Story Notes: Thanks to Jill, Hannah and Dee for reading and comments.
This is for: Melanie, aka RT, for reading above and beyond the call
and for inspiration and for
the title, and AnneV, who's to blame for my state of mind when I thought
this up.
A Routine Interrogation
by Lyrica
Mulder saw the man's face first. A model's face, too handsome to be
real, high cheekbones and
shiny dark eyes. A sensualist's face, thin, hard mouth, pink tongue
touching the bottom lip as
intimately as a kiss. Familiar eyes, familiar mouth. Intense expression,
so piercing it stopped
him in the doorway, pinning his feet to the floor.
The man was the same size and build as Mulder, tall and lean, his shoulders
hinting at whipcord
strength. He wore a spotless white shirt, dark perfectly creased trousers,
a dark conservative
tie loosened just enough to be erotic. And in his hand, he held a thick,
leather strap.
Mulder forced himself to look away, to follow training and instinct,
to take in the
surroundings. Huge room. Heavy, dark antiques. Books. Rich, blood red
upholstery. Crackling,
leaping fire.
Still aware of the gaze on him, he managed a cursory glance at the other
occupants. Blonde man
leaning elegantly against the marble fireplace. The British butler
type who'd opened the door
standing beside him. A couple on a nearby couch. A man kneeling...
His mind swept right past
him, blurring him out. All non-threatening. Except the man with the
dark eyes. He was the
threat. He was danger. Familiar eyes in the face of a stranger. Knowing
eyes.
Without looking away from him, the dark eyed man raised the strap. Mulder's
heart gave a loud,
painful twist, as if it would somersault from his chest. His bicep
flexed, as if it was his
hand lifting the strap. As if it was his wrist turning with the elegance
of a ballet dancer.
Soft whir as it cut through the air and landed across the kneeling
man's ass.
Only then, as the sharp sound of the leather striking flesh caressed
his ears, as the muscles
across his own buttocks contracted with the blow, did he *really* see
the kneeling man. Until
that moment, he'd allowed his brain to render the kneeling figure as
hazy as the room. Until
his moan rent the heavy air, made him so real that Mulder jerked. His
cock throbbed. His
fingers curled into his palms. Swift intake of breath, as if he might
not get another.
His gaze danced across the kneeling man, drank him in hungrily. He was
young and muscular, with
lovely broad shoulders and narrow hips. He was naked. Kneeling, with
arms bound behind his
back. Thin strip of black cloth around his eyes. Leather collar. Chest,
rising and falling
rapidly. Penis.
The last was as mesmerizing as his captor's eyes. As intoxicating as
the smack of leather on
naked skin. The man's penis was bound in a harness that separated his
balls, lifted his cock.
It was so rigidly erect that his own shifted eagerly against his silk
boxers in response and
sympathy. In envy.
Across the room, the butler who'd opened the door and let them in was
whispering in the ear of
the blonde who was leaning against the mantle. Fractured light danced
on the sparkling crystal
glass in his hand. The blonde man shrugged and put his drink down and
came towards them with
nonchalant grace. As casual as if they'd interrupted a dinner party.
Mulder tried to focus on him, but the dark eyes, the soft as velvet,
shiny as satin, so
familiar eyes recaptured his gaze. They wiped out years of training
and years of discipline,
drawing him in. Forcing him to feel the hand slowly lifting the strap
again. Making him forget
the room and its other occupants and his reason for being there.
The hand came up, elegant arc, and the avid, burning expression told
him the blow was for him.
Sharp slap of leather on flesh. The naked man moaned. His penis jumped,
and Mulder's answered
with a rush of heat and blood.
The moment stretched out into eternity although he knew he'd been standing
there only seconds.
He could feel the burn of the blow across his ass. As plainly as if
he'd been struck. As if he
was the one kneeling, naked. Bound and helpless... It made him shiver.
Made his nipples tighten
against the stiff cotton of his shirt.
A quick intake of breath behind him broke the spell, reminding him of
where he was. He shook
his head and took a quick step backwards. He came up against an immovable,
solid object, hot
and tense. The hard catch of breath came again, and against his back,
Walter Skinner shifted.
For a moment, it seemed Skinner was moving forward, as if he was going
to push him into the
room instead of allowing him out of it. For a moment, his overworked
imagination supplied an
erection as engorged as his own pressed against him, and then there
was only the incredible
heat of the other man's body and Skinner gave way. Making room for
him to back out of the
doorway.
The hallway was even darker, even closer. Mulder backed away again,
glancing back this time to
keep from walking over his superior, to keep from coming up against
that breathtaking heat
again and losing what little composure he had left.
But it wasn't the warmth of Skinner's body that overwhelmed him, that
sent the shreds of his
poise shrieking into oblivion. It was Skinner's face--the normally
controlled, fierce
expression erased by surprise. Something near panic, naked shock, etched
on his broad face as
vividly as if he'd been slammed in the gut. The way Skinner looked
at him, for just the
briefest moment, so raw, so stunned, so exposed...
Mulder's brain went away. A jibbering, roaring hurricane took its place.
The owner of the house came through the door, closing it behind him
with a smile that implied
apology and reluctance. Blonde and tanned, all California surfer boy.
As gracious and welcoming
as if they'd were pulling him away from his dinner party. Saying with
a wide smile, "Surely the
FBI isn't investigating private sexual practices?"
Mulder glanced back again. The roar in his ears had whipped away all
his words, had thickened
his tongue. And the Skinner he knew was standing to his left and behind
him, frown in place,
control in place. The other one, the unmasked one, might have almost
have been a figment of his
imagination, like the hardness he'd imagined against his buttock. He
took a deep breath and
turned back to the blonde man. "Only when a participant is missing."
He flashed a photograph of the suspect they were searching for and launched
right into his
questions as if his mind was functioning and there was something there,
between his ears, other
than a roaring darkness. He thought he heard all the right questions
come out of his mouth. *Do
you know this man? When did you last see him? Who was he with? The
names of his partners?*
Skinner hovered near his elbow, like some steel part of his backbone
that had slipped outside
his body. He asked only one question. "What kind of acts did Mr. Ellis
participate in?"
Mulder twitched and strained to hear through the loud thumping in his
chest. He heard all the
answers come back at them.
*Yes, I recognize the man in the photo. His name is Ellis. He's a frequent
visitor, but he
always arrives and leaves alone. And he is a voyeur, rarely a participant,
at the parties he
attended. No, I am not aware of anyone with whom Mr. Ellis had a problem.
Neither am I aware of
anyone with whom he had a special relationship. And what my guests
do here is...their own
business.*
This last said with a smile so arch, so knowing that it sent Mulder's
heart to beating with a
weird, looping beat. He heard all the other answers, but he had no
hope that he'd be able to
transcribe them Monday morning. All he'd be able to write down was
the brilliant remembrance of
scalding, mesmerizing hunger in familiar eyes. A description of a man
kneeling on the floor.
How his muscles moved under his flawless skin. How his arms and thighs
strained as he leaned
into the blows of the strap. The astounding sounds of his pain.
And then they were outside, the heavy oak door closed behind them. And
the air was light and
cold and slid easily into his lungs. And his thoughts slid uneasily
back into rhythm.
He stopped on the sidewalk next to Skinner, scuffed the toe of his shoe
on the curb. Absurdly
aware of the Victorian mansion looming over them, of the sounds trapped
behind its eggshell
colored walls. Loath to get back in the car.
The fresh air was good, after the dark, close air of the hallway. And
the open space, after the
soft moans. If his pulse didn't slow, his ears didn't clear, the fresh
pulse of blood into his
groin didn't slow... He wanted to go home, to lock the door and strip
off all his clothes and
remember-- He stopped that heated train of thought before he embarrassed
himself even further,
flexing and stretching his fingers because he wanted so badly to touch--
Damn Scully for taking the week off! Damn everyone who'd taken advantage
of the long weekend to
take extra time and left them shorthanded. Damn Skinner for not assigning
some stranger from
one of the RAs to back him up on what should have been a routine interview.
And damn the case,
which wasn't even an x-file. It was looking more and more like a routine
missing person. A
missing person with extremely exotic tastes.
At least to a stranger, his reaction might not have seemed so vivid.
At least with Scully, he
could have made some off color, smart-assed remark. *Wow, that gave
me a really amazing
hard-on. How about you?* She might not have been fooled by his flippancy,
but she would have at
least pretended to be.
With Skinner... Who knew? All he could manage was to toe the sidewalk
like a schoolboy and hope
he could manage to sit down without embarrassing himself.
Skinner stood quietly beside him, taking slow, even breaths, making
no move towards the dark
confines of the Ford. Apparently, he wasn't in a hurry to crowd into
the small space of the
front seat either. He had his hands stuffed into the pockets of his
overcoat, and Mulder was
sure they were balled into fists.
The quiet stretched out, becoming even more uncomfortable, but he didn't
dare speak. He didn't
dare even look at his boss. He couldn't, just yet. If he did, he'd
start to babble. He'd wind
up saying something like, *That gave me a really amazing hard-on. How
about you?*
He took a deep breath. The night air was just cool enough that it reached
beneath his coat.
Light brush of fall on his chest, chilling him and making his skin
sensitive, alive with the
sensation of his clothing wrapped around him. His shirt was heavy against
his nipples, weighted
down by the layers of his coats.
The evening was quiet enough that he could hear the swishing, honking
traffic two blocks away,
the electric crackle of the street lights overhead. But it didn't block
out the soft smack of
leather on flesh, the soft moans. The memory was as real as the scent
of the wet street, as
close as the humid night air, as thick as the scent of sex. He shivered
and stuffed his fists
into his coat pockets.
"I need a drink," Skinner said gruffly, and he reached up to push his
glasses up, to rub at the
bridge of his nose as if he had a headache coming on.
Skinner's voice was always gruff, always abrupt, but there was something
about it, about the
slow cadence, something shaky that made him sound unsure and vulnerable.
