First Times
by Patt Paulos-Darrow
What will I do if he asks me to sleep with him?
What will I do if he doesn't ask?
I am so confused.
He is beautiful in body and soul.
I want him so much, that I can't express it well.
I have never been with a man.
Kind of late for a life-changing thing like this.
Who knew I would meet and fall in love with a Sentinel?
Well, I think I always knew, but wasn't sure.
He is so gentle, so kind, he is trying to make me feel at ease.
I don't know what will happen tonight, but I know it will be great.
I love him so much.
It doesn't matter if he is my first.
He doesn't care, well, I don't think.
Oh man, now something new to worry about.
No, I think he is fine with me being a virgin.
He might be looking at it as a big ego boost.
No, Jim would never do or feel like that.
But let me tell you, I am having some of those feelings myself.
Oh hell, I just hope it all works out well.
I love him, I adore him.
I want him.
Forever.
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