should know me better than that, right?"
At Clark's snort, Lex broke out laughing. His laughter proved infectious as Clark soon doubled over from the force of his own mirth. Soon, with tears in their eyes and pain in their stomachs, they gasped back the hilarity of the moment. Composing themselves, Lex was the first to let out a loud, high-pitched sigh that only served to start a second string of laughter.
Finally, once again in control of themselves, Clark inhaled deeply and asked through a few lingering chuckles, "So, how are things in Metropolis?
Taking a moment to compose himself, Lex replied with a even, clear voice, "Good, all things considers."
"Considering what things?" asked Clark.
"Oh the basics - My Father, my explanation for bringing Simon and his boys to Smallville. Stuff like that," replied Lex.
Lying back on his bed, Clark rested the phone cradle on his chest. "What did you tell your Dad about that?"
A pause followed the question. Then, Lex whispered in mock seriousness, "Better you not know."
Rolling his eyes, Clark groaned at his words being thrown back at him. "Pain in my ass."
"Not yet, but soon," promised Lex. At Clark's surprised gasp, Lex chuckled under his breath, "So, before this phone call descends into the depths of bad porn, what have you been up to? Any problems with the football team?"
Recovering from Lex's comment, Clark replied, "Are you kidding? They avoid me like the plague. As for me, it's school and chores. Oh, and more school."
"Lucky bastard," joked Lex as he leaned back in his chair.
Going along, Clark said, "Excuse me? What could be worse than school and chores?"
"Politically necessary social functions I'm forced to attend with my Father," answered Lex without missing a beat.
"Tell me more," Clark said quickly as he pressed his ear against the speaker.
"I've attended two already. A formal dinner for the Make-A-Wish Foundation and a wine and cheese reception at the Metropolis University School of Law hosted by the Women's Law Caucus. Next week, I get the 'pleasure' of attending the Governor's reelection platform. Yeah, watch the news on Tuesday. You'll probably see me. I'll be the guy bored out of his mind, standing just to the
right of the podium," replied Lex.
"Your Father's been attending these things with you? He must be doing better," asked Clark with genuine curiosity.
"He can walk with a cane, now. Unfortunately, he refuses to follow his doctor's instructions. They warn him not to walk very much, take it easy, but he doesn't. After an hour of standing at the wine and cheese reception, his back was killing him. He popped a bunch of painkillers, but refused to put down his drink because that would be a sign of weakness. He kept absently sipping at his wine and by the end of the night he could barely see straight," answered Lex, a frown drawing down his features as he remembered that night, his Father's slovenly appearance.
"I'm sorry to hear that, Lex," stated Clark sincerely.
Running his hand over his scalp, Lex whispered, "Thanks."
Suddenly, the door to Lex's office opened. Leaning stiffly on his cane, Lionel Luthor hobbled into the room. Placing one hand over the other on the silver head of his cane, Lionel called out, "Lex, the Board of Directors are not known to wait for late members."
Turning away from his Father, Lex whispered into the phone, "Clark, I'll have to talk to you later."
The sadness in Clark's voice rang out of every syllable as he said, "Sure. I understand. It was good talking to you, Lex."
"Same here," replied Lex as Lionel called out a loud, "Lex."
Grimacing at his Father's behavior, Lex quickly said, "Gotta go, Clark," before slamming the phone down.
Standing up, Lex took a moment to button his jacket before following his Father out of the room. In the hallways, they were silent as they strode side-by-side. In the garage, they didn't even look at each other as the chauffeur held the door to the limousine open. Once inside the limo, Lionel pushed a couple buttons on his armrest. Suddenly, a partition rose behind the chauffeur and locks clicked into place ensuring the partition stayed in place. Finally alone, Lionel glanced at his watch as he commented, "So, I guess two o'clock on a Saturday is when all good farm boys are home. How quaint."
Shifting uncomfortably in his seat, Lex crossed his arms over his chest. "Dad, we've successfully avoided this topic thus far. Let's try to remain on that course."
Smugly thrusting out his chin, Lionel said, "Oh, I see. Are you upset that I interrupted you while you were busy laying out your itinerary for the next week.[?] Does he like to keep you on a short leash."
Unable to keep a slight twitch from showing as he slowly glanced at his Father, Lex spit out, "What are you doing? Bugging my phone?"
Laughing arrogantly, Lionel assured, "Of course not, I stand outside your office with a glass pressed against the wood of your door."
Not bothering to look at Lex, Lionel continued, "You should be happy only I heard you. The Board of Directors would love to hear the endearing words you shower on that boy. It would make them feel secure that you'll never be in a position to take over LuthorCorp."
Sighing, Lex looked away from his Father. "You're starting to sound like a broken record."
"Perhaps, I am. The Luthor family is extremely powerful, Lex. It is an old, noble family. With wealth secured in addition to title and rank, your forbears found an insidious way to ensure that their traditions would survive through their progeny. LuthorCorp incorporated in 1873 and in over a hundred years not a single heir has found a way around the clause. You should pay heed to that
fact," warned Lionel.
Sitting perfectly still, Lex churned inside. Rage boiled within his chest, burning as it seeped into his bloodstream. Madness called to him, ordering him to put an end to this petty little man beside him. A dull pain ached behind his eyes. Reaching up with his left hand, Lex squeezed the bridge of his nose. Opening his eyes, he lowered his hand. As he did, he glanced at the watch wrapped about his wrist, stared at the Napoleon Franc. As he studied the watch's smooth polished surfaces, Lex could see his Mother's face. He could hear her whispering soothing words in his ear just like she did all those nights he spent in the hospital after the meteor shower. Just like those pain-filled nights of long ago, she acted as a balm to his wounds. In waves, bit by bit, Lex felt his rage ebb away until finally he was no longer entertaining fatal fantasies.
--<{()}>--
November 5, 2002
Mayor Siegel's Campaign Headquarters
Smallville, Kansas
"With 47% of the precincts reporting, incumbent candidate Mayor Siegel leads the Mayoral race by nearly two votes to one over his opponent," proclaimed the News Anchor.
Within the hall, cheers roared. Echoing through the air, the triumphant call of campaign volunteers rang out. Within the din, some danced. Some kissed. Some clung to each other as they rode high on the waves of imminent victory. In the midst of this mass of bodies and cacophony of voices stood Pete Ross and Sam Cole.
With wide smiles, they held onto one another. Swaying with the crowd, they pressed against one another until nothing but fabric separated them. With joy, they kissed at the last update. With her fingers on his cheeks, Sam stretched out their victory kiss. Smiling against his lips, she giggled as the excitement of the hour moved her. Throwing her hands into the air, Sam jumped around. Twirling about, Sam opened her eyes as she turned away from Pete.
Suddenly, she went completely still. At the doors, she saw Marcus frowning back at her. Looking out over the sea of people, she saw her Father wading through the pressed bodies. Panicking, Sam turned around and screamed, "Pete, get out of here. Quick."
Grabbing Sam's hands, Pete asked, "Sam what is it?"
Terror filling her incredibly wide-open eyes, Sam cried, "My Father."
Swallowing once, Pete stood a little taller as he puffed out his chest and held up his head. Pulling her hands against his chest, Pete said, "Let me talk to him, Sam. Maybe he'll change his mind."
Shaking her head wildly, Sam replied, "No! He won't. Please go, Pete. I'll keep an eye out for him."
Before she could turn around again, Sam felt a solid mass against her back. Without looking over her shoulder, Sam knew who it had to be. Her shoulders filled with tension, flexing up to her ears as she dared to peek at the angry man standing behind her.
Finally pushing away, Sam turned around a little bit a time. The face that greeted her was less than encouraging. Raymond Cole stood rigidly - his jaw set, his eyes centered on Sam's frightened expression. In fact the only thing that moved on Raymond's face was a madly ticking muscle just above his left eye. In a deep baritone, he bellowed, "Samantha, what is the meaning of this?"
Putting her hands up, Sam answered, "Daddy, I don't know what you mean."
Leaning over, Raymond clarified, "Let me make myself more clear - what are you doing with this.with this boy?"
From behind Sam, Pete summoned the courage to clear his throat and lift a hand. "Mr. Cole, my name is Pete Ross. If you would let-"
Raymond silenced Pete with a withering look and a stern response, "Young man, I do not care who you are. I only care to know what is you think you are doing with my daughter."
Before Pete could respond, Sam pressed her hands against her Father's chest and begged, "Please, Daddy. I can explain, but not here. Let's go home, Daddy. Please."
Glancing down at his daughter's agonized face, some of Raymond's rage seeped away. Wrapping an arm around her shoulders, Raymond pulled her forward and through the swirling masses of people ignorant to the drama in their midst. As her Father led her away, Sam managed to glance back at Pete twice. Each time, Pete returned her gaze as he followed her departing figure.
At the door, Pete's eyes fell upon Marcus Cole. Pete expected a smug smile or a condescending glare. Instead, Pete saw sadness and regret. In fact, anger only graced Marcus' features when he realized he was being watched and returned Pete's glare. It was the calmness of the family, the careful control of their actions that made a shiver of caution travel down Pete's spine. It was the sincere concern on Marcus' face as he watched Sam and Raymond pass in front of him that made Pete first fear for Sam's well being as he watched the trio depart.
--<{()}>--
Later That Night At The Luthor Penthouse
Metropolis, Kansas
"Come on, Dad. Get your feet under yourself. Come on! I'm not carrying you all the way to your bedroom," growled Lex at his Father. Biting his tongue, he managed to close the door to the penthouse without loosing his grip on Lionel's waist. Straining from the effort, he dragged Lionel to the center of the living room. Lionel made no attempt to stand straighter. His head tilted back, Lionel seemed content to stare at the ceiling.
At last, Lex had enough.
Dropping his Father's limp body onto the sofa, Lex crossed the room to the bar. After pouring three fingers of scotch, Lex slammed the decanter down, not caring if it shattered. Turning around, Lex stood a few feet from the sofa and looked at the mess - Lionel sprawled over the cushions. Taking a sip of scotch, Lex couldn't banish a stray thought. 'Oh, how the mighty have fallen.'
Something halfway between a grunt and a groan escaped Lionel's throat. Pushing against the sofa cushions, Lionel struggled to sit up. He got no help from Lex and knew he wouldn't. Finally, he had his back against the sofa back. Though still slightly askew, Lionel was at least mostly vertical. Straining to look up at Lex, Lionel sneered, "People in glass houses shouldn't throw stones, Lex."
In response, Lex chuckled once. Slowly, Lex walked over to a chair opposite Lionel. As he sat down, Lex retorted, "True, but in all the years I went clubbing, you never had to drag my ass in here."
Laughing weakly, Lionel watched Lex play with his drink. He centered in on how Lex held the lead crystal tumbler with his thumb and middle finger while running his index finger over the edge of the glass. Shifting his seat, he sighed, "Genetics is a funny thing."
Stilling all movement, Lex looked back at his Father. "I'm sure."
Shaking his head, Lionel pointed feebly at Lex's glass. "Your absent minded fidgeting. Lillian used to do that, that thing with her finger on the edge of the glass. She could make the glass sing. I'm quite sure you never saw her do it as she never drank in front of you, but here you are doing the exact same thing."
Looking down at his drink, Lex affectionately rubbed the crystal. Then, without giving himself time to think about it, Lex dipped his index finger in the amber liquid. Running his index finger along the edge, Lex produced a high-pitched tone.
Nodding, Lionel looked at Lex and said, "Yes, just like that."
Broken from his reverie, Lex pushed the drink away. Looking back at his Father, Lex sighed, "Time for bed, Dad."
Lionel seemed startled by the declaration. Looking at his watch, he worked hard to focus on it as he kept bringing his arm closer then swinging it away again. Suddenly, a strong hand was on the swaying arm. Following the manicured hand up to a slender arm, Lionel found himself looking Lex square in the face. Squinting, Lionel commented, "You look like her sometimes."
Swallowing hard, Lex pulled Lionel to his feet. Drawing Lionel's left arm over his head, Lex gripped Lionel's hand tightly with his own left hand. Balancing Lionel's weight, Lex ran his right arm around Lionel's back, grasping his waist. Taking a deep breath, Lex shifted his Father forward.
The trip down the hallway was uneventful except that each step proved to be more of a challenge than the last. By the time they reached Lionel's bedroom, Lex was drenched in sweat. As he opened the door, Lex paused to shore up his strength as he dragged his Father the rest of the way. Lex first deposited Lionel in a chair, then turned down the bed.
A couple minutes of struggle later, Lex lowered his Father down on his queen size mattress. Looking at Lionel's labored breathing; Lex knew he wouldn't be conscious long. Gently, Lex pushed Lionel toward the center of the mattress, but a little life left in Lionel protested, "No, No, Lex. Can't sleep there. That's her side."
Staring down at the bed, Lex wondered, 'I hadn't heard he had a new girlfriend.' Choosing not to fight it, Lex left his Father on the left side of the bed and proceeded to pull the covers over him. Finally calm again, Lionel shifted about to get comfortable. Curiosity gnawed at him and Lex knew his Father would probably answer any question right about now. Tucking the blankets in around Lionel's neck, Lex asked, "Whose side of the bed is it, Dad?"
Mumbling faintly, Lex almost didn't catch Lionel's reply. "Lily's"
'Lily,' thought Lex.
'That was his pet name for her,' he recalled as he backed out of Lionel's bedroom, softly drawing the door closed behind him.
--<{()}>--
November 18, 2002
Smallville High
"Hey stranger, where have you been?" asked Chloe as Laura walked into the pressroom.
Quiet, Laura placed her backpack on one of the tables. Opening the bag, Laura pulled a thin packet out of it. Handing it to Chloe, Laura replied, "That's the article you asked me to write about being new to Smallville."
Taking the full-sized envelope, Chloe asked again, "This is great, but it was due last Friday. What happened? You've been gone for over a week."
Quickly, Laura zipped up her bag. Not looking at Chloe, Laura answered, "I'd rather not talk about."
Unhappy at being so easily cut off, Chloe crossed her arms and said, "Well, I think I deserve an explanation for why this is late, at least."
Tossing her backpack onto her right shoulder, Laura replied, "Look, I'm not some project. I'm not a story for you to research. I had personal business. It is no business of yours. I wanted to give you the article because I promised you I would. I'm truly sorry I couldn't get it here on time, but I was otherwise occupied."
Over at the photo library, Justin looked at Laura's demeanor with concern. Walking over to Chloe's side, Justin silenced Chloe's barrage of questions with an arm around the shoulders. Before Laura could leave, he asked, "Are you okay?"
Stopping in mid-step, Laura looked back at Justin. Confirming his sincerity, the contempt fell from her face. Shaking her head, Laura turned toward him. Bringing her backpack off her shoulder again, Laura glanced behind her back a couple times before reaching into the front packet. She grabbed at something, but before pulling it out, she looked at Justin and asked, "You're one of Pete's friends, right?"
Shrugging, Justin replied, "Sometimes, though I not sure he knows it."
Seeing the doubt fill her eyes, Justin cursed himself under his breath. Putting jokes aside, Justin replied, "Yeah, I see him around."
Nodding, Laura pulled a letter-sized envelope from the pocket. Placing it in Justin's extended hand, she explained, "It's from Sam. Tell Pete. It's from Sam."
Nodding Justin swore he would. Clutching the letter tightly, he watched her leave. Looking down at the letter, Justin wasn't surprised when he heard Chloe's question, just disappointed. "From Sam, huh? So, what do you think it says?"
Glancing at Chloe, Justin slipped the letter into his pocket and said, "None of my business what it says."
Pulling Chloe close, Justin gave her a gentle kiss. Reigning in the emotional turmoil he felt at the moment as she pled with her eyes, Justin began to feel fatigued, but managed to pull away from her. He hated to deny her anything, but, couldn't, wouldn't give in this time. Chloe's startled, slightly hurt eyes fueled his inner chaos. As the smile faded from her face, Justin headed for the
door.
Outside the pressroom, Justin took a moment to compose himself. All around him the forces swirled madly, faster than he could control. As people passed by him, they felt the eerie brushing of fingers down their back. Looking back, they saw only open air and, in the distance, Justin sprinting away. With every footfall, Justin caused locker doors to fly open, sometimes smacking people as they swung about on their hinges.
Rushing from the hallway, Justin ran outside. Once outside, he kept on running. Past the center of town. Past the track homes on the edge of Main Street. Along Highway 90, Justin rushed ahead like a man possessed. At a lonely field of wheat, he knelt down. Digging his fingers into the flesh of his scalp, Justin felt the intensity of Chloe's disappointment. He recalled the conflict of emotions it aroused - The eternal battle between should have and wanted to. He shuddered from the chain reaction it caused as he tried desperately to hold it all inside. Suddenly, Justin sensed his defeat. Futilely, he struggled on for a second more before being overcome. Finally, throwing back his arms, he screamed.
Several minutes later, Justin opened his slightly dazed eyes. With a groan, Justin slowly brought his sore arms forward. Running his fingers over his face, Justin felt his labored breathing start to slow down. Moaning from the pain, Justin mused, 'That's the worst one yet.'
Looking around, Justin noticed the circular pattern of crushed wheat surrounding him. Scratching his head, he sighed, "Great. Now, I'm making crop circles."
--<{()}>--
November 19, 2002
Talon Cafe
Sorrowfully, he drowned his troubles in a double mocha latte. Cradling the mug with both hands, he rested his weight on his elbows as he shifted on his stool. Steam shrouded his face. Inhaling deeply, he let out a heavy sigh every couple of minutes. His shoulders slumped and his posture poor, Pete left no doubt as to how miserable his life must be.
That was how they found him. Walking into the Talon, Justin and Clark were met at the door by Lana. Glancing back at Pete, Lana whispered to the both of them, "He's been there for hours. That's his third cup. He won't talk about it. Not with me, anyway. I thought. I thought maybe it's a guy thing. That's why I called you. Maybe, you can get through to him in a way I couldn't."
Patting Lana on the arm, Clark assured, "You did the right thing, Lana. We'll take it from here."
Flashing a brilliant smile, Lana took off. With a deep breath, Justin and Clark headed over to Pete. On opposite sides of Pete, they slapped Pete's back at the same time, causing him to lurch forward, almost spilling his drink. Jerking around, Pete shook his head quickly back and forth from Justin to Clark and back again. When recognition sunk in, Pete relaxed back down on the stool. Resuming his slouch, Pete mumbled, "Hey, guys," as he turned back to his mocha.
At the same time, Clark and Justin sat down on either side of Pete. Glancing at each other, they debated without words over who would talk first. With a final raised brow and tip of his head, Justin won. Taking a deep breath, Clark rested his elbows on the bar and asked, "Pete, you okay?"
Shaking his head, Pete took another sip of his drink.
Glancing at each other again, Clark and Justin debated again. Suddenly, Justin's eyes widened. Patting at his jacket pockets, Justin pulled out the, now crumpled, letter that Laura gave to him. With his left flank pressed against the bar, Justin slid the front of the envelope directly into Pete's line of sight.
It took a moment for Pete to recognize the handwriting. When he finally did, Pete could only stare at the jagged, slanted script belonging to Sam Cole. Reaching out with trembling fingers, Pete took the letter from Justin. His mouth hanging open in awe, Pete barely managed to whisper, "Where did you get this?"
Smirking, Justin replied, "Laura gave it me, yesterday. I would've given it to you earlier, but you're a hard man to find lately."
Frowning, Pete nodded. Glancing at first Justin, then Clark, Pete said, "Yeah, about that, guys."
Patting Pete's back, Clark rushed to say, "Don't worry about it. I've been known to disappear from time to time, myself."
Laughing softly, Pete punched Clark's arm once before tearing into Sam's letter. Pulling the ordinary lined paper from the plain envelope, Pete read the letter cautiously. About halfway down the page, his frown turned upside down. At the end of the page, he became cautious once again. Folding the paper up slowly, he gently tucked it back in its envelope. Sliding the envelope into the inner pocket of his lettermen jacket, he looked back and forth from Justin to Clark. Sliding from the stool, Pete stood up and said, "You guys want to go play some hoops or what?"
Nodding, Clark and Justin agreed. With Pete they turned toward the Talon's front doors. After they took a few steps forward, Clark and Pete stopped when Justin asked, "Dude, you gonna finish your drink or what?"
Pete stared at the Mocha for a moment before turning away. With a wave of his hand, Pete stated, "Leave it. I don't need it anymore."
--<{()}>--
November 24, 2002
Fordman Residence
"Goodnight, honey," said Mrs. Fordman as she placed a kiss on Whitney's cheek. Glancing past Whitney's shoulder, she continued coolly, "Don't stay up too late."
Hugging his Mother, Whitney whispered, "Goodnight, Mom. I'll see you in the morning."
Taking a moment to flash a warning at Lana, Mrs. Fordman left the room.
"Alone at last," whispered Whitney as he turned around. Advancing slowly, he stalked after Lana as she backed away. Finally, with her back against the sofa table, Lana fell prey to Whitney's onslaught. His hands glided easily, familiarly over her waist. Grabbing onto her hips, Whitney pulled her forward until they fitted snugly against one another.
Her gasp made him laugh. With one hand at her back, Whitney reached up and turned her chin up until he looked directly into her eyes. He searched her face for a second before leaning down and capturing her lips. Deeply, he kissed her. Soulfully, he held her close. Stealthily, his fingers inched down her back, wasting no time as they slipped under the waistband of her jeans.
At the touch of his warm fingers on the small of her back, Lana pushed Whitney away. Exhaling loudly, Whitney demanded, "Lana, what is going on?"
Tucking a lock of hair behind her ear, Lana replied, "It's just too soon, Whitney."
Gripping Lana by the arms, Whitney pulled her forward. Enraged, he looked directly into her fear filled eyes. "Too soon? Lana, we've been together for two years and we've done little more than kiss. What are you waiting for?"
Struggling against him, Lana thought, 'Someone else,' but she cried, "Whitney, stop! You're hurting me."
As if smacked, Whitney stumbled backwards. His hands fell to his sides. Taking in a deep breath, Whitney let it out as he brought his hands up, running his fingers over the inch high stubble on the top of his head. Turning away from Lana, Whitney whispered, "I'm sorry, Lana, but."
"But, what?" she asked.
With his back turned to her, Whitney replied, "I want more, Lana. I mean. I thought we were past this - all your princess games."
Remembering that insanity laced June night, Lana spoke coolly, "It's never been a game. I'm sorry, Whitney. I'm sorry if I've deceived you. I'm sorry."
Looking at Whitney's back, Lana reasoned she could tell him now. Thanksgiving was in four days. Plenty of time for her and Nell to make different arrangements. She could tell him now that she wanted to be free. She could tell him that she didn't love him. He'd hurt for a second, but he'd be better off in the long run. Straightening her spine, Lana stood with the strength of her convictions until Whitney turned around.
The pain in his eyes made her pause. The power of his silence made her still. As if outside her body, she watched as he reached out and cupped her cheeks, stepping closer as he did so. Rubbing his thumbs over the dark circles under her eyes, Whitney sighed, "No, I'm sorry, Lana. It's just I'm scared. There's been a lot of talk lately. Talk of war."
Pulling her into a firm embrace, he continued, "They say it could come any day. If it does, I could be shipped out at a moment's notice. I'm just anxious. I guess, I'm anxious to tie up all the loose ends before anything bad can happen."
Against Whitney's shoulder, Lana nodded. Drawing her hands up his back, Lana didn't stop until she clutched at the back of his shoulders. Wide-eyed, Lana trembled and didn't stop even after Whitney started rubbing her back and shushing at her softly.
--<{()}>--
November 25, 2002
Luthor Towers
Metropolis, Kansas
Lex began to wonder if staying was really worth it. As the catering staff lowered yet another porcelain plate of artistically presented cuisine on the table before him, Lex choked down a yawn. All around him were the same boring people. Sure the events were different and a new charity fronted this excuse to meet and mingle, but the same high rollers were in attendance.
'I don't know how much more of this I can take,' mused Lex.
The night's only saving grace was his Father sat two tables away. Glancing over at his Father, Lex thought back a couple weeks. He remembered how his Father awoke the next morning and went about his normal routine. He had searched his Father's face that morning for some recollection of the previous night and the things said. Lex found nothing in his Father's face but an eagerness to tackle the next political obstacle.
In the past few weeks, they never spoke of that night. Lionel stopped taking the painkiller and things went back to business as usual. At one point, Lex began to wonder if it was all some dream. Sitting down in his cushioned chair, peeking at his Father, Lex wondered what would happen if he slipped a few pain pills into Lionel's drink, ground them up and cooked them into his food. Could he perhaps recapture that moment again? Could he have one more chance at connecting with his Father?
--<{()}>--
November 26, 2002
Kent Farm
Smallville, Kansas
She smiled when she saw him. After all these years, the very sight of him made her heart swell. Standing at the top of the stairs, Martha found Clark staring out his telescope. In his lap laid open the little seen book of star maps she had given him for his birthday. Approaching him, Martha hated the walking on eggshells that surrounded her. Had it so much time passed since the last time they had really talked. Not yelled. Not accused. Just talked. Martha found it hard to remember when last she felt that simple pleasure.
A couple footsteps apart, Clark looked up from the telescope. Quietly, he looked at her, waiting for her to say something. He hated the distance between them, but couldn't find a way to fix it. At a loss for words, he remained silent, feeling lost as she did the same. Searching her face, he saw love and concern in her eyes and wondered, 'Would that love and concern still be there if I told her everything?'
Wringing her hands, Martha pointed at the star maps and asked, "Find anything interesting?"
Looking down at star maps, Clark saw the maps depicting the Virgo-Coma galaxy region. His mind traveled back to his birthday and the way he'd shown the pages to Lex. 'It's been over a month since I last saw him,' mused Clark. Sighing loudly, Clark couldn't keep the frown off his face.
Martha caught on quick. She saw pain and loneliness cross Clark's face. Walking up to him, she wrapped an arm around his shoulders and asked, "Do you want to talk about whatever is on your mind?"
Shaking his head, Clark stood up. Walking away from Martha, he closed the book loudly, placing it on the coffee table. Running his hand through his hair, Clark replied, "I don't have anything on my mind, Mom. I just need some sleep. Midterms were a killer."
"You're sure that's all it is?" asked Martha.
Shrugging, Clark answered, "Yeah. What else could it be?"
"You looked lonely, just now. Not a response I expect you to have to hard midterms," said Martha.
Laughing nervously, Clark stated, "I'm not lonely. Really. I'm fine."
Stepping forward, Martha inquired, "Is it Lana?"
Clark's mouth dropped open. Shaking his head, he replied, "No. It's not. Haven't we been over this? There is nothing going on between Lana and me. Why don't you believe me?"
Martha tightly held her own hands as she answered, "Because you look so lonely. You look lovesick and who else could it be?"
'The truth isn't even a consideration for her. She can't even imagine what's happening to me.'
Clark didn't speak as he walked away. He left his Mother alone in the fortress of solitude, her question hanging in the air.
--<{()}>--
November 27, 2002
Cole Residence
Raymond Cole sat with controlled care. The outrage that filled his muscular frame threatened to break loose. Staring at Sam, he couldn't believe his ears as she said, "But Daddy, please."
With his arms crossed, Raymond glanced at his wife. She offered little but a nod of her head, passing the decision onto him. Shaking his head, Raymond stated, "No. Absolutely not."
"But that's not fair!" cried Sam, her hands rolled up into fists.
Sitting up in his armchair, Raymond bellowed, "Don't preach to me about fairness. Life is not fair. Life does not care about your plans. It proceeds on path with or without you."
Meeting her Father's gaze stubbornly, Sam bit her lower lip as her Father continued, "Do you want to know about fairness? Do you want to hear stories of refugees left adrift? Do you want to hear about families torn apart or wiped out all together?"
Rolling her eyes, Sam waited for her Father to finish before she began to speak. "Yeah, yeah. I've heard all that before. You're so into your traditions, but you don't follow them when it's inconvenient."
In response, Raymond made a move to stand. Flinching away from her father, Sam continued, "It is said that once the price of punishment is paid, then the guilty should be embraced as if innocent again."
Stepping forward, Sam sat down on Raymond's lap. Softly, she whispered, "I went with you before the Council, Daddy. I was judged as you watched. I've paid the price already."
Once again, Raymond looked to Sarah for guidance. This time, she didn't fail him. Nodding, her eyes conveyed her willingness to live up to their traditions. Sighing loudly, Raymond nodded as he said, "Okay you can volunteer with Laura at the soup kitchen, tomorrow."
Squealing with joy, Sam wrapped her arms around her father's neck and hugged him with all her might. "Thank you. Thank you. Thank you."