A unique sound in Mulder's experience. "I've got whiskey and vodka,"
he offered quickly and
couldn't believe he'd said it.
Skinner looked at him, a hard, piercing gaze that cut straight through
to his gut, that scooped
out his insides and left him weak and hollow and speechless. No worry
about babbling. There
wasn't enough saliva in his throat for his vocal cords to work.
After a moment, Skinner turned away. "That'll do," he said and held out his hand.
Mulder stared at his upturned palm, held out as invitingly as if he
expected Mulder to place
his palm against it. It was a moment before he realized that Skinner
wanted the car keys.
He almost balked. He liked to drive. He always drove. And it was his
car. But protesting would
require words and saliva. Since he had neither, he fished in his pocket,
nudging his penis
aside to find the keyring.
Skinner took it without a word, without a glance, and shifted abruptly
into motion. Heading for
the car, black coat swinging against his long legs.
Mulder followed him, the night sounds drowned out once more by thumping
of his heart. He didn't
speak as he climbed into the passenger seat and gathered the folds
of his coat into his lap.
Neither did Skinner. His boss just fastened the seat belt, started
the car and pulled out into
the empty street, his hands clutching the steering wheel.
The man in the house, his hands had been slender. Not big and square
like Skinner's. Mulder
forced himself to look away. To stare out the window, seeing the passing
homes as smudges in
the bluegray of dusk. Allowing the hypnotizing blur to transport him
back into that place where
he was so aware of sounds that they blocked out his thoughts, lulled
his pulse into
tranquility. The swish of the tires on the wet street, brisk clock
of their feet on the
sidewalk outside his apartment. The soft whir of the elevator cables.
Even after he'd unlocked his apartment, admitted Skinner, locked it
back, it seemed somehow
sacrilegious to override the sounds of movement. Of breathing. The
whisper of his raincoat as
he walked into the kitchen. Soft clink of glasses, of the only two
bottles of alcohol he had in
the apartment. A full bottle of Irish whiskey someone had given him,
a half full bottle of
vodka. He opened cabinets, one after another, looking for a mix for
the vodka.
Skinner opted for the whiskey, pouring the glass over half full.
Mulder paused in his search to glance at him. Watched his powerful throat
work as he tipped his
head back and drained the glass. The man in the house, the bound one,
his throat had worked the
same way.
Again, he forced himself to look away, back into the depths of the cabinet.
He stared blindly
into the dark shelves, unable to shake the image. The groans, the striking
of the strap like
music, a rhapsody of flesh and leather and desire.
He slammed the cabinet, reached for the whiskey, abandoning his search
for tonic or grapefruit
juice or anything vaguely mixable with vodka. Sloshed whiskey into
the glass without picking it
up. His hands were shaking too badly to trust them. He stared at his
trembling fingers, at the
glass. Bright contrast of gold liquid against the blinding white of
the counter.
To hell with the silence! He had to say something, or otherwise, he
was going to shiver himself
right out of his skin. "That was...one of the less routine interrogations
I've conducted." He
paused, giving Skinner an invitation. A chance to nod in cynical agreement.
To be Skinner,
abrupt and controlled and professional.
Skinner looked at him, through him.
He almost turned to look behind him, to see what was so deserving of that x-ray vision glare.
Without acknowledging his shaky attempt at conversation, Skinner drank
again, draining the
glass. Refilled it and drank again.
Mulder managed to lift his glass without spilling it. Awed at the other
man's capacity for
whiskey. He knew that much liquor, so fast, would have had him choking
and gasping for air.
Probably would already have his head reeling.
Skinner seemed as steady as if he'd just had a glass of water. His gaze
was as steady as if he
was discussing a case. "Top or bottom?"
Mulder jerked, his gaze coming up to the bland mask that was Skinner's
face. The voice cut
through reverie, through shivers, through skin. That Skinner would
use the terminology was as
much a shock as the sharp-edged question. It took him a minute to get
past that. To realize
Skinner was standing there, quiet and expressionless, waiting for him
to reveal whether he
preferred holding the strap, or being under it.
For a moment, he didn't know how to answer. Whether to pretend ignorance
or protest his
innocence. But who would he be kidding? And that stunned expression
he'd interpreted as horror
at the scene in the parlor and shock at his reaction to it? Skinner's
familiarity with the
words made him brave enough to consider another possibility--that his
intense, stern boss had
felt what he'd felt. That the erection he'd imagined as he backed into
Skinner hadn't been
imaginary at all. That he hadn't been as alone in that hallway as he'd
thought. The
possibilities were too provocative to consider. Before he could think,
he responded with the
truth. "Depends."
He gave a little shrug, an attempt at nonchalance to cover the quick
hammer beat of his pulse.
The muscles in his stomach tightened down. Scary, admitting so much
truth, and exhilarating at
the same time. Like the rush of fear from looking over the edge of
a high dive.
He quirked a little smile at the other man, at his too-still face, and
took his first gulp of
whiskey. It burned all the way down into the knot that was his stomach,
giving him the courage
to step off the platform. Feeling the tingle of impending freefall.
Of exposing himself.
"Depends on who I'm with. I'm...ambidextrous."
There, despite the alcohol singed tenor of his voice, just the amount
of levity he'd intended.
The gentle, aimed-at-himself sarcasm. He smiled again and took another
gulp of the burning
whiskey, watching over the rim of the glass. "You?" Lifted his shoulder
with a quick shrug,
trying to say *See, it's no big deal.*
Skinner never took his bland gaze from him, never blinked. As if he
didn't see the attempt to
put him at ease, didn't hear the question. His voice softened to the
texture of velvet. "Which
would you be...with me?"
Never taking his gaze from Mulder's, he put his glass on the counter.
Without waiting for an
answer, he turned away and walked out of the kitchen. Back into the
dark apartment, leaving him
alone with the aftermath of the question.
The stillness of it was shattering. The words plucked at the tension
in his stomach, twitched
the knots tighter. Comprehension washing over him...Walter Skinner,
his boss, had just
propositioned him. Arousal slamming into him...Walter Skinner *wanted*
him. Solemn,
unapproachable, untouchable Skinner... He very carefully set his glass
down. Very carefully
took a step, then another.
Skinner was standing in the living room, hand on his hip, long coat
thrust back. His unblinking
gaze was on the low table in front of the couch, on the piles of magazines
and papers and
videotapes. He stared at it the way he'd stared in the kitchen, as
if he was seeing beyond the
thing in front of his eyes. In the dim glow of the aquarium, he was
a looming, shadowed
presence. A black shrouded demon, sucking all the breathable air out
of the room.
Mulder sucked at what remained, pulling in atmosphere that seemed strangely
drained of oxygen.
He took a slow step closer, hearing the gurgle of the aquarium and
his own breathing,
unnaturally loud in the silent apartment. He struggled for calmness,
but it seemed there was
none. Had been none, since the butler opened the door of that innocuous
seeming house, allowed
them into the hallway and opened the door to the parlor.
And like the mindless whirring in his head then, there was no stillness
in which to answer
Skinner's question now. He was hard, achingly, paralyzingly hard, and
even considering an
answer was crazy, and whatever thought had been about to form in his
mind, whatever sanity had
been about to seep in, disappeared as Skinner turned his head slowly
to look at him.
Passive, calm face. No tremble in his hand as he reached up and removed
his glasses. As he
folded them neatly and slipped his hand inside his coat.
There was no piece of clothing he could have removed that would have
been more erotic than
exposing his dark, wide eyes. Something in Mulder's mind clicked. Some
little switch, connected
to the drain of blood into his cock. He took the few steps necessary
to be in front of Skinner.
Closer to him as he had been in the hallway. "I've just...experimented
a little...but, I like
both," he whispered, staring up into the other man's eyes.
Narrowed eyes, dark, dark brown in the daylight, but here, in the darkness,
as black and
shadowed as night. Demon's eyes, seeing through to his soul.
"Which would you be?" He couldn't quite manage to add *with me,* as
Skinner had. He didn't have
the calmness or the courage. He held his breath, waiting for Skinner
to choose, hoping he would
choose. Without the calmness or courage to do that either.
Skinner just shook his head. Slowly. Briefly, a near-smile touched the
corners of his wide
mouth. "What do you like best?" So controlled, the dance of words,
of power about to be
wielded. Or yielded.
The words, the voice, slithered down Mulder's back like sand, gritty
and gravelly and
caressing. He shivered visibly and let his eyes slide closed. Savoring
the coy dance of words
between them, the anticipation of choosing. Breathlessly thinking perhaps
he wanted to be
dominant. Imagining Skinner under his hands. It would be so intoxicating
to be the one in
control of all that power and strength. To make Skinner lose his polished
civility. "You felt
it, too, didn't you?" he breathed. "When he lifted the strap..."
Skinner took his head between his big hands, pulled him forward, cupping
his face, fingers
sliding up into his hair, thumbs sliding roughly, possessively, over
his lips. "Yes."
"It made you hard, didn't it?"
"Yes." Skinner's fingers lingered on his bottom lip, tugging at it.
The heat of Skinner's hands, of the one whispered word riding on the
scent of whiskey and warm
breath--it was all overwhelming, setting off a tickling tingle that
spread to his scalp and
danced giddily down his spine. "I felt you. When I backed up, I felt
you." Thinking with
breathless longing of Skinner, kneeling before him. Under him.
Then Skinner said very quietly, very gently, "You may only speak when
I ask you a question. You
may only move when I tell you to."
Mulder's eyes snapped open in surprise. Was the choice made? He hadn't
meant that he was
offering himself up. But it seemed too late to take it back.
There was a strange menace in Skinner's words that shouldn't have been
so easy to accomplish
with quietness. A concentrated focus in Skinner's expression as he
framed his head, hands
coming to rest as if his skull was something fragile that he was about
to crush. Skinner tugged
until their bodies were less than an inch apart.
