Kaleidoscope: Metamorphosis   This is a companion piece to
Kaleidoscope, which was written from Fraser's POV. That story could be
found in the upcoming Full Mountie Fanzine. Wrote this ages ago, took some
time for it to be beta'd, then my computer went supernova and ate my Word
97 with HTML editing capabilities, that's why it took so long for it to be
converted. Had to do it in the old fashion way. *sigh* Anyway, slight
spoilers for "Burning Down The House", "Seeing Is Believing", "Asylum",
"Mountie on the Bounty", "A Likely Story", and "Call of the Wild".  Anyway
A big Thank You Kindly for the ever wonderful Sama for betaing and make
this much better than it originally was.  Disclaimers: Not mine, no money,
so no point in suing. Lyrics are from Deana Carter's "Colour Everywhere"
which is a very nice song that was found in the "Touched By An Angel"
Soundtrack.  June/ July 99  ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ Kaleidoscope:
Metamorphosis
 By Eugenie Chua   Everything in shades of gray,
 Never any blues or greens,
 I needed someone else to turn to,
 Someone who could help me learn to see,
 All the beauty that was waiting for me.  Life's funny, ya know? One
minute you think that your life's over, the next, they shove a new one
under your nose. At first I thought, ok, just pretend to be another guy
with a different last name, no problem. Until I read the case files. After
that, I had no idea what to expect, but whatever I would've expected,
Fraser sure was not it!  Close relationships aren't all that common in my
life. Other than Stella, I wasn't that close to anyone. A couple of
drinking buddies and associates maybe, but not those body moving kinda
friends, those you could really count on when you're in deep shit. At
first, I still'd Stella to count on, but since she left, I ain't got
nobody...  Ya know how sometimes you could be in a room full of people yet
you feel like you're the only one there? The lone survivor of this huge
disaster that wiped out the whole of Earth's population. Ya know that
feeling? Sometimes, that's how I feel, especially after she left.   That
is, until Fraser came along. He got me into all these situations that I
didn't have time to feel sorry for myself, and somewhere along the line,
he managed to get close to me like no one has ever done before. Not my
parents, not even Stella. He saw something my parents and Stella only got
a glimpse of, he saw the...the poet in me.  Ha! A poet. I bet the Duckboys
would have a field day with that if they ever found out! Who could
imagine? Stanley Raymond Kowalski, a poet. Like it or not, that's how I
feel.	* * * You put the red back in the rose,
 Just when I needed it the most,
 You came along to show you care,
 And now there's color everywhere.  He showed up just as I was feeling
lost and had nobody. I only started to realize how much he meant to me
after the episode with Volpe. He was the first one I ran to for help. Not
Welsh, not Huey or Dewey, not Stella, but him. That was when I realized
that he meant more to me than an associate or a drinking buddy. Much
more...  Everything was normal for the first few weeks of the assignment,
but it started to get weird the second the Mountie came back from his
vacation up north with his wolf. The next thing I knew, I was driving a
burning car into Lake Michigan, getting hypnotized, chasing ghosts and
nearly drowning on a sinking ship, camping in the city park and heading
off to the wild white north on an adventure. If anyone would've told me a
year ago that all of that would happen to me, I'd've sent them packing to
the nuthouse! And yet, all this has happened to me and I ain't regretting
a single second of it.	 Call me nuts, but somewhere along the line of
this thing we call friendship, Fraser became the center of it. He's always
there, rainy day or sun shine, he's always there, no matter what.   You
know when you look into a kaleidoscope there's this center point that's
always there? Everything around is changing by the second but you can
always count on the center to be there? Well, that's Fraser, always in the
middle of everything, always there for me whenever I need him. Hell! He's
even there when I don't need him! But I don't mind him hangin' around.	He
had the chance to leave when we had our fight at the waterfront. He
could've taken the transfer and left like Stella did, but he didn't. When
Vecchio came back, he could've gone back to work with him instead of
agreeing to come on this adventure with me (freezing our asses off in the
process!) but he didn't. He was right beside me the whole way. Makes me
feel kinda stupid for being jealous of Vecchio. Yeah, I admit, I was
jealous of that guy the moment I saw Fraser grinning like an idiot when he
saw him. Ya know what the Mountie would've said? He would've said "That's
just silly, Ray. There is absolutely no reason for you to be jealous of
Ray. That is, Ray Vecchio I mean." Or something like that, but I can't
help feelin' the way I did. That's how it was.	* * * Now I have a hand to
hold,
 And a reason to believe,
 There's someone in my life worth living for.  But that ain't no matter to
me now 'cause I'm no longer the lone survivor. Fraser's with me, and of
course, Dief. Who could forget the wolf?  THE END Love it? Hate it? Lemme
know here! 

  

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