Beach Red
BY: Maheruu

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"What a wonderful day of pillage and plunder! Don't ye agree mate?"
Jack stood proudly with his chest puffed out and hands planted firmly
and proudly on his hips. He surveyed the deck from his position near
the helm. The fruits of their latest steal was spread all around
while Anamaria, acting as the quartermaster of the ship, divided up
shares.

Will stood silently next to the proudly stanced pirate. He didn't
look nor feel happy, just held a look of disgust on his countenance.

Jack spared the silent boy a glance and his grin dropped. Rubbing the
back of his head he laughed lightly, "This is where ye agree wit me,
whelp."

Will shook himself out of the self-induced reverie and gave the
captain a sheepish look. "Ah, sorry, Jack-"

"Captain, that's *Captain* Jack."

Nodding Will continued on. "Yeah, sorry `bout that `Captain' Sparrow.
I was thinking." He returned his look back to the division of the
spoils.

Jack raised an eyebrow. "You be thinkin' now? Why break a habit of a
lifetime and start thinkin' now?"

"Hah." Will mumbled and went back into his thoughts. Jack stared at
the boy a bit longer before giving up his sudden delve into the world
of thought process to an effect of too much of a good thing. Getting
as much prize as the Pearl had just gotten off of that Spanish
Galleon was clearly a good thing. Jack jumped down from the
quarterdeck to the main deck area and flashed his grin to his second
mate and his quartermaster.

"Gid'day Ana, Gibbs, I do hope you gave me the larger portion of the
equal share." He slapped his arms around Anamaria and Gibbs'
shoulders, grin never leaving his face.

Will watched the eccentric captain swagger around and basically
interfere with everyone's attempt to count their share. He had to
hide a smile at the pirate's antics but the smile soon slipped from
his face and he once again fell into that brooding silence.

He had told Jack the truth when he had said that he had just been
thinking. The Black Pearl had silently sneaked up on an unsuspecting
galleon and attacked with all her glory. The fight had been a brutal
one, seeing as the Spanish galleons came armed to the teeth and not a
particular chance of a quick surrender. Will had watched Jack swing
manically from a rope that was suspended from one of the yardarms and
land directly in the middle of the fray without a care in the world
for his person. He had seen the captain hack and slash and otherwise
kill a majority of the surprised Spanish.

Will had stayed back and had swung his sword in order to disable and
not kill. But there had been one man that seemed so intent on his
action of removing Jack Sparrow's head from his shoulders that Will
had felt a curtain of red dip down to cover his eyes and an anger so
sudden and swift that he himself did not realize that he was stabbing
the Spaniard over and over again. Even though it was clear that the
man was dead from the first blow.

Jack had just calmly placed a hand on Will's sword arm and gave him a
knowing grin and moved on to the next death. The crew of the Pearl
was determined to get that bounty.

And it had been a great one indeed. Will's first raid since rejoining
up with Jack and the Pearl. And as he thought longer about it, it had
been Will's first kill.

His first murder.

Sure he had fought a crew of the un-dead and he had delivered blows
that would have killed them if they were alive but that was it, after
seeing them in the moonlight, he knew that they could not be killed,
so the more violent the blow, the more time he had to get away. He
probably killed some of them when he had shed his own blood onto the
Aztec cursed coin, but he had not seen it and he had no idea for
sure. He had just brutally slain that Spaniard without a care in the
world. That man had threatened Jack, and though the pirate didn't
really know it, Will had saved him by cutting the attacker's life
off.

Now he was flushed with guilt.

"You're gonna make one shoddy pirate." he whispered to himself as he
idly watched Jack make a first-class ass out of himself by placing a
golden tiara on his head and waving about a jeweled scepter. The man
was completely impossible sometimes.

But as always his thoughts returned to that man. The dark eyes so
intent on his objective of killing the captain of the ship that had
brought death to his own. The brown skin that turned red under the
his own crafted blade. The coarse hair that too, was lost in the
blood that poured forth.

Will ripped himself back from the quarterdeck rail, clutching at his
head. Trying to push the memories out of his mind. Trying to forget
the images of that man dying beneath him. How did the others live
with this guilt all the time? How was he going to live with it and
continue on the Pearl?

He was still holding his head when he felt a hand on his shoulder.
Looking up, he met the concerned kohl rimmed eyes of a tiara wearing
captain. "Ye okay, mate?"

