Part
One
CHAPTER ONE
The bus from Minnesota arrived at six
a.m.
Louis, carrying everything he owned in a
brown shopping
bag, was the first one down the steps. He walked into the
depot and stood still for a moment, giving his cramped
muscles a chance to loosen. Hunger and curiosity vied with
one another for his attention. Attempting to satisfy both
urges, he stopped at the newsstand long enough to buy a
morning paper and then headed into the coffee shop for
breakfast.
The only other customers at the moment were
two drunks
waiting for their favorite watering hole to open for the
day, and a red-eyed patrolman ordering two coffees to go and
wishing it were eight o'clock so that he could go home.
Louis sat down at the far end of the
counter, away from
the drunks; he found such people distasteful and had an
almost morbid fear that they would speak to him. But the two
men only glanced at him without interest and returned to
their conversation.
The waitress strolled over to take his
order before he
was ready and she stood there tapping the counter with her
fingers. Louis did not allow her displeasure to force him
into a hurried decision. He studied each item listed on the
grease-spotted menu and considered the many choices
carefully. Finally he ordered scrambled eggs, toast, and
coffee. It was the same breakfast he'd had every morning for
the past five years.
The waitress, now intent upon pulling off
an irritating
hangnail, delivered his order in a bored voice to the
short-order cook. Louis watched the huge black man crack a
couple of eggs onto the grill. Then, afraid that his staring
might anger the cook, Louis opened the newspaper.
The headlines were all about people and
places and things
that meant nothing to him, and by the time he'd reached page
three, Louis was bored. He was also a little disappointed.
Somehow, he'd thought that the newspapers in Los Angeles
would be more exciting than those in Minnesota. He had been
expecting stories about movie stars and the beautiful people
who were supposed to live in California. Instead, it was the
same old stuff about the government and crime and all those
other things that he didn't care about at all.
But when he reached page four, he forgot
his boredom. The
picture was right in the middle of the page, as if to be
sure he wouldn't miss it. In fact, the black-and-white photo
seemed to leap from the paper at him and the effect upon
Louis was the same as it would have been if a savage blow
had been delivered to his solar plexus. His stomach muscles
tightened in reaction and a cold, sick feeling overwhelmed
him.
A cup of coffee appeared on the counter in
front of him.
His hand trembled as he lifted the mug and gulped the hot
liquid desperately. It burned his mouth, but he was hardly
aware of the pain.
As the warmth of the coffee spread through
him, the cold
nausea was slowly dispelled. At the same time, Louis was
imbued with a sense of quiet understanding. This, then, was
why he'd felt himself being drawn to Los Angeles. This
explained the strange aura of missionary zeal that had
motivated his journey westward. The knowledge calmed him
almost immediately; even the headache that had plagued him
for weeks and weeks seemed to ease.
The waitress slammed a plate down on the
counter. Louis
wanted some ketchup to put on his scrambled eggs, but before
he could ask her for it, she was gone again. The only bottle
he could see was way down the counter where the drunks were
sitting. He decided to skip the ketchup. It didn't matter
anyway. Nothing mattered now but the picture in the
newspaper.
Not lifting his eyes from the page, Louis
began to eat,
taking forkfuls of egg into his mouth, chewing, swallowing,
moving like an automaton, completely oblivious to what he
was eating. In the hospital, meals had been an important
part of the daily ritual. The dining room, not the treatment
complex, was the center of life. Even those persons who
could not or would not feed themselves came into the dining
room three times a day. Each item on one's plate was
significant and subject to much comment.
Already it was different for Louis. Now,
having seen that
picture, eating had become a mere biological necessity.
Stoking the furnace, as his mother used to say. Something
done only in order that he might have the required strength
to complete his mission.
His mission.
Louis liked the sound of that word. A
mission. It was an
important word. It made him feel important.
When the waitress, acting out of some
heretofore-undisplayed
sense of duty, poured him more coffee, Louis roused himself
enough to thank her. Sipping carefully, he read the caption
beneath the photo:
L.A. COPS NAB SUSPECTED DRUG
DON
Louis read slowly, one finger moving
beneath the words.
Although he wasn't stupid, reading was hard for him and
always had been. Not like for Marcie. Everything had come
easily to Marcie. She had been the smart one in the family.
The blessed one.
He pushed the thought of Marcie away
quickly.
After a moment, he returned his attention
to the paper.
Making an effort, he worked over each word carefully, his
lips moving silently.
Local detectives David
Starsky and
Kenneth Hutchinson are shown here
leaving the Federal courthouse after
attending a preliminary hearing for
accused drug dealer Barney Fields.
Fields, thought to be the power behind
drug operations in four western states,
was arrested by the two officers three
days ago, culminating an undercover
operation of nearly three months.
Louis took a break from the effort, sipping
more coffee
before going on.
Charges against Fields
include drug
trafficking, attempted bribery of public
officials, and attempted murder. The
last-named charge is a result of the
shooting of Det. Starsky at the time of
Fields' arrest. Injuries to the officer
were described as minor.
That was the end of the story.
Louis expelled his breath in a long sigh
and looked at
the picture again. Kenny hadn't changed much. He was older,
of course, with some lines on his face that hadn't been
there before. But his head still had that vaguely arrogant
tilt, and he wore a too-familiar smirk on his face. Kenny
had always been stuck-up, thinking he was better than
anybody else, and it looked like he still thought so.
For just a moment, Louis was tempted to rip
the picture
from the newspaper and tear it into little pieces. He wanted
to wipe out Kenny's stuck-up smile once and for all.
But he didn't do that. Instead, he did what
Dr. Goldbaum
had taught him. Took a deep breath and counted to twenty.
That helped. Then he drained the coffee.
His attention shifted from Kenny to the
other man in the
picture, the one wearing a sling on his arm. He checked the
caption again, looking for the man's name. David Starsky. A
cop, too. Kenny had one arm draped across the guy's
shoulders. David was smiling, but not at the camera; he was
grinning at Kenny. They didn't even seem to know that their
picture was being taken. It looked like they thought nobody
in the world mattered except the two of them.
Stuck-up bastards.
Still, he couldn't help feeling a little
bit sorry for
this guy, David. He wanted to warn the poor dumb bastard not
to be friends with Kenny. People who tried to get close to
Kenny Hutchinson always got hurt sooner or later. David
would get hurt, too.
But most of his sympathy evaporated as he
continued to
look at the picture. David was probably just like Kenny. Holier
than thou, he thought bitterly. Just like when we
used to play King-of-the-Mountain back home, and I would be
trying really hard to win. But Kenny would never let me. He
used to let the little kids win sometimes, but never me.
Never me. I really wanted to win, so I could stand on top
and be the king. But Kenny . . . he was always trying to
make me look bad. Oh, he used to fool people, 'cause of his
pretty-boy looks. But he was mean inside. And I knew it. I
always knew, even before Marcie.
"You want something else,
mister?"
From the tone of her voice, Louis knew that
the waitress
had asked the question several times before he'd heard her.
Struggling to concentrate, he shook his head.
"Uh-uh," he mumbled. "Thanks." He pulled
a couple of crumpled bills from his pocket and tossed them
onto the counter. It was the last of his own money. From now
on, he would be living on Dr. Goldbaum's dough. He
hadn't even counted that cash yet, but he knew there was a
lot of it. A whole lot. "Keep the change," he
said.
