What Friends Are For The House Fan Fiction Archive Home Quicksearch Search Engine Random Story Upload Story   What Friends Are For by Adrienne S. House frequently experienced times when everything suddenly comes into focus and the whole picture is crystal clear. This time, it was the sound of the empty pill container hitting the floor. Wilson had finally reached his limit; the limit that House had thought for years was purely theoretical and possibly mythical. He heard the door clicking shut - no melodramatic slamming, not this time. The sound was horribly final. House lay there for a few minutes more, deciding. He could stay where he was, on the floor in his own vomit, knowing that this time there would be helping hand, or he could get up off his ass and help himself. It astonished him and shamed him that Wilson would just walk away. Wilson was a born healer; if puzzles were his one thing, compassion was Wilson's. To have Wilson just walk away from someone in his condition - anyone, even a pathetic mess like him - meant that he had finally pushed too far. With a wince, he slowly started to move, getting one hand under himself. It took several tries, but he managed to get himself upright. The coffee table and the couch provided the extra support he needed to stay that way until the dizziness passed enough to let him regain some balance. His leg wasn't hurting that much. He still had enough drugs in his system to take care of the leg pain, but the acid in his throat burned. He had to pull himself together. He had to sober up and make himself think. Stubborn refusal to deal with the situation hadn't worked and without the unquestioning and unquestioned support of Wilson, he had to find a solution to this. He made his way to the bathroom with slow and painful steps, stubbornly refusing to give up when all he wanted to do was lay down and die. No. That decision had to be made while lucid, not lurching around in a haze of drugs and pain. He made it to the shower and just let the water pour over him for a long, long time. As his head started to clear, he thought about what he was going to do. The deal was out of the question; Tritter would win. Formal rehab was out, too. He honestly didn't think it would help him in the slightest. Rehab worked for most people, but he wasn't most people. He had a real life, with a well paying, respectable job and genuine responsibilities. He had nothing in common with the general type who went into rehab; he didn't need life management skills and he didn't get into the drugs for the thrill of being one of the beautiful people. His pain was real, dammit, and he knew exactly what the drugs did from a medical standpoint. Yes, he was addicted, but he functioned. Or he did, up until Wilson, with the connivance of Cuddy, tried to take away his pills. And let's not forget Tritter. A cop with a grudge and enough power to make his life miserable. No, dammit, he could not let Tritter win. ________________________ Wilson let himself out. He had to get out before the impulse to kick the crap out of house with his nice, French shoes overcame him. It went against everything he believed in to walk away. As a doctor, he knew that House needed help. As a friend, it twisted his heart to see the man he loved lying there in a drug addled haze. Yet the rage was so strong that he could not stay, could not offer to help, could not do anything but get out. He was intending to get into his car and drive away, leaving House in the mess, physical and metaphorical, that he had created for himself, but he couldn't do that, either. So he stayed in the hall, unable to help, but unable to leave, either. He wasn't sure how long he stayed there, straining to hear any sounds from the door in front of him. He eventually heard movement on the other side, thumps and groans that were familiar to his ears. He'd seen House getting up after a binge before and unwelcome hope began to rise in his chest. It was so quiet that he could hear the very faint sounds of the shower and he closed his eyes. He wasn't sure which was stronger, the relief or the anger. Taking a deep breath, he quietly went back in, needing to know if he was imagining things. No, he wasn't. House was, indeed, in the shower. He shrugged off his coat and rolled up his sleeves. Going into the kitchen, he took the roll of paper towels off the counter and proceeded to methodically clean up the puddle of vomit. Once done, he tidied up the living room, carefully putting everything away. Returning the cleaning supplies to the kitchen, he started a pot of coffee, knowing that House would want some after he got out of the shower. He knew, also, that he wasn't ready to face House, so when the shower shut off, he picked up his coat and let himself out. _______________________ House dried off and looked at himself in the bathroom mirror. He looked horrible. His eyes were bloodshot and he had a haggard look to his face that was bad even for him. He limped his way into the bedroom and got dressed. He wasn't sure why he was bothering, other than it made him feel more human, more in control. He'd lost Wilson. He knew that now. He'd gone too far, done too much, and now Wilson was gone. He knew that he could get Wilson back if he just said the right words, did the right thing. But he'd never known how to say those words or