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Waiting wasn't easy, despite what he'd said to his padawan about
patience so many times. If only he'd known how long he'd have to
wait; if only he had some kind of word; if only he could stop
thinking of him day and night. Particularly night. Nights were the
worst, as he was overcome by loneliness and a longing that too many
others were too willing to try to slake. He could have lain with one
of the Kens -- or with two: they'd taken to offering themselves in
pairs lately, arms draped around each other's shoulders, all sweet
smiles and slender limbs and perfect skin. He'd have had to have been
made of stone not to have been at least a little tempted -- but their
blandly smiling china-blue eyes reminded him, endlessly, of other
blue eyes -- eyes that changed, eyes that sparkled amusement or
flashed defiance or burned passion. Yes, he could have lain with one
of the Kens, but he could never have loved one, and a Jedi did not
debase himself with loveless coupling. The skin he wanted to touch
was more beautiful to him, if less flawless; burned by harsh suns and
scarred from battles and marked, in hidden ways, by his own hands, at
times. He wondered how long his padawan had carried the bruises from
the last time they'd been together. He wondered, for the thousandth
time, when he would see him, touch him, again.
When the box came, before it was even opened, the Kens despaired;
they knew any chance they might have had with him was over. They knew
it even before they saw him struggling to free his padawan, gently
undoing the restraints that held him inside, finally taking his hand
and leading him, still a little stunned, out into the light. They
knew it as soon as they saw his eyes, deepest blue, reflecting those
of his padawan; they knew it when they saw the way the two touched,
strength on strength and yet utterly tender. The Kens sighed and
retreated; it wouldn't have mattered if they'd stayed, and they knew
it. They may as well have become invisible the moment that one
appeared.
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