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Scully's voice was quiet, but sober. She eyed the two men
sitting hunched across from her neutrally, but they knew
she was reading every flicker of emotion that passed across
their faces.
"You've heard my plan, and you've had a week to think it
over, but the situation is reaching a critical point, and
we can't wait any longer. I need to know now, are you with
me? Are we agreed?"
Skinner's jaw was rigid, and his eyes looked wary, but he
nodded. "I'm in."
Relief she didn't show went through her, but Scully only
turned patiently to her left.
"I still think it's a bad idea, but I don't have a better
one to put on the table. And you're right, it's getting
dangerous. Count me in." John Doggett winced as he said it,
but Scully knew that he would follow through.
"Very well. Tonight, 1600 hours. You know what to do?"
They both nodded, and she stood brushing the dirt from her
faded black fatigues. She held out her hand, and Skinner
placed his on top of it, engulfing it. Doggett's hand
rested atop Skinner's and, as they did before each mission,
they uttered the same invocation.
"For those that survive."
A pause, and they broke hands, each going their separate
ways until time.
ONE WEEK PRIOR
"Dammit, Mulder, we don't have time for this shit!"
Krycek's voice was sharp, short and hard. He was standing
outside a pen full of huddled refugees, his gun trained on
them, despite the fact that he was yelling at Mulder. His
eyes swept the area, his walkie talkie squawking nearly
constantly at his hip.
"Wrong, Krycek! This is all we do have time for!" Mulder
was working the lock, trying desperately to get the
electronics to release.
With a growl of frustrated rage, Krycek threw him back away
from the gate, brought up his gun and fired into the
mechanism. Alarms went off, but they'd already been
discovered, so it didn't really matter. Flinging open the
door, Krycek began herding the pitiful handful of humans
out.
"Listen up. Follow us or die, and don't expect help either
way." Into his walkie talkie he barked, "Green team setting
now. Evacuate in two, on my mark."
Ignoring Mulder's "No!", he counted it down. Mulder
watched, dismayed, as Krycek hit the button to start the
explosions, and took off at a dead run. Grabbing the only
child, Mulder had no choice but to follow, praying the
victims would be strong enough to follow, though he knew
most of them wouldn't be.
Sure enough, of the fifteen released, only three made it
out in time, counting the child Mulder had carried. There
was no time to grieve, everyone had scrambled for the
trucks, throwing themselves inside and calling the all
clear. It was nearly an hour's drive to the temporary base
they'd set up for this job, and at the end of it, Mulder
turned the child over to the rescue services personnel, and
went looking for Krycek.
He found him in the tent being used for an office, getting
the final set of reports from the other team leaders.
Mulder, by now incandescent with rage, threw himself at the
man bodily, fists flying.
Krycek avoided all but a glancing blow to the chin, and
kicked out. Mulder dodged the foot through sheer luck, and
the two men went down on the floor in a tangled, snarling
lock.
As soon as they'd caught sight of Mulder's face, the team
had radioed for help. They made no attempt to separate
them, having learned from past experience that it would do
no good, would only make things worse. No, there was only
one thing to do, call and wait.
Moments later, a petite redhead burst into the room,
followed by an angry ex-Marine. The redhead had already
drawn her gun, and she took careful aim and fired into the
ground just to the side of them. They stopped, flinching,
and looked up at her, noticing that she now had the gun
trained on them.
"Get up. Get up, right now!" It was gritted out angrily, in
the tones of an overworked mother of a trying two-year old.
"You know I'll shoot either one of you or both of you, and
since I'm the one that'll be digging the bullet out later,
you can bet you'll regret it."
Slowly, looking like they were resentful of the
interruption, they stood, panting but moving apart. If
there was anything that they were both sure of, it was that
Scully would indeed, put a cap in their ass.
Skinner, once they were apart, had moved in between them,
allowing Scully to put the gun away.
"What the hell is it this time?"
"You bastard, you freed them just to die."
"Don't make this my fault, Mulder, you're the one that
decided to play the hero. And I've got a newsflash for you,
if any of them test for oil or chips, you get to be the one
to put a spike in their brain."
Mulder made a move that would have turned into a lunge, had
it not been for Skinner's hands on his shoulders and Scully
raising the gun again.
"Go to hell, Krycek!"
"Maybe, but at least I won't be taking half the resistance
with me. You want to play god, Mulder, be merciful and
kind, you go right ahead, but you do it on your own time."
"These people are the resistance, you asshole!"
Skinner had a hand on each of them now, and Scully cocked
the gun, the sound loud and full of menace. "Shut up, both
of you! It's done, let it go."
Mulder, still glaring into Krycek's cool, unblinking gaze,
finally turned and stormed off. When he'd gone, Scully
again put the gun away, and she and Skinner left.
Outside, they found Doggett waiting for them, concern on
his face. Scully, despite her frustration and fatigue,
managed to smile at the sight. She'd known he'd be there,
having heard the call on the walkie talkies the same as she
had. John Doggett was a modern man and accepted fully that
the woman he cared for was a doctor and a soldier. He would
follow her orders on the field without hesitation, and
didn't balk at letting her do her share of the killing and
dirty work.
The fact that she was the only one willing to shoot both
Mulder and Krycek, and thus, the only one that could get
them to break up a physical altercation, made him plain old
nervous. Doggett didn't say anything about it, and he never
tried to interfere, but he was always around to make sure
she was okay after.
"That's the third time this week. I know there's a lot of
bad blood between 'em, but they're leading this outfit, and
it's no damn good for them to keep tryin' to kill each
other."
Skinner sighed deeply. He was even more tired of the drama
than Doggett, owing to his own part of their shared
history. "No shit. I just wish we could think of a way to
fix it without Scully having to draw a bead. Hell, you had
to fire a warning shot this time, and it still just barely
worked. You'll have to shoot them next time."
Scully looked thoughtful, and when she spoke, it was with
some reluctance. "I have an idea about that actually. But
this isn't the place to talk about it. Can you both come to
my tent later? I liberated some coffee on my way out of the
lab."
"That's good enough to get me there." Skinner grinned,
knowing Doggett wouldn't need an excuse to spend some time
in Scully's tent.
As though reading Skinner's thought, Doggett glared
slightly with defiance as he asked, "What time?"
"1800 hours?"
With that agreed, they left to see to their various duties.
Scully patched up the wounded, but she was on autopilot.
She had a plan for dealing with Mulder and Krycek, she just
wasn't sure how the others were going to take it. She
wasn't really sure about it herself, but she was tired of
having to haul ass from all over the camp just to keep them
from killing each other. That, and she wasn't sure how many
more times she could pull her gun on them and not actually
use it.
Since the resistance began in earnest, everyone had known
there were only two people qualified to lead it. Krycek had
all the dirt, he knew the system, knew how things worked
and what was likely to be real and what was simply a trap.
He'd proven he was on their side enough by then for his
motives if not his past to be accepted, and Scully had put
aside her personal feelings for the greater good of
mankind.
Mulder, on the other hand, had the intuition, the fantastic
leaps of logic and the phenomenal memory they needed to
make sense of the data they were bringing in. He was the
only one that could even hope to tell them what the big
picture was, and his genius and instinctive understanding
of the forces they were up against had saved them more than
once. Scully had put aside her fears and doubts and given
herself into Mulder's keeping . If she couldn't comprehend
what was going on, she could believe in Mulder, and follow
blindly if needed.
Together, there was no problem they couldn't solve. Between
them, Mulder and Krycek were taking on the universe, and
winning. They were brilliant, unbeatable and mankind's best
and only hope. They worked with passion, with personal
dedication and an overwhelming determination to get it
done.
And they'd been trying to kick the living shit out of each
other since day one.
They raged, they fought, verbally and physically. They
wasted precious time and energy with on site battles for
supremacy, and they were beginning to divide the rest of
the resistance force into camps pro and con each other. It
was wearing everyone down, the constant bickering, the
snideness, the suspicion and coldness. The physical
altercations just confused everyone. When they'd figured
out that Scully could stop them long enough for Skinner to
get between them, she'd hoped like hell they could find a
solution.
But for two such smart men, they were being incredibly
difficult. No amount of talking, pleading or threats seemed
to do more than annoy them, and the violence was
escalating. They were now each starting to take foolish
risks, just to get one up on the other. No, they were as
corrosive and unstable as the chemical cocktails they used
to make the explosives.
Scully left the last patient, and sighed heavily as she
cleaned up and headed for her small, but private tent. The
two men would barely fit inside it with her, but they'd
shared closer quarters. The first time she'd had to share a
latrine trench with Walter Skinner was etched permanently
in her mind. Now, she could ask him to pass the shovel and
not even blink. They had all been forced into intimacy.
It was that thought that had first led her to her rather
unique solution to Mulder and Krycek. Setting the small tin
of water to heat, she made the precious coffee, hoping her
plan would be accepted. She really was going to shoot them
next time, and she wasn't sure she could manage to feel bad
about it.
That had been six days ago. She'd outlined her plan, and
sent them off to think about it. The only reason they'd had
the chance was that Krycek had gone off to follow one lead,
Mulder another, at opposite ends. It was a fairly safe
mission, but the info was crucial, so they'd split up. The
peace had been sweeter than honey. Now, one small week
later, and they were both back, and the arguing had begun
again almost immediately. They were in the office now,
screaming at each other at the top of their lungs, the only
reason they weren't physically fighting was that they were
eating. You didn't waste food. It simply wasn't done, and
even Mulder wouldn't break that sacred rule.
Scully had known this. It was why she and her compatriots
were standing out in the hall, waiting patiently for the
drugs she'd laced the stew with to take effect. It didn't
take long, and when two thuds reached them, they moved.
Doggett picked up Krycek, Skinner took Mulder, and Scully
led the way, reassuring all that saw her that everything
was okay, despite the sight of both their leaders ass up
over somebody's shoulder.
Marching them to the portable secure room, they lay them
down carefully on the single if wide bedroll provided, made
sure the water was in place, the latrine bucket ready, and
the locks all secure. Thus assured, the trio made their
exit, and calmly locked the two men inside.
The secure room was portable, barely. Made of steel panels
that fit together with a peg and hole system, it had a
narrow gash at the top to let in air and light, a sliding
panel at the bottom to allow food, and a revolving tray for
emptying the bucket. Each panel had a tiny window that
would allow for viewing, and there were no blind spots. It
was small, eight by eight, but impossible to break out of.
They used it for many purposes, most of them dark.
As he double checked the last padlock, Skinner looked over
at Scully.
"We really do need both of them. Are you sure they won't
actually kill each other?"
"Mulder wouldn't kill Krycek in his sleep, and he can't
take him awake. Krycek knows he still needs Mulder, at
least until the war's over. He's too cold to take him out
just to satisfy his anger." She paused, then reached into
her pocket. She was blushing violently, and Skinner and
Doggett both eyed her curiously. "Besides, I have a small
weight to balance the scales in our favor."
Opening her hand, she revealed three moderately sized
joints in an airtight bag, biting her lip as she heard
Doggett's quickly indrawn breath, and Skinner's deep
chuckle.
"Why, Dana Scully, I'm surprised at you!" Skinner had gone
to full out laughter, and Doggett, now over the shock, had
a suspiciously twitching jaw.
"I'm not saying a word. I neither claim nor disavow any
personal connection to the contents of this bag. I am not
going to discuss it. I will say that there are three of
them. I propose to give them one tonight, before lights
out. Tomorrow, depending on how things go, we'll give them
another, about noon. The third we'll put in with their
breakfast, if things are going well."
"And if they aren't?" Doggett asked it with the air of a
man expecting the worst.
"Then we'll smoke it ourselves before we let them out." She
held her firm look for just a moment, before her lips
turned into a rare smile, shared by the three of them.
"We might want to do that anyway. When they get out, they
aren't going to be happy with us." Skinner spoke softly,
knowing this wasn't news. "They'll probably come out
swinging."
"I'll take a punch, if it means this worked." Doggett was
sincere, he'd count it worth the cost.
"Me, too, but it'll be two punches, one from each of them,"
Skinner corrected resignedly.
"Krycek might punch me, Mulder won't. Although..." Scully
trailed off, a hint of her earlier blush returning. She
looked up at the two men waiting with patient determination
for her to finish. Knowing she'd have to spill, Scully
sighed. "Mulder and I had a huge fight once, one like he
and Krycek have all the time. We were both so mad, god, we
were mad. I threatened to deck him, and he told me to go
ahead. Then he told me that while he'd never raise his fist
to a woman, if I threw the first punch, I'd find myself
across his knee. You can imagine how well I took that." She
grinned, the shared embarrassment part of being a comrade
in arms.
"Did you shoot him?" Skinner was serious, and Scully shook
her head.