do those things. That's what he had Wilson for. He frowned. There was a weird noise coming from the kitchen, an odd bubbling sound, as if someone had made coffee or something. He made his way into the kitchen to discover that he hadn't been imagining things. A fresh pot of coffee had just finished brewing. He didn't remember making a pot. He didn't think he'd been capable of making a pot; maybe he was more fucked up than he thought. Whatever the case may be, he was grateful for it. He poured himself a cup and took it into the living room. It was clean, bare of any evidence of what had happened earlier. Okay, he knew that he hadn't cleaned up. Either he'd hallucinated the whole overdosing thing or Wilson had come back and patiently cleaned up after him, just like he'd always done. He dropped onto the couch, suddenly feeling weaker than he'd felt in a long time. He blinked back tears, biting his lip in an effort to stop them. Tritter no longer held any importance. It didn't matter if Tritter won or not, not anymore. What mattered was this. What mattered was that Wilson, hurt and betrayed and angry, had done this for him. What mattered was this friendship that survived beyond all reason and all logic. Losing a battle of wills against a bastard of a cop was nothing compared to losing Wilson. He knew that this was not a gesture of forgiveness or Wilson making allowances. This was a farewell, or would be if he didn't do something to reach out. They had to talk. Really talk, not dance around the topic or stonewall. He could not allow this friendship die with a final gesture being cleaning up vomit. ________________________ Wilson could not face his empty hotel room, so he went into the hospital. He had his practice back and he had work to do. When he arrived at his office, he found a parcel on his desk that had obviously arrived after he'd left for the day. Thankful for the distraction, he sat down at his desk and opened it. It was a Christmas gift. He blinked in surprise, wondering who would send him a Christmas present. Opening the parcel, he found a soft sweater. The card enclosed in the parcel held a sweet, affectionate note. "Dear James - I know you've had a hard year and I just wanted to send you a little something to let you know that I'm thinking of you. Happy holidays. Love - Blythe House" ________________________ House tried the hotel first, but when he didn't see Wilson's Volvo in the lot, he knew where Wilson had to be. Going up to his office, he stopped by diagnostics to give himself a few minutes of rehearsal for the upcoming confrontation. There was a parcel on his desk and he knew immediately that it was from his mother. She always sent her presents care of the hospital and she always sent them to arrive as close to Christmas as possible. He thought about opening it, but he wasn't in any shape to deal with his mother's loving gestures right now. Instead, he went out onto the balcony to check and see if Wilson was in his office. He was. Wilson was sitting in his desk chair, with something soft and woolly in his hands. He was bent over, his face buried in the something soft and crying his heart out. House couldn't breathe for a moment. When had he ever seen Wilson cry? Yeah, he'd seen Wilson on the verge of it a couple of times, but he'd never actually seen the man break down before. Had his stupidity really hurt Wilson that much? He knew that Wilson cared about him, but he'd shied away from actually noticing the many times Wilson had said and done things that proved that Wilson truly loved him. House wasn't sure what to do. He honestly didn't know which was the better course - to let things lie and save himself and Wilson the embarrassment, or to go in and confront him and have it out right now. Wilson did not cry gracefully and the muted sounds of his grief and pain were horrible. House took a deep breath and carefully made his way over the low wall and to Wilson's door. If Wilson hated him for this, well, it would just add to all the other reasons Wilson had to hate him. He rapped lightly on the glass before sliding it open and slipping in. Wilson jumped at the noise and lifted his head. Jesus, he looked like shit. He really, really did not cry gracefully at all. His eyes were puffy and red and his nose was swollen and there were bright pink spots over his cheekbones, making them look even more sharply defined. Wilson's look of surprise faded to one of anger and embarrassment, but when he spoke his voice was calm and controlled. "I thought you were well on your way to choking to death on your own vomit." "Yeah, well, I had to pee and when I got back, the vomit was gone." "So you came here to see if I had it, so you could get back to your self destruction?" "Something like that. However, yours seems to be more entertaining as well as less painful on my GI tract." "Get out." "Look, I know you're pissed at me..." "Why would I be pissed at you? You've gone from stealing from me to stealing from the dead. At least he didn't suffer as a result. He's already dead. I suppose some would think that was an improvement." "Wilson, I was in pain..." House started, not sure exactly how to explain, but he to try. "Yeah. It hurts. I get that part," Wilson cut in sharply. "You're also an out of control drug addict. I get that, too. I also get that you are