Title: Bittersweet
Author: Marquesate
Email: Marquesate@livejournal.com
Beta: The one, the only, the irreplaceable Guenhwyvar.
Pairing: Jack/Norrington
Rating: G
Warnings: Character deaths (in a way).
SPOILER WARNING! This is actually the epilogue to the very long story I am writing on, but it is so big that although I am frantically writing almost daily, it will take ages to complete. If you'd like to wait for it, for whatever reason, then don't read this piece.
Summary: An old man reminisces about his life, love and friendship. Sometimes finality is as sweet as Continental dark bitter chocolate.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters. The copyright belongs to a vast international corporation, but I do own the story.
Notes: Standalone, although it belongs in the same universe as the earlier part in the series 'The Ocean, the Pearl, and...'.
Dedication: To Sushi my best friend, who always tried to teach me that not all happy endings are 'and they lived happily ever after'. To KC my best online friend, who has been firing my imagination in RP for many years.
Bittersweet
by Marquesate
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The old
man stood on top of the cliffs, as he had done almost every
evening for more years than he cared to remember. Overlooking
the bay, he was watching the splendour of a Caribbean sunset,
rich colours of flaming red, orange and burning amber turning
into turquoise, azure and midnight blue. The tall man's short
white hair was ruffled by the constant breeze coming from the
ocean and he smiled at the scent of salt and sun, which would
forever remind him of another. He leant on a silver topped cane,
but while his joints ached with every movement, age had not
bent his body, nor had it filled his figure, and he would not
stoop, but stand as straight as he had always done.
The world
of his youth, he mused while observing seagulls that dipped
low and soared back up into the skies again, had changed beyond
recognition. There was no pirate threat any more in these waters,
the world was moving towards different ways of life and as he
had heard, it was highwaymen these days faraway in his home
country, who pried on the wealthy and the unsuspecting.
Brilliant
rays of fading sunlight caught the black stone of the ring he
wore on his left hand and made the onyx sparkle, set as it was
in intricate silver skulls, a ring most unusual for a man of
his rank. Nevertheless, for twenty-five years he had been wearing
it and not taken it off his finger for even a single day. When
the glowing blood red ball of the sun had half sunk into the
glittering ocean the man turned to sit down on the bench that
had been installed for him several years ago. He groaned a little,
knowing he was alone still and no one would hear as the aches
in his aged body caught up with him, and yet when he sat and
looked out over the darkening sky towards the horizon he smiled
and his dark green eyes, which had never dimmed and always retained
their sharp intelligence, squinted with his failing eyesight
when for a brief instance he believed he saw a dark shape at
the horizon. He shook his head slightly and cradled the elegant
silver top in his long fingered hands, the joints gnarled nowadays
from the malady all men of the sea suffered from. Just like
another had suffered quietly and stoically all those years ago,
while he himself, the old man mused, had been luckier. His mostly
comfortable life of duty had sheltered him from the worst effects
of age for a long time. Much longer than for the other, who
had been one with the sea and the sun throughout all of his
life.
Leaning
back into the bench he closed his eyes a moment, savouring the
cooling breeze on his wrinkled but nevertheless still handsome
face, and smiled slightly. She would be here any moment now,
he did not even need to look at his pocket watch to know when
to expect her step, still light, and her voice, still sweet,
and probably joined after a while by her husband. She would
smell of violets and roses, but her spirit would still be as
fiery as it had once been. Age did not wear down everyone, and
the years had not stolen any of his or his friends' fire away.
Neither hers, nor her husbands, nor had it mellowed himself,
and least of all had it ever been quenched in another.
Before
the white haired man had come here tonight he had passed the
small cemetery up on the hill, as he had done every evening
for quite a while. Captain Theodore Groves had passed away two
years previously, mourned by all, and most of all his friends,
though not by a widow, because he had never married. Instead
it had been his life long friend, Groves' senior in age and
rank, who had spoken heartfelt words at the open grave and buried
the man who had shared the past forty odd years with him, and
the last twenty-five of those almost exclusively. They had been
friends, great and true friends, and had occasionally shared
a bed, but never lived together. Not out of fear for gossip
and maliciousness, but because this would not have been their
kind of relationship. It was friendship, and occasional passion
until age had turned the flame of lust into the warmth of comforting,
but not romantic love. The old man's heart had always belonged
to another throughout all those four scores of years, and the
other man's heart had never sought for a lover, but an honest,
deeply trusted friend.
