher's anxiety.
"I..I don't know, what
do you know how to play?" she returned.
"Well, Ray Vecchio taught
me how to play poker." he offered. "Other than old maid it's really the
only one I know well." Thatcher smiled, she wasn't much of a card player
herself, but she did know the basic rules of poker.
"Poker it is then," she
paused. "We don't have anything to play for though. What did you and
Vecchio use as stakes?" Fraser blushed and stared down at the cards in
his hands.
"Cookies. ."
he muttered "With my new Ray we play for air." She smiled at his term,
thinking of Ray Kowalski as a puppy Fraser had purchased at the store.
"Air?" she laughed. "Well,
that's interesting." She spied a couple of bags of peanuts that he had
brought with the snacks, and grabbed them up, handing him a bag. "These
will do." she remarked, pulling her legs into a comfortable sitting position
and smoothing out the blanket between them. Fraser settled back further,
so they would have room to put the cards, then retrieved a small dish
off her desk in which to place the anti. He dealt the cards and the game
began.
In the fourth hand,
Thatcher was winning, the lights went out and a small scream escaped
her lips. She felt Fraser's hand on her knee reassuringly.
"It's okay." he promised,
pulling his hand away and reaching down for the lantern. soon the room
was engulfed in the soft yellow glow, but it wasn't enough light for
Thatcher and she requested he light the candles as well. She was surprised
when Fraser hesitated over her demand, but then he rose and did as she
requested. She watched him quietly and was surprised to see that his
hands were shaking as they held the match to the individual wicks.
"Fraser?" she questioned
gently and he dropped the match. He bent and quickly retrieved it, before
it caught the rug on fire, and blew it out just before it singed his
fingers. She threw the blanket back, careful of their playing pile,
and rose to walk over to him. she put a hand on his arm and felt him
tense at her touch. "Are you alright?"
"Of course." he replied
quietly, but there was something in his voice that caused her to not
believe him. She turned him to face her and the shadowed light caught
his closed and almost pained expression.
"What is it, Benton?"
she insisted shocking herself when her hand seemed to rise of it's own
volition to rest against his cheek. She saw the pulse jump close
to his jaw and his lips thinned.
"Nothing." he lied. "I...I'm
just not much one for candles." she tilted her head curiously. What could
have someone possibly have against candles? Perhaps it was the fire?
No, she decided, she'd watched him run into a burning building to save
a woman from a fiery death, if fire was his fear he wouldn't have done
that.
"Would you like
to talk about it?" she offered and he shook his head, averting his eyes.
She nodded and leaned almost across him to blow out the candles behind
them. He stared down at her.
"I..I thought you wanted..."
he stammered confused and she shrugged, offering him a small smile, as
she blew out the rest.
"The lantern will be fine."
she replied moving away to extinguish the last candle, further over on
the desk. When she turned back, Fraser was watching her intently. "It's
okay, Fraser." she told him, returning to her position on the sofa and
settling back under the blanket, and it was okay, she wasn't afraid of
the dark with him here. He reached up to caress his right brow as she
patted his seat. "I'm winning, com'on and let me finish you off." He
smiled at her then and she was glad for her small sacrifice. He resumed
his seat and picked up his cards, but not before he caught her hand and
held it to his lips.
"Thank you." he whispered,
kissing the back of her hand. If Thatcher hadn't been trained to control
herself, she would have melted against him and begged him to take her
right then, but she was a Mountie and schooled in complete control. She
nodded curtly and pulled her hand away from the warmth of his.
Hopefully this storm
will blow over soon." She commented, uncertain if she was referring to
the weather outside or the heated storm that seemed to be brewing between
her and Fraser. Fraser however seemed oblivious to any sparks that might
be flying between them, other than the usual tension that seemed to surround
them.
Another crack of
thunder shattered the silence and Thatcher's cards flew out of hand in
fright. She chided herself for being so nervous, but darn it she didn't
like storms! She also noticed the room was starting to grow dimmer and
she glanced at Fraser who was inspecting his lamp.
"I just need to
get more kerosene." He told her rising to his feet with the lamp in his
hand. "I'll be right back." Thatcher shot to here feet next to him.
"I'll go with you."
She informed, trying to sound calm.
"I'll only be a
minute..." Fraser protested, but Thatcher was already moving closer to
him, as lightening lit up the room momentarily.
"Where the lamp
goes, I go, Fraser." She stated firmly and Fraser hid his smile.
"As you wish." He
relented as he told Diefenbaker to stay and they headed out to his office.
Fraser could usually see quite well in the dark, and with the dimming
light he still found his room easily. Just as he opened the door however,
the lamp died and Thatcher screamed and reached for the first available
object, Fraser.