The waitress only glared at him as she
picked up the
bills.
Louis carefully folded the newspaper so
that he could see
the picture. Trying to decide just which way to go and what
to do first, he paused on the sidewalk just outside the
depot.
It was not yet seven o'clock and already
the city was
enveloped in heat. The people on the sidewalk constituted an
uneasy blend of the night just ending and the day about to
begin. A tired hooker made her way toward bed, finally
alone. Her red-and-black satin hot pants outfit might have
looked exotic and tantalizing the evening before. Now she
was wrinkled and sweaty and the effect was only pathetic. A
grey-suited junior executive, already damp under the arms,
was trying to find a taxi. His attention wandered for a
moment as he watched the hooker cross the street, dodging
cars. He licked his upper lip thoughtfully.
There was a police car parked by the
corner. The cop who
had been in the restaurant earlier was leaning against the
car, sipping coffee, watching the passing parade listlessly.
His partner sat behind the wheel, his head back against the
seat, his eyes closed. He had a toothache and felt like
hell. He was also afraid to go to the dentist.
Louis walked over to the car. "Excuse
me,
officer," he said deferentially.
The cop, fleshy and irritable, rubbed a
handkerchief
across his face. "Yeah?"
"Where would I go to find a
detective?"
"A detective?" The officer
refolded the
handkerchief and wiped his face again. "What you want a
detective for? Something happen?" He hoped not. In less
than an hour, this shift would be over and he could be on
his way home. Home, where a fan and lots of cold beer
waited.
Louis shook his head. "No, no, nothing
like
that." He held up the folded newspaper. "I just
want to find him," he said, pointing at Kenny's
picture.
"Yeah?"
Louis felt obligated to offer an
explanation. "He .
. . he's my cousin. I lost his number and I just got into
town . . . ."
"Yeah?" the cop said again. He
leaned forward
to look more closely at the picture. "Oh, him.
Hutchinson."
"You know him?"
"Sure." The cop, whose name was
Riley, cleared
his throat and spit. "A hot dog," he muttered.
"A what?"
Riley remembered suddenly that this guy was
a relative.
"Nothing," he said quickly. "Yeah, I know
Hutchinson. In fact, I was partnered with him for a while
when he was still in uniform. Back before he teamed up with
Curly there and they formed the famous vaudeville team of
Starsky and Hutch." He chuckled at his own joke, then
glanced at Louis to see whether he'd taken any offense at
the crack that might be passed along to Hutchinson--or
worse, to Starsky.
Riley didn't like Starsky and he knew that
the feeling
was mutual. Their animosity stemmed from an incident nearly
four years earlier, something that might have happened to
anyone, in Riley's opinion. Hell, anybody could make a
mistake, couldn't they? Even a smartass detective could doze
off on a 3 A.M. stakeout. Riley's particular misfortune had
been to fall asleep when he was supposed to be watching the
rear door of a store while Ken Hutchinson was inside. While
Riley caught his forty winks, the man they had been waiting
for arrived and went in. Caught unawares, Hutchinson had
barely avoided being shot. Sure, it had been a close call,
but Hutchinson didn't get too upset about it. He wasn't the
kind to hold a grudge.
But Starsky . . . well, hell, the way he
reacted, his
partner might have been lying dead on the floor, instead of
suffering only a bruised shoulder from being shoved against
the wall. The anger on Starsky's face had scared Edmund
Denis Riley more than any encounter he'd ever had with a
criminal. Hutchinson was an all right kind of guy, even if
he was a hot dog; he hadn't even filed a report on the
incident. Starsky, on the other hand, got really hot.
"Riley," he said tightly. "Don't ever cross
my path again. Or my partner's path." Riley had tried fervently
to comply in the past four years. He
thought that David Starsky was dangerous, like a bomb
waiting to explode, and it was not his wish to be anywhere
around when it happened.
But apparently Louis hadn't taken any
offense; he just
kept looking at Riley, a vague half-smile on his face.
"Yeah," Riley expanded, "I
taught that kid
a lot about being a cop. So what do they do?" He didn't
wait for an answer. "They put him in plainclothes and
make him a detective. And what about me? Here I am, still
riding a beat. Some things ain't fair, I know that." He
shut up then and glanced at his watch. If they left now and
drove slowly, they would get back to the precinct house just
a few minutes before they were supposed to.
"Where can I find Kenny--Detective
Hutchinson?"
Louis pressed.
Riley was already halfway into the car.
"Uh . . .
Parker Center. Uptown," he said over his shoulder.
"Catch the bus across the street."
"Thanks," Louis said.
He watched the zone car pull away before
bending to
carefully tuck the folded newspaper into the shopping bag.
What to do now? Clothes, he decided. I need some
California clothes. His old brown suit was all wrinkled
from the bus trip and it felt much too warm for the weather
here. So he would start putting old man Goldbaum's money to
some good use and buy himself something to wear.
But first . . . .
He needed a car. There were plenty around,
of course, and
he would have no trouble getting one. After all, he'd ripped
off his first car when he was fourteen. Except . . . except
that theft always carried with it the chance, no matter how
remote, of getting caught. And if he was arrested for
something as stupid as stealing a car, he would not be able
to do what had to be done. He wouldn't be able to complete
his mission.
So he decided to buy a car. Nothing fancy.
Just some used
job that ran. Pay cash and be done with it, legally. There
was more than enough money. Then, once he had a car and some
new clothes, he could set about avenging his sister's
murder. He could get back at Kenny.
He walked toward the bus stop, thinking
about Kenny.
Thinking very hard about the man who had killed his sister.
Louis was filled with satisfaction at the thought that soon
Marcie's death would be avenged. Once Kenny had been
punished, maybe Louis would be able to forget. Maybe then
the headaches would go away for good.
He stood on the corner whistling softly as
he waited for
the bus.
**
CHAPTER TWO
It was hot.
Starsky, only half-awake, rolled over with
a groan and
wondered what had happened to the air conditioner. He sat
up, forgetting for the moment about his injured arm, and
then remembering as a stabbing pain chastised him.
"Shit," he muttered. It was easy enough for
doctors and captains and certain unnamed partners to call an
injury "minor," but that didn't make it hurt any
the less.
After spending a few minutes reflecting on
the unfairness
of life in general and his own misfortunes in particular,
Starsky got up from the bed, struggling to untangle himself
from the twisted sheets. Naked, he padded into the kitchen
for a can of Dr. Pepper, his bare feet making small slapping
noises against the floor.
The cold soda slid easily down his parched
throat, giving
him an almost indecent sense of pleasure. He carried the
drink into the bathroom and took another long swig as he
reached in to turn on the shower. Setting the can down, he
stepped under the lukewarm water.
Starsky was in no hurry, so he sudsed
slowly, wondering
how he might be able to get out of going to work for one
more day. The rush of water obliterated all other noises, so
Starsky didn't hear the front door open or the sound of
footsteps crossing the living room. He sang two mournful
choruses of "Nobody Knows the Troubles I Seen" and
then got out of the shower.
As he shaved and dressed, his sore arm
complicated
matters just enough to make his mood a little more
irritable. The fact that he cut himself twice didn't help
much.
He walked into the living room, trousers
on, trying to
pull a T-shirt over his head. His difficulties with that
task prevented him from seeing the figure crouched in the
kitchen.
"Don't you have anything to drink
except Dr.
Pepper?"