The old
gentleman on the bench sighed softly and opened his eyes again
towards the enveloping darkness. The last rays of the sinking
sun were merely touching the bay and lights had come on in the
houses, like strings of golden glowing pearls. He had been so
tired lately, as if all his energy had been sapped away, and
he shivered slightly and pulled the lapels of his dark tail
coat closer together and crossed his long legs, which were clad
in the customary black riding boots. He found those more comfortable
these days, they provided subtle support and were warmer than
the silk stockings and dainty shoes he used to wear previous
to his retirement.
Before
he could continue his musings and reminiscences he heard her
steps, knowing that nowadays she was closer before he was able
to hear her than she used to be, because as everything, his
hearing had deteriorated, yet by no means was he anything but
still a very impressive man. Nevertheless an old man, and he
felt it and knew it deep inside, when he had grown more and
more tired. He turned his head and smiled at the lady who waved
an elegantly gloved hand at him. Her grey hair was even now
luscious and swept up on her head, crowned with a small white
linen cap, while her slender figure had never gained more than
a little in girth with the birth of her children, only serving
to fill out her lovely form and rendering her even more beautiful.
"James,
my dear." She smiled as she approached and he stood up,
though slowly, for his bones were protesting at every movement
of this sort. "How are you tonight?" She tilted her
graciously aged and beautiful head upwards and he gently kissed
her cheek with a smile and waited for her to sit down beside
him before he seated himself again. "I am as well as any
of these days, Elizabeth." He answered fondly, but knew
even before he looked into her face that she would frown, ever
concerned for him in these last two years, and so he reached
with his hand to cover her delicate own with tenderness. "Do
not worry about me, my dear, I am fine. I truly am. I am just
a little tired." His voice was still like dark velvet and
smooth cocoa, it had never become brittle, like so many other
old men's. Perhaps the reason was that he had a life long of
giving orders, of having grown naturally into the knowledge
of being in command and holding power, while having learned,
before he ever became Admiral, that he was a man too underneath
the uniform, and this man had a warm smile, beating heart and
very physical desires and passions. Love and lust, it had only
ever been truly for one, whose face he could still see before
his inner eye, whose gold and silver glittering smirk he could
recall without trying, and whose black eyes lived as vividly
in his memory as when they had sparkled wickedly at him all
that time ago. Even after these long years he would never forget,
not a single day since Tom, back then the young captain of the
Swallow, had brought Jack's ring to him with the heart shattering
message that Captain Jack Sparrow had gone down with his Black
Pearl. Twenty-five years ago it was, and the Retired Admiral
James Norrington was musing on this with a small, melancholy
smile. He did not notice at first when Elizabeth spoke again,
until she gently squeezed his hand.
"James?"
She smiled warmly and teased him a little. "You were miles
away, what were you thinking?" Norrington looked at her
with a guilty expression, but she chuckled at his look which
still reminded her more of a puppy than anything else and which
still made her feel this tender fondness in her heat for their
great and loyal, steadfast friend. "I am sorry Elizabeth,
it is just that I have been so tired lately." He took a
breath and made a slow, sweeping gesture towards the bay and
the darkening ocean. The first stars were already starting to
twinkle in the sky, whose colours had turned from blue to flaming
red, to purple and now midnight. "I was thinking of Jack,"
his apologetic smile was soft, "I have been thinking a
lot about him lately." She nodded but remained silent,
her smile though spoke more than words, she knew that especially
since Theodore's death there was nothing her family could do
to take the melancholy away from their friend, although he had
never been without loving company who truly cared.
"Did
you know, Elizabeth, that it was to this day that I received
the news of Jack's death?" She looked at him and the expression
on her face made it obvious she had not realised. "Oh,
I am sorry James, I
" but he lifted his hand and brushed
a stray lock of grey hair out of her face, with which the breeze
had played. "No my dear, no apologies needed, but yes,
it has been twenty-five years since the Black Pearl sunk. So
typical of Jack that he would have died saving his crew and
that of the Swallow, but being crushed by the main mast of his
own beloved ship. Twenty-five years to this day it was that
Tom brought me Jack's ring." As if to emphasise his words
he lifted his left hand and let the dark stone gleam dully in
the increasing moonlight. "I have been thinking, my dear,
and realised that what I used to say was very wrong."
The elegant
elderly lady beside him, dressed in the latest fashions of the
outgoing century they were living in, tilted her head in a most
becoming manner and frowned at him in confusion. "I don't
understand, my friend, what do you mean?" Norrington indulged
in a mild chuckle, he knew he had been cryptic, and ventured
to explain. "I used to say to you that I loved Jack for
eighteen years, but that is not true. It was not only while
he was alive. I have been loving him just as much for all those
years since his death." He smiled a little at her and leaned
forward, gazing into Elizabeth's eyes. "I miss knowing
that he was out there on the ocean and would eventually come
back to me or I to him. Missing Jack has not become any less,
not even after all these long years." He shrugged slightly
and played once again with the silver top of his cane. The long
but gnarled fingers twirled slowly around it, smoothly and in
an unconscious caress, as he turned his face towards the sea
again and smiled wistfully.
