Title: Fragile
Series: Monarch Butterfly 3/3
Author: Laura Lee
Email: vbrooks@if.rmci.net or alaskanrose515@hotmail.com
Rating: PG13
DISCLAIMER: Due South and all it's characters belong to Alliance. Song credits are at the end. The rest belongs to me.
Fraser
stood staring at the gated entrance.
He could almost hear the sounds around him, smell the faint waft
of blood, feel her arms around him. He
closed his eyes and began to feel slightly dizzy.
"Hey,
Fraze...Fraze?" Ray's voice
seeped through his mind and he opened his eyes. "You comin'?"
Fraser
nodded and followed his partner into the zoo where the smell of the animals
drifting through the air brought his senses back where they belonged.
"Somethin'
wrong, Fraze?" Ray asked.
Fraser
shook his head. "No, it just
brings back...memories."
Ray
nodded and opened the door to the large building. At the front counter was a display of miscellaneous items
including snakeskins, porcupine quills, and butterfly wings. Under it was a sign. "Please handle carefully" Ray was about to touch a butterfly
wing when the swinging doors behind the counter opened abruptly and Welsh
stepped out.
"Glad
you could make it," he said harshly.
"Body's in here."
Fraser
and Ray walked around the counter.
As
they stepped into the room, Fraser quickly assessed the crime scene. On the floor lay the body. It was a woman in a white coat. It was obvious the microscope beside her caused the blow
to her head. The room was very
clean. Along one wall was a row
of cages, along another, a few incubators and small infant beds. Near the cages, a large island counter
took up much of the room. Several
other microscopes and some equipment were in a row. The forensics team had their labeled baggies resting on
a collapsible cart and were removing their gloves, preparing to leave.
For
a moment, Fraser was lost on a set of hands...the gloves being removed. He could see her in his mind. Her face had infiltrated his thoughts
when he looked at the dead body in the car and now all of the images
and thoughts sifted through his head like a dream, blurred and incomplete.
There
was a crash and Fraser shook back to reality. Welsh looked very angry, along with the examiners as two
men stooped to pick up the things they'd knocked off the cart.
He
heard a voice behind him..."Fraser" it was soothing, familiar. It was a voice he didn't expect to
hear. When it came again he realized
his mind was playing a trick. He
turned to the person saying his name.
"Ray."
"Yes,
Fraze." Ray noticed that
he looked slightly disoriented. "Who'd
you think?"
"I
thought you were Ray," he replied without thinking, then ran his
thumbnail across his brow. "I meant..."
Ray
nodded and Fraser didn't finish.
"Nope. Just me,"
Ray said softly.
Fraser
paused. "Did they tell you
why they asked me to accompany you?"
Ray
nodded. "She's Canadian. Doctor Paige Barrett. She's a specialist. Came down to help out with some sick
animals er somethin'."
Fraser
began to make his way around the room.
Ray followed. "What
species?" Fraser asked.
"Huh?"
"What
animal?"
"Koala
bears. She's a specialist in some
disease I can't pronounce -- Welsh says it's in the file -- but the animal
was the koala bears."
Fraser
picked up a blanket and smelled it.
"Don't
lick it," Ray jumped in.
Fraser
set the blanket down. "No
need. There aren't any unidentifiable
smells. Did they find anything
out of place?" He made his
way to the cart and began examining the contents.
"Yeah,
a few. We don't know who that
wallet belongs to," Ray said as Fraser picked it up. "Prints were taken off it though."
Fraser
could still see the powder and nodded.
"Looks
like most of the prints are accounted for. Only two sets we don't know.
Should make it easy. Was
restricted entrance back here, more or less. Just doctors, scientists, zoologists. That kind of thing."
Ray paused. "One set
is pretty clear," he added. "Looks
like they go with the wallet. The
other set is all smudged. It'll
be really hard to identify." Fraser
nodded and Ray continued. "They've
interviewed everyone. No one saw
anything. She was supposed to
be getting a needle to take a blood test from the koala. She didn't come back for a long time so Doctor Erikson came
looking for her. He made the call."
Fraser
raised an eyebrow. "Any suspects?"
Ray
shook his head. "Doctor Erikson
was out with the animals. Several
people saw him waiting with the koala.
Most of the zoo workers have witnesses like that." He paused. "No
real suspects. She was an animal
doctor. Who'd want to kill her?" He accompanied the observation with
a shrug.
The
doors to the room opened again and Fraser turned. Thatcher entered and looked around the room. "Constable," she greeted.
"Inspector
Thatcher." He watched her for a moment, then filled her in.
"Well,
I just received a call from my superior before joining you. He wants to make sure this...situation
is handled quickly." She
looked over the evidence and turned back to Fraser. "I'm holding you personally responsible for this case." She glanced at Ray. "Don't let anything get in your
way." She stepped away and
walked over to Welsh, engaging in a brief conversation.
Ray
sniggered. "I'm not sure
if that was aimed at me, but..." he let the sentence trail.
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Fraser
set his hat on Ray's desk as Ray took some papers to Francesca. "And can you check on those prints? They should be done by now."
She
nodded and Ray walked over to his desk.
He sat with a sigh and rubbed an eye. "I dunno, Fraze. All
we got is a bunch of smeared prints.
I don't get it."
Frannie
turned. "Ray? They got the prints." She reached out to the printer, grabbed the paper coming
out, and walked it over to Ray. "Nothing. The clean set isn't on file. The smudged prints don't seem to match. They said they must be too smudged."
"Thanks
Fran," he said. "Puts
us back at square one."
Fraser
tilted his head. "It does
appear we are lacking clues. Do
we know why she was killed yet?"
"Nope. Still nothing. Everything turns up a blank page." He swiveled in his chair.
"I'm pretty stumped, Fraze.
Where're your Mountie answers?"
Fraser
smiled. "I'd hardly refer
to them as 'Mountie answers', Ray. It's
a simple matter of deduction.
Unfortunately there aren't enough clues to come to any type of
deduction."
Ray
frowned and picked up the phone.
"Maybe..."
Fraser
tilted his head. "Yes?"
Ray
dialed. "I'm calling the
lab." He paused. "Hello? Yeah,
this is Detective Vecchio. Still
have the prints for the Barrett case handy?" He leaned in a little. "Can you tell me anything about
them? I know they are smudged...I
was told that, but was there residue, anything?" He waited a moment and looked disappointed. "Well, how about this, then. A friend of mine and I'll come down and take a closer look. That ok?" He paused.
"Thanks," he said simply and hung up. He stood and took his jacket from the
back of his chair. "C'mon
Fraser."
Fraser
followed. "Did they find
something?"
"Naw. Said if I wanted residue and stuff
they'd have to do more tests, but if there was it was probably destroyed
when they took the prints...or left at the scene." He sighed. "I
got that from you, you know. I
was thinking about the way you taste stuff and smell stuff and find stuff
we don't look for. Thought maybe..."
Fraser
nodded. "What do you expect
to find if we look at the prints?"
Ray
shrugged. "Dunno. That's why I'm bringing you."
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The
two men stepped through the doors into the room that had rows and rows
of files. They walked past them
to the numerous computers and equipment.
Ray looked around and was soon greeted by a woman who was small
and wore glasses.
"Can
I help you?"
"Yeah,
I'm Detective Vecchio. I called
a few minutes ago to look at some prints."
"Oh,
yes. I'm Barb. I took the call. Come with me." She
began to walk away.
The
two followed and Ray spoke. "You
must be new. Haven't seen you
before."
She
stopped and turned in front of an unoccupied computer. "Yes, I am. I just transferred from New York." She picked up a piece of paper with numerous fingerprints
on it.
"This
is a copy of the prints collected at the scene." She pointed to the smudged prints. "These are the ones you asked about. We can get the cards and put them under
a microscope and run various tests if necessary, but it is unlikely that
anything else could be found."
Ray
and Fraser looked over the paper. Fraser
pointed. "Hmm."
Ray
shrugged. "Yeah?"
"Look,
there...those two are exactly the same."
Ray
shifted. "So?"
Fraser
looked at his partner. "How
could you get two smudges to be exactly the same?" He said and waited for Ray to see his point.
"Yeah,
yeah," Ray said after a moment.
"Could the smudging be caused by calluses or... or something
to make the skin tough?"
The
woman leaned over. "Typically
the fingerprint is still there. You
see, the shaping remains the same even if..."
"What
if the skin is burned or something?"
"Even
then, the print returns shortly. The
burning would have to be very serious and recent," she replied.
"What
do you say, Fraze, should we go ask around?"
Fraser
nodded and thanked the woman as they left.
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Ray
and Fraser spent over two hours at the zoo asking questions. No one had callused hands or serious burns and no one knew
of anyone who did. Ray felt the
frustration by the end of the day and wanted to scream.
He
dropped Fraser at the Consulate and went to the gym. He spent nearly an hour boxing with various interested parties.
At
home he lay in bed awake. Occasionally
he still thought about Tori. More
than occasionally. He often wondered
about taking a trip to New York or calling information. He wondered if she ever came back to visit her old friends
and, if so, would she at least call him?
He thought about sitting beside her, sleeping beside her, working
beside her... anything ending with their being together. Why had they been so screwed up? Why did he have to...
There
was no end to the thoughts. He
tried to push them out more than once, but they would return. Even if he were successful, he'd have no control over those
damn dreams that woke him.
Now
he wondered if she might have the clue they needed for this case. It seemed impossible, but he was stumped;
Fraser was stumped. Ray wouldn't
give in. He sat on his couch,
the files spread across his coffee table, downing cup after cup of instant
coffee.
Morning
came and he had found nothing. He
gave up and called the Consulate.
Within
an hour he had picked up Fraser and the two arrived back at the zoo.
