Every New Beginning

by Omega

Disclaimer: Paramount owns the Boys, the ship, the whole damn Trekiverse. I'm just killing some time and letting the Boys have some fun. I stole the title again from "Closing Time" by Semisonic. I got it from the lyric "every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end."

Series: TOS

Codes: K/S

Rated: G

Summary: Sequel "Closing Time." This is a poetic vid. Spock woke up and came back from Gol. But can Jim forgive him?


Every New Beginning
by Omega

[Kirk sits in his command chair, contemplating his life.]

I am back in the center seat once again.
I never should have left.
But the universe isn't the same.
Spock has returned from Gol
but I haven't welcomed him back.
How can I after he betrayed me?
I have never demanded anything from him.
I've given him something no one else ever has.
I gave him acceptance.
He gave me pain.
He left to purge his emotions.
He didn't succeed.
He still hasn't told me why.....
I shouldn't have let him affect me that way.
I am the Captain.
I must keep myself distant.
But how can I when I long for his touch,
long for his passion,
long for his love?
But he's back on board now.
We've got a new beginning.
A new chance to make amends.
But I don't know if I am strong enough.

[He looks towards Spock, then leaves the bridge.]

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[Spock watches him go, then silently sits in the center chair, berating
himself.]

How could I have left him behind?
I never meant to cause him such pain.
I meant to free him.
I meant to free myself.
But I am a fool.
One cannot excise half of one's soul.
Yet I tried to.
Kadiiith!
What was, was.
How can I expect him to forgive me?
How can I demand that he love me
after what I did to him?
But I do.
I dreamt of him each night at Gol.
I dream of him still,
even though I see him each day.
At first, he kept himself distant, cold.
Much like myself in the beginning.
Yet, he watches me now.
His eyes no longer shuttered.
It is foolish for me to hope that we will regain what we lost.
Yet I keep hoping for another beginning.
With him, every new beginning
has been something to look forward to.

[Spock gets up as Kirk returns to the bridge. Their eyes meet and they speak
to each other for the first time in weeks.]

Kirk

I watch you each day, wondering.
Wondering why I'm bargaining my soul again.
But I'd be a fool if I ignored it's pleas.
Even though I asked you this before,
I must know the answer.
Why did you come back?

Spock

I came back because I was a coward to go.
I left because I was afraid.
Afraid of the truths you brought out in me.
Afraid of the emotions you awoke.
Each night I could hear you screaming my name.
I could no longer ignore that cry.

[Kirk moves down until they are standing inches from each other, gazes
locked. His hands tremble as he grabs Spock by his shoulders.]
Kirk

Were the emotions you ran from the ones I'm feeling?
Confusion, love, anger, and pride?
Oh Spock, it's something I've felt for so long.
I couldn't tell you though.
I had to be the captain.
You had to be the Vulcan.
Is there any chance for us?

Spock

I left because of love.
My love for you.
I thought I had lost myself,
but I realize that it was what was true about me.
I cannot expect you to forgive me,
not after I harmed you like this.

[Kirk moves forward until his chest brushes Spock's. He reaches up and
tenderly traces one pointed ear. Inexplicably, he smiles.]

Kirk

No one ever said being in love was easy.
Now shut up and kiss me.

[Spock complies.]

--Finis--

Yes, yes, I know I'm a tease. Someone's gonna have to do the NC-17 version of this since I don't know how to write like that. Scarlet, Jin, Greywolf, Fizzbin, how about it?