"Fraser?" she whispered
into the darkness, "What happened?"
"The lamp went out."
He replied simply, making no move to step away from her. "I have to get
the kerosene, could you let go for a moment?" Thatcher released him hastily
and had to fight not to grab onto him again as she felt him move away.
She heard him moving around inside, seeming at ease with the darkness
that she herself could never feel. She felt her way inside the room and
strained to see Fraser, but it was pitch inside the tiny office. Something
moved against her leg and she screamed, pitching forward into something
hard then felt herself falling. She heard a low grunt from the object
below her and she realized it was Fraser.
"I'm sorry." She
offered, reveling in the feel of his arms that had instinctually wrapped
around her to keep her from injury. "I..something touched my leg."
"Diefenbaker." Muttered
Fraser, as he tried to ascertain the best way out of his current predicament.
Thatcher's body was covering his and any movement would probably lightly
injure him on her part. He took a deep breath. "Keep your arms around
me and I am going to sit up."
"Oh, I..." she had
started to scramble off him when her knee came in contact with something
warm and hard. She heard Fraser's swallowed yelp and drew still, glad
for once that it was dark in here and he couldn't see her embarrassment.
Fraser's own face was flaming.
"Just lie still
a moment." He requested, getting his breath back. He didn't want to take
the risk of having her slide off him sideways because he didn't know
how far on the cot they were, so once again he wrapped his arms around
her, and hauled her forward, so she straddled him and he was no longer
any danger from her knees. However this was a much more intimate position
and he knew he had to get them separated quickly to avoid any further
embarrassment. Thatcher sat up, slowly, pulling Fraser with her, then
Fraser stood and lifted them both from the bed, letting her slowly slide
to her feet.
"Thank
you." She whispered, still holding on to him.
"Certainly." He
replied just as quietly. They stood there for a long moment, until another
clap of thunder startled them apart. "The kerosene, I dropped it." She
felt him kneel down, beside her and start feeling around on the floor
for the small canister. She had to force her hands to her sides, god
she wanted to reach out and grab his hair and say, Oh Fraser, while you're
down there... Her face flamed again and her instinct to run took over,
only she had barely gotten a step when she stumbled over the kneeling
Mountie. He was at her side in an instant, asking if she was all right.
Thatcher pushed him away angrily, what a fool she was being.
"I'm fine." She
stated firmly as she reached out and felt what might have been the corner
of the desk, and pulled herself up. A sharp pain shot through her right
leg and she cried out.
"You're hurt." Fraser
accused concerned.
"It's nothing, Fraser."
She insisted, she couldn't handle him touching her right now, she was
too close to giving into her feelings.
"Careful," he warned
as she staggered on the good leg. He knelt beside her and she couldn't
help but brace herself on his shoulders. "Is it your ankle?" he asked
her, carefully wrapping his fingers around her right calf. Thatcher stiffened
at his touch, but he mistook her tension for a sign of pain. His fingers
slid down her leg to just above her ankle, while his other hand cupped
her foot; now she was almost completely dependent on him for her balance.
"I'm sure it's..OW!"
She bit her lip as he turned her ankle just enough to cause her pain.
He apologized as his fingers slid expertly over the area, checking for
swelling. Finally, he carefully stood and lifted her into his arms. "Fraser!"
she declared indignantly as he set her on the top of his desk.
"It seems like you've
given it a bad wrench." He told her, locating the kerosene canister and
replacing the empty one from the lamp. He pulled a match from his shirt
pocket and lit it, casting a soft glow about them once more. Once again
he knelt before her, to examine her ankle in the light, and she couldn't
help but think he could easily be fitting her for Cinderella's slipper.
He held her foot as delicately as one might handle rare crystal and she
resisted the urge to thank him for being so gentle with her.
"It will probably
be fine by morning." She told him, as he rose to face her. She realized
her position on the desk would be perfect to...there she goes again with
her damned fantasies! She blushed and averted her eyes.
"Are you all right?"
he asked her when she looked away.
"I just feel so
stupid!" she cursed herself. "I can't believe I tripped over you, twice!"
Fraser fought back a smile.
"Well, actually
the first time was more of a joint effort." He commented and she stared
at him, once more he seemed to be teasing her. She voiced her question.
"Constable, are
you making fun of me?" His look was one of instant horror.
"Oh no, Sir!" he
assured quickly. "I would never presume to do such a thing." She watched
him for a second longer than needed, then lowered her eyes again.
"Too bad." She muttered
under breath.
"Pardon?" he asked
her.