So close Mulder could feel hot breath tickling his face, the heat of
the other man's skin,
almost touching his lips, something solid brushing the straining tip
of his cock. The thickness
of a zipper, or the thickness of a cock.
Suddenly, he didn't want to take the choice back. He let his eyes slide
closed again. Let his
head fall back, supported by the strength of Skinner's hands. "Okay.
I'll do whatever you want
me to do." He licked at his lips as he anticipated being kissed. As
he waited for Skinner's
mouth to take his. To ravage it.
Instead, a steady pressure on his jaw urged him down. He opened his
eyes, surprised again. He
was disappointed that there was no touch of lips and tongue, but he
allowed Skinner to force
him to his knees. So much control, directed at him... He shivered with
anticipation as he came
even with Skinner's groin. As he saw the outline of an erection against
the perfectly creased
wool trousers.
Skinner held the back of his head with one hand, firmly, as if he might
try to escape. With the
other, he opened his zipper.
Silken hiss of metal, soft contrast to the quickness of Mulder's breathing.
Skinner slid his
fingers across Mulder's cheek, and he could hear that, too, louder
than he could feel it. Rasp
of nails, drawn lightly over his skin.
Skinner grasped his jaw again, pressed in the points in front of his
ears that forced his mouth
wide open. Fed him his swollen cock with an undeniable pressure on
the back of his head.
Mulder moaned softly and leaned forward. So much pressure, so much force
compelling him to do
something he wanted to do anyway. Thick, heavy cock sliding over his
tongue, against the top of
his mouth. Trailing the slick, intoxicating taste of sex and salt.
The musky, warm scent of
Skinner.
Skinner sighed. A soft, drawn out breath of relief and satisfaction.
The kind of sound Mulder
made after he'd teased himself, not touching his aching cock until
the movie was over. Only
when the credits started to roll, wrapping his fingers around himself
and tugging gently.
With one hand, he gripped Skinner's thigh. With the other, he reached
for himself. Hard, too,
and aching. No teasing this time, no waiting for the credits this time.
Above him, voice thick and faraway, Skinner said, "If you touch yourself, I'll punish you."
A shiver went over him. A shudder. As if first his skin, then his muscles,
tightened down on
his bones. Pressure enough to snap them. He whimpered with frustration,
jerked his hand away
from his cock, gripped Skinner's other thigh. Pulled him closer. Sucked
harder, working his
tongue harder. Sucking in taste and the scents of warm skin and wool
and slick arousal.
Skinner made a little yes sound. Letting him know that it was right.
It was good. Fingers
tightened on his scalp, slipping deeper into his hair. Pushing and
pulling at the same time.
Hips rolling in a slow, lazy undulation.
Mulder tightened his lips in response, relaxed his throat as Skinner
pushed his cock deep
enough to gag him. He tried to pull back, and the fingers in his hair
tightened, holding him.
Warning him not to pull away. Another thrust, and the soft sound from
above, different this
time, warning him of impending orgasm.
He tried to pull back, to ease the pressure of his lips. To make it
last, but the hands holding
his head tightened down. Forced him to stillness and the thick cock
lurched against his tongue.
The taste of salt water filled his mouth. Pleasure and disappointment
rippled through him.
Another burst of thick, salty liquid and another moan, and he moaned
with Skinner. Excitement
and disappointment. Bittersweet liquid, thick as melted saltwater taffy,
bitter as medicine,
filling his mouth. Throbbing cock, pushing against his tongue, rasping
along the roof of his
mouth. But over too soon...
He pulled at Skinner with his lips, wrapping his arms around his thighs,
willing the orgasm to
go on and on. But Skinner groaned again, thrust one last time, then
pulled away. Slid
bonelessly to his knees in front of him. Long legs spread, arms limp,
breathing deep and slow,
his thick cock slowly losing some of its weight and girth.
Skinner was still wearing his heavy overcoat, and it spread out around
him in a ragged circle.
Making a heavy, dark pool around his legs. Drowsy eyed and relaxed,
Skinner reached out, wiped
gently at the corner of his mouth with the pad of his thumb, wiping
away semen and saliva.
"That was good."
Before he could slide his fingers across to the other side, Mulder licked
at his lips, savoring
the salt sex taste. "That was quick," he murmured, trying to keep the
disappointment out of his
voice. Trying to keep the challenge out. He couldn't meet the other
man's gaze. He'd wanted it
to last. Had been expecting...so much more. Had been wanting so much
more.
Skinner looked at him. Just looked at him.
He'd forgotten. He wasn't supposed to speak. Something tickled in his
stomach. Light, feathery
touch of anticipation.
Skinner said simply, "Take off your coat." No inflection. No reprimand.
Mulder hesitated, waiting for something else to come out of the quiet.
Some punishment. The
idea soaked up what was left of the oxygen, and he breathed a little
harder, pulling at the
air.
When there was only silence from the other man, he shrugged. Another
twinge of disappointment.
He reached for the lapels of his coat, surprised when his fingers closed
over the slick, heavy
surface. He was still wearing his overcoat, too. Only realizing how
hot he was as he tugged it
off and cool air brushed across his shoulders. Only realizing how hard
he still was when he
shifted and his penis drug across the seam of his zipper.
Moving more quickly, he pushed the coat away, reached to open his pants,
and Skinner stopped
him with his voice. "No. Just the other coat. I'll do the rest."
Toneless, the words, the inflection, but still his mind insisted that
there was disapproval
there. A gentle warning that he was being challenged to ignore. Or
maybe he only wished for a
warning there. Maybe he *should* be the one on top. Imagining that
he would have spanked
Skinner soundly for disobeying.
The tickle shifted outside, to his spine, as he thought of it. The bigger
man writhing under
his hands. The print of his hand on the rounded ass. He shrugged out
of his suit coat. Watching
Skinner do the same, broad shoulders stretching the spotless white
shirt. His disappointment
slipped away with the throb of blood into his groin. Maybe it wasn't
too late to take
control...
As he leaned to push the coat away, Skinner leaned with him, caught
him around the waist and
turned him. Rough movement, leaving him breathless with the strength
required to lift and drag
him around, back until he was nestled against the bigger man, caught
between his spread knees.
Caught against his chest, and he knew it was too late. Much too late.
The little tickle blanketed his entire body. He'd felt this before.
Skinner all heat and
muscle. Holding him, controlling him. More than a year ago, when he'd
attacked Skinner, been
subdued. Even through his anger, his confusion, his body had burned
for days. As if he'd been
scraped. Skin peeled from those contact points where their bodies had
been pressed together.
Across his shoulders, his back, along his hip. Across the pressure
point on his throat. Until
now, he'd thought it was the drug induced psychosis. Until now...
He arched back into the solidity of the body holding him.
"Be still!" Low voice of command, expecting to be obeyed. Skinner's
hands went down into his
crotch and pulled.
Hard enough to yank his clothing up tight against him. To squeeze his
balls up against his
body. Enough to make him gasp with pleasure/pain.
"You think I'm too quick, *boy*?" Whispered, the last word emphasized,
but still so serene. The
quietness of it was more thrilling, more threatening, than if he'd
raised his voice.
Another flash of memory took him. Alex Krycek. Skinner had called him
*boy*, just after he'd
punched Krycek in the stomach and doubled him over in pain. Mulder
arched up into the punishing
hands, big hands that completely covered his cock and balls. He'd been
hard that night, too, in
Skinner's apartment, hearing Krycek gasp for air. Watching the ripple
of muscles across
Skinner's bare shoulders. When Skinner demanded the key to Krycek's
handcuffs, his cock had
been so swollen he could barely get his hand into his pocket.
Skinner bit down on his earlobe, tightened his fingers, bringing him
back to the present with a
jolt. Mulder jerked. Sharp pain in his ear, dull pain in his balls,
hard throb in his groin.
Hiss of hot breath across his neck. "That wasn't quick." Using the grip
on his genitals,
Skinner yanked him back, pulling his ass into a curve of cock so hard
and hot Mulder could feel
it through his clothes.
Skinner thrust hard against him. "That was just taking the edge off,"
he whispered against his
ear, voice as tender as a lover's.
Deep in his stomach, the feather morphed into something that jangled.
Something that jumped,
like a little crank had been wound round and around and a lid had suddenly
popped open.
Jack-in-the-box, jangling around in his stomach.
Mulder licked at his lips, searching for the candy/medicine taste of
semen. Without it, he
might have dreamed the orgasm. Created it out of bits and pieces of
fantasy. He pressed back,
unwilling to believe the salt on his tongue or the contact. An erection,
as hard and hot as if
Skinner hadn't climaxed, pressed back at him. Hard again so soon. It
took his breath away.
Skinner tore open his pants. Fished his cock out. Still holding him
splayed over his thighs,
pumped him, roughly, expertly.
Pleasure exploded in him, washed over him like fire. Pure rush of sensation.
Mulder fought the
urge to writhe against him, to arch up into his fingers, back into
his cock. Delirious at being
restrained, at being so roughly stroked.
Abruptly, Skinner let him go. Let him drop back onto the floor.
He gasped with the coldness of it. With the frustration of suddenly
having his cock released
from the prison of warm fingers. With the quick rush of blood to his
brain as he was pushed
forward and down onto his elbows, up onto his knees.
Skinner hooked his fingers in the waistband of his pants and shorts and yanked them down.
Nails scraped his back. His belt buckle, cold and jangling, skidded
along his hip. Cold air
rushed along his thighs, and he hung there, breathing hard. Heat suffusing
his face as he
thought of the kneeling man in the house. As he thought of how he looked
now, crouched on his
knees and elbows, ass up in the air. His pants were tangled around
his knees, trapping his
legs. His tie was dangling down, dragging on the floor in front of
his face.
He tensed, waiting for the blow. Anticipating a palm, a belt in place
of that wide leather
strap. But instead of a blow, a hand stroked his bottom, slipping down
across his thighs.
Fingers hot and rough, too rough for a man who pushed paper all day.