Will just stared blankly at him. Jack gave him a confused look and
attempted a gold filled grin. "Will, luv?" he questioned again,
letting the term of endearment hang between them.

Nodding, Will tried to push back the feelings of guilt and self-
loathing. "Yeah Jack, just a bit sea sick, that's all."

It was then that Will realize that he had fallen into a crouched
position next to the deck rail and that Jack had now wrapped his arm
around him, pulling him close.

"Just sick?" the skeptical look was still thrown off by the
ridiculous tiara perched on his head.

Will rubbed at his eyes and nodded again. "Yeah, sick."

There was a derisive snort and then the arm around him disappeared as
Jack straightened up and looked back down at his crew. "Carry on you
dogs, me and my first mate are gonna retire to my bonnie bottle of
rum in me quarters, savvy? Ana you got control." he ignored the wink
that the dark woman threw at him.

Jack turned his attention back to his first mate. "C'mon, Will," he
reached a hand down and pulled the dead weight up to his feet. "We
got some talking we need to do."

************

The bottle of rum broke open with a define hiss and a release of
bubbles. Jack lifted the bottle to his lips and smiled. "Is there not
a better way than to celebrate the capture of the pirate's best
prize: The Spanish Galleon, than with a bottle of rum?"

Will sat on the other side of the table that resided in the captain's
room, not really paying any attention to the pirate or his poison of
choice.

Jack glared at Will. "Again you missed yer cue to agree wit me." he
took a large swallow from the bottle and slammed it back down on the
table between them. The loud noise startled Will out of his thought.

"Oh, sorry again."

"Don't tell me you been thinkin' again, eh?"

"Yeah..."

"Well shit Will, three weeks away from yer lass and you start this
thinkin' bit. I still recall those good `ole days where you'd be out
there in the front doin' the first thing that come to yer head, not
bein' one to think actions through or consider the opportune moment."
Jack rested his elbows on the table and leaned forward, his face
close to Will's. "What be botherin' ya? Ye can tell `ol Jack here.
Er...'ol Captain Jack." he amended himself.

Will realize that he could smell the rum on Jack's breath and
strangely enough, he wasn't disgusted by it. "I just...."

"You just.....?" Jack gestured erratically with is hands. One stray
hand almost knocked over the bottle of rum.


His face flushed red with shame and he dropped his eyes so not to
meet Jack's dark ones. "I just feel guilty..." he hurried on with his
sentence as he looked up to see Jack's raised eyebrow, "..what with
killing that man."

Realization filled Jack's face as his mouth dropped open. "Ohh!" the
look was replaced by a grin. Propping his boots up onto the table he
gave Will a reassuring look. "I see. Having first killin' regrets, eh
luv?"

Idly noticing the second use of the term `luv' Will nodded
slowly. "Sorry, Jack, I know you must think of me as a child and I
swear I will try and get over it but I can't stop-"

Jack held up a hand to stop the flow of the words that rushed from
Will's mouth. "Now why do you be thinkin' that I think of ye as a
child?" Jack looked honestly confused and not unlike a child himself
as he stared over his boots at the red face Will.

Will blinked. "Because I am acting unseemly for a pirate."

It was Jack's turn to blink. "Unseemly? Unseemly is a word that the
higher-ups reserve for the likes of us, not a word were describe our
own with. And besides mate, we all have our first kill regrets. It
just be natural, that's all."

So the image of the dying man's wide dark eyes that still hung on to
his mind like some devil-sent barnacle was normal? "Did you have it
too?"

Jack nodded, jingling the tiara which, strangely enough still resided
on his head. "You bet I did."

"Can you tell me about it?"

Leaning up and putting his feet back down on the floor, Jack reached
for the bottle and took a long hard drink. "There," he sighed after
he swallowed, "yeah I can tell you the story. So sit back and take a
drink, this be long ago..."

//Jack's story//

"It was really a while ago. Guess I must have been killin' for
awhile. Hmm kinda a strange thought, huh? Well anyway, this story
begins on a British ship. Now don't look at me like that, I wasn't
caught or anything, I was actually a cabin boy on this fine brig.