"No. I called him the worst name I could think of and told
him exactly how I would torture him if he ever dared...you
get the idea. But I didn't punch him either." She made a
little shrug of acknowledgment, and continued softly,
"Still, like you say, if this works, I'll take a little
pain and humiliation."
"He won't spank you." Skinner sounded sure of himself and
she looked over, puzzled. "I'll just tell him that whatever
he does to you, he'll have to do to me first. Something
tells me I won't fit comfortably over his knee, or even
both of them."
Chuckling at the mental image, and grateful for Skinner's
sacrifice to make her feel more comfortable, Scully patted
his arm in thanks, sharing a wink. They'd become friends,
nothing more, but very good friends. Skinner had kissed her
once, and that had been enough to tell them that it was no
use. It was like kissing your sibling, and so they'd taken
those roles for each other. He was her big brother, she the
little sister, and both of them content with it.
"So, how long before they come around?" Doggett, trying
hard to get the picture of a naked Dana Scully stretched
over his lap out of his head, steered the conversation back
to business.
"About fifteen minutes. Just enough time to share the
plan."
Squaring her shoulders, and with the two men behind her for
backup, Scully moved to the front of the tent. A crowd had
gathered, as she'd known it would, but she hit the chime on
the walkie-talkie, just to be sure everyone would hear her.
In clear no-nonsense tones, Scully told everyone what was
going on. That she had, as third in command, taken it upon
herself, for the good of the Resistance, to put an end to
the trouble between Mulder and Krycek, once and for all.
"They'll either beat each other to a pulp once and for all,
with one of them clearly emerging as top dog. Or, and this
is the scenario I see as most likely, based on my past with
both men, they'll come out of this completely united. In
fact, it wouldn't surprise me if they came out of there as
lovers. So, if anyone has a problem taking orders from a
couple of fags, they'd better get it out of their system
now." She levelled a glare at the entire group, and was
relieved to see no one seemed to care.
"If they'll stop bitching, I'll pass them the lube."
Scully didn't see who made the comment, but it appeared to
be the communal sentiment. With a grin at how weird life
could get, she continued.
"Alright. We give them three days, that's all we can spare.
We'll monitor them to make sure they don't seriously injure
each other, but that's all. No one talks to them, beyond
the initial explanation, nobody comes into the tent except
one of the three of us. That's because they can't really
threaten us with anything we aren't willing to sacrifice.
And hopefully, in three days' time, this will all be over
one way or another. Dismissed."
Everyone scattered, and she relaxed, pleased at how well it
had gone. About then, she heard a muttering and ducked
inside the tent.
A peek showed her that Krycek was coming around. She'd
expected him to be first, his tolerance for drugs was
exceptionally high, thanks to his time with the Consortium.
He looked around, blinked, rubbed his eyes, and looked
again. Without moving, he took in the setting, the set-up
and Mulder lying next to him, just beginning to stir.
The string of curses was fluid and in Russian, but she
managed to catch the drift. He hadn't bothered to move,
knowing it was useless. Mulder moaned, and struggled to sit
up.
"What the hell did you do to me?" It was slurred slightly,
but Krycek's response was sharp as a knife blade.
"Not me, asshole. This stinks of that redheaded bitch and
her two lapdogs."
Wincing inwardly at the description, Scully remained
silent, and continued to observe them from far enough away
she wouldn't be seen.
Mulder, by now realizing where he was and what the
implications were, shook his head, hurt bewilderment in his
voice. "Don't be a prick, Krycek. Scully would never do
something like this to me. You, maybe, but not me."
This time Scully didn't hide the wince. That hurt, and
Doggett patted her shoulder, a brief moment of comfort.
"Right. Just like she would only shoot me, not you. Just
like she only gets pissed at me when we fight, not you,
just like she..." He trailed off, face showing clearly that
he was thinking. "Fuck!" It was a harsh bark, but full of
comprehension. Krycek's face showed that he was glittering
with rage, and he stood up, fists clenched until his
knuckles were white.
Mulder, the last effects of the drugs worn away by his
growing apprehension, quickly came to the same conclusion.
Standing, he moved to the wall nearest him, pushing vainly,
then pounding. "Hey! Hey, is anybody out there? Scully!"
Clearing her throat, Scully moved close enough for Mulder
to see her through the viewing window.
"Scully, let me out." He looked at her, his face showing
clearly that he couldn't believe she was doing this to him.
"No." It was the hardest thing she'd ever had to say to
Mulder, but she let the word carry the full weight of her
conviction, and his face blanched. Behind him, unseen, she
heard Krycek's short sound of exasperation.
"What? Scully, c'mon, I don't know what this is about, but
let me out. Now."
"You're wasting your breath, Mulder. She's the one that put
us in here." Krycek's voice was a frozen wasteland, and
Scully felt the goosebumps rise.
Mulder turned, shouting over his shoulder, "Shut the fuck
up!"
"We were drugged, Mulder! Use your goddamn brain, we were
both drugged, it had to be her!"
Scully was the only one that had access to the group's
limited medical resources. She had the only key, and it was
always around her neck. Mulder knew this, and the hurt
bewilderment was back, along with a look of betrayal.
"Scully?" He sounded like a frightened child seeking its
mother, and Scully spoke quickly, knowing it was best to
get the pain over with.
"No. Both of you will stay there until you find some way to
reconcile, no matter how long it takes." This was a bold-
faced lie, but they didn't have to know that. She wanted a
genuine effort, not a carefully constructed fallacy to earn
their freedom. "As long as you were only hurting each
other, it was okay. But then you started to get worse.
First you got me involved, then Skinner, and now you're
beginning to divide the whole camp. We've tried everything
we can think of, but you don't seem to care. We're out of
options. You will either reconcile, kill each other, or
become lovers. Either way, the madness is over, it ends and
it ends now. You'll be fed, you'll be provided with
blankets and light, your needs will be tended. But no one
but myself, Skinner or Doggett will see to you. The camp
agrees. So, it doesn't matter what your final solution is,
gentlemen, so long as you find one. I'd suggest you cut
through the bullshit and get busy. But I warn you, fake it
and you'll find yourselves back in here, only I won't waste
drugs. I'll shoot you first, then let you recover together.
Good luck, you'll need it."
She then turned her back and left the tent, ignoring
Mulder's increasingly desperate and angry calling of her
name.
Krycek was leaning against one wall, squatting, head in his
hands. They were shaking with outrage, and his jaw was
clenched so tightly the bones creaked. "Shut up, Mulder!
Just shut up, she's not listening."
Mulder turned slowly, his own anger just now beginning to
stir, fueled by the hurt of Scully's perceived betrayal. It
rose in him like a cobra coiling, and by the time he was
facing Krycek, it was ready to strike.
"You." It was an ugly, dangerous whisper, and Krycek
instinctively shifted to a better position. "This is all
your fault."
Krycek laughed, but there was no humor in the sound or in
the green eyes. "Oh yeah, here it comes. This is the part
where you blame me for everything. Like always. It's never
your fault, is it, Mulder? No, I'm the only one that's ever
wrong, I'm the Rat Bastard that ruined your life and now
I'm ruining your war. Here's a clue, Mulder, we're in here
together! Your girlfriend's pissed off at both of us, Saint
Scully drugged your happy ass the same as she did mine."
Mulder, unable to deal with the truth just yet, did the
only thing he could do, what he always did when Krycek hurt
him with honesty. He lashed out. Actually, he threw himself
at the other man, and they went down in a tangled heap.
Outside the tent, Skinner nodded at Scully, letting her
know the sounds she was hearing were indeed, the first
fight. He was monitoring the action from the small video
camera tucked into the overhead panel. It had been added
just for them, and they hoped neither man noticed it. There
was no audio, just video, so they had privacy, but the
captors would know if they needed to interfere.
She peered over his shoulder, and he leaned forward,
letting her see better. The men inside were scrabbling, but
this time, no one would come to break them up. Scully bit
her lip as she watched Krycek pin Mulder to the floor. She
closed her eyes, unable to watch the blow land.
Inside, Krycek struggled to hold Mulder down. Finally, he
risked letting go with one hand long enough to backhand
him. Mulder's eyes widened and he froze, for half a second,
as he realized that, in all the times they'd fought since
the war began, this was the first time Krycek had ever
actually hit him. That thought went buzzing through his
brain, and the profiler part of his mind began screaming
that this was somehow a vital clue. It distracted him, and
his struggles slowed.
In the pause, Krycek got him pinned, and now he rested on
top of Mulder, leaning forward and practically panting in
the man's face. The green eyes were alive with emotion, and
Mulder found himself relaxing under the intensity of that
gaze. His mind was still alive, still working over the new
factor in the complicated equation that was his
relationship with Krycek. For his part, Krycek, feeling the
body under his own relax, gave a puzzled frown, but used
the advantage.
"It's not just me, Mulder. It's both of us. You have to
realize that, or we're never gonna get out of here."
Mulder, to his absolute shock, only continued to stare at
him, nodding faintly as he added this to the equation as
well. His body became utterly pliant, all his energy turned
inward, where a much bigger struggle was taking place.
Krycek was just about to say something else, wondering if
Mulder had slammed his head somehow, when Mulder spoke
almost absently. "You hit me."
"Damn straight, and I'll do it again if I have to. Besides,
you were trying to knock my head off."
"No." The voice was quiet, calm if a touch confused. "I
mean, that's the first time you ever hit me, since we
started the Resistance. We've fought a hundred times,
easily, and you never hit me before."
Krycek, looking slightly uncomfortable, sneered, "Usually
your girlfriend breaks us up before I get the chance."
Mulder thought a second, then shook his head. "No. No,
you've had plenty of chances before, but you just never
took them. Why now?"
Krycek, seeing that Mulder was through fighting, let go,
moving to sit against the wall. He said nothing, only
reached out, taking a drink of the water. It was probably
safe, Scully wouldn't waste too much of their medical stash
on them.
"Answer me, Krycek. Why now? Why this time?"
"Christ, Mulder! It was just the back of my hand, stop
whining, will you?" It was angry sounding, but Mulder was
in full attention mode, and he heard the desperation, knew
it to be the real emotion, the anger just a cover.
"You're afraid to answer me."
The sentence hung there between them, each man could
practically see the letters swinging from some imaginary
clothesline. Krycek made no response, only continued to
stare at the floor. Mulder, realizing that nothing else was
forthcoming, moved beside him. Krycek tensed, but Mulder
only took the cup, dipping himself some water, and drinking
thirstily.
Going to the opposite wall, he slumped down, matching
Krycek in the way his arms rested on his bent knees, head
hanging slightly. Silence ruled for some twenty minutes
before Krycek spoke in a harsh, hesitant mumble.
"Scully wasn't coming this time. I had to stop you before
you hurt us." It wasn't the way he'd meant to phrase it,
but it was what came out. Hearing clearly what he knew
Mulder would hear, Krycek swore vehemently, then stood,
going to the view window. He was grateful that they'd put
the tent over the shelter, but equally glad they'd left one
flap open, allowing him to see outside. It was an open
enough shelter that he didn't have to worry about
claustrophobia. There was plenty of light, and candles for
later.
Krycek knew he was using all of this as a way of distancing
himself from Mulder and his probing questions. He didn't
care. He had his reasons, and if he'd never admitted them
to anyone but himself, they were still valid. With a sigh,
Krycek turned around, looking more carefully at the
contents of his latest prison. There was the latrine
bucket, the water bucket and one cup. The bedroll was well
cushioned but had only one blanket. It was only a little
wider than the normal single. There were candles and
matches, but only one mess kit. A single washcloth and
towel were folded next to the bedroll.
He rubbed a hand across his eyes, not noticing that Mulder
had been looking everywhere he did, and coming to the same
conclusion. They were going to have to do a lot of sharing.
Mulder had also come to some conclusions, but they were so
deeply unsettling that he pushed them back.
"They could have given us a book, at least."
"Nah. You'd have read, and we wouldn't talk. They want us
to talk, Mulder. They want us to bare our souls to each
other, to bury the hatchet once and for all. Your
girlfriend has decided to force a Hallmark moment."
"She's not my girlfriend." Mulder's tone was flat, as he
was busily adding the way Krycek said that word, to the
rest of the clues.
"Not anymore, maybe. Now I think she's doing the Dog." The
Dog was Doggett's code name. Not imaginative, true, but
nobody forgot who it was, either.
"Not ever." Mulder wasn't sure why he said it, but he
didn't flinch as Krycek turned and looked at him,
incredulous disbelief plainly etched on his face.
"Never? You and Scully never...?"
"No. We thought about it, once, but it was too late by
then. We'd spent too many years keeping it professional, I
guess. We fell into and out of love with each other, before
we ever had the chance to try. It was over before it began.
We kissed, that was it."
