by Peach
"Where did I go this time?"
"It was the late twentieth century, early twenty first. This one was amazing. He
believed you. He even had himself regressed."
"Really? How did I describe him?"
"Why don't you just watch the vid?"
"I will, but I want your impressions, too."
"You said he was older, balding, but built, well endowed. Your name was Alex in
that lifetime, too. You know, you are the only person I've regressed who has
been male in all their lives. I know there has to be a female you back there
somewhere."
"Why? He's been male in all of them. Some of them would have been easier if one
of us had been a woman. One of the perks of space travel and meeting aliens has
certainly been that homosexuality is no longer taboo. When we find each other
this time, we won't need to hide. We can even have a marriage contract."
"We were all on the same planet then. Have you thought about what you will do if
you don't find him? Or what you will do if he's an alien?"
"I'll find him, Dr. Scully. We always find each other. And if he is an alien,
maybe he'll be one with interesting mating rituals. Hey, maybe he's a Potwandan.
I could get into that rough stuff."
The doctor laughed at his patient's naive eagerness. The boy, and he was still a
boy even if he was man sized, still had much to learn.
"Go watch the vid. You were very much into the 'rough stuff' with him back then.
Just keep in mind Potwandan mating rituals would more than likely put a human in
sick bay. So, for your sake, I hope he is human."
Alex took the vid, stopped on the way home for the right mood enhancer, pleased
that he had a long weekend to look forward to. He had come to Earth to study
when he was fifteen and now, at the ripe old age of twenty, he was through
training at the academy. His plan was to travel on a spaceship to as many worlds
as possible. Those plans had only been reinforced by the regressions.
He had started the regression therapy because he kept having dreams about a man.
The dreams were so erotic and vivid that he was having trouble concentrating.
His doctor had suggested he visit a psychiatrist when the usual methods of
treatment had failed.
Dr. Scully had tried sleep therapy but Alex had not been helped and the dreams
became more intense. One night at the clinic, he ejaculated six times during the
eight-hour cycle. A solution needed to be found since the boy could not
continue that pattern.
Dr. Scully was not sure himself why he suggested regression. Maybe it was that
the dreams were not present day images for the boy, but rather dreams of the
past. He had discussed the case with his wife and co-worker; Dana, who thought
it was just a fertile imagination.
Since the regressions had begun, the boy had told him many tales of this lover
he always found. A man who never wanted a man until Alex came into his life. A
lover who in most lifetimes had appeared to be stronger, more dominant but who
had in every lifetime been the bottom in the relationship. Dana seemed quite
pleased at the physical reactions of her husband after a session with the boy.
The vid was set up, the mood enhancer swallowed, the incense filled the room
with the scent of musk. He had showered and was now reclining naked on his sofa,
ready to watch. The vid started and he was presented with his own face, but not
quite his own.
His past selves always made him look different. The expressions and speech
patterns so strange sometimes. This one was very easy to understand. He watched
for a while but closed his eyes and took his cock in hand as he began to
describe a sexual encounter with his Walter. Walter, a good name, an old name.
Would he be Walter again as he was Alex again?
I woke to see Walter standing in front of the 'woman kind of thing' mirror I had
brought home the day before. He was turning this way and that, looking at his
reflection. I smiled as his fingers traced the patterns I had made with the crop
on his ass the night before.
My smile was not for the fingers moving over the lines of bruises, but for the
cock that was starting to rise. He was unaware he had an audience and I wished
to keep him that way a while longer. I watched as his mouth quirked in a Mona
Lisa smile. Then the fingers pressed down on the darkest bruise. The hiss of
breath telling me it was sore. The cock swelling more telling me he liked it
being that way.
"Walter."
His head jerked up and he snatched his hand away from his ass, looking like a
little boy caught being naughty by his mother.
"Morning, Alex."
"Waking up to see you like that makes it a beautiful morning."
I threw back the covers to let him see my own arousal. His smile lighting up my
heart. He came toward the bed without a word. Kneeling beside it, he bent and
wrapped his mouth around my cockhead, his tongue pushing into the slit to get
the first taste of me.
I let him play for a few minutes before pulling him up by his ear.
"Get lubed, slave. I want to use that ass."
"Yes, Master."
He rose, picked up the lube from the bedside table and squeezed a good-sized
dollop on his fingers.
"Show me."
He grinned and turned, bending slightly at the waist so I could watch his
fingers as they worked his tight hole open for me to use. When he pushed the
third one inside, I moved off the bed.
"On the edge, knees wide, shoulders down."
He obeyed me instantly. I ran my hands lovingly over his ass, pressing into the
bruises and enjoying his moans. His hips pushed back toward me. I slapped his
right cheek lightly and he stilled.