"Of
all of us, Elizabeth, he was the smartest. He left us, and remained
with his Pearl, while we carried on with the burden of living
without him." There was no bitterness at all in his voice,
instead she could hear the smile in the soft tone and the longing,
as well as the heartbreak. She had suspected that much, since
that fateful day and throughout those twenty-five years, that
their friend and godfather to all their children had never been
fully whole again, despite the unwavering and deep friendship
and more with Captain Groves. "I had a good life."
Norrington said quietly and glanced with warmth in his deep
green eyes at his dear friend. "I had a truly unique lover
for many years," his lips were tugged into a grin at the
emphasise on Jack's unquestionable uniqueness, "I have
true, longstanding friends, a large and lively family I had
the privilege of being invited into as an uncle and was allowed
to see children being born, grow into fine young girls and boys
who turned into spirited women and men, only to have their own
children in return and this made me part of the circle of life."
Now it was his turn to squeeze Elizabeth's hand gently and she
fought tears of deep emotions that wanted to steal into her
eyes while she smiled at their friend. "I had the most
loyal and interesting best friend a man could wish for, for
almost all of my life." He glanced wistfully into the darkness
to where the cemetery lay and gave a mental salute of affection
and respect to the late Captain Theodore Groves. "I had
my duties and I did them gladly and to my best abilities. Here
I am Elizabeth, a retired Admiral of the British Royal Navy,
respected by all and sundry. My greatest achievement is, however,
that I managed to stay away from having to get married."
The grin was back on his face and it crinkled the lines around
his seaman's eyes, which loved nothing more than being fixed
on the horizon. The graceful woman beside him let out a noise
that sounded suspiciously like a very unladylike giggle, and
Norrington felt warmth spread inside his chest, to see proof
once again that the years truly did not bend and break everyone,
but some remained their lively selves.
"I
miss him." He suddenly murmured into the darkness and lowered
his gaze onto his own hand that was curled around the silver
topped cane. Elizabeth covered his other hand that was still
holding her own with her second one, to warm the cool fingers
and the fine parchment skin of his blue veined hand. "I
know." She whispered with all the fondness in her heart.
"He was freedom, eccentric insanity, and everything we
could not have nor be. No regard for our morals, no respect
for our laws, and least of all for any inhibitions." This
made Norrington chuckle and his eyes had their old sparkle back
when he turned his head towards her and grinned.
"You
knew Captain Sparrow well, my dearest." On a more serious
note but nevertheless tenderly he added, "this new world
of ours would not have had a place for him. I am glad in a way
that he left us when he did, and that he remained with his beloved
Pearl in his beloved Ocean, but my selfish self wanted to keep
him as long as possible, and it would never have been enough,
no matter how many more years we had had." He turned his
head towards the sound of male voices appearing from the same
direction Elizabeth had come from and added quietly, "never
enough, not for me. Never enough of Jack."
She rubbed
the back of his hand and turned her head into the same direction,
she knew those voices well, and greeted her husband and her
two sons who had taken over the renowned sword smithy. "Good
to see you my love." She smiled into the moonlit darkness.
"We have just been talking about Jack." Will chuckled
softly when he approached and waved at Norrington to please
not stand and instead he inclined his head with esteem and affection
to the man who had become his friend and gave the older man
a squeeze of his hand on the shoulder. The two young, their
twin sons, were standing a step away after a respectful bow
to the retired Admiral who was their godfather, and smiled at
him.
"I
know he would just love to know we are talking about him and
somehow I think he does. All those years since he parted and
Captain Jack Sparrow is still vividly in our minds." Will
smiled and then held his hand out for his wife. It was time
they headed back home, dinner was waiting. "James, you
will come to little Elizabeth Anne's christening on Sunday,
won't you? We made sure the dinner incorporates some of your
favourites, and I have heard there will even be some rum available
for those of us who are adventurous enough." Norrington
nodded and let go of Elizabeth's hands, sitting up straighter,
although his back protested in pain, but it would not do that
age ever conquered him. "Of course Will, if I can, I will
be there. How could I miss one of your large families' famous
dinners." Both Elizabeth and Will laughed, they had indeed
a very large family and on these occasions an overcrowded house.