"What
are we going to do, Ray. We've
questioned everyone we can."
Ray
shrugged. "It came to me
this morning."
"What?"
"We
have more witnesses."
"Pardon?" Fraser asked and ran the names through
his mind. He thought they'd followed
up on every lead.
"The
animals. We didn't ask the animals."
Fraser
furrowed his brow and cleared his throat.
"Ray? Did you sleep
last night?" He paused. "You know Diefenbaker has an uncanny
ability to communicate with people; me in particular, but I do not believe..."
"It's
ok, Fraze. I'm not nuts," Ray
interrupted. "I just think maybe
there are clues in there. Maybe
with the animals. I don't know
what else to do."
"Ray,
what makes you so certain the wallet isn't the clue we need?"
"Because
no bad guy is gonna drop his wallet and smudge someone else's prints."
"True,
but perhaps the owner of that wallet knows something. Perhaps that person saw the murderer. Doesn't it seem likely?"
Ray
nodded. "Maybe, but we don't
know whose prints those are either. I'd
rather go for the killer's prints than a witness's. We'll check those out if we don't find anything here today,
ok?"
Fraser
nodded his agreement and got out of the car.
The
two walked through the park, looking under benches and into habitats
everywhere. When they came to
the koala display, they stopped. They
looked with more precision, looking under the stands set up to display
the stats of the animal.
"She
just left here and was going to come back here," Ray said in thought
as he looked into the habitat, looking carefully in the trees and on
the ground. He glanced down at
the card with the information for the animal.
"Hmm. Northern Koala. Eucalyptus." He stopped.
"Fraser."
Fraser
joined him and looked at the pictures.
"Fingerprints," he said softly. "Of course! The
koalas have fingerprints!" He
turned to Ray.
Ray
shuffled his feet and looked angry. "Do
you know what this means? The
prints were from the koala! The
killer must be the person who owns that wallet. Dammit, Fraser, you were right. We should have been looking for him
the whole time."
The
two went back to the precinct and began going over the file.
"I'm
not sure where to start...how to figure out who it could be." Ray
sighed. "I still don't have
a motive. Maybe I should be calling
the zoo again." He set his
hand on the phone. "See if
they thought of..."
"Ray!" Frannie interrupted.
"Yeah?"
"Phone,"
she replied shortly. "Line
two."
Ray
looked at his phone and picked it up.
He clicked the button roughly.
"Detective Vecchio," he said quickly.
There
was a long pause.
"Detective?"
"Yes,"
he waited, but the line was quiet. "Are
you still there?"
The
female on the other end cleared her throat. "Are you working on the case about Paige, uh, Doctor
Barrett?"
"Yeah,"
Ray leaned forward and grabbed a pen.
"Yeah, that's me."
She
paused before answering. When
she spoke, her voice was quiet. "I
was there."
Ray
dropped the pen. "Who are
you?"
"I...I
can't tell you. I...I..."
Ray
put his hand over the receiver.
"Huey, Frannie...somebody get a trace." He removed his hand. "Are you the one who is missing
a wallet?" He tried to be clever, knowing if this was the killer,
or someone working for the killer, she wouldn't admit it immediately.
She
waited before answering.
"Y...yes. Did you...?"
"Ma'am. I think you better tell us who you
are," Ray said.
The
voice cracked. "I think they
know who I am." After that,
Ray heard only a click. He looked
up, but Huey shook his head. Nothing. Ray stared at the phone, willing it
to ring again, for her to call back, but after several seconds he realized
she wouldn't.
"It's
her wallet," Ray said. "She
sounded so young. Like a college
kid. I don't think she did it."
"Ray,"
Fraser said softly. "It is
possible for a woman to be a killer.
It isn't..."
"She
said someone's after her," Ray interjected. "She's in some kind of trouble."
"Who
is she?"
"She
didn't say." He paused. "Let's go look at the wallet again. Maybe there is something we missed. A phone number, a piece of paper...something."
Fraser
nodded and followed him from the squad room.
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Ray
carefully opened the bag marked # 4.
He handed the wallet to Fraser and began fingering through the
other items.
Fraser
opened the wallet. Inside was
a ten dollar bill folded the long way and a five with the corner turned
over. There was nothing else inside. He handed it back to Ray who gave it
another look, then slipped it back in the bag.
Fraser
began to look through the other items in the box. "Where is the doctor's purse?"
"Huh?" Ray asked and began going through everything
again.
"Didn't
she have a purse, a bag, something?"
Ray
looked at the list. There was
nothing listed along those lines except the wallet. He pulled out his phone and called the zoo director.
"Did
you ever turn up a purse or a bag? Something the doctor carried her ID
and things in?"
"She
always carried a briefcase," he replied. "Wasn't it among the things you collected?"
"No,"
Ray replied. "Should it have
been?"
"Well,
I just assumed," he paused.
"She always kept it on her, carried it with her. When I didn't
see it there after you had cleaned up, I just assumed..."
Ray
contemplated a moment. "Are
you sure you can't think of any reason she'd be killed? Something in her briefcase maybe?"
The
director thought, then replied with the answer he'd given before. "She was really quiet, Detective. I just can't think of anything she
said or did to...indicate she could be in trouble."
"Thanks,"
Ray replied and hung up the phone. As
he put it in his jacket, Fraser reached for the wallet again. "What is it, Fraze?" His phone rang and he answered it.
"It's
Frannie. I'm transferring a call. It's that girl again."
Ray
waited until he heard a click.
"Hello?"
"I'm
sorry. I thought I heard something
before." The girls's voice was a welcome sound.
"Who
are you?" Ray asked.
"I'm
afraid. I'm afraid they are going
to find me." She sounded
frightened.
"Who
is 'they'?" he persisted.
"I
don't know."
"Did
you get a look at the person who did this?" Ray asked and Fraser
reached out and put a hand on his arm.
"No,"
she replied. "I was hiding."
"And
you didn't see him at all?"
"No...I...I..."
she stuttered.
Fraser
pressed on the arm. "She's
blind."
"What?" Ray asked Fraser, but she misunderstood
and started to stutter again.
"She's
blind, Ray," Fraser repeated.
Ray
went back to the phone. "I'm
sorry. I have to ask you. Are you blind?"
"Yes,"
she replied simply. "Yes,
but I heard him. I think he might
know who I am."
"Look,
you need to tell us where you are. We
have to talk to you."
"I
can't," she said urgently.
"I...I'm afraid."
"But
we can protect you."
She
didn't answer.
"Are
you still there?" Ray asked insistently.
"But
I don't know who you are. Don't
you get it? I can't see if it's
the killer!" she paused a second.
"I have to go," she said and hung up before he had a
chance to stop her. He hung up
and dialed the precinct. They
had managed to get an address before transferring her call.
Ray
scribbled on a piece of paper and walked briskly to the car. "Ok, Fraze," he began as he drove. "I got the briefcase thing. Everyone carries something for id, money...but how did you
get that she's blind?"
"It's
quite simple, actually," Fraser
replied. "The bills were
folded."
"Lots
of people fold their money...to make it fit in their pocket or their
wallet."
"True,
but in this instance it was different.
Each one was folded differently.
It is very common for blind people to identify their money by
these means, but it is quite uncommon for anyone else to fold them differently."
Ray
only nodded.
He
pulled up in front of a tenement and looked at the paper again. "Ok. Her name is Helen Snow.
She lives in 6E." He
put the paper in his jacket and followed Fraser inside.
"I
just thought of something else," Ray said as he walked down the hall
on the sixth floor. "If she
can't see, how's she going to help us?
Even if she was there..."
Fraser
wrapped softly on the door marked 6E.
"There is more to identification than sight, Ray. You know, I knew a blind man in Tuktoyaktuk and he used
to hunt with my father. He swore
that, even though the caribou was a mile away, he could smell it. The powers of the other senses are
astounding."
There
had been no sound so Ray pounded. "Miss
Snow? It's Detective Vecchio. Do you recognize my voice?" Ray looked at Fraser. "Was that lame?" he said softly.
Fraser
shook his head. They waited. "Miss Snow? Are you in there? It's
Detective Vecchio," Ray repeated. "Look,
I'm sorry we had to hunt you down, but..." he was interrupted when
he heard footsteps.
The
voice was quiet, meek. "I
recognize your voice, Detective."
She paused. "Who's
with you?" They didn't reply,
unsure of the question. "I
heard another voice," she added.
"Who's there with you?"
Fraser
spoke. "Oh! I'm Constable Benton Fraser of the
Royal Canadian Mounted Police. I
first came to Chicago..."
"Fraze!" Ray stopped him.
"What?"
Fraser asked.
Ray
turned back to the door. "Can
you let us in, Ma'am? It's very
important we speak with you."
He
heard a chain and a lock, then the door opened slowly. The girl standing before them was in
her early twenties. She was short
and had dark hair. She stepped
aside. "Come in," she
said softly.
"Thank
you kindly," Fraser said as he followed Ray inside.
They
stepped inside the small apartment to a simple place. A green lounge chair beside a blue couch and a simple coffee
table made half of the room a living room while a dining table with two
chairs made the kitchen. Ray noticed
an oddly shrunken looking typewriter without enough keys and a tape player
at the kitchen table.
"What's
this?" he asked, then quickly caught himself. "Uh, I mean...the typing thing."
"It's
my brailler," she answered simply.
"I take it you've never known a blind person before?" She smiled half a smile, then walked
slowly, cautiously to the couch. "You
can sit down," she said and pointed at the couch, then walked to
the chair and sat down.
"Thanks,"
Ray said and sat beside Fraser.
"No, I haven't I mean,
I met this guy once." He
snickered. "Could hear my
stomach gurgling from the other room." He stopped and realized the uncomfortable silence. "Sorry," he said softly and
opened his notepad.