Laughing, Raymond hugged her back. Jumping up off of her Father, Sam raced over to Sarah and proceeded to hug her as well. Smiling widely, Sarah hugged her little girl. Touching the girl's cheek, Sarah said simply, "Behave."
Suddenly sober, Sam stood straight up and nodded once at both of her parents. Turning about face like a soldier, Sam marched out of the living room. She kept her back straight as she passed Marcus in the hall. Opening the door to her bedroom, Sam stepped inside and pressed her back to the door as it clicked shut. Reclining against the door, she smirked at Laura in triumph.
"You should be an actress or a lawyer," remarked Laura, as she sat cross-legged on the edge of her twin bed.
"I'll give it some thought," replied Sam as she crossed the room to her own twin bed. Pulling the covers back, Sam slipped into bed. Bringing the covers up under her chin, Sam winked at Laura as she said with a giggle, "I going to go to sleep. I have a big day ahead of me tomorrow."
--<{()}>--
Thanksgiving Day 2002
Saint Vincent's Church
Smallville, Kansas
On the corner of Grant Avenue and Main Street, Sam waited. Standing apart from the line of people waiting to be served, she hoped. In the shadow of Saint Vincent's church, she prayed.
Her prayers were answered in the form of a royal blue 1964 Ford Falcon convertible. As the car pulled up to the street in front of her, she let out the breath she was holding. Opening the car door, she slid into the seat. She slammed the door shut before reaching over and wrapping her arms around Pete's neck. Enthusiastically, she pulled him into a rushed kiss. Finally pulling away, she ordered, "Floor it!"
"Never could say no to a lady," replied Pete as he put the car in gear and pulled away from the church.
Out on Hwy 90, on a secluded bend of road, Pete parked. With the top up, they didn't worry about the cold air just past the windshield. Hidden behind a line of trees, the fog that formed on the glass didn't concern them. In fact, in each other's arms, they didn't agonize about much of anything.
They reveled in the taste of each other. Kissing frantically, they let their hands roam freely. As he touched her thigh, Sam parted from him long enough to gasp. Looking into Pete's eyes, Sam didn't hold him back as his fingers inched forward. As his fingers hit home, she arched her back. Reaching out, she grabbed the collar of his shirt.
Pulling Pete closer, she panted wildly. As she fought for control, she pressed her forehead against Pete's. Rocking her head back and forth, Sam moaned so loudly she never heard the passenger side door as it was yanked open. In the instant a shock of frigid air pounded her, a strong hand grabbed her arm, dragging her from the car.
Jumping from the car, Pete stared wide-eyed at Marcus as he pulled Sam away. Running around the front end of the old Ford, Pete yelled, "Stop!"
Turning back, Marcus glared at Pete as he wrestled with Sam. Looking directly at Sam, Marcus warned, "Wait until Mom and Dad find out about this."
Sam went perfectly still. With fear in her eyes, she pleaded, "Please, Marcus. Don't tell them. You know what'll happen."
Pulling on Sam's arm again, Marcus commented, "Well, you should have thought about that before you and Laura concocted this little scheme. What were you thinking? You know Mom and Dad would never approve."
From behind his back, Marcus heard, "And what about you? Where do you stand?"
Still holding onto Sam, Marcus turned around to face Pete. Quickly, Marcus sneered, "I follow my parent's lead."
Waving his arms about as he approached Marcus, Pete asked, "What is it? A race thing? You can't stand the thought of your baby sister being with a black man?"
In response, Marcus laughed softly.
"It has nothing to do with that." Narrowing his eyes, Marcus glanced back and forth from Pete to Sam. Holding Sam behind him, Marcus continued, "You showed honor coming out of your car to protect my sister and I appreciate that so listen, the truth is this: Sam's life. My life. Laura's life. All of our lives were arranged for us a long time ago. As a result, there is simply no room in Sam's life for you."
As Marcus spoke, Pete held his gaze. Never wavering in his resolve, Once Marcus finished speaking; Pete asked Sam, "What do you want?"
Before Sam could answer, Marcus warned, "Do you want Mom and Dad to find out?"
Looking up at Marcus, Sam saw the bargain in his eyes. Closing her eyes, Sam made a decision. Turning to Pete, she swallowed down a lungful of air before she said, "Go home, Pete. Just go home."
He watched her walk away. All the while, his eyes never left the spot where Marcus painfully held her arm. Finally, once they were gone, Pete got back in his car and drove away.
Several minutes later, he arrived at the Kent Farm. It was still early morning and he prayed he didn't wake anybody up. Climbing out of the car, Pete chose to investigate the barn first. There, he found Clark sitting alone, staring out into space.
"Hey man. You mind if I share this sofa with you?" asked Pete.
Taken by surprise, Clark recovered quickly. "Sure, Pete. Go ahead and sit down."
Side by side on the sofa, they didn't saw a word. Then Pete opened his mouth and it all came rolling out. He told Clark everything. He reminisced over how he and Sam met and first started going out. He recounted election night and the recent incident on Hwy 90.
In the end, he made a comment relevant to them both, "I think what I hate the most is that she's just not here. I want her close by me, because that's the only time I feel really alive."
Looking at Pete, Clark could nothing more than nod his head in agreement. Thinking back, Clark realized the only time he'd felt alive in weeks was during a five-minute phone call from Lex. He hadn't laughed as freely since that phone call and he suspected he wouldn't feel so content again until Lex returned.
Dragged from his reverie, Clark thought he heard what sounded like somebody crying. Squinting, Clark asked, "Do you hear that?"
Looking about, Pete asked, "Hear what?"
Another high-pitched hitch of breath sounded. Jumping up, Clark said, "I heard it again. I think it's coming from downstairs."
Walking over to the handrail, he looked over the side. Below him, he saw his Mother crying as she clutched the handrail. Rushing down the stairs, Clark yelled, "Mom? What's wrong?"
As he reached her, Clark pulled Martha into a firm embrace as she continued to cry. Again, he asked, "Mom, what's the matter?"
She continued to cry long enough for Pete to join them at the foot of the stairs. Picking her head up off Clark's shoulder, Martha announced, "We're at war."
--<{()}>--
That Very Moment
The Fordman Residence
From across the table, Lana stared at Whitney's hungry eyes. Only she knew he yearned for something other than his Mother's peach cobbler. She let her mind recall the past few days and the bases she'd let Whitney round with a shudder up her spine. 'What am I doing?' She thought. 'This was supposed to end, not go even further.'
At the other end of the table, Nell and Mrs. Fordman quietly gossiped. Oblivious to everything but the latest scandal, they never noticed the intense need on Whitney's face. Blushing despite herself, Lana looks away only to hear a giggle escape Whitney.
Letting her off the hook, Whitney garnered his Mother's attention with a question: "Do you mind if I watch some football?"
Nodding their approval, Nell and Mrs. Fordman were knee deep in gossip by the time Whitney reached the TV. Switching on the set, Whitney started to search for a game when the words "Special Report" caught his eye. Turning up the volume, he watched as Dan Rather described the devastation that once was San Diego, California.
As Whitney felt his legs give out from under him, Dan Rather reported, "I repeat, we have been attacked. San Onofre Nuclear Power Plant exploded at 6:23 a.m., Pacific Standard Time. The destruction stretches as far North as the historic Mission of San Juan Capistrano, as far South as La Jolla and as Far East as Temecula. Al Queda has already issued a statement taking credit for the blast, but a full investigation is pending."
Whitney didn't hear anything after that. His vision became obscured with an eerie white light. His mind went numb, as did his body. He felt nothing, not even Lana putting her arms around him.
As his vision returned, so did his hearing. The first thing he heard was President Bush declaring war: "The response to such a cowardly act must be quick. To hesitate is to appear weak."
Something clicked in Whitney's head. Standing up, he shrugged off Lana and declared, "I need to use the phone."
Several minutes later, Whitney reentered the living room. Looking around the room, he saw his Mother and Nell embracing as they stared in horror at the television. Looking at the TV, he saw Lana kneeling on the floor in front of it, staring in a trance at the smoldering ruins of a once powerful military installation.
"Camp Pendleton Marine Base, lying less than 5 miles to the south of San Onofre, was completely destroyed. Even more devastating than the loss of the historic landmark was the fact that troops were deployed to Camp Pendleton from stations across the United States in preparation for the President's expected assault on Iraq. More than 100,000 troops were stationed at Camp Pendleton awaiting deployment when San Onofre exploded. Foremost in the minds of military leaders at this moment is the loss of equipment, supplies and trained soldiers."
Clearing his throat, Whitney revealed, "I just got off the phone with command. They want all Marines to start making their way to the Lejuene Marine Base in North Carolina. Command has scheduled a flight for me and other local area Marines. It's American Airlines flight# 34 leaving from Metropolis International Airport at 11:45 tonight."
For a minute, no one did anything in response to Whitney's announcement. After a minute, all hell broke loose. Mrs. Fordman started screaming and yelling. "No! You're not going! I won't let you go!"
She rushed across the room and grabbed onto to Whitney. Flinging her arms around him, she cried, "They can't have you! They can't have my only son! You're all I have left!"
With tears in his eyes, Whitney struggled with his Mother. Not wanting to hurt her, he allowed her to pummel his chest as he tried to gently push her away.
In a manner most unlike her, Nell came to the rescue. Grabbing up her jacket, Nell wrapped her arms around Mrs. Fordman from behind. Slowly drawing her away from Whitney, Nell shushed and cooed as she held her. As Mrs. Fordman continued to cry loudly, Nell steered her toward the door. As she opened the door and guided Mrs. Fordman through it, she told Lana, "We'll be back in a few hours. I just need to take her somewhere and calm her down."
Lana nodded while still in a daze. She stared at the door for what felt like an eternity until Whitney announced. "I need to pack."
Jerking her head to the left, Lana looked directly at Whitney. "I'll help you."
Standing at the foot of the stairs, Whitney waited for Lana. Extending his hand as she neared, he wrapped his hand around hers an instant after her fingers tickled his palm. Looking at her, he felt tears flood his eyes again. Offering all the strength she possessed, Lana squeezed Whitney's hand as she held his gaze. Turning, they ascended the stairs together, walking side-by-side.
Once inside his bedroom, Lana sat on the bed and watched Whitney pull out his duffel bag and start packing. As he rushed back and forth, his movements became short and efficient. As he shoved the shirts in the bag, he used a little more force each time until he was punching the bag, not even bothering to pack it anymore.
"Does she think this is easy? Does she think I want to go to war?" he asked as he grabbed the duffel bag and hugged it to his chest.
Still sitting on the bed, Lana replied, "I think she wants what we all want, Whitney. For you to be safe."
Spinning around, Whitney leaned over Lana and argued, "Didn't you just see the TV, Lana? No one is safe. Not anymore."
At his words, she felt her throat constrict. Barely able to breathe, Lana struggled until she squeaked in response, "Oh God."
At the sound of Lana's strangled cry, the madness left Whitney's face. Instantly he crossed the room. Sitting on the bed beside Lana, he wrapped his arms around her trembling body. "There is only one thing that makes me willing to go - You, Lana. I want you to be safe. If something I do makes that possible, then it's all worth it."
Shaking her head, Lana could only burrow her back into his chest and cling to his arms. Between swallows, she protested, "No! No. Not for me. Don't do this for me."
Turning Lana around, Whitney whispered, "I love you," just before drawing her into a passionate kiss.
Pushing against Whitney's chest, Lana managed to free her lips enough to say, "I don't want you to die for me."
The rest of her words were lost as Whitney kissed her again. Against his lips, Lana cried again and again, "I don't want you to die for me."
Pulling away, Whitney looked her dead in the eyes as he stated sincerely, "I don't want to die."
Stunned silent by his words, Lana didn't protest as he pushed her down on the bed. As his heavy body covered her own, Lana wrapped her arms around his back and whispered into his ear, "Stay with me."
After getting his pants undone, Whitney unbuttoned her blouse and pushed up her skirt. As he lowered himself back on top of her, she spread her legs and chanted, "Don't die. Don't die."
"Please, don't die."
Chapter 14: One Closet Door Slammed Open
I don't care what they think,
I don't care what they say,
What do they know about this love anyway?
- "Come To My Window" performed by Melissa Etheridge
December 8, 2002
Metropolis, Kansas
"So, you're heading back to Smallville already," said Lionel as he stood in the doorway and watched as Lex zipped up his travel bag.
Exhaling loudly, Lex couldn't fight off the urge to slightly shake his head. Without looking back at his Father, Lex replied, "Yes, Dad. I think I've been away from my responsibilities long enough, don't you?"
Sliding his hands into his jacket pockets, Lionel casually remarked, "You mean you've been away from that young farm boy long enough."
Taking a second to close his eyes and calm his outrage, Lex pulled the strap of his bag onto his shoulder and said, "C'mon, Dad. We've managed to have an entire week pass without you mentioning Clark in some snide way. It actually hasn't been a bad week. Why don't we just keep it that way?"
Quietly, Lionel watched as Lex picked up his wallet and keys from the bedside table. As Lex turned toward him, Lionel coolly observed, "This thing you have with the Kent boy can only end badly, Lex. Mark my words."
Pausing in front of Lionel, Lex adjusted the thick strap hanging on his right shoulder as he asked, "Was that meant to be a bit of fatherly advice or a threat?"
"Take it whichever way gets you to leave him the fastest," replied Lionel.
Arching an eyebrow, Lex looked straight into Lionel's eyes before shaking his head. Brushing Lionel aside as he exited the scene, Lex managed a couple parting words.
"Goodbye, Dad."
--<{()}>--
A Couple Hours Later
Hwy 90
Once again, Lex slammed his hand against the steering wheel. Grimacing from the pain that shot through his palm, he cursed under his breath. Gripping the steering wheel tightly, he pushed the accelerator a little further down. As the speedometer gauge climbed higher, he remembered the past few weeks.
Sadly, he recalled election night. He never dreamed that Lionel still carried so much affection for his Mother. Affection? No. Love. He never realized his Father still loved his Mother so much.
With regret, he reminded himself that he failed to mention the incident to his Father the next day, the next week. He went so long without bringing it up that he just stopped trying to find a good time to do so.
With anger, he cursed himself as a coward. It seemed that he dodged Lionel more than he stood up to him. What was worse, he knew it and couldn't stand it.
Taking a moment to smack the steering wheel again, he cursed Lionel for making it so hard. He hated that it took an almost fatal combination of alcohol and prescription medication to get the man to reach out emotionally. He hated that the next morning it was back to business as usual. He hated how easily he fell back into that old routine.
Then, Lex remembered one other thing and when he did, he felt relief.
A moment afterwards, he felt joy.
With impatience, Lex pressed down even harder on the gas. As the world flew by, he could see the test results dangle in front of his face. He got the findings yesterday. Negative. Shaking his head, Lex smiled, knowing it was the last test he needed to be sure he was clean. Chewing on his bottom lip, Lex wasn't sure why he got so lucky but knew with certainty that he managed to dodge a bullet once again.
He felt more than knew Hickory Lane as he turned sharply onto the dirt road. Slowing down dramatically as he approached the yellow farmhouse, Lex barely crawled up the final 10 yards. Looking around cautiously, he exhaled as he realized the Kent family truck wasn't parked beside the barn. Eyeing the house, he noticed all the darkened windows. Turning off his engine, Lex listened closely. He heard nothing but a rhythmic tapping and scrapping from the barn. Stepping from his car, he chose to investigate. Walking up to the structure, Lex scrutinized the newly oiled hinges before slowly opening the large, wooden door.
Lex couldn't believe his eyes. A God stood before him - A bare-chested God who bore a striking resemblance to Clark Kent. Wearing nothing but jeans and steel toe work boots, he looked like an erotic version of a lumberjack. As if in a daze, all Lex could do was stare at his rippling muscles and the enticing way his apple-shaped ass rose in the air when he bent over to shovel up another load of hay with his pitchfork.
Swallowing hard, Lex didn't even try to conceal his intentions as he smiled mischievously. Quietly, carefully, he closed the door behind him. Silently, stealthily, he crossed the barn, zeroing in on his prey. As Clark bent over to collect more hay, Lex pounced, wrapping his arms around Clark's slender waist. Drawing him close, Lex pressed his groin against Clark's ass before leaning over and placing a kiss between his shoulder blades.
Taken by surprise, Clark broke away. Spinning around, he lifted his pitchfork high. Gripping the wood tightly, Clark stumbled back as his eyes focused on Lex. "Lex? What?"
Still smirking, Lex held up his hands in a mock defense. "Hey, watch where you point that thing. I just thought I'd drop by."
Lex lowered his hands as Clark lowered the pitchfork. Looking from side to side, Lex asked, "Where are your parents?"
Still shocked by Lex's appearance, Clark barely managed to answer, "They went into town to get some supplies. I heard them drive off about a half hour ago."
Intensely, Lex looked into Clark's eyes. "How long do you expect them to be gone?"
Managing to close his mouth long enough to swallow, Clark took in a deep breath before saying, "For a while."
"Good," replied Lex.
Flashing a feral grin, Lex stepped forward. Grabbing him by the hips, Lex pulled Clark forward until their chests pressed together. With his thumbs rubbing the skin just above the waistband of Clark's jeans, he dug his fingers into the firm flesh surrounding Clark's hipbones. Shifting forward, he pushed Clark backwards until his back met the wall.
Placing his palms on the rough wood, Lex leaned in. As their lips met, Lex pressed his groin against Clark, causing him to spread his legs. Sliding into place, Lex reveled in the feel of Clark's strong, young body. Cradled between Clark's firm thighs, Lex pressed harder, smiling when he felt Clark moan against his lips.
Without warning, Clark wrapped his arms around Lex's waist. As he pulled Lex close, Clark alternated between hungrily worrying and frantically kissing Lex's lips. Running his hands over Lex's back, he only paused his frenzied movements long enough to grasp at Lex's lean muscles.
Then, it happened.
As he stroked Lex's flanks, Clark felt a tremor run through Lex's body. Grinning evilly, Clark danced his fingertips over the quivering flesh. As a result, Lex pushed away, laughing softly as he did. Gently, he placed his hands on Clark's cheeks. Leaning forward, Lex tenderly pressed his forehead against Clark's. As Lex rocked his head from side to side, their noses brushed against each other.
Soon, casual laughter filled the air between them.
Genuinely smiling for the first time in weeks, Clark said, "Y'know, that was a big risk you took earlier. I could have killed you with that pitchfork."
Shaking his head, Lex pulled away. As he opened his eyes, he said, "No. You wouldn't do that. You're much too careful."
Pulling back, Clark's head hit the wall as he asked, "What do you mean?"
Lex let his hands fall down Clark's bare arms. Slowly, he rubbed the smooth skin as he whispered, "I sense so much strength in you, Clark but, you always keep it in check."
Taken by surprise for the second time that night, Clark asked, "You sense that?"
Nodding once, Lex confirmed, "Yes, I do."
In response, Clark leaned forward and kissed Lex gently. Unlike the ones they shared only moments before, these kisses played out slowly. They lingered and sought to shut out the world. In this, they succeeded.
As Lex and Clark lost themselves in each other, the barn door opened again. Thanks to newly oiled hinges, it swung silently. As a result, they never saw her coming.
In truth, Martha barely placed both feet in the barn before she shattered the romantic scene with a gasp. "Oh my God."
Breaking apart, Lex and Clark placed distance between each other quickly. In an odd triangle, the three of them stared at each other silently. Cautiously, Lex took in Martha's stricken features before saying, "Mrs. Kent..."
Quick as a flash, Martha covered her face with her hands. After a moment, her shoulders started to quiver. Soon, she began to shake her head, fanning out her hair. Finally, she announced with conviction, "This isn't happening."
With a wavering voice, Clark asked, "Mom, I thought you went to town with Dad."
Lowering her hands, Martha stared at Clark as she yelled, "No! I went to check on the herd. I guess it's a good thing I did. Or maybe it's a bad thing. I don't know anymore."
Shaking, Clark stuttered as he pleaded, "Please, let me explain."
"Clark," growled Martha as she brought her angry gaze to bear on Clark's frightened face, "Shut up and get in the house."
Glancing at Lex, Clark whispered, "Mom."
Stepping backward, Martha pushed the barn door open. Standing rigidly, she ordered, "Now!"
From the corner of his eye, Lex could see defiance fill Clark. Acting quickly, Lex added, "Clark, go. Do as your Mother said."
Mouth hanging open, Clark looked back and forth from Martha to Lex. Closing his mouth, Clark set his jaw and left. Left behind, Lex and Martha stood in silence. Lex stared straight at Martha, while she looked everywhere but at him.
Clearing his throat, Lex broke the silence. "Mrs. Kent?"
Martha's eyes grew hard. Enraged, her face flushed with color as she screamed, "Don't talk to me!"
Helplessly, Lex watched her flee from the barn. Tipping his head back, Lex shook his head from side to side in disbelief. His left hand trembling, Lex raised it and ran it across his scalp. Turning to the nearest wall, Lex kicked the wood hard before limping toward the barn door.
Distantly, Martha heard a sharp bang and knew Lex just kicked the barn. '*That*'*s great*,' thought Martha, '*a hole in the wall is just another thing to hate him for*.' Crossing over to the house, Martha could only see red. On top of that, she felt embarrassed about what she saw and the "I told you so" Jonathan would surely offer her later. As she ascended the back stairs, Martha asked herself, '*How could I have been so stupid*?'
The kitchen door slammed shut behind Martha as she stormed into the room. Instantly, she thought, '*He shouldn*'*t be here*.' He should have given her a wide berth and avoided her as best he could, but instead Clark stood bare-chested beside the kitchen table, staring back at her. In his eyes, Martha noticed a shadow of hope, but mostly she saw fear; more fear than she 'd ever seen in him before. The fear didn't lessen her disappointment or cool her anger, but it did give her pause - A pause that allowed time for her to control her raging emotions. That control permitted her to calmly say, "Clark, go to your room."
Swallowing hard, Clark watched as his Mother looked away from him, looked at anything but him. He felt tears sting his eyes as he begged, "Please Mom, let me explain."
"Explain?" whispered Martha. Facing Clark, Martha spoke quietly at first, but she got louder until she shouted the last of her words. "No. Go to your room. I am not listening to what my 16 year old son has to say about making out in my barn!"
"Then, maybe you'll listen to me."
Spinning around, Martha stared at Lex through the screen door. Pointing at Lex, Martha said, "You are the last person who has anything to say."
From behind her, Clark pled, "Mom, just listen to him."
"No." Her eyes never leaving Lex's, Martha replied, "I trusted you with my most precious thing. I entrusted my son to you and you betrayed me."
For a second, Lex's eyes closed. Slowly, they reopened as he said, "I'm sorry that you feel that way."
His calm demeanor enraged Martha even more. She wanted to scream. More than that, she wanted a good reason to hit this young man standing before her. Glancing at the kitchen counter, her fingers itched to grab one of the knives resting in their block. Bringing her eyes back to Lex, Martha threatened, "I have half a mind to call the police, right now."
"Mom, no," cried Clark.
Turning around, Martha stalked Clark. In response, Clark backed away as fast as he could. He stopped when he reached the supporting column he once broke with Phelan's back. This time, it was his back against the pillar as he watched his Mother advance, fury blazing in her eyes.
Stopping only inches from him, she reached up and grabbed his chin. Pulling it down, she stared directly into Clark's eyes as she asked, "How long has this been going on?"
When he didn't answer immediately, Martha manually shook his head until Clark replied, "Since my birthday."
Not letting go of Clark's chin, Martha glared over her shoulder and said, "You waited until he was just barely legal, didn't you?"
Without emotion, Lex slid his hands into his pant pockets. "That's correct."
The anger in her eyes burned even brighter at Lex's words. Turning back to Clark, Martha interrogated, "How far has this gone?"
Horrified, Clark could only stutter, "Mom?"
Letting go of Clark's chin, Martha reached even higher and grabbed the back of his head. Pulling his head down, she brought his face within millimeters of her own. "Tell me or so help me God, I will call the police, right now."
The tears in Clark's eyes threatened to spill as he responded to the threat, "Nothing's happened."
"Is that so?" inquired Martha.
"He's telling you the truth, Mrs. Kent. What you saw in the barn is the extent of what's happened between us," offered Lex from behind the screen door.
Martha searched Clark's glistening eyes as she asked one final question, "Is that true?"
"Yes. I swear it is, Mom, " replied Clark, his voice thick with emotion.
She continued to search his eyes until she was satisfied. Quickly, she released her hold on him. Pulling away, Martha hugged herself as she wandered slowly over to the screen door. Standing across from Lex, Martha whispered, "I hold you responsible for this."
Nodding, Lex agreed, "I know. So, do I."
Forgotten at the back of the kitchen, Clark announced, "Mom, that's not fair. Lex wasn't the only one involved in this. I had a part in it, too."
Coldly, Martha glanced at Clark and explained in an even voice, "You are a child - A 16 year old child."
Looking back at Lex, she continued, "You are not. You are an adult. It was your responsibility to make sure something like this didn't happen."
Nodding, Lex concurred, "You're right, Mrs. Kent."
Taking a few quick, short strides forward, Martha pressed her hands against the steel wire screen and cried, "Then, what happened? Why did you let this happen?"
Looking down at his hands, Lex replied, "It happened because I didn't stop it."
Letting her head fall back, Martha squeezed her eyes shut before saying, "But, why? Why my son?"
Looking back up, Lex waited until Martha returned his gaze. "How can you ask me that? You're his Mother. More than anyone, you should know how special he is."
Stunned, Martha followed Lex's eyes as they drifted past her. Looking over her right shoulder, Martha watched as Lex and Clark's eyes locked. She witnessed the connection between them. In disbelief, she recognized the peaceful expression that covered Clark's face as he held Lex's gaze. Shocked, she backed away from the truth as she backed away from the screen door.
Hugging herself, Martha cried, "I can't discuss this anymore. I need to talk this over with Jonathan."
"Mom," panicked Clark.
Shaking her head, Martha replied sternly, "No Clark, I'm not keeping this from him."
Slowly, she looked at Lex - Still standing on the other side of the screen door. Sadly, she said, "You had better leave. I expect Jonathan to be home anytime now. It..."
Finishing her sentence, Lex whispered, "...Would be better if I wasn't here when he shows up."
In response, she nodded.
With a final glance at Mrs. Kent, Lex looked at Clark and said, "Call me later, Clark."
Terrified, Clark watched Lex turned away from the door and start down the stairs. With each step, Lex disappeared a little more from view. When he finally vanished, Clark wrapped his arms around himself. Hunching his shoulders, Clark bowed his head as he leaned against the square column.
Finally, Martha said, "Clark-"
Looking up suddenly, Clark declared, "Please don't be mad, Mom. I swear I never wanted to hurt you. I swear I never wanted to lie."
With Clark's needful words, the last bit of fight fled from Martha's body. Limp and tired from battle, she forced herself to find the strength to look at Clark as she said, "Clark, can you just go to your room."
--<{()}>--
Twenty-Three Minutes Later
Clark had heard the truck pull up seven minutes ago. For the past five minutes, Clark waited. Five seconds ago, the loud voice belonging to his Father sounded just like he thought it would.
"Clark! Get down here, right now!"
With lead filled feet, Clark stomped down the stairs. At the foot of the stairs, he inhaled deeply as he walked into the living room. He saw his Mother sitting forward in her comfortable chair. He watched his Father pace from one side of the room to the other. Uncomfortably, Clark stood silently, waiting to be noticed.
Finally, his Father noted his entrance. Marching forward, Jonathan asked, "What is this your Mother told me about finding you and... and..."
"Lex," said Clark.
"Right. She told me she found you and that Luthor in the barn... in the barn..."
"Kissing. Mom caught us kissing," offered Clark.
"Yeah, doing that," said Jonathan. "That is unacceptable."
"I can't help it," replied Clark as he bowed his head, unable to look at the disgust in his Father's eyes.
"Of course, you can. Goddamn, Clark and of all people in this world to be doing it with," said Jonathan.
Defiantly, Clark looked up at his Father and asked, "What bothers you more, Dad - The fact that I'm gay or the fact that I'm with Lex?"
Returning his son's rebellious expression, Jonathan answered, "I'm not entirely sure."
Looking down, Clark took in a few short quick breaths. As his eyes darted about, Clark asked, "What is it with you and the Luthors, anyway?"
Anger punctuating his words, Jonathan replied, "Look at what the Luthors have done to this town, Clark. They're rich and mean. Their kind are vicious like sharks. They do what they want and they don't care who they hurt along the way."
Shaking his head, Clark said, "Lex didn't do anything to this town. His Father did. You are always judging him by what his Father has done."
From her perch, Martha offered her own take, "Clark, it's not that. We worry because Lex's world is so very different from our own."
Standing still, Clark pointed at his Father and said, "His kind."
Then, he pointed at his Mother and whispered, "His world."