First Commodore and when promoted, Admiral James Norrington
had always been an integral part of their family, more so in
the last twenty odd years, and even Captain Theodore Groves
had partaken often enough in food, drink and merry company.
"I
shall see you then," Elizabeth said and bent down to place
a kiss on Norrington's cheek, noting with sadness and concern
how pale his usually lightly tanned skin was and how cool he
felt. The man himself had not changed, but she was forced to
realise that he looked tired, and his movements had become economic
and slow, like a man who was in more pain than he'd ever admit.
"Goodbye James, my friend." She whispered into his
ear and smiled with deepest tenderness when she straightened
back up and took her husband's offered hand. "Will we see
you later for a drink?" Will asked and held out his other
hand to the Retired Admiral, who did stand up now, slowly but
when he stood it was as straight and tall as ever, though some
of his weight was supported on his cane. Norrington took Will
Turner's hand and shook it as firmly as his arthritic fingers
allowed. "Not tonight, Will, I feel like taking a short
walk along the beach. It is a beautiful night, just look at
the stars and the moon." He smiled and glanced at Elizabeth
who understood, because he had told her that on this day it
had been twenty-five years. He saw her take her husband's hand
firmer and knew she would tell Will why their friend wanted
to be alone.
"Tomorrow
then." Will said and nodded at Norrington. Before they
left, their two twin sons, now in their late twenties themselves,
bowed again and with fondness said their own farewells to their
godfather and so-called uncle, who watched them all leave. He
stood in silence for a moment until they were swallowed by the
darkness and then he gazed once again over the dark bay, listening
to the faint sounds of waves breaking at the cliffs down below.
After a long while he lifted his eyes towards the horizon, right
where the ocean met the night sky and whispered into the sea
breeze that smelled so much of Jack, of salt and freedom, only
the ever present taste of rum was missing. "I love you
Jack and I am certain that you scoundrel always knew, although
I never told you." He smiled, because it seemed to him
as if he heard the wind answering in a murmur back to him 'and
so did I, luv, but I knew ye always understood I loved ye. After
all, I'm Captain Jack Sparrow, savvy?' With a chuckle Norrington
turned away from the bench and made his slow and careful way
down to the secluded beach where many years ago he had been
told without so many words that he was loved as much as the
Ocean and the Pearl.
After dinner,
Elizabeth sat reading in the drawing room with the flickering
flames in the fireplace beside her and her husband working on
a technical drawing for another type of ceremonial sword their
sons were labouring on. She looked up when a particularly strong
gust of wind rattled the windows. "It's odd, isn't it Will?
There was hardly a breeze earlier and now there is a storm out
there." Her husband lifted his head from being crouched
over the table that stood across the room and let out a small
sound of agreement. Although he had listened with half an ear,
he was preoccupied with the drawing and soon returned his attention
to it. Elizabeth continued, "I hope James has returned
home by now, but I can't imagine he would have been so foolish
to stay by the water, even though it is the day of the twenty-fifth
anniversary." This did make Will look up again with an
enquiring sound. "Anniversary?" He asked his wife
who answered readily, her book open on her lap. "James
told me it was the day that the Captain of the Swallow had come
to Port Royal. You remember the young captain, Tom, Jack's former
cabin boy, and told him that the Black Pearl had sunk with their
Captain." Will nodded and now she did have his full attention,
the only distraction was when another, even stronger wind made
the fire sputter precariously and a blast of air roared loudly
through the chimney.
Elizabeth
frowned at the storm that worsened with every moment, "He
told me earlier." She turned her head towards the window
and placed the book onto the small side table as she stood up,
smoothing down the thick silk of her gown. "I think we
should close the shutters, don't you, Will?" She looked
back at him and her husband was already standing as well. Taking
the few steps to the window she suddenly mused, "It reminds
me of that night all those many years ago, when the cursed Black
Pearl came into the harbour and attacked Port Royal under Barbossa."
The moment she had finished this thought she shuddered and stopped
in mid movement, turning her head to look at Will who had come
up beside her and frowned deeply at the feeling he shared with
her. "You are right." Her husband agreed and frowned
at the memory, even though it was over forty five years ago
it still made him shiver. "Let us close the shutters."
They stepped
to the windows and were about to brace themselves to open it,
to be able to reach the sturdy wooden shutters, when Elizabeth
suddenly cried out, pointing towards the bay, "Will! Look,
just look!!!" In shock and disbelief she gestured in the
direction of the harbour, where at the horizon and far too close
to Port Royal, they could clearly make out the all too familiar
shape of a ship in the bright moonlight, unobstructed, for there
were no clouds in the dark night sky despite the storm. A ship
as black as the night, with sails that swallowed the starlight,
but lanterns were hung on the main deck and the windows of the
captain's cabin in the gallery were awash with light. "This
can't be true love, this is... no Elizabeth, it cannot be!"