Startled, Starsky jumped, jerking the shirt
the rest of
the way on, twisting his arm in the process.
"Damn!" he yelled.
Hutch straightened from his perusal of the
refrigerator
and looked at him curiously. "What's wrong?"
Starsky fairly bristled with righteous
indignation.
"Wrong? What's wrong? You almost scared me to
death, that's what's wrong! Don't ever do that again."
"I yelled when I came in," Hutch
said,
genuinely bewildered as to why he should be the recipient of
Starsky's wrath.
"I was in the shower,
damnit."
"All right, all right. Take it easy,
huh, Starsk?
Don't start with me; it's too hot."
Starsky rubbed his arm. "I
didn't start
anything. You're the one who broke and entered and scared me
out of a year's growth."
"I didn't break anything," Hutch
protested.
"I used the key."
"Yeah, well . . . "
Hutch turned back to the refrigerator.
"Don't you
have anything to drink except Dr. Pepper?" he repeated.
Starsky was struggling to get his arm sling
on.
"Some chocolate milk."
Hutch took the carton out, sniffed the
contents
suspiciously, and quickly put it back. "Thanks
anyway."
Starsky shrugged.
Giving in to the inevitable, Hutch finally
took out a Dr.
Pepper and popped the can open. "You need some help
with that thing?" he asked, after watching his
partner's battle with the sling for several more minutes.
"No," Starsky answered through
clenched teeth.
Hutch watched a little longer; then, when
his own nerves
couldn't stand it anymore, he walked over, efficiently
straightened the sling, and held it so that Starsky could
get his arm in properly.
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"Thanks," Starsky muttered.
"You've got blood on your chin,"
Hutch said.
Starsky disappeared into the bedroom to get
his shoes and
socks. Hutch sat on a bar stool, morosely drinking Dr.
Pepper. The blond detective was suffering from a
by-now-familiar sense of ennui. It happened like that
frequently and he had come to see it as just one more
occupational hazard. But that didn't make it any easier to
live with.
The weeks of balancing on the tightrope of
an undercover
investigation--always nerve-wracking--had been made even
harder this time by the fact that he was the outside man,
hovering on the fringes of the real action. He had spent day
after day operating tape recorders and monitoring listening
devices, while his partner moved among some dangerous
people. There was no respite for Starsky, forced to live the
role of petty crook twenty-four hours a day for weeks on
end. And that meant there had been no respite for Hutch,
either. All he could do was listen and wait. Even during
those times when he'd been officially off-duty and the job
of listening had been delegated to someone else, even then
he couldn't relax. Sometimes he went home and tried to
sleep. Or he went over to the Pits and had a couple of
beers. But mostly he would end up back in the temporary
communications center, listening and waiting.
And then it was all over, quickly and
suddenly. Not the
way it was scheduled to happen at all. The weeks of waiting
exploded in violence, in the sudden release of pent-up
adrenalin.
He twisted the soda pop can in his hands.
All too
clearly, he could remember his feelings of utter impotence
as he sat in a car two blocks away from where Starsky was,
hearing the words that were being exchanged in the
warehouse, words that meant only one thing: Starsky' s cover
had been blown. The car roared into action, racing toward
the warehouse, as Hutch listened to the voices with a
growing sense of horror, knowing what was going to happen
and knowing that he could never get there in time to prevent
it.
He heard the sound of gunshots clearly. And
then there
was only an even more frightening silence. A moment later,
he and the others burst through the warehouse door, breaking
up the escape attempt.
For three frantic minutes that seemed more
like three
years, he ran between the high pyramids of packing cases,
searching for Starsky. He found him, finally, half-conscious
and huddled in a corner. It all ended with the ambulance
ride and the hot, sickening smell of blood on a summer
afternoon.
Now Hutch felt tired, empty. Even the soda
pop tasted
flat and bitter. He set the can down on the counter with a
sigh. Wondered if he wasn't too young to feel so old. And it
was too damned hot in the room. "What's wrong with the
air conditioner?" he asked as Starsky came back into
the room.
"Don't know. It was working okay when
I went to
bed." Starsky picked up his gun and, electing not to
bother with the holster, stuck the weapon into his
waistband, covering it with the shirt. "Can I drive
today?"
"With one arm? No way."
Starsky scowled. "Well, can we take my
car, at
least? A whole day in your jalopy and my kidneys won't be
worth having."
Hutch was in no mood to drive the Torino,
but he was also
not in any mood to argue the matter. It was easier to humor
his partner. "All right, but I'm going to be behind the
wheel," he cautioned, "so let me drive and
keep your opinions to yourself. Understand?"
Fleetingly, Starsky grinned at him.
Hutch felt his own mood lighten just a
little and he
smiled faintly in return. This was a new day, he decided. A
new job to do. The Fields business was finished. The bad
guys were in jail--at least that bunch of bad guys. Starsky
was all right. Hell, things weren't so bad.
Almost jauntily, he led the way out of
Starsky's
apartment.
For nearly three hours they patrolled
without incident.
To the casual observer, such activity might have looked
boring, but neither Starsky nor Hutch ever really found it
so. Cruising up one street and down the other, watching,
anticipating . . . and knowing that at any given moment, the
world could explode around them. Such duty was an important
part of the job. Maybe it was the air of constant
anticipation, or the underlying aura of unknown danger;
maybe it was the reassurance of routine or, simply, the
quiet sense of companionship that was encapsulated within
the car, but the two of them never minded patrolling.
Of course, some days were better than
others. When it was
pushing ninety degrees, and the whole city felt like one big
oven, with their car as the hottest spot in that oven, then
street duty was not quite so great. Especially when David
Michael Starsky was in a bad mood.
He was swilling down his third can of soda
now as he
leaned forward to check another license on the hot sheet. It
didn't match. His arm gave a twinge as he sat back and he
rubbed it.
"Hurt?" Hutch asked.
"Of course it hurts," Starsky
said, his voice
increasingly grouchy.
Hutch decided to head for the office. For
once, the
prospect of paperwork didn't seem quite so bad. At least
there was a fan in the office. "Maybe you shouldn't be
back on duty," he commented, turning the car toward
headquarters.
Starsky was seriously considering hanging
his head out of
the car window in an effort to cool off. "Yeah, well,
try telling that to Dobey. The whole damned department is on
vacation." He crushed the empty soda can with his good
hand. "Besides, the Captain doesn't like to send you
out alone. Everybody knows I'm the brains behind this
team."
Hutch pulled into the parking garage.
"You're the
brains, huh? How many brains does it take to catch a bullet
in the arm?"
They got out of the car and started across
the garage.
Starsky pushed the door open with his shoulder. "You're
right. That was a dumb thing to do." He stopped
abruptly, blocking the entrance. "Of course, I thought
I had a partner right outside who was gonna help me,"
he said. "In fact, this partner's last words to me
before I went into that warehouse were 'Don't worry, Starsk,
I'm right with you.' Anyway, I thought that's what he
said."
"Yeah, well . . . ." Hutch's
voice dwindled off
and he shrugged. "Yeah, you're right. I said
that."
Starsky nodded and let the door swing shut
on Hutch.
"Talking about vacations," Hutch
said a moment
later, hurrying to catch up, "what you'd have in mind
for this year?"
Starsky shrugged. "Don't know. Just
hang around, I
guess. Hadn't thought much about it."