It was the truth, Krycek could tell that, and Mulder looked
up in time to see the pain lace through the green eyes.
"What about you?"
"Huh? What about me? I never had a thing for Scully."
"Well no, you wouldn't, she's lacking somewhat in the
penile department for you." Krycek made a hiss, and Mulder
watched, fascinated, as color flooded the handsome face.
"Are you blushing?"
"Fuck you, Mulder! Christ, of all the people to lock me up
with... Scully! Get your ass in here and open this fucking
door, you bitch!" Krycek had shouted the last, pounding on
the panel he was leaning against. There was no response,
but it had been worth a try.
Mulder, realizing that he needed to think for a few more
minutes, stood, stretching. It was getting late, he could
see that evening was maturing into night. He moved to the
candles and lit one, placing the squat tin of paraffin wax
in the small reflective holder built into one panel. It
brightened the grey of the room to a warmer shade, and made
him feel better somehow.
Krycek, grateful at not having been the first one to want
the light, relaxed a little as well. A few moments later,
the food panel slid out, and a dish of stew and two
biscuits were pushed back through. Realizing that he was
hungry, Krycek reached for it.
"Hey, two spoons. Somebody slipped up." Mulder held them up
triumphantly, and Krycek couldn't help the tired grin. He
grabbed one, and they sat down, putting the bowl between
them. Biscuit in hand, and with the water cup filled, they
ate, each carefully taking one spoonful at a time, sharing
it with merciless equality.
"Not bad tonight." Krycek actually detected some flavor,
and was suitably impressed.
"It's never good, though."
Mulder chewed mechanically, and Krycek asked, "You don't
actually like food, do you?"
"I like food okay, it's eating I object to." It was a very
Mulder thing to say, and Krycek didn't even attempt to
guess what it meant. Holding up his biscuit, he silently
asked and was answered with a nod. Dunking it into the
stew, Krycek counted it as one of his spoonfuls, grateful
that the dry flat bread was soft enough to chew without
much effort. Mulder followed his lead, and they ate in
silence. When it was done, they each drank deeply of the
water, and spared a little to rinse their hands and mouths,
sharing the towel.
They put the bowl and spoons back on the sliding panel.
Mulder looked out, but saw no one. He moved to the next
panel and caught a glimpse of Skinner standing near the
doorway.
"Skinner's playing guard. Must be shift change."
"Yeah, he was supposed to have these four hours off. That
means Doggett'll probably be our next babysitter."
Mulder nodded, he was as familiar with the schedule as
Krycek, more so because of his memory.
They had each taken a window, and now they looked in unison
as the food panel was activated, and slid back in place.
Seeing something small on it, both men moved toward it.
Krycek was closest, and he looked out the window, seeing
Scully exit the tent.
"What is it?"
"It's a joint. Courtesy of the good Doctor."
"Yeah? You sure?"
"Of which, that it's a joint or that it was Scully that
left it?" There was a trace of annoyance in the tone, and
Mulder bristled.
"It was a simple question, you don't have to get pissy."
"Being sick and tired of having my every word questioned,
is not being pissy."
"And why should I take anything you say for granted? Why
should I believe a single thing you say?"
"Oh, God, not this again! Jesus, get a new routine, will
you, please? Yes, Mulder, I lied. I lied my ass off. I
cheated, I stole, I murdered in cold blood, and there's
very little of it that I regret. In fact, there's not a
thing worth saving about my whole miserable life, so tell
me, Mr Honesty, why the hell did you let me live? Why did
you come anytime I called? You were like Pavlov's dogs, I
rang and you drooled. You not only let me live, you trusted
me, Mulder. Why? How did you know when I was lying, and
when I was telling the truth?"
Mulder, unprepared for the attack to turn so quickly, said
nothing, only turned away. Krycek looked at the stiff back,
the hunched shoulders, and let his own head droop. He was
tired. God, he was tired, and he just wanted to pretend
this wasn't happening. Eyeing the joint on the panel, he
bit his lip, then picked it up.
"Mulder."
"What?" It was a dark mutter, and when Krycek didn't
answer, Mulder turned a careful eye toward him. Krycek held
up the joint and the lighter for the candles. It was a
question, and Mulder, suddenly weary, nodded. Krycek lit it
as Mulder walked back over, and then inhaled deeply,
filling his lungs, and then holding the breath. He passed
the joint to Mulder, who followed suit.
It was smooth, surprisingly so, not as harsh as he
remembered. Of course, it had been years since he'd done
any kind of drug recreationally, but he still thought it
was smooth, if strong. He watched Mulder toke, finding the
sight odd for some reason. When he couldn't hold the smoke
any longer, Krycek released it slowly, then took a regular
breath.
"It's good stuff." He took the joint back, exhaled fully,
and drew in another deep lung full.
"Yeah." Mulder agreed, having released his own breath, and
now preparing to take another toke. "It's not harsh, not
like I remember anyway. I haven't done this since college,
so I could be wrong." Mulder felt it kicking in already.
"Me, either. Well, since I was college age."
A thought occurred to Mulder, and when he was forced to
breathe again, he used the opportunity to ask. "Did you go
to college?" He carefully tapped the ash, then inhaled
again.
"I never went to high school. The Consortium took over my
education when I was fourteen. After that, I went to the
Academy just long enough to make it easy to place me there,
and that was it." Krycek took the joint back, and on a
quirk, asked, "You ever shotgun?"
Mulder shook his head, then exhaled and answered. "I've
heard of it, but I never did it. What's it like?"
"Intense. It's like all the good parts of inhaling, none of
the crap. You want to try?" Krycek offered it almost shyly,
and Mulder found himself nodding. "Okay, scoot closer. No,
really close. I'll nod when I'm ready for you, okay?"
"Got it." Mulder had seen others shotgun, so he had a vague
idea what was required. He watched as Krycek turned the
joint around, placing the fire part within his mouth and
signalling. Mulder leaned forward, his lips only
millimeters above Krycek's, and inhaled. The smoke, already
mild, was even milder, no worse than a cigarette, and the
flavor of the weed was easy to taste.
Krycek pulled back, removing the joint and coughing a few
times. "I'm out of practice."
"That was cool, thank you. Uhm, I've never done it before,
but I'll try if you want a turn."
"Sure, why the hell not?"
He handed over the joint, with some final instructions, and
Mulder carefully positioned the joint between his teeth.
Krycek leaned forward, and it looked for all the world like
he was going to kiss Mulder. Aware of the faint stirring of
desire, Krycek took his hit, and sat back, feeling the
relaxation beginning at the base of his spine.
"Oh, yeah, that's some good shit."
"Want me to roach it?"
Krycek nodded, leaning back on the bedroll, and Mulder used
the small tin provided to carefully butt it out. He then
hesitated only a moment, before leaning back next to the
other man.
"Your eyes."
"Hmmn?"
"That's how I always knew when you were telling the truth.
Your eyes change color when you're lying to me."
"You're red-green color blind, how the fuck do you know if
my eyes changed color?" There was chagrin in the tone, but
no anger, and Mulder answered honestly.
"The hue changes. They get darker when you lie, or when
you're hurt."
"Yours go brown. They're usually hazel, but when you're
hurt, or really sincere, they turn a sort of pale gold."
They said nothing for a while longer, and then Mulder
rolled onto his side, propping his head on one hand. "You
stoned?"
"As close as I ever get to it, why?"
"Because I think they're right. I think we should talk. And
if we're both stoned, we can say whatever we want, and
blame it on the drugs later. We could tell each other the
truth. We could ask questions, the ones we've always wanted
to know the answers to, and not be afraid."
Krycek said nothing for a long moment, then finally looked
up, nodding. "Yeah, okay. But light another candle, first,
alright?"
Mulder obliged, and then came back to the bedroll, sitting
on the foot of it. "So, who goes first, Krycek, me or you?"
"Alex." Krycek lowered his lashes for a minute, then forced
his eyes to meet Mulder's. "I have another name. It's Alex.
The way you say Krycek makes me want to take a swing at
you. If we're going to tell each other the truth, let's
start there."
"Alright, Alex. But one condition..."
"I know, you're still Mulder."
"Uh, no, not actually. I was going to say that you had to
use my name, too."
"I thought you hated Fox. Even Scully calls you Mulder."
"Only when strangers say it. And Scully calls me that
because it's how we kept each other distant. We used last
names only, until it became like a special thing, that we
were these really good friends and never used each other's
first names."
"Okay. Fox." Krycek let a hint of a smile show, and Mulder
returned it. "My turn to ask. Earlier, when you asked me
what about me, I thought you meant, did I ever have a thing
for Scully. You said no, but you never explained what you
meant."
"I meant, was there somebody special for you, somebody you
cared about that way."
"No, not that way. I've never had a partner, except for
you. I don't have a Scully. And I'm not hot for Skinner,
either. Though," Krycek's hinted smile bloomed slowly with
mischief, "while we're being honest, he's pretty damn
attractive. I had a few fantasies while I was standing on
the other side of that desk, calling him sir."
"You aren't alone. God, he wears the hell out of a dress
shirt."
They shared a moment of amused agreement, then Krycek spoke
again. "How did you know, that I was gay?"
"I'm not sure, really. I mean, for a while, I thought you
were bi, like me. Then, I don't know, I just looked at you
one day and couldn't picture you with a woman, not ever.
You just seemed to need another man. It doesn't make sense,
but then we got some files on you, it proved my theory."
"That's how I found out you were bi. Well, that and one of
your exs had a big mouth."
"You must be referring to Diana. She was always telling
somebody that her boyfriend was bi. I hated it, but she
wouldn't quit." They lay quietly, and then Mulder asked
softly, "Alex, did you kill Bill Mulder?"
"Yes." The word was the merest whisper, but it was full of
regret. "I'm sorry, Fox. I had no choice, I had to do it."
"He wasn't my real father."
"No, but he was the only father you'd ever known, and I
killed him. I tried to put it off on Cardinale, I was
afraid..."
"Afraid of what?" Mulder was lying on his back, arm over
his eyes. Krycek was in the same position on the other side
of the mat, and he pressed the arm over his eyes, as though
to shut out the reality of speaking these words.
"I was afraid you'd never be able to forgive me. That you'd
hate me, honestly hate me, not just believe you hated me."
The words dropped quietly onto the floor, laying there
undisturbed for a long time.
"I don't hate you, Alex. You didn't kill him, I did. I
killed him with every rock I upturned, every link I
followed. I exposed him, made him dangerous, made him a
liability. He died because of me, Alex. You were just the
instrument of that death. I was the cause."
"Dammit, Fox, no!" Krycek sat up and, reaching out, hauled
Mulder into sitting up, too. "Listen to me, Fox! It wasn't
your fault! He made his own choices, Fox, his own
decisions, years before you were even thought of. If you
turned up the heat, it was only a problem because he was
guilty, had been for a decade before you were born. No, if
I'm only an instrument, then so are you. He killed himself,
Fox. It was an assisted suicide, nothing more."
Pain stabbed into Mulder viciously, pain that lanced his
tortured soul as he struggled to either accept or deny
Krycek's words. Finally, his brain reached the only
conclusion that made sense: Krycek was right. With a choked
sob, the relief poured through him, wracking him as guilt
was quickly overcome.
Krycek stared at him for a few moments, afraid to move, to
breathe in the presence of such genuine grief, but he
couldn't ignore it either. With a shaking hand, he reached
out, intending to only put a hand on Mulder's shoulder.
Mulder stiffened, then turned into Krycek's arm so quickly,
it threw them both off balance. They ended up lying on the
bedroll, Krycek with his arms now instinctively around
Mulder, who was pillowed on his chest, still crying
brokenly.
Awkwardly, Krycek began to stroke Mulder's back, rubbing a
hand up and down the lean muscles, feeling the clutch of
Mulder's fingers in his shirt, the heat of his breath
against his chest, the wet of Mulder's tears on his skin.
Without a word, Krycek held more tightly, and felt the
first tear leak from his own aching eyes, felt it roll down
his temple and pool in his hair.
Outside, watching closely with a hand over her mouth,
Scully tried hard not to weep with them. Skinner put a
thick arm around her, and together they began to hope for
the best.
Mulder cried for a long time. When he was through, he
raised his head, looking at Krycek, seeing the wet streaks
from Krycek's own few tears. He reached out a finger,
tracing the path, and Krycek met his eyes, not denying the
truth about the tracks.
"Thank you, Alex."
"Don't thank me, Fox. God, please don't thank me. I deserve
a hell of a lot of things, but your gratitude isn't one of
them." It was a painful, husky slice of words, and Mulder
traced another trail.
"What do you think you deserve, Alex?"
"Death." There wasn't even a hint of hesitation to the
answer. "It's the only thing big enough to cover everything
I've done."
"You're wrong. There's one other thing."
"What's that?"
