Title: No Regrets

Author: Belynda

E-mail: belindat@ihug.co.nz

Rating: NC-17

Parings: C/K

Status: New, Complete

Parts: 1

Date: July 8, 1998

Series: Love Life

Story Sequence: Love Life, Decisions, Dinner at Harry's, No Regrets, Time Off, Remember

Website: http://members.tripod.com/~belyndat/index.html

Archive: Yes to all, but keep my web address if you do.

Summary: Chakotay has regrets the morning after but can Harry change his mind?

WARNING! WARNING! WARNING! This story is about a m/m relationship. If you have any problems concerning such relationship, then what are you doing here? You have been warned.

Disclaimer: All characters, places and terminology that you recognize do not belong to me. They belong to Paramount. I only play with them a little. I make no profit from these stories.

Chakotay woke up feeling more relaxed than he had in a long time. Stretching, he opened his eyes. Immediately he realized where he was. Ensign Harry Kim's quarters and more particular, Harry's bed. Noticing that the bed was empty, he looked around for Harry. Not seeing him, he noticed the sound of a shower being run.

Not thinking about the possible outcome of what he was doing, he jumped out of the warm bed and started to pull on his uniform. He had to sit down on the couch in the next room to pull on his socks and shoes. He was so preoccupied with getting dressed and getting to his own quarters, that he didn't notice the shower stop.

Mentally he counted his clothing and combed his fingers through his hair. Standing, he stepped towards the door when he was stopped by Harry's cold voice.

"Good morning to you too, Chakotay. In a rush this morning? Where do you have to be at 0600?"

Slowly Chakotay turned around. "Ensign. I have to go and do some last minute things before the briefing this morning. I have to go." Even to his own ears the excuse sounded lame.

Harry leaned against the doorframe to the bedroom. His hair was still wet and fell across his forehead, make him look even more sexy. The fact that he wore only a white towel around his naked hips couldn't help but add to the image. Chakotay looked away from that towel and what it hide and looked towards the door. "I'm sorry about the timing but I do have to go."

Harry just arched an eyebrow, telling his lover that he didn't believe a word, in that one look. "So you were just going to leave. Without a word to me."

Now Chakotay felt worse. "I thought that you where in the shower. I didn't want to disturb you."

Harry shrugged. "I wouldn't have minded. After all, I did wake you up last night. Twice."

Chakotay flushed, remembering last night. The first time he had been woken up, it had been 2330 and he had woken to find Harry gently tonguing his sensitive nipples. It had lead to a passionate bout of lovemaking. The second time he had woken to the sensation of his cock being sucked. That had lead to a slow period of lovemaking. Both times had been more mind blowing than the one before. To remember them now, stirred his tired cock to life.

"Yes, well, today is different."

"How so?"

"Because today we have to go back to me being your commanding officer. Because as beautiful and wonderful as last night was - it can't happen again. And you know that." He had said it. The words he knew he didn't mean and the words that Harry didn't want to hear.

"Are you saying you don't want to see me again? Other than as my commanding officer?" Harry was getting mad, and it showed. He stepped away from the doorway and advanced towards Chakotay.

"I ...Yeah. I am sorry if I have mislead you or hurt you Harry. That was never my attention. You will come to realize that this is for the best as time goes on and ... and..." Chakotay forgot what he had been about to say when Harry dropped the towel from around his hips to the floor. He couldn't help but look at the body he had worshiped during the night with his hands and mouth. And by the growing erection that Harry was sporting, it looked like he wasn't the only one remembering.

Noticing that he had Chakotay's attention, or that at least one part of himself did, he brought one hand up to his chest and started to play with his nipples. Once his nipples were hard and he had Chakotay's undivided attention, he slowly sucked a finger into his mouth. Hollowing his cheeks, he slowly sucked his finger in and out of his mouth. When it was wet enough for his taste, he teasingly circled his fingertip around his nipples until they were swollen with desire. From there his hand traveled south. Lightly he ran his fingers through the curls surrounding his cock. Gasping lightly at the tickling feeling, he looked up and tried to lock eyes with Chakotay.

Chakotay, however, seemed fascinated with his fingers running through his pubic hair around his cock. Even though Harry had as yet to touch his cock, it was already half erect. He then watched as Harry closed the distance between them until they stood only two feet apart.