"How
did you find me?" she asked, looking a bit nervous as she rocked
back and forth.
"Oh,
well, they traced your call when you called back...uh, some guys at the
station."
"Oh,"
she said simply. "Can they
do that?"
"Uh,
yeah, of course. Got your number,
just looked it up and got your name and address," Ray said.
"No,
I mean...I mean the killers. Can
they find me so easily?"
"Uh,
no... no ma'am. I don't think
so," Ray said trying to make her feel more secure.
She
cleared her throat. "Can
you call me Helen? I'm not old
enough to be a ma'am yet." She
smiled at her joke and it somehow made Ray feel a bit more comfortable. "Hell, I'm still in college."
"Sure,"
Ray replied. "I need to ask
you some questions, Helen. We
will protect you if you need it; you don't need to worry about that,
ok? Is it ok if I ask you some things?"
"Of
course," she replied. "I
wouldn't have let you in if I didn't trust you. Do you think they'll come after me?" She looked worried again, but tried
to relax.
"Did
they see you?" He asked,
then swallowed. "I mean,
do you know if they saw you?"
She
shook her head.
"Look,
you tell us everything you can and we'll worry about them, ok?"
he said finally.
She
nodded. "Um, Paige...Doctor
Barrett...She used to let me come and help her in the lab. She let me touch the koala bears. Some of the other trainers take me
into the cages and let me touch the animals. She let me feed a little koala who was sick." She cleared her throat and spoke in
a more broken manner.
"I
was supposed to meet her that day. She
was going to let me visit the koalas again before she left. I was waiting and...and she came in. I heard her getting something...something...I
don't know what. Then we heard
a sound and she told me to hide. She
pushed me in a corner, by the cages I think. She...she told me to be quiet. Then the man came in. I
heard them fighting. She had something
he wanted. Neither of them ever
said what, though." She paused
and sniffed. "Then I heard
her scream when he hit her with something. I think he picked it up off the counter because I thought
I heard a microscope moving. Then
I heard a little rustling and...and it was quiet." She sniffed again and wiped her eyes.
"I
waited a long time. I was so scared." Her voice cracked as she spoke. "Then I started calling her name,
but she didn't answer. I could...
could smell the blood. I was so
scared." She stopped and
reached over to the coffee table, feeling around.
"Kleenex?"
Ray said and pushed the box into her hand.
She
grabbed one. "Thanks," she said and wiped at her eyes and
nose. "I was so scared. She was my friend." She let out a small sob.
"So
you left because you were afraid he would return?" Fraser asked.
She
replied with a nod. "I was
afraid to call the police, but then I...I don't know. I just knew I had to. I
knew no one else was there who could tell you anything. The thing is, I can't help you. I didn't see anything. I
was too scared to remember his voice.
I don't know anything."
"You've
helped us a lot," Ray replied. "Now
we know it was a male and that he was looking for something she had. It's a place for us to start. Now, do you remember anything else?"
She
thought a moment. "No, I...
I think I told you everything."
"Ok,
well if you remember anything could you call me?"
"Yes. I will.
What about the killer? What
if he comes after me?"
"Uh,
I'm gonna check with my Lieutenant. Until
then, I'm going to call you every hour.
Will you be here?" He
stood and made his way to the door.
She
nodded. "I haven't gone to any classes. I mean, if he comes up on me on the campus, well, I won't
know until it's too late. Until
he's got me or something."
Ray
nodded. "Uh, yeah. You stay here and if you get any strange calls at all, you
call me immediately."
"Ok. Thanks, Detective." She walked slowly behind them and closed
the door. They heard the lock
and the chain go back into place.
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Ray
stood across from Welsh, Stella beside him, and Fraser against the door.
"All
I'm asking for is someone to watch her place," Ray said.
"I'm
sorry, Detective. I just don't
have the funds if we don't know for a fact she's in danger."
"But
she's a witness," he almost begged.
"She is in danger."
Stella
shifted. "I'm sorry, Ray,
but how reliable is she? She's
blind. She didn't see anything,
she doesn't remember anything. Unless
you can get more from her she'll be no good. We can't put a blind girl on the stand."
Ray
stomped a foot. "Look, Stella,
you're not seeing the big picture. She's
helped our case more than anyone so far.
Plus, she won't even know she's in danger until it's too late." He turned to Welsh. "Isn't there some kind of special exception we can
make?"
Welsh
looked down at his desk. "Tell
you what, Detective. You have
two choices. Either you take her
around with you, keep her protected that way, or you drop it. I'm not giving you any more than that."
"I
can't babysit..." he started when Fraser cut in.
"Sir,
I think we can handle the situation," he said and took Ray's arm.
"Thank you kindly."
The
two left Stella and Welsh to discuss the case they were on when they
had interrupted them.
"Fraser," Ray started outside Welsh's office. "We can't take her around with
us. It's dangerous and time consuming."
"I
know, Ray, but it was apparent Welsh wasn't going to help us. As long as she stays in her apartment and we check on her
continuously, I'm sure everything will be fine."
Ray
pouted. "I don't know, Fraser. How can you be sure?" He picked up his jacket. "Let's go rummage through the
doctor's hotel room. We'll call
her again from there," he said as he let out a breath.
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The
hotel room had a strip marked "POLICE LINE " across the door. There was no obvious sign that anyone
had entered since the initial investigation.
Ray
stepped inside. Apparently someone
other than the doctor had been there.
The suitcase was dumped out, everything had been taken from the
drawers and the closet. The place
was in shambles. Ray and Fraser
began going through each item with painstaking precision.
"All
we can hope is that whatever they wanted was missed." Ray said and shrugged. "I don't think we're going to
find anything."
Fraser
nodded. "I'm inclined to
agree. It appears they were very
thorough."
Ray
began picking things up and putting them away. He flipped through the phone book and placed it back in
the drawer near the phone. He
flipped through the bible. He
moved the suitcase to the bed and began to set the clothes in it after
checking the sides and bottom carefully.
Finally
he straightened. "I got it."
"Got
what?" Fraser asked and followed Ray as he hurried away. "An epiphany?"
Ray
stopped and turned.
"Epiphany?"
"Something
like a divine revelation, an idea..."
"Uh,
yeah. It just dawned on me...we
haven't been through her personal effects; the ones on the body. Her clothes and stuff. I have a feeling we'll find something there."
"Among
her clothes?"
Ray
nodded.
"Ray,
there is no logical reason to believe there would be anything among her
clothes. If they were this thorough with her hotel room, they surely
would have checked her pockets."
"I
have a feeling, Fraze," Ray replied simply.
"You
know, it will involve a visit to the morgue."
Ray
swallowed. "I know, I know,
but it's for the case."
-----------------
The
two stepped into the morgue to see Mort's familiar face and hear his
familiar voice humming.
"Ah,"
Fraser said as he walked through the doors. "The Marriage of Figaro. An excellent work!"
Mort
looked up and smiled as Ray stood against the wall. "Can I help you boys?"
Fraser
nodded. "Yes. We need to see the personal effects
of Doctor Paige Barrett."
Mort
shook his head. "A tragedy,
is it not? She was lovely and
intelligent." He pointed
to his temple, then reached out and grabbed a large plastic bag. He passed it to Fraser, but Ray stepped
in and took it, then turned away from the bodies and set it on a counter.
He
began going through the contents. He
found her coat, with her ID tag still hanging from the collar. As he took out the short sleeved, cream coloured silk blouse,
he heard a click. He looked down
and saw a key on a long chain. He
picked it up. "What's this? It looks like a safe deposit key."
"It
was around her neck," Mort
said in his thick accent. "It
was beneath her blouse. I guess
no one saw it when they were examining at the scene."
Ray
looked at Fraser and held up the key.
"If no one saw it then, I'll bet the killer didn't." He paused. "If she was visiting from Canada, why would she have
a key to a local bank." He
pointed to the words imprinted on the key.
"I
only see one logical explanation," Fraser replied. "There was something important
she needed to keep nearby and safe. Perhaps
something so important someone would kill to get it."
Ray
nodded. "How'd they miss
the key?"
"Simple,"
Fraser added. "They thought
they had what they wanted when they stole her briefcase."
"Should
we go see what we can find in this box?" Ray said as he hurried from the morgue.
-------
Ray
was able to procure a warrant before going to the bank, ensuring his
ability to get into the box and take anything if it would be helpful.
Fraser
stood beside Ray as he opened the box.
Ray
smiled as his heart skipped a beat. This
is what being a cop, a detective was all about. These moments of adrenaline, the possibilities...
Inside
was a folder. A simple cream coloured
filing folder. Ray was disappointed,
but he took it out and opened it. Under
the folder was a simple little box. He
opened it and inside found a number of blood sample vials. His face made his confusion clear to
Fraser.
"I
suggest we take these to a professional and see if they can tell us why
they might be so important."
Ray
nodded and closed the safe deposit box, then slid it back in its spot. He looked at his watch, then cursed
quietly as he pulled out his cell phone.
He dialed the number for Helen Snow, but the phone rang several
times...too many times. He slammed
it and cursed again. "Let's
go," he said and ran to the car.
Fraser
ran first into the apartment building and up the stairs. Ray followed as quickly as he could. As he got to the door to Helen's apartment,
he saw Fraser pushing the door open.
Looking at the door as he entered behind Fraser, he saw that the
lock had been shot off. He noticed
also a large broken area where someone had kicked or thrown themselves
against the door, then he saw that the chain housing was hanging from
the chain on the back of the door.
"Helen?" Fraser said as he looked around the
house.
Ray
followed the lead, walking around and saying her name. Then he heard Fraser calling him from
the bedroom.