They turned into the squad room. "What
about going
to Europe?" Hutch suggested.
"Ha. You must be getting more on the
pad than I am,
buddy. What's your secret source of funds? Don't you think
it'd be nice if you shared it with your partner?"
Hutch sat at his desk. "Hey, I mean
it. We could go
on one of those economy flights and then when we get there,
rent a car or something. It's not that much; I've been
checking it out."
Starsky bent over so that his face was
directly in front
of the fan. "Yeah?"
"Sure." Hutch began pulling
unfinished reports
from the drawer. There were a lot of them. "We could go
see the Coliseum in Rome."
"Italian girls," Starsky said,
letting the air
move through his sweaty curls.
"The Eiffel Tower."
"French girls."
"Greek ruins."
"Greek girls." He straightened
and looked at
Hutch. "You know, that sounds pretty good."
"I want to see the
museums," Hutch said
firmly.
"Sure, sure. A great place to pick up
girls."
Hutch gave up and reached for the first
report on the
depressingly high pile. Starsky stood in front of the fan a
moment longer, a dreamy expression on his face. Hutch kicked
him once, sharply, and Starsky settled down to work as well.
They spent nearly two hours trying to get
caught up on
the backlog of their paperwork. Reports are the bane of most
police officers' existence and they were no exception. And
since Captain Dobey was a stickler for perfection, the work
was accomplished only with a great deal of erasing,
swearing, and crumpled paper.
Finally Hutch straightened, rubbing the
small of his
back. "I'm hungry," he said.
Starsky gestured for a moment of silence so
that he could
finish the page he was typing. Luckily, his typing skills
were such that it was no great disadvantage for him to be
working one-handed. One hand or two, he was a rotten typist.
Finally he pulled the sheet from the
typewriter and
reread his closing aloud. "And so Detective Hutchinson
and me climbed back into the fiery red Torino, satisfied
that justice has been served once again. We have faced death
and danger and have won."
"I," Hutch said.
"What?"
"Detective Hutchinson and I. You said
me."
"Oh." Starsky stared at the
report for a
minute, then shrugged and tossed it onto the
"done" pile. "Maybe he won't notice."
"Sure."
"Sounds good, though, huh?"
Hutch slammed the desk drawer shut.
"He'll be
thrilled."
"How about pizza?" Starsky asked
hopefully.
"I guess." Hutch riffled through
another pile
of papers on his desk. "We can make another stab at
getting Wally Graham on the way."
Starsky snorted. "Fat chance. I still
say he's gone
to Mexico and he's not coming back."
Graham, a thrice-convicted housebreaker,
was now being
sought on a parole violation; they had been hunting him off
and on for months. Hutch was convinced that sooner or later,
he'd show up at his mother's house. Starsky figured that
nobody would be that dumb.
As they rose to go, Dobey stepped out of
his office. Even
in the August heat, he still wore his suit jacket and tie.
"You two going somewhere?" he asked suspiciously,
eying the still unfinished paperwork.
Hutch waved the warrant. "Got a tip
that Wally
Graham might be at home," he said, fibbing just a
little.
"All right," Dobey said,
mollified.
"And we want to grab a pizza,"
Starsky added as
they hurried out the door. They could hear Dobey yelling
behind them and they both grinned.
Hutch's smile faded slowly as he took the
wheel of the
Torino. "Hey, Starsk," he said, pulling out of the
garage.
"Yeah?"
"I'm sorry."
Starsky was already preoccupied with
watching the passing
scene on his side of the street. "Huh?" he said
absently.
"For not getting there in time. I'm
sorry."
''Oh."
"I . . . tried."
There was a moment of silence. Starsky
shifted in the
seat. "Yeah, well, so how about you buy the
pizza," he said, "and then we'll be even."
"Deal." Hutch knew that his
apology had been
unnecessary and, between the two of them, absurd. Starsky
already knew that he'd tried his damnedest to get there in
time. Hell, of course he had. Propelled by anger or fear or
both, he'd charged into that warehouse prepared to take on
Fields and all of his goons single-handedly.
But still, there was the guilt. Another
occupational
hazard, he figured. His partner had almost died because he
was late. There was no getting around that simple fact. It
was the stuff nightmares were made of. So Hutch apologized
and felt stupid about doing so.
It didn't really matter, though. He knew
that Starsky
understood all of that just as well as he did. Understood
about the fear and the guilt and the need to say "I'm
sorry." Starsky understood, so it was okay. And all
nightmares went away sooner or later, didn't they?
**
CHAPTER THREE
Louis was very pleased with himself.
It was still only his first day in Los
Angeles and
already he had accomplished so much. Now, clad in a striped
sport shirt and new, too-stiff blue jeans, he sat behind the
wheel of his 1968 dark green Volkswagen and waited for Kenny
to come out of the police building. He'd been waiting for
just over an hour, but it didn't bother him. He didn't mind
waiting.
It was pure luck that he spotted Kenny at
the wheel of
the Torino as it left the parking garage. The car didn't
look like something Kenny would be driving, but there was no
mistaking the blond hair and that arrogant profile. Louis
thought that such a stroke of luck must be a sign. His
mission was surely blessed.
He had no difficulty handling the small
car, although he
was more used to driving the huge, lumbering hospital
station wagon. However, there was considerably more traffic
than he was accustomed to. The hardest part was keeping
track of the red-and-white Torino as it moved easily through
the busy streets. Kenny naturally knew the city well, while
Louis was a stranger to it. Once he even lost them in the
traffic, but after some hasty sidestreet maneuvers, he found
them again, coming out just half a block behind them. He
grinned to himself, imagining Kenny's chagrin if he knew
about the tail. He's about half as smart as he thinks he
is, Louis decided.
Ahead, he saw the car pull to a stop in
front of a
ramshackle brown house. He parked the innocuous Volkswagen
next to the curb a short distance away and settled back to
watch.
~~~
"Must be ninety degrees out
here," Starsky
complained, following Hutch up the sidewalk.
"Probably," Hutch agreed
equably.
"'Course, you don't have a
sling on your
arm."
"Right."
Starsky gave up trying to pick a fight for
the moment and
they split up, Hutch going around to cover the back of the
house. In the unlikely event that Graham was inside,
and if he decided to make a break for it, logic dictated
that he would head out the back.
Of course, it has never been proved that
logic is
necessarily a strong element in the criminal psyche.
Starsky went up the steps to the front door
and raised
his good hand to knock.
He never made it.
The door was abruptly jerked open and Wally
Graham came
barreling out. The analogy was apt. Or perhaps it might have
been even more apt to say that Graham steam-rollered out of
the house. Wallace Eugene Graham stood 6'8" in his
stocking feet (he was now wearing something that closely
resembled Marine combat boots) and weighed in at somewhere
around the three-hundred pound mark.
Starsky, who had been at least sure that
Graham's mother,
a petite, kindly woman nearing seventy, would open the door,
never had a chance. Even with two good arms, he would have
been at an overwhelming disadvantage. As it was, with one
arm in the sling, it was hopeless. He simply toppled over
like a rag doll when Graham hit him. "HUT--" was
all he managed to squeeze out before the situation got even
worse.
Graham, if he'd been halfway smart, would
have simply
dropped Starsky and run. He might even have gotten away in
the confusion. However, like many crooks--at least the
unsuccessful ones--Graham was stupid. His stupidity in this
particular instance was reflected in the fact that he did not
let go of Starsky and make a run for it. Instead, he grabbed
a handful of dark curly hair and proceeded to beat Starsky's
head against the porch, while at the same time attempting to
strangle him.