Krycek had dropped his lashes, but now they flew back up,
as Mulder answered simply, "Forgiveness. Forgiveness would
cover it all, wouldn't it? I know Scully's forgiven you.
She knows you didn't kill her sister, we have proof of
that. Skinner's forgiven you. Yeah, you killed him, but you
brought him back, and that nearly got you killed. You don't
give a damn about what Doggett thinks, but he's willing to
let the past go. That leaves me." Mulder shifted, scooting
up so that he was leaning almost directly over Krycek's
face. "If I could forgive you, would you still need death?"
"No. But you can't, you couldn't..."
"Alex, I forgive you." Mulder cut him off with the blanket
statement, and Krycek cried aloud at the blow the words
were. He lay there, eyes huge and impossibly green, dark as
the night around them, trembling violently, gasping for air
as though he'd been running for miles. "I forgive you,
Alex. For everything. For me, for my father, for Scully,
for Skinner, for all of it. Everything. Every lie, every
cross, every thing." Mulder's face was as untroubled as a
child's and just as full of honesty. He was serious,
absolutely serious.
"No." It was a whimper, and now it was Krycek's turn to
choke on a sob.
"Why? Why not?"
"I can't...it's too..." The words faltered, tripping before
they were even off Krycek's tongue, and Mulder reached out,
smoothing the hair from Krycek's forehead. The man closed
his eyes tightly, shaking so hard it was almost
frightening.
"Yes, Alex. I'm going to forgive you, and there's not a
damn thing you can do about it. And if you piss me off
tomorrow, I won't be sorry. I'll just forgive you for that,
too. And do you know why?"
It was obvious that Krycek couldn't answer, so Mulder
leaned even closer, mouth nearly atop Krycek's.
"Two reasons. One, you deserve it. Two..." Mulder trailed
off as he lowered his mouth the last fraction needed, and
kissed Krycek.
It was just a simple kiss, a brief touch of lips, but it
sent an electric shock through both of them.
"Oh god, Fox, please." It was a desperate, needy whimper,
and Krycek hated himself for making it, but his whole life
was about to make sense, about to be worth everything he'd
been through, and he couldn't bear the thought of letting
that slip away, again.
"If I say it, will you say it back, and mean it? Will you
look me in the eyes, and promise me it's the truth? Alex,
the last person I said it to was Samantha. I've never asked
you for a promise, Alex, but I need one now. I'll tell you
my truth, but I need yours. Please?"
Krycek nodded, and took the deepest breath he could. He
looked right into Mulder's beautiful golden eyes, and went
for it. "I promise."
Mulder held back only a moment more, then the last of the
walls fell away, and he said with great clarity and
conviction, "I love you, Alex."
"I love you, too, Fox." Krycek couldn't believe he'd said
it, couldn't believe the words had managed to get past the
fear and the guilt, but they had, and now Mulder was
smiling down at him, ever so softly.
"I believe you." And then they were kissing again, and it
was like breathing, like feeling oxygen rush into starving
lungs.
Outside, in the deepening dark, Skinner grinned and turned
the monitor off. Scully had fled long ago, off to find a
quiet space. He'd give them this. Besides, his relief was
due in about five minutes. Doggett could decide whether or
not to watch. The thought brought a low chuckle, and
Skinner pulled a strand of grass from the ground near his
feet, chewing on it contentedly.
When Doggett arrived, Skinner cheerfully gave him the
update, clapped him on a shoulder and left. Swearing
mentally, Doggett cringed, before turning the monitor back
on. To his relief, they were both fully clothed, and simply
lying in each other's arms. The video feed was too grainy
to give much detail, and so he didn't see that the front of
each man's black camis were just a little darker than the
black around them.
Panting, Krycek took great comfort from the fact that
Mulder was equally breathless. The kisses had revealed an
urgency, a need for more, anything more, that couldn't be
denied. With Mulder practically lying on top of him, it had
taken little effort to shift just enough to rub his still
clothed penis against Mulder's. He'd been as achingly hard
as Krycek, and just as impatient. A few bucks and grinds,
and Krycek felt the orgasm rushing through him, had felt
Mulder's own spasms against him. Though what had really
rocked Krycek, more than the orgasm even, was hearing
Mulder plaintively call his name, just before he came. It
was what had reduced him to rubble, and now, as he lay on
his side, completely entwined with Mulder, he realized
that, for the moment at least, he was also completely
happy.
As breathing returned to normal, Krycek knew he should
start to pull back, to ease away. Common sense and his past
training demanded that he let it go, that the walls go back
up as soon as possible. It was the only way to survive, the
only way to not risk being devastated when this all blew up
in his face.
It was also the only thing he couldn't do. Whether it was
the pot, the shock of suddenly having the only thing he
ever wanted, or simple fatigue from years of denial, Krycek
couldn't say. He only knew that his instincts could go to
hell, and take his brain with them.
Allowing himself to be as open as he could ever remember
being, Krycek met Mulder's slightly glazed look with a
tender smile, letting his love show, for the first time in
nearly six years. He even reached up, brushing that kiss-
reddened lower lip with a thumb, just because he'd always
wanted to.
Mulder took the hand in one of his own, kissed the thumb,
and then the palm. The face took on a slightly embarrassed
look, but the eyes were brave as Mulder then held the open
palm to the side of his face.
It was the side Krycek had slapped earlier, and he reached
up, kissing it tenderly. "I'm sorry I hit you, Fox. I
didn't want to, love."
"Say that again."
"I'm sorry..."
"No, not that. The last part. The pet name."
Mulder's courage faltered slightly now, under the weight of
his need, but Krycek only smiled brilliantly at him, and
said warmly, "Love. My love."
Mulder inhaled deeply, relaxing more than he'd ever dreamed
possible. "Thank you." He paused to press a kiss to
Krycek's willing mouth. "And, for the record, I'm not sorry
you hit me. That's how I knew you were in love with me."
"I don't understand. It's true, but I don't understand."
Mulder shifted a bit, snuggling closer. "When you hit me,
it was such a shock. And it shouldn't have been, not after
all the times we've fought. That made me start thinking. It
threw me into profiler mode. You and I both know that you
could kick my ass anytime you wanted. But you never have.
You've thrown punches that always missed, kicks just a
fraction off to the side, and let me whale on you. You were
doing everything in your power, including risking a bullet,
to not have to actually hit me. When you had no choice, you
chose the lightest, easiest thing for me to take. You
bitch-slapped me." Mulder grinned, taking the sting out of
it, and Krycek savored the curve of his mouth, before he
continued. "I came up with the conclusion that you were in
love with me. As soon as I thought it, I felt this surge of
hope. That made me think about myself. I realized I loved
you back. That every time I hit you, it was because I
couldn't ask you to hold me, or because you made me feel
something I didn't want to feel."
"I got that. That you hit me, because you were afraid to do
anything else. You only did it because you couldn't stand
that you had feelings for me, that I could get to you. I'm
not exactly Prince Charming."
"Whoa, hold on a minute." Mulder shifted again, leaning up
on his elbows, looking more fully into Krycek's face. "You
think I was angry because the person I fell in love with
was you?" Mulder's brows drew together, and Krycek knew
he'd guessed something wrong, but couldn't figure out what.
"Yeah. I mean, you were angry that I made you feel things
you didn't want to feel, you said so."
"Right quote, wrong interpretation. Alex, I wasn't angry
that it was you making me feel, I was angry that I was
being made to feel, by anyone. Scully can make me feel
things, but they're safe things. I do love her, but not
like that, like this. I can admit to having big brother
feelings, partner and friend feelings. But to admit that
there's somebody out there that gets past all my bullshit,
that walks through my mental walls like they weren't there,
that makes me lie awake at night and admit that I'm
terribly, horribly lonely? That, I couldn't handle. I
couldn't handle the truth. Some laugh, huh? Fox Mulder
afraid of the truth." Mulder made a rueful face, and Krycek
made a gentle chuff of amusement.
"I was just the opposite. I knew I was in love with you,
knew it from the first moment I saw you. I had it so bad, I
was sure everybody knew, that they could all see. It was
why I was always so cruel to you, Mulder. I had to protect
you, and if they'd known I cared what happened to you, that
I gave a damn...I couldn't let that happen. So I took the
shit, played it hard, as hard as I could. Because I
couldn't lose you. I couldn't let them have you."
Mulder traced the arch of Krycek's eyebrow, the grin now a
full smile. "You're my guardian angel, Alex. A black-clad,
leather-winged angel, hell bent on saving my soul."
It surprised a laugh out of Krycek, even as he felt his
eyes sting at the description. But he rolled them anyway,
saying with a sigh, "Oxford. I blame Oxford." It was worth
the effort to hear Mulder laugh, then, somehow, they were
kissing again.
A few minutes later, Doggett turned off the monitor. There
were some images he just didn't need stuck in his brain
forever. The two men kissing as they began to tenderly
undress each other was just the first. Besides, he was
close enough to hear if they changed their mind mid-fuck
and started batting each other around again.
A few more minutes later, he swore silently as he realized
that he was, indeed, close enough to hear. Of course, most
of the camp would probably hear eventually. He was betting
that Mulder wouldn't shut up and take it like a man.
Doggett sighed. With his luck, Mulder would turn out to be
a screamer when being fucked.
Many long minutes later, Doggett amended that to 'while
being fucked royally,' judging from the sound of it.
Resignedly, Doggett settled down on the camp stool, face a
stoic, if somewhat pink mask. Still, a deal was a deal. He
said he'd do whatever it took, and if that meant hearing
Mulder beg Alex Krycek to take him, so be it.
Doggett, shifted slightly, continuing his neutral analysis
of the noises coming from within the tent. A part of his
brain monitored the sound behind him, being a good soldier
and knowing that it was his duty. Another part of him
mentally practiced looking the men in the eye again after
this was all over. The majority of him simply wished that
he and Scully could manage some off duty time together.
They hadn't done more than neck, and while Doggett found
the noises behind him a bit embarrassing, he couldn't deny
that the hunger, need and unmistakable rhythm of flesh
against flesh was more than a little arousing. And the
love. Even a man as hopelessly straight and vanilla as
Doggett could tell there was more going on in that little
cubicle than a good balling. The tones were rich and warm,
the language careful and tender, the voices raw with
vulnerability. It wasn't the sound of simple sex, but the
high music of two lost souls coming together and risking it
all for the sake of love.
Doggett wasn't the only one close, and he wasn't the only
one that could hear the difference. Word began spreading
through camp at a wildfire pace. Scully had been right. Fox
Mulder and Alex Krycek had linked more than their
destinies; they were now joined, heart and soul. A few
people, those less knowing in the ways of love, wondered if
it would weaken the leadership. Most knew it would only
strengthen them, to be united in purpose. A few others,
those that knew both men intimately, said a quick prayer to
whatever god was listening.
Scully, after making sure no one would see, made a ritual
out of lighting her candle. Mulder deserved to be happy,
and not just for a little while. He needed the whole fairy
tale ending, and if Alex Krycek was less than a White
Knight, he was still Mulder's only chance. The man had been
in love with Krycek forever. Scully had known as soon as
she'd heard Mulder say the name for the first time. Under
the outraged professional was the deep pain of personal
hurt. And then she'd seen Krycek look at Mulder, and had
known, in the way one alcoholic knows another, that Krycek
loved him just as much. It was why she had never let them
seriously hurt one another, why she'd stopped them
countless times before it could go too far, and why she'd
felt sure her plan would work. Now, as she closed her
prayer, she hesitated only a moment, before sending a quick
mention of Krycek's name, too. After all, he was family
now.
She closed her prayer and began to work on lesson one.
"Alex." She mumbled it to herself determinedly. "His name
is Alex. Not Krycek, not Rat Bastard, not Lying Scumbag,
not Soulless Slime, not..." She shook her head, having lost
it already, and began again. "Alex. Al-lex. Alex..."
Settling down on her pillow, she blew out the candle.
"Alex." Mulder breathed the name into Krycek's warm mouth,
following it with his tongue. "Oh, God, Alex, I love you so
damn much."
"Me, too, Fox. Love you, I mean." It was said with a little
chuckle, and Mulder smiled at him indulgently as Krycek
somewhat shyly eased away. He reached for the cloth and the
water, and began to tenderly bathe Mulder. He was also
checking for damage, though he kept that to himself. They
had used the lubrication and condoms provided, damnation
and thanks be to Scully, but Mulder had been tight, very
tight. Krycek had taken his time, stretching and working at
the muscles until they were lax enough, but he was still
concerned. He wasn't much bigger than average, but he was
pretty thick, and his careful control had slipped a bit at
the end.
"I'm fine, Alex," Mulder said quietly, and Krycek had the
grace to admit what was going on.
"You were really tight, Fox, I just wanted to be sure."