Fraser
knelt beside Helen and felt for her pulse. Ray could see the bruising around the neck and face.
"She's
still alive," Fraser said with relief as Ray called for an ambulance. "He probably left her for dead,
though. Looks like he tried to
strangle her." He looked
around and saw the phone cord pulled from the wall. He reached over and smelled it, licked it, then set it back
down.
----------
Fraser
stood by the wall in the waiting room while Ray paced. "You know, Ray," Fraser began. "If you try to relax, it might
be better for you. I'm sure they
are doing all that they can."
Ray
nodded and sat down. In only a
moment he was up again. "If
I'd called a little sooner...I dunno.
I feel responsible."
Fraser
put a hand on Ray's shoulder.
"Don't blame yourself, Ray.
It appeared that the injuries were recent. It's possible that the ringing phone scared him away before
he had a chance to kill her."
Ray
took a deep breath. "I haven't
had anything all day. I'm going
to the cafeteria, get something really quick. You call me if the doctor comes?"
Fraser
nodded. "That's a good idea,
Ray. I will find you."
Ray
hurried through the masses of people in the ER and disappeared in the
crowd. Fraser watched the scurrying
doctors and patients. A child
ran across the room, the mother following. A pencil rolled under Fraser's feet and a young man got
on his knees as Fraser moved, allowing him to retrieve it. He made sure he wouldn't be stepping on anyone or anything,
then straightened again and looked up.
A
redhead stood at the front desk holding out a card. Fraser hurried over, just in time for Tori to turn around
and bump into him.
"I'm
sorr..." She looked at the person she'd bumped into and froze.
Fraser
noted the soot covering her clothing and hair. "Detective?" he said and took a step back. "What are you doing here?"
She
found her tongue and looked around. "Where
is he?"
"Ray?"
"Of
course, Ray. Who else?"
"He's
in the cafeteria."
She
let out her breath and looked back at Fraser. "Don't tell him. Please,
don't tell him you saw me."
"I
thought you moved to New York."
She
smiled. "He can be rather
gullible. Benton, I need you to
promise."
"So
you never left? Didn't you realize
there was a chance you'd bump into each other? He tried to call you back.
He called your home and your cellular telephone. Didn't you think that you might make him upset?"
"Ben,
stop with the questions and promise me.
Promise me!"
Fraser
sighed. "You know I couldn't
do that." He ran his thumb across his brow.
"Fraser,
do you know what hell he put me through?
He's still hung up on our kiss that took place *so* long ago. He's...he's hung up on...I needed to
be away from him. I needed it
to stop. Please, please don't
tell him."
Fraser
looked into her eyes for a moment, then took a deep breath as he spoke. "All right, I won't volunteer
the information. That is all I
can do." He paused. "What happened to you?"
"Smoke
inhalation. Crime scene turned
into a bit of a blaze. We got
everyone out, though." She
took a deep breath and ran her fingers through her hair. "All I need is a shower and a change of clothes. They say I'm fine."
Fraser
nodded. They looked at each other
for a moment before he spoke again. "Are
you all right? Have you been all
right?" he asked with a little
concern.
Tori
took a deep breath. She knew at
that moment if she brought up Squigg, the deal would be off. If she told him now that Squigg was
sending her threats, he would only tell Ray out of some Mountie-like
concern. They were only threats,
after all. Threats rarely turned
into anything more. "Everything's
fine, Benton," she replied finally.
"Look,
you'd better go. He'll be back
soon," Fraser said as he tugged his ear.
She
nodded, took a paper from the clerk, and ran out the door.
It
was only moments later when the doctor came out, clipboard in hand. "Helen Snow?"
Fraser
stepped up. "That is for
us. I need to get Detective Vecchio," Fraser replied. He was about to go down the hall when Ray came running,
still chewing whatever he'd gotten to eat.
The
doctor took them aside and looked over the chart. "Are you family?"
"We
don't think she has any. Couldn't
find any, anyway," Ray replied
over his half chewed food.
Fraser
turned his hat in his hands. "She
is a witness in a case we are working on.
What can you tell us?"
The
doctor nodded. "All right. Well, her blood was lacking some oxygen,
which indicates she actually stopped breathing for a period of approximately
two minutes. We cannot tell why
she started breathing again, but it could have been a spontaneous reaction. There is minor damage to her throat
both externally and internally, but fortunately it appears it will be
able to heal itself. She will
have to remain in the hospital for at least a day. She regained consciousness while we were checking her out. The x-rays show no internal damage. All in all, she will be fine, but speaking
will be difficult for a few days. She
was very, very lucky."
"Can
we talk to her?" Ray asked.
"I
don't think that would be a good idea.
She is still rather traumatized by the experience. Perhaps if you come back later."
Ray
balled a hand into a fist at his side.
"We are trying to catch the guy who did this to her. He killed another woman and every second
we wait..."
Fraser
put his hand on Ray's arm. "Thank
you, doctor," he said and turned to Ray. "If we push her right now, we may not get anything
at all."
Ray
growled, then pulled out a card.
"If she needs me, call me, got that, Doc?"
The
doctor nodded and clipped the card to the clipboard as Fraser and Ray
left.
Ray
opened his door and looked across at Fraser. "What now? Go
back to her apartment and see if they left any clues?"
Fraser
shook his head. "I think
I had a chance to look things over pretty well. The most we could get is a shoeprint from the door and even
that is unlikely at this point."
Ray
rubbed his eyes. "Uh, then
I guess we go somewhere and get someone to look at these blood samples?"
Fraser
nodded. "May I see the folder?"
Ray
walked around the car and opened the trunk, then handed the folder to
Fraser.
Fraser
looked carefully at the pages as they headed to the station. "Ray, I think we should go back to the zoo. It appears from these records that the blood samples are
those of animals. They'd be able
to tell us more at the zoo."
"Animals? What's with animal blood?"
"She
did work with animals, Ray."
Ray
nodded. "Well, yeah, but
blood samples? What could that
mean? I don't think this is what
we are looking for. Why would
all of this be over some wild animal's blood?"
Fraser
put the folder between them. "I
suspect we could have the blood tested.
Perhaps we will find a connection."
----------
Doctor
Erikson, who had found Doctor Barrett, seemed anxious to help them. He had previously been questioned and
his background was checked, as were many who had worked with her, but
Erikson was unable to provide information. He looked over the file in the folder and set the blood
samples aside. He took out a sample,
flipped some pages, compared then repeated with another sample for several
minutes. "It will take some
time to analyze, but I believe you are right about these. These files appear to coordinate with the blood. I imagine we could examine the blood
and see if there are discrepancies."
"Can
you do that for us, Doctor?" Ray
asked.
The
doctor nodded. "It will,
of course, take some time. The
biggest obstacle is that we don't have the equipment here. I have a friend who can do a work up in his lab. Is that all right?"
Ray
nodded. "Yeah." He handed over his card. "Just be sure to call me at this
number as soon as you come up with something."
The
doctor agreed.
"Thank
you kindly," Fraser said.
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Ray
sat at his desk and began searching for the number to Doctor Barrett's
lab in Canada. "I know I
have it here somewhere. Maybe
someone there can tell us what this is all about." He kept looking as Fraser nodded.
"Those
samples were marked with a label from that lab. It isn't *her* lab, though.
She doesn't own it. She
simply works there. Perhaps her
supervisor has a clue."
"I
hope so," Ray replied as he pulled a business card from the pile. He put his hand on the phone just as
he heard a ring. It was his cell
phone, he realized after nearly picking up his desk receiver.
"Vecchio."
"Detective
Vecchio? I'm calling in regards
to a patient, Miss Helen Snow..."
"Yes,"
Ray said and stood.
"She
has been asking for you. Her doctor
requested we call you. Will you
be able to come here?"
"Uh,
yes," he replied. "I'll
be there in about 15 minutes." He
hung up. "Let's go, Fraze. Helen's asking to talk to us."
Fraser
followed him quickly as Ray rushed from the precinct.
Helen
lay still when Fraser and Ray entered the small room with a curtain to
divide her from the other bed in the room.
"Helen?" Ray said softly, but she jumped.
"I'm
sorry. I didn't hear you come
in," she said as she sat
up.
"They
told us you wanted to talk to us. How
are you doing?"
"I'm
ok," she said softly with a bit of a rasp. "I wanted to tell you that I remembered something."
Ray
pulled up a seat. "What?"
he asked anxiously.
"His
smell. He had this...this smell. He must have been wearing cologne or
aftershave. It was really strong."
Ray
looked at Fraser who took a step forward.
"I think it would be best if you would tell us everything
you remember from this attack."
She
put her hand gently on her throat, then pulled it away with a wince. "Can I have a drink?"
Ray
nodded. "Oh, uh, yeah" He saw a pitcher and a cup beside the
bed and poured her some of the water.
She
took a drink slowly, her face crunched as she swallowed. After a deep breath, she began. "I heard someone in the hall. I thought maybe it was you guys, but
whoever it was...he never talked. He
just kept banging on the door. So
I was really quiet, I went into the bedroom as quietly as I could and
tried to hide in the closet." She
swallowed hard and took another breath.
"Then I heard a gunshot and then after that I heard a...a
bang, I guess. Like...like maybe he kicked the door?" She looked to be in thought.
"Yeah. He shot the lock and kicked the door. It broke the chain," Ray replied. "Then what did you hear?"
"I
just heard his footsteps. I heard
him walking around the place. Then
he got really close and I smelled it.
I remembered the smell right then.
It was exactly the same as at the zoo. I remembered I could smell it in the room the whole time
and I smelled it again." She
took another drink and swallowed carefully. "Then I heard the closet open and I felt him grab me
and throw me down and choke me with string or something. I don't know what it was.