Starsky lost consciousness almost
immediately.
A split second later, Hutch came around the
corner at a
dead run, his gun out. He went into the crouch position,
aiming directly at Graham's head. "Freeze, you son of a
bitch, or I'll blow your damned brains out!" he yelled.
The big man looked at him in vague
surprise; then, almost
sheepishly, he opened his ham-sized paws and Starsky fell
heavily to the porch. "I guess you got me," Graham
said cheerfully, assuming the frisk position.
Without wasting any time on words, Hutch
managed to slap
the cuffs around the man's massive wrists--pinching some
skin in the process and not giving a damn--and then secured
him to the porch railing. He actually had very little
confidence that the porch or even the house itself could
remain standing against the force of Graham's anger. The big
man seemed calm enough now, though.
Hutch forgot Graham as he crossed the porch
and knelt
beside Starsky. His partner was still and very white. A
patch of red stickiness was slowly forming beneath his head.
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Mrs. Graham appeared in the doorway.
"I called an
ambulance," she murmured. "And some more
cops."
"Thank you," Hutch replied in a
whisper. He
just sat there for a moment, feeling helpless. Then, very
carefully, he lifted Starsky's arm and replaced it in the
sling. Probably it was a dumb thing to do, because it
couldn't possibly help Starsky at all right now, but it made
him feel better to have done something.
"Wallace don't realize . . . he
forgets how big he
is sometimes," the old lady said, trying to explain.
"He don't mean to . . . is he hurt bad?"
Hutch shrugged. "I don't know . . .
there' s some
blood."
"I could get a towel. You want a
towel?"
"Probably I shouldn't touch him,"
Hutch said,
much as he wanted to. Then: "Hell, I can't just let him
lie here like this." He pulled off his jacket and
carefully eased it under Starsky's head. Some blood got on
his fingers and he tried to wipe it on his jeans. "Damnit,
Starsk," he said.
The woman stepped out onto the porch,
toying with one
corner of her apron. "Poor Detective Starsky. He's
always been such a nice boy. I recall the time when you was
both here looking for Wallace and Detective Starsky climbed
up on the roof to get my cat down."
"I remember that," Hutch
said.
"He died, you know."
"What?" Hutch was staring at his
partner.
"The cat. Jesse, my cat, died. Got hit
by a
car."
"I'm sorry." Hutch could hear the
sound of
approaching sirens and he bent over until his lips were next
to Starsky's ear. "Here comes help, buddy," he
breathed. "Hang on, Starsk."
"What's gonna happen to
Wallace?"
Hutch looked up at the frail old lady and
he felt a
twinge of sympathy for her. Then his gaze returned to
Starsky's pale face, which was already starting to swell and
discolor from the beating he'd taken. If she had only called
them when her son first arrived, as she'd so often promised
to do, then everything could have gone down easily. They
could have come in prepared. Starsky wouldn't be lying on
this broken-down porch, bleeding and hurting, and maybe
dying. Hutch felt the hard knot of bitterness inside him
grow a little bigger. There was no sympathy left for anybody
else at times like this. They had to worry about themselves.
They had to take care of each other because there was nobody
else they could count on. Nobody else cared; that was damned
clear.
At that moment, he hated the old lady
almost as much as
he hated her son. He hated all the people in this
neighborhood, who had probably all known that Graham was at
home and had not told the police. The people stood on the
sidewalk now, gawking. What had happened was nothing more
than a nice break in the routine of their summer afternoon.
They didn't care that a good cop, a good, kind man, might be
dying as they stood watching.
He shook his head. "Wallace is going
to jail,"
he said heavily. ''For a very long time."
A black-and-white pulled up in front of the
house, with
an Emergency Medical Van right behind. Hutch got to his
feet, unhooked Graham from the porch railing, fastened both
hands behind him, and shoved the now-placid man toward the
uniformed officers as they came up the steps. "Book
him," he said bitterly. "Assault with intent to
kill. Resisting arrest. And I'll think of a few more
later."
With some obvious trepidation, the cops
fell in on either
side of Graham and guided him toward their car.
Meanwhile, the medics had reached the porch
and were
beginning to slide Starsky onto a stretcher. Hutch wiped his
sweaty face with one hand, watching them anxiously. "Is
he okay?"
One of the medics, a raw-boned redhead,
cast him a
scornful glance. "How the hell do we know yet? All I
can tell you is that he took a terrific blow to the head.
Who hit him, you or Goliath?"
"Why the hell would I hit him? He's my
partner."
"Oh, yeah? Can't tell the cops from
the robbers
anymore."
"The big guy beat his head against the
porch."
"Shee-it," the medic said.
Hutch picked his bloody jacket up from the
porch and
twisted it in his hands as he followed the stretcher down
the sidewalk. "I'll follow you in," he said.
The redhead nodded and popped his
bubblegum. "Suit
yourself."
He got one last glimpse of Starsky's face
as the
emergency van slid past. An IV was being adjusted into his
partner's arm. Hutch rolled his jacket into a ball
and tossed it into the back seat of the car. Then he got
behind the wheel and left the scene in a manner more like
Starsky's driving style than his own.
He didn't notice the dark green VW that
pulled out just
behind him.
~~~
The hospital waiting room seemed tiresomely
familiar to
Kenneth Hutchinson. He sat slumped in the same ripped
leatherette chair and drank the same terrible coffee. The
magazines never changed and the grouchy head nurse
(interchangeable with every other grouchy head nurse)
wouldn't tell him anything about Starsky's condition.
Nearly three hours passed. He paced
sometimes, gulping
cup after cup of coffee, until he had indigestion on top of
a headache. Two children whined and fussed over one
bedraggled doll until Hutch could cheerfully have thrown
both kids and the damned doll out the window. The
mother seemed oblivious to it all, engrossed as she was in
the pages of MODERN TV AND SCREEN magazine.
An old man, who sounded like he was in the
last throes of
pneumonia, was apparently just waiting for his wife; Hutch
didn't dare to think what she might be suffering
from. One man sat patiently behind his newspaper, seemingly
unperturbed by all that was happening around him. Either the
guy had nerves of steel, Hutch thought glumly, or he just
didn't give a damn about whoever it was he was waiting for.
Hutch was just about to storm the desk and
threaten to
take hostages unless somebody told him something
about Starsky, when the doctor came strolling into the room,
looking as if he were walking into a tea party. It was the
same man who had treated Starsky's gunshot wound three days
earlier.
Hutch tossed the Styrofoam cup, still
half-full, into the
wastebasket and pounced on the doctor. "Well?" he
said. "What the hell took so long? How's Starsky?"
The doctor had a face that looked like old
leather, full
of creases and deeply tanned. His benign expression didn't
change as he took Hutch by the arm and led him aside.
"You know . . . ah, Detective Hutchinson, isn't
it?"
Hutch nodded.
"Well, Hutchinson, your partner is
either one of the
luckiest men I've ever seen or one of the unluckiest."
"What do you mean?"
"For the second time this week, he's
had a very
close call and managed to come out of it with very little
damage."
Hutch felt his whole body untense and he
leaned against
the wall. "You mean he's okay?"
The doctor smiled, deepening the creases on
his face.