Letting his hands fall down beside his thighs, he spoke softly. "What world am I from?" What kind am I?"
"Clark," gasped Martha as her right hand fluttered up to her neck.
Looking directly at his Mother, Clark continued, "Didn't you ever think maybe that's what we have in common - The fact we're so different from everyone else?"
Jonathan Kent's mouth fell open, but nothing came out. He stood perfectly still, caught between moments until finally he sputtered out, "You haven't told Lex about you landing with the meteors, have you?"
"No, I haven't, but I will. I know that now," replied Clark.
"Are you insane?" shouted Jonathan. "You cannot tell anyone. If you do, you could end up in a lab somewhere. Is that what you want?"
Clark couldn't hold back the tail end of a laugh as he replied, "Of course not, but what did you think that this would remain a little secret between the three of us forever?"
Tilting back his head, Jonathan jutted out his chin and answered, "I hoped."
This time, Clark let the sad laughter flow. Looking back and forth from his father to his Mother, Clark posed a question, "Did you ever think I would fall in love with someone? Did you? Did you really think I'd want to hide who I am from the person I love the most?"
Laughing, Jonathan shook his head as he said, "So, now you love him. Is that it?"
"Not yet. But I think I could," answered Clark.
In response, Jonathan walked away, turning his back on his son. Clark stared at his Father's back for a second before looking at his Mother. His eyes filled with tears at the helplessness he saw in her face. Turning toward her, Clark took a couple steps toward her while he said, "Please, tell me you understand. If you don't, then tell me you'll try to understand. Please."
Frowning deeply, Martha sighed, "Clark, I understand."
Just past Clark, Martha saw Jonathan spin around, shock filling his face. Drawing her eyes back up to her son's face, Martha continued, "I do, but Lex is so much older than you. Even if he were female, I wouldn't feel right about this."
Rolling his eyes, Clark argued, "He's just seven years older than me."
Letting out an airy laugh, Martha mimicked, "Just. You're only 16 years old. You don't have the experience to handle someone that much older than you."
Reigning in his anger, Clark disagreed, "But Mom, I'm not a child."
Jonathan chose that moment to interrupt. "Look, all this debate is pointless. You are my son and my son isn't gay. End of discussion."
"What?" Filled with indignation, Clark shot daggers at his Father as he implored to his Mother, "Mom?"
Stepping between Clark and Martha, Jonathan stood toe to toe with Clark. "Don't go crying to your Mother. You want to be treated like a man, you start acting like one."
Out of her seat in a flash, Martha pushed her way between Jonathan and Clark. Looking up at both of them, she said, "Look, let's take a break. We're starting to say things we might end up regretting."
At her words, both Jonathan and Clark took a step back. Exhaling, loudly, Martha placed a hand flat against each man's chest. Gently, she pushed them further apart. Finally, when both of them were a few feet apart, Martha looked up at Clark. Tugging on his T-shirt, Martha waited until Clark glanced down at her before she whispered, "Go to bed, Clark. Your father and I will discuss
this. We'll decide what happens from here on out. Is that understood?"
"Mom..." objected Clark. Looking across at his Father, Clark sighed, "Right."
Backing away from his parents, Clark didn't turn his back on them until he reached the stairs.
Rushing up the stairs, Clark felt his dry eyes burn again. As he slammed the door behind him, Clark felt his face grow hot. Grabbing the phone by his bed, Clark punched in Lex's number and tapped his foot impatiently as it rang.
Downstairs, Jonathan and Martha flinched as the slamming door shook the whole house. Unclenching their shoulders, they loudly sighed. Glancing at each other, they sighed again.
Sitting back down in her chair, Martha said, "Well, that was productive."
"What?" asked Jonathan as he sat down on the sofa.
"I said, 'That was productive.' Note the sarcasm," replied Martha. Crossing her arms over her chest, she continued, "By the way, thanks for making this into such a spectacle."
Falling back against the sofa cushions, Jonathon exhaled loudly. "Martha, don't be like that. Okay, I admit that I shouldn't have blown up like that, but damn it, this can't be happening."
Staring out into space, Martha said wistfully, "That's all I've been able to think since I saw them together. He asked which bothers us more. I don't know. I just know he's so young. He's so very young, Jonathon. He's supposed to be my baby. When did he stop being my baby?"
Jonathon's heart broke as he watched a tear spill down Martha's cheek. Sitting up, he reached out and took her hand. Gently, he smiled at her as he answered, "Oh Martha, he just grew up, is all."
Tugging on her callused fingertips, Jonathan urged Martha to join him on the sofa. With half-hearted protest, she crossed the space between them. Sitting beside her husband, she rested her cheek on Jonathan's right shoulder and sighed, "I never thought he'd grow up so fast."
Placing his right hand on Martha head, Jonathan absently stroked her hair. He sat calmly until a thought crept into his mind. Shrugging Martha away, Jonathan stood up and crossed over to the phone. Along the way, he gave the thought a voice. "He wouldn't be this way if it hadn't been for Luthor. Damn that man!"
Picking up the phone, Jonathan went to push buttons when he heard voices. Shock filled his face as he recognized Lex and Clark's voices. He looked over at Martha, but otherwise stood perfectly still. When Martha mouthed, "What is it?"
Jonathan mouthed back, "Lex."
Jumping up, Martha grabbed at the phone. A slight wrestling match ensued as they battled over the phone. Finally, they compromised. With the phone held between them, they pressed their heads against each other and listened.
"Lex, they can't make this decision for me. If I have to, I'll just run away."
Chapter 15: When Hiding Is No Longer An Option
There's a moment we all come to,
In our own time, in our own space,
When all that we've done,
We can undo,
If our heart's in the right place.
- "When You Come Back To Me" performed by Garth Brooks
"Lex, they can't make this decision for me. If I have to, I'll just run away," cried Clark. Short of breath, he took a moment to compose himself before continuing, "Yeah, that's just what I'll do - I'll run away. I'll go to the castle and we can get in your car and go somewhere where my parents will never find us."
On the other end, Lex waited. After Clark stopped talking, he cleared his throat and shifted in his office chair. Desperately, he wanted to tell Clark he didn't need to come over, yearned to say he'd be over in a few minutes, but he didn't. He couldn't. He cared too much. Instead, he took a deep breath and said, "You won't do any such thing, because if you come out here, I'll be forced to march your ass right back home."
"What?" exclaimed Clark. "Why?"
Swallowing hard, Lex struggled with his decision as he explained, "Because Clark, in the end, they're your parents and they're only doing this because they love you."
Laughing sarcastically, Clark remarked, "Well, they have a funny way of showing it."
'Couldn't make this easy for me, could you, Kent?' thought Lex as he sighed loudly into the phone. Licking his lips, Lex reclined in his chair and said, "Maybe so, Clark, but that doesn't stop the fact that they're your parents and they'll always be your parents. Trust me, Clark. You could do a lot worse than Jonathan and Martha Kent."
"Lex-," said Clark as he readied a rebuttal.
Quick to drive his point home, Lex sat forward again and rested his elbows on his desk as he stated, "No Clark, listen. I'm going to impart a bit of my Mother's wisdom on you. You see, my Father's family hated my Mother. They treated her terribly because they never believed she belonged. At every family function, all they did was look down their noses at her. I used to get so mad. I'd ask my Mom why she put up with it year after year. She always answered me the same way. She'd say, 'Alex-'"
"Alex? She didn't call you Lex?" asked Clark.
Rolling his eyes, Lex replied, "Yes - Alex. No, she didn't call me Lex. I didn't start using Lex until years after she died. Anyway, as I was saying, she'd say, 'Alex-'"
"Can I call you Alex?" inquired Clark.
"No," answered Lex quickly as he propped his head in his hand. Shaking his head, he asked, "Can I finish my story now or am I going to be interrupted again?"
Biting back a small fit of laughter, Clark assured, "Sorry. Won't happen again. Please go on."
Sitting up a little straighter, Lex continued, "Alright then. My Mother would say, 'Alex, you can't choose family. You simply have to survive the one you get.'"
Silence floated across the line until Clark coughed lightly and said, "So, what you're saying is I should just do whatever my family tells me to."
"No, not at all, Clark. What I'm saying is that you have a real family and you aught to fight a little more for it before you decide to throw it away," answered Lex in a low voice.
"What if the only way to save my family is to give you up? What would you have me do then?" asked Clark, honestly curious as to Lex's response.
Lex thought long and hard on that question. Unafraid of silence, Lex said nothing until he fought back the voice crying Clark's name. Exhaling loudly as he cleared his mind, Lex whispered, "I would say that some things deserve the greatest sacrifice you can make. I would have to say that you should walk away from me and if you can't, then I'll make it easy and I'll walk away from you."
"But why?" exclaimed Clark.
"Clark," said Lex, savoring the taste of the word on his tongue as he continued, "Jonathan Kent is a good Father who loves his son. As hard as it might be after I leave, deep down, you will still love your Father. Sure, you'll be resentful for a while and I'm sure quite a few quiet dinners will be eaten around the Kent family kitchen table, but someday you'll be doing your chores or chopping wood or whatever it is you people do on a farm and you'll look over at your Father and smile. Just like that, Clark, what you and I have will become something the two of you put behind you. Nothing more."
Shaking his head violently, Clark practically shouted into in the phone, "No! No, that isn't true."
Biting his lip at the pain in Clark's voice, Lex closed his eyes as he contended, "Yes, it is, Clark. You just don't realize it yet. You don't realize what a good family you have. I'd give anything to have a family like yours. Believe me, it's special. It's worth holding on to. If you let go if it, you'll regret it the rest of your life. If you hold on, someday everything will be okay. I promise you that."
Numb, Clark licked his dry lips before asking, "So, what do you want me to do?"
'What do I want? I want to go back in time and keep your Mother from ever finding out - that's what I want.' Taking a deep breath, Lex exhaled loudly then said, "I want you to get off the phone and go to sleep. I want you to wake up in the morning and do whatever you have to do to survive your family."
His throat thick with emotion, Clark croaked out, "'Kay."
After a brief pause, Lex spoke again, "Clark? Do one other thing for me, will you?"
"What is it?" asked Clark eagerly.
"Call me in the morning. Let me know what's going on. Tell me if I need to start packing," requested Lex.
"Okay," promised Clark. Swallowing hard, he offered optimistically, "Au revoir, Lex."
In response, Lex bit his lower lip. Just before pushing the end call button, he whispered a rushed, "Goodbye, Clark."
--<{()}>--
Downstairs
The Kents listened with baited breath to every last word of Lex and Clark's conversation. After they heard Clark's phone click down, they let some of the tension out of their bodies and stepped away from each other.
Walking the receiver back to the phone rest, Jonathan smiled as he announced cheerily, "Well, that makes this easier."
Across the room, Martha managed to take a couple steps to the side before collapsing onto her comfortable chair. In her mind, a collage of moments swirled in circles. She could see the first time Clark ever rushed into her arms. She could feel the joy, the desperation of that day again. She heard the first lies she told to questions concerning Clark's origins. She remembered how easily those lies left her mouth. She recalled how years later Clark looked happy every time he went to see Lex. Further still, she could no longer ignore the affection she saw between them earlier, in the kitchen.
Wrapping her arms around herself, Martha saw herself sitting beside Lex at Clark's birthday, comforting and reassuring him. She suddenly realized that earlier that afternoon Lex never once denied responsibility for anything. She heard again the words he just spoke, words she knew would keep her son with her. Uncomfortably, Martha realized that Lex did that. He convinced Clark to stay. Not herself. Not Jonathan.
As she heard Jonathan say, "Well, that makes this easier," Martha remembered the day after Clark's suspension from school. She recalled how Lex appeared the day after Clark was suspended, prepared to help her understand what was happening to Clark. She quickly realized this wasn't the first time Jonathan's bad temper and hatred of the Luthors had almost cost her her son. In the aftermath of this epiphany, Martha managed to ask, "Did we just listen to the same conversation?"
Sitting down on the sofa, Jonathan answered, "Yeah. Lex calmed Clark down and I'm pretty sure that Clark will stay put when we tell him that this thing with Lex has got to stop."
Still staring out into the swirling cloud of memory, Martha stated, "I'm not so sure we should do that now."
Sitting forward, Jonathan extended his open hands toward Martha and asked, "What? What was all that talk before about Clark being too young and inexperienced?"
Nodding, Martha replied, "I know, but I keep wondering if we, if I overreacted. Clark was right. He was going to fall in love eventually. I just didn't think it would be so soon or like this."
Cradling his head in both hands, Jonathan rocked his head back and forth. "No. Not Lex Luthor. He's dangerous."
Clasping her hands together, Martha stared at her fingers and mumbled, "I'm not so sure about that either. Not anymore. Not after that phone call."
Jumping to his feet, Jonathan exclaimed, "Great! One phone call and Luthor's a saint."
Jutting out her chin, Martha narrowed her eyes as she argued, "I'm not saying that, Jonathan. I'm just not convinced he's harmful. I think maybe, just maybe, Lex is good for Clark."
Throwing his hand into the air, Jonathan turned and walked away from his wife as he shouted, "Now, I've heard everything."
Staring pointedly at her husband, Martha ordered, "Jonathan, sit down."
When he didn't immediately comply, she repeated, "Sit down."
Looking into Martha's eyes, Jonathan saw no room for discussion. With a loud sigh, he walked over to the sofa and sat down heavily upon it.
Once Jonathan was seated, Martha looked directly at her husband's frowning face and continued, "Now Jonathan, be reasonable. You said it yourself - Lex calmed Clark down. He didn't have to do that. He could have taken my baby from me just then. He could have, but he didn't and I can't forget that."
At Martha's words, Jonathan's glaring eyes softened. Reaching across the distance between them, he took her hand in his. Gently massaging her fingers, Jonathan assured, "Martha, everything's going to be okay. I promise."
Nodding, Martha's demeanor grew certain and strong. Sitting up straighter, she held Jonathan's hand tightly and said, "Everything is going to be okay because we're going to allow this."
Martha quickly noted the disapproval in Jonathan's eyes and countered it just as fast. "Don't fool yourself, Jonathan. This may be a small town, but Clark still managed to hide this from us for six months. We're only deluding ourselves if we think this can't happen again. If we act unreasonably now, there will be a next time, but Clark will only be more careful. Next time, Clark won't get caught. Worse, he won't trust us enough to come to us if he needs help."
Jonathan didn't take his eyes off Martha for a second as she spoke. Once she finished, he let his head fall down. Slowly, he started shaking his head as he lifted it up. Looking in Martha's eyes, he stated, "I can't believe I'm actually considering agreeing to this."
Smiling widely, Martha leaned over and kissed Jonathan lightly on the cheek. Pulling away, she stopped a couple of inches from his face. "Well, like Lex said, you're a good Father who loves his son."
Grimacing, Jonathan shut his eyes and groaned, "That was a hit below the belt."
Smiling impishly, Martha agreed, "I know."
Opening his right eyes first, Jonathan looked Martha up and down. Pointing his right index finger at her, he gave in, "Okay. Okay, but I want restrictions. I'm going to need to see Lex play by our rules before I trust him."
Nodding, Martha said, "I agree. After all, Clark is only sixteen years old. He needs limits."
In haling deeply, Jonathan blew the air up at the ceiling quickly before he pointed out, "Limits, my ass. What he needs is a brick wall and a moat."
Tilting her head to the side and crossing her arms, Martha warned, "Jonathan."
Putting his hands up, Jonathan surrendered. "Yeah, yeah. I know. Look, I'll be okay."
Smiling again, Martha graced Jonathan's lips with a kiss this time. Standing up, she extended her hand to him and whispered, "Come to bed. We can decide on the rules in the morning."
--<{()}>--
December 9, 2003
6:13 a.m.
Like a man prepared to meet the firing squad, Clark descended the stairs. Entering the kitchen, he found his parents, still dressed in their pajamas, huddled at the kitchen table - an empty pot of coffee abandoned inches away from them. It took a second, but they finally noticed his entrance and waved him over. Silently, Clark crossed the room and sat down ready to face his doom.
Before saying anything, Jonathan gave one last pleading look at Martha. All he got in return was a stern expression and a tap on the arm, directing him to get on with it. Sighing loudly, Jonathan glanced one last time at his wife before saying, "Okay. Here's how it's gonna be - You can see him. There will be rules and curfews, but we won't try to stop you from seeing him."
In response, Clark's chin almost hit the floor, but he managed to close his mouth enough to ask, "Seriously?"
Smiling kindly, Martha reached across the table and grabbed his hand. "Yes. Seriously."
Jumping up, Clark quickly crossed over to his Mom and gave her a big hug. Letting go of his Mom, he headed for his Dad, but Jonathan stopped him with a hand on his chest and a stern warning, "Now, don't be so grateful. You haven't heard the restrictions yet."
Swallowing hard, Clark sobered immediately. Returning to his seat, he steeled himself and asked, "Okay. What are they?"
Glancing over at Jonathan, Martha said, "Well, that can wait. First, I want you to call Lex and tell him to come over."
"Come over?" inquired Clark.
Leaning back in his chair, Jonathan explained, "Yeah, come over. As in I don't want to be repeating myself. As in, I don't want anything lost in translation. Lex Luthor is never going to able to say he didn't know what our rules are."
Instantly, Clark gulped. As he tried to respond, his voice squeaked. Clearing his throat, Clark tried again, "Okay. Um. This isn't just so you can get him over here and give him the third degree, is it?"
Shrugging, Martha replied, "It is, but that's to be expected. So, go tell Lex and then come back because seeing how I'm going to have one more mouth to feed, I'm going to need help fixing breakfast."
Slightly dazed, Clark stood up slowly and said, "Sure. I'll be right back."
Barely managing to maintain his balance, Clark walked over to the counter and picked up the phone. He paused for a second while still holding the phone in his hand. Shrugging his shoulders, Clark glanced back at his parents. Looking straight ahead again, Clark waited a moment before glancing over his shoulder again. When the phone started to beep impatiently, he shook his head. Reminded of where he was, Clark pushed down the disconnect button quickly and proceeded to call Lex.
"LexCorp. How may I direct your call?"
"Hi, Sheila," said Clark.
Tersely, Sheila replied, "Mr. Kent. I'll patch you through right away."
Tilting his head to the right, Clark thought, 'What? No backhanded commentary or snide observations. She must be sick or something.'
A moment later, Lex spoke, "Luthor here."
Smiling at the sound of his voice, Clark whispered, "Hey Lex."
"Clark. Have you talked to your parents?" asked Lex.
His smile spread even wider as he replied, "Yes."
Hanging his head, Lex inhaled through his nose before he said, "Tell me the verdict."
"They want you to come over and have breakfast. At some point, they're going to tell us the rules we'll go by," replied Clark.
Rules?" asked Lex.
"Wait."
Stunned, Lex stumbled through a few words as Clark's words began to sink into his brain. "Wait a second. Breakfast?"
Laughing quietly, Clark explained, "Yeah. They said we can keep seeing each other, but they want us both here when they tell us the rules. My Dad said something about not wanting to repeat himself."
Blinking erratically, Lex spread out his right arm while still holding the phone against his ear with his left hand. Falling backwards, he collapsed onto his office chair. Finally, after several seconds, Lex smiled and said, "Well, I'm not surprised. Your parents are reasonable people."
Shaking his head, Clark contended, "Stop trying to sound so smug. I know you expected them to say no and don't even try to deny it."
Placing his hand over his heart, Lex looked up at the ceiling as he replied, "I deny nothing. I don't admit anything either, but that's beside the point."
"Of course," said Clark and he played with the phone cord. "So when can I expect you to come over here."
In one sweeping motion, Lex sat up. Inspecting his clothes for stains or imperfections, Lex ordered, "Give it to me straight, Kent. What am I looking at here? Mild Torture? Loaded shotguns?"
Quick to allay any concerns, Clark replied, "Nothing like that. Though my Mother did say something about the third degree."
"Third degree, huh?" Standing up, Lex leaned over his desk and pressed a bright white button. As Sheila entered the office toting her legal pad and calendar, Lex asked, "Quick - What's your Mother's favorite flower?"
"Uhh red tulips," replied Clark, curiously.
"Red tulips. Good, I can do red tulips on short notice." Lex watched as Sheila scribbled the info down and nodded as to the short notice comment.
Looking up, Sheila flashing first her left index finger, then her left index finger and middle finger.
In response, Lex announced, "Two dozen red tulips it is, then."
"Two dozen?" replied Clark. "I think that might be overkill."
"Okay, scratch that," said Lex as he watched Sheila look up expectantly. "How about one dozen?"
"Umm.Okay," mumbled Clark.
Flashing a "thumbs up" sign at Sheila, Lex waved his secretary off and returned to the conversation. "Clark? Be honest with me. How's your Dad looking?"
Glancing over his shoulder at his Dad, Clark noted the gloom filling every line on the man's face. "Uhh. It's kinda hard to tell. He's not happy, but he and Mom are agreed on us still seeing each other."
"United front - no matter what, huh?" Lex observed. "Well, can't say I'm really surprised."
Glancing down at his watch, Lex said, "Tell them 30 minutes, but I might be able to get there earlier."
"That's great," replied Clark. Just before saying au revoir, a question suddenly popped in his head. "Lex? Did you tell Sheila something about me calling this morning?"
Shifting about uncomfortably, Lex confirmed, "Yes, I told her I was expecting a very important phone call from you and she was to patch the call to my office the moment you called. Oh, I also remember saying something along the lines of she was to forward the call immediately. Even if the Lord Almighty was in my office, she was not to let you wait."
"You said all that?" inquired Clark.
"Would you like for me to transfer you back to Sheila to confirm the story?" countered Lex.
Shaking his head, Clark laughed, "No. It's okay. I believe you."
At that moment, Martha's voice rang out form the kitchen. "Clark, I could use some help in here."
Wrapping his hand around the mouthpiece, Clark whispered, "I gotta go."
"I heard," said Lex - A chuckle lining his speech. "Au revoir."
Standing perfectly still, Clark shut his eyes before whispering, "Au revoir."
--<{()}>--
Twenty-Two Minutes Later
Expectedly, The front door bell rang out. As a result, everyone in the house jumped up. Even with super speed on his side, Martha still managed to beat her son to the door. Taking a moment to pat down her hair and smooth out her blouse, she opened the door, smiling widely at the sight of Lex Luthor holding a pot of red tulips.
"How lovely!" she exclaimed as Lex offered the pot to her.
Once assured that Martha had a good hold of the pot, Lex pulled away and said, "I thought these would make a wonderful addition to your garden, Mrs. Kent."
Looking at the tall flowers, Martha replied, "They're just beautiful, Lex. It was very considerate of you to bring them over but it wasn't necessary."
"Well, my Mother taught me that a woman should always get flowers, especially when it's not necessary," said Lex as he graced Martha with a simple smile.
Blushing, Martha remembered the phone call from last night as she clutched the flower pot to her chest and said, "Smart woman - your Mother. Please come in."
Behind Martha, Jonathon couldn't resist rolling his eyes just once. 'God, it's getting shoveled pretty deep in here.' Staring straight at Lex, Jonathan neither nodded nor said a word, but he did step to the side just enough for Lex to pass the foyer and enter the living room.
In the middle of the living room, stood Clark. Upon seeing Lex, he smiled widely. Barely able to contain himself, he shoved his hands into his pockets and nodded at Lex before saying, "You want something to eat? Breakfast is ready."
Returning Clark's nod, Lex managed through sheer force of will to keep all but the slightest hint of a smile from his face. In his mind, he thought, 'Have you any idea how long I've wanted to hear you say something like that? God, why couldn't it have been under better circumstances?' Looking around, he realized everyone was waiting for an answer. Quickly, he offered one, "Yeah, starving. What have you got for me?"
Instantly, Lex heard a dull thud behind him. Glancing over his shoulder, he saw the potted plant he just gave Martha being shoved, rather forcefully, into Jonathan's midsection. Looking at Martha's face, 'determination' was the one word that came to his mind. Eyeing Jonathan's posture, Lex smiled as he recognized the defeat filling every movement as Jonathon took a hold of the planter.
The next thing Lex knew, Martha wound her arm around his arm and led him to the kitchen. Pointing at a chair, she let go of Lex and grabbed her apron. Pulling the apron strings around her waist, she started to dish out plates of steaming hot food with all the expertise of a short order cook.
Seconds later, both of the Kent males were seated quietly at the table. It unnerved Lex at how quickly they moved for food. Pulling out his own chair, Lex sank slowly down into his seat as he eyed the Kent men.
Much to Jonathan's chagrin, Martha served Lex first. She even paused for a moment until he took a bite of her famous home fries before bringing Jonathon and Clark their plates. Finally, placing her own plate on the table, Martha sat down between Lex and Clark and started to eat.
The next few minutes passed casually. It was quiet, but not uncomfortable. The room filled with the sound of metal forks clanking and scrapping against ceramic dishes and the occasional cough caused by Clark trying to swallow more than he should at any given time.
After the fifth cough, Martha admonished, "Clark, try to breathe, dear."
Just before shoveling more food in his mouth, Clark replied, "I'm hungry."
Not even looking up from his plate, Jonathon stated, "Let the boy eat, Martha."
As Martha sighed, Clark said, "Yeah, Ma. It's like you're always saying - I'm a growing-"
Glancing around the table, Clark soon realized all eyes were on him. Swallowing down a lump in his throat, he dropped his eyes down and scrutinized the tablecloth as he whispered, "Well, I'm growing anyway."
After that, silence filled the room. It lingered for several minutes until Martha ventured a question, "So Lex, how are you liking your breakfast?"
Before Lex could answer, Jonathan chimed in, "It's probably not what you're used to."
Looking across the table, Martha gave Jonathan a chilling look. In response, Jonathan shrugged before ducking his head and eating some more. Turning to Lex, Martha maintained her stricken expression until she was looking directly at Lex. Then, she smiled brightly.
Looking back and forth from Martha to Jonathan, Lex cleared his throat. Glancing at Jonathan, he said, "You're correct, Mr. Kent. It's not what I'm used to."
Looking directly at Martha's wilting smile, Lex assured, "It's much better. Thank you for inviting me, Mrs. Kent."
Blushing, Martha replied, "Martha. Call me, Martha."
"Martha, it is then," said Lex as he smiled at Martha. Turning toward Jonathan, Lex opened his mouth to speak, but was interrupted.
Looking Lex dead in the eye, Jonathan stated, "You can keep calling me Mr. Kent."
"Of course," replied Lex.
Glaring at Jonathan, Martha started in on the questioning. "So Lex, tell us something about yourself."
'And, so it begins.' Putting his fork down, Lex swallowed a couple times before answering, "There isn't much to tell that hasn't already ended up in a newspaper, magazine or tabloid." Her plastic smile melting a bit, Martha offered, "That must be very unnerving."
"I suppose," replied Lex. "It's something you just have to get used to. It's not like the paparazzi are going to go away anytime soon."
In response, Martha and Jonathan looked across the table at each other. Quietly, Lex watched their silent communication before looking across the table at Clark. That was when he saw the unease in Clark's eyes. Tilting his head to the side, Lex narrowed his eyes slowly.
Noticing the way Lex observed Clark, Martha asked another question, "Lex! Why don't you tell us about your childhood? I don't remember seeing much of you in the media when you were a child."
Looking down at his plate of half-eaten food, Lex said, "Yes well, my Mother worked very hard at keeping me out of the limelight. That all changed after she died."
Eyeing Lex curiously, Martha investigated further, "Tell me some more about her."
Glancing around the table, Lex straightened his back as he answered, "Her name was Lillian, but the people who knew her well called her Lily."
Resting her chin on her right hand, Martha watched Lex closely as she said, "Lily? That's very pretty. I remember reading articles about her when your parents married. She was a Scottish noble or something like that."
Letting out a little chuckle, Lex offered a small smile in lieu of a response.
"Was that not true?" inquired Martha.
Turning his head to the right, Lex stared intensely at Martha for a few seconds. Glancing around the table, he caught Clark's anxious expression. Realizing for who he was in this predicament, Lex decided to come clean, at least, just a little. Crossing his arms, Lex leaned back in his chair as he began, "That was the authorized version."
Looking up at the ceiling, he recounted, "Let me see - She was the daughter of Scottish nobility - Counts, to be exact. Her family's main financial holdings consisted of a few pharmaceutical companies and a couple international biomedical firms. She was orphaned at the age of eight by a tragic boating accident which left her the sole heir of her family fortune and estate."
Looking at Martha, he asked, "Does that sound like what you heard?"
Nodding, Martha whispered, "Yes."
"It was all lies," said Lex, as he looked her straight in the eye. "It was a cover story set up by my Father. He placed large sums of cash and a few businesses in my mother's name before they married."
Awestruck, Martha sighed, "Why did he do that?"