Stepping closer, I rubbed my cock along the crease, smiling as he moaned once
more. Pushing against him until the tip was inside him, I let go, grabbed his
hip and rammed forward, burying my entire length in him with one thrust.
He hissed and his hips pushed back again. I was hot and needy and gave him no
time to adjust. My cock pumped into him hard and deep. Taking my pleasure from
his body and he pushed back, welcoming me inside.
I screamed his name as I shot deep in his body. Groaned as his muscles milked
me. I pulled out slowly and sank down on the bed next to him. When my heart had
calmed, my breathing normal, I ordered him to stand.
"Good, slave. You didn't come. Turn around."
He turned with his back to me and I slipped my fingers inside him. I knew just
how to finger fuck him to keep him on the edge for a long time.
"I think later I'm going to strap you to the table and fist this ass. Would you
like that, slave? Your master's fist inside you, possessing you as no one else
ever has."
"I am yours, Master. Yours to use as you wish. I would be pleased to receive my
Master's fist as I receive his cock or his tongue or his toys."
"A proper answer, slave."
I pulled my fingers out, pleased with his moan of loss. I tapped his hip to
indicate he should turn. He turned, presenting me with a close up of his
beautiful cock. I leaned forward and ran my tongue over the head.
"Spread your legs for me."
He shifted so I had room to reach between his legs. I let my knuckles rub along
his perineum before turning my hand over to insert my fingers inside him again.
I bent to cover the head of his cock. Slowly fucking his ass with my fingers as
I fucked his slit with my tongue.
His hands fastened on my shoulders, anchoring him to me. His body was starting
to tremble with the effort of holding back his climax. I sucked hard, my tongue
as far in his slit as I could push it, as I crooked my fingers inside him,
rubbing his prostate hard.
All control gone, he screamed my name as he shot into my mouth. His ass pulsing
around my fingers, his fingers digging into my shoulders as the scream tapered
off.
The current Alex whimpered as his own cock twitched and come shot high to fall
back down on his panting body. He lay for a long time barely hearing his voice
as he talked about the life lived four centuries earlier with a deeply loved
man.
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Alex boarded the ship that would be his home for the next three years. He had
promised Dr. Scully that he would continue the regressions with the ships
psychiatrist. He had been told that the Captain expected each new crewmember to
report to him. He was not surprised since he had heard that the Captain was a
very hands on type of person. A man who knew his people's names and faces.
He tapped at the door heard, a loud 'Come in' bellowed from within and opened
the door to meet his Captain. The man had his back to the door, bent over,
digging through a drawer.
"Ensign Alex Skinner reporting as ordered, Sir."
The Captain rose and turned. Alex's mouth went dry.
Mankind had colonized the planet where Alex was born over two hundred years
before his birth. As with most colonisations, the environment had made sometimes
subtle -- sometimes not so subtle -- changes to the inhabitants. Alex and his
Captain were about to become very aware of those changes.
The Captain saw before him the most beautiful boy he had ever seen. The green
eyes sparkled, the pink lips begging to be kissed, the nose with cute little
lines above the bridge. Due to the heavier gravity of Alex's home world his
people were not very tall so he was considered tall at five ten.
But the Captain towered over him. The Captain was an Alpha male even by his home
world's standards. He stood close to seven feet, and as all males of his planet
had no body hair. His muscles heavy and dense, a strong man not easily bested in
a fight. He also possessed a keen sense of smell, rather like the dogs of earth.
That enhanced sense alone would prove to be his undoing.
Aside from his mouth going dry, Alex's body had other reactions. He hardened to
prepare for insertion. His lungs expanded to store the extra air he would need
at the moment of ejaculation. His body temperature rose, causing the mating
pheromones to fill the air.
This happened in the space of time it took the Captain to do his physical
inventory of the boy. The odour from the boy reached him and his face took on
first a puzzled expression then a surprised one as his cock grew to its full
size in his pants.
Even with the intermingling that went on between planets no one had ever thought
to test the effects of the male pheromones of Alex's people on the people born
on the Captain's planet. So the Captain had not been prepared for the
possibility that this new crewmember would soon become his life-mate.
He moved without thought to lift Alex into his arms. The kiss long and deep, as
the men tasted each other for the first time. Alex, as was decreed by his
biology, had never actually had intercourse. The Captain had but only with the
women who inhabited certain sections of ports just as in days of sailing ships.
When the kiss ended, Alex smiled at his new mate as he caressed the bald head.
The Captain's breathing was deep, inhaling more of the scent of Alex into his
body. It was intoxicating, exhilarating, a drug he would one day embrace being
addicted to.