constitutionally incapable of backing down and that there's nothing I can do to stop you from self destructing. What I don't get is what the fuck you're doing here." "You came to check up on me." "Yeah. And find that you stole from one of my dead patients to feed your drug habit." Wilson shifted to pull out his wallet. "Here. Go buy your drugs on the street like a real addict. Stop making me your pusher." House looked at the bills Wilson flung at him. There must have been a good five hundred dollars there. "I guess you got your accounts back," he said, without thinking. Wilson just shrugged, as if he expected the jibe and House flinched. "I sold myself on a street corner," Wilson replied sarcastically. "If I'm going to jail, I may as well do something to deserve it." "You're not going to jail," House said quietly. "I'm taking the deal." Wilson gave him a level look, then slumped, dropping his face into his hands. "You'll hate it." "Yeah," House agreed. "Tritter's an ass, but he's not worth what this is doing to you." To House's surprise, Wilson chuckled and lifted his head. House shivered at the bitterness he saw there. "Since when do you care what this is doing to me?" "Since I saw you sitting here weeping into that... what is that, anyway?" "It's a present from your mother." Wilson dug his fingers into the soft wool, as if expecting House to take it away from him. "She thought it might cheer me up a bit." "Obviously, it didn't work." Wilson looked down at the sweater. "Since this whole thing started, this is the only time anyone has made any effort whatsoever to give me any emotional support at all," Wilson said quietly. "I expected you to be mad at me and I knew you weren't going to be there for me. I didn't expect to be facing this all alone." "All alone? Everybody loves you." "Yeah. Everybody was right there, supporting me." "Cuddy was." "Her only concern at first was whether I had ratted you out. Then when I did, she went along with the deal because she wanted her best doctor back," Wilson said, with a truly remarkable lack of bitterness, but full of bewildered hurt. "Foreman's first words to me when he found his accounts unfrozen was to ask if I had betrayed you, since Chase had already denied it. Chase just gave me a 'better you than me' look and Cameron accused me of being selfish." House's knuckles grew white as he clutched his cane in rage. All of the kids had urged to him to take the deal. Cuddy had tried blackmailing him into it. He had thought that they'd taken Wilson's side in this and he'd been angry about that. Now that he thought about it, Cameron had been acting belligerent toward Wilson, but he thought she was simply being territorial about the case. "Wilson..." House licked his lips as he searched for a way to put his thoughts into words. "You brought this on yourself. Wait. Listen to me. You are always helping everyone else. Even Cameron goes to you for help. You're the strong one, the one everybody can count on to be there and to make it okay. You're tough." "No, I'm not," Wilson denied angrily. "Yeah, you are. And even if you weren't, that's what they see. You've got the most depressing specialty in medicine, yet you still smile. You give emotional support. You don't need it yourself. Or so they think. Your strong man act is so good that sometimes even I forget it's an act," House said forcefully. "I'm taking the deal. For you..." "You can't do it for me," Wilson yelled. "You have to do it for yourself. I didn't go through all of this for you to take a deal, then sabotage it. If you honestly think that rehab is a waste of time, then let it go. I won't testify against you. Nor will anyone else. Tritter doesn't have a case. You have legitimate prescriptions for all the drugs he found." "And DA goes after you for overprescribing. With the amount Tritter found, he'll win." "So?" Wilson shrugged and House caught his breath, suddenly afraid. Wilson, he realised, really was willing to go to jail. For him. "Am I really worth it?" House asked quietly. "Yes." Wilson didn't hesitate. "If you're still looking for the conditions to my caring about you, you haven't found them." "You walked away tonight." "Caring about you doesn't mean I don't get angry," Wilson replied. "I left before I could kick you in the head for what you did." House said nothing for a moment, then got up to walk slowly to the door. "I'm going to tell Tritter I'm taking the deal," House said firmly. "I knew the moment that you walked out the door that it's gone too far. You found a way out for me." "I did what I thought was right." "Do me a favour. Go one step further and find a way out for yourself. Do what's right for you. Take the time away from me to take care of yourself for a change," House ordered. "And if I don't?" "I'll have a whole two months to think up ways to force you into doing what's good for you, whether you want to or not," House replied, with a smirk. "Isn't that what friends are for?" "Are we still friends?" Wilson asked quietly. "We'd better be. Otherwise, my mom sending you clothes is just creepy."   Please post a comment on this story. Legal Disclaimer: The authors published here make no claims on the ownership of Dr. Gregory House and the other fictional residents of Princeton-Plainsboro Teaching Hospital. 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