Only Choice

By DeeperBlue

Disclaimer: seaQuest DSV/2032 is ©MCA/Universal, Amblin Entertainment, and the Sci-Fi Channel. ©DeeperBlue. Reproduction, adaptation, or translation without prior written permission is prohibited. This is not for profit. Copies for personal use only must include all copyrights and disclaimers.

Rating: R for adult situations and implied rape.

Warning: This story deals with rape and adult language. Do not read if you these themes offend you.

Archive: Yes, just tell me where.

Category: AU, Pre-seaQuest, Point Of View.

Summary: A darker version of why Lucas was send to seaQuest.

Feedback: Yes, please. my_force@hotmail.com

Notes: This story is for all the wonderful fanfic writers who's stories I have read; I love your stories so this is for you.



Only Choice
By DeeperBlue

A pounding pain went through the head of Lawrence Wolenczak as he slowly awakened. He looked around and realized he was in his own bed with his cloth on. What had happened last night? The memory was still clouded but something he did remember; Lucas had been with him. A meeting with a computer firm. He remembered talking to the representative and drinking an awful lot. After that some dancing but then… His mind was blank. Had they reached an agreement about the computers? Maybe Lucas was with them talking about their newest problems. He smiled at the thought. Lucas was very clever for his age and he was proud of him. Still, something felt wrong. It couldn't be described; it was just a wrong feeling. He stood up and after using the bathroom he strode to Lucas' room.

When nobody answered his knock he opened the door and found Lucas sitting in a corner with his arms wrapped around his legs, rocking slightly back and forth and looking terrible small and vulnerable.

"Go away," The voice was filled with terror, fear and hate.

"Oh my god… Lucas," Lawrence said and moved forward and grabbed the boy gently but stopped as he saw him tremble under his touch. It was obvious. His boy was been violated. The dead look in his eyes, his voice, his pale skin…

"Who did this to you?" He asked. Who ever it was the person would pay for this. No one would do this to anyone and get away with it. "Whoever it was the person will be punished," he promised.

Suddenly Lucas started to laugh. A dead laugh with no emotions at all. "You will punish him?" He asked. His voice was as lifeless as the rest of him. He laughed again. The sound was hoarse and callous in Lawrence's ears. "You wont punish the man who did this."

"Why not? Who did this Lucas?" And why did Lucas think he wouldn't punish the man?

Lucas lifted his head and saw his father straight in the eyes. As he spoke his voice sounded more lifeless than before.

"You did."

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The evening had gone well and Lawrence was satisfied with the result. The representatives had insisted on strong alcohol and he was starting to become dizzy. He gazed at Lucas who sat across the table. He had a worried look in his eyes. Unlike everyone else in the room he hadn't had anything to drink than cola.

Late at night they finally came to an agreement. To celebrate the band played a fast piece of music and Lawrence was the first on the floor. An hour later he collapsed got dragged of the dance floor. Lucas was with him at once. Together they stumbled to Lawrence's room, Lucas half dragging him.

And then…

Need…

"Dad?"

A hard push, lying on the bed

"What are you… dad!?"

Fingers grapping blond hair, pulling down for a brutal kiss

"Stop, please"

Sobs could be heard

Clothing ripped of, hands trapped above the head

Then he satisfied his desire…

*******

His memory returned with a painful recognition. He had really done that to his own son?? No, no, it couldn't have happened. But one look at Lucas confirmed everything. The pain, humiliation, fear…

"I'm so sorry, son. I…" He couldn't continue. What should he say? I'm sorry I raped you and ruined your life?

"Dad," the words was filled with hatred, "I hate you."

The words hit Lawrence hard and he decided to do something he never had thought he would. He chose the easiest choice. As he stood up he spoke in a harsh voice. He would not let Lucas see how much pain this caused him.

"I called Noyce some days ago. He has agreed to have you on the seaQuest as a part of the science team. You have a week to get ready." With that he left the room. He couldn't possibly ask for Lucas to understand was he was doing. It would be best for the boy to be as far away as possible from him.

He had only wanted Noyce to agree to have the boy on seaQuest, because he knew he could. It had just been a way of showing how powerful he was, nothing more. Putting Lucas on the seaQuest was something he had never even thought of. But know…

He went to his office, sat down and turned the vid-phone on. It was time to call Noyce and say that Lucas would be joining the seaQuest crew. Would Lucas ever forgive him? Would sending him of to a submarine be a good choice? Had he failed his parent-role completely?

He signed and dialed Noyce's number. The decision was made. He would not harm his boy again. Sending him away would be the best choice for both father and son.

The best choice…

The only choice…



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The End
DeeperBlue, March 2000