"What is your name?"
"Walter."
"I knew I would find you again. We're wearing too many clothes, Walter."
Walter lowered him to the floor, stepped back and ripped his clothes from his
body. Alex undressed with equal haste. At Alex's directions, Walter moved
willingly to lie upon his desk, raising his head so he could watch as Alex
spread his cheeks and used his tongue to prepare the way.
The moans he made quite pleasing to the boy. Walter felt no fear as the slender
cock slid inside him. Had he known more about the physical make-up of the boy
entering him, he might have been very nervous. Once the boy was fully sheathed
inside, his cock expanded to its full size making Walter gasp with the slight
burning as his virgin tissues were stretched.
"What's happening? It feels like it's getting bigger."
"You don't expand once you are inside?"
"No, it grows to full size before we penetrate."
Alex's hand stroked his new lover's dick slowly, measuring Walter's size with
his hands.
"I'm glad to hear that. I was afraid you would hurt me when the time comes to
complete the circle of our consummation."
He began to move then and Walter's head dropped back as a loud groan broke from
his lips. Alex moved slowly allowing the body to learn him. When Walter began to
lift up to meet each thrust, he sped up. Alex's hands gripped the legs of his
man as he moved toward his climax.
Walter had wrapped one of his big hands around his cock, pulling and stroking,
hard, wanting to come and surprised that his usual method was not working in the
way he was used to.
Alex whispered Walter's name as he surged inside one last time and his seed
filled his lover. He reached and pushed Walter's hand aside and with three quick
strokes brought him the release he wanted.
The boy lay on the big man's chest listening to the heart pounding wildly
inside. They didn't hear the door open but both heard the first officer as he
took in the sight in front of him. The boy lying on the Captain's chest, still
buried inside him, the Captain's hands moving slowly over the boy's back and
through his hair.
"Captain, what's going on?"
The Captain turned his head seeing the surprise on First Officer John Doggett's
face. He straightened, trying to push the boy up, off and out of him. All he
succeeded in doing was causing them both pain. The boy's wail loud next to his
ear.
"Walter, please don't do that. You must wait until the seal releases on its
own."
"What?"
"When the men of my planet ejaculate, the head forms a seal to insure the sperm
has time to fertilize the eggs. It's an involuntary response. If you keep
pulling, you will make the seal last longer. Not to mention cause us both more
pain."
"Doggett, get the physician up here immediately."
"Aye, Captain."
The first officer moved to the communication panel and summoned the doctor to
report to the Captain's quarters on the double. While waiting, Captain Krycek
tried once more to pull free, causing both of them considerable pain.
The thunderclouds on the Captain's face would have scared his new Ensign if Alex
had not known what Walter had yet to learn. Alex's people mated for life. What
had just happened between them insured that bond. Walter would never be able to
perform with another for the rest of his life. And neither would Alex.
Dr. Mulder took one look at the situation and shoved First Officer Doggett out
the door. Then she put her fist in her mouth to stop the giggles that tried to
escape. She took several deep breaths before turning back toward the two men
lying across the desk.
"Captain, you sent for me?"
"Yes, Doctor. Do something. Get us apart."
"I'm sorry, Captain. There's nothing I can do. You will just have to wait for
the seal to release on its own. I'm sure he told you that."
"Of course I told him. He's already hurt me, trying to get us apart."
"How long does this last?" Walter's voice sounded embarrassed.
"It usually lasts around thirty minutes but since you tried to break the seal it
will probably be twice that long. Didn't the two of you discuss this before
hand?"
She was looking pointedly at Alex as she said this. She knew he was her
husband's regression patient and therefore knew where he was from and how his
body functioned. She had been on duty the night of his sleep therapy, which had
been one of the deciding factors in the regression therapy.
"No. Uh... I really didn't talk to him. Uh... the mating pheromones seemed to
hit him faster than normal and ah... Well, you know about my regressions. I knew
he was the one the minute I saw him so I just sort of let it happen."
"You still should have told him. But it's too late now."
"Will the two of you quit talking like I'm not here and explain this?"
"Captain, the men of Alex's planet emit pheromones when aroused that cause a
reaction in their mate. I say mate because the pheromones only work on a
compatible person. Once the first intimacy has taken place, the two are joined
for life."
"What do you mean? Are you saying that he and I... but that can't be. I'm not
gay. He's the only man I've ever done anything with. I'm not even sure why or
how this happened but it won't happen again."
She saw the pain in the boy's eyes at these words and silently cursed her
Captain.
"Captain, this isn't a choice. His sperm has already started a chemical reaction
in your body. From this day forward, you will only be able to perform with him.