"Near as I can tell. He's got a very mild concussion.
And a great big headache. Also, he doesn't look too pretty
at the moment, but I've assured him that his dashing good
looks will return in a couple of days. We're going to keep
him overnight, just to be on the safe side, but I don't
anticipate any complications."
"Can I see him?"
"Well . . . just for a moment. He
needs to
rest." His sharp brown eyes raked over Hutch. "And
from the way you look, some sleep wouldn't hurt you, either.
He's right down the hall, room 211."
Hutch started away, then stopped.
"Thanks, doctor.
For the second time this week."
"Anytime," the doctor replied.
"That's why
I'm here. However, Detective Hutchinson, may I suggest that
you start taking better care of your partner? The third time
in his case may not be a charm, you know. Might turn out to
be three strikes."
The doctor was joking, of course, and Hutch
knew it.
Still, the crack cut a little too close to the bone, and
Hutch felt a wrench of guilt. He knew himself well enough to
recognize that his nerves were shot to hell. This, coming
right on top of the weeks of tension and the shooting, was
just about too much for one Kenneth Hutchinson.
He stopped for a drink of water just
outside Starsky's
room. Bending over the too-low fountain, he took several
gulps of the icy water, trying to wash the taste of
bitterness from his mouth. As he straightened, he caught
sight of himself in the shiny metal surface above the
fountain. For a moment, he didn't recognize the gaunt, pale
face that stared back at him. There was a streak of dried
blood across one cheek. He took out his handkerchief,
dampened it in the cold water, and scrubbed the blood away
fiercely. Then he carefully placed a smile on his face. It
looked phony as hell. A smile like that wouldn't fool a
perfect stranger, never mind someone who knew him as well as
he knew himself. But it was the best he could do. Starsky
would just have to settle.
Hutch pushed the door open and stepped into
the
semi-darkness of the room. Starsky, a gleaming white bandage
on the left side of his head, turned to look at him.
"Hi, hot shot," he said, his voice sounding
strangely gravelly.
His face looked terrible. Hutch stepped
closer to the bed
and saw the reason why Starsky's voice sounded funny.
Apparently, Graham had gripped him by the neck at one point
in the attack, because it was a mass of purple and red
bruises. Both eyes were black and blue. Hutch averted his
eyes quickly. "Hi, yourself. How are you?"
"Hungry. We never got our
pizza."
Hutch tried to laugh, but his weary soul
couldn't manage
it.
"Hey, Hutch," Starsky
croaked.
"Yeah?"
Starsky's bruised and battered face seemed
to form a
smile. "You ever think that just maybe we're in the
wrong business?"
Frequently, Hutch thought. Aloud, he
only said,
"It's just been a rough week."
"For sure."
Hutch was awkwardly trying to straighten
the sheet over
Starsky. "Better keep covered," he muttered.
"I don't think you're in any condition to fight off
hordes of aroused nurses."
"I'll be the judge of that,"
Starsky said,
imitating Alan Alda imitating Groucho Marx. He pushed
Hutch's fussing hands away. "Knock it off, willya?
You're making me nervous."
Hutch stopped. "Oh. Yeah."
"Look, buddy, why don't you go home
and grab some
Z's? I want you back here first thing in the morning to
spring me from this place."
"Okay, sure." But Hutch stood
there a moment
longer, not saying anything. Then he sighed. "Well,
'night," he said finally.
"Yeah . . . sleep tight," Starsky
mumbled,
snuggling down wearily. The drugs were beginning to work and
he wanted to sleep. "Hey," he said, not opening
his eyes.
"Huh?"
"Take . . . care of my . . .
car."
"Count on me." Hutch lifted one
hand in a
half-wave, but Starsky was already asleep. Hutch paused,
watching him for a moment, checking to be sure that his
partner's breathing was steady. It was.
He finally stepped out into the hallway.
Ignoring the
other people, he stopped, resting his forehead against the
cool tiled wall. Damn, he thought. Damn all the
stupid bastards like Wally Graham and damn all the slick
bastards like Barney Fields, and damn everybody. We're
nothing but targets in some fucking shooting gallery. Knock
over a pig and win a prize.
He blinked away the hot dampness that
threatened. Where
is it written, he wondered through a fog, that we
have to do all the suffering?
When he realized that he was actually
beginning to fall
asleep leaning there against the wall, Hutch pushed himself
up, shoved both hands into his pockets, and headed for the
elevator.
~~~
Louis lowered the newspaper, nearly
smirking with delight
as he watched Kenny hurry by. For all those hours, he'd been
sitting not five feet away and Kenny had never even noticed
him. Kenny was so uptight, Louis gloated, that I
probably could've walked through here bare-assed naked and
he wouldn't have noticed.
The good news about David had pleased
Louis. While
sitting in the waiting room, pretending to read the
newspaper, he had watched Kenny worry and he had started to
formulate a plan. It was a beautiful plan, a wonderful idea.
But David was the key to the whole thing and if he'd died or
been badly hurt, it all would have gone down the drain.
Louis was shrewd. No matter what problems
he might have
had, no one ever said he was dumb. After only a few hours of
careful observation, he knew the best way to punish Kenny.
Kenny thought that David was his friend. Well, someone as
evil as Kenny didn't deserve to have any friends.
As he walked out to the parking lot, Louis
could not
forget the violent scene he'd witnessed on the porch that
afternoon. David never had a chance against that big guy.
Well, of course, Kenny could have prevented it. Should have
prevented it. The fact that he hadn't kept David from
getting hurt only proved that he didn't really care.
Maybe, just maybe, David might prove to be
an ally,
rather than an enemy. After Louis had a chance to talk to
him and tell him the truth about Kenny--the truth about the
evil cruelty that lingered just below the surface, masked by
that choir-boy face and the false claims of friendship.
Louis climbed into his car, feeling very
much at peace
with himself. He felt happy. Tonight he would go to a motel.
Tomorrow he would find a better place to live. Somewhere he
could be alone. He figured that it would take him three or
four days to get everything ready. Then he would look for a
victim. No, victim wasn't the right word. A sacrificial
lamb. That was better. The imagery pleased him. The
blood that would be spilled by the innocent lamb was going
to serve a higher cause. Louis would be creating a martyr.
That made him almost like God. Or God's instrument,
he amended quickly, not wanting to offend the heavens. I
will be doing God's work. I can't fail, no way, not with Him
on my side.
He laughed aloud.
**
CHAPTER FOUR
Hutch rubbed the side of his nose
thoughtfully before
swiveling his chair around to glare at the man sitting
opposite him. "Jimmy, I'll tell you something," he
said. "Want me to tell you something?"
Jimmy the Creep grinned and nodded eagerly.
"Sure
thing, Mr. Hutch. Sure thing."
Hutch leaned across the desk and spit the
words out.
"I think you're lying. You haven't said one single
damned word of truth since you came in here."
The Creep's smile wavered a little and his
feet began to
shuffle back and forth on the floor. "Now, Mr. Hutch,
that ain't so. You know me."
"Yeah, I know a lot of you street
scum."
Jimmy managed to look indignant. "I
ain't like that;
I ain't like the rest. I never onct lied to youse guys. Just
ask Mr. Starsky. He knows me from way back. I was Mr.
Starsky's very first bust, didja know that?"
"Yes, Jimmy, I knew that. I've heard
that same old
story about a dozen times from you and at least two dozen
times from him. I think it's a heartwarming tale and I'm so
glad that the two of you have such a terrific relationship
going."