Offering a small smile, Lex replied, "Because he didn't want the world to know that he'd married his secretary."
Suddenly joining the conversation, Jonathan asked, "What?"
Hesitating, Lex looked at Clark. Finding the strength he needed, he explained, "My Mother wasn't an heiress. She wasn't a Countess. She wasn't even rich."
Pausing, Lex saw Clark's expression change. In the concern etching his face, Lex read, 'You don't have to do this.' Of course, that cinched things completely. Turning to Jonathon, Lex continued, "My Mother was Scottish. She spoke with the loveliest Edinburgh brogue. She was an orphan by the time my Father met her. Her Father died when she was 13. Her Mother died when she was 19. She had no siblings or close relation, so she had to rely on herself. She went to school. She came to the United States and quickly became employed at LuthorCorp."
"She worked at LuthorCorp for a few years before being assigned to my Father."
Pausing again, Lex looked about the room. Caught up in a memory, he laughed. Sighing loudly, he continued, "I remember my Mother told me once that if she had gone out with him when he first asked, my Father would have just gotten tired of her like he did all the others. Instead, she refused. She was probably the first person to ever tell my Father no. For two years, she told him no. He tried every trick and she didn't respond to a single one."
"He gave jewelry. She just handed it right back. He'd leave silk scarves draped over her chair only to find them neatly folded on the top of his desk by the end of the day. He bought her tickets to the symphony. When she tried to return them, he refused to take them back so she just didn't use them."
"Finally, he stopped giving her gifts altogether. For months, he didn't give her anything, not even a hello in the morning. My Mother thought he was over her and onto the next, but she was wrong."
"One day, my Father walked into the office after lunch carrying a single red rose. He stopped at her desk and, without saying a word, picked an old Coke bottle out of my Mother's trashcan. He slid the rose into the bottle and placed it on her desk. Then, he went into his office and shut the door."
"Well, my Mother was shocked, but she kept the flower. After that, my Father brought a different flower everyday. One day, he brought a violet and noticed how her eyes lit up. From then on, he only brought violets. This went on for months."
"In the end, she took pity on him and asked him if he wanted to go out to lunch with her sometime. He accepted. That was that. They dated for a couple of years while my Father created an adequate cover story and placed assets in her name, then they got married."
"That doesn't sound very much like the Lionel Luthor I know," sneered Jonathan.
Staring at Mr. Kent, Lex replied, "Mr. Kent, I'm usually the last person to defend my Father, but he wasn't always the bastard he is now."
"When did this great change take place?" asked Jonathan.
"Jonathan," said Martha, embarrassed for her husband.
Placing a hand on Martha's arm, Lex quieted her as he replied to Mr. Kent. "Quite frankly, you don't know it's like to be raised to trust no one. Then one day, you're handed one person you can trust, only to have that person ripped away from you. When that happens, all the goodness in you leaves with them. You see Mr. Kent, the humanity that once existed in my Father died with my Mother."
"Oh really? I remember him being one hell of a bastard when he came to Smallville and if memory serves me correctly, your Mother was still alive when that happened," retorted Jonathan.
Nodding, Lex replied, "I said he wasn't as much of a bastard. I never said he was a saint. He's always been a shrewd businessman and what happened in this town was the result of some rather educated people signing contracts they never bothered to read."
"How dare you? Those are some of the finest people in this community," growled Jonathan.
Letting out a smug little laugh, Lex said, "Please. One of them was a lawyer. She, at least, should have known better. But you don't see it that way, do you? No, you would rather vilify LuthorCorp than place a little responsibility where it belongs."
Standing up, Jonathan exclaimed, "You little son of a-"
"Dad! That's enough," shouted Clark as he stood up, a moment before a firm feminine hand grabbed his arm.
Looking to the left, he met his Mother's angry expression as she ordered, "Clark. Joseph. Kent. Sit down. Don't you ever talk to your Father that way."
Still angry, Clark bowed to his Mother's quiet strength and sat down. Next, Martha turned her fiery glare on Jonathan. With a roll of her eyes, she issued a silent order and Jonathan slowly complied by sitting back down on his chair. Turning to Lex, Martha quietly said, "There are things we may never agree on, but if you're going to. see Clark, then there are certain subjects that should simply be left alone."
Looking down, Lex replied, "I agree."
"Good," sighed Martha. "Now, let's get to those rules."
Interlacing her fingers, Martha nodded at Jonathan and waited. After taking a moment to clear his throat, Jonathan announced, "First, Clark's curfew is 7:00pm Sunday through Thursday. Friday and Saturday, he can stay out until 10:00pm."
"What?" cried Clark.
Across the table, Lex got Clark's attention by calling out his name. When Clark looked at him, he pressed his open hand against the table. After Clark quieted down, Lex turned to Mr. Kent and looked him directly into his eyes as he said, "Please, go on."
Staring back at Lex, Jonathan continued, "Second, nothing happens in this house or anywhere else on this farm. I can barely stand to think about what you two are doing and I sure as hell don't want to walk in on it like his Mother did."
Nodding, Lex agreed, "Understood. Is there anything else?"
"Yes, there is," said Jonathan. "There is a general bad influence rule. If his grades slip, if he ditches school, if he gets suspended again, I'll hold you personally responsible and this little experiment we're trying will end. Understand?"
"Perfectly. Is that all?" answered Lex in a steady voice.
Leaning back in his chair, Jonathan replied, "Yes. That's all."
Nodding, Lex drummed his fingers on the table a few times before standing up. Looking down at Martha, Lex paused before he slowly said, "Martha, would you mind if I took Clark to school, this morning?"
Swallowing hard, Martha sat speechless for a moment before finding her voice. "No. I don't mind. Just be sure he isn't late for school."
"Of course," replied Lex before looking at Clark and saying, "Let's go."
Standing up, Clark carefully walked around his Father. Stopping in the living room long enough to grab his backpack, Clark quickly followed Lex out the door. Together, they hopped down the stairs and crossed over to Lex's red Ferrari. Climbing into the car, Lex glanced at the kitchen door once, finding Jonathan Kent staring back at him. Quietly, they exchanged glares as Clark snapped his seatbelt in place. Once Clark finished, Lex nodded at Jonathan once before turning on the car and driving away.
Finally clear of Hickory Lane, Clark exhaled. Looking out the passenger side window, Clark complained, "Can you believe those rules? A curfew? I've never had a curfew before and I can't believe they're blaming that whole scarecrow thing on you. I mean-"
The speed with which the car pulled over to the side of the road caused Clark to jerk to the side, slamming against the passenger side door. Confused, he pushed away from the door and watched Lex reach for the key in the ignition.
Quickly, as he turned the engine off, Lex commanded, "Clark, shut up."
Shocked, Clark never got to ask why. Grabbing him by his hair, Lex dragged Clark over and kissed him soundly. At first, Clark was tense with confusion, but soon he relaxed and melted easily into Lex's waiting arms. After several moments, Lex loosened his grip and slowly pulled away from Clark. Looking into Clark's eyes, he managed to last a second before swiftly drawing Clark into a tight embrace.
By now, Clark caught on. He responded by wrapping his strong arms around Lex and drawing him as close as safety allowed. Tucking his face into the nape of Lex's neck, he smiled as Lex did the same. Together, they sat there until Lex got sore and reluctantly pulled away.
Turning in his seat, Lex placed his hand on the key in the ignition and started the car. Sitting there limply, he bit his lower lip before reaching across the center console and presenting his hand palm up. Immediately, Clark grasped his hand tightly. In response, Lex clutched Clark's hand with all his strength for a few seconds before letting go.
Without a word, Lex put the car in drive and headed for the high school.
--<{()}>--
After The Last Bell Of The School Day
"So she was just standing there, looking at you?" asked Lana.
"Yeah," replied Clark with half a groan as he walked down Main Street with Lana by his side.
Her eyes wide open, Lana crashed into a parking meter. Crying out in pain, she pushed away from the unyielding metal while she rubbed her bruised chest. After a couple sorrowful moans, she peeked up at Clark and noticed how he laughed at her pain. Her left hand rubbed a couple more comforting circles into her sore chest before snaking out and smacking Clark hard in the stomach.
At his look of shock, she hissed, "Jerk," then, calmly walked away.
Quickly, Clark caught up with Lana. Matching her stride, he apologized, "I'm sorry, but if you could have only seen it from my perspective."
Glaring up at Clark, Lana replied, "Yeah, yeah. Whatever."
Flipping her hair over her shoulder, Lana grimaced from the pain that shot across her chest as she asked, "So, after a bumpy beginning, your Mother came through, huh?"
Nodding, Clark answered, "Well, she's trying. That's all I can ask for, right? Now, my Dad - That's a whole 'nother story."
Biting on her lip, Lana tucked a few wind-strewn locks behind her ear. "He was that bad, huh?"
Looking at the sidewalk, the buildings, the parking meters, Clark whispered, "Yeah."
Rubbing Clark's left arm, Lana offered, "It'll get better, Clark. You'll see."
Looking down at Lana, Clark smiled weakly as he replied, "I guess."
She continued to rub his arm until they reached the Talon. Then, she stepped away long enough to open the front door and usher him inside. With Clark in tow, Lana waved off her staff as she left orders to not be disturbed as they entered her office.
Sitting across from each other, Lana absently rubbed her aching chest muscles. Quietly, she watched Clark. Sadly, she noticed the way he mindlessly worked his thumbnail into the grooves of his chair's armrest. Finally, she asked, "So, what now?"
Looking up, Clark was at a loss for words. Staring directly into Lana's eyes, he said, "I don't know. All day, this morning has replayed over and over again in my mind. I couldn't think about anything else. Four teachers called on me and I didn't even know it. Twice, Chloe asked me what was up. Even Pete got a clue that everything wasn't exactly right."
Leaning forward, he rested his forehead against his palms. Shaking his head, he murmured, "I just don't know."
"Sounds to me like you're tired of hiding," said Lana.
Slowly, Clark combed his fingers back, through his hair. As he laced his fingers together at the base of his skull, he looked up at her. "It sounds like that to me, too."
"You have a lot to hide, Clark. Some of it, you can never tell. Some of it, you can," Lana offered in a low voice.
"Hiding is like second nature to me, now," replied Clark.
Shaking her head, Lana argued, "No, it isn't. It's something you've had to do, for some very good reasons, but it's not natural. Not for you. Not for anybody. It seems to me, Clark, this may be the one secret you can tell the world."
"It's not that simple, Lana," he answered, weakly.
Shaking her head again, Lana asked, "Clark, aren't you tired of having to keep your lies straight?"
Silent, he stared back at her. Swallowing hard, all he could do was nod his head once. Letting his hands fall into his lap, Clark leaned back until his back met the chair back. With a heavy sigh, he asked, "What do I do now?"
Tilting her head to the right, Lana offered a sad smile as she sighed, "I'll always be here for you, Clark, but some questions only you can answer."
In response, Clark started a series of slow, bobbing nods of his head. Clutching onto the armrests, he pushed off the chair. Standing up, he grabbed his backpack off the chair beside him. Swinging the sack onto his shoulders, he said, "It's not just my secret."
A second later, he was gone.
--<{()}>--
A Few Seconds Later
Luthor Castle
"Hey Sheila, is Lex in," said Clark as he walked casually up to her desk.
Arching an eyebrow as she twisted her mouth away from a grimace, Sheila answered, "Of course. Wait here. I'll announce you."
Tapping his fingers on the top of her desk, Clark replied as he walked by her, "Don't bother. I know my way in."
Smiling widely, he opened the double doors. Entering Lex's office, he shut the doors behind his back. Then, he just stood there. Staring at Lex's startled face, Clark felt the steel in his spine melt away. The cocky smile he sported just a moment ago evaporated. Suddenly, he wasn't so sure he should be here.
At his desk, Lex wondered, 'Okay. What is this?'
He continued to stare at Clark for another second until the silence became unbearable. "Clark."
"Lex," stuttered Clark.
"Good. We know each other's names," observed Lex.
"Excuse me?" inquired Clark.
Waving a hand at Clark, Lex said, "What's going on?"
"I have something to ask you," replied Clark.
Shutting down his laptop, Lex lowered the screen as he remarked, "That's a phrase that's never hurt us. Ask away."
"Do you want to come out to my friends?" asked Clark
Lex closed his laptop with a loud click. "I guess there really is a first time for everything."
Stepping forward, Clark warily made his way over to Lex's desk. Carefully sitting down, Clark searched Lex's blank expression for some reaction. Finally, he couldn't take it anymore and said, "Lex, I know this is sudden."
Jerking his head to the right, Lex stared open-mouthed at Clark. After a moment passed, he shook his head and whispered, "Sudden? Sudden, Clark. It's not sudden. It's unthinkable. What are you talking about?"
Wincing, Clark replied, "I've been thinking and I realized that it's just a matter of time before this happens again. Getting caught, I mean. Look, we make out in your car along HWY 90 practically on a daily basis when you're in town. How long before Pete and Sam drive by and see us?"
"Pete and Sam?" inquired Lex.
Nodding, Clark replied, "Yeah, they hooked up while you were in Metropolis."
"Oh, good for them," noted Lex.
"Yeah." Drumming his fingers on Lex's desk, Clark asked, "So, what do you think?"
"What do I think?" mimicked Lex. "I think that you haven't thought this all the way through."
"That's not true," protested Clark.
"Fine. Tell me, Clark. What will you do when Chloe or Pete or Lana turn away from you, refuse to be your friend anymore just because you're gay?" ask Lex as he gazed intensely at Clark.
"They won't do that. They're my friends," replied Clark, sternly.
"Right," replied Lex. Looking over at Clark, he paused before he continued, "Have you considered that you're going to graduate from high school in a couple years and then you probably won't even see most of these people anymore? Why not wait until after you get to college to come out?"
"Because I'm tired," said Clark as he exhaled loudly. He brought his gaze to bear on Lex and stole a moment to lose himself in the green depths of Lex's eyes. "I'm tired of acting as if I'm ashamed of what we're doing. I'm tired of keeping us a secret."
'So, this; you have a problem keeping secret?' thought Lex. Clearing his throat, he made one final plea, "You do realize that your parent's reaction was really good, don't you? It was unexpected and more than I hoped for. Not everyone will be as easy as your parents."
"I know, but I hope things will turn out for the best," replied Clark.
"Eternal optimist. How did I ever get mixed up with an eternal optimist?" wondered Lex aloud.
Smiling again, Clark answered, "Must be fate."
Offering a small smile, Lex agreed, "Must be."
Reaching for his phone, Lex's finger hovered over a bright white button as he ordered, "Pick a date, Clark."
Clark panicked as he watched Lex press down the button that summoned Sheila. Flustered, Clark gaped at Lex as Lex smiled. Jumping in his seat, Clark heard the door open and the click clack of Sheila heels as she walked into the room. Looking over his shoulder, Clark saw Sheila standing there, holding her day planner, waiting expectedly to be assigned the next task. Turning around quickly, Clark met Lex playfully cruel eyes.
Hemming and hawing, Clark replied, "December 20th?"
"Are you sure about that?" inquired Lex.
Nodding, Clark stuttered, "Yeah, it's a Friday. The last day of school before Christmas break."
"Good choice. Especially considering your new curfew restrictions," said Lex. Looking past Clark, Lex nodded at Sheila. "Have housekeeping clear the game room in preparation for a small gathering on December 20th."
"Of course," replied Sheila quickly as she flipped forward in her planner. Pressing her pen to the memo space, she scribbled down the previous order as she asked, "Should I inform the chef that a formal dinner would be in order?"
Lex glanced at Clark who shook his head in response to the unanswered question. "No. Just have snacks available in the room when the guests arrive. No service necessary. Nothing too flashy."
In response, Sheila arched her eyebrow and inquired, "How many guests are expected?"
Frowning at Sheila's display, Lex asked, "Clark? How many?"
Shocked to be suddenly thrust back in the limelight, Clark swallowed a few times while looking up at the ceiling. "Umm. Seven."
Looking pointedly at Sheila, Lex said crisply, "Seven besides Clark and myself."
Casting her eyes downward, Sheila scribbled faster. Glancing warily at Lex, she asked, "Is that all?"
Glancing at Clark, Lex paused a moment before saying, "Yes, one more thing - Assign a driver to the limo to pick up the guests."
"Where should I tell the driver to pick up the guests?" asked Sheila.
Holding Clark's gaze, Lex replied, "At the Talon. At 5 o'clock in the evening. That'll be all, Sheila."
Watching Clark nod, Lex barely registered it as Sheila whispered on her way out, "As you wish, Mr. Luthor."
--<{()}>--
December 20, 2002
4:38 p.m.
Talon Cafe
"What's this all about, Clark?" asked Chloe in full reporter mode.
"Nothing. Lex is going to be in Metropolis over the holidays so I thought it would be nice if we could all give the guy a little pre-holiday cheer. So, I talked to some of his staff and managed to get them to help me out covertly," Clark lied.
"Hmm. I'm not so sure I believe you. You're acting very strange," remarked Chloe.
"Yeah Clark, you're all nervous man. What gives?" inquired Pete as he sat on a sofa and sipped at his coffee.
Wrapping his arms around himself, Clark contended, "I'm not nervous. What makes you think I'm nervous?"
Suddenly, Chloe started to circle him. "Let's see. You're shifting from one foot to another. You're constantly wiping your hands on your jeans so they must be sweaty, indeed. You keeping glancing at the clock every five seconds even though you are surrounded by my unique presence. And."
"And that's enough," announced Justin as he wound his arms around Chloe from behind. Against her ear, he whispered, "I thought we talked about this."
Slightly annoyed, Chloe leaned back against Justin and hissed, "I thought so, too."
Just then, a serving knife flew off a nearby table. Quick reflexes prevailed as Lana grabbed the floating cutlery and slammed it quickly and loudly back down on the tabletop. As everyone turned in her direction, Lana glared for a moment at Justin before replacing her scowl with a bright smile. Picking up the knife again, Lana asked, "Would anyone like some pie?"
In unison, Chloe and Justin shook their heads.
Alone on a sofa, Pete lifted his hand before asking Clark, "He is going to feed us, isn't he?"
Smiling, Clark replied, "Yeah, but I don't think he's prepared to do dinner for nine people on a moments notice and I wasn't sure how he'd react so I didn't ask his cook to prepare anything."
"Oh," replied Pete as he waved a hand at Lana and yelled, "I'll take a slice."
"I'd love a piece, too," Sam chimed in.
Several feet away, Marcus sat in a comfortable chair and frowned. Intensely, he kept a close eye on Sam as she sat on the adjacent couch with Laura. He'd noticed the little looks, the increased secrecy between Sam and Laura. He just knew she was still seeing Pete, but he just couldn't prove it. It made him paranoid of even innocent exchanges like requesting pie.
A minute later, Lana arrived with two servings of pie. She served Pete first, handing him a couple napkins first then, his pie. Walking over to Sam, Lana pressed a handful of napkins under the pie plate as she handed Sam her slice. "I hope you enjoy your pie."
"Oh, I think I will," beamed Sam as she took a hold of the plate, careful to not to make a mess or drop anything.
Again, Marcus glared. He watched Sam so intensely, he didn't even notice Lana as she stood in front of him.
"Are you sure you don't want any pie, Marcus?" inquired Lana.
Doing a double take, Marcus jumped in his skin. Looking up at Lana, he forced a distracted smile. "No, thank you. I'm not hungry."
Sitting down on the arm of the chair, Lana asked, "What are your plans for Christmas?"
"We don't celebrate Christmas," replied Marcus tersely.
Bringing her fingers up to her mouth, Lana gasped, "Oh, I'm so sorry. I didn't know you're Jewish."
Exhaling loudly, Marcus said, "We're not Jewish either."
"Then why don't you celebrate Christmas?" asked Chloe as she leaned up against Lana.
"We're atheists," explained Marcus.
"Well, in the words of the great Jerry Seinfeld, 'I have the greatest respect for Atheists because I've always thought that it takes a lot of faith.' Ba da bump," joked Justin as he came to stand beside Chloe.
Everyone laughed except for Marcus. He just frowned and crossed him arms.
That was when a man dressed all in black entered the Talon and announced, "The limo is ready."
In a swarm of laughter, whispers and shuffled feet, everyone made their way for the door. Pete placed his plate and napkins on the sofa while Sam dropped the plate on a table as she headed for the door. Marcus followed her out, still glaring intensely.
--<{()}>--
Luthor Castle
"Your guests have arrived, Mr. Luthor," Sheila announced as she opened the double doors to Lex's game room.
Their heads spinning about, all of Clark's friends checked out the game room, all decked out with a spinning mirror ball and flickering lights. In the center of it all, stood Lex. His arms were crossed and his stance casual. An inside joke was molded into his wry smile.
Turning to Clark, they sought answers.
"What's he doing here? I thought this was supposed to be a surprise for Lex," snapped Pete.
"I knew it. I knew you were up to something. So, spill. What is this all about?" demanded Chloe.
"I must admit, Kent. You fooled even me, but why use so much deception?" asked Marcus.
Putting up his hands, Lex produced a small remote control. He pushed a couple buttons and all the flickering lights turned off as all the regular room lights came on. Except for the reflections bouncing off the mirrored ball, the room was simply lit by a few hanging lamps.
Sliding the remote into his pocket, Lex spoke loudly, "You have been brought here to witness an announcement."
Looking at Clark, Lex held his gaze as he said, "Clark."
All eyes back on him, Clark was uncomfortable. He glanced about the room, at the sea of friendly, if not curious, faces before meeting Lex's eyes again. Taking some strength from their connection, Clark began, "I admit it - This is all a sham. I lied to you about this being a surprise for Lex. In reality, the party is for all of you."
As everyone started to speak at once, Clark put up his hands and pled for patience, "I'll explain everything. You see. You are all my best friends. I've known some of you longer than I've known others, but I feel I can be myself with all of you."
Pausing, Clark looked out over the quiet group. Taking a deep breath, Clark said what's never easy to say, "I'm gay."
Glancing at Lana, Clark waited for a response. She gave one quickly as she winked at him as she stepped forward. A moment later, she wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him close. Against his cheek, she whispered, "I'm so proud of you."
Quietly, he sighed, "Thank you."
Pulling away from Lana, Clark found himself confronted by a very intense Chloe Sullivan. Her hands on her hips, Chloe squinted as she said, "Truth, I suspected."
For a few more seconds, she held him captive within her scrutiny before smiling widely and spreading her arms. "What are you thinking? You're my Clark. I'll always love you."
Smiling, Clark swooped her into a tight embrace. He spun her around 360 degrees before placing her back down on the floor. Breathless, she stumbled backwards into Justin's waiting arms.
Looking up at Clark, Justin asked, "You on the up and up about this, Clark?"
Nodding, Clark replied soberly, "Yeah, I am."
Wrapping his arms around Chloe, Justin looked directly in Clark's eyes. "So, you lied when I asked you about that girl?"
Nodding, Clark answered, "Yeah, I did."
"That's good enough for me, man." Extending his right hand, Justin answered cryptically, "You've always kept your word when it mattered. That's all I care about."
They shook hands firmly until Justin unwrapped himself from Chloe long enough to draw Clark into a stiff hug. A couple backslaps later, Justin awkwardly pulled away. Chuckling nervously, Justin quipped, "Y'know a lesser man would be intimidated by a hug like that, but not me. I'm secure in my sexuality."
Rolling his eyes, Clark remarked, "And aren't we all glad for that."
Turning to his left, Clark faced Laura and the Coles. These were the wild cards. These were the ones that filled his waking nightmares. Gesturing uneasily, Clark asked, "What do you have to say?"
"Do your parents know?" asked Marcus cautiously.
Nodding, Clark replied, "Yeah, they found out a couple weeks ago."
"Are they okay with it?" asked Sam curiously.
"Yeah," said Clark in a quiet voice.
Taking a step back, Sam offered, "I wish you the best of luck."
Turning away from the trio, Clark glanced at Lex. In his eyes, he found compassion and understanding. He found love and a desire to protect, but he saw no hint of the warning Lex gave him earlier. Swallowing hard, Clark knew he probably just lost a few friends, but he forced himself to hold his head up high and walk away.
With hope, Clark sought out Pete. He found him leaning against the pool table. His arms crossed, Pete glared at Clark. In a gruff voice, he asked, "How long have you been gay?"
"I'm not sure. I just sort of realized it one day and from then on it just seemed like it had always been that way," Clark answered with a cracked voice.
Shaking his head, Pete laughed airily, "Next thing I know you're going to say that you're fucking Lex Luthor or something ridiculous like that."
Pete expected some kind of response. He didn't expect the silence. He didn't expect the tension that filled Clark's body or the cold way Clark looked back at him. In disbelief, Pete watched as Lex walked over to Clark and ran his arm around Clark's waist.
"I don't fucking believe this." Shaking his head again, Pete stomped out of the room.
Biting his lip, Clark fought back the grief and rage bubbling up within him. Leaning against Lex, he numbly grunted after Chloe assured him she'd go talk to him. Glancing at Lex, he knew his expression said what only his thoughts could say, 'You were right. I wasn't ready for this. I was stupid. I was naive.'
Placing a hand on Clark's cheek, Lex drew Clark's head down on his shoulder. Wrapping his arms around Clark, Lex whispered, "It's okay. I'm here."
As Lex and Clark shuffled away, Laura's eyes followed them with awe. Looking back and forth from Marcus to Sam, her features scrunched with disbelief at their inaction. Stepping away from them, she followed after Lex and Clark. Placing a hand on Lex's arm, she waited until they stopped. Lex looked at her first, but Clark followed suit shortly thereafter. Smiling weakly, Laura said, "The heart knows no master. It can do only what it does."
Smiling, they nodded at her words. Extending his hand, Lex said, "Thank you."
"You're very welcome," replied Laura as she shook his hand.
Chloe picked that moment to return. When Clark looked at her expectedly, she could only shake her head in response.
The rest of the night, Clark held his head high. He asked Lex to order the snacks and beverages. He spent the rest of the night by Lex's side, talking to his friends. He weathered the hours well and fought back the urge to bow his head and mope. Even though Pete never returned to the party, Clark managed to find reasons to smile.
Part 16: Have Some Deception With Your Nog?
I believe there are angels among us.
Sent down to us from somewhere up above.
They come to you and me,
In our darkest hours.
To show us how to live,
To teach us how to give,
To guide us with a light of love.
- "Angels Among Us" performed by Alabama
December 21, 2002
"Lex! I demand to know the meaning of this," howled Lionel as he slammed the office door open.
Looking up from his mountain of paperwork, Lex sighed. '*What now*?' he thought. Slowly sitting back, Lex laced his fingers together and said, "I thought you had a rehab appointment, today."
Waving Lex's words away with an angry swipe of his hand, Lionel explained, "I cancelled it. I had to. I had to come out here and find out if you've completely lost your mind."
Cocking his head to the side, Lex rolled his eyes for effect. "Last I checked; I still clung to sanity. Despite your efforts."
As quickly as possible, Lionel hobbled over to Lex's desk. Looking down at Lex, he accused, "I'll have you know that your attempt to undermine LuthorCorp was all in vain. I just hope your little boy toy was duly impressed by your display."
'*How did you find out about that*?' Staring blankly up at his Father, Lex fought against furrowing his brow. After a moment for composure, he commented, "I'm sure I've done several things to undermine LuthorCorp in the past few weeks, so could you try to narrow down the field of possibilities?"
Exhaling loudly through his nose, Lionel replied, "I mean the little party you had last night."
Leaning down, only a couple inches from Lex's face, he continued, "Just how long did you think it would take before one of those children told all to the Inquisitor? Hmm? An hour? A day? Just how long did you think you could conceal this from me?"
Neither flinching nor backing away, Lex returned his Father's glare. Calmly and coolly, he responded, "I didn't conceal anything. Quite frankly, you've known about me for a long time so I have no reason to hide anything from you. As for the 'little party' I had last night - That's not your concern."
"Not my concern!" yelled Lionel as he stood up straight. "Of course, it's my concern. Everything about you is my concern, especially where LuthorCorp could be harmed."
Upon seeing Lex roll his eyes, Lionel sighed. Resting against the mahogany of Lex's desk, he asked, "When you were a foolish college boy getting caught with your pants down by the Inquisitor, the public didn't care. The board didn't care. Half the people didn't believe what they read and the other half thought it was a phase you'd grow out of. You're not a boy. You're not in college anymore. You have your hands in the works. People expect you to act like a man."
Staring down his Father, Lex growled, "I am a man."
Shaking his head, Lionel protested, "No. You're supposed to be a man, but I'm not sure what you are. You prance around, not caring about the effect this will have on LuthorCorp. Don't you see how this could make the stock price plummet? Or are you too busy fucking your boy to think about such things?"
