Monday morning:
"Faith: not wanting to know what is true."
- Friedrich Nietzsche (1844-1900) -
Chief, I saw this quote and thought of you. I'm so sorry I didn't have faith in what you were telling me. I'm really going to work on that trust issue. I swear I will. I'll see you tonight. I love you.
Jim
Monday afternoon:
"We must have strong minds, ready to accept facts as they are."
- Harry S Truman (1884-1972) -
Jim, I have already forgiven you. I know your problem with trust issues. We'll work on it together. You are and will always be my main man. I love you back.
Blair
Tuesday morning:
"If a kid asks where rain comes from, I think a cute thing to tell him is 'God is crying'. And
if he asks why God is crying, another cute thing to tell him is 'Probably because of
something you did.'"
- Jack Handey, Deep Thoughts -
Jim,
I saw this quote and thought it screamed your name. Simon said he needed to talk to you in his office first thing. What did you do, hot shot? Truly I hope that you aren't getting in trouble while I am busy at the Police Academy. Be good; think of me a lot today. When are we ever going to have sex again?
Love, Blair
Tuesday night:
"God for you is where you sweep away all the mysteries of the world,
all the challenges to our intelligence. You simply turn your mind off
and say God did it."
- Carl Sagan (1934-1996), Contact -
Blair,
I had the worst day possible today. I swear when I read this quote in our book; I had to write it on your daily love note. This is how I felt today. Such innocents were killed for no reason. And I found myself saying, what did God have planned when he let this happen. They were babies, Chief. When you get in tonight do you think you could wake me up and make love to me? I need you so badly. I miss being in your arms. How many more weeks, Chief?
Love, Jim
Wednesday morning:
"Not only is there no God, but try finding a plumber on Sunday."
- Woody Allen (1935-) -
Dear Jim,
I know that it isn't funny, but this is meant seriously. I believe this sometimes. How could a creator let something like this happen? All I know is how much you were hurting and I'm not crazy about that.
I do enjoy holding you, but not when you are aching like that. I hope your days upcoming will be better. I'll see you tonight.
I love you,
Blair
Wednesday morning:
"Men have become the tools of their tools."
- Henry David Thoreau (1817-1862) -
Dear Blair,
I feel like I've become this quote. When I'm not having a nervous breakdown at work from doing all the paper work, I'm thinking about sex with you. DUH. Like this is some kind of news flash. I went to see the Department Shrink today and it went pretty well. I was having a very hard time with these little children's deaths. She's helping me out. So don't worry about me, babe.
I love you; hope is well at the PA. Fill me in tonight.
Love, Jim
Thursday morning:
"A goodly number of scientists are not only narrow-minded and dull,
but also just stupid."
- James D. Watson (1928-) -
Dear Jim,
First of all thank you for the fucking of a lifetime last night. You are something else, lover. Secondly, you asked about the PA. Well, this one teacher there is an idiot. I'm not just being overdramatic, Jim. He is an idiot for sure. I saw this quote and said this is Captain Miller. It's no wonder a lot of these guys don't know what to do at a crime scene. This guy is a lousy teacher. It's too bad.
But other than that, things are well. You have a great day today. Keep thinking those sexy thoughts during the day if you continue to attack me each evening like you did last night.
I love you,
Blair
Friday morning:
"To sit alone with my conscience will be judgment enough for me."
- Charles William Stubbs -
Chief,
We found the killer today and I had no choice, I had to take the shot. He could've killed one of the others. So, I took the shot. I could have shot him in the arm or shoulder, but felt like I needed to stop him. Now, I have to deal with that. For some reason I'm having problems coming to terms with this. Wake me up when you get home from PA, all right?
I love you,
Jim
Saturday morning:
"Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and
I'm not sure about the former."
- Albert Einstein (1879-1955) -
Dear Jim,
Yes, I do believe that stupid people do have a place on this earth. That man, asked to be shot. He was stupid and he didn't give it a second thought about killing those children. He wasn't losing any sleep over any of this. So basically the only thing we can depend on is Human Stupidity. I find this very sad, but also know it is a fact of life. You are a good cop Jim. You wouldn't have killed him out of spite no matter what you think. You might have hated the man, but you wouldn't have killed him for no reason. And he gave you plenty.