Jimmy nodded cheerfully.
Hutch sighed and leaned back, picking at
his teeth with a
matchstick. His voice turned hard. "Look around, Jimmy.
Do you see Mr. Starsky anywhere in this room?"
Slowly, Jimmy's gaze swept the squad room.
No one else
seemed to be paying any attention to them at all. His watery
eyes focused on Hutch again. "No, I guess he ain't
here."
"That's right, Jimmy, he's not here.
Do you want to
know why?" He waited for the man's nod. "Mr.
Starsky isn't here because he's home recuperating from a
beating he got from another piece of street scum. That makes
me mad, Jimmy. Do you know why?"
Jimmy began to sense that things weren't
going to fall
his way this time around. He realized that Hutch was waiting
for some response. He nodded. "Yeah, sure, Mr. Hutch, I
know why that makes you mad."
"Why?"
"'Cause Mr. Starsky is your
partner."
Hutch shook his head. "Nope. Wrong,
Jimmy. That
makes me mad because when he's not here, I have to do my
work and his work. That's too much work. It makes me
tired and when I get tired, I get grouchy."
"Yeah, I heard that," Jimmy
agreed solemnly.
Hutch shot him a glance. "You heard
what?"
"That you get grouchy real
easy."
"Where'd you hear that?"
"From Mr. Starsky."
"Really?" Hutch thought about
that for a
moment. "Well, in this particular case, Mr. Starsky
knew what he was talking about. I am grouchy and I
don't feel like sitting here shooting the breeze with you
about the good old days when Mr. Starsky was in uniform and
he used to run you in for being drunk and disorderly every
Friday night."
Jimmy, wisely, didn't say anything. He just
sat there
wondering if there was some kind of law against scratching
your personals in a cophouse. He decided not to risk it and
just scooted around on the chair a little.
Hutch snapped the matchstick in two
suddenly. "Let's
cut the crap, huh? Now. I know that somebody is dealing reds
and yellows in Lucy's Bar and Grille. And I know you know
it, too. So talk to me."
The Creep studied a wad of bubble gum that
was stuck to
the bottom of his shoe and considered his alternatives. It
didn't take him long to decide that he would rather count on
the scruples of a cop--even a grouchy cop like this
one--than on the goodwill of his own associates. He shook
his head and a trickle of saliva dribbled from his lower
lip. "I already done told you everything I know, Mr.
Hutch, I swear."
"You got a job, Jimmy?"
"You know I ain't worked in years.
'Cause of my back
that was shot up in the war."
"Want me to book you as a
vagrant?"
But Jimmy only shook his head again.
Hutch gave up. It was hot and he was tired;
he should
have gone off duty an hour ago. One detective trying to do
the work of two (both of whom were already overworked) got
worn out fast. "Get out of here, Jimmy," he said
mildly. "I'm sick of smelling you."
Jimmy the Creep scurried away without a
backwards glance.
Hutch watched him go and shook his head.
Sometimes it was
hard to remember that there were any other kind of people in
the world. Not everyone, he reminded himself yet
again, is a piece of street garbage like the Creep or a
violent dummy like Wally Graham. It was sometimes
frighteningly easy to lose sight of the decent people.
Maybe there ought to be a time limit on
how long a man
can be a cop, he thought idly. Maybe we should have
to get out before it's too late and we can't see the forest
for the trees.
The thought of Wally Graham made Hutch
reach for the
phone and dial Starsky's number. His partner, home from the
hospital for three days now, was beginning to get itchy.
The phone was answered on the third ring.
"'Lo?"
"It's me," Hutch said, slumping
in his chair
and morosely studying a crack in the ceiling plaster.
"Hi, me. How's tricks?" Starsky's
voice was
almost back to normal.
"You sound cheerful," Hutch said
glumly.
"Why shouldn't I? The police surgeon
has okayed me
to get out of the house as of tomorrow. And Lola came by to
give me a backrub."
Hutch let his mind move languorously over
the mental
image of one Lola, Starsky's Stewardess of the Month. Her
red hair. Her firm, slender body. He sighed, realizing that
Starsky was undoubtedly going to be tied up for the rest of
the evening. He decided to just go on home, eat some yogurt,
and crawl into bed. "Hey, that's great," he said,
trying to sound enthusiastic. "Well, I was going to
come over, but if you've got company--"
"She's gone. Flying to
Miami."
"Too bad."
"Well," Starsky said,
"actually, it's
probably for the best. I mean, I'm feeling much better, but
I'm not sure that I'm quite up to Lola yet."
Hutch smiled into the telephone.
"Come on over," Starsky said.
"I could use
a little totally unexciting company."
"Thanks a lot."
"Anyway, you still owe me a
pizza."
"I'll stop and get one on my
way."
"Great," Starsky said
enthusiastically.
"Hurry it up."
"Sure."
But he didn't hurry. For one thing, the
muggy heat made
all movement unpleasant. Even more, his own sense of deep
weariness slowed him down. He was so tired, so shaky, that
at one point he even felt as if someone was following him.
When he looked, of course, no one was there. Paranoia?
Great, just what I need.
He had an icy cold beer while waiting for
the pizza and
exchanged several absent-minded double entendres with the
waitress, who inquired after Starsky and promised to serve
up a double deluxe pizza to help him recover his strength.
The beer helped a little. At least enough
so that by the
time he reached Starsky's, he was able to greet his partner
with a reasonable facsimile of a grin.
Starsky was looking more like himself. Most
of the
bruises and swelling had subsided, and he no longer wore the
arm sling. Dressed in his favorite and most absurd robe and
moving a little more slowly than usual, he got some more
beer from the refrigerator and joined Hutch on the couch.
Lifting the lid of the pizza box, Starsky inhaled and gave
an exquisitely pleased sigh, then glanced sideways at Hutch.
"Beats having yogurt for dinner, right?"
Hutch shot him a glance, wondering how the
hell he'd
known. "I think that broad put everything in the
kitchen on here," he complained.
"Edie? Yeah, she really knows how to
put a pizza
together."
For several minutes they ate in silence.
After a day of
too many words, Hutch was not uncomfortable with the
silence. It was, in fact, restful and reassuring.
Comforting. The room became a refuge and he could almost
forget that there was anything outside in the world to mar
the peace of this place. He could feel himself beginning to
relax; the guards so carefully erected during the day began
to slip a little.
Starsky, having put away five wedges of
pizza to Hutch's
three, finally sat back and took a long swallow of beer.
"So what's wrong," he asked suddenly.
"Wrong?" Hutch was carefully
studying the
blotch of grease on the bottom of the pizza box, glumly
figuring that the same thing was undoubtedly happening to
his stomach.
"You're down about something,"
Starsky said,
pretending not to study Hutch.
"'S nothing, I guess." Hutch
realized in
amazement that his voice had trembled a little. He tried to
draw back within himself, to reconstruct the barriers that
had slipped so dangerously. But it was too late. His
emotions were too close to the surface. He knew that Starsky
was waiting for him to say something; that stubborn son of a
bitch would wait all night if he had to. Hutch took a
swallow of beer; he could understand at that moment, perhaps
better than ever before, why so many cops became alcoholics.
They used liquor to dull the edges of the pain caused by the
job.