Squaring his jaw, Lex sat forward before standing up. Eye-to-eye, he answered, "His name is Clark and he is not a matter for discussion. As for the rest, as I said - you've known what I am for a long time."
Fiercely, Lionel argued, "Correction. I knew what you thought you were."
Slowly, he clasped his hands behind his back. Holding his head high, he continued, "I know better. I've always known better. Just like all those years ago, I knew if I gave you the proper motivation, you'd become the son I deserved."
Stepping forward, he tipped his head down. His chest rippled from the soft chuckle that escaped him. Looking back at Lex, he smiled devilishly as he reminisced, "I remember that motivation cost a man his job."
"Are you attempting to threaten me?" asked Lex.
Laughing airily, Lionel cocked his head back and looked down his nose at Lex. "Threaten? Oh no, Lex. Threats are for people who can't actually follow through. Instead, think of this as a project with a definite, quickly approaching deadline. What you fall short of completing, I will be forced to
take care of myself."
Turning his back on Lex, Lionel waved lazily at his son as he left the room. From behind his desk, Lex watched him go. Gripping the wood of his desk tightly, he found it impossible to sit. Instead, he grabbed a bronze paperweight and threw it at the far wall, leaving a large dint in the wood
paneling.
Cursing loudly, Lex finally sank down into his chair. Resting his head into his hands, he pushed memories away. Centering his thoughts, Lex came to the realization that he had a real problem on his hands. Thinking back over the night before, he wondered aloud, "Which one of those little shits squealed?"
--<{()}>--
Casually, Sheila sat at her desk. Working on the latest job handed to her by her boss, her posture was perfect. Not a hair out of place. Not even the presence of Lionel Luthor frazzled her. In fact, her only response to him speeding past her was an arched eyebrow. His determined expression didn't even phase her. She just kept on working efficiently. Even the sharp thud that followed moments later didn't cause her the slightest pause.
Then, Lex emerged from his office. Instantly, Sheila snapped into action. Picking up her calendar, Sheila opened to her notepad while keeping her thumb under the page belonging to December 21, 2003.
Running his hand over his head, Lex paced. Back and forth before Sheila's desk, he walked briskly as he ordered, "Sheila, I want to know what every single person who was at the party last night did after they left. Also, I want to know what the papers know. Call Kerrie and see what she can find out. Have a full report prepared within two hours."
As her eyes widened, Sheila watched him walk away.
--<{()}>--
Main Street
Half An Hour Or So Later
Lex didn't need a fancy report to tell him who the most likely culprit was. *No*. Only one person stormed out last night. *Just one*. The one who was Clark's best friend. The one who shattered Clark's naive hopes. The one person who should have been there for Clark, but wasn't, the person walking casually down Main Street.
Pulling up to the curb, Lex ignored the cement stoop completely. Driving onto the sidewalk, Lex stepped on the brake as he came face to face with Pete Ross.
Jumping back, Pete shouted, "Watch it!"
Opening his car door, Lex emerged from the car in a fluid manner. Buttoning his jacket, he walked around the hood of the car as he said, "We need to talk."
"Stay the hell away from me," replied Pete as he turned to leave.
Grabbing Pete's arm, Lex argued, "You're not walking away so easily this time. I've got some things to say that you need to hear."
Pulling free, Pete countered, "Faggot. You've got nothing to say that I need to hear."
"Oh yes, I do," promised Lex as he spun Pete around, slamming him against the hood of the car. Leaning over Pete, he continued, "You're playing with the big boys now, Ross. Remember this - I'm a man whose capable of protecting what's his."
"Get away from me," cried Pete as he pushed at Lex's chest.
Finally, after a minor struggle, Lex flashed a cocky grin and pushed away from him. Cautiously, Pete slid off the hood. Backing away, he rubbed his hands on his jacket as he sneered, "Freaks. That's what the two of you are - Freaks. And I've got no time for freaks."
Looking Pete squarely in the eyes, Lex reminded, "Just remember."
--<{()}>--
Down The Block
He never saw her. She ducked around a corner before he could. As he passed without noticing her, she felt her heart break. As the sound of Lex's expensive automobile racing away filled her ears, she stepped out to watch Pete's retreating form. From behind swirling tears, Sam watched her hopes slink further and further away.
--<{()}>--
Luthor Manor
Nearly An Hour And A Half Later
"I have the report you requested, Mr. Luthor," said Sheila.
Extending his hand, Lex took the folder Sheila offered. Opening it, Lex glanced through it as he dismissed her, "You may go now, Sheila."
"As you wish, Mr. Luthor."
Leaning back in his chair once Sheila left the room, Lex started to seriously read the report. '*Home*. *Sleep*. *Home*. *Sleep*. *Home*. *Sleep*. *How boring*.' Then, he came to the Internet records of one guest. Quickly, Lex skipped to Kerrie's investigation. Slamming the folder shut, Lex had a new prey to track down.
--<{()}>--
Smallville High
According to a very expensive investigative report, on December 20, 2002, Chloe logged onto the Internet at 11:30pm. She contacted the Daily planet and the Metropolis Herald claiming to have a juicy story that could rock a Smallville company. The Daily Planet dismissed her early the next morning. At the same time, the Metropolis Herald sought more info. Editor, Kerrie Kastle, sent an e-mail to Chloe, requesting more info. Chloe wrote back a couple hours later seeking a face-to-face interview.
Kerrie Kastle accepted.
Little did Chloe know to whom Kerrie would be speaking to next.
Lex Luthor appeared at the Torch newsroom a little past four o'clock on December 21, 2002. He sported a severe frown and tense shoulders. Chloe noticed him almost immediately and asked sarcastically, "Well, well, what brings you here?"
Barely containing himself, Lex answered her question with a cold comment, "I thought you were his friend."
Squinting at Lex, Chloe retorted, "Excuse me? What are you talking about?"
Quickly crossing the room, Lex drew close up to Chloe and loomed over her. "Clark. Who else would I be talking about?"
In Chloe's mind, she saw the file containing Clark's birth certificate and notes from her investigation. By reflex, she glanced at her computer. Bringing her gaze to bear on Lex's serious face once again, Chloe said, "I don't know what you're talking about."
'*Liar*.' Sternly, Lex argued, "You know very well what I mean."
Tilting her head to the side, Chloe opined, "This sounds like a fishing expedition. What? Are you feeling jealous of the time Clark spends with his
friends? I've always thought you had a bit of a psychotic streak, but don't tell me you're trying to isolate him already."
"I mean the e-mails you've circulated throughout the pressrooms of Metropolis," offered Lex. Masking his confusion expertly, he wondered why she seemed suddenly relieved. Tipping his hand a little more, he continued, "I mean the interview you have scheduled for tomorrow with Kerrie Kastle."
As Lex spoke he couldn't help but smile at how the relief drained from Chloe's cheeks. By the time he finished speaking, Chloe's eyes were huge with confusion and fear.
"How? How did you know about that?" asked Chloe with a trembling voice.
"I don't reveal my sources," replied Lex with a devilish grin. Stepping forward, Lex watched as Chloe stepped back until she bumped against the table.
Sputtering and stuttering, Chloe tried to explain, "But, but, what do you care about something like that?"
Anger bubbling to the surface, Lex shouted, "How could I not care?"
Confused, Chloe stared at Lex. Then, it hit her. '*This is a snipe hunt*. *He doesn*'*t know anything*. *He thinks this is about LexCorp*.' Instantly, Chloe stood straighter. She brushed back her hair with her right hand and waited for a dramatic pause. A joke in her eyes, she smiled wickedly and said, "Get out of my office. You can't do a thing to me."
"Don't be so sure about that," warned Lex - Just before he stormed out of the room.
--<{()}>--
Talon Cafe
Just Minutes Later
"Okay. Okay. Easy. Okay. Okay. Perfect!" cried Lana.
Standing on ladders, Clark and Justin jerked their hands away from the extra-large Christmas wreath hanging over the entrance to the Talon. After a minute and a half of Lana telling them "a little more to the right. No, the left," Clark and Justin were done. Climbing down the ladders, they stepped back to eye their handy work - Wreaths hung over every doorway and dozens of streamers starting in every far corner met in the center of the room.
Inhaling deeply, Justin crossed his arms and said, "That was very cool. How long did that take us Clark?"
Glancing at his watch, Clark answered, "About four minutes."
Smiling widely, Justin said, "Yeah, powers can be fun, sometimes."
Stepping between them, Lana looked around, marveling at the yuletide scene created in less time than it takes to hard boil an egg. Wrapping her arms around both of their waists, Lana sighed, "Having superhero friends comes in handy sometimes, too."
The door opened behind them, presenting a very angry Chloe Sullivan. She rushed over to Clark and thrust her extended index finger at him as she yelled, "Keep your boyfriend away from me!"
Shocked to say the least, Clark took a step back. "Excuse me?"
Flushed with anger, Chloe explained, "Lex just attacked me in the pressroom."
In unison, Lana, Justin and Clark exclaimed, "Lex, what?"
Nodding her head, Chloe continued, "Yeah. That's right. He kept going on about telling all to the newspapers. He seemed to think I was selling your love story to the highest bidder. He's paranoid, Clark."
Instinctively, Justin stepped forward and gathered Chloe into his arms. Glaring at Clark with ever darkening eyes, Justin advised, "You better talk to Lex before I do."
--<{()}>--
Luthor Manor
Brushing past Sheila, Clark entered Lex's office without pause. Closing the door behind him, Clark found for whom he was looking. Sitting behind his desk, Lex stared back at him. Crossing the room, Clark asked, "You want to tell me what's going on?"
Sitting back in his chair, Lex inquired, "You want to be a little more specific?"
Tilting his head to the side, Clark sat down in one of Lex's guest chairs. "You know, stalking and attacking my friends."
"Oh that. Yes, well, which friend are we discussing now?" asked Lex.
"Which? You mean there's been more than one?" Shaking his head, Clark inquired further, "Okay. I know about Chloe. Who else have you gone after?"
"Pete," replied Lex, matter-of-factly.
"Pete." Looking Lex in the eyes, Clark continued, "Just what do you think you were doing?"
Sitting up straighter, Lex answered, "What I had to do. My father visited me this morning, Clark. He knows about everything. He knows about you and me. He knows about our little party last night. In short, he knows things he shouldn't have known."
Leaning his forehead on his fist, Clark said, "So, of course, you assumed it had to be one of my friends. Chloe said you were paranoid."
"They were the most obvious culprits," asserted Lex. Leaning toward Clark, Lex continued, "I did what I felt I needed to do. Pete and I shared some words that needed to be shared and quite frankly, Chloe isn't as innocent as she seems."
Sighing loudly, Clark offered, "So you're not wrong; everyone else is."
Smiling, Lex agreed, "Absolutely. The whole world is wrong."
"The whole world?" asked Clark.
"Yes Clark, the whole world," answered Lex. "There's a reason why I like that hunchback movie - It's so true. 'The world is cruel. The world is wicked.'"
Reaching across Lex's desk, Clark took Lex's hand in his as he countered, "Yeah, but remember the next line: It's I alone whom you can trust in this whole city."
Squeezing Clark's hand, Lex said, "Sure, that line, but remember who said it."
"Lex, the fact is the world is neither cruel nor wicked. I genuinely believe people want be kind and good. They just don't always make the best choices," said Clark
Pulling away, Lex argued, "Don't believe everything your parents taught you, Clark. Humans can be evil."
Nodding, Clark paused before stating, "Yeah, but they rarely want to be."
Letting out a sound that was half snort and half chuckle, Lex contended, "Who cares what they want?"
Disbelief covering his young features, Clark replied, "What do you mean? That's the most important part."
Truly amused at the point, Lex asked, "Really. How is that?
Quietly, Clark explained, "Because it means that they're always trying to be better people. In the end, that's enough."
After that, Lex stared at Clark for a several minutes. Inside, Lex lamented, '*You really are better than I deserve*.'
Dragging Lex from his reverie, Clark asked, "What are you doing for Christmas?"
At first, Lex appeared a bit shaken. Recovering quickly, he replied, "Nothing. I guess staying here at the castle. I can't imagine seeing my Father, right now."
"I could ask my parents if you can come over to our house," offered Clark.
Laughing softly, Lex said, "Yeah, that's likely to happen."
Leaning back in his chair, Clark sighed, "Well, I can ask.."
--<{()}>--
Kent Farm
That Evening
"Absolutely not," shouted Jonathon.
Looking back and forth from his Father to his Mother and back again, Clark pled with his eyes for them to reconsider. Instead, they stood more firmly in their resolve.
Kindly, but sternly, Martha agreed with her husband, "I'm sorry, Clark, but Christmas is for family and Lex is not a part of this family."
"Fine," replied Clark as he went up to his room. Behind his closed bedroom door, Clark shook his head as he dialed Lex's phone number. To Clark's
surprise, he picked up on the first ring. Sadly, Clark told him the bad news, "I'm sorry, Lex. They're just being unreasonable."
"Hey, they're your parents. They want you all to themselves for the holidays for as long as they can actually make it happen. It's understandable," reasoned Lex. "Besides, don't worry about me, Clark. It's not like this is the first holiday I've ever spent alone."
--<{()}>--
Luthor Castle
Limply, Lex placed the phone down. Playing with the cord, Lex found himself with way too much time on his hands. Flipping his laptop open, Lex checked his e-mail, cleared his recycle bin and repositioned all the icons on his desktop. Then, he started sorting files. A few hours later, he stumbled upon a forgotten task. Clicking the file open, he looked over the reports he compiled concerning KryCo.
--<{()}>--
Christmas Day
At a casual pace, Marcus and Laura walked down Main Street. Behind them, ten hours of voluntary work at the local shelter left them weary and ready for home. At peace with the eerie quiet of vacant streets, they noticed the music coming from the Talon right away.
Pointing at the Talon's front door, Laura observed, "Hey, the Talon's not supposed to be open today."
Shrugging, Marcus glanced at the lights streaming out of the doors and windows. "Maybe Lana's having a private gathering."
Staring at the Talon Laura offered another interpretation, "Or maybe, someone broke into the place. We should go check."
Looking back at Marcus, Laura tried to be shocked that she saw no concern for the establishment. Grabbing Marcus by the arm, she dragged him over to the Talon entrance. Peering inside, they saw someone seated at a corner table. Squinting his eyes, Marcus recognized the person immediately, "It's Lex Luthor. He's probably doing end of the year reports. Let's go."
He took almost two steps before Laura's hold on his arm stopped him in his tracks. Looking back, Marcus saw the determination in her eyes. Knowing defeat when he saw it, he simply nodded and opened the door for her.
Bent over a series of reports, Lex looked like a man trying to solve a jigsaw puzzle, trying to find the missing piece that would pull the whole thing
together. Taking a swig from his mug, he quickly closed his many folders as the front doors opened. Looking up, Lex didn't even recognize Laura and Marcus as he shouted, "The Talon's closed for business."
Slowly Laura approached Lex. Dragging Marcus along for the ride, she sat across from Lex. Subtly, she sniffed at the air and said warily, "Mr. Luthor. Is that nog you're drinking?"
Looking up, recognition filled Lex's features as he quickly stacked the folders one on top of the other as he replied, "As a matter of fact it is."
Inhaling the faint smell of strong alcohol, Laura inquired, "I thought Lana only made virgin nog."
Reaching into his pocket, he pulled a small flask from his pocket and said, "Yeah, that's why I added some Christmas cheer to it."
Unbuttoning her coat, Laura replied, "I see."
Looking at Laura, Lex's eyes zeroed in on a shiny bit of jewelry hanging from her neck. Reaching across the table, Lex gently touched a thin, silver-like metal band hanging from a silver chain. Looking up into Laura's eyes, Lex asked, "What is this?"
Suddenly nervous, Laura answered, "A ring."
Rolling his eyes, Lex brought his eyes back to the ring and the delicate, foreign characters etched across the surface, "I see that. What does the
inscription mean?"
"Umm," stuttered Laura. "I don't know."
The expression of Lex's face as he glanced up at her increasingly red face told Laura that he didn't believe that for a minute. As Laura struggled for a better lie, Lex reached out and grabbed the trinket, rolling it between his forefinger and thumb as he asked, "Really? Then what is it made out of? It's too light to be silver. It's too heavy to be platinum."
Finally at the end of her rope, Laura opted for the truth, "Look, I don't know much about it. It was something given to me by my parents before they died, okay? So, they're not exactly here to explain the great significance of this ring to me."
Attempting to stand, Laura found Lex only held onto the ring with a stronger grip. Angry and fed up with his behavior, she grabbed the ring, snatching it back from Lex as she painfully pinched his fingers. Instantly, she stood up ready to bolt, but she paused as she looked down at Lex's upturned face. In his eyes, she could see his mind working and the conclusions she saw forming were scarier than anything she'd ever seen before.
A moment later, she pushed Marcus out the front doors. Rushing home, she thrust her hands in her coat pockets, but forgot to zip up the front. As the cold wind beat against her, she wondered how to explain this to her Uncle.
--<{()}>--
December 27, 2002
Cole Residence
In response to the persistent ringing of the doorbell, Laura opened the front door. She groaned immediately at the sight of Lex Luthor.
For his part, Lex tried to not smile devilishly, but wasn't entirely successful. Nodding courteously, he asked, "Hello Laura, may I come in?"
Shaking her head, Laura answered, "No."
Leaning back, Lex said, "I'd like to speak to your Uncle."
Curtly, Laura replied, "He's not here."
Closely inspecting Laura's neckline, Lex observed, "You're not wearing your necklace. I hope that's not on account of me."
Glaring at Lex, Laura answered, "Don't flatter yourself. You're not that important."
"Really? Then why aren't you wearing it?" asked Lex.
"You don't know when to give up, do you Mr. Luthor?" asked Laura.
Nodding, Lex agreed, "No, I don't and you didn't answer the question."
Uncomfortable, Laura paused before saying, "I don't wear it everyday. It's just a reminder of my parents and something I don't except you to understand."
"Oh but I do understand," replied Lex as he raised the cuff on his left arm. "My Mother gave this watch to me before she died. I wear it almost everyday."
Lowering his cuff, he leaned toward Laura and said, "Tell your Uncle that I'll be waiting and that I see very clearly."
Noting the flash of fear in Laura's eyes, he smiled before walking away.
--<{()}>--
December 28, 2002
Kent Farm
Covered in flour, Martha wiped sweat off her forehead with the back of her right arm. Taking a few steps back, she twirled around and closed the oven door before ripping her oven mitts off and pressing her hands into the small of her aching back.
"I hope the Christmas order we made isn't too much for you."
Startled, Martha spun around. Standing at the door was Sarah Cole. With her left hand braced against the doorjamb, Sarah half-hid behind the wall as she said, "I know we asked for a lot."
Shaking her head, Martha waved a hand at Sarah as she replied, "Not a worry. It's just old bones. They never seem to do what they used to, do they?"
Smiling uncomfortably, Sarah stepped gingerly into the room. Glancing about the makeshift industrial kitchen, she noted the cleanliness and order. As she scanned the newly fortified walls of what was once just an idle shack adjoining the Kent residence, she nodded at the workmanship. Looking back at Martha, Sarah sighed, "Let me be blunt - I'm not here about our business dealings. I'm here to find out what you know about Lex Luthor."
Taken aback, Martha brought her hand up to her throat as she asked, "Why would you ask me about Lex Luthor?"
Clasping her hands behind her back, Sarah explained, "I don't know many people in this town, Martha, and I was led to understand that your son is very close to him."
Wiping her hands on her apron, Martha licked her lips and swallowed deeply before she replied with a raspy voice, "That's right."
Looking at the ground, Sarah asked, "Yes, well, all that aside, I have a need for information about him."
"What kind of information?" inquired Martha.
"I need to know if you know anything about his past business dealings, about how he handles opposition," said Sarah.
Blinking rapidly, Martha took a step away from Sarah. Searching the far walls, Martha answered, "I don't really know him very well, Sarah. He's...a friend of my son, that's all. But he is a Luthor, after all."
"I see," said Sarah. "I'm sorry I bothered you. I'll be going now. Let you get back to your work."
Fumbling with her purse, Sarah walked back toward the doorway. At the threshold, she turned back and looked at Martha. "I shouldn't be saying this, but as one Mother to another, you should know that something sinister lurks in that man. He's not always as pleasant as he appears. Be careful of how much influence he has over your son."
--<{()}>---
Several Minutes Later
Clark's Bedroom
Martha rushed into the house the moment Sarah left. Out of respect, she knocked before she rushed into his bedroom when Clark asked, "Who's there?"
Stepping into the room, she saw him reclined on his bed, a book resting on his stomach. Slowing down, she approached his bedside and said, "Sarah Cole was just here. She mentioned some things that are very troubling."
Sitting up, Clark lowered his right leg until his foot met the wooden floors. "Did she cancel her contract?"
Shaking her head, Martha replied, "No."
Stepping closer to Clark, she asked, "How many people know about you and Lex?
"I'm not sure. Several, that I know of, but they appear to have told others," answered Clark.
Nodding, Martha agreed, "Yes, apparently. Why didn't you speak with your Father and me before telling people something like this?"
Shrugging, Clark replied, "I didn't ask you because it didn't concern you."
"Excuse me? Didn't concern us? Clark, this is a small town and what you are, what you do and who you do it with reflects on us. When we gave you and Lex permission to see each other, we didn't think you would run out and tell the town. I mean, don't you have any consideration for what this might do to us?"
Shocked, Clark was speechless. Finally, when the power of speech returned to him, he stated, "If you wanted me to hide this, you should have been more clear. You've never had any problem telling me to hide something in the past, so you should have had no problem this time."
"Letting you continue to see him was a mistake, I see that now," observed Martha as she backed away from her son's rebuke. "Well, I'm going to correct that mistake right now. I don't want you to see him. I don't want you stepping off this farm until school starts. I have it on very good authority that he's not what he appears to be, Clark."
Shaking his head, all the blood ran from Clark's face as he begged, "Mom, don't do this. Please."
"I'm sorry, Clark, but sometimes a parent must do what they think is best for their child even if it's not what their child wants," Martha said as she closed his door behind her.
In shock, Clark sat there for several seconds. Unable to believe that after everything, he was in the same nightmare he always feared would come true. Picking up his phone, he dialed Lex's phone number slowly. After a few rings, Lex picked up and said, "Luthor here."
"Lex?"
"Clark? What's wrong?" asked Lex
Short of breath, Clark replied, "My parents said I can't see you anymore."
Quickly, Lex demanded, "What? Why?"
Clark answered, "Sara Cole was here today. I don't know what she told my Mom, but it was bad enough to make my Mom come straight up to my room and forbid me from seeing you."
"Is that so?" asked Lex.
"Yeah. What are we going to do, Lex?" asked Clark.
"You let me worry about that Clark. I'll see what I can do to remove the influence your Mother has come under. In the meantime, do as your parents say," ordered Lex as he hung up the phone.
--<{()}>--
December 29, 2002
Luthor Castle
"Mr. Luthor can see you now," Sheila announced.
Puffing out his chest, Raymond Cole dismissed Sheila entirely as he entered Lex's office. He was not impressed with the way the layout of the room guided his eyes to the large ornate desk or the high-backed executive chair from which Lex stared back at him, nor was he intimidated with the way the door closed, causing a loud din to reverberate through the room. Sitting across from Lex, Raymond calmly said, "I will say this once, Mr. Luthor, and only once - Stay away from my children."
"Well, that's hard to do in a small town," replied Lex as he leaned forward, resting his elbows on his desk. "Now, why don't we get down to the real reason why you're here."
Reaching over, Lex picked up a small stack of folders. Reaching out, he handed them to Raymond. Leaning back in his chair, he explained, "It has come to my attention that you're living up to your side of the bargain we made. By offering your employees the same income as LexCorp, I'm sure you thought I wouldn't notice that you've drastically increased their benefits and breaking our deal."
Sitting forward, Raymond countered, "So, sue me. Our bargain was illegal anyway. I doubt you want everyone to know about it - especially the SEC."
Lex argued, "I don't need to sue you to hurt you. Besides, I'm not the only one with something to worry about, am I?"
"I don't know what you are talking about, Mr. Luthor," replied Raymond.
Patiently, Lex explained, "Oh, Mr. Cole, I think you do. Do you know what's scarier than the SEC? No? Let me enlighten you. The EPA is far scarier than the SEC. The most the SEC will do is fine you. The EPA can shut you down entirely."
Pointing at the folders, Lex stated, "It has come to my attention that you are performing radioactive experiments in your labs - the very same labs that bring us industrial cleaners and agricultural ammonia. I'm sure the EPA would be very interested to know you're exposing the heartland to radioactive materials."
Smiling, Raymond replied, "You don't scare me, Mr. Luthor. I have Government contracts that allow for those experiments."
Cocking his head to the side, Lex said, "That's funny because my contact in the Department of Justice said you didn't."
Raymond's smile wilted as he asked, "What do you want, Mr. Luthor?"
"For you to tow the line. I'll let you have the holidays, but next week your employees better find out that their benefits have been slashed," warned Lex.
Acquiescing with a single sharp nod of the head, Raymond left the office.
As his office door shut, Lex whispered, "You're a fool if you think it'll be that easy."
--<{()}>--
New Year's Eve
11:40pm
The air smelled of cinnamon spiced ginger ale and a faint sweetness brought on by a freshly uncorked bottle of cheap champagne. Not looking at the clock, Clark knew it was twenty 'til Midnight. He could practically feel his parent's glee as they prepared the glasses for the annual Kent family New Year's Eve toast. In a few minutes, he knew they would form a circle in front of the TV while Dick Clark rocked through the last few minutes of 2002. Like so many times before, they will voice their New Year resolutions, wishes and hopes. By the time they finished, the ball would be dropping. Then, they'd kick back their drinks and his parents would share a New Year's kiss before turning to him, drawing him into a tight group hug.
It was something he usually looked forward to, but not this year. He didn't want to be here and every muscle in his body, every expression, every gesture he offered showed just how little he wanted to be here. After spending the past two days of listening to his Father hiss, "How am I ever going to look the neighbors in the face again?" Clark was in no mood to be festive. This fact finally hit home for his parents as they emerged from the kitchen with three glasses and wide smiles that drooped the moment they saw him slouching on the couch.
Jonathan bit his lip and tried to joke as he said, "Hey sport, come get your drink before it disappears."
Clark didn't even shrug. He just kept sitting on the sofa, staring at the TV.
Jonathan gripped the glasses tightly and repeated, "Clark, I'm speaking to you. Come get your drink."
Fumbling with the remote, Clark never looked at his Father. Thus he never saw the champagne splash across the surface of the desk as Jonathan slammed down the stemware. He never saw the way Jonathan stepped forward, his hand held high, on the verge of punctuating a lecture with a wide sweeping gesture. Regrettably, Clark would never see the sadness that filled his Father's eyes, nor would he see how the man's proud back hunched over as he left the room.
Of course, he couldn't say the same about his Mother. She rushed over and grabbed the remote control out of his hand. Unafraid, she turned the TV off and flung the remote across the room. As the plastic control burst open upon contact with the wall, she gained Clark's complete attention. Leaning over her son, Martha asked, "For the past three days, I've watched you mope around this house. I'm sick of it. Would you really rather be with him instead of your family?"
Wide-eyed, Clark tensed up as he looked up at his Mother. Tension filled his whole body as he stuttered his response, "Yes. It just doesn't seem right."
"But it's right for you to be disrespectful of your Father? It's right for you to ruin New Years for everyone around you? It's right for you to throw a temper tantrum like when you were three years old? Is that what you're trying to tell me?" argued Martha.
"No," replied Clark, weakly. Thinking back over the past few days, Clark felt guilt inch into his soul as he remembered his own conduct. Looking down at the floor, Clark whispered, "Look Mom, I'm sorry, but-"
"I'm not the one you should say you're sorry to," said Martha.
Sitting forward, Clark glanced at the staircase his Father used to flee the scene. Frowning, Clark lowered his head again. "I'm sorry."
Sitting next to her son, Martha asked, "Why is it so important for you to be with him instead of your family?"
Looking up at her, Clark thought for second before he answered, "Because he's all alone and I'm not. It just doesn't seem right."
Sitting up straighter, Martha used a deep breath to push back a teardrop. Glancing at her watch, she noted the time - 11:48pm. Pushing back a lock of red hair, Martha saw Clark follow her actions. At that moment, he looked so much like the little boy who twirled her hair around his fingers during the entire ride back to Smallville on the day he found them. Frowning deeply, Martha reached over and placed her hand on his cheek and said, "Then go."
"What?" asked Clark.
Smiling sadly, Martha replied, "Go. Quick, before I change my mind."
He didn't dare hesitate. Lunging forward, Clark gathered his Mother into a hug. Clutching her tightly, he whispered in her ear, "Thank you."