His home world changed his people. He could no more stop his reaction to you
then he could stop breathing. Sooner or later you will have to admit to yourself
that you couldn't either."
"I still don't understand. If his sperm causes a reaction then why isn't he
already mated to someone?"
"Captain, he was a virgin. You are the first man his pheromones worked on. You
are the first man he has been with. Honestly, has your brain stopped
functioning? Shall I get you a pad so you can take notes?"
"Doctor, I'll thank you to remember that I am your superior officer." The
Captain tried to sound dignified in spite of his position, naked, on his own
desk with his new Ensign's cock locked inside him.
"Yes, Sir, you are. But I also have authority in all medical situations and a
healthy sex life is essential for optimum performance on the job. Therefore it
falls under my purview. I've had the opinion for years that you needed the
stability of a relationship in your life. I think you will discover a new
dimension of experience through this boy."
"I did not call you here for an opinion, Doctor. Since you have stated that you
cannot separate us, please leave us alone."
"Yes, Captain. May I suggest that you engage privacy mode during mating in the
future so that the first officer doesn't get a free peep show."
The doctor exited the room to find Doggett waiting outside.
"So, Doctor, tell me, what's that all about?"
"The Ensign is from New Russia."
"Oh shit! That's what I thought. The Captain didn't know?"
"Guess not, but it's obvious you do."
"My cousin did her apprenticeship there. Her husband scored on the first date.
They have three kids and she's carrying again."
"Maybe you can convince him that it's a one way ticket. He didn't want to listen
to me. He said something that really hurt Alex. I hope you didn't need him for
anything important because he'll be there awhile."
"Good thing we aren't scheduled to leave for two weeks. That ought give him time
to accept reality."
The two wandered off down the hall with Doggett still grinning as Dana tried to
keep a straight face. Secretly she was pleased. She really did think that the
Captain needed a real relationship and the boy was indeed beautiful.
Once the doctor had left, Walter had immediately called for privacy mode. Alex
was lying on his chest, head resting on his heart once more. Walter's hands
resting on the desk, not touching the boy who had given him what he would one
day admit was the best orgasm of his life to that point.
He had not said a word to the boy since the doctor had left. And the boy was
silent, pulled inside himself from the rejection in the harshly spoken words of
his new mate. Part of him knew that the bond could not be broken but he was
still young and just a bit insecure in the newness of all this. But in this life
he had not had time to grow the shields he had used in the past. Up until now
his life had been fairly uneventful and serene.
Walter was surprised when he felt the first tears rolling down his chest to pool
in his arm pit.
"Are you 'crying'?" His voice made the word crying a condemnation in the boy's
ears.
"I'm sorry. I just thought that when I found you, you would want me right away
as you did in all our other lives. It never occurred to me to wait and give you
time."
"What are you talking about?"
"I've been regressed and we have been lovers for eons. In all our lives, we find
each other."
"Look, you're very attractive, but I'm not gay."
"You never thought you were in the other lives either but you always wanted me."
"I don't believe in regression."
"You've told me that before. But I know we belong together. And now that the
bond is formed, there is no going back."
"This is ridiculous. How can your sperm do anything to me? I don't feel any
differently."
"You won't, except that you will only mate with me from now on. You won't be
able to with anyone else and neither will I."
"I don't believe that. This was a one shot deal. Get that straight."
The boy sighed softly, his pain evident and said no more. As soon as he felt the
seal release, he pulled carefully out of the captain. He moved to pick up his
clothes where they were thrown on the floor. Dressed hurriedly and almost ran
from the cabin.
Walter sat naked on his sore ass, on his desk, and wondered why he suddenly felt
so alone. That however did not prevent him from attempting to have the Ensign
transferred. The doctors stopped that attempt as soon as they heard about it.
Separation before completion of the bond would mean neither of the men would be
functioning due to an almost constant state of arousal.
Walter tried to argue with them but his Commander told him privately that he
would not risk losing two people because Walter refused to face reality.
'Walter, you've always been a realist. What's changed that? He's a beautiful
boy. Relax and enjoy him. I'll bet he's hot stuff in bed. I'd take him away from
you if it were possible.' Walter chalked this speech up to the fact that they
had been at the academy together, and being a married man, the Commander wanted
the entire world shackled.
That had taken a week and he had stayed planet side while the boy was on the
ship to avoid the odour of him that now seemed to be everywhere. During the next
week, in his usual stubborn way he tried to prove everyone wrong. He prowled
through every pleasure house around the port then wandered further afield
looking for others.