I was trying to get away, but he hit me in the face a couple times. I don't remember anything after that. It went black." She paused. "But...but
then when I was out I thought I heard the phone ringing." She shook her head as if clearing it away. "But that's crazy.
I woke up here and a doctor told me everything."
"Listen," Ray said after a long pause. "Is there some family or friends I should contact for
you?"
She
shook her head. "No. No one, but can I ask a favour?"
"Certainly,"
Fraser said.
"Um,
I keep a tape by the phone. If
you listen to it there's a number for Mary something or other...about
my dog. I was supposed to meet
my dog today. Can you call her
and tell her what happened?"
"You're
supposed to meet a dog?" Ray
asked, surprised.
"Perhaps
a seeing eye dog," Fraser added.
"Yes,"
she replied. "Yes. I've been on a waiting list forever. If I don't call her she'll say I was irresponsible and it'll
go to the next person and I'll have to start all over."
"Sure," Ray replied. "You get better. Fraser
and I are going to take you home tomorrow, ok? We're going to find this guy. You don't have to be afraid."
She
smiled. "Thanks."
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After
going to Helen's apartment and making the call, the two returned to the
precinct. Ray called Doctor Barrett's
lab, but there wasn't anyone in. Ray
decided it was late and he wouldn't be able to make any progress so he
took Fraser back to the Consulate, then went home.
That
night he had a terrible dream. He
dreamt that instead of Helen, Tori was in the apartment getting strangled. He heard her call his name for help
and woke in a sweat.
He
finally fell asleep again and slept through his alarm, waking on his
own nearly an hour later. He called
Welsh to let him know he wouldn't be in until late since he was supposed
to pick up Fraser and Helen within the next twenty minutes. Then he dressed quickly, sucked down his bad coffee blend,
and hurried to the Consulate.
Fraser
was on the sidewalk waiting when Ray pulled up. He got in quickly and turned to Ray as Ray sped away. "You are late," he said simply.
Ray
nodded. "I didn't sleep well
last night."
Fraser
nodded, but didn't ask questions. Instead,
Ray offered the answers to unasked queries. "I had a dream...about Tori." He paused. "What's wrong with me, Fraser? I can't get her outta my head."
Fraser
cleared his throat. "Perhaps
your subconscious mind is trying to...tell you something."
"Like
what?"
"I
can't say," Fraser replied and concentrated on the road.
Ray
furrowed his brow, but said nothing.
"So what do we do with her?
I can't leave her back at her apartment. I'm not about to drag her around with us."
Fraser
turned again to Ray. "Well,
I suppose we could leave her in the care of the Canadian Consulate."
"Turnbull?'' Ray asked with a hint of horror.
"Thatcher
will be in today," Fraser replied.
"Perhaps she would be a better candidate."
Ray
agreed. Soon they were at the
hospital and had picked up Helen. They
explained what they were going to do and whom she would be with and she
agreed.
The
three walked into the Consulate to see Turnbull picking up pieces of
a broken jar. He quickly straightened
to attention. "Ah, Constable
Fraser. Inspector Thatcher was
hoping you would return."
"Does
she want to see me?"
Turnbull
furrowed his brow. "Well,
I don't know. She didn't say."
Fraser
closed his eyes, took a breath, and turned to face Thatcher's door. He stepped forward and knocked quietly. He opened the door when he heard a
quiet "come."
"Oh,
Constable Fraser. I'm glad you
have returned." She stood
as she spoke. "Who is this?" She held out her hand to indicate Helen.
"This
is Helen Snow. She is a witness
to the murder."
Thatcher
stepped forward and spoke quietly to Fraser. "How can she be a witness
if she can't see?"
Fraser
shifted. "Oh. Well, she heard the man and she heard
the two conversing before he killed her.
He is also the one who attacked her and gave her those bruises."
She
nodded. "Ok. I suppose that answers that question. Why is she here?"
"Ah." Fraser cleared his throat. "Well, I had...the Detective and I had hoped she could
stay here...for protection...until we find the man who did this."
Thatcher
looked at Helen carefully. "I
don't think that would be the best solution, do you, Constable?"
Fraser
cleared his throat again.
"Actually, Inspector, you are the one who requested we solve
this case as quickly as possible. It
seems most expedient to leave her in the hands of someone who can protect
her in case he comes looking for her."
Helen
straightened. "I won't be
a bother, I promise." She
waited anxiously for a reply.
Thatcher
finally nodded. "All right,
Constable."
Fraser
introduced Helen to Diefenbaker who curled up next to her as soon as
Ray and Fraser left.
---------
Ray
was on the phone again waiting for someone at the lab in Canada to pick
up his call. He'd been immediately
put on hold and was very annoyed with the music. After several minutes, a man picked up.
"Hello. This is Detective Vecchio," Ray
said quickly. "I'm looking
for someone in charge."
"This
is Doctor Neeman. I'm sure I could
help you."
Ray
leaned back. "Have you heard
the news about Doctor Barrett? We
were told she worked there."
"Yes,"
the man responded. "It is
tragic."
"Well,
I'm the detective in charge of the case.
I was hoping I could ask you a few questions."
"Certainly,"
the doctor replied.
"Do
you know any reason why someone would want to kill her?"
The
doctor paused to think. He cleared
his throat before speaking. "I
don't. She was a good doctor. Kept to herself, mostly. Perhaps there was something personal
she never discussed."
"Well,
among her things were some blood samples.
Do you know what she was doing with them?"
There
was silence only a moment, but enough for Ray to notice. "No, I don't."
"Well,
do you know anyone who might want the samples? Maybe even enough to kill for them?"
"I'm
afraid not. I can't think of any
reason why someone would want blood samples that badly. Could you be more specific about the samples? Perhaps that will ring a bell."
"Actually,
no. We are having them tested
here."
"Tested? For what?"
Ray
straightened. "For more information. Perhaps a clue that will lead us to
the killer. Something that ties
them together."
"I
don't see how that could possibly be of any help," the doctor replied. He paused for several seconds before
speaking again. "I suppose
you know what you are doing," he said finally. "I'm very busy. Is
that all?"
Ray
paused a moment, then gave him the number to call if he thought of anything. After hanging up, Ray turned to Fraser. Something was bothering him about the
conversation. Perhaps it was the
way he stalled when the blood samples were mentioned. Maybe it was the way he couldn't see
how having the blood tested might help the case; a point that seemed
obvious to Ray. A little part
of him wondered if that was why the doctor was asking for details on
the samples.
"That
was queer," he said finally.
"What
was?" Fraser asked.
Ray
sat a moment, then shook his head. "As
soon as I figure it out, I'll let you know," he responded.
Fraser
tipped his head. "Did you
learn anything helpful?"
Ray
shook his head. "I don't
think so, but I'm keeping this Doctor
Neeman in mind. He was
suspicious."
"In
what way?"
Ray
shrugged. "Gut feeling, I
guess."
Fraser
rolled his eyes. Those gut feelings
of Ray's were going to get him in trouble soon and Fraser knew it.
Ray
sighed and leaned back in his chair until he could rest his feet on the
desk. "I guess we are sort of
stuck now until we hear from the lab."
Fraser
agreed and relaxed. "Perhaps you
could call the Consulate."
Ray
sat up. "Oh, yeah." He dialed the number and spoke both
with Turnbull and Helen. Everything
was fine. There had been no attempts
of forced entry or threats to Helen.
Ray reminded them to call if anything did happen, then ended the
call.
After
that he impatiently called Doctor Erikson. "Have you got anything yet?" Ray asked after the polite
greeting.
Doctor
Erikson didn't answer right away. "I
think you should come by, Detective.
I did find something very interesting."
Ray
grabbed his jacket. "Pitter patter,
Fraze," he said simply and practically ran from the station.
--------
Doctor
Erikson was waiting when Fraser and Ray walked into the work area of
the lab. He stood and Ray could
immediately see the concern. He
set a file on the table in front of them.
"I
didn't call yet because I was still researching the chemical I found. Someone was injecting these animals
with something very similar to benzodisaphrine steroids. It was an experimental drug that was taken out of testing
because it was killing the animals it was tested on. Now this form is slightly different, but not enough. It is still deadly. I did some research and found that
Suntop Corporation was backing the experiments a few years ago. Now they are privately testing some
new drug. The research funds are
being paid to the lab where Doctor Barrett worked."
Ray
looked from the file to the doctor. "To
anyone in particular?" When the
doctor nodded, he continued. "Let
me guess. A Doctor Neeman?"
Erikson
nodded. "How did you know that? Do you have something on him already?"
Ray
shook his head. "I'm sorry, I
can't tell you." He paused. "I have a couple more questions then. Do you know what they do at that lab?"
"Yes,
actually. Doctor Bennett specialized
in animal diseases of the immune system.
That's why we called her down here. She said that the lab would help sick animals from nearby
zoos when they needed a specialist. When
they couldn't travel, she would go to the zoos and habitats. So they all worked on sick animals."
Ray
nodded and thanked Doctor Erikson for his help. Soon afterward, Fraser and Ray were in the car.
"So
if I have this right, Doctor Neeman was testing an illegal drug on sick
animals. Doctor Barrett found
out?"
Fraser
realized Ray was asking him a question.
"Yes. I expect that is
why they killed her, because she had the proof that this was going on."
Ray
nodded. "And what about Helen? They must've found out she was there. That must mean she's still in danger."
"Yes,"
Fraser agreed. "It certainly does."
Ray
made a U-turn and headed back to the Consulate.
Once
there they told Thatcher everything.
She called the Canadian offices and told them they had proof of
Neeman's illegal testing. Fraser
found the reported wild animal deaths through the computer in newspaper
articles and commentaries from around the area. Ray waited impatiently.