A moment later, he was gone.
--<{()}>--
Luther Manor
11:53pm
Quietly, Lex worked away the night in his darkly lit entertainment room. The only light in the room came from his laptop screen and scenes of Times Square broadcasted from his wide screen TV. Hunched over his laptop, Lex could see his plan come together. KryCo and the Coles with it would be gone within a couple months. There may be rumors, but there will be no evidence, linking him to the company's untimely demise. Then, he can try to work his way back into Martha Kent's good graces. Then, he would be with Clark again. Smiling cruelly, he continued to type furiously.
Suddenly, he felt as if he was being watched. Glancing over to the left, he saw Clark. Quickly lowering his laptop screen, Lex asked, "Clark? What are you doing here? Do your parents know you're here?"
Nodding, Clark answered, "Yeah. My Mom said I could come over."
"Really?" whispered Lex.
Smiling widely, Clark sat down beside Lex and laughed, "Really."
Sitting up, Lex placed his left hand on Clark's knee. "So there's hope."
Staring quizzically, Clark asked, "Hope?"
"Yes," said Lex as he continued to look over Clark's features from his wavy hair to his bright eyes and down to his full lips. "Hope that she'll like me again like she once did."
"Lex," Clark started to say.
Placing the fingers of his left hand against Clark's lips, Lex shushed him as he assured, "It's okay."
Leaning forward, Lex brushed his lips lightly across Clark's. Savoring the taste and the tease, Lex reached his left hand around Clark's head and grabbed a fistful of thick hair. Holding on, Lex began to kiss Clark.
"TEN! NINE!"
Quickly, Clark and Lex broke away from each other.
Looking at the Times Square shining out from the TV, Lex was startled to hear Clark say, "I resolve to be a better son to my parents. I wish everyone was as lucky as me and I hope for peace in the New Year."
"EIGHT! SEVEN!"
Smiling shyly, Clark glanced at Lex's curious face and admitted, "It's something I do with my parents at New Years."
"SIX! FIVE!"
Smiling back at Clark, Lex said, "You give me Faith."
"FOUR! THREE!"
Narrowing his eyes and furrowing his brow, Clark asked, "Faith? Faith in what?"
"TWO! ONE!"
"Faith that there's more out there like you," explained Lex as he placed the fingertips of his left hand on Clark's cheek and guided their lips until they pressed firmly against one another. At the same time, Lex reached out with his right hand and yanked the power cord out of his laptop, sending his vengeful plan of attack to oblivion.
"HAPPY NEW YEAR!"
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN: Bitter From The Sweet
I feel the Earth move under my feet,
I feel the sky tumbling down,
I feel my heart start to tremblin' whenever you're around.
- "I Feel the Earth Move" performed by Carole King
February 3, 2003
Kent Farm
5:05AM
"MORNING!"
"MORNING, HONEY! WHAT'S FOR BREAKFAST?"
"THE USUAL."
"HMM.MY FAVORITE! COME HERE AND GIVE ME A KISS!"
Sitting straight up in bed, Clark covered his ears. It didn't help.
"JONATHAN, STOP THAT! NOW, SIT DOWN AND I'LL GET YOU SOME BREAKFAST!"
"AWW MARTHA, TAKE AWAY ALL MY FUN WHY DON'T YOU!"
"HUSH!"
Shaking his head, Clark slowly opened his eyes. He couldn't believe it. Sometime during the night, someone moved the entire city of Metropolis right outside his window. Continuing to stare out his window, Clark was struck by a rush of tremors and a new series of screams.
STOMP
STOMP
STOMP
STOMP
STOMP
SIZZLE
POP
POP
SCRAPE
SIZZLE
"THE BACON'S A LITTLE BURNT! I HOPE YOU DON'T MIND!"
"YOU KNOW I DON'T!"
SCRAPE
SIZZLE
CLANK
STOMP
STOMP
STOMP
STOMP
STOMP
STOMP
CLUNK
"THANK YOU, HONEY!"
"YOU'RE VERY WELCOME!"
SCRAPE
SCRAPE
SLURP
SCRAPE
SCRAPE
SLURP
CLANK
GULP
GULP
SLURP
THUD
"EVERYTHING TASTES GREAT TO ME!"
"GOOD!"
Quickly, a sharp pain shot across his temples. Throwing himself back against the mattress, Clark squeezed his eyes shut. Dragging his pillow over his head, Clark turned on his side and screamed.
--<{()}>--
At The House Next Door
Frantically, Lana clawed through her calendar. Opening the book to November, she slowly started counting weeks. When she reached the current date, she cried, "Oh no, 11 weeks."
Staring down at her flat stomach, Lana let the tears she fought back fall down her cheeks. Rubbing her abdomen, she sobbed, "Oh my God. It can't be."
Sitting down on her bed, Lana placed a hand over her mouth and cried. Looking upward, Lana prayed, "Dear God, what am I going to do?"
--<{()}>--
Back at The Kent Residence
Martha and Jonathan raced up the stairs the moment they heard Clark's first strangled yell. In his room, they found him curled into the fetal position, his pillow covering his head.
"CLARK, WHAT'S WRONG?"
"SON, TALK TO US!"
As they spoke, Clark recoiled away from them. Turning toward the bookcase, Clark curled himself up as tightly as possible. Quickly, Martha placed a hand on his shoulder. Instantly, her pulse traveled from her fingers throughout Clark's body. The throbbing of her heartbeat, made Clark cough as he battled to maintain his own respiratory rhythm.
As mind numbing as the noise and tremors were, they were nothing next to vibrations running through his body now. Out of desperation, Clark slapped Martha away. As a result, she sailed across the room. Colliding with Jonathan, they flew back together until Jonathan's back smacked against Clark's bedroom door.
Then, the rooster crowed.
From their vantage point on the floor, Martha and Jonathan watched as Clark writhed even more desperately in agony until the rooster ceased its racket. Realization hitting her, Martha quietly sat on the floor, mindful of the twitches that ran through Clark's body as her knees scraped against the floor. Turning to Jonathan, Martha placed her index finger over her lips. Turning back to Clark, Martha whispered in a voice so soft she could barely hear it herself, "Clark. Calm down honey. Tell me what's going on. Maybe, I can help."
As she spoke, Clark marginally relaxed. A few seconds after she stopped speaking, he was no longer writhing. His eyes still clinched shut, he panted hard as he rolled onto his back. He rested his head on his pillow and stretched his arms over his head. Barely conscious, he mumbled, "It's so loud. Why's it so loud?"
Biting her lip, Martha yearned to hug Clark, but knew that wouldn't help. Instead, she softly sighed, "Go to sleep, Clark. Get some rest and we'll deal with this later."
Nodding, Clark swallowed hard. A few seconds later, he was fast asleep.
--<{()}>--
Across Town at The Gaines' Residence
A moment after the alarm sounded, the machine responsible found itself smashed against the far wall. Looking at the pile of busted plastic, Chloe yawned. Stretching, she sighed, "Well, another alarm clock bites the dust."
When she didn't get a laugh or comical retort, Chloe glanced over at the man lying beside her. She watched as Justin stared at the crumpled remnants of the twelfth alarm clock he'd destroyed in the last six months. Rolling onto her side, she draped her arm across his chest and asked, "Something wrong?"
Looking back at Chloe, Justin paused before cracking a smile. "No, just wondering how I'm going to explain this one to my Mom."
Looking at Chloe's curious face, Justin thought, 'I didn't do that on purpose. In fact, I didn't have to try to do it at all. My God, I can't even control it enough to keep from doing it in front of you anymore.'
She could see the fear in his eyes, but pushed it out of her mind. Holding him tighter, Chloe placed her head on Justin's chest. Closing her eyes, she rubbed her cheek against his fine chest hair. Sliding her hand down his body, she worked at taking his concerns away.
--<{()}>--
A Couple of Hours Later
Kent Farm
Cautiously, Clark entered consciousness. Flinching as he slid over his blanket, he relaxed when the texture of the cloth didn't scrape noisily against his skin. Sitting up in bed, he shook his head a few times before opening his eyes. Looking out the window, he breathed a sigh of relief as rows of corn greeted him. Glancing toward his door, he found his Mother sitting with her back against the bedroom door, staring back at him.
"How long did I sleep?" asked Clark.
In the same soft voice as before, Martha replied, "A little more than two hours."
Squinting at his Mother, Clark asked, "What did you say?"
Gasping, Martha repeated in a normal voice, "A little more than two hours."
Nodding, Clark rubbed his face with his hands. Dropping his hands, he got up and walked over to his Mother. Extending his hand to her, he helped her up to her feet. Leaning toward her, he let her wrap him up in her comforting arms.
--<{()}>--
Smallville High School
"Pete."
Turning on his heel, Pete saw Sam standing at the end of the hall. Looking around first, he jogged up to her. He followed her as she turned around and walked away. Inside a familiar utility closet, Pete expected the usual greeting, but received her hand on his chest instead.
Turning on the light, Sam reached into her pocket and pulled out a simple gold ring. Extending the ring toward Pete, she said, "I wanted to give this back to you."
Taking the ring from her, he asked, "Why? Did your parents find out about us again?"
Shaking her head, she replied, "No. I'm giving this back to you, Pete. I've treasured it and hidden it since you gave to me. Sometimes, I take it out and I remember how you got Lana to slip it to me in those napkins while she was serving me pie. I thought you were so clever."
Pausing, Sam took a moment to breathe deeply before she continued, "I thought we'd beat the odds. I thought we'd be together forever."
Concerned, Pete interrupted Sam by saying, "We will be together forever."
With a sad smile, Sam disagreed, "No, we won't. I've debated this for a long time, Pete, and I've come to the conclusion that we can't work."
"Why?" asked Pete.
In a soft voice, she explained, "Because I saw how you reacted to Clark and Lex. Over the past several weeks, I've seen you turn your back on someone you've been friends with for most of your life because you found out one little thing about him that doesn't really change who he is. I haven't seen any effort on your part to understand how difficult it was for them to reveal what they are to us like that."
Angry, Pete argued, "You're breaking up with me because of them?"
Shaking her head, Sam replied, "No. I'm breaking up with you because if you couldn't understand them, then you'll never understand me."
"What?" asked Pete.
Touching her fingers to his lips, Sam answered, "Don't make this hard. Please."
Stepping away from him, Sam walked over to the closet door. Taking one last look back, she pushed against the door and left Pete behind.
--<{()}>--
Kent Farm
"So, it was like your senses were heightened?" asked Martha as she placed a dish of steaming eggs, hash browns and toast on the table in front of
Clark.
Nodding, Clark explained, "Yeah, I could hear you and Dad down here. It was like you were screaming right my ear, but I know now you were just talking normally. I could feel your heartbeat when you touched me. Also, I could see all the way to Metropolis. It was like I was looking out of my window with my telescope, but it was more than that because none of the buildings between here and there seemed to get in the way. It was like my x-ray vision and this new long-range vision were working in concert."
Sitting down beside her son, Martha inquired, "Do you know how you stopped it?"
Shaking his head, Clark whispered, "No. When I woke up, everything was back to normal, but I know after all the other powers that it's going to happen again. I just don't know when that'll be."
Placing a reassuring hand on Clark's arm, Martha said, "I guess this is just another power you're going to have to learn to live with. Just like your strength and speed and x-ray and heat vision, you'll learn to control it. You'll see, in time, this will just become another part of who you are."
Placing his hand over hers, Clark smiled. "Thanks, Mom. I needed to hear that."
--<{()}>--
Fourth Period - Home Economics Class
Smallville High School
Curiously, Chloe watched as Lana sprayed a spot on the counter with some liquid cleanser then wiped it off with a towel for the fourth time in a row. The first couple of times, Chloe thought there was a stain she wasn't seeing. The third and fourth time, she stared at Lana's vacant face and pondered what was going on. By the fifth time, she just wondered what she should do to stop the constant movement. As Lana poised the spray bottle for another dose, Chloe reached out and grabbed the bottle. Chloe waited until Lana was looking back at her before she asked, "Do want to talk about it?"
Realizing what she'd done, Lana placed the bottle and washcloth on the counter. Leaning over the counter, Lana looked Chloe in the eye and whispered, "Can you keep a secret?"
"Of course," replied Chloe as she leaned toward Lana.
Looking from one side to the other, Lana nervously turned back to Chloe and confessed, "I think I might be pregnant."
Wide-eyed, Chloe paused for a second. Then, she blinked just before coughing. Patting her chest, she squeaked, "By whom?"
Narrowing her eyes, Lana replied, "Whitney, of course."
Nodding, Chloe coughed one more time. "Of course. What are you going to do, Lana?"
"I don't know," answered Lana.
"Are you sure you're pregnant and not just late?" asked Chloe.
As a response, Lana replied with a shake of the head.
Reaching across the counter, Chloe grasped Lana's hand and promised, "Don't you worry, Lana. I know what to do. Meet me at my place after school, okay?"
Squeezing Chloe's hand, Lana nodded. "Sure and thanks, Chloe."
--<{()}>--
Kent Farm
"Mom, I'm experiencing overly sensitive senses, not the chills," noted Clark as Martha dragged a comforter over his body and proceeded to tuck the soft blanket around his legs.
Standing up straight, Martha placed her hands on her hips. Looking down at her son, she flashed a playful scowl as she lightly brushed her hand across his hair. "Hush you."
"Aww Mom." Quickly, Clark combed his hair with his fingers.
Laughing quietly, Martha picked up the remote control and handed it to Clark, "Here. Watch some TV while I go work on the Cole's Valentine Order."
Martha never made it to the kitchen. As the remote left her hand, a knock sounded. Swiftly, Martha motioned for Clark to stay on the sofa as she answered the front door. Opening the door, Martha found Sarah Cole. Opening the door wide, Martha said, "Sarah, what a pleasant surprise. Come in."
Nodding politely, Sarah crossed the threshold. She never took her eyes off Martha as she said, "I'm so sorry to bug you at this hour, Martha. I just needed to discuss-"
Stepping further into the Kent's living room, Sarah finally looked forward. Looking at Clark, she fell instantly silent. In fact, she stumbled forward, but corrected herself with ease a moment later. Behind her, Martha noted Sarah's reaction curiously as she said, "Sarah, this is my son, Clark. He's home sick from school today. Why don't we speak in the kitchen?"
Shaking her head, Sarah introduced herself, "It's very nice to meet you, Clark."
Still holding a slight grudge for what happened last New Year's, Clark eyed her suspiciously as he replied, "Nice to meet you too, Mrs. Cole."
Walking toward the kitchen, Sarah said, "Please, call me Sarah," as she left the room.
Once in the kitchen, Sarah whispered to Martha, "Did you take the advice I gave you?"
Glancing in Clark's direction, Martha answered, "No, I couldn't do it. He's my son, not my possession. I can't make every decision for him."
"But yours is the voice of experience. Surely, he will do as you say," argued Sarah.
Shaking her head, Martha sat at the kitchen table. Once Sarah was also seated, Martha replied, "He'll just run and I'll never see him again. Trust me, Sarah. I know what I'm talking about."
Sitting back, Sarah asked, "Has he run away before?"
Sadly, Martha answered, "No. I know because when I became engaged to Jonathan, my Father objected. He made so much noise that Jonathan and I eloped one night and I've only seen him but three times in the past twenty years. I don't want that kind of relationship between myself and Clark."
Nodding, Sarah let the matter drop and turned to matters of business.
Unbeknownst to Martha and Sarah, Clark over heard their entire conversation. It didn't start on purpose. One moment, he was pointing the remote control at the TV. The next, he was clutching his ears as the two feminine voices struck at him like pins poking him directly in the brain.
Straining to control his new ability, Clark honed in on their voices until their hushed tones were shouts. Wincing from the pain, Clark strained against the noise. At first, he couldn't control it and feared what he'd do in front of company. Then, their voices were once again too soft to hear. Unwilling to continue on at the whim of this new power, Clark focused on the inner muscles of his ears. Slowly, he began to learn how to regulate the sound. In the end, he heard Martha's final statement and frowned.
'I always wondered why we didn't see Grandpa more often," mused Clark as he continued to eavesdrop. Clark found the next several minutes extremely boring as concepts of monthly figures and price per product filled his ears. Finally, he couldn't stand it anymore. As helpful as this was to his ability to control his powers, if he had to hear one more word about pie, he was going to scream. Turning on the TV, Clark checked out daytime programming.
About half an hour after she arrived, Sarah left the Kent residence. Once her car was long gone, Clark went over to his Mom and asked, "Mom, would it be okay if I went to visit Lex for a while?"
Concerned, Martha replied, "I don't know, Clark. You just started with this new power this morning. What if it manifests while you're with Lex?"
Biting his lip, Clark answered, "It's just like every other power I've ever had, right? I'll get used to it."
Hearing her words echoed at her, Martha crossed her arms across her chest. Seeing his Mother's grim expression, Clark took one final stab at it. "I can't hide in here forever."
As he spoke, Martha's eyes softened. Nodding as she looked at the ground, Martha said, "Okay, but remember your curfew."
Hugging his Mom, Clark promised he would.
--<{()}>--
After School
Sullivan Residence
Nervously, Lana knocked on the door. Looking from side to side, she rushed indoors as soon as Chloe cracked the door open. Stopping in the middle of the living room, she shrugged her coat off before she turned around. She eyed Chloe cautiously as she asked, "So, did you get everything ready?"
Nodding sympathetically, Chloe walked up to Lana. Sliding an arm around Lana's waist, Chloe guided Lana to the bathroom. On the sink, a pregnancy test waited next to an old, clean salsa jar. Chloe noted the fear in Lana's eyes. Letting go of her, Chloe walked up to the sink. Picking up the jar, she instructed, "Piss in the jar. Then, you open up the test and put it the jar for five seconds. Five seconds - Remember that. It's very important. Then, place the test on the sink with the little windows facing up and come to the living room."
Studying Lana's pale face, Chloe half-expected Lana to pass out. Instead, Lana squared her shoulders and entered the bathroom. Flashing a weak smile at Lana, Chloe backed out of the room, closing the door behind her.
A couple minutes later, Lana came out of the bathroom. In the living room, she found Chloe sitting across from the sofa within eyeshot of her Father's grandfather clock. Sitting Indian style, Chloe twisted around when she heard Lana enter the room. Patting the carpet in front of her, Chloe waited as Lana walked around her before saying, "I bought something to take the edge off."
Sitting Indian style across from Chloe, Lana scooted forward until her knees touched Chloe's. Reaching out, Lana eagerly grasped onto the large spoon and dug into the pint of Ben & Jerry's Double Fudge Brownie. Licking the chocolate off the spoon, Lana sighed, "Man, did I ever need that."
Holding her own spoon, Chloe scooped out a bite as she said, "So, I'm assuming this happened over Thanksgiving."
Nodding, Lana wrapped her hand around the carton and lunged for another spoonful. "It was Thanksgiving day exactly. The news just finished reporting about the attack in San Diego."
Cocking her head to the side, Chloe asked, "So, what happened? Did you find some love for him that you hadn't before?"
Looking down, Lana shoved the spoon in her mouth. After savoring the creamy goodness, Lana lowered the spoon and replied, "I went to help him pack. The next thing I knew, he was talking about fighting and dying. He said he was willing to die for me. He said he loved me, then he kissed me. I didn't go to his room expecting to have sex with him. I just wanted to help."
Frowning, Chloe polished off another spoon as she glanced at the clock. Noting the time, Chloe looked back at Lana and inquired, "Do you know what you're going to do about it?"
"I haven't really thought that far ahead," admitted Lana.
Rubbing Lana on the knee, Chloe got up on her feet. Standing up, Chloe turned and left the room. When she returned, she was holding the test in
her hands.
--<{()}>--
Luthor Castle
"You smell good. What do you call that?" asked Clark as he eyed Lex's half-nude body.
Startled, Lex almost cut himself shaving. Placing the razor on the countertop, he picked up a hand towel and wiped off his face. Tossing the terry cloth into the sink, he adjusted his slacks before grabbing for his business shirt off the hook on the wall. Pulling on the shirt, Lex let the garment hang
open as he picked up the bottle on the counter and tossed it at Clark. "Xeryus."
Sniffing at the air, Clark felt his new abilities engage. Suddenly he was engulfed by the scent. Caught in a haze, he leaned back, missing the bottle. Cringing from the sharp sound of the bottle crashing on the bathroom tile, Clark struggled to control his powers. Clutching at the doorjamb, Clark swayed a bit from the assault of his heightened senses. He tried to concentrate, but there was just too much, too many sensations to control them
all. He searched for a way to focus when Lex touched his shoulder.
Suddenly, Clark found his focal point. He could feel Lex's heat radiating through his t-shirt and he centered in on the way Lex's fingers pressed against his muscle and bone. Finally, Clark found clarity of thought and the severity of the powers subsided. Opening his clenched shut eyelids, Clark saw the concern on Lex's face. Reaching out he palmed Lex's cheek and marveled at the intricacies of each minute curve in every inch of skin.
Stepping forward, Clark leaned down and kissed Lex's still lips. The taste of the man flooded Clark's mouth and he yearned for more. Pressing harder, Clark sighed when he felt Lex's tongue enter into his mouth. Wrapping his arms around Lex, Clark gasped at the feeling of Lex's entire body as it pushed against his own. Light-headed, Clark swayed a bit, but came back to his senses as Lex started to guide Clark to the king size bed across the room.
When his calves bumped against the frame of the bed, Clark jumped. Lex's intention was clear and Clark felt no reason to stand in the way of it. His lips never left Lex's as he fell back on the bed slowly, dragging Lex with him. Rolling onto his back, Clark gasped again as Lex settled between his thighs, pressing their erections together.
Pausing for a moment, Clark played his powers, allowing Lex's pulse to travel through his body like the loud bass of a stereo. Honing in on Lex, Clark amplified the soft whimpers and moans Lex emitted each time their tongues touched. Engrossed by it all, Clark clung to Lex as they started to rock their hips.
--<{()}>--
Sullivan Residence
Taking the test from Chloe, Lana closed her eyes. Taking a deep breath, she held the test in front of her and opened her eyes. The negative result made her cry.
Quickly, Chloe was beside her. As tears streamed down Lana's face, Chloe asked, "Lana, what's wrong?"
Wrapping her arms around Chloe, Lana sobbed. "What if this was the last chance?"
Pulling away, Lana looked into Chloe's confused eyes and said, "What if Whitney dies? What if this was the last chance for some part of him to live on?"
Placing her hand on Lana's head, Chloe directed it to her shoulder. Once Lana's forehead pressed against the nape of her neck, Chloe whispered, "I don't think that's a good enough reason to bring a child into this world."
Crying harder, Lana asked, "Isn't it?"
Clutching at Lana, Chloe started to rock slowly. Gently petting Lana's hair, she quietly shared her strength as she stared at the mostly eaten pint of melting ice cream.
--<{()}>--
Luthor Castle
"I love you."
Inhaling sharply, Clark froze. He wasn't sure if he heard what he thought he heard. He'd been honing in on the sound of Lex's breathing as it turned from steady breaths to raspy gasps when he took notice of three little words. Rolling Lex onto his back, Clark pulled away, staring down at Lex. Speechless, he leaned over Lex, surprise apparent on his face.
Grasping onto Clark's arms, Lex asked, "Clark, what's going on? Is something wrong?"
Looking into Lex's eyes, Clark's open mouth closed. Slowly, a smile spread across his face until his teeth showed. Cupping Lex's cheek with his right hand, Clark reveled in every little imperfection as he answered, "Nothing's wrong. Everything's perfect."
Lowering himself down onto Lex, Clark claimed a pair of willing lips. As they wrestled for control, he stroked Lex's scalp and whispered, "Just perfect."
Instantly, Lex rolled them over again. On top, Lex stroked Clark's chest, eliciting the most delicious moans out of him. Slowly, he worked his left hand down to Clark's belt. Pulling at the leather, Lex paused. He felt watched. Suddenly, he heard a cough. Without raising his head to see who it was, Lex ordered, "Get out. Lock the door behind you."
Lex leaned down to recapture Clark's lips when he heard a familiar voice say, "Do you see how he treats me? Now, I ask you - Is that anyway for a son to address his Father?"
Turning his head, Clark swallowed hard at the sight of Lionel Luthor standing in the middle of the doorway. Then, he watched as Lionel stepped aside and made a gesture to someone out in the hall. As the stranger entered the room, Clark felt Lex tense above him. Looking up, Clark saw Lex's frozen expression. Following Lex's line of sight, Clark found himself looking once again at the stranger in a red dress.
With a white scarf wrapped around her joined hands, she took three small steps into the bedroom. No emotion showed on her face, as her eyes never left Lex's. Coming to a stop several feet from them, she nodded once before saying, "Hello, Alex."
Chapter 18: Beware of Lionels Bearing Gifts
Once in a while I'm not myself,
Once in a while, I think you're someone else.
- "99%" performed by Soul Asylum
February 3, 2003
Luthor Castle
"Hello Alex."
"Grace?" asked Lex as he slowly crawled off the bed.
A chill ran through Clark at the loss of Lex's warmth, but mostly he felt numb as he watched Lex approach the mysterious blond. Sitting up, he watched as a smile spread across her face. Quietly, he listened as her sweet voice confirmed
Lex's inquiry, "Yes Alex, it's me."
Gently, Lex wrapped his hands around the scarf Grace gripped tightly. Leaning toward her, Lex looked her directly in the eyes and asked, "How are you?"
Her smile faltering by the slightest degree, Grace replied, "Better."
Finally, Clark found his voice. "Lex, who is this?"
Coolly, Lionel made the introduction, "This is Grace Harcourt. She is Lex's fiance."
"What?" exclaimed Clark.
Without taking his eyes off of Grace, Lex corrected Lionel, "Ex-fiance."
Noting the confusion on Clark's face, Lionel chose this moment to pounce. "Oh dear, did my son forget to mention he'd been engaged. Well, I guess that means he probably hasn't mentioned all the others either."
Trying to get Lex's attention, Clark stood up and walked up behind him. When this failed to get the reaction he desired, Clark turned to Lionel and asked, "What others?"
Smiling, Lionel answered, "All the women Lex has almost married, of course."
Looking back at Lex, Clark said, "How many times have you been engaged?"
Still looking directly at Grace, Lex replied, "Seven times."
"Seven?"
Walking up behind Clark, Lionel said, "Yes, seven. Miss Harcourt was the first. Now, perhaps you should leave."
Sneering at Lionel, Clark turned to Lex and whispered, "Lex?"
Finally breaking away from Grace, Lex looked directly at Clark and answered, "Maybe that would be for the best, Clark. Grace and I have a lot to talk about."
Glancing past Clark, Lex nodded in his Father's direction and said, "Why don't you go, too."
Making a slight bow, Lionel backed out of the room as he replied, "Of course, I can see you have a lot of catching up to do."
Once Lionel was gone, Lex looked back to where Clark was still standing. Lex's eyes softened, but his resolve remained firm. Softly, he said, "I'll call you later, Clark."
Without much hesitation, Clark rushed from the room. Using super-speed, he raced across the fields and down the country roads until he reached home. Once there, his speed never faltered as he entered the living room. Acting on his fury-filled momentum, Clark grabbed a hold of the front door and slammed it shut. It wasn't until splinters hit the back of his head that he realized he used super-strength to do it.
Seated in their favorite armchairs, Jonathan and Martha could only shield themselves from the wood chips flinging through the air. As the sawdust cloud cleared, they saw their son standing before them, a matching expression of shock filling his face. Trying to remain calm, Jonathan inquired, "Son, what are you doing?"
Spinning back and forth from looking at the doorway to his parents, Clark broke. Swinging at the air, Clark yelled, "Damnit! Damn that shriveled up, old man."
A little afraid of what she was hearing, Martha said, "Clark?"
With jerking movements, Clark started to pace as a stream of words left his mouth, "She's there. Right now. She's there and she called him Alex. Alex! I don't get to call him Alex. Oh no. Not me. But she does. Yeah, that's right. She said it twice. In fact, she's probably done it since I left."
Together, Martha and Jonathan asked, "Clark, who are you talking about?"
Motioning in the direction of Lex's castle, Clark answered, "Her. The first of the seven."
Standing up, Martha made her way to the kitchen. On her way, she grabbed Clark by the arm, dragging him along. As they crossed the floor, Martha sighed, "Come on. I'm going to fix some coffee. I have a feeling this is going to take a while."
--<{()}>--
Luthor Castle
"It's a lovely room, Alex. Thank you," said Grace as Lex opened the door to one of the guest quarters.
Lex watched as she walked up to the bed. She looked around the room, still clutching at her scarf. Clearing his throat, he got her attention before he
asked, "Why, Grace?"
"Why do you think?" she replied.