"I know. And I appreciate it, Alex, honest, but you didn't
hurt me. It was good, better than I'd imagined. Wa-was
it...okay?"
Krycek cuddled him close, kissing the broad forehead,
holding Mulder's long lean form tightly to his own. "It was
the best thing I've ever felt in my whole life. But I'm
sure you could tell that. You don't have to fish for
compliments, beloved, I'll give them freely."
"I wasn't fishing, Alex, I just needed to know if it was as
good for you as it was for me."
The phrase and the words before it, combined with the
memory of Mulder's extreme tightness, were enough to set
off alarm bells. Sitting up, Krycek looked down into the
compelling face, seeing uncertainty, and a trace of guilt.
"Fox," Krycek asked gently, seeing the nerves already
starting in Mulder, the teeth already in full possession of
his bottom lip, "was that your first time? Were you a
virgin?"
"Yes." Mulder released the lip only long enough to whisper
out the answer.
Krycek closed his eyes, fighting the admittedly conflicted
feelings bombarding him. His breath seemed stuck in his
chest, and he opened his mouth to speak but then closed it
again, unable to find the words for what he felt.
"Please don't be mad at me, Alex."
Mulder's plaintive words broke his stillness, and Krycek
hastened to reassure. "Shhh, no, no, Fox. I'm not mad,
love, how could I be? Overwhelmed completely by who and
what you are, what you've given me so freely? Yes. Mad,
no." Krycek kissed him enough to reassure him, then resumed
the gentle interrogation. "But why didn't you tell me? I
could have hurt you."
"I was afraid you'd stop. That you'd worry I'd given in
because of impaired judgement or something. Or worse, that
you'd second guess yourself, and refuse, that you'd let
your guilt about the past deny us this part of the future."
It was Krycek's turn to acknowledge the truth. That was one
of the things that he'd felt, guilt that he'd taken yet
another part of Mulder's innocence, tarnished another part
of his soul. It wasn't true, not like that, he knew it, and
Krycek knew that the smoke had worn off long ago. Mulder
had made his choice while in full control of his faculties.
"Fair enough, but if you'd told me, we wouldn't have had to
stop. There was another option."
"I could have taken you, I know that. But it wasn't what I
wanted, Alex, what I needed. I've made love to people
before, I know what that's like. I've never been made love
to, and that's what I had to have from you. Besides, don't
you think you've given me enough? You've taken so much for
my sake, Alex. I wanted to give something back."
This was said with a guileless earnestness that made Krycek
blink rapidly. "Dammit, Fox, if you make me cry again, I'll
spank you."
Mulder grinned, relieved and reassured by the mock threat.
He pulled Krycek's head down onto his chest, and carefully
drew the covers up over them. It was late, and he was
exhausted. "Hmmm. Maybe tomorrow. I'm too tired for any
more new sexual adventures."
"Somehow, I knew you'd be kinky. But, sleep sounds good.
Popping your cherry wore me out." Krycek smiled against
Mulder's chest as he felt the snort of amusement before he
heard it. A light whap to the back of his head was soon
followed by a kiss to the top of it.
"Jerk."
"Yeah, but I'm your jerk."
"Yes. And I'm yours. Rest, Alex. We're together, and we're
safe. We've even got an armed guard. Nobody's going to
bother us tonight."
"Point taken. Goodnight, beloved."
"Good night, angel."
Mulder felt the mouth curve against him again, and Krycek
snuggled that much closer, before they were both falling
deeply into the best sleep they'd ever known.
When Krycek opened his eyes, it was early morning. Given
his choice, Krycek preferred to wake up in the near dawn,
feeling the quiet as a balm to nerves usually stretched
tight from the night before. This morning, the soft peach
light seemed to heighten his emotions, rather than calm
them. There seemed to be a stillness, and extra weight to
the air, welcome, but unusual.
Of course, he thought with a quiet rue, that might be
because he was waking up with Fox Mulder, the man naked and
wrapped around his body like a silken duvet. Krycek used
the pale light to look down at the handsome face, seeing it
for the first time ever, in natural repose.
Younger, Krycek noticed that Mulder looked much younger
this way, the lines of stress and worry fading, replaced by
a false, if attractive calm. The body was lean and long,
the hardship of their existence having sculpted a
greyhound's grace out of the strength. The hair was mussed,
as always, and the mouth still, as it never was. He looked
beautiful, and Krycek refused to change the word out of
deference to gender. Mulder was beautiful, handsome somehow
just didn't fit.
Knowing he didn't have much time, Krycek began to whisper,
so softly he could barely hear himself. It might have been
a prayer, might have been a plea, was more likely a
confession.
"I don't know what today will bring. You may wake up and
hate me, you may want to forget yesterday ever happened.
You may be ashamed. That's okay, beloved. This is your
heart, your soul, you protect it however you need to. I've
had one night, I've heard you say the words, felt you touch
me with care. You gave yourself to me, willingly gave me
everything you had, all that you were. If it never happens
again, it's enough. I'll follow your lead, Fox, I always
have. I won't ask for anything, don't want promises. I
don't believe in forever or happily ever after. But I do
love you, Fox, always have, and I always will. It's okay
now. It's all okay now."
Brushing a kiss over the broad forehead across from him,
Krycek watched the eyelids flutter. Fighting the urge to
school his features to neutrality, resisting the desperate
need to pull away, Krycek offered a small shy smile to
Mulder's blinking hazel eyes.
"I love you." Mulder's voice was husky with sleep and
smoke, thick with fog, but utterly sincere. He smiled back
at Krycek, noting the faint shiver that ran through the
compact body in his arms. "You were lying there, wondering
how I was gonna play today, right? Well, that's how. I love
you, you love me, yesterday was real and I'm glad. Okay,
angel?"
Never a morning person, Mulder delivered this in a near
monotone, even yawning half-way through it, but his eyes
were warm and peaceful as he idly stroked the skin under
his palms.
"Okay." Krycek managed to get the word out, and with a
satisfied nod and another yawn, Mulder pressed a somewhat
clumsy kiss to his mouth, rolled over, and went back to
sleep.
Krycek lay there for a long moment, grinning at the
ceiling. Romantic declarations and flowery phrases, he
neither needed nor trusted. The plain facts told in
passing, now that, Krycek could believe. Feeling happier
than he could remember, Krycek kissed the back of Mulder's
neck and tucked him in, before slipping out of the bedroll.
He saw to his personal needs, and then checked the view out
of the slits. Scully was on guard, and Krycek made a small
hissing noise, careful to pitch the sound out, and away
from Mulder.
She looked around, a good soldier despite her reluctance,
and he motioned her close. She squared her shoulders, and
moved to stand in front of the small rectangle.
Krycek saw the nerves under her steel facade, and while he
knew he'd never be anything but grateful, it wouldn't do to
let her know that just yet. Keeping his face passive and
voice neutral, he whispered, "I want coffee for him. I'm
willing to trade."
Scully thought a minute, gauging how valuable it would be,
and relieved that Krycek was ignoring her duplicity, for
the moment. "The same two hours off for me and Doggett."
Two hours off wasn't much, but he'd be pulling two of his
top people at the same shift, and so it was a definite
price.
Krycek reviewed the schedule in his mind, finding a near
blank spot. "About a week and a half from now."
"Deal."
"Deal." He nodded and turned to leave, only just realizing
that he was naked. He didn't care much, Krycek had almost
no inhibitions, but he realized that if he and Mulder were
now together, he'd have to start being considerate of
Scully.
He moved to the water bucket, washing off quickly and
efficiently, and saw that fresh clothes had been sent in,
sometime while he was asleep. Krycek had given in to
Mulder's urging, and had slept so deeply that he hadn't
heard the tray rattle. A flicker of unease went through
him, but it was chased with a feeling of relief. He'd
slept, slept deeply, and it had been okay.
Shaking his head at himself, Krycek quickly dressed in the
clothing provided. Instead of camis, each man had been left
a pair of blue jeans and a plain black tee shirt. It was
the only other clothing most people had, and so he wasn't
surprised to find it waiting for him. Once dressed, he
finger combed his hair, and noticed the sound of footsteps
approaching.
Scully sent the hot tin through on the food tray, along
with another cup. He stood, looking out the slit.
"Two cups?"
"I have a few sources."
"We only bargained for one. What's the new ante?"
"Permission to call you Alex. And for you to call me Dana."
If she'd suddenly sprouted a third eye in the center of her
forehead, she couldn't have taken him more off guard. He
studied her for a long moment, then recalled the reason he
was dressed. She knew.
"Granted, to both." She nodded and started to walk away.
"Dana?"
The name sounded odd coming from him, but she turned back.
"Yes, Alex?"
"Turn off the damn camera."
She blushed scarlet, but offered neither apology nor
explanation. "We already did. As soon as you started to
make love, we shut it off. It hasn't been on since, and
there was no audio."
"Fair enough." And it was, he could understand that they'd
needed to have some safety net. With his hurt that his
first time with Mulder had been witnessed assuaged, Krycek
relaxed, and let it go. They hadn't seen or heard anything
really, and they were justified.
Scully didn't try to hide her relief this time, and she
left eagerly.
"Is that coffee?" An only slightly sleepy voice emerged
from the bedroll, and Krycek turned in time to see his new
lover stretch with abandon.
"Yep. For both of us." Krycek filled both cups, and brought
them over carefully. Settling down on the bedroll by
Mulder, Krycek took a cautious sip. "Oh gods, I miss
coffee. There's nothing like it, nothing." Krycek inhaled
deeply. This was weak, and he could tell it was instant to
boot, but it was the first cup of real coffee he'd had in
nearly three months.
Mulder sipped at his, echoing the sentiment. "I know, I've
boiled damn near everything I can think of, but it's just
not the same." Another appreciative sip, and Mulder spoke
softly. "Was this an apology or did you trade for it?"
"I traded."
"Thank you. It's like that last thing I needed to make this
morning perfect."
"P-perfect?" There was a world of curious insecurity in the
tone, and Mulder nodded over the rim of his cup.
"Yep. On a scale of one to ten, ten being the best morning
of my life, and one being the worst, then I have to give
this morning a definite 15. Know why?"
"Why?" Krycek was staring at him, entranced by the sight of
Mulder teasing him, as opposed to taunting him.
"Because I slept last night, really slept. Because I have
nothing to do today. Because my body still feels like it
was made love to. But mostly, because I woke up in your
arms, with you loving me. That's why." Mulder grinned,
taking another sip, suddenly shy. "Well, and the coffee.
That's what really put it over the top, having coffee."
"Of course." Krycek, recovered now and appreciating the
softness to his new lover's eyes, put his cup down, moving
closer to Mulder. He ran a hand through the tousled hair,
trailed it down the back of Mulder's neck, and back up to
cup his face. "I love you, Fox. I'm not going to say it
often, probably, because I'm scared to fucking death of the
words. I've never had a relationship in my life, not a
personal one, and I have no clue how to act like a part of
a couple. I won't make you promises and I won't accept
yours. I'm cynical and paranoid, and while I don't know for
sure, I'm willing to bet I'm going to be jealous as all
hell, and I don't do apologies. But I love you, I'll try to
never hurt you on purpose and I'm willing to give it
everything I've got."
Mulder, eyes huge at the suddenly serious turn to the
morning talk, knew that Krycek had never been more serious
about anything in his entire life. It was a solemn vow,
despite Krycek's aversion to outright promises, and Mulder
accepted it as such, meeting the continued honesty head on.
"I know. I love you, too, and I'm probably going to say it
all the time, because I'm a talk kind of guy. You don't
have to take my promises, Alex, probably shouldn't, but I'm
going to make them, lots of them, some I have no hope in
hell of keeping. I'm manipulative and selfish, and I'll try
to play on our relationship if you let me. I've never had a
serious relationship either, I'm just as clueless about how
to be a couple, and I know I'm the jealous type. But I do
love you, Alex, and while I know I'm going to hurt you,
I'll mean it when I apologize. And I'm going to give this
everything I've got, too. I love you."
Krycek nodded somberly, and then began to grin. "Don't tell
anybody, but I think this is going to work."
Mulder, a matching acceptance of the situation on his own
face, relaxed. "Yeah. I think it is. But rest assured, your
secret is safe with me. And now that we're married, and our
coffee's cold, why don't you take off those clothes, and we
can start the honeymoon?"
Krycek laughed out loud, the sound rich and full, echoing
off the metal walls, and pounced.
When breakfast was brought later, it was ignored, but
Mulder did hide his face in Krycek's neck as he saw
Skinner's head for a brief moment through the slot. Knowing
it was just a bit of modesty on Mulder's part and not shame
for the fact that they were making love, Krycek said
nothing, only wrapped his legs more tightly around Mulder's
waist.