"Nothing." She dismissed
quickly. "So now what shall we do?"
"I'll take you back
to your office." He suggested. "You'll be more comfortable there." She
bit her lip, thinking of her dark, lonely office.
"I think we should
stick together." She insisted suddenly. "Just in case." Fraser nodded
and handed the lamp to her.
"As you wish." He
replied, lifting her into his arms once again and heading back toward
her office, Diefenbaker thankfully remained out from underfoot. He deposited
Thatcher on the sofa, making sure she was comfortable, then retrieving
a candle he promised to return in a moment or two. Thatcher sat quietly,
glad to have the light back, but nervous about being alone, even for
a moment, but Fraser arrived quickly and dropped his bedroll and two
pillows on the floor, by the window. He grabbed one of the pillows and
offered it to her.
"Thank you." She
accepted placing it behind her. Fraser cleared up the peanuts and cards
and shook the blanket firmly before settling it over her again, then
retreated to his corner of the room. Thatcher lay back on sofa, her hands
cushioning her cheek and watched him as he unrolled the bag. He seemed
so far away, what if she needed him in the night. Fraser turned and caught
her staring at him.
"Sir?" he questioned.
"Why don't you move
over here, Benton." She suggested off hand. "In case I need you for something
later." Like ravishing your body you hunk of man you! She smiled at her
thought and watched Fraser move the bag over closer to the sofa. He unrolled
it and glanced up at her.
"Do you need anything
right now?" he inquired politely. You! She screamed silently. I need
you to climb up here next to me and make mad passionate love to me.
"No." she replied.
"I'm fine." He nodded and lay back on the bedroll. "Won't you be cold?"
"No." he replied,
reaching to pull the lantern closer to him so he could extinguish it
once she fell asleep. "How is your ankle?"
"Throbbing," she
admitted. "But it will be okay." They lay in silence for awhile,
only the occasional vibrating clap of thunder or streak of lightening
breaking the monotony. She realized Fraser was waiting to put out the
lamp and she gave hip permission to do so, it wouldn't be as bad knowing
he was there next to her. A moment later the room was in darkness once
again and she heard him settle back onto his bed.
"Good night, Meg."
He whispered softly, making her smile.
"Good night." She
returned quietly and closed her eyes.
Thatcher was moaning
in her sleep and it had awoken Fraser. He sat up reached instinctually
for her. She was thrashing about in some horrible nightmare and crying
out for him. He shook her gently, then more firmly when she didn't respond.
Her eyes fluttered open and she stared upwards, her eyes finally adjusting
to the darkness and she was able to make out the shadow of his face.
"Are you al right?"
he asked her gently. "You were having a nightmare." She was, funny, she
couldn't even remember it now, perhaps it was her proximity to Fraser
that caused her to forget, he had that effect on her sometimes.
"I..Yes." she lied,
though it wasn't really a lie, for he had concurred that she had been
having one. "I..I need you to hold me for just a minute, Fraser." Fraser
was beside her on the sofa instantly and pulling her into his embrace.
She sighed and rested her cheek against his chest, hearing the strong
beating of his heart. She could die happily now, she thought, as long
as he would continue to hold her.
"Is there anything
else you need?" he offered softly, his fingers soothingly entwined in
her hair. Well, she thought, if that wasn't a loaded question. Silently,
she wondered how compliant he would be to her needs. She was ashamed
instantly, that wasn't how she wanted Fraser, it had to be his choice.
Still, she was curious.
"What do you have
to offer?" she teased and felt him tense beneath her, but then she heard
his soft chuckle.
"Whatever I have
that you may want." He told her honestly. She raised her head and stared
at him, wishing she could see him better, see the expression in his eyes
and understand what he was really saying.
"Those jeans of
yours look pretty warm." She suggested coyly, considering she herself
only wore a shirt.
"I'll give them
to you if you like." He offered quietly. "Though they may be a bit big."
She laughed, surprised that he actually offered to give her his jeans.
"Would you really
give me your jeans?" she asked shocked when his hand went to the button
just below is waist without hesitation. Her hand stopped his. "I was
only kidding, Fraser."
"Understood." He
acknowledged and this time she knew he had been teasing her. Her hand
still covered his at the waistband of his jeans and she was tempted to
allow it to travel down further, just to see what he would do.
"Fraser?" she began.
"Yes?" he questioned,
finally moving his hand out from under hers, but not seeming to care
that hers remained.
"I really love my
shawl." She commented out of the blue and she could almost feel him staring
at her puzzled. Where had that come from, she thought?
"I'm glad." He replied
after a moment. He shifted and she felt him pulling away from her. "You
should probably try to get some sleep." She allowed her hand to drop
as he started to rise and felt him jump in surprise.