Mostly he chatted with Helen to take his mind, and hers, off the
situation.
It
was nearly an hour before Thatcher came from her office. "We have a problem. We can't find any record of Neeman
leaving the country. He gave a
speech the other day when he would
have been attacking Miss Snow."
Ray
grunted. "That isn't right. Then who?..."
Less
than a minute later, Fraser looked up from his computer. "His assistant." They all turned to him.
"What?" Ray was incredulous.
Fraser
clicked for a moment and the printer shifted into motion. "In an article it talked about his
assistant. When the Inspector
said Neeman hadn't left the country, I looked up the assistant's name,
Turner Larson. He flew into the
country hours before Doctor Barrett was killed. He left almost immediately, but returned before Helen was
attacked."
"Has
he left again yet?"
Fraser
shook his head. "No. I suppose he didn't finish the job
so he's still here."
Each
of them took a phone and began to call hotels looking for Larson or Neeman's
names. Finally one hotel turned
up a lead. Ray called for a search
warrant they would pick up on the way and left immediately with Fraser.
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Larson
was not at the hotel when they arrived, but they found the room had been
paid for by Neeman. They searched
and found rubber gloves and a strong cologne. Before leaving, they also turned up shoes with drops of
something that Larson had tried to scrub away.
Larson
returned during the search and Ray arrested him. They took him to the station for questioning while the shoes
were tested. Meanwhile, Thatcher
had Turnbull took Helen to the station so she could listen from the adjoining
room.
Helen
recognized the voice, then shook her head. "I can't be sure," she said as Lieutenant Welsh listened
with her. "It really sounds like
him, but I never heard him enough to distinguish him from other voices."
Fraser
shifted. "What about smell?"
Welsh
turned to him. "What, Constable?"
"Even
if two people wore the same cologne, it would smell slightly different
with a person's own chemistry. Helen,
do you think you would know the smell well enough to tell if it is exactly
the same?"
She
nodded. "But I can't smell him
from in here."
Fraser
began to think as Welsh spoke.
"Besides, he would recognize her if we got her close enough to
smell him."
Fraser
got an idea. Ray had used the
idea when trying to sneak a dead body around the station. "Wait here, Lieutenant.
Don't let them go before I get back."
Welsh
looked confused, but agreed.
Several
minutes later, Fraser returned. He
held up a large jacket with a hood. "I
got this from Dewey." He held
up a baseball cap and some sunglasses.
"We'll disguise her."
Helen
gasped. "No, you can't. He might recognize me."
Fraser
put a hand on her shoulder. "It's
ok. We'll make sure you are well
covered and we will just walk you past him. He won't have time to notice."
"He'll
see my cane. He knows I'm blind."
"Leave
the cane here," Welsh added. "You'll walk right behind Fraser and
touch his elbow or something. Can
you do that?"
She
hesitated.
Fraser
moved a little closer. "It's ok. I promise we won't let anything happen
to you. We just want to have a
little more to make sure he is convicted of killing your friend and attacking
you."
She
took a breath and started shaking visibly. "Ok."
"You
are very brave," Welsh said as
he put the jacket around her.
"Now,
you don't talk or do anything other than follow me until I say. Understand?" Fraser said to her.
She
nodded.
The
three waited until Ray was about to lead Larson back to the holding cell
before opening the door to the room.
They walked out slowly and led Helen down the hall, Welsh in the
lead. Welsh bumped Larson with
his shoulder and got a strange look from Ray. Welsh winked, then apologized as Larson stopped for a moment
and turned to look at Welsh.
Helen
felt Fraser slow and slowed with him, her head bowed. 'That's him,' she thought and froze. She couldn't move except to lift her head. She panicked. Fraser felt her hand leave his elbow and turned just as
Ray pushed Larson to continue. Larson
looked right at Helen and pulled away from Ray a little.
"I
know you," he said quietly through gritted teeth as he leaned toward
her.
Ray
immediately grabbed Larson and pushed him down the hall while Fraser
took Helen's arm and forced her back into the interrogation room.
She
was wholly petrified. Fraser sat
her down and tried to make her comfortable, removing the sunglasses and
hat and setting them on the table. She
wrapped her arms around herself when he tried to take the oversized jacket. He sat beside her and put a hand on
her arm. "It's ok, Helen. He is gone now. Ray has him in a holding cell. He is well guarded."
Helen
sat quiet a moment, then whimpered.
"What
did he say, Helen?"
She
paused. "He said 'I know you'." She was shaking even more now as he
tried to calm her.
Fraser
felt terrible that it hadn't worked properly. He felt her anxiety, but could think of nothing to say,
so he just sat next to her.
Ray
entered several minutes later. "I've
got news. The blood on the shoe
matches Barrett's." He paused
and sat across from Helen. "We
couldn't have done any of this without you."
A
tear rolled down her cheek.
"Was
it him?" Fraser said when he finally
found words.
She
nodded. "That was the exact smell,
and I'm even more sure of the voice now.
He used that tone when he threatened me in my apartment before
trying to kill me."
Ray
smiled. "That's good, Helen. Really good. We've got all we need. We're
gonna convict him. We have too
much evidence against him, if you're still willing to help."
She
nodded. "I'm too afraid. If I don't testify, he'll go on the
streets. I have to, don't I? To make sure he goes to jail?"
"I'm
sure it'll help," Ray replied. "I'm sure that it'll be the final stone
to convict 'im."
---------
"Vecchio!"
Welsh hollered with his usual gusto.
"Get in here."
Ray
stepped into Welsh's office, expecting some sort of reaming. Instead he was handed a file.
"Nice
job on that Barrett murder," Welsh
said. "I just got word from the
Assistant States Attorney that Larson was convicted and Neeman will be
spending a lot of jail time in Canada."
Ray
smiled, as did Fraser. "And Helen?"
Ray asked.
"She
is well. She sent me this." He passed a graduation announcement
to Ray. It was addressed to Ray,
Fraser, Welsh, and Stella. Enclosed
was a note to all of them thanking them.
Ray
handed it back to Welsh, then opened the file he had been given.
"We
got this arrest here. IA is threatening
to come in if we can't clean it up fast."
"IA? Why?"
"Take
a look. You'll see."
Ray
began to read, but his eye was immediately caught by a name. "Uh, sir, this is Stella's case?"
Welsh
nodded. "Yes. I don't really care if that is a problem,
Detective," he replied through gritted teeth. "This is your job and you will do it."
Ray
straightened and nodded. He began
to read over the file.
During
a domestic abuse call, a detective witnessed a wife shoot her husband. At first, the detective claimed he
was nearby and heard the noise, but a witness claimed he saw the detective
go into the apartment before the noises began. The witness claimed to have seen the detective come out
carrying a suitcase and go back inside.
Then the witness saw the husband come home, at which point a loud
fight began.
Now
the detective had been removed from the case for further investigation. Ray noted that the detective worked
at Tori's old precinct. Detective
Oombatti still claimed he was there purely by coincidence and that the
witness was mistaken. His partner,
Detective Kilroy was on another assignment temporarily that particular
day so there was no one to back up either story.
"It's
simple, Welsh. It's pretty obvious
what happened..." Ray started to say.
"I
know, but Ms. Kowalski and the Internal Affairs Department both decided
the testimonies are invalid. Detective
Oombatti interviewed the witness and the suspect. He wrote the original report. It is obvious he is personally connected. She's been released because of this whole thing. We need to find out what really happened. IA's already on this guy, but not the case."
Ray
was confused by the odd procedure the case had taken. "I don't understand, I guess. Why am I the one ending up with the case?"
Welsh
cleared his throat. "I can't
say."
Ray
furrowed his brow. "Why?"
Welsh
leaned over and spoke quietly.
"Let's just say IA has a theory. I don't agree, but the point is you cannot mess this up. To the letter, do you understand?"
Ray
nodded and went to his desk. He
picked up the phone and looked around.
Unconsciously, he searched for an unfamiliar face or someone watching
him just a little too closely. He
couldn't help the twinge of paranoia seeping into his system.
He
called the home of the witness, but there was no answer. He called the business number, but
he was apparently not there, either.
His
next step was to call Detective Oombatti, hoping to set up a time to
meet with him and get a statement. The
civilian aide at the station informed him that the detective was on unspecified
extended leave. She gave him a
home number, but only got an answering machine.
He
picked up the phone again. He
asked the desk sergeant to transfer him to the desk of Detective Kilroy. A minute later, the civilian aide picked
up again.
"I
need to speak with Detective Kilroy," Ray asked, feeling a bit frustrated.
"Ah,"
she replied. "Let me get
someone for you."
"No,
don't get someone...get Detective Kilroy.
It is important I speak with Detective Kilroy, ok?"
"Please
hold," she said simply and he heard the click.
'Grrrr,'
he thought to himself. 'I'm going
to kill the next person who answers the phone if it's not Detective Kilroy. I'm getting nowhere here on any of
these calls!'
He
waited for several minutes before the phone finally clicked again. The voice on the other end was not
the voice of Detective Kilroy, it was female.
"Detective
Kilroy is not available. This
is his partner, Detective Brooks. Can
I help you?"
Ray's
heart jumped into his throat. He
swallowed hard. "Tori?"
he said so softly his voice didn't carry.
"I'm
sorry, what?" came the reply.
It
confirmed the voice for him.
"Victoria?"
Tori
recognized the sound of her name coming from the other end of the phone. In a minor panic, she hung up the phone. She grabbed her jacket and threw it
on as she hurried from the station. As
she passed the civilian aide who had asked her to answer the phone she stopped for a moment. "I have to go check on some witnesses for a case,"
she said vaguely and hurried away.