His fingers should have
been smooth and soft, and the fact that they weren't made his heart
beat faster.
Skinner promised him, "We've got a long way to go yet," voice so sweetly
predatory, and leaned
forward, letting the tip of his cock just brush his hip. Stroking lightly,
slipping his hand up
under Mulder's shirt to touch the small of his back. "Such smooth skin,"
he breathed.
Such a gentle touch, so beguiling after the roughness. Soothing the
marks he'd left with his
nails. His fingers didn't seem quite so rough now. Mulder arched his
back, trying to increase
the contact.
"Be still," Skinner warned him. His fingers dug into his back for emphasis,
then eased back to
stroking again. Tender and gentle. Skinner leaned down to breathe it
in his ear, voice as
smooth as his touch, cruel as whiskey. "I like the way bruises show
on smooth skin."
Mulder jerked, his heart starting to trip like a jackhammer. Fear rippled
through his
excitement. Apprehension scraped at his equilibrium, reminding him
that he really didn't know
Skinner. Didn't know anything about him, and they hadn't talked about
any of this, about
limits.
A large, blunt something, not large enough, not hot enough to be a cock
traced across his
buttock, along the crease of his ass. Centered on his anus and pressed
lightly. Dry, rough
skin. Stroked lightly. Pressed again, threatening, warning.
He jerked again, thinking of the pain if that dryness was pushed into
him. Anticipating the
dull redness of the pain. His cock throbbed and hardened perceptibly.
He could feel sweat
starting to slick his forehead, his neck, the small of his back.
A thumb...it had to be a thumb, because the rest of the hand, hot rough
palm and fingertips,
pressed lightly, low on his back, warning him to be still. Skinner's
other hand slid down to
his balls, coming in from behind. Cupped and rolled them gently, then
squeezed. Tentative pain,
hinted at, then gone so quickly he might have imagined it. He gasped
and tried to edge his
knees further apart, wanting to push back, wanting it again, the pain,
just to be sure it was
there.
The hand ignored his straining, slid around his hip and grasped his
cock. Worked him with
quick, efficient strokes.
He bucked and cried out, his voice hoarse with wanting, with the strain
of remaining silent
when he wanted to beg for release. Just the threat of pain, just the
promise of the rough
caresses enough to set off the tremors in his stomach again. Enough
to set his cock to
twitching. Taunting him with an orgasm that slithered and throbbed,
just out of his reach. He
rocked, trying to thrust.
Skinner pressed on his back, heavy weight of hand, holding him down.
"Don't move." Cold
command. Tight circle of his fingers, stroking faster.
Just what he wanted. He moaned.
"If you come, I'll punish you."
The same warning again, in the same dispassionate voice that was so
much more threatening than
emotion would have been. As if Skinner was saving the real violence
for the punishment, wasting
none on the warning.
The muscles in his stomach were wound so tight now they might never
lengthen out again. For
just the briefest moment, he wanted to let himself go. Just to discover
if there was anything
behind the toneless words. Then he shivered and forced himself to go
absolutely still.
The pressure on his back, the fist on his cock dropped away. He bit
back a whimper and than
another one as the thumb came back, wet and slick, to his bottom. Circled
slowly, lazily.
Languid pleasure rippled out from the caress. Easing the tension in
his thighs, in his gut.
Slow, circling until he groaned and the thumb entered him. And there
it was. The dull pain he'd
been waiting for, not so bad as it could have been. Not so bad as he'd
wanted it to be. He
groaned louder, frustration pushing through, biting his lip to keep
from writhing.
"You like this?" The finger twisted inside him.
Shock of embarrassment, at how much he did like it. How much he wanted
Skinner to continue. His
mind rebelled at answering, at exposing himself. As badly as he'd wanted
to speak moments
before, to beg for release, now he wanted to be silent. Heat flushed
up the back of his neck.
"You want my cock?" Skinner raised up and pressed into his hip.
No teasing little touch this time. The heavy pressure branded him with
heat and longing. He
imagined it, the cock shaped scar, forever marring his flesh. His body
betrayed him, loosening
with whorish, inviting abandon. Accepting the penetration.
He dropped his head down on his forearms, hiding the red flush on his
face, muffling the
yearning in his voice. "Yes." He clutched at his own head. "Yes, but...
you'll have to go easy.
I haven't done that in a long time."
Skinner growled and grabbed him, the thumb whisked away. Fingers dug
into his buttock so hard
he knew he was being marked truly, not just in his imagination. Skinner
grabbed a fistful of
his shirt and jerked him up onto his knees. Wrapped long fingers in
the length of his necktie
and pulled, choking him. Pulled until he was twisted around, staring
straight into an
unblinking, cold gaze. "I don't *have* to do anything."
He nodded, feeling his bones melt out through his skin. So much control,
leaving him weak and
helpless and shaking with arousal. So much control, emphasized so efficiently
with stillness.
More effective than a shout.
"What's your middle name?"
The question, so strange that it just feathered around the edge of his
consciousness, didn't
quite penetrate. His eyes started to slide closed, the muscles across
the back of his hips
going limp. Letting him slide back into his captor's arms.
Skinner tightened the grip on his tie. "What's your middle name?"
His head lolled back. He tried to remember, licking at his lips. The
answer was there, in the
back of his head somewhere. "William."
"Look at me!" Skinner shook him, like a master trying to get the attention
of an errant puppy.
"If you can't take what I'm doing, then you say your middle name. You
say *William,* and I'll
stop. Do you understand?"
Mulder nodded, forcing himself, through the lazy, boneless fog of arousal,
to listen. A safety
word, limits...he needed to listen. It was important, but somehow,
despite his fear a moment
before, it disappointed him. It took the edge off.
"Repeat the word to me." Skinner's breath, tinged with whiskey, washed across his face.
"William." He tipped his head back, looking at Skinner through the haze
of his lashes, wishing
that he would come closer. Would touch his lips or his cheek or just
his jaw, with his hard,
straight mouth.
"I'll say *William.*" He sounded drugged, even to himself. Voice slurred
and tired and drunk.
Blood throbbed in his groin. "And you'll stop."
"I'll stop. And we'll never speak of this again."
The sex induced drunkeness slipped away. Washed away as the realization
of what Skinner was
saying sank in. If he couldn't take it, they would stop. Not back up
and start over. Not ease
back to an acceptable level. They would stop and Skinner would never
touch him again, and
already he could feel the mesmerizing tug of addiction. To never be
controlled by that
toneless, threatening voice, to never taste the candysexsalt of him
again...
"Do you understand?"
He took a deep breath. Appreciative, acquiescent. He would have to bear
whatever Skinner chose
to do, or never feel it again. A shiver went through him and he relaxed,
giving himself up to
the idea, the promise. "God, you're good at this."
There was no answering smile. No break in the intensity. Just a tightening
on his necktie until
he felt like he was dangling from it.
He tried again, working his head and neck to draw in enough air. "I
understand. I'll do
whatever you say." He tried to smile again.
The dark eyes narrowed, and Skinner leaned into him, put his mouth beside
his ear. "Yes, you
will." Voice hideously sweet and promising, insinuating itself beneath
his skin.
He whimpered. Soft tickle in his stomach again. Little thrill of anticipation,
reaching down
into his balls. Up across his shoulders.
And that was when Skinner kissed him. Turned his head by the grip on
his necktie and covered
his mouth. It was not what he'd been expecting. Not the roughness he'd
been expecting.
Skinner's mouth was as sweet as his voice had been sinister. So tender.
Tongue gliding along
his lips, teasing his mouth open, nipping at the fullness of his bottom
lip. Corrugated
sensation rippled through him, rasping like sandpaper. His cock pulsed.
The heated length of Skinner's cock was pushed up against him. He shied
away from it. Away from
too much sensation and from being taken so off guard. He pulled back,
turning his face away,
breathing heavily.
Skinner leaned into him, tightening the choking grip on his tie, turning
him, taking his mouth
again, cupping his bare ass. Grinding the length of throbbing cock
into his stomach, against
his cock. His mouth moved gently along Mulder's jaw, dipped and bit
hard into the taut tendon
between his jaw and shoulder.
Mulder moaned softly and tried to grind himself against Skinner. Would
have grabbed the bigger
man and writhed against him, but he was beginning to gasp for breath.
Beginning to feel the
bite of his shirt collar into his neck. The delicious bite of fear
into his spine.
Skinner released his grip on the tie abruptly, grabbed his wrists and
twisted them behind his
back. Held him, as he gasped for air, bent back. The moist heat of
Skinner's breath scorched
his skin. Scour of tongue across his nipples, hot and steamy through
his shirt. Teeth bit down
hard, wiping out the pleasure of the tongue.
He gasped. Pain arcing out, down into his stomach. Down into his cock.
He opened his mouth to
plead, to whisper his pleasure. Bit down on his lip to stop himself.
Skinner saw him swallow the words and almost grinned at him. Worked
his tongue along the edges
of his lips as if he was wiping away the urge. His fingers trailed
across the front of his
shirt, hesitated at the nipple he'd bitten. Soothed it with gentle
fingertips.
He sighed and arched back, pleasure easing out across his chest. Such
a tender, placating
touch. Bringing his nipples up even tauter then they already were.
Making him forget again,
unable to be still and silent and obedient with so much sensation rushing
him. "Yes. Yes,
please." Near to laughter with the giddy, swirling ecstasy, with the
rollercoaster ride of it
across his nerves.
The fingers tightened down on his sensitized nipple. Punishing him for
his words. "I've been
lenient with you. Don't test me again."
A sharp little pain arced out, dancing and mingling with the pleasure.
He gasped and the pain
intensified. He started to twist away, caught himself, forced himself
to stop. To be obedient.
Unable to still the shaking, the malicious thrill that sawed at his
spine.
Skinner let go of him, pulled away, almost let him fall. The sudden
coldness along his body was
more punishment than the pain.
"I want a shower."