Harry noticed the trouble the commander had trying to keep his eyes off Harry's cock as it bobbed up and down before him. Chakotay had made no move towards him and that wasn't good enough for Harry. Moving the direction of his hand, he grasped the base of his cock and with an indrawn breath at the sensation, stroked from base to tip.

This seemed to be the first officers undoing, as he fell to his knees before the ensign. Reaching out with an unsteady hand, he removed Harry's hand and replaced it with his own. Then he took the head of Harry's cock into his mouth with a sign of defeat.

Immediately drawing in a deep breath at the sensation of Chakotay's hand and mouth on his cock, he looked down as his lover paid homage to his large throbbing cock. He had to fist his hands at his side, not wanting to reach out and scare Chakotay away. Although, looking down, Harry saw that Chakotay was sporting a large bulge in his pants.

When the first officer starting sucking up and down his cock, he couldn't resist. He raised his hands to Chakotay's hair and tenderly held his lovers head as it bobbed up and down.

Breathing heavily, he threw his head back as the sensations threatened to take over and make him come before he was ready. He tugged at Chakotay's head, pulling him up. The commander seemed reluctant to let go of his aching flesh, but finally relented, kissing his way up Harry's body until he reached Harry's waiting mouth.

Panting, their mouths latched on to the others, intent in devouring. Harry could taste himself on Chakotay's lips. Moaning in desire, he grabbed Chakotay's hips and pulled them together, rubbing their straining erections together.

But it wasn't enough for either of them. Keeping their lips locked for as long as possible, Harry pulled off the commanders cloths. Groaning once their bare skin touched, Harry pushed Chakotay back towards the couch. Tenderly Harry arranged the First Officer so that he was reclining on the couch with Harry kneeling between his knees on the floor. Harry lowered his head and with one searing look into Chakotay's eyes, took his lover into his mouth.

After hearing the whimpers and moans that came from his lover after several minutes of slow torture, Harry raised his head. "Do you want to leave?"

It took a minute to fully comprehend what Harry had just asked. "What? Now?"

"Yes. Do you still want to leave?" He finished his question by giving Chakotay's cock another long hard suck.

After a long moment of trying to get his breath back, Chakotay finally answered him. "Never!"

Bending down for another lick, Harry demand "Say you are mine!"

Arching his back up into Harry's hot mouth, he answered his lover "I'm yours!"

"Now say that I am yours."

Looking Harry straight in the eye, all thoughts of ever leaving this man had vanished from his head. "I am yours. And you are mine!"

Impassioned by Chakotay's words and the utter honesty in his eyes, Harry kissed the commander like never before. Within seconds both were gasping for breath as the other stole it. Breaking away from the kiss, Harry whispered against his lovers lips. "I want to be inside you."

Chakotay whimpered at the words. "Spirits! Yes!"

Kissing his lover again, Harry reached into the couches crevices and found the tube of lubricant. Placing it at the side of Chakotay's hip, he kissed his way back down his lovers body, spending several minutes teasing the commanders nipples with his tongue before moving on. Again he paused, slowly licking and sucking on the commanders erection until it was weeping with precome. He pulled back and licked his lips. "Pull your legs up."

Once the commander had pulled his legs up with a hand under each knee, Harry leaned down further and mouthed the commanders balls. After some time he moved on, licking back and forth along the perineum until Chakotay started to quiver. Moving down, he found the puckered entrance to the First Officers body. Swirling his tongue around the tight ring, he ran his hand up and down the backs of Chakotay's legs. Lubricating one finger, he gentle pushed it in while he sucked one ball into his mouth.

Gently he stared to move his finger in and out of the commander, increasing speed as he did so. Hearing his name being chanted as he did this almost made him rush what he was doing, but then he remembered that Chakotay probably hadn't had a male lover in a long time and that his cock was bigger than average. He eased another finger into the warm welcoming body of his lover. Soon he had four fingers sliding in and out of the incoherent commander.

Finally, when he knew that Chakotay was ready, he removed his fingers. "Are you sure you want this?"

Chakotay looked Harry straight in the eye. "I have never been more certain in all of my life. Now will you get on with it already!"

