Bitter
By Jameschick
Title: Bitter
Pairing: X/S
Rating: PG
Summary: Spike reflects. (I know, sucky summary.)
Disclaimer: Not mine. Never were.
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Xanders skin tasted like almonds.
Spike had always associated taste in terms of food. Drusilla, his dark goddess, had tasted like an overripe plum, watery yet still sweet with just a tinge of spoil. It was why he called her his ripe wicked plum after all.
Angelus - Angel, well there was a reason he called him peaches. Hed never tell the older vampire that, though. Not if he wanted to keep his skin attached, at least.
Lets not forget Harmony - as much as Spike would like to. She tasted like cotton candy. Empty calories and full of air. Fitting really, there was a certain sense of irony in that. But she was sweet and just a little spun - again, just like the sugary confection.
He couldnt remember Anyas taste. When he thought about it now, all he remembered was whiskey. On him, on her. It was the whiskey that had brought them together and he would always associate Anya with whiskey. That and sorrow. A right pathetic pair they made that night.
Buffys taste was always changing. Sometimes she was all sugary sweetness, like maple candy. Other times all he could taste was bitterness like unsweetened chocolate. Sometimes she was spicy and other times sour. It seemed like he could never decide what she was. Probably because she couldnt either.
But Xander tasted like almonds. Funny that, since hed called the boy a nut on more than one occasion.
He remembered the night it happened. They had fought side by side, defeating a pack of nasties and then on the way back to Xanders place they had been attacked again. It was almost dawn by the time they made it inside, they were bloody and sore and Spike was surprised by Xanders offer of a hot shower and a place to spend the day.
As he was drifting off to sleep in the spare room he was startled by the presence of the human getting into bed with him. He started to protest, but Xander was determined. Plus, he still had that blasted chip in his head so fighting him off wasnt an option either.
He had been seduced with soft touches, gentle hands and human warmth. He hadnt believed it when Xander whispered words of love into his ear, but after they had made love, when gentle hands continued to touch him, warm arms held him tight and the words were repeated
Well hed let himself believe.
The next morning, Xander had been gone. Spike had woken up cold and alone. Xander acted like it hadnt happened, like he didnt remember a thing. The most profound experience Spike had had since the return of his soul and Xander didnt seem to remember it. Hed been loved, for one night, and now it was gone.
Spike had always liked almonds, now he couldnt stand them. They tasted the way he felt - bitter.
THE END
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