Mulder groaned with disappointment. Not a rollercoaster ride, an elevator,
dropping out from
under him with dizzying, unexpected speed. He reached out, ready to
beg, *Kiss me again. Hold
me.* Remembering at the last moment that he wasn't supposed to speak.
He gasped with surprise when he was caught under his arms and lifted
effortlessly to his feet.
His clothes were so tangled around his ankles, he could barely stand.
Without waiting for
permission, he worked his feet free of the tangle of cloth and leather.
"The rest of it, too."
He quickly stripped his necktie off, started to toss it on the pile
of clothing, but Skinner
stopped him, holding out his hand.
"I'll take that." He worked at unknotting his own, slowly, sensuously
loosening the length of
silk as his gaze slid over his bare legs. "I'll need it later."
Tie? What could he do with a tie, but...tie him? His breath caught in
his throat. Just when he
thought he had the tenor of Skinner's game, from rough to gentle to
rough and back again...he
introduced a new element. One even more overpowering than pain. "I
don't--"
Skinner was watching him. Tense and poised. Hooded, black eyes. A cobra waiting to strike.
He shook his head to dispel the image. Opened his eyes to a knowing,
almost sympathetic
expression. It was that same blinking thing Skinner had pulled in the
hallway. Flash of
emotion, so raw and naked it took his breath away, and then so suddenly
not there that he
questioned whether it ever had been.
Skinner slipped his shirt off slowly, hung it on the back of a chair.
Nonchalant display of
muscles as he slipped off his shoes and socks, as he stretched. "Did
you say something?"
Mulder shook his head, dipping his chin down, refusing to meet Skinner's gaze.
"Are you sure?" Silky warning.
He nodded and handed the tie over meekly. Even if he was allowed to
speak, he couldn't say no.
It was just a game, contrived to make him say no, and the only rule
was that he couldn't say
no. He fumbled at the buttons on his cuffs, fingers shaking so badly
he couldn't make them
work.
Mulder stared surreptitiously from underneath his lashes. Skinner was
staring at the coffee
table again, with that sightless gaze. Naked from the waist up, barefoot,
as he had been that
night in the apartment. Golden skin gleaming in the dim light. Had
he been hard that night,
too? Aroused by his own strength and Krycek's pain and Krycek's helplessness.
What had
happened, in the dark apartment, on the balcony, after he left?
He imagined Skinner towering over Krycek, as he'd stood over him just
moments ago. Krycek's
stupid, bristly haircut against his palms. Krycek's narrow, evil mouth
on Skinner's cock. His
wrist cuffed to the railing. Krycek helpless and bound... He started
to shake, thinking of
himself helpless and bound...
"Go start the water," Skinner told him. The quiet, easy voice of command
was overlaid with the
sound of his buckle as he opened his belt.
Mulder fled.
He had his face and his fantasies buried in a spray of scalding water
when Skinner joined him.
Trying to wash away the images of himself in Krycek's place, Skinner
standing over him, his
wrist bound to the railing...
The first touch of Skinner's naked body against him banished the thoughts,
the fear, the envy.
He turned into the touch, wrapping his arms around Skinner's waist.
He was so solid. He seemed
so much larger, even though they were the same height. The shower seemed
so much smaller, with
him in it.
Skinner's hands slipped over his shoulders, over his water slick back.
Held him close, tucking
his erection in against his own. Tongued drops of water off his jaw.
The gentleness again, and so sweetly offered. Without darkness. He shivered
and whimpered,
pleading with his eyes to be allowed to speak.
Taking pity on him, Skinner whispered, "What? Tell me."
Gentleness again. Fingers gently massaging his buttocks, cock moving
slowly against his.
Sweetly seductive. It would take no effort at all to grow addicted
to this. "Please," he
whispered, muffling his face against Skinner's neck, unable to meet
his gaze. "Be like this
with me. I like this."
The tongue went across his ear, dipped into it. Down to the quickening
pulse at his throat.
Hands kneading, caressing. Dipping him back like a dancer to reach
for the soap. Rubbing the
slick bar over his shoulders.
"You like the other, too." Skinner's voice echoed the indolent, gentle
caress of his fingers.
Yet somehow, it was so deeply sinister. "You're just afraid of how
much you like it."
As if he knew every thought, every tremor, every fear.
"You like the pain."
"No..." Long, drawn out whisper. Not convinced or convincing.
"You will." Before he could react to the promise, to the threat of it,
Skinner's hands, hot and
soapy, started to work on him. His voice started to work on him, "You
liked it, watching that
man being strapped."
He turned and twisted under the cascade of water, under the knowing
massage. Trying to twist
away from the words, from the memory, from Skinner's knowledge. Gasping
as his balls and cock
were soaped, were caressed and stroked and squeezed.
Mouth teasing, just barely touching, Skinner murmured in his ear, "Tell
me what you were
thinking, when you were standing in the doorway. When you first saw
the strap being raised."
*Flash of dark eyes holding his in thrall, the sensation of his bicep
flexing, of the strap
landing.* He jerked away from the memory, from Skinner's touch. Heat
flooding his cock, his
face.
Skinner's hands tightened down on him, holding him still. "Tell me what
you felt when the first
blow landed. Did you want it to be you?"
Hot rush of shame. Could Skinner divine his every thought? There was
no way he could know...
Cruel rush of arousal. "No..."
"Why won't you tell me?" A soap slick finger eased into his ass. Another
when he cried out and
arched his cock up against Skinner's belly. Slick fire turned in him,
twisted. Burning,
stretching pain. Ecstatic, inexpressible sensation of being opened.
Holding his breath as he
felt the quick, brushfire climb of orgasm.
"Don't come," Skinner warned him, and twisted him away, shoving him
into the wall of the
shower.
Shock of cold tile on his nipples and belly and cock. He gasped. Thrilling
sensation, so nearly
heat. So like being burned. Too near pleasure to control the fire.
Skinner was touching
something inside him, something that richocheted pleasure into his
spine. Like setting off a
sputtering, sparking fuse behind his cock.
"Can't...stop." He clung to the wall, cold wet tile beneath his palms.
Pushing his cock against
it.
Skinner pulled his hands away, leaving him empty and frustrated.
The sizzling sensation cut off abruptly. He moaned his disappointment,
pressing his forehead
and his cock into the wall. Rough, then gentle, then rough, then gentle
again. Pushed to the
edge of orgasm, then dropped, then pushed again. How long did Skinner
think he could hold out?
He was turned roughly, shoved back into the wall. The shock of cold
on his back and buttocks
was all pain, no pleasure. He tried to arch away, but Skinner held
him there with calm, almost
disdainful strength.
Rough demon's hands and an angel's serene, composed face. For the first
time in the game,
Mulder felt a flare of anger. How long did Skinner think he could manage
it, making him dance
and tremble on the edge of orgasm?
The soap was thrust into his hands. "Now you wash me."
The hard knot in his stomach rolled. Threatened to come unraveled. Roughness,
then gentleness,
now permission to touch. To do whatever he wanted... To have Skinner
under his hands...
He brushed the tip of his cock over Skinner's hip, as teasingly as his
slipped his hands over
the other man's skin, stroking Skinner's chest and back and ribs and
the hard, flat stretch of
abdomen. Teasing down his thigh and so near his erection that all Skinner
had to do was shift
and he would be cupping him. Stroking him.
Exactly what he wanted to do, but he resisted. Teasing and holding back.
Trying to do what had
been done to him. Make Skinner moan and twist. Push him to the edge.
But it seemed all he was doing was teasing himself. Making himself hard
and eager. Smooth skin
and hard muscles, so solid under his fingers. His fingers gentle, then
rough, then teasing,
finally brushing Skinner's cock. Teasing him. Stroking him.
But there was nothing he did that made Skinner twist and turn. No touch,
no tender caress, no
roughness. He stood as still as if he was carved of stone, as if there
was nothing that could
even make him moan. The only thing that betrayed arousal at all was
the hardness of his cock,
the pulse of it in his fingers, the ripple of muscle along his jaw.
Mulder narrowed his eyes in concentration. Trailed soap across Skinner's
nipples, teasing them
to hardness. Held the bigger man the way he'd been held, pulled him
close and arched into his
groin. The quick thrum of his pulse increased as he slid his fingers
around Skinner's hip. As
he caressed the firm, rounded line of buttocks. Playing, dipping his
fingers into the crease.
Still no break in the facade of calm, but his own control was slipping.
His chest starting to
rise and fall with the quickness of his breath. The pressure of his
cock against the hard plane
of stomach was making his heart race.
The muscles under his hands tensed slightly, then relaxed. Allowing
him to slide his fingers
down. Skinner nodded and let his head drop back, exposing his throat.
As if he was giving him
permission to penetrate. As if he was bestowing a favor, even as his
body relaxed and opened,
drawing him in.
He felt that little flare of anger again. White hot and orange. He bit
at the tender flesh of
Skinner's throat. He pushed with a soapy finger, intending roughness.
The taut ring of muscle loosened even more. Admitting him, taking him.
There was no preparation
necessary, none of the stretching he'd required. The muscles around
his fingers just...opened.
Skinner's head tilted, giving him even more of his throat. He breathed,
"Oh, yeah..." One hand
came up slowly, bracing on the wall.
Elation flooded him. At last, a break in the control. But it was Mulder
who groaned, who
shivered with excitement, who felt as if his knees weren't going to
support him a moment
longer.
Gaze locked on Skinner's face, he closed his hand around the other man's
cock. Slid his hand
from the base out the head where he squeezed down, then repeated the
motion. Still slipping his
finger in and out slowly. Skinner was so hot inside. Hard, spongy yielding.
So responsive. His
body relaxing and drawing him in. Making him forget anger and control.
Making him weak and
breathless.
Skinner's mouth twitched. Hard, little catch of breath. "You want to be in me?"
"Yes." He barely breathed the word, afraid to break the spell. Moving
his hand in rhythm to the
slow, sensual movement of the other man's hips. His heartbeat thudding
in his ears as he added
a second finger. As Skinner's body adjusted to him.