Later, as they lay eating the cold flatbread and cheese,
drinking the fresh water, Mulder sighed.
"That wasn't a contented sigh. What's wrong?"
"We're not fighting."
"You want to fight?" Krycek asked it carefully, and Mulder
kissed him, shaking his head.
"No, of course not. I only meant that they locked us up in
here to get us to quit fighting. It worked, which means
they'll probably let us go soon. I just - I don't want to
leave yet. I want to stay in here with you, just a little
bit longer. Out there, I have to share you, we both have to
work, and we have to face some of the issues that we always
fought about. I'm not ready for that yet. I'm scared, Alex,
scared of going out there and losing this, losing us."
Taking Mulder into his arms, Krycek held tight. "I know. I
was thinking the same thing. It's going to be tough, Fox,
we both have roles to play, and sometimes they clash. I'm
the hard-liner, you're the optimist. That's good, it's part
of our strength, it gives the whole thing balance. But it's
going to be a tightrope walk, a leisurely stroll through a
mine field, no doubt about it."
"Alex?"
"Yeah?"
"Should...should we try to talk some of it out now? I hate
to spoil the mood, and I'd enjoy nothing more than to just
spend the time we have left making love, but it might be
better to try to work some of this shit out before we have
to face the others with it."
"Yeah. You're right. I don't want you to be, but you are."
Sighing, Krycek turned to Mulder, finding his mouth and
kissing him with great deliberation. When he finished, he
sat up, popped Mulder lightly on his naked backside, and
reached for their clothes. "C'mon. Let's get dressed and
get this over with."
Mulder, deciding that he'd found the little slap both
pleasant and intriguing, took his clothing and was soon
dressed. Meanwhile, Krycek had gone to the window by the
tent flap. Doggett was back up on duty, and Krycek called
him quietly.
"Doggett!" The man approached him warily, but without
hesitation.
"Yes, sir?" Doggett, too long in the military, police and
FBI always called him sir, the reasoning being that Krycek
was in charge, that made him Doggett's superior and
therefore, the title. It would have bothered Krycek more,
but Doggett called Mulder and Skinner both that, too, when
on duty, and Scully was "ma'am", to her consternation.
Doggett had simply come into this as a soldier, and that's
how he acted.
"Listen, Fox and I have some things to discuss. It might
get loud, it might get ugly, but we're going to try and
work them out once and for all. There's no danger of it
going physical anymore, but all other bets are off. Fair
warning. Don't disturb us, not for meals, not for anything,
until it's quiet again, sustained quiet, and then find a
way to knock first. Understood?"
"Understood, sir."
"Carry on." Doggett moved back to his guard position at
once, and Krycek took up a spot opposite Mulder, both men
visibly gearing up for the battle to come.
"I love you." Mulder had to offer it once more before they
started, too insecure not to. Krycek reassured him with a
blistering kiss, then stepped away deliberately.
"Okay, where do we start?"
"Finding victims." It was their biggest bone of contention,
the thing they fought over 99.99% of the time.
"Let's dance." Krycek began, stating again his no-rescue
policy and the reasons why. Mulder rebutted with his full
rescue plan and reasons why.
Twenty minutes later the noise level in the small space was
appalling, and Scully was running up, looking at Doggett
worriedly. To her surprise, he stepped in front of her,
blocking her way.
"No, ma'am, they left word that they weren't to be
disturbed."
Seeing her puzzled frown, he explained hastily.
"Makes sense." She felt herself flush as she heard the
latest remark fly through the air, Mulder the intended
target. His reply was equally vitriolic, and she sighed.
"Okay. Call me if you need me, or if they change their mind
and draw blood."
"Nah. They'll just fuck again if things get that wound."
Doggett was just thinking out loud, and blushed scarlet as
he realized what he'd said. Scully, trying very hard to
both pretend she wasn't laughing and that Doggett wasn't
blushing, realized that he was probably right.
"Um, while I've got you alone for a moment...I've arranged
for us to have some time off together. Two hours, in about
a week and a half."
"What'd you trade?"
"The last of the coffee."
"Worth it?"
"I'll let you know." With a wink at his tease, Scully
turned and left, doing her best to slink in army boots. She
was fairly successful, and Doggett began to wonder where he
could score some more coffee.
An hour later, Krycek wearily asked, "So, we're agreed,
then? If the victims appear relatively healthy and capable
of making it out with the team, unassisted, or there is a
child small enough to be carried, and we can make the save
in less than three minutes, we do it. Otherwise, we leave
them be, and grant them a merciful death. That's the rule,
for operations of 15 minutes or less. If it's 30 minutes or
longer, a no-pressure situation, we save all those that
look unaffected, with the understanding that any future
positives will be humanely euthanized. For operations
between 15 and 30 minutes, we take a case by case
examination, with the understanding that we'll always try
to save the children. Beyond that, I make the final
decision. These rules will go into the camp laws, and will
be announced as such."
"We're agreed." Krycek held out his hand, and Mulder shook
it.
"Thank God!" Both men turned the handshake into a hug,
collapsing onto the mat and just holding close.
"That was sooo not fun," Mulder whined lightly, but Krycek
had to agree.
"I know, baby. But it's over now, we don't have to have
that fight again for a while." Krycek wasn't naive enough
to think it was finished for good.
"Did you call me baby?"
"Yeah. If you don't like it, I don't have to."
"No. I like it. Can I call you baby?"
"You can call me whatever the hell you like, except
Krycek."
"That really hurts you, doesn't it, when I use your last
name like that." Mulder reached up, caressing the arch of
one well shaped brow with a fingertip. Krycek closed his
eyes and sighed, snuggling closer into Mulder's arms.
"I hate it."
"I'll try to remember." Mulder, finished talking, moved on
to expressing himself non-verbally. They'd just gotten out
of their shirts, and made a good start on the pants, when a
metallic clang reached them.
"What was that?" Mulder, rolling off of Krycek and re-
fastening his pants, looked confused.
"Doggett. Knocking." Krycek straightened his own clothes,
and moved to the slit. Sure enough, Doggett stood by the
tent pole, having banged it with the butt of his rifle.
"Yes?"
"Sir, we'd like to go ahead and bring lunch out. It's a
cold one today, and they're afraid of spoilage."
"Sure, we're done. Thanks for the knock."
"No problem, sir." Doggett nodded to someone, took a tray
and moved to the food slot. "Step away from the wall,
please, sir." Doggett was well-trained, and nearly as
habitually paranoid as Krycek. It made him a valuable
asset.
Krycek obediently stepped back, though they knew from
experience that the food slot was nearly impossible to gain
an advantage from. Doggett put the food down, added the
joint, and sent it in.
"Enjoy." He started to walk away, when Mulder called him
back.
"John, can you tell me how much longer we have, in here?"
"I believe you're paid up until 2200 hours, tomorrow
night." A hint of a smile played across the craggy
features, as he took in the relaxation on both men's faces.
Mulder, especially, had been stretched wire thin when they
went in.
"Ten pm? Cool." Mulder slid his arms around Krycek, then
froze as he realized he wasn't sure what Krycek thought
about public displays of affection. He was very relieved
when Krycek simply returned the embrace, adding a brief
kiss to the worried mouth.
"Something else to discuss, but after dinner."
"Sounds good. Thanks, John."
"You're welcome. Call if you need anything."
Alone again, Mulder reached down to pick up the food tray,
noticing the joint. "Looks like they want to keep us
feeling happy." He held it up, and Krycek laughed.
"I guess they couldn't find a nice wine to go with lunch,
and decided some premium weed would work just as well. What
is for lunch, anyway?"
"Looks like they've found a rabbit warren." Peering over
Mulder's shoulder, Krycek saw what he meant. It was a
salad, an actual salad, and if most of the greens were
wild, that was no problem. There was a trace of cold
chopped ham, no doubt the ingredient they were worried
about.
"Is that actual dressing?" Krycek pointed to a small
plastic cup full of pale yellow liquid. Sniffing it, he
picked out sunflower oil and cider vinegar. "I'm assuming
those little flecks are herbs."
Deciding that anything fresh was good, they sat down with
their bowl and forks, pouring a little of the dressing over
and tossing it gently. "Hey, a tomato slice!" Mulder was
impressed. He wasn't very fond of tomatoes, but it was
still something different. He carefully cut it in half, and
offered a part out to Krycek.
"Feeding me?" Krycek teased it, even as he took the bite,
savoring the burst of real flavor.
"Would you let me?" Mulder sounded vaguely serious, and
Krycek gave it honest thought.
"Sure, if you wanted. Why not?"
"You don't seem the type that lets other people take care
of him."
"Nobody's ever wanted to before." It was said baldly,
without a trace of self-pity, simply an honest assessment.
"What about you? If I try feeding you, will I lose
fingers?"
"Nope. In fact, truth be told, I like being taken care of.
I didn't know it, not until I got sick around Scully for
the first time. I mentioned having the flu and she did the
whole doctor bit, no surprise. But then later, she shows up
at my apartment with chicken soup and juice and a really
bad sci-fi movie. She made me a bed on the couch, helped me
get a shower, and fed me. After Samantha, my mother never
really wanted to be a mom again. I couldn't blame her, and
I was old enough, it was okay. We had someone to clean and
cook, I didn't do without, but there wasn't much in the way
of nurturing after that."
"I'm sorry, Fox."
"It's okay. But thank you." They lapsed into a comfortable
silence until they'd finished eating. A quick wash, and
when Krycek put the food tray out, he added the water
bucket. It was taken quietly, and once brought back, they
settled down on the bedroll, just casually reclining
together.
"Fox? If you're ready, we should talk some more."
"About what?"
"Which of us is actually in charge, and of what parts."
"Oh, shit," Mulder grumped, but his tone spoke of
agreement. "I don't suppose we can get stoned first?"
"Nope, better not."
"Damn. Okay, but I'm lying right here while we do it. I'm
full and I don't want to move."
"Ditto. Alright, weaponry."
"You. Internment, me."
"Unless it's a prisoner, then me."
"Unless it's a delicate case, then me." Mulder countered it
with emphasis, and Krycek turned his head on the pillow to
look at him.
"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" And they were off
and running, verbally settling another score.
By the end of the afternoon, they'd called Doggett to bring
them some paper, and had set out the new rules and the new
parameters of each other's jobs and areas. It had been a
long hard fight, but most of the worst of the issues were
now put to rest, at least, semi-permanently. It was a good
thing they'd decided to hash it out while still locked up.
More than once one of them had shot up, ready to storm off,
only to realize they couldn't get out of talking about it
this time. Now, with a sigh of relief, Krycek began to
light a candle for evening.
"Okay, we're done. It's evening, dinner will be here soon,
and we have the whole night, just to play."
"Umm, I like the idea of playing with you, Alex."
"I'll just bet you do." They spent a few minutes making
out, not really starting anything, they knew there wasn't
time before the meal, just reconnecting after the strain of
the peace talks, as Mulder was referring to them. A knock
on the tent pole, Doggett apparently having passed along
the instructions, and Mulder looked out to see Skinner
holding a tray in one hand and a small case in the other.
"Feeding time at the zoo, Mulder. You guys ready?" It was
offered gently, and Mulder graced him with a smile.
"Sure. Bring it on."
Mulder stepped back, knowing Skinner would wait until he'd
done so. The meal and case were pushed through, and Mulder
picked up the vinyl square curiously.
"What's this?"
"A reward for good behavior." Skinner waved goodbye, and
Mulder took the case over to the bed roll, opening it in
front of Krycek. It was a chess set. Both Mulder and Krycek
were chess fiends. In the beginning, they'd played numerous
games against each other, but as the fighting had gotten
worse, the games had stopped, all pleasure stripped from
them by the awareness of the real chess match being waged
against each other. They'd missed it, missed playing each
other.
"That's cool."
"You have some good friends, Fox."
"Thank you, Alex, but they're our friends. Scully drugged
your happy ass the same as mine, remember?" Krycek chuckled
at having his own words thrown back at him, in this
connotation.
"Yeah, yeah. So, what's dinner?"
"I'm not sure." Mulder was eyeing it oddly, and he brought
it over, showing it to Krycek. A careful visual
examination, a thorough sniff, and a hesitant cut through
the middle, none of it helped.
"I have no fucking idea what this is supposed to be. I
don't even know if it's animal, vegetable or mineral. Those
green things used to be green beans, I think, but this big
brown blob...you got me. No clue."
"I could ask?" Mulder offered it reluctantly.
"No. If I have to eat it anyway, and I can't identify it
without playing Blue's Clues, it's best to just choke it
down in ignorance."
"Good plan."
They each took a fearful bite. It turned out to be mostly
bland, vaguely meat flavored and roughly the consistency of
meatloaf made with too many fillers and mixed with mashed
potatoes. They hurriedly choked it down, Krycek looking
reprovingly at Mulder until he caught up on the number of
bites. A large swallow of water, and Mulder was all but
throwing the tray onto the slot.