Ray
stared at the phone as he listened to it go dead. He hung up and quickly redialed. The desk sergeant picked up.
"Detective Brooks," he said simply.
At
that moment, Tori passed the desk sergeant who held out the phone. "Oh, Detective. This is for you."
Ray
heard Tori's voice in the background.
"Whoever it is, tell him I'm gone."
The
desk sergeant passed on the message.
"Can't
you stop her? It's urgent. I...I..." Ray realized it was
no use and slammed the phone onto the receiver. He grabbed his jacket and scurried from the squad room.
In
his car he found the old piece of paper with the phone number she'd once
given him. He dialed. Disconnected with no forwarding number.
He called information, but there was no listing. He drove to her apartment.
She'd moved and left no forwarding address. He felt out of options and began to think of more obscure
possibilities. When he arrived
at the gym, Jim told him he hadn't seen her for several weeks. He explained that she said she would
no longer be working out there. She'd
given no explanation. His last resort was to go to the precinct where
she'd answered the phone, a place that should have been her old precinct.
He
stepped up to the desk sergeant with a demanding look. "Is Detective Brooks in?"
She
shook her head.
"When
do you think she'll return?"
The
woman looked away and picked up a pen.
"Can I leave her a message?"
Ray
shook his head. "She won't
return my messages. I can bet
on that. Where is she?"
"I'm
sorry, I can't tell you."
"You
can't or you won't."
"I
can't. She didn't leave
specifics."
"How
can I reach her?"
She
looked away. "You have to
understand my position. I don't
know what is going on, but she told me not to tell anybody."
Ray
showed his badge. "I'm a
detective, too. What could I possibly..."
She
shook her head. "I'm sorry."
Ray
growled and left the station. He
sat in his car for a very long time before starting it. Then it dawned on him...the junkyard. Mikey. She'd need
her car. He drove to the lot and
pulled in. As he got out of his
car he was immediately approached by Mike.
"You've
got to tell me," Ray said immediately as Mike came closer.
Mike
shook his head. "I couldn't."
"Please. I have to talk to her. This is nuts. I've been stonewalled by everyone. I know it was her voice."
Mikey
shifted. "She told me. Look, I have no commitment to you. She's a good friend. I'm not gonna mess that up."
Ray
looked more desperate. "I...I'm...I'm
not giving up," he stuttered. "I
have to find her.
Please. Haven't you ever..."
Mikey
cut him off with a loud sigh.
"That won't work on me. I
can't betray her confidence."
Ray
felt pathetic, but he didn't care. "I'll
wait here for her. Out there's
a public street. I can wait for
a long time."
Mike
smiled. "Go ahead, but she
picked up her car a few weeks ago."
Ray
cursed. "She has to go back
to work. I can wait at the precinct. C'mon Mikey, I'm resourceful. Tell her she can't hide."
Mikey
shrugged. "I'm not a
messenger."
Ray
slammed a fist against his car, then turned back to Mikey, his eyes burning
with anger. "I'm not playing
games here. I have to know where
she is...where I can find her," he said through gritted teeth.
Mikey
didn't look intimidated, but he shifted on his feet again. "Go to the diner on Matheson. Be there in two hours. If she wants to see you, she'll be
there."
It
wasn't exactly what Ray wanted, but he bit. "Ok. 4 o'clock? I'll be there."
---------
I'm aware what
the rules are,
But you know
that I will run
You know that
I will follow you
These tears
I've cried
I've cried 1000
oceans.
And if it seems
I'm floating in the darkness
Well I can't
believe that I would keep
Keep you from
flying.
So I will cry 1000 more if that's what it takes
---------
Tori
stood beside the large window in her new apartment, phone still in her
hand. The sky was beginning to
cloud. A storm, perhaps, if she
was lucky. It would certainly
feel cleansing at this point.
She
watched as a woman ran across the street and waved her bus to stop again
so she could get on. A man walked
a large dog who more or less pulled him along. There were so many people out there, but the world was growing
smaller every instant.
She
looked at her watch. It was five
minutes past four. She'd watched
Ray walk into the diner across the street twenty minutes before, but
she continued to watch the people on the street and the clouds in the
sky.
Twenty
more minutes passed and the rain had began to fall. A drizzle, only, but enough to make the tears on her face
feel more comfortable. She was
still at the window, watching to see if Ray would leave any time soon. Just how long would he wait?
-----------
God, I feel
like hell tonight
Tears of rage
I cannot fight
I'd be the last
to help you understand
Are you strong
enough to be my man?
Nothing's true
and nothing's right
So let me be
alone tonight
You can't change
the way I am
Are you strong
enough to be my man?...
I have a face
I cannot show
I make the rules
up as I go
It's try and
love me if you can
Are you man
enough to be my man?
When I've shown
you that I just don't care
When I'm throwing
punches in the air
When I'm broken
down and cannot stand
Will you be
strong enough to be my man?
Lie to me
I promise I'll
believe
Lie to me
But please don't
leave.
----------
Ray
looked at his watch as he had every five minutes for over an hour. A few minutes ago he'd moved to a booth
right up against the window so he could watch for her car. The rain had started and there was
no sign of it becoming a drizzle as it had been. He could barely make out things through the blur and the
gutters were filling.
It
was another half an hour before he finally stepped out into it. He closed his eyes as he stood just
outside the door to the diner and lifted his face, letting the water
pour over him. He didn't know
how long he stood there, but when he lowered his face and opened his
eyes, Tori stood before him.
They
stared at each other for a very long time before either of them spoke. Ray, as always, blurted out what was
on his mind.
"Did
you lie to me?" he said, looking deep into her eyes.
She
swallowed hard and it took him a moment to realize that what dripped
down her cheek was not rain. All
at once she reached back, balled the hand into a fist, and threw him
the hardest punch she could muster.
Ray
fell backward to the ground and grabbed his jaw. "What the hell was that for!?"
She
kicked at his leg. "You just can't
let it go, can you?"
Ray
made his way to his feet. "Let
what go?"
"Everything. Everything! You...you keep hurting me, pushing me away, pulling me back. I'm not a yo-yo," she said fiercely.
"I
made some mistakes," Ray said. "Give
me another chance."
"That's
all our relationship has been, Ray! Second
chances. I have to find someone
who loves me the way I love him." She
turned and began to run back across the street.
Ray
followed and caught her arm as a car swerved by with a honk. He pulled her off the street. "You love me?"
"Oh
my god! Are you that stupid?" She paused. "Of course I love you, Ray.
I mean, I loved you. Unlike
you I can get past an emotion of love and admit it."
Ray
felt the truth like a knife. "All
right, but I..." He wanted to say he loved her too, but the words wouldn't
come.
She
pulled her arm away. "I have to
go." She said and ran inside the
building, leaving him standing out in the rain, watching the door close.
He
grunted and kicked at the parking meter, then went to his own car.
-------------
Imagine two complete strangers
who suspect they were meant to be
both in need of love and affection
yet their suspicions prevent something heavenly
Fear takes control -- fear of the
unknown
Aware of what will hurt you
you're prepared to remain this way
so sad yet safe with your afflictions
afraid to start a brand new day
We all get the strangest feeling
when we're standing mighty tall
to jump from 17 floors and crash into freefall
-----------
Ray
stormed into the squad room and breezed past Fraser who was waiting for
Ray at his desk. He swung open
the door to Welsh's office and pounced inside.
"Did
you know about this?" Ray yelled as he slammed the door.
Welsh
was concerned by the red face. "Know
about what?"
His
voice carried through the glass and into Fraser's ear. "Tori!
Detective Brooks is still in town!"
Fraser
heard the words and knew he had to step in. He took a deep breath as he opened the door. Ray turned to him and Fraser saw a look he had never seen.
"Get
out, Fraser. This doesn't concern
you."
Fraser
stepped inside and closed the door. "I
feel I may be able to assist..."
Ray's
face tensed even more and his face looked as though it might explode. "What?
Did you know?"
Fraser
cleared his throat. "I made a
promise that I wouldn't mention it..."
"You
are my friend, Fraser! How could
you?..."
"I'm
sorry, Ray. I only promised not
to say anything unless you brought it up.
You didn't, therefore..."
"But
Fraze, you shoulda told me. I've
been...I've been..." He let it
trail off and turned back to Welsh.
"Of
course I knew, Detective. Why
do you think I gave you that particular case?" He paused. "I'm sorry. I didn't know at first. When I found out I was trying to decide
what to do, then this case came up."
Welsh leaned forward. "Speaking
of which..."
Ray
took a deep breath. "I'm on it,
Lieutenant. I'll have a report
for you by morning."
Welsh
nodded. "Good. It's been too long already. Get to work."
Ray
turned and walked out of the office to his desk. He began calling people again and was able to get Detective
Oombatti at his home.
Once
Ray pointed out the situation, Oombatti admitted he was having an affair
with the woman.
"Were
you there when the shooting occurred?"
Ray asked.
Oombatti
cleared his throat. "Yes."
Ray
shook his head. He knew this likely
meant that the Internal Affairs department would want to handle the case.
"Detective
Vecchio?" Oombatti said in a meek
voice.
"Yes?"
"Um,"
he cleared his throat again. "She
had the gun. She was going to
shoot him."
Ray
furrowed his brow. "I know she
had it. She did shoot him." He paused. "Didn't she?"
Oombatti
didn't answer. When he finally
spoke, his voice was shaky. "I'm
in love with her. I didn't want
her to go to prison. I wasn't
thinking."
'Oh
god,' Ray thought. He wasn't thinking? Did he shoot the husband with her gun? He took a deep breath. "I'm going to have to file this, you know. IA is going to be involved."
"I
know," Oombatti replied softly. "I
know. I took the gun and I shot
him. I killed him and then gave
her the gun."