At best, he would walk in the door the odours of the women would reach him and
he would run to avoid puking in the entry. He tried a house that advertised both
male and female companions, thinking that with fewer women, he might manage to
make it past the door but even that failed.
So, in desperation, he went to an all male house, thinking he could at least
prove that he could function with someone else. He picked a man who looked as
different from Alex as he could find and followed him to his room.
The tall, blond with red eyes asked what he wanted and he mumbled just a normal
BJ would do. The blond smiled and guided him to a chaise. He carefully undressed
Walter, pushed him to lie down and swallowed him whole.
Nothing happened.
Walter felt the warm tongue slide over him. The fingers that probed his ass
rubbed insistently over his prostate in a way that normally drove him crazy.
And still nothing happened.
Finally the man raised his head, gave Walter a sardonic smile and said, "Maybe
I'm not what you're looking for."
"I didn't believe them."
"Believe who?"
"The doctors, my First Officer, Him."
"Him, who?"
"Alex. He's from New Russia."
"Shit, man. You just wasted your money. No one else can do anything for you
now."
"But I'm not gay." Walter slapped his hand over his mouth when he realized he
sounded like a pouting little boy. The pleasure companion just shook his head.
It was late when he got back to the ship. As soon as he stepped on board he
smelled him. It was that rich, full odour that had filled his office when the
boy had impaled Walter. Crewmembers moved quickly out of his way as he charged
toward the sleeping quarters.
He didn't even notice when he knocked his First Officer into a bulkhead. It was
a good thing Doggett had seen him coming like a charging bull down the
passageway or he might have been seriously injured.
He overrode privacy mode on the Ensign's door and stood in the doorway looking
at the beautiful boy lying naked on his bunk. Alex was stroking his cock in a
slow sensuous way, his head back exposing his throat, his eyes closed tightly.
The pheromones were so heavy Walter thought he could almost see them.
He wondered briefly why the entire crew wasn't trying to get in the room to
ravish the boy. Then all thoughts fled as the boy said his name in a voice deep
with need and lust.
He stepped inside and, turning, growled at the communications console. "Privacy
mode. We are not to be disturbed for anything less than an attack on the ship."
"Acknowledged."
Alex watched with hope in his green eyes as Walter began to strip. When Walter
walked to stand at the foot of the bed, the boy spread his legs. Walter knelt
between them and just stared at the man waiting for his next move. He wrapped
his big paw around the perfectly formed cock and stroked it slowly.
"Is this full size?"
"Yes, I was getting close to climax."
"So that means you can not enter me now?"
"I could but it would not last long. And you would be stuck with me inside
again. You may enter me. We could complete the circle."
"Complete the circle? What do you mean by that?"
"I need your sperm inside me as I put mine in you. It's really only a symbol
since the chemical reactions took place last time. But it's also a way of saying
we are equal partners. That neither of us rules the other."
"Do I need to make you ready as you made me ready?"
"If you wish, but I have a fragrant oil if you..."
"Only if it smells like you."
Alex's face was luminous with his pleasure in those simple words. He gasped as
Walter's hands lifted him with ease. The tongue that worked its way inside him
was gentle, thorough and left him panting with need. His body opened joyously to
receive the huge cock of his lover.
Walter moved slowly, savouring the feel of the virgin passage he was pushing
deeper into with each thrust. Alex's hands clutched at him as he bottomed out,
the soft moan zinging through Walter straight to his cock.
The big man began to pound into the boy under him. The only sounds in the room,
the panting of two greatly aroused men as they strained against each other.
Walter's bellow of release so loud it was heard on the next tier. The boy's
shout lost against the throat he had been sucking on. Walter rolled over, taking
the boy with him so that he lay on Walter's chest.
When he could breath again, Walter cupped the boy's face and kissed him
tenderly. They slept for a while and when they woke, Walter took the boy inside
him again. This time he made no move to pull away when they were finished and
the boy kissed the chest he rested on gently.
Alex was naive enough that he had expected things would go smoothly after the
completion of the circle. He was still young and had no experience with stubborn
alpha males who refused to see that the universe could not be controlled as they
wished.
The boy's attempts at public communication were rebuked, sending him to the
ships psychiatrist for more therapy. He was finally bonded to a man he knew he
had loved in all his lives, only to have that man deny them both.
He had tried to talk to the Captain to explain that the mating was now a
necessary part of their well being but Walter refused to listen. The Captain had
even gone so far as to arrange for the area of the ship the boy was in to have a
unique air supply. Therefore making sure that the scent of the boy could not
affect him.
Dana and John watched in silence as long as possible. Dana growing more and more
concerned over the boy's health. He had begun losing weight, he was back to
having the dreams which disrupted his sleep cycle.