"Yes that was the kind of ship. It had the same name as the prison of
the ship and I tell you that sometimes that ship felt just like a
prison itself. Unlike my Pearl that is. But it was an okay ship I
guess. It had two masts and a lovely bowsprit. I remember being as I
believe I was, ten at the time, staring up at the huge main mast and
wondering if I could ever climb up to the main royal yard like the
rest of the sailors could. I used always get in trouble for climbing
the ratlines in attempt to reach that royal yard-"


"Will you just get on with the story Jack? I don't care what the ship
looked like."

"Alright, alright, just got stuck in me memories. Well this was a
British merchant ship named the Beach. Incredibly stupid name if you
asked me, but being that cabin boy, I didn't have much of a say on
what we named her. But the Beach? Why in the seven hells would you
name your ship after an action which you'd never want your ship to
befall? To beach your ship is horrible. Either that or why would you
name it the Beach when it would always be in the Sea? Makes no sense
to me, that be for sure."

"Jack...."

"Sorry. I got a bit off topic there, didn't I? Well yeah, back to me
story. The captain of this fair, badly-named, ship was the gent known
as Captain R. J. Fisk. He was a hard bastard, pretty much everyone on
the ship hated `em `cept fer me. Dunno why `xactly I liked `em at
first. Guess he treated me well and he was one of my firsts."

"Firsts......"

"NO! Eck, no, no. Not that first, no, one of the first men to treat
me nicely and not like the scum off the bottom of his shoe. Took me
under his wing, he did. Now obviously you just thought that his
intentions with me were impure, but no, it wasn't like that. He did
want me for a certain reason. He wanted me to spy on his crew. See,
he suspected that a mutiny was a brewin'. That man could recognize
the tell-tale signs of a mutiny, that he could."

"You mean unlike you, right?"

"Will, you stop interupting me, Will?"

"Sorry...."

"Will you Will?"

"Hehe."

"What now?"

"`Will you Will', you could say that sentence backwards and forwards.
There has gotta be a name for sentences like that."

"Fine, no more story. Looks like you feel all good about bloody
torturing that poor bloke back there on the galleon, you did know
that you only need to stab `em once and put 'em outta his misery, and
not stab `em over and over again so he laid there choking on his own
blood and in a haze of pain....seems you got over that fast, mate."

"......that was low, Jack."

"Do you want me to continue or not?"

"Yes, please."

"Okay then. I was as good a cabin boy as there could be. Alright
don't look at me like that, I didn't do much other than clean after
Fisk. The crew cared little for me. I was just `Little Sparrow',
Captain Fisk's little tell-tale bird. They hardly let me near the
forecastle crew quarters. Fisk kept it no secret what he wanted me to
look for.

"I hardly had any understanding on what I was looking for. But Fisk
knew that his men didn't like him. He knew that they thought him too
cruel for simple merchant crossings."

"Was he a pirate then?"

"He was not. Just a right bastard, aye he was. He drove those men to
the bare bone. And if one slowed down, or took a break, he would whip
them. Even I was on the receiving end of the strip of leather."

"I've seen those scars."

"Aye, aye, well the crew hated him, and rightfully so. But I was
naught but a kid. So in fear of the whip, I listened to him."

"I thought you said he was kind to you?"

"He was, he just didn't tolerate laziness. Okay on with the story.
One day we were making that crossing to the Caribbean when I was
ordered into the crew quarters to retrieve something or other and
then I saw it. A round robin. It is a piece of parchment that lists
the names of crew members that agreed to a mutiny but were written in
a circle so that no one name was at the top of the list. I didn't
know what it was back then, but I did know that Fisk wanted me to
report it.

"However, a crewman, a certain William Turner caught me. He knew I
saw something that even though I didn't understand it, I was gonna
report it. He stopped me. Promised me something he did."

"What did my dad give?"

"Several colorful beads and an offer of friendship. Bill was a smart
kid, not that much older than me, really. He could see that I was
just a tool for the Captain, and so he offered to be my friend for
the voyage. In exchange that I not be tellin' old Fisk about the
robin. I agreed. And Fisk never heard about the robin………at least not
from me.

"As it were to be Fisk did his own searching on his own time. And he
found the parchment naught but two days before the mutiny were to
take place.

"He ordered all hands to the deck. He lined us up and paced before
us. I was confused. Now that I think of it, I must have been one
idiot of a young whelp."

"Not much has changed."

"I was an ignorant fool, much like yourself back then."

"I'll keep my mouth shut."