The dark eyes opened, heavy lidded and almost sleepy. Bore into his
for a moment, drinking in
the heat, the barely controlled excitement, then slid closed. "Have
you ever been topped like
this?"
Skinner's voice was thick and dreamy. He moistened his lips.
Mulder couldn't take his eyes off the tip of Skinner's tongue, sliding
around his lips. Slow
circle, as if he was tracing the head of a cock. His cock.
"What do you mean?" Breathless. Hands slowing as he sensed not what
was coming, but the tone of
it. The breathless, longing tone of it.
"Have you ever fucked somebody who's topping you?"
"god..." It was almost a moan. The way he said it, with absolute certainty,
with absolute lust,
made it something...sultry and enthralling and addictive. Made it something
he wanted as much
as he'd ever wanted any sex act. "How...?"
He pulled Skinner further under the hot spray of water. Worked soap
onto both his hands until
the lather was as thick as semen. Cupped Skinner's cock between his
palms and stroked him. The
soap washed away quickly and there was only the roughness of his skin,
catching and sliding.
"Let me. Show me... I want to."
Skinner opened his eyes, smiled at him. "You can't even obey me now.
What would you do if you
were in me?"
He shivered. Blinding expression, that superior, knowing smile. As overwhelming
as the flare of
an explosion. Almost enough to distract him from the question. Almost.
"Anything...," he
breathed.
"Anything?" Skinner caught the back of his neck in his strong fingers.
There was such sinister promise in the word. A hard shiver of anticipation
bit into him.
Skinner's fingers bit into him. The grip wasn't hard enough to hurt,
just controlling. Just
mastering.
He pressed down. "Take me in your mouth. I'm going to come again."
Mulder gasped. Went to his knees without protest. Water cascaded down
over his face. He guided
Skinner's cock to his mouth, sucked at the tip gently. Water flowing
into his mouth, cock
flowing into his mouth. Overwhelmed and teetering on the edge of losing
his grip on reality.
He knew he was being manipulated, promised something so enthralling,
he would do anything to
gain it. Not even promised it, just teased with it. Tantalized. The
fingers on his head
reminded him of what he was supposed to be doing. Of the taste of soap,
stinging his tongue.
Velvet hard cock, sliding along the top of his mouth. He slipped a
hand between Skinner's legs,
pushed his fingers into him again. Imagining that heat on his cock.
The pressure. He wanted it.
He gripped Skinner's cock at the base, stroked hard, once, twice.
Skinner grunted, rose up on the balls of his feet, thrust with his hips.
Semen filled his mouth, his throat, saltwater taste washing away the
sting of soap. Muscles
clamped down on his fingers, spasmed. He groaned, imaging that rippling
clutch on his cock. He
wanted it. Wanted him... He pulled Skinner closer, trapping him, twisting
his fingers. Stroked
his cock lovingly with his hand, with his tongue, coaxing another shudder
from him. Another
groan.
Losing himself in the taste and scent of sex and pleasure. In the warmth
of the water, pouring
down over him.
He wanted to come, too. The pressure was squeezing him, like a hand,
closing lovingly on his
spine, smothering his nerves with sensation. Slowing the flow of blood
to his brain. Making his
head swim, his surroundings circle lazily.
He felt pressure under his arms, like the steady pull on his senses.
Then he was lifted up
again, effortless tug, as if he weighed nothing.
The bathroom was steamy and warm. The mirror was fogged over, but he
knew how he must look as
Skinner guided him out of the shower. Eyes heavy lidded and dulled
with lust. Mouth swollen
from use.
He closed his eyes as Skinner enfolded them both in a towel. As he kissed
the semen from his
mouth and the water from his lashes and rubbed his hair dry. Ran his
fingers through his hair,
playing with the thick strands. Tingles rushing along his scalp.
Dried him and stroked him and turned him. Pinched his nipples and stroked
his cock up against
his belly and kissed him again. Rougher this time, ravaging his mouth.
Teasing him and taunting
him with sensation. Breathed into him, for him. Led him slowly, like
a blind man, out of the
bathroom.
"When are you going to let me come?" he whispered, and Skinner said
so softly he had to open
his eyes to hear...
"Not for a long time." His fingers closed on his neck again, and his
voice roughened. "And I
warned you not to speak without permission." Skinner gave him a hard
shove, propelling him
towards the bed.
He caught himself on the edge, his heart thundering in his ears.
He looked down and saw bright quilt beneath his fingers, and the two
silk neckties, laid side
by side across it.
He jerked back to reality. "No. Wait."
Shied back, but Skinner was ready for him. One arm wrapped firmly around his waist. "Be quiet."
The game, the sinister warning couldn't cut through this fear. He resisted
the tug towards the
foot of the bed. Ignored the warning to not speak. "I don't like to
be tied."
Skinner tightened down on him and refused to let him back away. Caught
his wrist and twisted it
into the small of his back. "I told you if you disobeyed me, I'd punish
you. If you fight me,
you'll just make it worse."
Such lovely menace in his voice, but Mulder was too frantic to give
it more than a bare notice.
He sputtered and turned, trying to free his wrist. "But I..."
Skinner half lifted him, half shoved him the short distance to the foot
of the bed, forced him
down across it. Held him down, pressed into the mattress with his weight
as he attached the
first tie to the wrist held in the small of his back.
He struggled to get up, pushing with his free hand, and then it, too,
was captured. Brought
around against the small of his back. "Wait. Wait! We need to talk
about this. We didn't talk
about this."
Fingers gripped the back of his neck again, strangely paralyzing.
Skinner leaned down over him, into his line of vision. Face so smooth
and composed. No
indication that there had been any real strain to holding him down.
No indication that he was
playing a wicked, dark game. "Do you want to say the word?"
The other tie was touching his wrist, but not wrapped around it yet.
Smooth and soft and cool.
Skinner's hip was against his, his fingers lightly holding his wrists
in place. His skin was as
smooth as the silk, but warm.
If he said the words, asked for mercy, he'd never feel this again. The
warm skin, the cruel
fingers. Never taste him again, breathe in his scent. He interrupted
the ragged in and out of
his breathing with a whisper, with courage he didn't know he possessed.
"No."
Trying to calm the panting gasps. The hard drumbeat of his pulse. "But
we didn't talk about
limits."
Still leaning over him, holding him pressed into the mattress, Skinner
took up the tie again,
wrapped it around his wrist. "There are no limits."
The jack-in-the-box that was trapped in his stomach vibrated. Compressed
little spring popped
loose. Jangling, quivering, cold sensation behind his navel. He tried,
one last time. Little
boy voice. "But I don't like to be tied."
"You will." Skinner jerked the knot tight around his wrist.
This time, there was no caress of steaming shower, no slick, soapy hands
to distract him. He
wriggled against the bed, against the hard thighs pinning him, muffled
his distress in the
softness of the quilt.
Even the dignity of smothering his moans was denied him as Skinner dragged
him up, held one arm
high up behind his back as he tied the end of one necktie to the post
of the bed. Quick and
efficient despite the effort he was exerting to keep him still.
Skinner ignored his protests, his panicked breathing, as he tied the
other wrist, stretching
his arms out loosely at shoulder height.
Through it all, his cock never lost its hardness.
The knots tested, Skinner pushed on his shoulder, bending him over the
foot of the bed again
until he hung, swayed forward in a weird, off balance position. His
were feet solidly placed,
but his upper body was dangling by the ties holding his hands.
His head was starting to swim from lack of oxygen. From his hyperventilating.
From the swaying
motion of his shoulders.
Skinner moved in close on him. Caressed his bottom lightly, running
his hands over him. Over
his back. Down his thigh. Soothing him with soft, nonsensical sounds
and the dazzling
gentleness of his hands.
He sighed and tried to relax into the caresses, tried to ignore the
tug of silk on his wrists.
Telling himself it didn't matter that he was tied. Nice, sweet touches,
along his spine, over
his upthrust buttocks, down the insides of his thighs. The gentle part
of the game again.
Soothing away his panic. He pushed away that niggling song in his brain
that reminded him,
*roughness then gentleness then back to roughness.*
Skinner stroked his cock with just the tips of his fingers. Letting
his cock glide through
them. Giving him sweetness when he'd thought of roughness.
He let the soothing caresses lull him. All the sensations filtering
through a haze of pleasure.
The light brush of the quilt against his balls as he swayed. The warmth
of thighs against the
backs of his legs. The light, teasing dance of fingertips across his
nipples. Fingertips across
his ass, hinting at penetration then dancing away. Lulled into soft,
blissful moans.
He was being stroked so delicately, he was aching to be entered. To
enter. He shivered,
thinking of pushing his cock into Skinner. Of the tight, hot sheath
of his body. Tied like this
and unsteady and swinging forward, Skinner beneath him. Ready. So ready...
Skinner lips moved on his back, his shoulder. Teasing the sensitive
spot at the base of his
neck until little ripples of pleasure were tracing out across his back.
"See? You like it.
Don't you?"
"Yes." He raised up on the balls of his feet, straining to swing himself
back. Breath speeding
up, pulse speeding up, flow of blood into his cock speeding up. "Please.
Like this. Be like
this with me. I want you. I want to fuck you."
That was when Skinner hit him.
A flat, open hand landed on his ass. Loud fractured sound of flesh striking
flesh. Electrifying
echo reminiscent of a leather strap, landing on bare flesh. He jerked
and cried out, more
surprised than hurt. More betrayed than in pain. The sound of the slap
reverberated in the
room, chased by his cry. Heat suffused his flesh, his cock.
"Never speak unless I tell you to." Skinner leaned into him. He was
hard again. Heated, just
washed smoothness of his cock raking his hip. Distracting him so that
the second slap was as
much of a surprise as the first.