Hutch fiddled with the beer bottle for a
moment, then set
it down with precision. But he was luckier than most cops.
He didn't need to drink away his pain. Not as long as he
could share it with Starsky. Having somebody to understand,
to listen . . . that made the difference. "Christ,
Starsk . . . I'm just tired, that's all." He took a
shuddering breath. "I'm just so damned worn out."
He was staring at the floor.
Starsky leaned forward and put his beer
bottle down. Very
carefully, he put an arm around Hutch's shoulders.
"It's okay, you know," he said. "Everybody
gets tired. I get worn out sometimes."
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Hutch gave a short laugh. "Even
you?" he asked
sardonically.
"Yeah, even me." Starsky's smile
was
self-mocking. "Sure. Sometimes the job stinks. But
hell, man, don't kill yourself over it."
"Does it matter? I'm going to get
killed someday
anyway." Hutch glanced sideways at Starsky's face and
saw nothing judgmental there, only concern. "You've
almost died twice this week." He looked away again.
"Like you said, it's been a bad
week." Starsky
shifted slightly, not relinquishing his hold on Hutch. He
stared at his partner's profile for a moment, wondering with
half his mind when they had stopped being young. The anger
and anguish of too many years showed plain on Hutch's face.
It hurt Starsky a little to see. He sighed. "Hell,
buddy. You're probably right. We'll get blown away one of
these days. But it sure as hell won't help to get an ulcer
worrying about it."
Hutch squeezed his eyes shut for a minute.
Damnit,
he thought. He stood quickly and began to gather the debris
from their dinner. He said . . . we'll get blown
away . . . is he that sure? Does he always think about it in
the plural? He walked into the kitchen and dumped the
remains of the pizza into the trash. At least, Starsky
wouldn't be eating cold pizza for breakfast. "Well,
look, you just be more careful, huh?" He shoved the
pizza box down fiercely. "Don't go getting blown away
without me." The words were said lightly, but there was
a strange intensity just beneath the surface.
"Hell, no," Starsky said. He
wadded a paper
napkin and tossed it at Hutch. It missed. "That's not
on the itinerary."
"The itinerary?" Hutch picked up
the napkin and
threw it away, then took two more beers out of the
refrigerator and walked back to the couch. "I know I'm
going to regret asking, but what the hell are you talking
about?" He sat down, handing one bottle to Starsky.
They both leaned back, relaxing, feet propped on the table.
"Our life itinerary."
"I repeat, partner--what the hell are
you talking
about?"
"It's this book I read. Talked about
every person
having a life itinerary. Like it's all plotted out, even
before you're born."
"I see." Hutch rested his head
against the back
of the sofa and closed his eyes.
"See . . . it's like . . . everything
is written
down in a book, except that it's not a real book, of
course."
Hutch sipped the beer. "Sort of a
cosmic
record?"
"Sure, you've got it."
"And you've got our itinerary all
figured out?"
"Well, no," Starsky demurred
modestly.
"Not all of it. But I figure we'll go out in a blaze of
glory."
"That's reassuring," Hutch said
dryly.
Starsky missed the sarcasm. "Uh-huh.
The way I see
it . . . well, you remember BUTCH CASSIDY AND THE SUNDANCE
KID?"
Hutch opened one eye and peered at him.
"Yeah?"
Starsky gave a satisfied nod. "That's
it. Out in a
blaze of glory. That's the way we'll go."
"Butch and Sundance were the bad guys,
Starsk. I
don't think the good guys ever end up that way. We either
get old and fat and bald and end up getting wasted by some
punk kid holding up a candy store, or we drink ourselves to
death. Where's the glory? The good guys just don't make
it."
Starsky thought for a moment, then his face
brightened.
"I got it. Davy Crockett. He was a good guy and he went
out in glory. At the Alamo."
"Uh-huh." Hutch closed his eye
again. "Why
don't you go back to reading MAD magazine, Starsk, and leave
the cosmic tinkering to somebody else?"
"Well," Starsky said defensively,
"you can
make fun of it if you want. Go right ahead." The tone
of his voice changed slightly. "I think it is kind of .
. . well, reassuring, no matter what you say."
Hutch opened both eyes this time and stared
at Starsky.
He nodded slowly. "Yeah. I know what you mean."
There was a short silence and then
Starsky's expression
lit up. "Hey, how about a game of Monopoly?" he
suggested. "We haven't played in a long time."
"Well. . . ." Hutch pretended to
deliberate.
"Okay. Though I hate to trounce a man just out of his
sick bed."
"Hah! Famous last words." Starsky
jumped up to
get the game, grimacing as his sore body rebelled against
the sudden movement.
They finally managed to get the game set
up, after some
rather heated discussion centering around whose turn it was
to be the banker. Starsky finally prevailed, by employing
the unfair tactic of rubbing his injured arm as if it still
hurt. It didn't.
Hutch rolled the dice for his first turn
and, at that
instant, the telephone rang.
"Damn," Starsky said, just having
gotten
himself comfortably arranged on the floor.
"Sit still; I'll get it." Hutch
got up and went
to the phone. "Hello?"
"Hutchinson? Is that you?"
"Yes, Cap. What's up?" Hutch
hoped it was
nothing, or at any rate, nothing that couldn't wait until
morning. Hell. The tension in his neck was just starting to
ease a little. He only wanted to finish his beer and play
Monopoly with Starsk.
Dobey was quiet for such a long time that
Hutch thought
they'd been disconnected. "Cap?" he said. Starsky
gave him a questioning look; Hutch could only shrug.
Finally Dobey spoke, his voice leaden.
"We've got a
dead cop. Murdered. No, damnit, not just murdered. This was
an execution."
Now it was Hutch's turn to fall silent.
"What's going on?" Starsky asked,
getting up
from the floor.
"Who was it?" Hutch asked
Dobey.
"Patrolman Richard McGowan."
Hutch didn't know him.
"What the hell is going on?"
Starsky asked
again, standing close to the phone.
"Somebody iced a cop," Hutch
replied shortly.
"Dobey says it looks like an execution."
Starsky's lips tightened and he moved away,
rubbing his
arm absently.
"Hutchinson, get out here right now.
Corner of Adams
and Pierce. In the park," Dobey said.
"Yeah, Cap, on my way." He hung
up and went for
his shoes and socks. "Gotta go, Starsk."
"Not without me," Starsky said,
already headed
into the bedroom to shed his robe and get dressed.
"You're in no condition--" Hutch
began.
"The doc said I'm okay. And Dobey will
need
everybody he can get." As he talked, he pulled on blue
jeans and jerked a T-shirt over his head. Then, carrying
tennis shoes and socks, he came back into the living room.
"Besides, if somebody is running around wasting cops,
you think I'm going to send you out after him alone? You
couldn't handle it, buddy." He pulled his holster on.
"Thanks for the vote of
confidence," Hutch
muttered, waiting by the open door.
Starsky went past him. "Don't mention
it. What's a
partner for?"
Hutch closed the door firmly and then stood
in the
hallway, watching Starsky go down the steps. He could tell
from the way his partner moved that he was still hurting,
despite his flippant words. Still, Hutch was damned glad he
was coming along.
"Hey, you waiting for a bus?"
Starsky' s voice brought him out of his
brief reverie.
"Right behind you, buddy," Hutch said, taking the
stairs two at a time. As he moved, he could feel the
comforting/frightening familiarity of the gun pressed
against his side.
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