Walter had begun to snap at the crewmembers. His sleep populated with images of
the boy's face as he had looked at the moment of his climax as he whispered
Walter's name.
Finally one day Dana and John cornered Walter in his quarters.
"What do you two want? I'm busy so make it fast."
"Captain, we're concerned about Ensign Skinner."
Walter's face showed a brief flicker of worry but that was quickly covered with
anger.
"Doctor, it is your responsibility to see to the crewmembers' health. You should
not need to come to me over such matters."
"Damn it, Walter, stop this. Dana and I have both told you that you are bonded
to the boy now. Why the hell are you torturing him and yourself this way?"
"John, I'll thank you to remember that I am your Captain. Just because you
enjoy a boy doesn't mean that everyone does. I'm not gay. It was just a physical
reaction to his scent. As long as I don't smell him, I can get on with my job
and he can do his. When we next go in for replacements, I'll have him
transferred."
"That won't happen, Captain. I have filed my report listing you as his mate and
command will not send him to another ship without me stating that the bond is
fully formed."
"What the hell are you talking about? I fucked him and completed the damn circle
with him. Now he can go his way and I can go mine. It's no different from
getting a divorce. I don't love him and I don't want to spend my life with him."
John moved forward into his Captains personal space, head back to look into the
glaring eyes.
"Walter, I never thought I would say this but you are a coward and a fool. That
boy loves you. He may have been wrong to begin the bond without you knowing what
it entailed but that's over and done. It's time for you to face facts. Do you
want to spend the rest of your life without sex?"
"It'll wear off, won't it? I mean if we aren't around each other?"
"No, Captain. It doesn't work that way. I told you Alex's people mate for life.
Why is it you trust my medical judgement on everything else but not on this?"
"There has to be something that can be done. I don't want this."
"You stubborn idiot! Do you want the boy's death on your conscience?"
Before Walter could answer her the door signal sounded. John opened the door to
find Alex standing in the corridor.
"I was told to report." The hope in his eyes made John even angrier with his
Captain.
"Yes, Ensign. I wanted you to come up. We've been discussing your situation with
the Captain. We thought he needed to see with his own eyes that you are not
well."
"Doctor, I'm fine. There was no need to trouble the Captain. May I be excused?"
Walter's eyes roamed over the boy. Noting in his usual analytical way the dark
circles under each eye, the uniform hanging in loose folds on the thin frame,
the light gone from the eyes. Walter had seen men give up on life before. He
just never expected it to be because of him.
Dana and John watched as their Captain assessed the man standing with head
bowed, waiting to be rejected once more. They both recognized the battle-taking
place before them.
Walter Krycek was a strong man who made few mistakes in his life and had always
taken full responsibility for them. Looking at the wasting figure standing in
front of him he realized he had made a huge one this time.
"Come in, Ensign. You are just in time to join me for dinner. Doctor, Number
One, is there anything else you need?"
"No, Captain. We'll be on our way. I'll see that the kitchen sends up a vitamin
drink with the Ensign's dinner. You will see that he drinks it all, won't you?"
"Yes, Doctor. I'll make sure the Ensign eats a proper dinner."
Walter turned his back and began to set up the table for dinner. He didn't watch
as Dana and John left and pushed the boy inside. When Walter turned around,
Alex was standing just inside the door where John had placed him. His eyes down
looking at the floor, barely breathing, waiting for the rejection he was sure
would be forthcoming.
Even stubborn men must eventually face facts. Walter didn't like realizing that
not only had he fucked up as a man this time but also as a Captain. A good
Captain would never let a crewmember's health deteriorate to the degree he saw
here.
"Come, have a seat, Alex. I'll fix us some tea while we wait for dinner."
Alex went to sit at the small table in the corner of the room. He accepted the
cup of tea that was placed before him adding sugar and sipping slowly. He
answered every question put to him by the Captain but never once looked up at
him. His answers were monosyllabic when ever possible.
The Captain allowed this to continue through dinner. At one point practically
ordering Alex to eat. When Alex swore he couldn't eat any more the Captain just
instructed him to finish the drink so the Doctor wouldn't come after them both.
The drink was hurriedly choked down then the Ensign rose from his seat.
"May I be excused, Captain?"
He didn't wait for an answer just started toward the door, only to be stopped
when the Captain's hand closed on his wrist.
"Look at me, Alex."
"I can't, Captain." His voice was thick with pain.
"Why not? Am I that ugly?"
"No, Captain. You are a very handsome man."
"Then why won't you look at me?"
"Because the Captain has made it very clear that I am not wanted. Please, may I
go?" The whisper held so much anguish that Walter flinched.
