Summary: Jim thinks of his love for Blair.
When I became a man, I walked alone.
Determined to live my life without love.
"After all, who needs that kind of pain?"
I went through life taking only
one day at time. Never looking ahead,
afraid that I would only see emptiness
stretched out before me.
I was afraid of allowing anyone inside my walls,
I was afraid of that pain.
Even though I married, even she was never aloud
inside to even glimpse my heart.
So, she left, as I somehow knew she would,
thinking me cold and uncaring, never
seeing the man I truly was, never understanding
It was only fear that kept her at a distance.
But then you bounced into my life,
With your long hair and strange ideas.
My neo-hippie witch doctor punk.
I didn't want to let you in.
But, before I knew it, your ready
smile and loving-kindness had chipped
away the cold granite around my heart.
As I lie here in bed holding you after our
love making, the future calls to me.
And, I look to it in wonder and anticipation
A future that I could not possibly
have seen before I met you.
A future full of joy and promise.
A future of love beyond my imagining.
And, I also look to the future in fear,
wondering how I would survive
if I ever lost your love.
Somehow, you read my thoughts. You stir
and whisper to me that you will always be by my side,
that you will never leave me.
I pull you closer, and breath
a silent prayer of thanks.
For, because of you,
I truly know what love is.