Ray
felt an odd sickness about the whole situation. He pinched his forehead between his thumb and fingers. "I don't think you should tell me this. Maybe you should wait until IA comes
to speak with you."
Oombatti
was quiet for a long time. "Send
them, Detective. I'll be waiting,"
he said and hung up.
Ray
immediately went back into Welsh's office to fill him in on the details. Welsh was on the phone in minutes. While Welsh was talking, Ray took a seat. As soon as the Lieutenant hung up, he took a long breath.
"He
was confessing to me, wasn't he, sir?"
Welsh
looked at him a moment. "Of course."
"No,
I mean the kind of confession a criminal makes before he kills himself."
Welsh
took in a deep breath and let it out.
"Yes. I think so. IA said they are heading there right
now. Maybe they'll get there in
time."
Ray
shook his head. "They won't." He stood and spoke solemnly. "They won't He's
either done it by now or he's not going to."
Welsh
looked down.
"So
what happens to the woman? The
wife and girlfriend?"
Welsh
shrugged. "Probably not much of
anything. She didn't actually
pull the trigger, we don't have any proof she told Oombatti to do it. The husband was abusive. I guess they'll most likely try her
for not stepping forward and sentence her to some counseling."
Ray
nodded. "Well, lemme know, wouldja?"
Welsh
nodded back and went back to his paperwork.
-------
It
took Ray several weeks to get over the suicide of an officer that he
had spoken with and questioned, but he kept reminding himself it wasn't
anyone he knew really well.
He'd
gone to the funeral, though, but only stayed a moment. He felt he was doing something wrong,
standing back away from the crowd just so he could watch Tori. He knew she'd be there. Kilroy, he had heard, had been assigned
to be her partner after Oombatti killed himself. She would have to go for Kilroy's sake as well as for herself.
He
felt guilty standing there behind the tree, so he walked slowly back
to his car.
Pretty
soon, life was back to normal. He
worked with Fraser on a number of cases without even thinking about Tori. Truth was, though, he was thinking
a lot, but not actually saying anything out loud.
Tori
went back to life as usual. She
still loved Ray very much, but was slowly learning how to let go. She only dealt with it by staying away
from every place she had been with Ray either working or personally.
The
threats from Squigg continued occasionally, but they were never anything
to bring up a red flag in her mind.
Harmless threats against a woman he never liked.
He'd
left a couple other messages by mailing them to her work. It made her slightly paranoid because
they knew who they were from, but there were no clues on how to go about
finding him.
The
most disturbing one came on a dismal day, on the verge of raining.
"It
won't be that hard to get rid of you..." it said in his simplistic handwriting. It felt different. The others simply said they were going to kill her, but
this one said "Get rid of" instead of "kill". That bothered her the most.
She
looked out the window at the rain as it started and decided she needed
to take her mind away so she could think of it with a new vision.
Unfortunately,
the rain made her think of only one thing. She didn't move, her face was stoic, but the tears were
rolling down.
Kilroy
stepped up to her and put a hand on her shoulder. She jumped and looked at him, then immediately wiped her
face. "I'm sorry."
"What's
wrong?"
She
shook her head. "Nothing."
He
took the paper from her hand and read it.
"Don't let this nut get to you.
You and I both know threats rarely turn into anything."
She
shrugged. "Um, why did you come
find me?" She moved to sit down.
"Oh,
we got a call to check out this building.
The Lieutenant says it's a condemned building over near the 27th
so he wanted you to check it out with me."
"Why
us?"
"I
dunno. I guess it's 'cause you
got friends over at the 27th.
He specifically said we didn't have to hurry back after checking
it out. I think he wants you to
go see them."
"Dammit,"
she sighed. Her Lieutenant, Lieutenant
Steves, and Lieutenant Welsh had been playing some game of matchmaker
since she arrived. She stood and
put on her jacket. "Ok, we'll
go but as soon as we're done, we're coming back here. I don't want to see..."
she paused. "Those people."
"You
mean Ray." Kilroy spoke softly. "You can't keep avoiding."
She
glared and he put his hands up in surrender. "You're right. It's
not my place."
The
two walked out together and drove to the building. They found nothing, but when they returned to the car, Tori
found a note on the windshield. Inside
was an address.
"I'll
call it in," Kilroy said.
She
stopped him. "No." She paused. "No, we don't need to. It's
pretty simple. We've got on our
vests, right?" She took a deep breath.
"No, this is personal. You
don't even have to come."
Kilroy
felt trepidation. "A...are you
sure you don't want me to call it in?"
She
nodded.
"All
right, but I *am* coming with you."
--------------
"Fraser, you should know by now. That's the way I am. I love unconventional."
"I
understand, Ray, but that is an unacceptable excuse for embarrassing
me in front of my superior."
"Aw,
lighten up, Fraze. It was just
a little water."
Their
casual conversation was interrupted by a call. "All cars in the vicinity of
Melbourne and Lois should go to the abandoned battery warehouse. Officer down." The message was repeated as Ray turned around and sped back
the way they had just come. Ray
switched off his radio and pulled up to the warehouse. A man was on the ground.
Fraser and Ray ran over. The
man quickly identified himself, though strained due to a bullet wound
to clavical.
"I'm
Detective Kilroy. My partner went
inside after the guy. He was a
cop. He's armed."
"A
cop?"
"He
was in IA. She says it's personal,
but I called for backup anyway. The
guy went nuts."
"Is
his name Davis Squigg?" Ray asked, dreading the answer.
The
officer nodded. "I'll be ok until
help arrives. Go help her." He paused, then pointed to the wound. "I'm wearing a bullet proof vest." He said slowly.
Ray
knew what that meant. Black widow
bullets, aka cop killers.
Ray
stood, but didn't head into the building.
Fraser
listened. "I hear sirens, an ambulance
and two police cars."
"We'll
have backup soon enough, then," Ray
said and went inside, followed by Fraser.
------
Tori
turned and managed to get in a combination punch and kick that knocked
Squigg to the ground. He dropped
his gun and as he reached for it, she stepped on his wrist and kicked
his face with the heel of her boot. He
swung his other arm toward her and she jumped back. He took the gun and jumped to his feet, cocking it on the
way up as he pointed it at her. She
hadn't had the chance to get her gun yet so she tried to talk to him.
"C'mon,
Squigg. You know you don't want
to do this."
"Are
you kidding? You've been making
my life a living hell."
"You
brought it on yourself. You shouldn't
have been so determined to ruin me."
"I..." His sentence was interrupted when Fraser
and Ray ran in. He turned the gun on them. In one motion, Tori pulled out and cocked her gun as Squigg
turned back to her. While he was
turning, Ray pulled and cocked his gun.
Three shots rang out in quick succession. Tori fell to the ground as her shot hit the ceiling, followed
by Ray's hitting Squigg in the head.
He fell to the ground.
Ray
ran to Tori. He leaned over her
and spoke softly. "Tori?"
She
opened her eyes, her hand over her chest wound. "I never thought... I mean, as long as I had on the vest. It saved my life once." she said feebly.
"Don't
think about that, ok? Think about
something else and you'll be ok."
She
swallowed hard and looked into his eyes.
Ray
leaned closer to her. "I love
you," he said softly and kissed her.
As he leaned back, she smiled.
"Thank
you, Ray," she said softly.
"You
can't leave me. I can't be without
you."
She
wheezed. "I love you," she said
and closed her eyes.
Ray
tried to be strong, but the tears escaped. He reached around in her jacket until he felt her badge. He removed it and slipped it inside
his jacket, near his heart.
Fraser
joined him and, as he checked her pulse, he put a hand on Ray's shoulder.
"I
wasted so much time." Ray's voice
was shaky. "It's all so fragile."
They
were oblivious to the commotion around them now. Fraser didn't know what to say. The two stayed with her body until the coroner finally arrived. Fraser did most of the talking as Ray
stayed in a trance, but he never left his friend's side.
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Ray
waited until the weather fit his mood.
On a dismal, rainy day, he went to the cemetery and stood before
the gravestone marked 'Victoria Brooks'.
He knelt and brushed his fingers across the butterfly he had insisted
they carve on the stone.
His
mind flooded suddenly with the image of thousands of butterflies escaping
the box at her funeral. It was
his idea, but Fraser was the one who made phone calls and visited insect
centers until he found out how to get his hands on such a large number
of the creatures.
He
returned to the present and pulled her badge from inside his jacket. He stared at it for a long time, reading
her name over and over. Finally
he gave it a gentle kiss and returned it to his jacket. A single tear blended with the rain on his face as he turned
to walk away.
That
was the only time he visited her grave, but he vowed to carry that badge
with him every day for the rest of his life.
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I'm gonna live
my life
like every day's
the last.
Without a simple
good bye
it all goes
by so fast.
And now that
you're gone
I can't cry
hard enough
For you to hear
me now
Gonna open my
eyes
And see for
the first time
I've let go
of you like
A child letting
go of his kite
There it goes
Up in the sky
There it goes
Beyond the clouds
For no reason
why
I can't cry
hard enough
No I can't cry
hard enough
For you to hear
me now
Gonna look back
in vain
And see you
standing there
When all that
remains
Is just an empty
chair
And now that
you're gone
I can't cry
hard enough
For you to hear
me now
There it goes
Up in the sky
There it goes
Beyond the clouds
For no reason
why
I can't cry
hard enough
No I can't cry
hard enough
For you to hear
me now.
'1000 Oceans' by Tori Amos
'Strong Enough' by Sheryl Crow, Bill Bottrell, David Baerwald, Kevin Gilbert, David Ricketts, and Brian Macleod
'Fear (of the Unknown)' by Siouxsie and the Banshees