Trust

by Annakas

Fandom: Batman

Pairing: Batman/Robin

Rating: PG

Summary: It all came down to trust

Trust

by Annakas

It all came down to trust. And I just didn’t trust him anymore. It is so very sad of me, no? I love him I really do love him he is the love of my life I am sure of it with my entire soul but the trust is gone.

I can not trust him to watch my back anymore, I can not trust him to keep my heart safe anymore, I can not trust him period. He left me before to search his inner self. At least that is what he told me. I smothered him, he said, I didn’t appreciate him he told me. And so my Robin left me. Just like that- and he was gone. I raised him, I gave him everything that was left of my dark soul, I loved him in the beginning like family, later when he was older like a lover, he took it all and then he left me.

Tim stayed, became the new Robin, but Dick left. Nothing can replace him to me. Tim is like a child to me but Dick is my love, my former lover, my soul my everything.

It was so dark when he was gone. Darker than before at least. I am always in the dark now days. And now he is back as a Nightwing. He told me he found what he had been searching before. And now he is back. He wants to be my lover again, continue where we left things...

I should be happy that he is back, but I am not. It all comes back to the trust issue. I don't trust him anymore, not with my heart, nor with my safety in battle. He left before- he could do it again. And I am not strong enough to survive if he left again.

I will not cut him out of my life. I will always love him, no matter what but I will not start our love affair again. Because I don't trust him to keep me safe. But still I can't cut him out. He is too strongly inside my soul for that. So it will be like a guilty pleasure/pain/torture to see him again on regular basis. More like the last two words of my description.

I want him back, I won’t take him back it would kill me if he left again. I can not survive another mind game.

It is over... OVER... but why is it so hard to accept it? I wont take him back I WONT!

Unless he can convince he is serious. Unless he wins the trust of the Darkknight. Until Batman trusts him to watch his back. Until Bruce Wayne the billionaire trusts his heart to him again. Until...

NOnononononooooooo I will not hope, I will not, I can not... because I dont trust him ever again.

Bitter? Ohh yes that I definitely am.

It all comes down to trust...



Annakas