"So, even though you desire me, you don't want to look at me?"
"I'm afraid to, Captain."
"Why?"
"Because it will probably trigger my mating pheromones. The rejection is
difficult enough when I'm not aroused, I don't think I can take it while I'm in
heat."
Alex tried to pull free then but Walter's hand tightened. Pushing the chair back
from the table, he pulled Alex into his lap. The boy struggled until he was too
tired to do so, then hid his face against the strong shoulder of the man holding
him. A ragged 'Please' the only sound he made.
Walter uttered "Privacy mode" and held on to his future.
Walter sat there holding the boy until he fell into a fitful sleep. Lifting him,
he carried him to the bed, undressed him and covered the frail looking body with
a blanket. He sat for a long time watching him sleep before he rose and went to
see his First Officer.
The First Officer unlike his Captain had no problems with the fact that he
enjoyed men. His current relationship was with Yeoman Jack Mann, someone he was
beginning to think he could spend his life with. Jack was a real beauty by any
standards. He was average height for an Earther, around five eleven. His hair
was thick and wavy a rich auburn and he had green eyes much like Alex's. John
often wondered why he wanted to be with Mr. Dumbo as he had heard himself called
as a child.
He was curled around Jack, still buried inside him, in no hurry to leave the hot
tight body when the door signal sounded. He asked the computer who it was and
when he heard it was the Captain, he pulled slowly and reluctantly out of Jack's
body. The soft sigh of the other man making him smile.
John grabbed a towel to wipe the come mixed with lube from his dick as he smiled
at Jack tenderly. Yeah, they should discuss a contract and soon. His smile grew
as Jack shifted to a sitting position on the bed and pulled the sheet up to
cover his reawakening cock.
John answered his door stark naked and Walter could see one of the Yeomen
propped in the bed naked chest gleaming in the candlelight. The smells of sex
were heavy in the room. Walter couldn't help but take in a deep lung full.
The contented look on John's face and the odours told him that they had at least
completed round one, the scent coming from Jack told him round two would have
been coming up soon if he hadn't knocked on the door.
"Sorry, I guess I'm interrupting."
"No, Captain. We were just sharing the afterglow. Unlike some people, I don't
deprive myself of pleasure. Especially not when the man is beautiful and
willing. Do you need to talk? Jack can come back later."
"Sure, John." The man in the bed rose, totally unconcerned to be naked in front
of his Captain. He pulled on his clothes and kissed John unhurriedly on his way
out.
"I'll call you when we finish."
"OK."
Walter had watched the exchange between the two men and wondered why he was
still having so much trouble adjusting to his situation. After all he was now
bonded, homosexuality was accepted on almost all planets where human's lived,
and the service would only separate him and Alex if they asked to be assigned
for short periods to work special projects.
Walter suddenly realized he wanted to have that look of contentment on his face.
That he wanted to start his day buried in Alex's warm body. That he wanted the
pleasure he had only felt with the boy sleeping in his bed.
John picked up a robe and pulled it on sensing that the Captain would be more
comfortable talking if he were clothed. He watched as the Captain paced in the
small space available for a couple of minutes. Finally the Captain sat and John
still waited.
"John, how much do you know about my home world?"
"Not a lot. Your people are pretty closed mouthed."
"Yeah, we're like a family with a dirty little secret."
"Secret?"
"Homosexuality is not tolerated on my planet, John. Women outnumber men three to
one and do not conceive easily. There is heavy government pressure to keep the
population up so that we can be completive, so having sex with a man is
considered the ultimate sin against the people."
"Is that why very few men from your world enter the service?"
"Yes. It's considered acceptable for a woman to leave if she hasn't conceived by
her twentieth season but they try to keep all the men at home for stud service
if nothing else. I was allowed to leave because testing showed I wasn't
fertile."
"Is that why you never had sex with anyone who might be relationship material?"
"Partly, yes. Intellectually, I know that not all women want children but the
shame I felt at my failure made me back away from anything lasting. It was
easier to ease my body alone or with paid companions."
"Why are you telling me this? You should be telling Alex."
"I'm telling you because I value you not just as a First Officer but as a
friend. And because I needed to say it to someone else to get it straight in my
mind before I try to explain it to him."
"Where is he? Did you get him to eat?"
"Yes, he ate, but only because I ordered him to. I held him until he fell
asleep."
"Did you...?"
"No. He wasn't... he didn't...smell. He barely talked to me, wouldn't look at
me. I've hurt him so badly. Hell! I've shown more kindness to enemies than I
have him."
"He'll understand and forgive you. Now get back there and talk to him."