"That was gross."
"Agreed. I've had worse, but not much." Shuddering, Krycek
made a face.
"You're cute when you're six."
"Like you could ever talk. Now, we've been good, we talked,
we worked damn hard and we ate the mystery entree. I say we
smoke that joint, play a nice long game of chess, then you
let me suck your cock until you scream. What do you say,
Fox?"
"Uh..." Mulder, taken off guard by the final stage of the
plan, could only nod stupidly, eyes fixed firmly on
Krycek's mouth.
When Krycek gave a slow lip lick, Mulder snapped, leaping
across and on top of his lover, being sure to land
carefully. He licked, sucked and nibbled on Krycek's mouth
until the man was groaning out loud, hands reaching for
Mulder's fly.
"Fuck steps one and two."
"Amen." Mulder supported Krycek fully in his efforts,
rolling over long enough to drag the jeans down.
In a flash, Krycek's mouth was on him, hot and wet and
lovingly demanding.
Later, as they lay sated, Krycek reached across Mulder's
still nude form. Picking up the joint and the lighter, he
ignored Mulder's hands roaming his back and rear. Or tried
to. When long fingers skated across ribs, he jerked, not
quite controlling the reaction.
"Alex? Are you ticklish?" Mulder's voice held delight and
Krycek squelched his instinctive denial.
"Yes. Extremely." Mulder paused, looking at him with such
an odd expression that Krycek sat up. "What? What's wrong,
baby?"
Mulder had sat up, too, and now he smiled, reaching out to
place a kiss on the worried mouth. "Nothing, angel. I just
didn't expect you to admit it. Revealing a weakness, all
that."
"Fox, you already know my biggest weakness, you goof. If I
can admit I love you, then there's nothing left to hide."
"Am I a weakness?" There was something in the way Mulder
asked it that let Krycek know he was being serious. Biting
his lip, Krycek prepared to hurt his lover.
"You're a liability. A vulnerable spot. When we get out of
here, people will know they can use you to get to me. But I
don't consider you a weakness." Krycek cringed, saying it
so coldly to Mulder, but he wouldn't lie.
Mulder was staring at the floor, a small, slightly sad
smile on his face. After a couple of heartbeats, he began
to grin. "That's my Alex. You always tell me the truth, no
matter how hard. Have I ever thanked you for that, Alex?
For taking the shit? Being the bad guy?"
"Shut up and kiss me." Krycek's voice was husky, thick, and
Mulder happily gave in.
Krycek motioned to the chessboard, and Mulder set it up
while Krycek lit the joint. Pulling on a pair of jeans and
nothing else, they spent a pleasant afternoon, playing an
easy game, talking and touching. It was the closest thing
to a date they'd ever had, and Krycek made a mental note to
try and arrange time every couple of weeks or so to do
this. He remembered hearing something about couple time on
the radio, while stuck in an airport lounge one time. He'd
check with Scully, see if it was still valid. The thought
made him grin.
"Hey, while you were still sleeping this morning, there was
a truce. I'm now Alex, and your former partner is Dana."
"Making nice with the in-laws?"
"Something like that. Shit, this doesn't mean I have to
call Skinner by his first name, does it?"
Krycek asked it with some genuine alarm, but Mulder didn't
answer him beyond a laugh.
They had roached the joint, and now, as night fell in
earnest, Mulder lit it back up. He looked good stoned. Oh,
not the red eyes, but the relaxation suited him. Krycek had
always thought Mulder was handsome, but now, seeing him
content, quiet and calm, all easy smiles and open looks,
the man had never looked better. As the drug kicked in,
Krycek was aware of being suddenly caught up in a romantic
fancy.
"I'm stoned. I must be. There's no other explanation for
why I suddenly feel the urge to..."
Embarrassed, Krycek trailed off.
"What urge? It's okay, you can tell me."
"I want to dance with you, Fox. I want to hold you, and
slow dance right here, right now." Krycek was looking at
Mulder with that dreamy romance in his eyes, and Mulder was
completely enchanted.
"I'd love to dance with you, Alex."
"We don't have any music."
"We'll make our own if we have to. C'mon."
Standing up, Mulder held his hand out to Krycek, helping
him to his feet. He paused them long enough to light
another candle, not caring about the waste. As he stood by
the wall, waiting, Mulder noticed that Skinner was still
watching them.
"Hey, Walter?" Skinner approached cautiously, probably
assuming he was going to be asked to find more lube.
"Yeah?"
"Would you do me a favor? I'll trade for it or whatever."
"Depends. What do you want?"
"Would you sing for us? Just one or two songs. Something
slow, romantic?" Mulder felt his face heat just a touch as
he asked it, but he'd heard Skinner's very pleasant voice
before, singing around the fire.
"Sure." Stepping back, so that he wasn't looking inside the
cell, Skinner cleared his throat and then began humming,
setting the tune.
Inside, Mulder turned to Krycek, almost shyly taking the
outstretched hand. Krycek didn't have much experience
dancing, but he could hold his own, and now he settled
Mulder into his arms, and began to lead them around the
small space.
"Love me tender
love me sweet
never
let me go.
You have made
my life complete
and I
love you so..."
It was perfect, Skinner's rich voice and the classically
simple words and melody ideally suited. Swaying back and
forth in the candlelight, feeling each other's heartbeat,
both men knew that no matter what happened in the future,
they'd never forget this night.
Skinner sang them two more, before bidding them goodnight.
He didn't expect an answer back, knew that they were too
lost in each other, too busy trying to take as much as they
could, store up the laughter and a few sweet memories,
before the doors were unlocked, and reality tried to crush
them. Skinner silently wished them good luck, and moved
back to his post.
They made love slowly, almost reverently, Mulder lying back
on the bedroll, naked emotionally as well as physically. He
held out his arms, legs parted, eyes and mouth beckoning to
Krycek, with hopeful need, all his hunger and insecurity
and newly found sexuality offered up with an honesty that
stole Krycek's breath.
Krycek tried his best to give it all back, to show Mulder
the awe, the bitterly sweet yearning, the complete
conviction of his love. He made each movement a prayer, and
when Mulder's body opened to him, Krycek had to say it,
too, the last words he'd fought against, had held back.
"I love you, Fox. Only you, always you. I'm yours. Forever.
I promise."
Mulder, knowing what it took for Krycek to say that, to
make him a promise of eternity, matched the honesty the
best way he could, by remaining silent. No words to mar it,
nothing to take back or deny later. Just the bravery of his
silence. The vows complete, they began to move.
The next morning, breakfast arrived while they were both
still asleep. Scully looked in, surprised when Krycek
didn't stir, only continued to sleep with Mulder held
tightly in his arms. She paused, then held back the joint,
taking it off the tray. Let them have today straight, she
wouldn't let them use the mild drug to explain away or
excuse.
She hoped again that they'd be able to make it once the
doors were unlocked. She knew that what had happened in
that steel cube had changed everything, and while it seemed
to be for the best, there was a part of her doctor's brain
that was reminding her what could happen when humans
decided to play gods.
It was the sound of the camp that finally roused them. It
was late morning, later than either of them ever slept, and
it had been wonderful sleep. Neither one of them could
remember the last time they'd had two decent nights sleep
in a row, and this had been much more than decent.
As they saw to their morning needs, and prepared to eat
their usual cold breakfast, Mulder asked the question he'd
been wondering since the previous morning.
"Alex? When we get out of here, can we move in together?"
"Of course. If you want to."
"I want to, I just didn't know if you wanted to. I-I was
wondering about a couple of things, actually."
"So, today's topic is how do Fox and Alex start to think
outside the box?"
Mulder snorted, nodding.
"Sure, baby. We can talk right after we have breakfast, and
you make love to me. Okay?"
"Okay." Mulder's look of delight intensified, when Krycek
began feeding him bites of the cold rice and canned fruit.
"You're going to be spoiled soon, aren't you?"
"Probably. Scully always said I got spoiled easily. It's
true. I can be a real brat, fair warning."
Krycek cuddled him close, kissing the peach flavored lips.
"I'm not worried. You get too out of hand and I'll just put
you over my knee."
He was teasing, but Mulder looked up at him quickly, face
flushed, teeth sunk in that bottom lip. Krycek was just
about to make sure Mulder knew he was kidding, when the lip
curved into a devilish smile.
"That sounds good."
"I knew you'd be kinky."
"You said that already."
"I was right. Besides, I never said I minded." With a grin,
Krycek turned back to breakfast.
They talked until nearly time for the noon meal, figuring
out just how out they were going to be, how public was too
public and how they were to combine their tents, and still
give each other the space they knew they'd need.
"We're both loners, Alex. We can't be in each other's hip
pockets, we'll go nuts. We need a safe area, a time when we
can be alone."
"Well, how about if we do that with the scheduling? You
know, a couple of hours off before the other person gets
back, some days with one of us off, the other on? And we
can keep separate tents, if we want. Rank should have a
couple of privileges. What if we take one of the big tents,
and keep the two small ones we already have? A you space, a
me space and an our space?"
"It doesn't seem fair."
"Sure it is. We always give married couples a big tent."
Krycek turned away as he said it, busying himself with
trimming the candles, but Mulder understood. He said
nothing else about it, only put the water bucket out to be
refilled.
The afternoon passed gently, just cuddling and talking.
They played another game of chess, this time genuinely
trying to win. It went to a draw, to their satisfaction,
and the post-game handshake turned into a caress.
It was the way the day went. At nine o'clock, there was a
knock on the tent pole.
"Mulder, Alex? It's nine o'clock. We'll be back in an hour
to let you out." Scully had thought it best to give them a
warning. She was increasingly nervous about what would
happen once they were out, and some of that came through in
her voice.
"She's scared. She thinks I'm going to kick her ass for
drugging me and locking me up." Krycek murmured it
absently, more or less thinking out loud.
"Are you?" Mulder asked it hesitantly. He hated it, but he
honestly wasn't sure of the answer.
"Of course not. I'm fucking grateful to her. But she
doesn't need to know that yet." He smirked, and Mulder
chuckled, reaching out and slapping Krycek on his backside.
"I can see I'm not the only brat."
"I am not a brat. I'm an evil wrong doer, a ruthless
assassin, a hardened criminal." Krycek offered this with
great indignation, and Mulder shook his head, rolling his
eyes.
"Of course, how silly of me. My sincerest apologies."
"That's more like it." Mollified, Krycek deigned to kiss
him. A second later, he heard the breathless whisper.
"Brat."
At ten o'clock, they were dressed, with the chess set
packed, waiting by the door. The bedroll was secured, the
area cleaned. They were holding hands, each reluctant to
leave the cocoon, but ready to face the world again.
Doggett unlocked the panels, and together, he and Skinner
lifted the panel out of the holes, setting the heavy steel
aside. Scully was standing in the opened space, waiting
calmly for whatever happened next.
"Okay. I was the one that drugged you, and this whole plan
was my idea. If you want somebody to blame or to be angry
with, I'm the one. And I'm not sorry, and I don't regret
it. So, give me you best shot, I'm ready."
"Our best shot, huh?"
Mulder spoke evenly, and she nodded. She was faintly
surprised when he spoke to Krycek.
"What do you think, angel, should we give her our best
shot?"
"She took the chance, she knew what she was doing." Krycek
was completely cool and neutral, and now they moved to
stand directly in front of her. She didn't flinch, but the
nervous swallow was easily seen.
And then they leaned down and kissed her, one of them on
each cheek.
Mulder reached out, picking her up and swinging her around
just a bit.
"Thanks, Scully. You always did try to take care of me. I
love you, partner." Scully hugged back for a moment, and
sighed her relief. With another kiss to the top of her
head, Mulder stepped back.
Krycek held out his hand. "Family?"
She looked stunned, actually turned to Mulder to double
check Krycek's sincerity. At his amused nod, she turned
back, and took Krycek's hand.
"Family."
They shook, and then Krycek quickly kissed her lightly on
both cheeks, before stepping back.
"Okay, so what's happened while we were out? Any word on
that facility to the north?" Krycek was all business, and
they habitually fell into line beside him, briefing him as
they walked toward the office tent. It was just like usual,
with the minor exception that he had his arm around Mulder
as they walked.
It proved to be the pattern. They were business as usual,
but with an absence of malice and an abundance of public
displays of affection. If they hadn't cared who saw or
heard them fight before, they cared even less who saw them
being playful or loving now. The entire camp soon learned
to knock before entering the office tent, and even then, to
proceed with caution.
Scully had walked into the main tent with Mulder once, to
find Krycek and about three other men preparing to do some
heavy re-con. Krycek was wearing the black camis, but he
had ripped the shirt sleeves off, and it was unbuttoned
half-way down his chest, before being tucked into his
pants, which were tucked into his heaviest military boots.