Hard, open handed blow on his other buttock. He cried out again, more
surprised by Skinner's
arousal as he was by the sharp pain, by the burn of heat. Turning the
sound into an almost sob
as he tried to choke it back. As he tried to stay still.
Skinner laughed softly, unfamiliar, poisonous sound that carried over
into his whisper. "No,
don't hold back. I want to hear you moan. Move for me. It makes me
hard."
The words washed over him, plucked at his nerves. He struggled harder
not to groan. Something
perverse in him making want, now that he had permission, to remain
silent.
Skinner leaned into him again. "*You* make me hard." Heat of his cock
no match for the burn of
his hand. Caressing gently again. Reaching around to stroke his cock.
Reaching back to spank
him again. Harder this time. Crack like a gunshot of palm landing against
him. "Move for me."
It sounded worse than it was, the open handed smack on his ass, but
he cried out again. Bucked.
Tried to straighten up and found that he'd been pushed into that pivot
point where the weight
of his upper body was too great for him pull himself up. He could sway,
teetering on the balls
of his feet, or he could collapse. He was at the mercy of the man holding
him upright. Forcing
him to stay upright when he wanted to collapse.
Skinner spanked him again. Heaping heat and fiery agony onto his already blistered flesh.
Just enough pressure, just enough pain to make him writhe. To make him
think of the strap. To
make him want to beg for more, but he bit at his lip. Moaned the words
only in his mind,
*Again. Again, please.*
As if he was reading his mind again, Skinner whispered, "Yes," across
his back and spanked him
harder. Pressing into him and rubbing his cock across his heated ass.
"You're skin's getting
hot," he whispered. "Good and hot." Pressing his hardness into the
crease of his ass and
rocking there. Sex motion, silky rhythm. "Move for me."
He wriggled. *Please. Please. Please.* Not even knowing what he wanted
to beg for. More
spanking. More cock. To be released. To teeter with unsteady rhythm
and sink his cock into
clutching heat. To be burned with pain and torment. To be consumed
by it.
Skinner's hand stilled on his buttock, cupped him gently. "Are you wishing
it was a strap
instead of my hand?" His voice was so quiet yet so intense. And the
words were so darkly
accurate.
He gasped, writhed, jerked as if he could twist away and get Skinner out of his head.
"Are you?" Insistent, almost breathless.
"No." Lying. Writhing again, but this time, moving his bottom against
the sweet warmth of
Skinner's palm.
"Are you wishing it was him? Is that why you don't want to answer me?"
"No." But this was truth. "No." Right now, with his skin on fire and
his cock on fire, he
couldn't imagine any other hands on him. Couldn't fathom that anyone
else's control could be so
complete.
Skinner hit him again, tearing another cry from his throat. From deep
in his chest. But the
pain didn't quite match the level of what he was expecting. Of what
he was craving. And that
was the terror of it. Being hit just hard enough to make him want more.
To make him crave more.
To make him afraid of how far he wanted Skinner to take it. How far
he would go.
Skinner reached past him, took something else from the bed. Something
that had been invisible
against the fractured pattern of the quilt. He twisted, trying to see
what would be done to him
next. Panting with anticipation and fear.
There was the soft, plastic snick of a bottle cap and slick liquid was
dribbled onto him.
Dripping down into the crease of his ass, lubricating the hard column
of flesh stroking up and
down him.
A finger forced the slickness inside him. He sobbed, jerked against
the bindings on his wrists,
trying to pull away. No, not this! He wanted to be the one whose slick
cock was consumed. Not
like this. *Let me...* the words formed in his throat. He choked them
back.
Another finger. Twisting now. Stretching him, opening him, exposing
him. Making him burn.
Taking away any thought but the desire to be taken. To be used.
And then the cock. Blunt pressure, blunt width. He writhed. Dangling.
No leverage. Thwarted
from any attempt to push back. To rush the penetration.
Then Skinner's hands were on his hips. Steadying him, but still, holding him away. "Ask me."
He sobbed. Words rushed out, overflowing. "Take me. Take me. I want you. Please. Take me."
The cock slid all the way into him. Slow, relentless insistence, coercing
his flesh to part. To
loosen. Compelling his nerves to respond. Relentless, swirling pleasure.
Dull, stretching pain,
as glorious as any he'd ever felt.
The sounds in his head changed. The *please* continued to pour out,
but it became a prayer, a
litany of thanks. A rush of orgasm. The spiraling jangle of bliss started
in his groin, winding
its way towards his cock. He was going to come. Without being touched.
"Don't come," Skinner warned him, drawing him up and back so their bodies
were pressed together
from shoulder to floor. So he was standing again, taking the full brunt
of Skinner's slow,
agonizing thrusts with his legs.
"If you come, I'll punish you." Ragged voice in his ear.
He laughed though the sound came out another half sob. There was no
threat left. What more
could he do to him? He arched, pushing himself back. Wanting more.
More of everything. More
pleasure. More pain. More punishment.
Skinner stopped him, stopped his orgasm by squeezing the tip of his
cock, by catching his
balls. Loose circle of his thumb and forefinger, stretching his testicles
away from his body.
Skinner forced his cock in deep and locked them together so he could
barely move. "Listen to
me."
Oh, god, how could he manage that dispassionate, husky whisper with
his cock buried to the hilt
and him writhing, working his muscles even if he couldn't sway his
hips? "You're not human," he
moaned. "I can't. Not with you in me. Just make me come..."
Skinner pushed him away. Pulling out of him.
The worst punishment of all. He grabbed the ties to keep from falling.
Ground his teeth
together to keep from groaning with anguish.
Skinner yanked the knots loose from the bedposts. Caught him when he
would have fallen, wound
the lengths of silk around his big hand until Mulder's wrists were
trapped together behind his
back.
Skinner yanked down on his wrists, forcing him to lean back. "What did
you feel, watching the
strap? Watching *him*."
He struggled against the pressure. He didn't want to think. He didn't
want to lean back. He
wanted to bend over. To go down on his knees and be spanked. To be
fucked.
Skinner yanked his head back and exposed his throat. "Answer me."
He tried to back away, and Skinner's fingers closed over his throat,
holding him still. Thumb
stroking the pulse point beneath his jaw lovingly. Following behind
the thumb with his teeth.
Brushing his lips across his mouth. Light teasing touch.
He gasped. Obedient now, so aroused...waiting. Filling his lungs in
anticipation. Arching up.
Breathing in a scent that would be with him forever, a mixture of Skinner
and his own bathsoap.
"Be still..." The voice, the touch, heated the pulse beneath his ear.
He could feel his heart,
thumping beneath the thumb as Skinner raked his jaw with sharp teeth.
He could feel the trembling of the fingers on his throat, at his wrists,
Skinner's composure
slipping away. The control Mulder had so longed to break.
"Answer me." Growled command.
Mulder gasped again. Room starting to teeter and sway at the edges of
his vision. He couldn't
possibly get any harder, and yet, the vise of arousal was tightening
down on his stomach again.
He groaned, inarticulate with need.
Skinner yanked him around, dragged him, dazed and stumbling and falling,
back into the den.
Knocked everything off the low coffee table with one broad sweep of
his arm.
Cascade of magazines and books and tapes. Mulder watched them fall.
Slow motion. Angry clatter
of plastic striking the floor. The grip on the ties cutting off the
circulation in his fingers.
From behind him, Skinner pushed his face close, forced words into his
ear. "Do you know how
many times I've been in this room with you pointing a gun at me? Do
you know how many times
I've stood here, wondering whether I could trust you or not?"
He shook his head, dizzy with fear and arousal. Now confused, unable
to follow the conversation
enough to make the words connect. Wishing for the strong fingers to
touch his throat again. Was
this the question he was supposed to answer? "I don't understand..."
The weight of Skinner's hand came down on his shoulder. "I've stared
at that damned table with
your gun at my head. Next time I look at it, I'll have something new
to remember."
Skinner yanked his arms back and out this time, trying to force him
to his knees. "Down. Over
the table." His voice was raw. Angry.
Mulder looked at him, openmouthed. Too stunned, too aroused, too frightened
to move. Where had
that serene control gone? Why hadn't he seen it for the safety it was?
And why, when he was so
scared he could barely breathe, was his cock throbbing and aching as
if it was being squeezed?
"What are you going to do?"
"Anything I want." Snarled.
Skinner's voice slammed his brain into a red, swirling void. His mind
deserted him. The
jangling in his stomach mutated into quaking.
Skinner's fingers slammed him into position. Down on his knees beside
the table. Forced him to
bend over, to lay his chest on it. Mulder shivered. The wood was cold
and solid beneath his
erection. He moved against it, whimpering as cool, electric pleasure
spiraled up his back.
"No. Not so far up."
Fingers bit into his hips, hauling him back. Sweet, dragging slide against
the underside of his
cock. Skinner pulled him back along the table until his erection dropped
free. No longer
sandwiched between his belly and the wood. Hanging free, where he couldn't
rock against the
table and pleasure himself. He sighed noisily in disappointment. Trying
to turn his head to
keep Skinner in the edge of his blurred vision.
"Hold onto the table." Skinner guided his hands up onto the surface.
"As long as you hold onto
the table, and don't move your hands, I won't tie you."
He gripped the edge of table. Trying to work his brain around the instructions.
He didn't like
to be tied. He tightened his grasp, feeling the rolled edge against
his palms. Then the blunt
tip of something against his ass. No heat to identify it as Skinner.
He wriggled, beyond caring, but trying anyway to determine if it was
Skinner's cock, or if he
was using something else on him. Whether something horrible was being
pushed up inside him.
"Don't hurt me." Not sure what he meant. The pain was pleasure. The
pleasure was pain.
Skinner leaned down over him. His thighs into the backs of his legs.
Leaving no doubt it was
him, thick and hard, pressing in. "Ask me."
Mulder shivered. "Yes. Oh, yes, please. Please fuck me. Make me come."
"As soon as you answer me. Tell me what you were thinking." Breath heavy across his shoulder.