The crewmembers that were up and about stared in surprise as the Captain walked
quickly down the corridor and entered the Ensign's room. He packed all the
Ensign's personal things and carried them back to his quarters.
Good thing he was Captain, he wouldn't have to wait for larger quarters to
become available for himself and his mate. He hummed tunelessly as he put away
the clothing, then he undressed and slipped into the bed next to the restless
sleeper.
He pulled Alex into his arms and smiled as the warm body pressed close a little
sigh the only sound in the room. He did not however smile the next morning when
he woke and his bed was empty.
Every head in the maintenance bay turned as the Captain stalked through the
room. It had only taken one question to the ships computer to know where his
wayward Ensign was located. Had the air supply been restored to normal, he could
have found him by scent.
Alex's head rose when the man he was working with gasped. He was surprised to
find his Captain heading toward them with a scowl on his face. He turned back to
his work as if the fire breathing giant was not moving toward him at a speed he
would not have thought possible in one so big. The Captain looked at the man
next to Alex.
"Excuse us, Ensign."
"Aye, Captain." The Ensign moved a discrete distance from Alex and the Captain.
"Alex, I didn't like waking up alone. Please wake me for a goodbye kiss before
you leave in the mornings from now on."
Alex's head jerked up and he looked into the deep brown eyes. He stood very
still as the Captain cupped his face and kissed him softly, then stood staring
open mouthed as the Captain turned and walked away. Walter stopped a few feet
away and turned back.
"I'll see you in our quarters after my shift tonight."
Alex nodded slowly, still not believing his ears. He watched as every eye in the
place followed the Captain's exit. The other Ensign moved back to the job they
had been working on and nudged Alex when he still stood staring.
"Please, pinch me. I need to know I'm not dreaming." He yelped loudly as the
other Ensign did indeed pinch him.
Walter had started his day by having the restrictions taken off the air supply
system. He had decided he wanted to be able to find Alex without asking the
computer. Doggett had nodded his approval and when he broke for lunch, he went
to let the Doctor know the Captain was finally coming around.
That evening the Captain had been detained on the bridge when Doctor Mulder came
up to give him a report on an accident that had occurred in engineering that
day. She and First Officer Doggett were wrapping things up when Walter trailed
off in mid sentence.
"Thank you, Doctor. It's good to know no on....."
His head rose, his nostrils flared, lungs expanded to breathe deeply. They
watched, as the Captain -- sporting an obvious erection -- exited the room at a
dead run.
"Think I should warn people to get out of his way?" Dr. Mulder asked with a
deadpan expression.
"Why? I have a feeling this is going to happen on a regular enough basis that
everyone will learn to get out of his way."
She didn't need to worry. Word had gotten around about the Captain's visit to
the maintenance bay that morning so no one was really surprised to see him
running toward his quarters, preceded by his hard–on.
By the time he entered his quarters, speech was a forgotten ability. Alex turned
from the candles he was lighting to smile at the big man ripping his clothes
off. He had just enough time to call for privacy mode before Walter lifted him
up, ravishing his pretty pink mouth.
Had he been asked later how they got on the bed or how he got inside Walter he
wouldn't be able to tell them. It seemed as though one minute he was being held
aloft while having his tongue sucked half out of his head. The next he was
screaming as he shot in Walter's body then falling forward to lie on the back of
the panting man.
When the seal released he rolled over and Walter turned on his side to look at
him. The apprehension in the boy's eyes pained him more that anything else ever
had. He reached out and caressed the face, his thumb trailing over the full
lower lip.
"Do you have any control over that scent?"
"It happens when I get aroused. So, I guess I have some control. Why?"
"Will you try to save it for after I get here next time? I think I may have
knocked over a couple of people on the way down here."
"Do you mean I'm going to stay here? That you want to be with me?"
"Yes. I know I treated you badly. I'm sorry. Let's eat dinner and afterwards
I'll try to explain it to you."
The smile on Alex's face stole his breath. The boy was indeed beautiful and
Walter knew he would be the envy of many in the years to come.
Six months later when they returned to Earth for crew changes they registered
their marriage contract and had the biggest wedding ever known in the fleet.
Alex wore green to match his eyes and Walter ignored the 'I told you so' looks
from Dr. Mulder and First Officer Doggett.
The party halted momentarily when the hardest nosed Captain in the fleet
screamed his husband's name so loud he drowned out the band. Every eye in the
room raised to the ceiling as the Ensign's scream echoed just a heartbeat
behind. The band continued as if never interrupted and the guests partied until
the wee hours of the morning.
lex, you will awaken on the count of three. One. Two. Three. Welcome back."