He'd tied a scrap of the cami cloth over his head, kerchief
style, and he had black smudges under his eyes, right along
his cheekbones. It was a blistering hot summer day, and
Krycek was sweating already, his AK-47 draped across his
chest.
Mulder had given Krycek the last of the information he'd
been sifting, when he'd trailed off at the end, eyes
beginning to travel up and down his lover.
"...so that's it, and my god, you look incredibly hot."
Krycek, in work mode, but not quite fully, had given an
exasperated grin, shot an arm out and hauled Mulder to him,
kissing him savagely, before shoving the dazed man down
into a chair.
"Not now, baby. Daddy has to work." He had bent down,
nipped Mulder's bottom lip, and with a roguish wink, he was
gone.
Mulder had looked after him, lips flushed, eyes glassy.
"You are pathetically horny for each other, you know that?"
Scully had said it with a sigh, wishing to hell she could
convince Doggett she wouldn't break.
"Oh, yeah! Oh, hell, yeah! Whoo-hoo!!!" Mulder had let his
head fall back, and actually spun the chair once, before
jumping up with a bright laugh. "C'mon, Scully, find me
some work before I follow him and trip him."
It was typical.
And no one cared.
It was a small price to pay for the fact that peace ruled.
The camp was more focused and efficient than ever, and now
there was time for everyone to have a bit of leisure. There
was a chance to scavenge for non-essentials, and if they
had to put up with the sight of their leaders sucking face
to pay for it, they considered it worth the cost.
Sometimes they met up with refugees, a pocket of two or
three people. They were checked over, and then invited to
join. Skinner had been explaining the camp rules to a
couple of men they'd found in a cave, former military. The
men had been eager to join, until they saw Mulder give
Krycek a tonsil check before coming over to them.
"Walter, when you've finished here, meet up with Charlie 2,
they've found some things you might be able to help with."
"Yes, sir." It had become a habit, picked up from Doggett,
and now Skinner routinely called them both sir when on
duty.
"You call him sir?" The refugee, a man not much younger
than Skinner, had looked outraged. "He's a fag! You take
orders from a couple of queers?"
Skinner, pissed off by the man who'd taken their help, but
now would be rude to one of the men that made it possible,
snapped back,
"You listen to me, and you listen good. Those queers are
saving your ass and the asses of everyone else left alive
on this rock. They're the only hope we've got, and I'd
follow either one of them anywhere."
"I suppose you'd salute if they told you to get down on
your knees?"
"Damn right! If they told me I had to spit-shine their
cocks before, during and after each mission, I'd learn to
go way down and open wide." Skinner blushed somewhat,
realizing that Mulder, despite his carefully controlled
face, was going to be getting a lot of mileage out of that
one. He pushed that thought far, far away, and continued.
"And if you can't handle being saved by a couple of fags,
then we'll be very happy to leave you here to die a
miserable, upright death secure in your homo-free cave. But
I warn you, it might not be humans that find you next
time."
With that, Skinner and Mulder had walked off. When they
were out of earshot, Mulder's low whisper reached him
tauntingly. "Spit-shine our cocks before, during..."
Skinner's groan had drowned out the rest of his playback,
but his remarks had become the traditional response to
newcomers with an attitude about Mulder and Krycek. Now
that they were together, they were popular leaders, both of
them having an undeniable charisma, and the ability to
command.
Oh, there were still fights, still times when one or the
other would leave, angry and silent, or when the sound of
their yelling could be heard through half the camp. But
there was always a resolution, always a making up, and the
new laws they'd worked out helped ensure the fights were
few and far between. When Mulder had disobeyed a direct
order from Krycek, there had been no favoritism shown.
Krycek had confined Mulder and confiscated half his
rations. They didn't cheat either, Mulder stayed in his own
tent for three days and nights, leaving only long enough to
use the trench and then go right back. At the end of those
three days, Mulder had run back to their shared tent, where
Krycek was waiting with open arms. They'd made up, made
love and made up for lost time.
They were still very much individuals, but now, there was
the added dimension of being a couple, as well. There was
Fox, there was Alex and then there was Fox and Alex.
Scully, watching as they prepared to blow another facility,
looked at the two men standing face to face. They had been
a force before, but now, nearly a year later, they were
completely unstoppable. And still unapologetically in love
with each other. She grinned as she watched Krycek raise
the detonator remote with one hand, pulling Mulder close
with the other.
"And three, two, one..." The count over, Mulder put the
walkie talkie down just as Krycek kissed him,
simultaneously pushing the button to trigger the
explosions. It was a slow, leisurely exchange of tongues,
backlit by huge sheets of flame and chaos. When Krycek
finally pulled back, Mulder's voice carried easily.
"You only do that so I have to admit that the earth moved."
Krycek threw back his head, laughing hard for just a
moment, before claiming the mouth again, for a second.
"Go co-ordinate with unit three." When Mulder turned to do
so, Krycek drew back and smacked him hard on his cami-
covered backside. Hazel eyes glowed lustily in the
firelight, and Mulder's voice was pure erotic tease, even
as he put a hand back, rubbing at the spanked spot.
"Aw, Daddy!" It was a low pout, and drawled. "No fair
spanking me in front of the other boys. They'll tease me."
"If they tease you, baby, it just means that they want to
play, too."
"Yeah? So, is it okay, if they want to play?"
"Well, that depends on the boy. Did you have somebody in
mind?"
"Not really. There is one boy I've thought about. He's real
nice, Daddy, big and strong. We've been friends for a long
time now, so I know he's a good boy."
At this, Skinner, standing next to Doggett and Scully,
waiting for orders, raised his head with a snap, eyes wary.
Krycek and Mulder, arms around each other, were looking at
him, grinning widely, and with a mix of desire, frank
appreciation and humor in their eyes. It was a deadly,
delicious look, and Skinner swallowed hard.
"Maybe we should ask him over sometime, see if he'd like to
come play. Maybe even have a sleepover. You like that idea,
baby?"
"Sure thing, Daddy."
"Hmm. You be a good boy, and we'll see."
"Yes, Daddy." A final kiss, and both men went their own
ways, each having teams to check in with.
"Oh, shit." It was a horrified mutter, and Skinner didn't
blink until Doggett clapped him on the shoulder.
"Walt, I really hope your door swings that way, 'cause it
looks like you're about to get your hinges oiled."
Chuckling, Doggett and Scully walked away, leaving Skinner
blushing a bright red and not sure if they were kidding or
if he wanted them to be.
As time passed, however, Mulder became aware that something
was bothering Krycek. He wasn't sure what. Nothing in their
lives was radically new or different, and things were going
well on most fronts. Still, he would catch Krycek looking
at him, brows drawn together, obviously thinking about
something very intently. Finally, Mulder couldn't take it
any more.
"Alex, what's wrong? I know something's been on your mind
for a long time now, and you're starting to scare me,
angel. Talk to me, please?"
They were lying on their bedroll, and the tent was dark
with the exception of one lone candle.
"I didn't mean to frighten you. It's nothing bad, Fox,
honest. You're right, I have been thinking about something,
for a long time. I've just been too scared to bring it up.
But now, well, I guess now's as good a time as any. Sit up,
baby."
Mulder did and Krycek followed suit. He took one of
Mulder's hands in his, and spoke softly, as though
terrified of the words.
"I love you. I love what we are, and what we have. But
there's something missing, something not quite right. It
took me a long time to figure out what was wrong, but I
finally did. So, here goes."
Taking a deep breath, Krycek closed his eyes for just a
moment and then looked up at Mulder with utter sincerity.
"Fox William Mulder, I love you. Will you marry me?"
Mulder, whispers of dread and pain having started coiling
around his chest, was stunned stupid, absolutely floored.
"What did you say?"
Krycek swallowed hard, and without blinking, asked him
again. "I said, Fox William Mulder, I love you. Will you
marry me?"
"Yes." There wasn't a touch of doubt in the voice, and
Mulder was smiling so hard his cheeks hurt.
Reaching into a box on the floor beside the bedroll, Krycek
pulled out a small, plain ring. "It isn't much, and I'm not
sure it's the right size. We were going through an
abandoned store, there was a case of them by the door. It's
not gold or even silver, just stainless steel, but it's the
best I could do."
As Krycek spoke, he slid the ring onto Mulder's finger,
relieved to see it was only a touch too big. They could
make a guard, keep it in place easily. Mulder started to
wrap his arms around Krycek, but his lover eased back,
shaking his head.
"Not yet, there's more. Fox, baby, I want us to have a
wedding. I want us to get married in front of the whole
camp, with our friends around us. And...and I want a
preacher or a priest or somebody like that to perform the
ceremony. I want to get dressed up, and exchange vows and
rings. I want it all, Fox, the whole saccharine sham."
"Why?" Mulder was incredulous, this was so far from
everything his lover stood for, it wasn't even in the same
universe, but Krycek was in deadly earnest, and clenching
his hand so tightly it was nearly painful.
"Because...because I believe. You made me believe, Fox. In
promises and apologies, in blue skies and hope. In fucking
living happily ever after. I want to marry you, Fox,
because I believe in you and in us. Because I believe in
love. And I want to respect that. It's sacred, Fox, what we
have, it isn't just sex or need or any of that. It's true
love, and that's how we have to treat it. Not all the time,
but at least once. I want to stand up before God and
everybody, and promise to love you until death us do part."
Mulder traced a tear that was trailing exquisitely down
Krycek's face. "I do."
Krycek searched his face, needing to be sure, then whooped
out loud, and tackled Mulder to the floor.
A week later, as Doggett stood guard, Krycek and Scully
broke into a bridal shop. It was against their usual rules,
pillaging and looting. It was too dangerous, except for
non-essential stuff, and it was simply uncomfortable to be
inside the abandoned lives of these people. For the
wedding, they were making an exception.
"Okay, Alex, what color?" She was scanning through tuxedos
on one wall while he worked on the other side.
"White. For both of us." She dug through the colors,
finally coming to a section of white. "Dana?"
"Yeah?"
"Do you think it's okay? Me, wearing white? I-I don't want
this to be a mockery, I'm serious about it, all of it. Will
it be an a-abomination?"
"No, Alex. I think it's perfect." She saw his grateful
smile even in the dim light of the flashlights, and
returned it, before getting back to her search.
They secured two white tuxedos, and an armful of other
stuff, including a set of heavy gold wedding bands. They
were about to leave, when Krycek stopped her.
"We've got five minutes. Pick yourself a dress, get all the
girl shit you can, and don't forget the underwear.
Doggett's a leg man, there were some stockings over there."
She hesitated just a second, and then flew into action. He
chuckled, and spied a make-up kit full of samplers under a
low shelf. He added it to his haul, and in moments, they
were heading out and away.
On the other side of the former county line, Mulder was
raiding a supermarket, while Skinner stood watch. They came
back loaded with enough powdered goods to make a passable
wedding cake and feast. And a truckload of coffee.
They were married two weeks later.
Krycek and Mulder proudly wore the white. Doggett stood
behind Krycek, Skinner behind Mulder, and Scully was
centered between them, but back. A former priest turned
resistance fighter performed a non-denominational ceremony.
Krycek wept silently through the entire ceremony. From the
moment he and Mulder had joined hands at the make-shift
alter, to the reading of his vows, and the exchange of the
rings, a steady slow stream of tears had tracked his face.
But he was radiantly happy, and his voice was sure and
strong.
Mulder had choked his vows out, his voice failing him every
time he looked at Krycek. But you could light a star from
his eyes, and when the final prayer was spoken, the union
blessed, Mulder let his own tears fall, mingling with those
of his new husband.
They cut the cake. They danced and ate and celebrated their
love and their union. And despite aliens and the end of the
world, they lived happily ever after.
THE END
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Title: Fire Author: Raven Email: raven@aeneas.net Pairing: M/K Author's Notes: No real spoilers that I can think of, just a reference or two to a couple of episodes, in passing. Krycek has two arms, because I said so. [g] Warning: Despite the fact that this is post- war/apocalypse/colonization stuff, it's also mushy! Yep, this is a romance, and schmoop or mush or whatever the correct term is, definitely applies. And it was inspired by a song! No Doubt's "Start the Fire", a loving little ditty about sharing a toke as foreplay. [g] Um, that brings me to the last serious warning, mild recreational drug use mentioned. If you don't approve, then please, don't read. Rating: NC-17 Summary: In every love/hate relationship, there comes a time when you just have to make up your mind. Mulder and Krycek are there, with a little help from their friends. Disclaimer: The characters within these stories belong to Fox, 1013, CC et al. There is no profit made or intended from these stories, and they should be considered as being for entertainment purposes only. |
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