"Good lad. Well he announced that he knew of the evil plot. Not a
single sailor blinked at his relevation. They were good liars, that
crew was. Well their silence only did to piss that captain right off.
He fumed and ranted about laziness and injustice. But they kept their
mouths shut all the while he demanded whose idea it was to start the
round robin. Finally the `good' captain cracked.

"He demanded that the crew atoned for their crimes against him and
against God. He would pick at random one man and punish him, torture
him until dead because of what the crew had done. And he did choose.
He choice your father.

"Something snapped in me then. This man, this captain who had taken
care of me, was about to kill the one man that befriended me on the
trip. True, old Bootstrap only put himself in that position to
protect the crew, but he had grown to see me in the same way that I
saw him. A friend.

"It was a strange and terrible feeling. I was torn, but me body made
the decision for me. You see the captain was a paranoid man, as you
could tell, and he kept a knife on his person at all times. And as
his cabin boy, I knew this. So while me mind debated this terrible
situation, my body lunged forward, pulled the knife from its sheath
and stabbed Fisk repeatedly.

"I came back to me senses when Bill pulled me off of him. Me white
shirt was drenched in blood and gore, I had the stuff dripping down
me face. It was in me hair and in me mind. After the red had drained
from me vision, memories leaked back through. Like seeing the
captain's eyes widen as he saw an attack from the least expected
person, the one he trusted, I swear to this day, I saw that look of
betrayal in them. I can't forget it, no matter how many rum bottles I
consume."

"That's how I feel."

"I know. That's why ye shouldn't be feeling guilt and all shamed
like. It happens to most people. Even me, and I'm heartless! Now pass
me that bottle."

**********

Will stared as Jack tossed his head back and finished off the rum.
The pirate leaned hunched over the table, with an iron grip about the
bottle. Throughout Jack's story, he had listened, albeit interrupted
several times, to the intense tale. He had seen the look in the
pirate's eyes as the story drew to the close. There had been a hollow
look, like some of the life had drained from them.

It was only for a moment, but Will had seen it all the same.

"You saved my father's life."

Jack nodded, staring blankly at what seemed like Will's left
ear. "Aye, I did."

"Well then think of it this way then, next time you feel guilty, if
you hadn't of killed that captain, he would have killed my father and
I would have never existed. And never met you." He crossed his arms
and gave the captain a pointed look.

"You're right." Jack straightened up and grinned. "And I wouldn't be
having this grand adventure with Bill's son!"

"Whatever happened to the Beach?"

"Well, the crew voted that I should be captain after Fisk's death."

Will rolled his eyes. "Yeah right, you were how old?"

"Ten, but I be telling' the truth! But seeing as I was young, Bill
Turner stepped in and filled the captain role, only `til I'd get
older, ye see. Then I'd resume the duty, since the crew elected me."

"And the Beach?"

Jack smiled again, "We never did decide to return to port and give up
our goods. The crew decided that piracy was the better course, and I
whole heartedly agreed. Well On one voyage, the Beach came under
attack from a British convoy. We were heavily damaged. In fact, so
much, the ship needed a complete overhaul. Many said we should just
get entire new ship. But both me and yer father were attached to the
old Beach, so we rebuilt it, painstakingly. There were so many new
parts that it would have been bad luck to sail under the name of the
Beach."

Will watched as Jack's smile grew larger. "And?"

"I renamed her. The Black Pearl."

Will coughed in surprise. "This? This is that same ship?"

Jack nodded. "Did you not notice that the Pearl is a much older
galleon than are seen now on these waters?"

"Yes, but I did not realize she was that old."

Jack smiled softer this time. "Aye she is an old lady, but she holds
a special place in me heart."

"I thought you said you were heartless."

Will had to dodge the boot that was tossed at his head. "Yer lucky I
like you whelp." Jack grumbled.

"Yes I know you do." It was Will's turn to smirk. But the smile
stilled on his face as he remembered exactly why they were in jack's
cabin and why they were having this talk in the first place. "It will
take awhile to get over this, you know that right?"

Jack nodded solemnly and once again leaned over the table to bring
his face close to Will's. " Ye should know this though, when you feel
guilty, think of it this way, if ye hadn't killed that man on that
galleon, then I wouldn't have been here to give you this."

And with that, Jack kissed him. And the guilt was forgotten. For the
moment at least.



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