"I'm not tired."
She informed quietly, felling him settle back against her, for lack of
what else he knew to do. Her hand caressed his thigh and she could feel
the muscles flexing underneath, she suspected he might be ready to run
right about now, but she had started this it was up to her to finish
it, not like the last time he had been in her apartment and she feigned
sleep while she tried to seduce him. This time he would understand she
was awake and fully aware of what she was doing, it would be up to him
to stop it.
"I...I...Sir?"
he questioned, a trace of fear in his voice, and she suspected he might
be wearing that squirrel look Francesca Vecchio had mentioned a time
or two.
"Am I making you
uncomfortable, Fraser?" she demanded, daring him to answer her. She heard
him swallow, as her fingers drifted along the waistband of his jeans
to free the tail of his shirt.
"I...I...yes." He
admitted finally.
"Would you like
me to stop then?" she asked, knowing he wouldn't lie to her.
"No." his reply
was so quiet she had to strain to hear him, despite their proximity,
and she smiled.
"Would you like
me to continue?"
"I...w..whatever
you wish, Meg." He returned slightly breathless, as her hand made it
inside his shirt and she touched her fingers to the smooth skin of his
stomach.
"What do
you want, Ben?" she whispered, close to his ear, then touched her lips
to the hollow just below it. At first he didn't answer her, and she suspected
he was debating the ramifications of his what he wanted and what was
his duty. Finally he answered her.
"You." He stated
quietly. He wanted her, that was all, just her and there was no better
way to say it. She leaned forward so she was laying across his lap and
found his lips. His sudden intake of breath revealed that he hadn't expected
the kiss, perhaps he thought she would reprimand him or even slap him
for his admission, but soon he opened his mouth to her and kissed her
back. His arms encircled her, pulling her closer to him and she sighed
contented. It was the sweetest, gentlest kiss she had ever received and
she basked in the warmth he offered her. Her fingers found their way
up to bury themselves in his thick dark hair, as she eagerly invited
his tongue to taste hers.
The kiss became
more passionate and soon they were both breathless. She pulled away for
a moment, the need for air becoming greater than the feel of his lips
on hers, if only for a moment.
"Meg, I..." he started
and she could hear the confusion in his voice. All this time she had
been giving him mixed signals and she wasn't surprised that he was suddenly
wary again. She put a finger to his lips and kissed his cheek.
"Light the lamp."
She requested huskily. She wanted to see him, drown in his eyes and explore
every inch of him with her complete vision. He moved from her, shakily
she noticed, and knelt to light the lamp. The moment the soft glow filled
the room, and she saw him kneeling on his bedroll with his shirt half
untucked and his hair mussed from her hands, she instinctually dropped
down beside him, careful of her ankle. She wrapped her arms around him
from behind, snuggling into the warmth of his back and felt the deep
slowing breaths she suspected was his self calming technique. She released
him long enough so that he could turn around and sit more comfortably
on the bedroll, then she joined him. God he was beautiful, but she knew
it wasn't just his looks that attracted her to him, though, it was the
kind of person he was, so innocent and trusting and kind.
"What...what
now?" he asked her, his arms resting on his raised knees passively. She
smiled.
"What would you
like to do?" she asked him. When he didn't reply she spied the deck of
cards on her desk. She indicate them and he quickly retrieved the deck.
"We could play some more poker." She suggested, again seeing the confusion
in his eyes.
"Er..okay." he agreed
quietly. "If that's what that's what you wish." He rose to retrieve the
peanuts, but she called him back.
"We'll play for
different stakes this time." She informed, as he settled back beside
her.
"Air?' he inquired
and she shook her head. "We can't play for money." He insisted morally.
"Have you ever heard
of strip poker, Fraser?" she questioned calmly dealing out the cards.
He had heard Ray mention it, but was unsure of the rules.
"I don't believe
I understand it very well." He commented. Thatcher smiled.
"It's really very
simple." She told him. "We play for articles of clothing. When I win
a hand, you have to remove something you are wearing. When you win I
remove something."
"Won't you get cold?'
he asked her politely and she grinned.
"Only if I loose
Constable." She remarked watching his face flush. "Are you up to it?"
"I...I don't think
we should be playing something like that." He declined, his high sense
of duty clicking in. "You're my superior officer and I..."
"Not for tonight
I'm not." She returned frowning, irked that he had mentioned it, but
then she was the one who was constantly reminding him of the fact. "Now,
shall we play or not?" Fraser swallowed his doubts and nodded. She smiled
and dealt the cards, praying she had a good hand, considering she was
only wearing the one shirt. She knew she was playing with fire, and she
only had to loose one maybe two hands before she would be completely
naked, but she was secretly counting on Fraser's high sense of chivalry
to save her, he would most likely let her win every hand, as he had earlier.