"I never thought you could betray me like this," he countered.
Biting her bottom lip, she argued, "I thought that about you once, long ago. I was wrong and I guess you are, too."
"Is that what this is about? Vengeance?"
Hanging her head, Grace whispered, "No. I never hated you like that, Alex. It's quite simple really. Your Father isn't happy about your romantic choices and my Father owed him a favor. So, here I am."
Nodding, Lex backed away. As he closed the door, she stopped him. "Alex, wait."
Opening the door again, he looked at her. He didn't wait long. With sad eyes, she walked up to him and whispered, "I really am glad to see you again, Alex."
Looking down, Lex took in a deep breath. Before shutting the door, he said, "I just wish our reunion could have been under better circumstances."
Once the door closed, Grace approached the door and sighed, "Me, too."
--<{()}>--
Kent Farm
Slamming his fist against the kitchen table, Jonathan Kent said, "I told you that he was no good. Didn't I say there is no such thing as a good Luthor?
This proves it."
Watching Clark's reaction, Martha saw her son's shoulders droop as his lowered his head. She sensed the cloud of despair clinging to him. As Jonathan raved, she saw Clark flinch as if struck. That was when she said, "Jonathan, please be quiet. You're not helping."
Shocked, Jonathan stared open-mouthed at Martha. For a second there was silence before Jonathan kicked back his chair and stood up. Walking from the room, he mumbled, "I need to patch up this door."
Her eyes drawn back to Clark, Martha placed her hand on his mug and asked, "Would you like another cup?"
Shaking his head, Clark replied, "No."
Leaving the mug in his hands, Martha left the table to refill her own. Returning to the table, she was shocked to hear Clark say, "Maybe Dad is right."
As she sat down, she watched him bury his face in his hands and say, "I don't know. I'm so confused."
Touching his arm again, Martha watched as he drew his gaze up to meet hers before he asked, "What should I do?"
Pressing against the back of her chair, Martha gripped her cup tightly. Shaking her head, Martha looked down as she said, "I couldn't say."
What Martha saw next brought her to the edge of tears. Loneliness filled Clark's features and his shoulders slumped even deeper. Unable to watch Clark endure such pain, Martha placed a firm hand on his arm. When Clark looked at her, Martha drained her coffee cup then said, "Clark, I don't know what's going on with Lex, but I do know that you owe it to the relationship you share with him to give him a chance to explain."
Blinking a few times, Clark nodded slowly as he stood up. Tapping on the table, his nodding lessened more and more until he stood perfectly still. Stepping away from the table, he announced, "I'm going to go to bed."
Nodding, Martha picked up their mugs and walked over to the sink. Just as she placed the mugs in the sink, she felt a pair of strong arms surround her. Closing her eyes, she raised her hands up to grip Clark's forearms. With one last squeeze, she felt him withdraw, but not before he whispered, "Thanks, Mom."
She nodded. She flashed a shaky smile at him as he turned away. Gripping the kitchen counter tightly, she watched him walk away. Once she heard his footfalls on the stairs, she silently congratulated herself on managing to wait that long before she started to cry.
--<{()}>--
The Next Morning
Luthor Castle
"I forgot what an early riser you are," mentioned Lex as he walked into his entertainment room.
Sitting cross-legged on the sofa, Grace looked considerably less refined than she did the night before. Dressed in a mismatched set of pajamas, she reached up to smooth her unruly hair as she replied, "Can't miss the early morning cartoons, Alex. You know that."
Patting the space beside her, she gestured for Lex to sit down. When he remained standing, she stopped moving her hand and said, "I won't bite, y'know."
"Do I? Know that?" replied Lex.
Frowning, Grace sat up straight. Looking at Lex, she asked, "Aren't you even just a little bit glad to see me again?"
Uncrossing his arms, Lex responded by sitting next to Grace. She smiled instantly. Picking up the remote, she turned back to the TV. On the screen, a classic Looney Tunes episode played. As Daffy got his beak shot off, Grace giggled. Leaning back, she continued to watch the TV as she said, "Do you remember when we were six and we were determined to be called Bugs and Daffy?"
Stifling a run of laughter, Lex replied, "Yes. I also remember how we decided that my Father's limo driver resembled Elmer Fudd and should be treated accordingly."
Bringing her hands up to her face, Grace smothered a streak of loud laughter. Tomato red, Grace recalled, "I remember we used to get in so much trouble for the things we did to that poor man. I can hear your Mother, now."
Sitting up poker straight, Grace waved her index finger back and forth as she said with a slight Scottish brogue, "Alexander Luthor, what have I told you about dropping water balloons on nice Mr. Andrews head? What have I told you, young man?"
Falling back on the sofa, Grace slid to the left until she reached Lex. Looking up at him, Grace tried in vain to swallow her laughter. Seeing his smile, Grace let go of a held breath. Looking back at the cartoon, she asked, "Whatever happened to nice Mr. Andrews anyway?"
"Don't you remember?" asked Lex. Looking down, he watched Grace shake her head before he explained, "He quit when we were eleven after an incident involving a gallon of red paint, a pound of chopped up fish guts and a can of shaving cream broke the camel's back."
Giggling again, Grace's hand fluttered up to her lips as she said, "Oh yeah. Now, I remember."
"It took a year for my Father to hire a permanent replacement," commented Lex.
Suddenly sober, Grace frowned as she asked, "Nelson?"
In response, Lex nodded.
Resting her head on Lex's shoulder, Grace stretched out beside him as she whispered, "I'm sorry."
Looking down at Grace, Lex didn't say anything. Searching her eyes, he found the friend he'd missed all these years. Reaching up, he ran a finger down her cheek. Relaxing against the sofa, they were still looking into each other's eyes when Clark entered the room.
Part 19: Burning Secrets and Smoldering Doubts
Is he deceiving me?
Or, am I deceiving myself?
- "Does He Love You?" Performed by Reba McEntire and Linda Davis
February 4, 2003
Luthor Castle
"Ahem."
Simultaneously, Lex and Grace looked at Clark. Grace grinned at Clark in the second that passed before Lex shoved her away. Pouting slightly, Grace followed Lex as he walked over to Clark, leading him from the room.
Outside the entertainment room, Lex managed to get Clark all the way to staircase before pulling him into a firm embrace. He noted the tension in Clark's body. Pulling away, Lex looked up at Clark's confused face. Taking Clark by the hand, he led Clark up to his bedroom.
Inside his bedroom, Lex closed the door. Patiently, he waited for Clark to sit down on the bed. Finally, he crossed the room as he explained, "Nothing is going on."
Clark looked less than convinced as he asked, "Why is she here?"
"My Father wants her to be here," replied Lex.
When confusion filled Clark's face, Lex explained, "This castle doesn't belong to me, Clark. It belongs to my Father. It belongs to LuthorCorp. If my Father wants her here, I can't say no."
"And what about downstairs?" Clark inquired.
"What? On the couch?"
Nodding, Clark answered, "Yes, on the couch."
Sighing loudly, Lex sat down beside Clark. He looked down at his hands, examining his cuticles. Finally, he returned Clark's gaze and said, "She's a very old friend, Clark. I won't lie to you. There's a part of me that's very happy to see her. Especially in such good health."
"You almost married her," Clark observed.
"Well, as my Father told you, I've almost married a lot of women. But Grace.Grace is like Pete. She was my first friend. We were in playgroup together. I've known her my whole life, but we.parted and went our separate ways. We haven't seen or heard from each other in nearly six years."
"Why?" asked Clark.
Shifting his eyes about the room, Lex stuttered, "We had our reasons - nothing really important. What it comes down to is that she's not a bad person, Clark. She's not a threat. She doesn't want to be here. Her Father sent her here. So, she roams the halls a little. Big deal. I'd still much rather be with you."
Smiling, Clark wrapped an arm around Lex's waist. Pulling him closer, Clark whispered, "Okay."
Lovingly, Lex placed fingers on Clark's cheeks. Slowly, his fingers inched back until they combed through Clark's thick hair. Tugging gently, Lex leaned in and kissed Clark. Their lips lingered before finally drawing apart. Embracing Clark, Lex whispered, "So, see? No worries."
--<{()}>--
February 14, 2003
Talon Cafe
"So, I take it she's still there," said Lana as she looked at Clark's frown.
"Yeah, she's still there. Y'know, he's bringing her to the Governor's party tonight?" asked Clark as he gratefully took the cup of coffee Lana placed in front of him.
Lana picked up a towel and started cleaning the counter. "You don't say. Did he give some reason for this?"
"Yeah," replied Clark as he sipped from his coffee. "He says he doesn't want to leave her at the castle all by herself. He says he's only doing it to keep an eye on her. Besides, he says we can't dance together because it's a public party and we're not out-out yet."
Sighing loudly, Lana observed, "He could be telling the truth, but still that's harsh. She's going to be on his arm. She's going to want to dance with him. What are you supposed to be doing while this is happening?"
Looking down at his coffee, Clark stared at the swirls of cream in the dark liquid before bringing his eyes back to Lana's. "Will you go to the party with me?"
Quickly, Clark saw Lana's reluctance and continued, "It's going to be full of boring businessmen and politicians. At least, if you go to the party with me, I'll have one friend there."
Cocking her head to the side and arching a brow, Lana replied, "It's kind of short notice, but I do have a dress I never got to use at the spring formal last year."
Smiling, Clark said, "Thanks Lana."
Smiling back at Clark, Lana whispered, "What are friends for?"
--<{()}>--
That Night
Metropolis, Kansas
Luthor Tower
Luthor Tower glittered. In Clark's mind, he wasn't quite sure if it was due to the decorative lighting or the paparazzi with their flashing cameras. In awe, he stared out the window at the brilliance of it all until Grace asked, "Have you never been to a gala before?"
Looking back at Grace, Clark shifted in his seat, as he replied, "Aren't too many 'galas' like this in Smallville."
"No, I suppose not," sighed Grace as she leaned back against the limo's plush cushions.
Beside her, Lana made a face to get Clark's attention. A second later, she motioned at Grace and then rolled her eyes. Clark barely contained his laughter and was grateful for the distraction when the curbside greeter opened the car door.
First, Grace and Lex exited the vehicle amidst a wave of flashing lights. Then, Lana and Clark exited the vehicle earning far less attention. Shrugging, they hurried after Lex and Grace who were already advancing down the red carpet. At the door, Lex didn't need to state his name as he waved his hand toward Clark and Lana. The doorman nodded and held the door open for all of them. Once inside, Clark's head began to spin as he tilted it back to take in the gigantic crystal chandelier hanging above the dance floor.
A nudge to his shoulder finally got his attention. Looking at the source, Clark found Lex smiling back at him. They enjoyed an enchanted moment before a stout man walked up to them and said, "Mr. Luthor, I'm so glad you could make it to my party."
Turning toward the voice, Lex flashed a brilliant smile. Bowing slightly, he glanced at the frigid woman hanging onto the stout man who offered a plastic smile as he replied, "Governor, it is my pleasure."
Glancing at Lex's guests, the Governor asked, "Who did you bring with you?"
Making the necessary introductions, Lex said, "This is Clark Kent, Lana Lang and."
Stepping forward, Grace didn't give Lex a chance to finish. Instead, she extended her hand and introduced herself. "Grace Harcourt, Mr. Luthor's fiance."
Clark and Lana's mouth fell open. Angry, Clark narrowed his eyes, fighting off a growl as Grace exchanged handshakes with the Governor and started chatting with his wife. Glancing at Lex, Clark was slightly comforted by the fact that, just beneath his mask, Lex bore a touch of shock. Cordially, Lex ended the conversation. Smiling and patting Grace's hand on his arm, Lex said, "Well, we mustn't keep you from your guests, but we'll speak again before the end of the evening."
Nodding, the Governor and his wife walked away. Quietly, Lex did the same, practically dragging Grace with him. He shot her a withering look, but she shook it off and simply smiled back at him. They didn't get two feet away before another man and his wife walked up to them. "Lex Luthor, nice to see you again."
Tucking his hand in his jacket pocket, Lex replied, "Roger , you seem to be in good spirits."
Nodding, Roger glanced hungrily at Grace and asked, "Who is your lovely companion?"
Once again, Grace answered before Lex had a chance, "Grace Harcourt, Lex's fiance."
Shocked, the couple took a step back before Roger said, "I wasn't aware that someone had managed to tie you down, Lex, but you couldn't have picked a more beautiful captor."
As Grace began to chat with Roger's wife, Clark turned every shade of red. He felt his eyes start to burn when a hand on his arm distracted him. Looking down, he saw Lana. She stared back at him with sadness and shared pain in her eyes. He watched her glance back at the spectacle called Grace and frown. Then, he followed her as she pulled him away.
Once they were far enough away, Lana whispered to Clark, "It's just an act, Clark. I'm sure Lex doesn't mean it."
Nodding, Clark crossed his arms while he said, "I guess. I just hate seeing her all over him like that."
Patting Clark's arm sympathetically, Lana stepped closer and whispered, "Then, close your eyes."
Confused, Clark frowned. Raising a hand to his objection, Lana said, "You're not out. It's not public and Lex has to do this to keep up appearances. Since you're too young for your relationship to go public, you are left with only too choices - Look away or walk away."
Clark stood perfectly still for a moment before nodding. Mimicking Clark's nodding head, Lana took him by the hand and pulled him away from Lex and the painful sight of Grace by his side.
--<{()}>--
Several Introductions Later
It took some time, but Lex finally managed to tear Grace away from the heart of the party. To a lonely balcony, he led her with all the speed and force he could display without attracting attention. Once there, he threw her off his arm as he asked, "What the hell was all that?"
With a show of mock innocence, Grace replied, "What was that?"
Crossing his arms over his chest, Lex answered, "Yes, that."
"Mingling, of course," replied Grace. "Surely, that is why I'm here. To deflect attention away from the boy you'd rather have beside you. Trust me - No one out there thinks you're gay now."
"Don't play with me Grace. I didn't ask you to do that and you know it," said Lex.
"Do I? Why am I here, Alex. Surely, you don't think I'd go through your files," asked Grace.
Shaking his head, Lex said, "No, I didn't think that. You're right. I needed a cover. It wouldn't do for me to be seen alone with Clark on such a social occasion. I did need a distraction for the paparazzi, but I didn't expect you to take on the role with such vigor."
Quietly, Grace stepped away from Lex. Looking out at the dance floor, she sighed, "It felt like old times. I fell back into it so easily and suddenly it felt so natural to say I was your fiance."
Glancing over her shoulder, Grace apologized, "I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable. That wasn't my intention."
Silently, Grace turned back towards the dance floor. Songs changed and a haunting tune filled the air. Softly whispering, Grace said, "Do you remember this song?"
Sighing, Lex replied, "Yes."
"It was at your commencement ball. We were sixteen years old."
"I was the king of the ball."
"I was your queen and this was our song."
Surprised, Grace jumped when she felt Lex's hand on her shoulder. Smiling broadly, she looked out at the people on the dance floor once more before spinning around and grabbing his hands. Pulling at him, she cried, "Dance with me. Like you did that night."
Pulling away, Lex said, "I don't know, Grace."
"Oh come on, Alex. Just this once. For me. Please."
Lex thought it over before finally nodding a couple times and opening his arms. Grace placed her left hand on his shoulder before leaning her chest against his. Slowly, they rocked back and forth. Their rights hands met and clutched onto one another as the rocking slowed. Looking into each other's eyes, they moved without thinking, their lips drawing closer and closer.
Lex broke away first. Looking away, he bit his lip as he felt her place her head on his shoulder. Calmed by the way Grace massaged his shoulder, Lex closed his eyes as he rested his cheek against the top of her head.
--<{()}>--
It took a few minutes before Clark realized that he didn't see Lex anymore. Making some discreet inquiries, Clark learned that Lex and Grace went to a secluded balcony. As the last person he asked pointed at the balcony in question, Clark looked in that direction and saw movement. Quickly, he walked toward the balcony. Eager to see Lex, he wasn't prepared for the sight that welcomed him.
Silently, Clark watched them dance. He noted how nothing, not even air, existed between them as they moved in half-circles. Shaking his head, Clark felt his eyes start to burn again. The burning grew until he was forced to look away. Turning back to the main hall, Clark stumbled away from the balcony. When he finally reached the dance floor, he managed to open his stinging eyes.
Across the room, he saw Lana getting some hors d'oeuvres. Crossing the room, he didn't speak, not even to apologize when he pushed several people out of the way. By the time, he got to Lana, she was staring at him strangely. He stopped right in front of her, but didn't say anything. Instead, Lana stepped forward and asked, "Clark, what's wrong?"
"It's not just an act," he replied.
"What's not just an act?"
"Them. Lex and Grace. I'm so stupid. I can't believe I didn't see it."
Shaking her head, Lana said, "Wait. Why don't you explain what this is all about. Start from the beginning."
Taking a deep breath, he told Lana everything he saw. Just when Lana was going to console him, two large men wearing black tuxedos approached Clark from behind. They placed their hands on Clark's shoulders and said, "Can you come with us?"
Turning around, Clark shrugged the hands off his shoulders and asked, "Why?"
Looking from side to side, the two men continued, "Don't make a disturbance, sir. We don't want to cause a scene."
Clark appeared fit to fight, but a hand on his arm made him pause. Looking down, he saw Lana. Softly, she said, "Just go peacefully, Clark. I'll follow."
Nodding, Clark agreed and headed for the front doors with the two men following close behind. Lana watched him slowly disappear from sight before looking at the far balcony. Narrowing her eyes, Lana marched across the dance floor. Reaching the balcony, the song ended and she watched as Grace and Lex stepped away from each other. Rushing into the room, Lana walked right up to Lex and pushed him hard. Stumbling backwards, Lex stared at Lana with equal parts confusion and anger. "What the hell?
Standing tall, Lana said, "What the hell, indeed? So this is how you treat Clark? This is how much he means to you?"
Straightening out his coat, Lex replied, "Look, I don't know what you think you saw, but-"
"Not what I saw, Lex. What Clark saw."
His eyes growing bigger, Lex asked, "Where is he now?"
Rolling her eyes, Lana tucked her hair behind her ear as she answered, "Being escorted out by security."
"What? What happened? Why didn't you say that sooner?"
Tipping her head to the side, she replied, "Because that would have given you a chance to run after him and save the day."
Shaking his head, Lex walked up to Lana, his intent unclear. As he opened his mouth to speak, Lana interrupted him, "Save it. I don't want to hear it. I don't want to hear any of your pathetic excuses."
Stepping back, Lana said, "It's so unfair. You get to have him."
Lana watched as understanding dawned on Lex's face before stepping out of the balcony.
Hurrying out of the building, she stopped when she came to the taxi stop. Looking from side to side, Lana wondered how much a bus ticket from Metropolis to Smallville would cost when a weak voice called out from down the street. Seated on a bus stop bench, Clark motioned for her to come closer.
Walking over to him, she sat beside him. Slowly, she asked, "What do you want to do now?"
Sitting back, Clark sighed, "Go home, but I can't. I don't want to explain this to my parents."
Gently, Lana patted his knee as she offered, "Then come to the Talon. We'll play scrabble or something until it's time for you to go home."
"I'd like that," he answered.
Standing up, Clark commented, "I don't think they'll give us the limo."
"That's fine. You have other ways to get us home, don't you?" asked Lana.
Smiling, Clark wrapped his arm around Lana's waist before scooping her up. "Hang on tight."
Draping her arms around his neck and shoulders, she whispered, "You don't have to tell me twice."
A moment later, they were gone and only a lingering lilt of laughter remained.
Several Hours Later
The limo sailed down route 90. Inside the car, an eerie silence hung in the air. A quiet hour of tension was enough for Grace. Sighing loudly, she garnered angry looks. Sitting forward, she looked at Lex and said, "Surely, you realize that this was inevitable. If it hadn't been on that balcony, it would have been elsewhere. We wouldn't have been able to keep off the dance floor forever. He would have seen us together anyway."
Cocking an eyebrow, Lex inquired, "And your point is?"
Looking down at the floor of the limo, she continued, "He's a boy, Alex. He gets jealous. Maybe someday he'll be able to handle it, but for now, it just upsets him."
Rolling his head back, Lex sighed, "Tell me something I don't know."
"Okay," said Grace, "You haven't realized yet that this is going to be your life. You will attend parties with girls and Clark will be somewhere waiting for you. Your life is a lie and you haven't come to terms with it yet."
"That's not true."
"Isn't it? Tell me, Alex. Are you going to come out? Are you going to tell the public at large that the leader of one of the largest companies in this country is gay? Do you really think you can get away with that?"
In response, he didn't say a word. Carefully, Grace crossed over to his side of the limo. Running her hand up and down his chest, she said, "There is another solution. You could marry me."
Shocked, Lex pushed Grace away. "What?"
"I could be a good wife, Alex. There's a lot of pain between us, but there's a lot of love, too. I can be a good wife and I'd rather be a good wife to you than to some strange man who offers my Father a price he thinks is appropriate."
She watched Lex shake his head as she continued, "You could have Clark, too. I wouldn't stand in your way."
In disbelief, Lex asked, "Grace, what is this all about? I thought you said this was all your Father's idea. You promised me that you had no part in this."
Nodding, Grace replied, "I don't have any part in this, but why fight it. Understand Alex. I haven't been a nun while you were gone. I found love, too, but I couldn't keep mine. I would give you a way to keep yours. If we get married, your Father will leave you alone. So long as you're discreet, no one will ever need to know that our marriage is a sham."
"Why are you doing this to yourself? If you have someone else to go to, then go. Be with that person. Be happy."
Tossing her hair, Grace laughed airily, "You don't get, do you? Not all of us are like you. We don't all have Mothers who died and left us money and corporations. Some of us have to do as we're told or we lose everything we have left. So what do you say, Alex, will you marry me?"
--<{()}>--
At About The Same Time
Smallville, Kansas
Talon Cafe
Carefully, she poured two cups of coffee. Placing the coffee pot on the warmer, she picked up the cups and carried them over to the table where her visitor waited. Handing him a cup, she sat down without saying a word. Sipping her coffee, she watched him cradle his cup. For several seconds, she followed the sliding liquid as he rocked the cup from side to side. Finally, Lana broke the silence, "I didn't prepare that coffee for it to just go cold."
Taking a big gulp of coffee, Clark let it warm him as he slowly swallowed. "I just don't know what to do, Lana."
Looking down at her coffee, she said, "Clark, maybe you need to face that there's too much between them to be set aside. They almost got married once. Maybe, they still love each other."
Quickly, he objected, "Lex loves me. I know he does. "
"How can you be so sure?"
Looking Lana in the eyes, Clark replied, "I heard him say it."
Wide eyed, Lana sat straight up and exclaimed, "What? When?"
"A couple weeks ago," answered Clark. Shifting uncomfortably, he admitted, "He didn't know I heard it. I have a new set of powers - Super senses. I can hear and see things that other people can't. I was trying them out and I heard him say it.
Pausing for a moment, Lana asked, "Do you love him too?"
Tipping back his cup, Clark drank all the coffee. Swallowing hard, he coughed before saying, "Yeah, I do."
Placing her cup on the table, Lana said, "Well, I guess that complicates things."
--<{()}>--
March 2, 2003
Kent farm
Lex barely made his way up to the top of the landing when he heard Clark say, "It took you long enough to come around."
Making no excuses, Lex crossed the loft. Never taking his eyes off of his goal, he stopped once he reached the couch. Looking down at Clark, he said, "You had some thinking to do. So did I."
"Lana said you might," mentioned Clark as he stood up.
"I wouldn't trust everything Miss Lang has to say, Clark. She obviously has her own agenda."
Laughing under his breath, Clark said, "Is that so?"
Standing close to Clark, Lex explained, "There were things she said to me at the ball. I think she would love to have you for herself."
Cocking his head to the side, Clark asked, "Are you for real?"
Shaking his head, Clark walked over to the open loft doors that doubled as a window. He laughed as he said, "A lot of things happened at that ball. I watched you and your ex being a little more than just acquaintances. Yet, I get the accusations. This is just too much."
Stuffing his hands into his pockets, Lex replied, "I'm not accusing you of anything. Besides, what happened at the ball, I can explain that."
Turning around, Clark smiled. Quickly, he walked over to the sofa and sat down. Crossing his arms behind his head, he said, "I can't wait to hear this."
Taking a deep breath, Lex said, "I took Grace onto the balcony to find out what was going on with her saying she was my fiance. While we were out there, a song came on that we used to dance to. So, for old times sake we danced again. All you saw was us reliving an old memory."
"That's all?" asked Clark.
"Absolutely," swore Lex.
Sitting forward, Clark asked, "Do you think I'm stupid or something? This isn't the first time I've walked in on you two."
"Both times were completely innocent," argued Lex.
"The first time, at the castle, you told me that Grace wasn't a threat. I believed you."
Nodding, Lex said, "Yes, you did and you should go on doing so. Grace did some things I didn't approve of and I've spoken to her about them."
Looking up, Clark replied, "It isn't Grace who makes things a lot more complicated around here."
A scowl appeared on Lex's face as he growled, "This doesn't sound like you, Clark. Did Lana tell you this?"
Laughing sadly, Clark said, "Lana again?"
Sitting back against the sofa, Clark asked, "Didn't you say Grace is not a threat?"
After a silent pause, Lex answered, "Yes."
"Then Lana is just like Grace - Not a threat. Let's leave it at that."
Nodding, Lex agreed, "Fine."
Silence surrounded them until Clark finally asked, "When you got here you said that you had a lot of thinking to do."
Nodding, Lex answered, "Yes. I've had some.proposals to consider."
Looking up, Clark asked, "Really, have you come to any decisions?"
Slowly, Lex unbuttoned his coat and sat down beside Clark. With his elbows on his thighs, he turned to look at Clark, as he admitted, "No."
Licking his lips, Lex continued, "I know I'm not the only one with decisions to make. So, how about you? Have you come to any decisions lately?"
Resting against the sofa back, Clark sighed, "Yeah. I have."
"What have you decided?" Lex whispered.
"I spent a lot of time thinking about us, Lex. Suddenly, it dawned on me that there is an 'us.' We've had chances to walk away from each other before and we haven't. Now, we have one more chance and I've decided that there is only one thing I can do."
Wide-eyed, Lex asked, "What is that, Clark?"
"Not walk away. Someone once told me that one should fight a little before deciding to throw anything important away."
Turning toward Clark, Lex smiled as he asked, "Someone told you that, huh?"
Clark turned toward Lex and answered, "Yeah. Look, I haven't walked away before. I'm not walking away this time either."
Shaking slightly, Lex asked, "Clark, are you sure?"
Smiling widely, Clark answered, "Yeah. I'm not prepared to let you go right now."
"Clark," said Lex. 'You're so much better than I deserve.' Holding Clark's head with both hands, Lex stared straight into his eyes until finally leaning forward and placing a kiss on his lips.
--<{()}>--
Nearly An Hour Later
With a smile, Lex slid into his car. He stared at Clark as he revved up the engine. Standing on the country road that led to his parent's farm, Clark looked so edible with his tousled hair and his slightly swollen lips. Carefully, Lex adjusted his unusually tight pants as he slipped the transmission into gear and drove away.
At the sight of the castle, his smile stayed. It wasn't until he finished parking his car and actually entered the stone fortress that he found nothing to smile about. As he walked in the door, Sheila took his coat. They walked through the halls to his office all the while discussing the day's business. Sheila opened the office doors and waited for my boss to enter. When he didn't, she looked at what stopped him in his tracks. In front of the open doors stood Grace as if she'd waited patiently by the door.
Slowly, Lex entered the office. He quickly dismissed Sheila who closed the office doors on her way out. Taking a deep breath, Lex declared, "I just can't do it, Grace. He means too much to me."
As her proud shoulders slumped, Grace replied, "Okay Alex, have it your way. I'll pack. I'll be gone by morning."
As she passed by him, Lex said anxiously, "What's going to happen to you?"
Smiling sadly at Lex, Grace paused and answered, "Move on to the next man my Father has in mind. The next one may not be so reluctant. Who knows? You may hear of my impending nuptials by next year."
She took a step forward, but stopped again when she heard Lex say, "Grace, wait.
Turning back to him, she looked directly into his eyes as he said, "Stay for as long as you like. There's no need to rush back to a life you don't want."
Bowing her head, Grace said, "You don't have to do this, Alex."
Shaking his head, Lex disagreed, "Truth is, I owe you a lot more than this, Grace."
Looking up at Lex, Grace smiled tightly and agreed, "Okay Alex, I'll stay."
--<{()}>--
March 5, 2003
Luthor Castle
Sipping on tea, Grace sat reading the Daily Planet. She was on page three of the society page when suddenly the paper was ripped out of her hands. For a moment she growled until she saw who was standing in front of her - Lionel Luthor. Blinking quickly, Grace sat up straight. Swallowing hard, she watched as he turned the paper around and looked at what she was reading.