He gripped the table harder and tried to be obedient. Tried not writhe
and buck and push
himself back. Impale himself. Tried to focus on the questions, on a
convincing lie. "Please, I
don't know. Please. Take me."
Skinner knew, too well, what he wanted. What would torture him the most.
Giving just the barest
inch of himself at a time. Sliding into him slowly, just barely. No
relentless pressure this
time. Just slipping back and then pushing in again, only a fraction
farther each time. So that
by the time he was fully into him, he was groaning aloud, mind repeating
over and over,
silently begging with wanton, reckless need. *Pleasepleasepleaseplease...*
At last, Skinner rested against him. Fully imbedded in him, owning him.
"Tell me what you were
feeling."
Cold rush of air down his back. Across his hips as Skinner straightened.
He pulled back,
slipping almost all the way out of him.
Mulder whimpered. Found words, anything to keep from being empty again,
and offered them up in
a voice so hoarse it was unrecognizable. "Like it was my hand, holding
the strap. Like it was
me being hit."
Skinner shoved home, all the way into him. Now, at last, the relentless,
driving pressure. The
opening.
Pleasure stabbed into him, sharp as a knife, sweet as candy, ground
down on his spine. He
screamed. Dug his fingers into the table to keep from grabbing himself.
From stroking his cock.
Just once. Just one, quick stroke...
"Don't come," Skinner warned him, voice twisted with lust. He stroked
in and out again. Fingers
biting into his hips to keep him from rocking. He leaned forward and
whispered. "Not like this.
I want to watch your face. I want to watch your cock."
He was shuddering, on the edge. Just another thrust, another heated
whisper and he'd come
without being touched. He pushed back, trying to force the penetration.
Skinner pulled out of him. So abruptly he sobbed, losing finally, completely,
his sense of
reality. As if the cock had been all that anchored him to the room.
To the solidity of the
table.
He rolled, following the rough guidance of hands that pulled him up,
turned him around, shoved
him down again. Floating, onto his back. His knees were pushed up to
his chest. Lengths of silk
trailing across his body, soft as clouds. He jerked, dragging at the
neckties still bound
around his wrists, pulling the silk across his nipples. Shimmering,
intense sensation, knotting
the muscles across his abdomen.
He remembered that he wasn't supposed to be moving his hands. Something
bad would happen if he
moved his hands, and he found the edge of the table. Gripped it, but
too late.
Skinner grabbed the ties, using them to jerk his hands down by his hips.
Fingers locked them
there, against the cold wood. Relentless weight held them there. Bound
and helpless.
Something thick and solid lodged against his ass. Pushed. His body accepted
it as belonging,
opening to the pressure. Lifeline. Anchor. He opened his eyes as Skinner
started to move in
him. Swinging, fluid motion. All rolling hips and slick grace and pleasure
too intense to bear.
"Now?" he whispered. Straining to free his hand, to reach for his cock. "Now, please."
Skinner released the iron grip on one of his wrists, guided his hand
to his cock. Let him wrap
his fingers around himself. He gasped at the touch, at how alien his
hand felt, like someone
else touching him. He stroked himself.
"I like that," Skinner rasped, his fingers closed lightly around him.
Around his hand, around
his cock.
His eyes fluttered closed. Sight too intense to bear, of Skinner leaning
down over him, guiding
his hand on his cock. Letting him stroke himself, the way he'd stroked
him in the shower,
before he pulled his hand away again.
Skinner let him arch and twist with the pleasure as he held his hand,
suspended, just out of
reach of his straining cock. "Don't close your eyes. Look at me. Tell
me what you were feeling.
When he was looking at you, what were you thinking?"
He writhed on the table, on the cock impaling him, fingers clawing at air.
Opening his eyes just as Skinner slammed his hand back to the table,
whispering, "Not yet. Not
yet." Face straining so beautifully. No longer tight and controlled,
though his voice was rough
and rasping. "Not until you answer me!"
And he understood suddenly, that Skinner was talking to himself as much
as to him. Trying to
hold back. He was losing control. Falling with him. Trying not to come.
Losing that
intoxicating control. And all he had to do, to push him over the edge,
was answer.
He worked his mouth, searching for saliva. Shifted so that Skinner's
hard ribs were clutched
between his knees. "His eyes...," he rasped, barely able to talk, barely
able to breathe.
Arching up to meet the slick penetration. "I was thinking..."
Skinner paused, poised to slam into him. Held for just a moment, gaze locked with his.
"I was thinking... His eyes are like yours."
Skinner gasped. Quick twitch of his head before he jerked. Moving as
if he had no control over
his body.
Mulder arched his back, lifted his hips to meet the hard thrust. Narrowing
his eyes to keep
Skinner in focus.
"No..." Skinner's fingers tightened down on him. His voice, lost and agonized, tore at him.
And there was no hard thrust. Skinner slid into him slowly, tenderly,
as carefully as if it was
his first time. It took him so by surprise that he shuddered. He felt
the first pulse of his
orgasm as if every muscle in his body let go at once. As if his body
was trying to consume the
hard cock filling him. The muscles in his throat, his belly, his back
rippled. His balls
tightened. "Oh, god... I'm going to... Hard. Now, hard."
Skinner groaned. Nothing like the controlled passion of his other orgasms.
Thrust forward
roughly. Delicious, grinding violation. Deeper. Harder.
The first cresting surge of pleasure washed through him. "Oh, now. Now.
Watch me..." His cock
jerked. Semen spurted across his belly, hot as candle wax. He cried,
reached out, arched
higher. "Watch me." Coming with his fingers locked around Skinner's
wrists. With his gaze
locked on Skinner's face, twisted with pleasure. Feeding on the wildness
blooming in his eyes.
Riding it, the astonished, raw pleasure.
Skinner's head fell back, breaking the gaze. His throat worked. An agonized
groan tore from
him.
And he felt it. Felt that lurch of cock that he'd felt in his mouth.
Felt the voice, like silk,
like vellum. Pushing his pleasure higher. Riding higher with every
rough thrust into him.
Taking him away from himself. Into himself. The taut, jangling sensation
that had started in
his stomach and slowly encapsulated his body, every inch of his skin,
arced out. Rolled across
his skin, reaching deep into his nerves. Untangling and rippling and
rolling. Finally smoothing
out, leveling to a low, steady hum of pleasure. And, finally, easing
to tiny ripples.
But even as the sensations ebbed, as he relaxed, the tremors continued. Muted, tired sparks.
Skinner shuddered one last time, hung there over him, shivering. His
biting grip eased, fingers
caressed up over his arms, touching him as if he was checking for broken
bones. For damage.
Came up, over his jaw, to his mouth. Thumb caressing his lower lip.
Came back down to grasp his
fingers, trembling. Squeezed gently. He rasped, "Are you okay?"
Mulder could manage only a weak nod. No broken bones, just melted ones.
Then Skinner slipped away. Gently untangling from the knot of silk ties
and fingers and relaxed
muscles. Slowly withdrawing.
Sudden empty sensation. Caress of cool air on his bottom, the insides
of his knees. Mulder
reached up, at last, and stroked himself. Fingers meeting on the underside
of his spent cock.
Stroking and smoothing away the last of the ripples. He arched into
his hand and moaned softly.
Amazing sensation-he'd never come without being touched.
He rolled his head to the side, unable to lift it. Found Skinner, sitting
only inches away,
with his back against the couch. Eyes watching him, tired and soft
brown again. Unblinking
gaze.
He shivered.
Skinner's mouth moved. His chest rose, fell, slow ripple of muscle.
His throat worked and
dredged up words in a voice as soft and drained as his eyes, repeated,
"Are you okay?"
He nodded again, finding finally, after hours and hours, moisture in
his mouth. But no words to
go with it. He shook his head, managing to add an exhausted smile,
conveying, *No, I'm not
okay. Yes, I am okay,* at the same time.
Skinner seemed to understand, nodding without turning his unblinking
gaze away. His chest still
rising and falling noticeably.
There was still enough energy left in him for the dark eyes to send
a little spark along his
nerves. A little thrill at being watched as he lay there, lazy and
naked and sticky with his
own orgasm. Stroking himself tenderly. Still enough embarrassment in
him for heat to rise to
his face as he thought of what he'd confessed. He broke the gaze, letting
his head roll back so
that he could only see the other man obliquely.
Skinner reached out, languid roll of muscles across his shoulders, and
caught the end of one of
the ties. Twisted the edge of it between his fingers. Leaned his head
back and closed his eyes.
He didn't pull the tie tight, but Mulder could feel the gentle whisper
of it on his wrist, the
connection to Skinner. Reminding him of being bound. Helpless. Conveying
control and dominance
with just the barest, most contained movement.
Something tickled in his stomach. Light, feathery touch of anticipation.
He drew a deep, deep
breath. Steadying himself. Finding energy. Finding desire and the words
to express it, "Next
time... I want the other... What you said... In the shower." His voice
surprised him. So
hoarse. So worn. His desire surprised him, so ready to flare up again.
"Next time." Said with the same sense of wonder he was feeling. Still not looking at him.
For a moment, he thought Skinner was going to shake his head, deny him.
Then Skinner rolled his head up, looked at him, into him, narrow-eyed
concentration edging out
the relaxed expression on his face. He seemed to understand what Mulder
was talking about. He
rolled the edge of the tie, folding it onto itself, slowly taking up
the slack. "Are you sure
that's what you want?" His voice, too, was hoarse, but there was something
in it. A quiet,
assured control. Humming sensuality. A warning.
Mulder felt the pressure of the tie on his wrist, pulled taut. No silky
hint of cloth now, just
the binding drawn tight against his flesh. He thought of the strap.
Of Skinner's hand, coming
down on him. Of Skinner reaching into his mind.
He swallowed, felt his throat work. Behind his navel, the feather morphed
into something that
jangled. There was no coy, teasing dance of words this time. There
was no need for them
anymore.
He answered, clear and sure. "Yes."
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