Learning	  Learning

 by Andrea

  

 

 Disclaimer: dont own em, wish I did, puttin' em back, kinda unharmed.

 Author's Notes: Thanks again to Lisa, the all powerfull god that will
strike me dead if I dont praise her. :P

 Story Notes: 

 This story is a sequel to: The snow is very frightful. 

 

 so this is what I can peice togher about Emma's life so far. 1) she was
once or still is a ballet dancer. 2)she has a law degree, and has passed
the bar 3)she was raped by a man who she was close to. 

 other than that, she hasnt told me. I dont know why I feel I should know,
but I do. We talk, all the time in fact, but most of what we say has
nothing to do with her life. but as much as I am enjoying this time with
her I am loosing money to live off of fast, and I dont know what to do. 

 The RCMP has made it very well known to me that they will not be
requiring my services, in fact they said it in letter form, double spaced,
very neatly written. 

 I saw the Inspector today, it was at a restaruant I stopped at. She
looked at me, she actually stopped in front of my face and looked at me
deep in the eyes. She said I looked permantly sick, and it was good that I
resinged, so I wouldnt make others around me sick. I told her it was
better to be sick than to be dead, with a heart as cold as ice. I said
that they are finding cures for sick people every day, but dead people
like her had no cure. that was the first time I directly told the
inspector off, it felt very good. I can now see why Ray called her the
Dragon lady. 

 I have been to sevral meetings now, and I must say its helped me a lot.
Its not just a support group, we do all kinds of activities together,
including poker. Myrtel is winning most of the hands though. Apparently
she was a Las Vegas show girl. She would ask the dealers to show her how
to win, and in return she would do........favors for the men. 

 I have now been waiting a solid half hour for Emma, she was supposed to
meet me at this ice rink, and yet I see no sign of her. 

 "Hot Cocco?" 

 The question makes me jump, Emma is standing behind me, two hot coccos in
her hands. When she sits next to me I start to say something but she
sushes me. 

 "Quiet."
 "Why are we being quiet, we are the only ones here." I whisper back.
"What would you do if the world was going to end?" I am a little startled
by the question, I wonder where that came from. 

 "I dont know. are there any choices I could choose from?" "No choices,
every one is diffrent. You have to pick your own. Like some one might say
they would watch the tide roll in, presuming there was still an ocean.
Some one else might say they would make love to a beautiful woman. The
answer belongs to you, and you alone." 

 "what would you do?" 

 "If I wanted to know what I thought I wouldnt have asked you, I would
have asked myself and left you out of it, but I didnt." 

 "I guess I would tell the woman I love that I love her and I hope to see
her on the other side..........for my sake, what would you do." 

 "I wouldnt do anything. Why wait till last minuite, literally, to do what
you could do now? I want to just live every day one at a time, take every
breath as if it were my last, and hope the air is sweet...........tell
her." 

 "tell who what?" Did I miss something?
 "Tell the woman you love the truth, its good that she know now instead of
when the world ends so there is something she can do about it." 

 "Oh what? Laugh histerically in my face?" That is if she dosent slap me
first. 

 "A mathmatition sees three men looking at his daughter at a dance. they
are an actor, a Lord, and a carpenter. he asks all three how many steps do
you think it will take you till you get to my daughter, the one who
answers correctly gets to dance with her. the actor and Lord answer
incorrectly, so he asks the carpenter. the carpenter says its impossable.
The man lets him dance with his daughter, how is it possable for the
carpenter to be right?" 

 I shook my head. What on earth dose this have to do with me being laughed
at? 

 "well think of the distance, you walk half way to the girl and what do
you have?" 

 "A good head start?" 

 "Well then forget the distance that you just travled to the girl, you
have two more halfs. then when you cover that area you have a half of that
still left and a half of that, and a half of that and so on. You can never
totally be WITH her. BUT if she walks the other halfs, you have a good
chance to be together." 

 "What are you saying." 

 "From what I have heard of your past relationships, you always go your
distance but she never goes hers. Tell her so she can meet you half way." 

 "Thank you for teaching me." 

 She takes my hand and rests her head on my chest. My hand casually runs
through her hair. 

 "Thank you for learning." 

End Learning by Andrea: Laurie_Strode02@yahoo.com

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