Sure enough she
won the first three hands and Fraser removed his shirt, shoes and socks,
but now it was more tense. The score was more or less even now, with
them having only two articles of clothing each, and she wondered if his
chivalry would extend to the last, but when she lost the following hand
she knew the jig was up. He had allowed them to become even, to be fair,
but now it was real and he would play to the best of his ability the
remaining hand. She reached up under the long shirt and pulled off her
panties, since the shirt more than covered her, as Fraser looked down
at the cards he as shuffling. She tossed them toward his pile of clothes
and waited anxiously to be dealt the next hand.
Technically, she was sure
he wore boxers under his jeans, so he still had two pieces of clothing
left, but he promised they would both go, should he lose this hand. He
needn't have worried, Thatcher wound up with only a pair against Fraser's
full house. She dropped the cards and cast him a speculative gaze, well
she had started it, time to finish. She was a Mountie after all and she
would have to keep her word. Her fingers moved to the buttons of the
shirt, but before she had more than two undone, Fraser had moved quickly
across their playing field and had stopped her hands with his own.
"Don't." he whispered.
"I..I don't want you to..to be uncomfortable." She smiled, secretly glad
that the gentleman inside him won out over all else. She threaded her
fingers through his and pulled them to the front of her shirt.
"Then you do it."
She encouraged softly. "It's you're shirt and you did win." He shook
his head. "Don't you want to, Ben?" He lowered his eyes. More than anything,
he thought silently, his restraint was already surpassing it's normal
limit, but he afraid, what if she turned him away again? If they made
love he couldn't handle her treating him like just another subordinate.
"I...I..." he couldn't
tell her, couldn't voice the words that formed in his mind.
"It will change
things." She stated quietly, as though guessing his dilemma. "We wouldn't
be just a superior and her subordinate, except while on duty of course."
Fraser nodded. "But off duty we'd be...more."
He chanced a glance at
her and she saw the hope laced with fear in his eyes. "I don't want you
to do this because you feel you have to, but because you want it as much
as I do." Fraser watched her quietly for a moment and for a second she
thought he decided to take the out she offered him, but then he was leaning
forward and pressing his lips to hers.
"I want to be with
you, Meg." He whispered against her mouth and she felt a surge of happiness
chorus through her. She accepted his lips eagerly, delighted in the feel
of him against her. "It's all I've ever wanted from the moment we met
and you threatened to fire me." She smiled and allowed him to push her
back onto the bedroll, as he stretched out beside her. "I've dreamed
of it since that moment on the train." He kissed her throat, her temple,
her cheeks, nose and eyelids. She sighed in contentment at his words,
how she had longed to hear those words.
"Make love to me,
Ben." She urged pressing against him and he did, slowly and deliberately,
so that she was no longer even aware of the storm outside, just the one
raging between them. "I love you, Ben." She whispered as they surged
toward a climatic reunion of desire. "OH Benton!"
Thatcher awoke with
a start, almost falling off the small sofa she rested upon. She glanced
around disorientated, her eyes adjusting to the semi darkness as dawn
crept through the curtains of her office window. She glanced down at
the sleeping man next to the sofa, he was curled on his side, his face
to her, his arms were folded around him and it didn't look especially
comfortable to Thatcher, but the Mountie was sound asleep. Diefenbaker
was curled at his feet, snoring gently. She carefully pulled the cover
back and slid her feet to the floor. Her ankle felt a little better this
morning, and she found she could put a little weight on it. She slid
from the sofa and stepped over Fraser, limping slowly to the bathroom,
where she changed into her now dry clothes. She folded his shirt and
returned to her office, placing it on the sofa neatly. She pulled the
blanket she had used, from the sofa and gently draped it over him, careful
not to cover Diefenbaker, who glanced up at her, yawned, then snuggled
back down against Fraser.
"Next time, Fraser."
She whispered moving toward the door with her purse and coat. "Next time
it won't be just a dream." She pulled the door closed to give him more
privacy, though she doubted if Turnbull would dare enter her office anyway,
when he did arrive for his shift. She called a cab,. Not chancing her
driving with her bad ankle then stepped outside the Consulate to wait
for it. The air was crisp and cool and still held the scent of rain.
A rainbow had sprouted to the north and the sun was already starting
to dry things up, a new day had begun. A moment later she stepped into
a cab, humming somewhere over the rainbow cheerfully.
The end