Grinning, Harry saluted him. "As you command, sir!" He grabbed the lubricant one more time and coated his aching cock. Then holding himself in one hand, he slowly and carefully pushed himself into the commander. Both stilled, feeling the sensations of the contact. Then once again Harry pushed himself into the commander until he was buried to the hilt withing the warm willing body of his lover.

Both held still as they got used to the other. Then, after an eternity of waiting, Harry started to slowly thrust in and out of the commander. Chakotay gasped at the intense feelings, having never felt so full before. His hands gripped the back of his legs, holding himself open to Harry. Trembling he caught Harry's eye. There eyes locked together, communicating beyond words their emotions. Chakotay licked his lips after several minutes of Harry's slow thrusting. "Harry, would you ...oh yeah, just there...please move a bit faster. As much as I - Oh Spirits! - like this, I would like even better if you moved a bit faster."

Harry, reading that the commander did indeed want him to move faster, not only in his words but by the way Chakotay was thrusting his hips up and onto his cock. "As you wish." Taking a breath, he started to do as the commander had asked. Soon he was thrusting in and out of the commander. Both were gasping and Chakotay even whimpered every now and then.

Taking in the sight of his lover, twisting his body around on the couch, withering in all consuming desire, Harry knew that he was going to come at any minute. Reaching around Chakotay's leg, he grasped the First Officers erection and starting pumping him in time with his thrusts. Chakotay stilled, then screamed as he came all over Harry's hand and onto his own chest.

Harry seeing and feeling Chakotay burst into orgasm, let his own orgasm take over. Thrusting harder than before, he thrust once, twice, and erupted into the body of his lover. "Chakotay!" he screamed as he came.

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What seemed like hours later, Harry opened his eyes. He had collapsed onto Chakotay's chest. Chakotay had lowered his legs and his arms were wrapped around Harry, slowly stroking his back. Lifting his head, he saw that Chakotay was awake. Leaning down, he tenderly kissed his lover of one night. Pulling back, he ran his hand through Chakotay's hair. "Wow." he whispered.

Smiling, the First Officer caressed the ensigns bitten lips. "Wow indeed."

Sighing Harry, gently withdrew from the commanders body. Seeing the wince Chakotay couldn't suppress, Harry immediately felt remorse. "I'm sorry baby. Did I hurt you?"

Chakotay grinned. "No you didn't hurt me. I'm just a little tender. That's all."

Harry thought for a minute. "You know we don't have to do this all the time. We can make love like we did last night and -" He was stopped from going any further by Chakotay's finger on his lip.

"Harry. That has got to be one of the most intense experiences of my life. I wouldn't give it up for the world. So I may be a little tender. I haven't made love to another man in over five years. A little tenderness is to be expected. But I'm sure that with time, we will get it right to the point that all we feel is exhausted." Seeing the understanding in Harry's eyes, he nodded. "Yes we will make love again. Maybe just not today."

Harry laughed, relieved that Chakotay had finally accepted that they were in a relationship. "Good. Now I don't know about you, but I think my knees have become glued with the floor."

Laughing, they helped each other up off the floor. When they were about to enter the bathroom, Chakotay stopped them. "Harry I'm sorry about earlier. I didn't mean to hurt you. I just thought it would be best for you and the rest of the crew if we didn't become a couple. But now I realize that I couldn't leave you, even if I tried. I just hope that the rest of the crew is understanding about us."

Harry hesitated. "Do the crew have to know? I would like for us and our relationship to be kept a secret for a while. Just until we are ready for the rest of the crew to know. And think, wouldn't it be better if we did keep this private. After all, I hope you don't expect to see anything other than the four walls of my bedroom for a while. I think we need a few months - at least to get to know one another. What do you think?"

Chakotay grinned. "Oh, I think a few months would be enough. But are you sure? Not wanting to tell anyone about us, that is?"

"I'm positive." Indicating the shower, Harry took a step towards it. "Now how about a nice hot shower?"

Stepping under the hot water, Harry took Chakotay into his arms for a gentle kiss. "No regrets?"

Chakotay smiled into the eyes of his younger lover. He pushed all doubts away, towards the back of his mind, and concentrated at the moment at hand. "No regrets."