I'll hold you tonight and make you feel much better. I promise.
I miss you.
Tell the guys I said hello.
Love,
Blair
Sunday morning:
"Even a stopped clock is right twice a day."
- Proverb -
Chief,
I'm working on the feelings I'm having. And you're right. I wouldn't have done it, just to kill him. But I did hate the man and wonder if I aimed a little too close on purpose. Well, I'm talking to the Department Shrink about that too. I also realized that I can't be right all the time, but I also am not always wrong.
Thanks for being here for me, babe. I miss you so much.
When will this be over with? I want you doing the paperwork. Just kidding, really. I just want my partner, by my side.
I love you.
Jim
Monday morning:
"Never try to teach a pig to sing. It wastes your time and annoys the pig."
- Proverb -
Dear Jim,
Well, I left really early this morning. I have to take some tests and do some other things at the PA. So you missed out on me making a little sign up for the teacher I was telling you about. I decided that we could leave little notes all over the place. Maybe he'll get the message. You think? We all try to tell him what we think about something we read in the manual and he just blows us off. What a jerk. So we aren't going to try to teach that damn pig anything more.
Have a good day at work, Jim. I miss you too.
I love you,
Blair
Tuesday morning:
"The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it."
- Oscar Wilde (1854-1900) -
Dear Blair,
So basically you are saying it is easier just to join everyone else and not try to show this guy he might be wrong? I think you should try for a while longer, Chief. You are too smart to just be following the crowd. And he just might be happy in the long run. Especially if he sees that you are right and didn't try to embarrass him about it. And then again, I could be wrong. You'll do what your heart says is right.
Have I told you lately how much I really love looking up quotes for every other day? It has been great. But then I love all of your ideas, this is why I say give the guy a while longer.
I love you,
Jim
Wednesday morning:
"Denial ain't just a river in Egypt."
- Mark Twain (1835-1910) -
Dearest Jim,
How can I tell you this without hurting your feelings? You are such a dreamer. I couldn't help it. I had to tell you. He wouldn't know what to do with the truth or a viewpoint other than his. He's an idiot, I'm telling you. You think I'm just being bizarre, but not so. He is unyielding and refuses to budge with anything. Everyone feels the same as I do. He's in major denial. Nothing we can do about that. So I'll just try to do the best I can, learning from the book. But this guy needs to learn how to handle life in the real world. Actually I pity him just a little bit.
When are we going to actually see each other more than the middle of the night? I miss you. I miss sitting and watching games with you. I miss making out on the couch. I miss sucking your cock whenever I feel like it. Which is all the time, lately. You are invited to my pity party, Jim.
Talk to you tonight. I love you. I'm really glad you like the love notes idea with a quote. It has become one of my most favorite things to do.
Love,
Blair
Thursday morning:
To do is to be.
- Nietzsche -
Dear Chief,
I must be losing it.
Today, I heard a song and thought of you.
It was called The Puppy Song.
I didn't think I could tell you.
Your feelings would be hurt.
But it says something about taking my puppy everywhere.
Not going places where friends weren't allowed.
I had tears in my eyes the whole time I was listening.
Oh yes, I am losing it.
There is no doubt.
I miss your lips.
I miss your eyes.
There is nothing puppy dog about them.
When I tell you about this song,
You laugh and take me in your arms.
You don't kiss like a dog either.
Laughing, you ask me how I would know.
Chief, you are a smart ass.
I love you,
Jim
Friday morning:
To be is to do.
- Sartre -
For Jim:
Please don't change; please don't break
the only thing that seems to work at all is you
please don't change, at all from me
to you, and you to me.
- Matchbox 20, Real World -
We have decided that certain songs bring out the best in us.
Well, Jim, this would be one of my favorites.
I often think about you being a super-hero.
I know you must feel that way sometimes too.
But I don't want you to change.
Ever.
I don't want to change.
I feel as though we are exactly where we are supposed to be.
No one will be hassling us.
They wonder what it would be like to be the head honcho.
Well, now this one, I know.
I am the head honcho.
I love you, Jim.
Don't ever change.
Love, Blair