Hello everyone. This is my second piece of fanfic. It is kind of a companion piece to 'What Have I done?' which was previously posted on dsfict. I'm pretty nervous about posting it 'cos everyone said such nice things about the last one and I'm not sure if this ones up to scratch. I hope you enjoy and all comments are warmly welcomed. Natasha (Basha) Basha_Forret@msn.com Rated PG for a little bit of implied sex. Trust in You I found your picture today. I'd forgotten it was there, or perhaps chose to forget. It made me realise its been a year. A year today. I miss you Victoria. I've tried so hard not to remember, tried so hard to pretend it didn't happen. But I can't. Sometimes I wake up and you're there. Curled up next to me. I feel your head on my chest, hear your breath in my ears. Smell you, taste you. Hold you tight and there's nothing there. You're gone. I wish we had one more night, just one more chance. So I could hold you in my arms. There would be nothing but you and I, nothing but the here and now. Just one night to say goodbye, to tell you how much I love you, to hear you say those words. I never told you what a difference you made to me. My life had meaning with you there. You made me whole, the other half of my soul. I need a chance to explain why I betrayed you. For you to tell me how you could hurt me so. I gave you hope, a lifeline, and then took it away. Particles exploding in the air and a beautiful voice begs for me to let them go. Too afraid I said no. Not for duty or honour but because I could not trust our love to be enough. Ray told me once I trust people implicitly. Well he's wrong! Prison made the darkness inside you grow and the only reason you were there was because I was afraid that I, We, wouldn't be strong enough. Not trusting enough to believe that together we could overcome and that I'd never lose you to the night. Such a simple thing to trust our love. To trust in me. To trust in us. To trust in you. --------------------------------------------------------------------------- Return to the Due South Fiction Archive