Will exclaimed, but it was real, and they both knew it, they
could feel it deep inside that their eyes did not betray them.
"Come!" was all Elizabeth gasped out and she was already
turning to flee towards the door, followed by her husband who
called out to their sons who were working in the forge that
had been built beside the main house. "Jack! James! Hurry
up, we need to get to the beach!" The two elderly gentlefolk
grabbed shawl and coat on their way, and hastened as fast their
aging bodies would allow into the storm, followed closely by
their two twin sons who overtook them easily. Elizabeth gestured
into the general direction of the secluded beach. "Hurry
up, we must get down, quick! We will follow." Neither Will
nor Elizabeth could be certain why they had to run down to the
bay, but they did know why there of all places. If anywhere,
it would be there where James Norrington would have gone. They
had no idea however, why and how the Black Pearl could be back,
a ship that had been resting in peace at the bottom of the ocean,
together with her eccentric captain, for the last twenty-five
years.
They hurried
through the storm and fought their way along the dangerously
narrow path that led towards the secluded beach, with the cliffs
to the right and the fort's walls to the left. Nonetheless,
the blustery high winds never seemed to battle against them,
unlike that fateful night of Barbossa's attack, instead it seemed
to spur them on. When they finally reached the sandy beach that
overlooked the ocean out into the bay they saw their sons waving
to them, holding an object that glinted a dull silver at one
end in the moonlight. "No!" Elizabeth cried out, her
fine shoes were sinking into the sand when she tried to hurry
towards her sons. Supported by Will's arm on her elbow, both
parents were out of breath, the years had indeed caught up with
them as well. "Oh no
" She forced out when she
reached the two handsome identical men who held Admiral Norrington's
silver topped cane. Tears sprang to her eyes as Elizabeth clutched
the cane to her heart and she turned to bury her face and cry
at her husband's chest, who had gathered her into his arms.
They knew, they needed no proof, to believe without a shadow
of a doubt that their lifelong friend James Norrington had left
them. They believed he had died in the storm, swept out into
the bay and out into the sea, because he was an old man, still
straight and upright, but nevertheless frail and aching with
age. She sobbed in Will's arms while his own tears were running
down his face, but suddenly their sons got their attention,
who were pointing out to the bay at a large, black shape. There
she was, so close that the sharp eyes of the younger men could
make out shapes of pirates on board in the golden glow of the
lanterns, while the Black Pearl majestically rode the rough
waves in the storm that blew straight from the sea into the
bay, only broken by the outcrops of rocks.
Elizabeth
stopped weeping and looked out towards the ocean with another
gasp, and so did Will, who stood silent and immobile. It could
not be, it was impossible, but when the ship sailed closer,
as if flying towards the onlookers, they believed they could
see the quite familiar shapes of a man with a parrot on his
shoulder, a woman in a large hat, a stout man who had once been
a merchant sailor drinking from a flask, and all the others
of Jack's old crew, in wild carousing, with loud laughter and
merriment. "Look!" Will managed to breathe out, holding
his wife close in the safe embrace, with the winds whipping
about them, and indicated to the ship. Distinctive shapes of
two men close to each other, right there on the forecastle,
a little apart from the others. One man's wild mane of hair
was whipping in the wind while he made flamboyantly sweeping
gestures with his arms and the other one stood quite a bit taller
in what appeared from the moonlit distance like a uniform. Will
and Elizabeth knew what they saw and they smiled despite their
tears when they heard an all too familiar voice singing, the
sound carried across the water by the wind, "Yo ho, Yo
ho, A Pirate's life for me
" and then Elizabeth laughed
and wiped furiously at her wet eyes, witnessing so clearly over
the high winds a laughter their family had heard many times
over the long years. "Not this song again, Jack!"
When the taller man stooped a little to embrace the smaller
one, there was neither stiffness nor slowness in his movements.
Instead the motions were smooth and strong like those of a man
in his best years.
Both of
the Turner sons stood gaping in silence, but Will kissed the
forehead of his wife of many years with a tear choked soft chuckle,
and with wet faces and smiles they watched the dark shape of
the regal Black Pearl, the Queen of the Caribbean, sail away
from them, taking the wild winds with her. The last echo of
sounds they heard was the sorely missed voice that sung again
accompanied by the other man's laughter, which they would also
deeply miss from now on, "
and really bad eggs!"
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