"Checking the menu for your next meal?" Lionel asked as he closed the paper and folded it under his arm.
"No. Just keeping up with old friends," replied Grace.
"Indeed." Sitting across from Grace, Lionel looked directly at her and said, "I've heard the most disturbing news. It appears you have failed in your attempts to separate my son from that Kansas farm boy."
Quickly, she argued, "It's complicated. It's not easy being friend and vamp all at the same time."
"Miss Harcourt, you do remember how important it is for you to be successful, don't you?"
"Of course, but I'm doing all I can. You've got to give me more time."
"Time is a luxury meant for men with a better business sense than your Father. Time is running out, Miss Harcourt. I want to see results soon."
His final words hanging in the air, Lionel stood up and left the room. As the door closed behind him, Grace slumped down into her pillows, struggling to breathe.
--<{()}>--
March 8, 2003
Luthor Castle
Grace met Clark in the foyer. Smiling sweetly, she told Clark that Lex was in an important meeting and said for him to wait for him in Lex's bedroom. Clark thanked her and headed up the stairs.
Confidently, Clark walked into Lex's bedroom. Curious, he walked over to the unmade bed and picked up the robe draped across the footboard. Holding it out, Clark read the monogrammed initials - "GH." With suspicion, he turned toward the bedroom door and watched Lex enter the room. Still holding onto the robe, Clark slowly crossed his arms as Lex caught sight of the robe that Grace loaned to him when the maid couldn't locate his personal robe last night and said, "I can explain."
--<{()}>--
March 12, 2003
Talon Cafe
Laughing loudly, Lex and Clark sat side by side. Chloe and Justin were settled on a couch a few feet away. Lana came and went as she balanced her management duties with her wish to be amongst friends. Two rounds of caffeine laced drinks under their belts, the gang placed their orders for a third round when Grace arrived.
She looked only at Lex and said, "Alex? I didn't know you'd be here, tonight,"
Unexpected and unwanted, Grace did not let the shock and disdain directed at her deter her in the least. Pulling a chair over, she insinuated herself into the group by sitting next to Lex. Turning to Lana, she ordered a cup of tea before inching her chair closer to Lex. Sweetly, she introduced herself to Chloe and Justin. Punctuating her speech with light touches on Lex's shoulder and arm, Grace succeeded in sucking the life out of the evening. Within minutes, Justin and Chloe excused themselves.
Several minutes later, Grace feigned a headache and asked Lex to drive her home. Reluctantly, Lex agreed. Offering apologies to Clark, Lex found himself with an armful of Grace as he guided her out of the coffee shop.
--<{()}>--
March 19, 2003
Smallville High
Patiently, Lex waited outside the high school. A few minutes after the last bell, he saw Clark and waved. Smiling, he waited until Clark was seated beside him before asking, "So, what was that frantic cell phone call I received from you all about?"
Glaring at Lex, Clark argued, "It was not frantic. I just wanted to see you without Grace butting in."
Rolling his head back until his head hit the headrest, Lex sighed, "Grace again."
"Lex, she's obviously up to something."
"You don't know that, Clark. I'll admit she has her own agenda, but who doesn't?"
Narrowing his eyes, Clark asked, "Why are you protecting her?"
Looking back at Clark, Lex replied, "I have my reasons, Clark."
"What reasons would those be?" countered Clark.
"None of your business." replied Lex.
"None of my business?" asked Clark. Leaning back in his seat, he ran a hand through his hair as he asked, "Is she threatening you?"
Shaking his head, Lex scoffed, "Please."
"You're not telling me everything, Lex. What does she know about you? What are you not telling me?"
"That too is none of your business, Clark."
"Excuse me? What secret is she holding over you?"
"What secret?"
Nodding harshly, Clark mimicked, "What secret?"
Rolling his eyes skyward, Lex laid back against the headrest. Rolling his head slowly to the right, he said, "You want to talk about secrets, Clark? Okay, let's talk about secrets. Let's talk about you. Let's talk about all the things I've seen and all the lame excuses you've given. How about the time I hit you with my Porsche? Don't try to deny it. I know I hit you. Want to talk about something more recent? How about the Valentine's Day ball? How did you get home without the limo?"
Sitting up, Lex leaned toward a now silent, wide-eyed Clark and continued, "Let's talk about all the frightened looks I see you exchange with your parents. Oh yeah, I saw those. Though to tell you the truth, I overlooked them. I mean, every family has secrets, but do not think for one minute that I haven't seen all the unspoken understanding between you, Justin and Lana."
"In fact, it's like there's a little club that knows all about Clark Kent and I'm not a member of that club, am I, Clark?"
Silently, Clark stared back at Lex. Unable to speak, he remained motionless as Lex turned in his seat and turned on the engine. He revved the engine once before mumbling, "That's what I thought."
Looking at Clark again, Lex said softly, "At least Grace is honest with me."
Slowly, Clark nodded. Opening the car door, Clark stepped out of the vehicle. Clutching the door handle, Clark looked back at Lex, but said not a word. He just closed the door and watched Lex drive away.
--<{()}>--
March 22, 2003
Metropolis, Kansas
At a long forgotten club, Lex let the pounding bass flow through him. As Grace handed him his fifth, no, eighth drink of the night, Lex finally forgot about all the problems he was having with Clark. As he swallowed the glass of Hypnotic, he realized Grace was right - He needed a night away. He needed a night when he could just be his old self again. No Clark. No anything.
Slamming the glass down on the bar, Lex let the buzzing warmth fill every inch of his body. Licking his lips, Lex reached out for Grace, pulling her onto the crowded dance floor. The music didn't fit with slow dancing, but the number of people in the club made it impossible to be more than an inch apart. Dancing wildly, Lex eventually found Grace pressed against his body. His mind cloudy from the alcohol, he smiled once at Grace's sensual mouth before kissing her soundly.
Fluidly, Grace wrapped her arms around Lex. As they continued to rock to the music, Grace wrapped her right leg around his waist and pulled him closer. Now, bumping and grinding on the dance floor, Grace smiled against Lex's mouth when she felt his erection rub against her. Lowering her right leg, Grace took Lex by the hand as she guided him out of the club.
Lip-locked, they didn't look up. Stumbling out to the parking lot, they didn't even bother to open the door of the convertible. Instead, Lex picked Grace up and dropped her onto the backseat. Not missing a beat, he scratched up his paintjob by climbing into the back, dropping down between Grace's open thighs.
Kissing madly, Lex pulled Grace's top up and dove down for her breasts. Squeezing them tightly, he sucked at them greedily until he moved his left hand down her body. Reaching her center, he grabbed the edge of her underwear. Pushing up on his knees, Lex pulled the moist panties down her thighs, stopping at her knees. He pushed his fingers through the wet curls between her thighs. As he touched her, he felt her hands fumble with his pants, pushing them down his hips.
As he probed her with his fingers, she sighed, "Oh, Alex."
Suddenly, a memory of a long ago phone call popped into his head.
"Can I call you Alex?"
"No."
Pushing up onto his elbows, Lex squeezed his eyes shut. Opening them, he found Grace's confused face. Shaking his head, he looked around and realized where he was and what he was doing. Scrambling away from Grace, Lex pulled his pants up. He could hear her questions, but he didn't listen. Instead, he sat on the car door long enough to swing his legs out of the car. Jumping onto the pavement, he didn't hesitate as he reached back into the car and began dragging Grace out of the car.
Underwear still around her knees, Grace staggered out of the car. Pulling at her blouse, she screamed, "What are you doing?"
Shrugging her off, Lex pulled out his wallet and threw a few crisp one hundred dollar bills at her feet. Climbing in the car, he heard her curses, but didn't listen. Instead, he put the car into gear and drove away.
Four Hours Later
Luthor Castle
"You fucking selfish prick!" yelled Grace as she marched into the castle. She found Lex with a cold compress held to his forehead. Unmoved she walked up to him and slapped him. "How dare you!"
Cradling his cheek, Lex replied with a cold voice, "How dare I?"
Standing up, Lex flung the cold compress on the floor. Pushing Grace, Lex backed her against the nearest wall. Grabbing her arms, he shook her as he pressed her painfully against the polished mahogany. "How could you, Grace? How could you betray me like this? Out of friendship, I helped you and this is how you repay me?"
"Out of friendship?" inquired Grace. "Out of guilt, you mean. Let's be honest - We haven't been friends for a long time. Don't forget, Alex. You left me. It wasn't the other way around."
"So, this is about vengeance," said Lex.
"You're so vain," hissed Grace. "Bloody and broken, Alex. That's how you left me. You turned your back on me when I needed you the most. No one would blame me for wanting vengeance, but this was never about that."
Letting go of her, Lex backed away. Crossing his arms over his chest, Lex asked, "Then, what was this all about, Grace?"
Inching away from Lex, Grace cautiously crossed the room. She sat down when she reached the nearest chair. Looking down at her hands, Grace explained, "Did you ever wonder what happened to me that night? Did you ever wonder where they sent me? My father placed me in an asylum in White Plains, New York. It was meant to be a prison but it became a sanctuary. I was there until three months ago."
"The man I loved. The one I told you I lost. I met him there. His name was Bobby. He was sweet and kind and good. He was the first bit of happiness I'd had in years, but he was poor with no important ties. That meant I could never tell my family about him. I hoped I'd never have to. My family rarely visited and I thought we were safe until my Father dropped by unexpectedly last January. He found us in bed together. He ordered my release the next day."
"As we drove away from White Plains, he threatened that he would kill Bobby if I ever saw him again. More than that, he promised to shut down the asylum. I couldn't let that happen. Too many people depend on the seclusion and peace that place provides. So, I promised to do whatever he wanted so long as he left Bobby and the asylum alone."
"This is why you're not fighting back," said Lex.
Nodding, Grace replied, "Of course. What could I do? Where could I go? Not back to White Plains. That's the first place my Father would look. Besides, there are too many secrets there, too many people I care about. I can't allow myself to become the destruction of that place. And you know my Father would destroy it if he thought it would make me come back to him."
"Once we reached the family estate, my Father ordered me into the library. Lionel was waiting there for me. He told me that my Father made some bad business decisions and was in debt to Lionel for most of his net worth. Lionel said the debt would be wiped clean if I got you to leave Clark. My Father had already accepted Lionel's terms. He ordered me to pack for the trip to Smallville."
Looking down at Grace's sad face, Lex summarized, "So our Fathers conspired to break up my relationship with Clark and cover up your time at the asylum."
Nodding, Grace answered, "Yes.
Heavily, Lex slid down into the seat beside Grace. Slowly, his hand reached out until it took a hold of Grace's hand. Sighing loudly, Lex whispered, "I can't say that if I were in the same position that I wouldn't do the same thing you're doing right now. You were right before. I am fortunate to have my own money, my own autonomy. There's a reason why my Father needed to go to these lengths to try to destroy the one good thing in my life - My Father has no direct power over me."
"Don't get me wrong, I'm pissed. But I still owe you. I wronged you, Grace. I betrayed you six years ago in a way far more heinous than the way you have betrayed me now. For that, I'm extending some protection. This castle can be your sanctuary until I can find some way to give you back some of the happiness you've lost. Perhaps then, we can wipe the slate clean."
--<{()}>--
March 24, 2003
Luthor Castle
"Sheila, come into my office," ordered Lex.
"As you wish, Mr Luthor," replied Sheila, obediently. She entered Lex's office with a notebook and calendar, ready for whatever awaited.
"Sheila, I have a delicate mission for you."
--<{()}>--
March 31, 2003
Luthor Castle
Quietly, Lionel waited in Lex's office. Once his son appeared, he rose to his feet. Lex didn't miss a beat as he asked, "What brings you to darken my doorway this time, Dad?"
Shrugging off Lex's comment, Lionel said, "I came to get you."
"For what?" asked Lex.
"There are rumors flying around, Lex. For once, they don't involve your farm boy. Apparently, someone is casting doubts upon your health. Some say you have a venereal disease. Others say you have cancer or some other potentially fatal malady."
Clasping his hands behind his back, Lex asked, "I still haven't heard the reason why I need to 'get' anywhere."
Banging his cane twice on the floor, Lionel angrily stated, "LuthorCorp stock fell 10 points today at the mention of this rumor. It is imperative that we get you before a crowd and let them see how healthy you are."
"For this, I'm supposed to jump up and go to Metropolis?"
"Don't be smug. If you're not worried for LuthorCorp, then be worried for the fledging LexCorp."
Nodding slowly, Lex reached over and pushed speeddial#3. Instantly, Sheila entered the room. As he locked up his computer, Lex ordered, "Reschedule my appointments for the next two days. I'll be in Metropolis until Wednesday."
"As you wish, Mr. Luthor. Would you like to for me to reschedule any of your appointments to coincide with your trip to Metropolis? You had a couple people who were traveling from there.'
Shaking his head, Lex headed for the door. As he reached Sheila, he said, "I want them to travel."
Smiling knowingly, Sheila replied, "As you wish."
--<{()}>--
April 2, 2003
Metropolis, Kansas
Luthor Tower
"Hello Sheila, I've been trying to contact Grace. Do you know where she is?" asked Lex.
There was a short pause before Sheila answered, "No, Mr. Luthor. I suppose she went to town, but I don't know where she is exactly. Do you want me to try her cell phone?"
"No, just give her the following message - I want her to meet me here by tomorrow morning."
"As you wish."
--<{()}>--
April 3, 2003
Luthor Tower
"Why Dad, what a surprise," joked Lex as he poured his coffee. Turning around, he stared at an open copy of the Wall Street Journal he knew his father was sitting behind. Clearing his throat, he asked, "Is there some reason why you're here instead of at the office?"
Not bothering to close his paper, Lionel responded, "Is it odd for a Father to say goodbye to his only son?"
"Of course not, so long as we're pretending you're the loving Father we both know you're not."
Lowering his paper, Lionel hid a sneer behind a small smile. Lifting the paper to its original position, Lionel said, "LuthorCorp stock is back to normal after our campaign. I call that a success."
Throwing his hand up, Lex shook his head as walked over to the table and sat down. Taking a sip of his coffee, Lex sighed, "Well, isn't that just great?"
A few minutes later, the phone rang. Lex answered the call and quickly gave permission to let the person come up. A couple minutes after that, Grace entered the room. They met at the door, and didn't stay in the penthouse long. Before he left, Lex managed to glance long enough at Lionel to see the momentary look of surprise and smugness cross his Father's face.
--<{()}>--
Several Minutes Later
The Harcourt Building
"Mr. Luthor, Miss Harcourt, Mr. Harcourt can see you now."
Nodding, Lex took a hold of Grace's elbow and guided her through the large office doors. Inside the brightly lit space, a smiling man who rushed up to greet them. "Lex, it's wonderful to see you. Grace, how are you dear?"
Cordially, Grace stepped forward and placed a kiss on her Father's cheek. Stepping back, she felt Lex's arm wrapped around her shoulders. Smiling, she replied, "I'm fine, Father. How are you?"
Before Mr. Harcourt could answer, Lex interjected, "I came by to discuss some things with you, Mr. Harcourt."
Smiling widely, he rubbed his hands together as he answered, "Call me Albert, Lex, and please sit down."
Quickly, They all sat down. Lex sat beside Grace. They both sat across from Albert who grasped his knees as he leaned forward and asked, "What is it you'd like to discuss?"
Reaching into his coat, Lex pulled out an envelope. Still smiling, he handed it to Albert. Confused, Albert unfolded the letter and began reading the contents. Slowly, the smile on Albert's face faded away. Glancing back and forth from Lex to Grace, Albert carefully refolded the documents as he inquired, "What is the meaning of this?"
Sitting back, Lex explained, "I would think it's very clear. You've done very badly at business, Albert. On top of millions that you owe my Father, you have over 60 million in potential fines to several governmental agencies. That's a low estimate, of course."
"What do you want?"
Shaking his head, Lex answered, "It's not about what I want. It's about what your daughter wants. She wants her freedom from you."
Looking at Grace, Albert said, "You're betraying me then."
Staring directly into her Father's eyes, Grace replied, "Don't be so shocked. I learned how from you."
Laughing softly, Albert opined, "You aren't going to turn me in to the Government. It would bankrupt this company. You'd have to get a job and work for a living. We both know you're not about to do that."
Grasping onto Grace's hand, Lex asked, "Grace, could you wait outside? I need to speak to your Father alone."
Curious, Grace searched Lex's face. When she couldn't find an inkling of what he hadn't told her, she stood up and left the room. Once the door closed behind her, Lex turned back to Albert. "You go on business to Costa Rica a lot, don't you Albert?"
Clearing his throat, Albert answered, "Sure, to check on my plantations. What of it?"
"I found Consuelo, Albert."
Wide-eyed, Albert stuttered, "What?"
"I also found the two illegitimate sons you had by her. What are their names? Alberto and."
"Enrique."
Nodding, Lex continued, "That's right - Enrique. I looked into your prenuptial agreement with your wife. It's completely void if you are unfaithful. I'd say two kids are incredibly powerful proof of infidelity. Under Kansas law, you'd be lucky if they let you keep your car."
"Albert, you are right about one thing - Grace doesn't want to lose her inheritance. Of course, if I give this information to her Mother, then she doesn't have to. You entered into personal loans with my Father. Community Property wouldn't be touched by these loans, especially since you used most of the money to establish trusts in Consuelo's name. You'd lose your business, your home, your good name and you'd still have my Father to contend with."
Wiping his forehead, Albert asked, "What do you want? What will it take to keep this quiet?"
"An offshore trust. You'll name an independent, foreign trust company as trustee and you'll name Grace as sole beneficiary. You'll place sufficient assets in the trust for her to live well. Then, you'll leave her alone."
"What about the loans?
"That's between you and my Father. Just keep skimming profits to pay him like you have been for the past four years and you should be just fine."
"What of the previous threats?"
Shrugging, Lex replied, "What company doesn't bend a few rules, Albert? The government won't hear about yours from me."
Taking a deep breath, Albert agreed, "Fine. I'll do it, but I need both some time and some assurances."
"Of course, I'll give you three weeks to establish the trust. Once established and reviewed, I'll hand over the originals of my research."
"Agreed."
Standing up, Lex said just before he turned to leave, "It's been nice doing business with you, Albert."
--<{()}>--
April 5, 2003
Smallville, Kansas
Luthor Castle
"I'm pathetic," whispered Clark. Standing in a neighboring field, he used his telescopic vision to spy on Luthor Castle.
On Thursday, Grace stopped by the Talon for a tea before she took off for Metropolis. Lana said she looked excited. So, here stood Clark as he stood Thursday night and Friday night, waiting for Lex's return.
Finally, a little after eight o'clock in the evening, Lex's sports car drove up to the castle. As he felt his heart tighten, Clark mumbled, "Next to the word pathetic in the dictionary is my picture."
He watched as Grace jumped from the car. Practically dancing, she rushed over to Lex and hugged his arm. He felt his heart break at the sight of Lex and Grace smiling at one another as they entered the castle. As the front door closed, he felt his eyes begin to burn. Squeezing them shut, he felt tempted to use his x-ray vision to see where they went from the front door. The stinging in his eyes intensified as he seriously considered it. Then, the pain subsided enough to allow him to open his eyes. A moment later, he turned around. Walking away slowly, he sighed, "Yep, I sure am pathetic."
--<{()}>--
April 25, 2003
Luthor Castle
Standing outside the castle, Grace and Lex personally received the parcel. Tipping the courier, Lex waved the man goodbye. Anxiously, Grace ripped open the packaging. Letting out a cry of relief, she sifted through the paperwork establishing her offshore trust. Clutching the documents, she threw her arms around Lex's neck. Hugging him tightly, she laughed until Lex took the documents from her. Pulling out his cell phone, he dialed his attorney's phone number.
Leading Grace inside the castle, Lex marched into his office. Ignoring Sheila's questions, he closed his office door, locking Sheila out. Quickly, he faxed the documents to his attorney. The attorney assured him that the documents would be reviewed by the next day. Closing his phone, Lex looked at Grace and said, "We'll celebrate tomorrow once the documents have been confirmed."
Suddenly sober, Grace nodded.
--<{()}>--
April 26, 2003
Luthor Castle
"You're sure. There are no problems with the trust. Excellent."
Placing the phone down, Lex turned to Grace. Spreading his arms, he announced, "Let the celebrations commence!"
Rushing into his arms, Grace cried, "Thank God. Let's have one last happy night in this place."
Nodding, Lex escorted her to the garage.
At upwards of eighty miles per hour, they drove through Smallville. Leaving a trail of dust, they flew over the roads as loud music blasted from the stereo. Skidding on asphalt, they left burnt rubber marks on Main Street as they sped into town. Stepping out of stores and shops, the citizens witnessed the flash of red and the sound of laughter left in their wake.
Among those alerted by the roaring of an expensive engine was Clark Kent. He left the Talon just in time to see the red blur turn at the corner and vanish from sight. Biting his bottom lip, he curled his hands into fists. Unable to stand it anymore, he decided then and there to put an end to any doubts. Looking around, Clark made sure everyone was looking elsewhere before speeding away.
Clark followed them throughout Smallville. Over bridges. Across fields. He pursued them. He watched them eat at the restaurant on the edge of town. Under the moonlight, he listened to them discuss future plans. He didn't understand all the plans, but many of them involved going to New York and that just made him mad. The more he watched, the madder Clark became.
Finally, they arrived at the castle and the night appeared to be over. Lex and Grace exited the car and walked up to the front door. Before entering, Grace turned around and said, "I don't know how to thank you, Alex. You've given me my life back."
Nodding, Lex stepped forward and replied, "I hope it's a good exchange for the one I stole from you."
Pressing her fingertips against his lips, she whispered, "Let's set aside the pain we've carried. Let's say the slate has been wiped clean. I want to go forward and not look back. How does that sound to you?"
Smiling, Lex reached up and moved the hand at his face. Cradling it against his cheek, he agreed, "I'd like that."
Rubbing her thumb across his cheek, Grace said, "I need to pack and be ready to leave in the morning."
Nodding, Lex replied, "I know. Goodbye, Grace."
"Goodbye, Alex," she sighed as she leaned forward and gently kissed him.
Overhead, a loud explosion caused small chunks of castle wall to fall at their feet. Wrapping Grace in his arms, Lex looked around. Searching the night, he noticed the scattered rock. Cautiously, he let go of Grace long enough to pick up a piece. As it burned his flesh, he dropped it. Suddenly, he stopped cold when he saw Clark. Painted red from an eerie glow emanating from his eyes, Clark stood in the distance for only a moment. In the blink of an eye, he was gone.
CHAPTER TWENTY: Eyes Opened
So, open your eyes,
And, see who I am,
And, not who you want for me to be,
- "Don't Wanna Lose You" by Gloria Estefan
April 26, 2003
Kent Farm
"Get out of here, Lex!" yelled Clark. "You do not want to be near me right now."
Contrary to Clark's warning, Lex entered the barn. Staring at all the smoldering black spots on the walls, ceiling and stairs, Lex called out, "Clark, we need to talk about this."
Suddenly, Clark appeared at the banister. His eyes tightly shut, he cried, "Just go away."
"No!" countered Lex. Slowly, he walked over to foot of the banister as he said, "I saw everything, Clark. I saw your eyes glowing red and how you practically disappeared."
Retreating from sight, Clark moaned, "Oh God."
Pausing on the fifth step, Lex shouted, "Clark?"
From the landing, he heard Clark say, "Lex, go away, go back to Grace."
Quickly, Lex ascended the stairs. All the while, he explained, "Grace is leaving tomorrow morning. All you saw was a good-bye kiss. Trust me."
"Why should I trust you, now? You haven't been straight with me about this from the beginning."
On the landing, Lex looked at Clark. Sitting in the darkness, Clark still squeezed his eyes shut, waiting for an answer. Taking a step toward Clark, Lex said, "You're right. There's a lot you don't know. That's my fault and I plan to remedy that now." Eyes still closed, Clark asked, "What do you mean?"
Sitting beside Clark, Lex looked at Clark's young face and said, "I'm not a good man."
Shaking his head, Clark argued, "You are a good man. You're not like your Father."
Placing his hands on Clark's cheeks, Lex forced Clark to face him. "You've got to start seeing me for who I really I am, Clark."
Taking a deep breath, Clark whispered, "I don't understand."
Drawing in a deep breath, Lex explained. "You look at me and see a far better man than I really am. For you, I try to be that man. But I'm not and you don't let yourself see that. You don't let yourself see the things I've done - The things I keep on doing."
"Lex?"
"No Clark, you want to understand? Then, I'm going to explain it to you. For the past several weeks, I've been helping Grace get her independence from her Father. To accomplish this, I've had to practically destroy the man. I ripped his heart out and showed it to him. Not literally, of course. But in the end, I still threatened the most important thing in his life to get what I wanted. Understand, Clark. That's what I do and I'm good at it. You have got to start seeing that."
"But you were trying to help Grace," countered Clark.
"At what cost, Clark? At what cost?" asked Lex. "My motives be damned."
Shaking his head again, Clark said, "Motives are everything, Lex. So you've got a dark side. Who doesn't? I have one, too. Frankly, I think mine can, on some level, be far more destructive than yours. But you try Lex. You try to do the right thing. That's what makes you a good man."
Slowly, Clark opened his eyes. There were no lasers, no violent displays. Confidently, he looked at Lex and said, "You were right."
"Huh?"
Shifting to face Lex, Clark explained, "There was a club that knew my secrets and I never let you be a part of that."
Reaching out, Clark cupped Lex's cheek. "I do see you, Lex. Sometimes, I see what I wish you were more, but I've always seen you for what you really are."
Covering Clark's hand in his own, Lex smiled. He watched numbly as Clark slowly took a hold of his hand and tugged on it. "Come on, I have something to show you."
Standing up, Lex wordlessly followed down the stairs and out of the barn. 'I shouldn't be letting him do this. I shouldn't.'
Across the field to the storm cellar, they said nothing. Finally, at the cellar door, Clark let go of Lex long enough to open the doors. Clark motioned to Lex to follow before descending the stairs. At the bottom, Clark looked back at Lex once before crossing the room and pulling the drape off the spaceship.
Open-mouthed, Lex stumbled forward. Crouching down, he gently caressed the metal hull of the ship. Skimming his fingers over the alien hieroglyphics, he asked, "Is this what I think it is?"
Kneeling beside Lex, Clark replied, "What do you think it is?"
Doing a double take, Lex looked at Clark. He continued to stare as Clark whispered, "It's time for you to see me as I really am. I'm not Human, Lex. I landed here with the meteors almost 14 years ago. I came in this ship."
"That's how you're able to do the things I saw before."
Nodding, Clark answered, "Yes. I have powers far beyond those of mortal men."
"You look so Human though," whispered Lex.
"I feel Human. My parents found me and they raised me as if I were Human. I don't remember where I came from. I have no memory of my birth parents. Kansas is the only home I've ever known."
Slowly, Lex wrapped his arms around Clark. Pulling him close, Lex said, "I see you clearly and I know that in every way that matters you are Human. I some ways, you're probably more Human than I am."
Clark moved to protest, but he never got the chance.
"Oh my God."
Moving bit-by-bit, Lex and Clark turned to face a stricken Jonathan Kent.
"Clark, what have you done?" Jonathan asked.
Holding Lex tighter, Clark replied, "It was my secret and it was time to tell it."
Gradually, Jonathan fell in a heap on the stairs. Cradling his head in his hands, he took little notice of his wife as she entered the cellar. She looked at Lex and Clark with shock and sadness battling in her eyes. Timidly, she took small steps forward as Lex and Clark stood up and pulled away from each other. Glancing at Clark, she pushed a lock of hair behind her hair as she approached her son. She smiled as his eyes followed her hair out of habit. Gently, she placed her hands on either side of his face and asked, "Are you sure?"
Nodding, Clark answered, "Yeah."
Nodding along with Clark, Martha reached up and pulled him into a firm embrace. After several seconds, she pulled away. With tears in her eyes, she turned to Lex. She paused, staring him in the eyes. A battle waged in her tense body for a few seconds before she took him by the hand. Firmly, she tugged on it until Lex started to follow her. Without saying a word, she led him past Jonathan's still cowering figure. Up the stairs, she continued to tug on his hand. Even when he tugged back, fearful of what she had in store for him, she grasped tightly onto him. Refusing to let go, she dragged him all the way into her kitchen.
There, she pulled a towel off a nearby towel bar. Throwing it at him, she cracked a smile when his mouth fell open as he caught it. Reaching for the kitchen sink faucet, she turned on the hot water as she looked at Lex and said, "I'll wash. You dry."
END PART 20